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I love you.

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I'm sorry for hurting you, habeebi. It wasn't my intention. I felt that you might have been getting sick of it, but since ur not, Alhamdulillah.

And it's okay.

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Ninja, I love you. Jazakallahu Khayran. Insha'Allah… ameen thumma ameen. And for you too hunn.

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Rani aint short and ugly, okay she is short, but she aint ugly! And plus, im a shorty, and i'm pimp! Rani is pimp too. hehe

lmao. see how well I accepted it before hobitant (is that what it was called? ) came and made me hairy feet!

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Why is it so freaaaakinnn beauuuutifulll? It just makes you wanna… touch it. lmao.

I think (INSHA'ALLAH! AMEEN! THUMMA AMEEN!) I might get one once the summer is over… Insha'Allah! Ameen! Thumma Ameen!

*dances*

*Insha'Allah ameen thumma ameen*

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I miss you too, crajee buddha! Party? In Honk Kong? Why so freakin far awaaaay!?! Can't we have one right here in the Yaaaay area? Golden Gate bridge! We'll all meet there and from there we'll go to… errm anywhere u wanna go? lol.

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Sheesh! I do not like either choice. I exercise my buddha privilege and change the question. Lmao!

LMAO! Ur awesome! And I love how u say sheeesh! I love that word. lol.

*giggling*

jur a punny vun.

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I don't have wine glasses. If I have paper cups, I usually like my soda in there (), but if not, I find a glass big enough so I can fill it up with the whole can instead of having to refill it. lol. I'm a lazy bum.

Would you rather suck your chocolate or chew it?

hehe.

err…

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AstaghforAllah…

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Gum sum chaandni ho naazni ho
Ya koi hoor ho
Dil nashin ho, dil kashin ho
Ya janat ka noor ho
Masha allah, masha allah, masha allah

Gum sum chaandni ho naazni ho
Ya koi hoor ho
Dil nashin ho, dil kashin ho
Ya janat ka noor ho
Masha allah (allah), masha allah(allah), masha allah (allah…)

Tum sabah ho, ya ghata ho
Khekasha ho saiba ho
Subha ki pehli kiran ke jaise
Beba ke alhade pawan ke jaise
Khusboyein tum lootathi ho
Masti mein chur chur
Masha allah, masha allah, masha allah

Hoohoooohoo
Tum hayaa ho, tum ridha ho
Tum wafa ho, tum nasha ho
Kamoosh nazare, sadoou jaise
Tumhare baathein duwaoou jaise
Har nafas mein tum samaye ho
Phir bhi ho itni door
Masha allah, masha allah, masha allah

Gum sum chaandni ho naazni ho
Ya koi hoor ho
Dil nashin ho, dil kashin ho
Ya janat ka noor ho
Masha allah (allah), masha allah(ohhoohh), masha allah (allah…)

I annoyed 4 friends to get the true translation! They grilled me for a reason…I gave them #78! lmao

awww Nessa! I love this song! And the weird part is that I've been listening to it lately! I even made my sister get the movie so I can see the whole film again and watch the song over and over again on tv instead of on youtube! But duuude, even I don't know the true translation! I know what it means like in general, but a few of the huge Urdu words are confusing! and I don't know the exact translation of those wrods! lol! tell me what it meaaaaans! Or I'll just stop being a lazy bum and search for it online. lmao.

I love you oh so hekka very much!

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Ouch. It's easy to say I want to change, but it's hard to actually do. If it makes you feel any better, I'm trying.

. I know just how much you try. And as Nessa's siggy says… “desire is the starting point…” – And you have that.

I love you…

I love you too, habeebi. And I know you know how much I try, because you see me trying. You're prolly sick of me talking nonsens to you all the time! ! And I love you for caring so much. Jazakallahu Khayran.

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Buddha, Ninja, Nessa – Thank you…

You guys are right. I can only do so much for my friends, and I do what I can. If they don't appreciate it, then it's not my fault. I'm sick and tired of blaming myself for everything. I'm sick and tired of it. I can't take it anymore. I feel like I'm always saying sorry for things that are out of my control!

I'm sick of being ignored. All of my friends have ignored me at one point in time when I opened up to them. If I had something to say, they just brush it off, ignore it, or reply to it hekka weirdly like “oh.” I mean what the heck? If my own friends can't help me get over my stupidity, then who can? All of them have ignored me, except one, and maybe that's why I call her my only hope? And then there is another “pending” one…

I know I have flaws, I know I make mistakes, but for how long, how long, will I keep blaming myself? I'm the only one who ever says it's my fault wholeheartedly. I'm the only one ready to apologize. I'm the only one willing to forgive. I'm the only who tries to be a better friend. I'm the only one who cares enough to talk about it. I'm the only one who wants things the way they were before everything got messed up. I'm the only one all alone.

(Well, I'm not the only one, as in only one, but I'm the only one out of the people I'm thinking about in my head.)

What is wrong with me? I sit here blaming myself for everything that goes wrong and everyone else is sitting there agreeing! Why is everythign my fault? How is everything my fault? It can't be! I try and I try and I try, why don't things get better? Because you can't play tug-of-war with one side pulling the rope, I need someone else to pull on the other end to even things out! No matter how “perfect” I get, things won't get better unless the other side shapes up.

I'm sick and tired of being the punching bag or the secret box or the stress reliever. I'm sick and tired of being the ugly duckling.

My friend… she calls me every time she needs to talk, I listen to her, I advise her, I help her, and that's it. She asks me how I am, I'll say I'm not okay, and she says “oh.” That's it. What thaaa?

I have another friend who comes to me and pours all her secrets into me as if I'm some box and gets the ease she needs from me and returns. Why can't she listen to some of my secrets? Why is it that every time I have something to say to her she runs the other way?

And another friend, who comes to me when she's in a rage, let's it all out on me and then leaves! No sorry, no nothing! Just a lil “thanks. I feel better now” and a giggle and then poof – gone.

Why is it that with all these people I can sit and listen to them for hours and adivise them for hours and care for them for hours and only focus on them for hours and when I ask for just a few minutes in return, suddenly they have some place to go? Or suddenly they have nothing to say but “oh.” (For Allah's sake! OH?!?)

I'm not saying I hate doing this, I love helping my friends, I love to be there for them when they need me, I really do love it. Don't get me wrong, nothing makes me feel better than knowing I've helped ease someone's pain somehow. But what kind of friendship? I don't feel like I'm their friend, I feel like a counselor or a therapist or something. All I'm asking for is a friendship, where I give some and take some. Because it hurts when I'm the only one giving.

And I'm

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Rani – if you think you need to be better, then why don't you?

Ouch. It's easy to say I want to change, but it's hard to actually do. If it makes you feel any better, I'm trying.

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*groans*

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Senor Buddha – awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! So sweeet! I went fruit picking with my sis and Aamir and his mom and then later my twin joined in (he was like a monkey! climbing that tree!) And the duuude, he's from the philippines and he was an ollld nice guy. He was all like I'll do it for you guys, I don't want u to get hurt or fall. And we're all worried about him! Cuz he's so old and he's like trying to pick the fruit! And we're all like “be careful…” and he can't even hear us cuz he's so old! lol! He was super nice tho and my sis and I wanted to climb and so we're like “Excuse me” he didn't hear us, we said it like about 5 times! But finally he heard and he's like “you'll fall!” and I'm like “I promise I won't, can I, please?” So he let us and we were going crajee picking the fruit! lol. And then when my twin came later, he got excited and he's like. “come climb!” lmao! Cuz he's a guy and all so he thought he wouldn't fall.

It was so mch fun and I was all thinking about you and imagining you doing this! lmao! Except you'll be all evil and be like “yeah climb! *evil glint in eye*” trying to make us fall!

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I wish I wasn't so shallow…

I wish I could do more for my friends…

I wish I didn't feel like this…

I wish I could care more…

I wish I… I just wish.

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Ninjaaaa daaarliiing, haylie and I wanted to come over yesterday. Iono why she couldn't, but Aamir and his family came over yesterday and spent the night and left just a while ago, so yeah.

ooooh! lol! When we were going to Sunday school yday, my mom was all like in the car, “I miss Ninja, we haven't seen her for so long! Why don't you invite her over? She doesn't have school tomorrow, na? (meaning today)” And I'm all like “I wish she would come!”

I had soooo much fun with Aamir and Aaliyaah (his lil sis – she'll be turning 1 in june insha'Allah we're gonna partaaay! Insha'Allah!) tho! On Saturday we went fruit picking (Our neighbors are from the philippines, they're super nice. they don't like the fruit so they get happy when we go to pick them! =D) and then afterwards I had to wash the car while everyone enjoyed the fruit we picked! but anyhow, I was super sick my stupid throat was killing me and then I got the cough today and stupid runny nose! but anyhow, we went to sun valley mall this morning, it's super nice! lol! and then we had a bar-b-q and then afterwards they had to head home cuz aamir's daddy had to go to work.

But Alhamdulillah, I wish you coulda came! IT woulda been so much fun!

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Oh… My… Allah.

Ninja… habeebi… I'm speechless. I think that is the sweetest song anyone has ever dedicated to me and actually meant it. You don't know how much I needed that right now. How do I ever thank Allah (SWT) for bringing you into my life? If He gave me a hundred lifetimes to do for you what you do for me, those hundred lifetimes would fall short of everything you have done for me.

I love you.

Oh so much.

tislam lee ha tallih…

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Aadaa sa vaada kabhi…
aadein se zyaada kabhi
jee chaahe karlu iss tarha wafa ka
chode na choote kabhi
tode na toote kabhi
jo daaga tumse jud gaya wafa ka…

Tum se hi din hota hai, surmayi shaam aati hai, tum se hi, tum se hi…

Zara si dil mein de jagah tu Give me a bit of space in your heart
Zara sa apna le bana Make me a little bit of yours
Zara sa khawbon mein saja tu Weave me in your dreams a little bit
Zara sa yaadhon mein basa Embed me within your memories a little bit…

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Nessa… thinking of you… again.

Ek Din Fursat Mein Thaamein Haath Hamare
One day, in leisure, taking hold of my hand
Le Gayi Uss Dagar Pe Jahaan Rehti Hai Bahaaren
took me to that place, where spring dwells
Chal Diya Ham Bhi Ghar Se Hoke Kuchh Befikar Se
Even I left home, somewhat carefree
Dil Tha Apne Bharose Ham The Dil Ke Sahaare
My heart trusted me, I was supported my heart [she put her trust in her heart]
Ek Din Fursat Mein Thaamein Haath Hamare
Le Gayi Uss Dagar Pe Jahaan Rehti Hai Bahaaren

Raah Mein Mod Aaya Roshani Ho Gayi Kam – 2
A turn came on the journey where the light dimmed
Kuchh Dil Ghabraya Ke Kahaan Aa Gaye Ham
The heart was scared a little, wondering where we came
Aage Uss Mod Ke Bhi Toh Bahaaren Nahi Thi – 2
There wasn't a spring even beyond that turn
Bhule Kuchh Khwaahishen Aur Khwaab The Bas Hamare
Some desires forgotten and dreams of mine [were on that path]
Ek Din Fursat Mein Thaamein Haath Hamare
Le Gayi Uss Dagar Pe Jahaan Rehti Hai Bahaaren

Bewajah Lag Rahi Thi Jab Talaash Hamari – 2
When my search seemed meaningless
Ek Khushboo Uthi Aur Rutt Badal Gayi Saari
A fragrance arose and the season changed completely
Saamne Tum Khade The paila Ke Baahen – 2
You were standing before me, arms wide open (Will be holding my arms out for you…)
Jaise Har Dard Mera Khud Miloge Samaaye
As if you would yourself embed my every pain within yourself (If I could, I would…)
Pal Bada Mukhtasar Tha Tere Seene Pe Sar Tha
The moment was very brief, my head was on your chest
Yun Laga Marr Na Jaaye Itni Khushiyon Ke Maare
I felt like I may die with so much happiness
Ek Din Fursat Mein Thaamein Haath Hamare
Le Gayi Uss Dagar Pe Jahaan Rehti Hai Bahaaren
Ek Din Fursat Mein Thaamein Haath Hamare
Le Gayi Uss Dagar Pe Jahaan Rehti Hai Bahaaren

http://youtube.com/watch?v=dQlTnxcKSu8

I love how she reminds me of you.

I love you.

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Hello Mukesh. I just wanted to thank you for changing the size of the avatars, it looks great!

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