Why didn’t you give it to him? Why didn’t you celebrate his birthday with him? And as for that b word… what the hell! LOL I thought you meant the RUDE b word when I first read it hahaha… and then I scrolled up and saw it was “boyfriend”… may I ask what exactly about that word annoys you? How exactly does it make you a “bad girl”? Because I hate it to the core, too. But for different reasons, I think.Of course, it makes referring to easier… I do sound a bit weird when I say “my second love” hahaha! But then again, I rarely do… so it works out.
OK now I am talking to myself… lol
Silly computer wouldnt let me reply to this! Hmph! Are you sure! You hate the 'B' word to the CORE too?! Omg , I cant take that word. And I think saying 'second love' is perfectly fine! Or love by it self is fine! Well like I'd say 'jaan' (with 'him' — yes Im getting to like just saying 'him' , like you say ) and with otehrs like my family ..ummm I say my 'friend' (I know this will raise questions)
There are some reasons I cant say it/take it/ hear it.. but I will leave that for next time. Im running off to the library now to study. *hug!!*
Kaise kahoon… lol… I had only known him for a couple of months then so yeah… I don’t know… I don’t have his love any more… so hmm And this post, btw, came at such a timely time… I was missing him so much yesterday… *Hugs Boo – *whispers* It'll be alright. tears just came out again… *wiping tears away* and now you’ve gone and reminded me of ‘him’.
Aw! *tears* Such hard work … made with great love … I just wish he knew how much love he had
Haha! I wish he did too. MY LORD! I just wish you had told him it was HIS!!!!!!!!!!!!! You showed him a picture and still didnt tell him? I still think I am ‘better’ (??) for him than his girlfriend now. But what I think does not matter man… he is happy… that’s enough. Then you must look onto something that makes YOU happy also.
That hurts doesnt it? Does it not? It hurts to the bone.
Nahin ji… it doesn’t hurt at all (I think our situations are slightly different hehe!)… it’s out of choice, anyway. Mine is also out of choice too ! I mean, I didnt want them to know bc I knew what they would think of me but they DID find out and I DID bake the cake in the house with my dad in it .. but I hid it. I don’t really WANT them to know.. my family cos, well, it doesn’t very much concern them… and my friends cos I KNOW I won’t hear the end of the teasing… LOL! Well for me, there really isnt anyone outside of my family to 'tell' soo.. the main focus for me was to get it away from them. The only downside is, no one in my ‘real’ life is there when everything falls apart. Tell me what you mean
GO AHEAD OREO
BURN THE PLACE DOWN
Knock yrself out!
I feel like stretching my bones
Good night didi – love you !
Oh wait – its good morning for you! Im going to bed now. Take care my darling. And remember what I always tell you – it will be alright. And take it easy there. *HUGGGGGGGGGGGGG*
Why did everyone leave me
Princess! Sooo glad to hear your friend's dad is recovering. As for you … I agree – start sleepin' girl ! Good night now…dream of BWL
hehe
Oh god no ! Did I scare you off oh god noooooooooooooooo
diii *come back!!!!!*
Well the bad dude thing goes like this — > Im minding my own business and then there's some BAD DUDE and then he starts harassing me lmao lolz and ahem ummmmmmmm yeah..those stuff like u see inthe movie and then … GOOD GUY COMES … gets rid of the bad guy and beats him up and SAVES MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and then im like ………..Phewwwww .. YOU SAVED ME *stares*
okay gotta use the bathroom reaaaaaaaaal bad lolz brb!!!!!!!
I feel scared too but I cant be. I have to make you stronger! I love you. It will be alright. I promise. Have faith. I love you.
I want to hold you in my arms and comfort you. I need to wipe away your fearful thoughts. I am telling you now that I am here and I will always be and I love you and I cant wait until it is all over.
Hey! Well – I got caught up in watching Lucky – No Time for Love – but I kept fast forwarding it it. Im supposed to be studying na .. sigh, but I feel so GOOD here! Now switched to a song from Paheli – god Rani is so Beautiful I wish I can look like her. And Shahrukh khan-god – *DIES* Man, why do I LOVE him so MUCH! DArn it !
ITs 1AM here.What time is it there? How ar eyou? I miss you alot. I hope you are keeping well?
Now, tell, dont you have those imaginations…the movie-like imaginations.w.ith u in a field..with a dupatta..singign and dancing…?
No we wont close it!
i remember ali saying something about this same movie type dupatta thing …
dont know..why ami thinking of it! and especially with the BAD guy trying to umm abuse me lolz~ and then i'll BE SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAN THAT'LL BE AWESOME lol im such a psycho!
Ooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh now i get it !!! Lol ! Srk says FISH instead of F … lolz! hehehheeee
surely if i watch that movie i will feel pleasant..watching SRK … *perfect* .. saying FISH *reminds me of tayaba* lol
Man – Im online….basically…. watchingLucky ..I found it on Youtube..they have subtitiles..oviously i cant let it run at its own pace so im totally skipping ahead..cant believe i played the 1st part with an intention to listen to the song..and now im like.. late in the movie!
I just *SNIFF SNIFF*
You know what I wish …….. like dont you ever think about..being in fields with…someone…and you have a dupatta lik ein the movies ..and you're singing and stuff ..and thre's trees and you're running around them .. dont u think of being in a place like where movies are being shot
and u know waht! dont u think of having a bad guy come and start troublinbg you and then this person just comes to your rescue
gosh i just ………… why do i have this movie thing in my head
Sigh… cake baking… brings back memories…
Just like you Kavita (lol), I made 'him' () a cake… hmm well long story cut short.. I never told him about it!
rofl.. mad guy STILL does not know (nearly one year later…)… What stopped you from giving it to him? You never told him about it? My! We are much alike I see.
I decorated the cake around the edge with little blobs of red icing and a chocolate drop in the centre of each red blob… and I put the same number of red blobs (and therefore chocolate drops too..) as it was his birthday… Aw! *tears* Such hard work … made with great love … I just wish he knew how much love he had Sigh! What madly loving someone does to you (I didn't want my friends and family to find out, you see… lol)! That hurts doesnt it? Does it not? It hurts to the bone.
I did show him a photo of it one day… a couple of months later when we were talking about cakes or something… and mad guy did not even notice! Oh god! Did you tell him it was HIS? Of course, in his defence, it is quite difficult to notice those little things… but still. This PART IS GETTING TO ME … God … you know sometimes how we'd try to do something for someone ..or rather ['him'] and we put our ALL into it and used up all the dollars we had and all of the time and all of the energy we had into hiding it from people whom we know will get angry at us and we'll end up in trouble and all of our everything … and really in the end its basically nothing… I mean….where value is concerned… like… OTHERS would have given expensive things and all … and what we gave.. would be difficult to notice because its so LITTLE in value It didn't hurt me or annoy me… it just amused me!
Ahhhh….!
Boo, reading this story … I just felt soo connected! Sigh, I wish he'd knew it was him. Why didnt you give it to him though? So much love you have to offer … you should have made sure he got it. Your love is very strong .. your heart is kind and giving
Well, I ended up giving 'HIM' ( this use of 'him' is highly preferable, Alishia pleaseee do not use the B word ever again – promise me that) NOTHING for his Birthday. I bought a card to go with the cake but I never gave him the cake so I got mad about it and I did not give himt eh card either. Now, I have the card hidden in abook in my attic and I wished I had given it to him. I cant throw it away. Should I give it to him? Its like 1 month after his birthday. Oh my, thats horrible. I just felt so bad when he kept telling me – his friends kept asking him what I gave him for his birthday and he kept telling them 'NOTHING' and they went on being so surprised and shocked. And he's telling me all of this. I knowthey gave him expensive perfume and .. a juicer and a digital camera and a TELESCOPE (for heaven's sake that is awesome!) and I am glad that he got
dammit u make me sound like an ol granny waiting for her grandkids to visit soo she can shove em cookies in their mouths and fatten em up for the taking …eeeuuuuu…omg..forget baking..am never baking ..ever ever ever…dats a sight I dnt want to be a part of !! HAHAHA oh gaawdd – didnt mean to make u sound like an ole granny lolzzzzzzzz!! im soooooo cracking up !! aww lolz ..well come fatten me up grandma lol
Dont blame this cake business on me
u started this thread right?? soo ur to blame!! GASPS WITH DISAPPOINTMENT!
well the bright side, u got em plenty of comforting nah and hugs galore from yr boyfriend….Ohhhhh sooo romantic hahaha
Do NOT SAY THE WORD 'B …………' ARGH..BOYFRIEND ..PLEASE JUST DONT. IT MAKES ME SOUND LIKE A BAD GIRL. JUST DONT OKAY PLEASE. EVERYTIME. SAY ANYTHING ELSE. I EVEN TELL HIM NEVER TO REFER TO HIMSELF AS SUCH AND DONT CALL ME HIS 'G …………. ' CANT TAKE WAHT THE SOUND OF IT DOES TO MY HEAD AND MIND
Dii – I say make those goodies – put your fine art to use! And you eat em! And share em!!! I want sooooooooooomeeeeeeeeeeeeee
hmmm too much going on to concentrate on baking now…when I do, will take a pic and send to u..but I aint gonna send over food thats going to
end up muchy and funny ..no ways SCUSE ME!!!!!!!! NO HMPH! I WANT FOOD U BETTER SEND OVER SOME
u lil devil – my itch hey..lmao..oh gosh u got me laffing now….my itch???? WHATTT? DEVIL ? GEEZ..SORRY IF YOU THINKING ABOUT SOMETHING I DIDNT MEAN LOL ..GAT ME LAUGHING TOO..FOR WHAT? UM..IM NOT REALLY SURE LOLZ
I am actually itchy today ..for real…the fabric I am wearing I think lmao …. WELL THERE YA HAVE IT ..IM PSYCHIC I GAT POWERS U KNOW
Hahahaaa
well anywayyyyyyyyyyys times going fasttttttt
*creeps quickly in* I've cut my hair *speeds away* lmbo
Oooh I wanna seeeeeee !