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Oh dear… looks like we're relying on Mr.J for the chocolate… don't worry hun… boogedy's going to get chocolate for you!

Kajra re kajra re… sigh!

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Belgian Chocolate? Hmmm.

But you must first tell me – is it milk chocolate or dark chocolate?

Give me the right answer, and I will surely bring a Camel, Senor.

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Sweetie, by lmao-ing and -ing at me, you managed to seal the deal… now go find me my chocolate!

Darn it. I really want chocolate now!

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Sure! All you have to do is walk out of the house, grabbing your purse with you… and go into the nearest shop. There, on a shelf, you will find a huge chocolate bar, that has “Cadbury's Dairy Milk” written on it. You just need to grab it, and with a sweet smile, bring it back to me. There will be some people in the shop, of course.. they just want to check that you are helping me find the right thing, so they will ask you for some money. Not a lot. Then you can run back to me in mystery land and go “Boo ji Boo ji! I found it for you!”…

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“Usse, kaho, kabhi saamne to aaye!”

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“Vaddi log vaddi vaddi baatein…”

(SIGH! I have lost it… )

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SenorJalapeno:

Love for dance is a curse? I have a bigger problem. I'm afraid if I dare dance, I will be cursed. So, rather love dance and curse oneself for being unable to dance, rather than love dance, be unable to dance and be cursed for dancing.

Ps: Please try not to tap too fast and too often. People might think you are a tailor.

*Anjali in K3G-like giggle… praying Khushi won't kill me…*

Wah… tussi bade mazaki ho, bade mazaki ho…

… aur cute bhi ho!

(See? See what happens to me when I start listening to upbeat songs?! Sigh!)

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Khaike paan banaraswala!

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Wahaha! Another K3G thing… sigh! Where is Khushi when you need her?

Yemeni… tell me, have you seen a Bollywood movie yet?

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Yemenilicious:

except make sure you share that chocolate, hunnz if you do end up eating it. and then be like “The sentiment counts, buddy”

bahahaha

I love you girl!! Welcome to my side of the world!

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Unique_princess:

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes…?
Do you pray that I'd never left your side…?

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know…???
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know?
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know…

Tayba baybeeeeeeee….

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I don't know yaar… I want to take my time over it… she's a special gal and all… deserves special attention… maybe sometime this weekend, I'll browse the shops, and end up getting her a useless chocolate bar. lol. Or probably buying her the chocolate bar with good intentions, and then eating it myself. Hehe!

Oye, no dissing cheap people… kyun Tabz? Just remembering what you said about McD's… lol, a special offer or something? lol… man… I pig out at McD's. Actually, I pig out most places. I had chinese takeaway for dinner… and I pigged out then, too…

lmao – once, I went to a three year old's birthday party (yesh yesh… she was adorable… ) and her mum offered me a pizza… and I was feeling so full, I said no thanks… and then she insisted I take a pizza slice… and told me, “They're low fat, you know… you can eat as many as you like.” I was just like What was she saying?!?! (fyi, I genuinely am not fat.. I dance as intensely as I eat, so…).

Hmmm. Something tells me you guys are all nodding off, after listening to my useless ramble on my dietary life. lol.

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I am feeling extremely annoyed. There is a firework inside me just roaring to explode in the form of dance, as Khaike Paan Banarswala from the new Don is pulsing through my various blood vessels… and all I can do right now is sit still and tap my foot.

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

LOVE FOR DANCE IS A CURSE I TELL YOU… A CURSE A CURSE A CURSE… SIGH!

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I will do.. I am yet to buy her a present – eeeesshhhh!! lol.. I am actually cursing her for leaving me before her birthday, as it means I have to pay for the postage and packaging… sigh! SRK: You are so CHEAP! Kajol (giggling): Voh to main hoon! lol!

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I agree that love binds us (and the most beautiful thing about its binding, is that it only does so because we allow it to do so..)…

But as for your example, I see a very straightforward answer… which is making me frown instead of smile.. am I completely missing the point here, Tayba?

If I may say so…

I would go with my heart. I would leave the country, and go to wherever I want to go.. I understand that it might result in a lot of broken hearts, but tell me Tayba, if.. you know, at the end of the day, the smiles on our faces are not driven by the happy beating of our hearts, what else is there to life? But then again, as I said before, I guess it depends on the personality… I would have no problems simply leaving (if my finances, etc. are OK, of course) because – much as I love the people in my life right now – they do not… well, 'control' me as such.. in an emtional way.

Maybe this relates to what I was saying earlier about there being no one in my life who truly knows and understands me.. I don't know. But I don't think our dreams are worth sacrificing because others are refusing to let go of this thread..

Besides, who says the love will be gone if I go away? I understand that it is painful, it is difficult (It was not too long ago that a friend of mine had to leave me and go to a foreign country, too..)… but if the bonds are strong enough…

And also – this is just a personal thought – I hate it when people become clingy. I feel suffocated. I hate it when people follow me around and pretend we are the closest of friends, when all I want to do is get rid of them. It is not my fault I do not feel any sort of bond with them.. and if I don't feel it, I don't like being forced into it. And I hate it when people think that, just because I give my 101% of love to them, it gives them a right to assume I will always be there. I will only be there as long as there is something pulling me there, some form of love I feel, a feeling that my heart is being looked after by them… if not, the distances will become evident. I don't for one moment mean to hurt people at all… I simply… don't like being forced into love.

Why did I think of all this? Because of your example Tayba… personally, it would annoy me if my family and friends thought I would sacrifice my heart's dreams for their happiness. OK there may be some cases when I may do so… but – heh – I come first. Because that is the only way I can live my life without feeling guilty and full of “what ifs”. And I know that sometimes, I have to compromise… I don't mind compromising… I love compromising… but… yeah.

Now I think I'M venting. lol.

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Marine:

And to think i divorced Oreo to go back to him [:'(]

… thank you. Amen.

(LMAO!)

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Ahhh… I get you now, Marine… hehe! I have a secret daydream that, one day, someone (anyone… don't know who!) I love will do that for me… should I start dropping hints to all my guy friends now, do you think?

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SenorJalapeno:

As usual, my sense of timing seems to have deserted me. I am sorry. I love what I am reading and my post stands out like a magician in a monastery.

Join in, then… surely you must have some views on what is being discussed?

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Tayba… can you give me an example of what you mean? Just a general example, of anyone or anything…?

Love has never been a burden for me.. even when I did not realise what love truly meant to me, I have never felt it be a burden on my shoulders… in fact, I was thinking about this the other day… It is not love that hurts, but the lack of love… every time I saw myself cursing love.. I realised it was because there was a lack of it… can you think of any time, any time you were feeling so much love… that it became a burden to you? I can't. I can think of times when the person I loved was talking sadly about the girl he loved whom he has lost, when I was feeling sad for not feeling a reflection of my love… that is… such an awful feeling. Slowly, slowly… I learnt to love without expecting anything in return… perhaps that is why I cannot understand why our hearts can lead us to the wrong paths… I don't know what it is, really… I learnt (or rather, I am still learning) to just give and give love.. and find the real pleasure in just… loving. Instead of mourning over loves that were not reciprocated.

This was several months ago… and to this day, I cannot work out if it has been a metamorphosis in my character, or a new shield, a new defence mechanism that has been put up by me… to stop me feeling the pains of a lack of love… I have waited time and time again, for an e-mail from a loved one, or an SMS, or a hug or something… but each time nothing came, I simply smiled and moved on… not for one moment letting these moments dilute my love.

One day, one sweet sweet day, I can be the mad girl I see myself as… a mad, stubborn girl who follows her heart and has love to show and give…and does not care for anything that will act as a hurdle in her path..

Ouff, I doubt even I am making sense, Tayba!

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Very true, Tayba.. I don't dispute that.. one of the rules I live by is that I will do my best never to hurt anyone's feelings (the other is not to bring politics into friendship). Because that is one of things that makes me feel like I am worth nothing, in my own eyes. And if I don't have that confidence in myself, I'm a gone case.

But… I don't know ji… I can't explain… there is something in my mind, even though I can fully understand, fully see where you're coming from.. that is refusing to believe that our heart can lead us into the 'wrong' lanes of life. How can this innocent pulsing thing that gives us our life, ever rebel against our selves? Maaf karo ji.. I am being completely naive and childish and stubborn… I realise that… but at the same time, I truly cannot understand “Why not?”… pffft. I think I'm just in a stubborn mood. Hmmm.

I guess it depends on the personality, too.. there are some people who will fight for what they believe in, no matter what the consequences… and some people who will give in before they've even set out on the journey… and a whole range of people in between.

This idea of being bound by the relationships in our lives… it is an interesting one, in my opinion… full of contradictions, and yet, none can be claimed false.. we are free in choosing, and moulding the path of our relationships… and yet we are restricted in where we can lay out our path… there is no one we are bound to except ourselves (and maybe God… depends which way you want to look at it…), and yet it is the threads of every single relationship in our lives, that is restricting the free flow of our own kites… the only person that matters at the end of the day is ourselves (and maybe God/God's opinion on ourselves… or nobody.. depending on which way you look at it…), and yet every single heart we choose to hold on to imprints its importance on your existence…

Are we really bound by relationships? Are we really free?

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