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My Feelings:

I'm tired of sadness. I'm tired of hurt. I really really am.

Whatever it is I did to others, it must be big. I feel as if people are punishing me for something huge I've done. And I'm dying to know what it is. I am. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy. Nor the time I had a real smile on and didn't have to fake one. I wan't to be happy again. But it seems, the people around me don't like seeing me happy. I wish things were better. It's like, every time I move up a step in my life, I always expect pain. I'm really not a pessimistic person. But it's always been that way, so I can't help but expect it. I just wish my family and I understood each other more. I wish my friends didn't hurt me so easily and simply not cared. I wish I could say “it's okay” and mean it for once. I wish they would understand. I wish I would stop and tell them that it's not okay so that they would realize just how much they hurt me. then again, they probably wouldn't care. I feel as if my feelings don't really matter. When I'm hurt, people always expect me to move on and get over it. And it stings. because I get tired of it. I know that Allah Ta'ala does everything for a good reason, and Alhamdulillah, I think I have become strong because of all this. It's just sometimes, I wish it would be better. just sometimes.

For the past 3 months or so, I have been acting that everything is okay with one of my friends. Even after she's hurt me and betrayed my trust. over and over. I was acting out well for a while. Until one of my friends rubbed it in my face and made me realized just how much it bothered me. I decided that I'm going to continue the act, but I'm starting to fail. every time I speak to my friend I remember what my other friend said and I start being cold and replying in one word sentences. And I hate myself for it. it's beating me… I was speaking to my friend on MSN earlier. I actually struggled to instant message her. After about 15 mins of debating I IMed her. Then i started replying in one word sentences. fine. yes. mhm. you? ha. you know? Then she said to me, “I want to know why you instant messaged me if you weren't going to say anything.” ouch. I felt so used. why? because I've done soooo much for her. And I felt used because now that she's good and happy, she doesn't care to speak to me again and is asking me why i speak to her. Did she even bother to speak to me? I feel like I'm putting too much effort while others put no effort at all. And it's pretty funny because I always end up being the wrong one. I know I'm wrong for trying to act that it's okay. but it's how I've been. all my life. thats what I've been used to. And people who lie to me and say that they care don't make it easier. because they're continously hurting me and acting like I have no feelings. I wish people would understand that I am human. It stings even more because I am always trying my best in order not to hurt others. even if it be just one word that I utter. And they do it so easily. I just wish that the people who really cared were here….

School is stressing as well. I have so much to do, very little time. The last thing I need right now is pain.

I try so hard. But when the wounds are constant, it's difficult to heal. I'm breaking down…

Hey beautiful, (I am writing this to Ninja but Tayba and Rani – it is for you too!)

You feel hurt because you care. Your heart cares. You feel pain because you have a heart to feel the pain with. Because you are sensitive and much as you are mature-for-your-age, you are still an innocent child

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“When I'm older and my daughter asks me who my first love was, I don't want to have to pull out a photo album … I wan't to be able to point across the room and say, 'he's sitting right there….' “

*deep sigh*

You think so jaan?

I think it would be more fun if the mother rambled on and on about her first love, and then rambles on about all her other loves while looking at the husband out of the corner of her eye and watching him turn greener and greener with jealousy… how cute would that be! And then walked across the room and gave him a huge hug and kiss in front of the daughter to show him how much he means to her……

It would also be a nice lesson for the daughter….. first loves don't necessarily have to be only loves in life. Love is love is love.

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I feel beautiful….

La la la want to go singing the rain…..

Rani, Tayba, Khushi, Nessa, Alishia, Senor Saab, Oreo ji, Kavita, Am Rani ji, Shakalaka Baby, Ninja……. I love you and thank you. For being you.

Boo.

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OY!!!

Am Rani jee….

YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE SITTING NEXT TO ME!!!

*sob*

*sees Tayba glare at her for disturbing her class (Lecture on John Abraham's Hotness… borinnnnggggg…! ) and shuts up*

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Nagada nagada nagada bajaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

I feel like daaaancing in the rain, but it's stopped raining.

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Hey Doowyllob (and anyone else this may apply to.. if you're planning on creating new threads),

Can I request you to stop creating new threads for every single new topic, please?

I admit I am only taking an educated guess when saying that it will eat into the forum memory space, and will give Mukesh (The creator of the forum) more stuff to save the forum posts (for back up purposes). However, if that were not to be completely accurate, then I would still be requesting you to stop creating these new threads, as it will make browsing for a particular thread much more difficult for the members, if there were tiny little threads like this floating around too.

I am not sure if you are aware of this, but there is a thread where you can post anything at all – the 'Say Something Totally Random' thread: https://www.bollywoodlyrics.com/cs/forums/t/1214.aspx?PageIndex=1. Alternatively, you can create a new thread for all things New Zealand-related, and post all these topics in that forum.

I'm sorry for the blunt nature of this message, and I also apologise for asking you in public (in the forum). I felt it would also benefit anyone else (any other newcomers, etc.) who was planning on creating such new threads, so I thought I might as well post it up here.

Feel free to PM me if you have any queries, etc.

Thank you,

Boo

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A-HA!

Senor saab… right post at the right time!

Felt an urge to download a Telugu song… went onto cooltoad… typed in Telugu… downloaded the first song I knew… and I am right now listening to Cheppave Chirugaali… not sure if you know this song, though?

And what do I see…. your post!

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Just checked my phone yaar… 24th December… a call for 39 seconds… rofl-ing away! Sigh! SIGH! Mad mad mad…

I LOVE YOU! Thank you for bringing the smile back to my face and showing me in your own way by just being there that the world is only a mess if we let it be. Went to sleep sad and woke up with a smile and a flashing light. 🙂

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I feel like people are avoiding me, because they are trying to forget me or erase me from their lives. They are my sand – the more I hold on to them, the more they seem to be running away. I am sick of this game. I wish they would just f.uc.k the he.ll off. Stop sending me mixed signals. I don't have the patience to dance along to your bullsh.it any more. Do you hear me loud and clear? Why does a relationship have to go your blo.ody way? Why not mine, for a change?

I just want to run into my friend's arms and cry in his arms and lie there forever under the stars on a rooftop somewhere in India. He makes me forget my crazy world, and for that very reason, he makes me feel so safe. He also makes me laugh so sincerely, no matter how rubbish I am feeling. And he, who has never once said I love you to me in all our year and a half of acquaintance… I can feel his love so much more than those idiots who've been telling me they love me so friggin' much.

When will people stop messing with me? This is not fair, and the morons blo.ody well know it. Urgh.

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The same reason there's a fuss over other beauty things…

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Dow Jones: just soo u knw Cosmic hangs around the amazon…u knw swinging from trees searching for Bananas and watching the female monkeys

jump off cliffs…

Ps: guess this is the best place to be around shud u wish to learn more Indian Phrases:)

r…o…f..l…m…a…o….

Sigh!

Hunting for timid animals in the jungle to bully… yep. Sounds like him!

Dow Jones… urgh that brings to me sad thoughts… but anyway! Why Dow Jones Alie?

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Naïve Zaara?

Nice Zabuton?

Never Zappy?

Nasty Zemindar?

Naturally Zelophobic?

Nymphomaniac Zingaro?

Argh!! Tell me!! Tell me quickly please… I am dying of curiosity here… what is NZ, I wonder? Doesn't sound like something I've heard before!!

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All I want for Christmas………… is you!

Sigh.

IwillnotbesadIwillnotbesadIwillnotbesadIwillnotlethimruinmyChristmasmoodsighsighsigh…..

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Shawti…. shorty…. lmao!

🙂

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HEY RANI…..

Girl…. some reaction for the forum, please…. on the card!

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Originally posted by lovelygurl on 20 December 2007:

i want to thank you for the translation of o re piyaa 🙂

take care …….

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Hello lovelygurl….

You don't need to start a new thread for a thank you message (and especially not in a different section of the forum)… you can thank the person in the thread itself! 🙂 So I've deleted your thread in the Say Something section, and I'm copy-pasting your message here.. PM me if you have any worries.

Take care,

Boo

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Whatta Man – Salt N Pepa feat. En Vogue… I think?

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Alie!! Lmao… that is… lol!

I was chatting to my friend of GTalk… and I told him I was on the aeroplane and talking to him… lol, I was due to leave for a flight journey anyway so I pretended I was on the plane (when actually, I was still at home… lol) and said “Hi!” to him…. and he promptly asked me to check out the link… and laughed. Haha… crazy guy. 🙂

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I feel betrayed. I DESPISE it when I trust someone sooo much and they easily go and break my trust like it's nothing. it freaking stings. darn it.

I don't want to go to my chemistry class. someone please, hurry and tell me I don't have to go!!!!!!!

Hey beautiful…

The feeling sucks, doesn't it?

But tell you something… if you give someone something as precious as your love/faith/trust, etc… you have to accept the consequences too.. what they do with it is up to them, isn't it? Unless they gave you their word, of course…

Sigh… THIS I learnt the hard way… if only life was as simple as reasoning it out in your head before your heart gets damaged!

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Fact: IT'S NEARLY CHRISTMAS!!!

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