Salaam peeps!
I liked this thread when we had it in the old forum, so I decided to make it here as well!
krish_20_girl:Hey Forum, if anyone has a problem:
You shud come here to talk about it:
If you're feeling depressed,its okay to talk it out
N you'll feel better.We can address some questions as suicide divorce depression and thing like those
Feel FREE To TALK and let your feelings OUT
nitzah:*ugh*that sounded weird….i take it back….be miserable and share it to the world !! say it alll on an open / public forum !! its free to post and you all have the freedom of speech !! so please…go ahead !
Lmao..Nitzkar saying Please.. lmao…okies seeing as u r errr complaining that we galz only let out bad feelings….
“”Damn, and here I was, getting ready to share all my feelings about my LOVE problems
my depression and suicidal thoughts…. “”
Oh well, lemme share some of my good feelings with everyone….
Firstly, have a feeling, a GOOD one, that I will get married this year and I am going to make sumone totally
miserable for the rest of his life ….dnt worrie, will get him to become a forum member sooo HE can share all his feelings of despair with u guys
2ndly – I've another good feeling that I am going to win the lotto sooooon….;-)…..yeah….
but on a seeeeeeerious seeeeeerious note,
I actually do have tonza great feelings where 2007 is concerned, not just for myself, but for everyone
Am sure it is going to be a fab year…
ps: This doesnt stop anyone from sharing all their BAD feelings with us… ….
I have no feelings at the moment
Yemenilicious:I have no feelings at the moment
Yumini, lmao
pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez explain watye mean by, U have no feelings??
ehhh, nvm i take that back..my feelings are all jumbled up, I can't really let em out. do u know what I mean?
Yemenilicious:ehhh, nvm i take that back..my feelings are all jumbled up, I can't really let em out. do u know what I mean?
hehehehe, off coz I do hun 😉
everything ok on yr side sweety??
didye get my recipe???
hehe
Everything is alright hunz, how about there?
yeah i got it. thanksss soo much yaar, I love u!
hmmmm lekker then…
Here?? Beautiful day, beautiful mood, everything going accordingy
to schedule 😉 well almost hehehehe
getting all butterflies feeling in my tummy ….
okies, soooooo telll me didye make the soji????
am waiting soooo impatiently…???
Yemenilicious:ehhh, nvm i take that back..my feelings are all jumbled up, I can't really let em out. do u know what I mean?
u are one messed up gal!! i think its abt time u check-in to the asylum. ive got a room with a view. take it before somebody else grab it!
“messed up” is kinda an understatement here dude !
serioComic:Yemenilicious:ehhh, nvm i take that back..my feelings are all jumbled up, I can't really let em out. do u know what I mean?u are one messed up gal!! i think its abt time u check-in to the asylum. ive got a room with a view. take it before somebody else grab it!
bahaha, how am i a messed up gal? uhhh im not in the mood at all =|
thats coz your seriously overly messed up !
Nope that's not why!
its either that or you juss stupid…:)
not that either
serioComic:Yemenilicious:ehhh, nvm i take that back..my feelings are all jumbled up, I can't really let em out. do u know what I mean?u are one messed up gal!! i think its abt time u check-in to the asylum. ive got a room with a view. take it before somebody else grab it!
Last Ive seen, Kush is interested, but I dnt see u giving her an open invitation to yr assylum….
seee Ive done my bit offf good for today 😉
lol! Ninja, ur crajee!
My feelings…let's see…What do you do when the people that can make you laugh, are the ones that make you cry? lol. messed up people we have in this crajee world.
RaNi iS ThE BeS:lol! Ninja, ur crajee!
My feelings…let's see…What do you do when the people that can make you laugh, are the ones that make you cry? lol. messed up people we have in this crajee world.
I'll tell u what i do, I laugh and cry at the same time . No no, u ask what's wrong and give them a big fat “aunty stylle” hugg!
It's crajee, but I laugh and cry at the same time too! Especially since I can forgive so easily, it's a quality I'm kind of begining to hate. I didn't ask what was wrong, but I did tell…nothing. *shrugs*
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Am not sure u can do anything, its just part of life…sumtimes u cry and sumtimes u laugh
I guess you're right Scar Face…but it sux to let go of relationships that gave you so many great memories…
Rani jee and scarry jee, u both are right. *sigh*
When you need to laugh, laugh! When you need to cry, cry! Let it out or you will become an emotional cripple!
Others have their opinion, but who cares!
Today I feel like screaming my head off, instead, I'll hit the heavybag. Different route, same destinaton!
sigh…
I feel like running to a yellow field somewhere, early in the morning, and crying… just sobbing away…
the tears may not be coming out, but i HATE it when it feels as though someoneis literally pulling at my heart…. LITERALLY… sigh.
boo:sigh…
I feel like running to a yellow field somewhere, early in the morning, and crying… just sobbing away…
the tears may not be coming out, but i HATE it when it feels as though someoneis literally pulling at my heart…. LITERALLY… sigh.
Ditto
I dont know whats going on but my feelings? why thanks for asking.
I'm feeeling grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat
I dont know why, I have tons of homework that should be completed by sometime. . .soon, and my back hurts from this damn chair, and I'm awfully bored. But still I'm feeling pretty damn good.
I KNOW WHY! duhhh, cuz we're partners in crime =] and cuz ur talking to me. baha
I stand in haylies position..History book open in front of me, same case with the chair, tonsss of hw to be done, ohhh big fat cup of coffee too which ill leave alone. BUT I FEEL greattt!
ha
(something kinda mean was here, Ninja made me change it)
man do i love the secrective names, running incognito
put a smile on your face and make the world a better place
yes yes..thats better. no need to be mean haylie baylie bobblehead ji!
A Smile is charity so shmilllllllllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeee
I have officially gone insaneeeeeeee!
lmao its ok its the coffee
thats what i thought too =]
its strong too..blekh..I need to do this essay =/
Right now, 😉
with a mixture of emotions flowing through me
never …honestly never realised I am sooooo well loved by soooo
many reallly nice people
Im all nostalgic and extremely emotional but somehow
strong enuf for theres no tears
**************************siiiiigggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh***********************,
I LOVE this place,
I LOVE my Durban,
I LOVE my friends,
I LOVE my family
I LOVE life…..
aaaand mostly,
I LLUUURRRVVVVEEEE god
Everything is just beautiful, the way I want it to be
at this moment in time, if I had to die…
I'd die a realllly blissfullly, ecstatically happy Person
( oye, Vash, Me miss u hun )
Sometimes we truly do forget that breathing itself is a gift…a precious, priceless gift
With all the traumas, problems, worries etc that u have, just take a second of
your time…and be thankful for just being here, for everything u have, for who you are ….
back to me and my feelingz:
I am grateful and happppppppy ( with a major headache, wont go away )
and I want to share my hapiness with everyone sooooo watever it is u are going thru
know that I , Scarry, aka, Aliea, Aka Al, Mka Lyn 😉
share with u my luv + lotza hugz to keep help ease the pain, hurt or to add more warmth ..
U all are in my prayer soooooo yeah ,
take it easy, know that Life is tooo short …soooo make the most of it in any/every way u can
thats my thoughts and feelings for the day
if it sounds a bit offbeat…. blame it on everyone who loves me soooooooooo
damn much, I feel soooo soooooooo undeserving
Jeeeesh
love u guyz and galz a lot
Mwah
sCaRrY 😉
boo:sigh…
I feel like running to a yellow field somewhere, early in the morning, and crying… just sobbing away…
the tears may not be coming out, but i HATE it when it feels as though someoneis literally pulling at my heart…. LITERALLY… sigh.
*sigh* It's weird, but I wanna do the same thing, cuz I feel the same way…
lol. I'll race you there. what say?
Hayaaaaatiiiii! You make me laugh like an idiot!
boo:sigh…
I feel like running to a yellow field somewhere, early in the morning, and crying… just sobbing away…
the tears may not be coming out, but i HATE it when it feels as though someoneis literally pulling at my heart…. LITERALLY… sigh.
……..
Raniiiii… sureness!!!
Khushi…. I know… DDLJ and all that jazz…
*does the victory dance* I win!
Something my friend said on msn touched me.. felt like sharing it here..
me: feel like flying somewhere warm and bright and forgetting everything
my friend: there's this place in rome that we'll go to when we both are able to, its got these caves that you go thru and at the other end is this place (really quiet place!) with waterfalls and a rock pool, we could chill out and watch for fish and stuff! ermmm but right now it sounds like a romantic hide out.., well you better take me there before your husband! lol, remember, we always put each other first
lol, we sound crazy, I know. but that's just the way we've always been.
Its funny how friends can say the most simple things sometimes and give you hope and strength.. Sigh.. I wish I was at that waterfall place with my homie now..
Unique_princess:Something my friend said on msn touched me.. felt like sharing it here..
me: feel like flying somewhere warm and bright and forgetting everything
my friend: there's this place in rome that we'll go to when we both are able to, its got these caves that you go thru and at the other end is this place (really quiet place!) with waterfalls and a rock pool, we could chill out and watch for fish and stuff! ermmm but right now it sounds like a romantic hide out.., well you better take me there before your husband! lol, remember, we always put each other first
lol, we sound crazy, I know. but that's just the way we've always been.
Its funny how friends can say the most simple things sometimes and give you hope and strength.. Sigh.. I wish I was at that waterfall place with my homie now..
awww! I know… it's ALWAYS the simple things isn't it?
Something my friend said to me:
“remember tho that u rock and that despite all ur hardships life will favour u because u deserve it ”
thats so sweet! ur friend sounds lovely! Simplicity is something wonderful in friendship.. xx
You guys! I'm going pagal!
I have tonz of work to do by Tuesday! I have to read a 300 and something page book for my English class, I have to organize my Spanish binder, I have TONZ of questions to answer and take notes on freaking chapters for my stupid history class, and I also have to write an essay for history! Plus, I have to study for a Math test!!! And I still need to design my mask for Ceramics class! OhmyAllah! HELP! I'm gonna go pagal!
I need to get into the CSF Club! If I don't get in….Imma…Imma…what am I gonna do? I'm gonna cry! oh nooo….! Inshallah Inshallah Inshallah I'm gonna get in! Ameen!
What the heck am i doing?!!? I should go start now!!! okay okay okay, I'm going!
GO NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Acha acha! I'm going!
I read your pm. Will reply to it once i get this stupid stuff done!
Please make dua for me peeps!
*peace*
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Acha acha! I'm going!
I read your pm. Will reply to it once i get this stupid stuff done!
Please make dua for me peeps!
*peace*
Rani, you're always in my duas hunz.
MY HANDS ARE ICE COLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hayati, mine toooooo! It's too cold today. I'm freeezing!
*sigh* I feel insane. Nothing is going right and my feelings are all jumbled up.
I feel so selfish(fish fish) sometimes.
I try not to let people get to me, but it doesn't work.
The people that I thought would always be by my side, are not. They're just a bunch of beezees saying things they never meant.
Or maybe I'm just expecting too much from them? I don't know.
I try to keep quiet about everything that's going, but it all just comes out cuz I can't hold it inside for some stupid annoying reason.
And all this is really funny because everything is going good, Alhumdulillah, it's just me with the weird feelings. grrr
whatever, I'm going back to Spanish.
*peace*
Ranz hon,
Doesn’t sound very good, hey if u need to talk …
Am here okies..just holler 😉
Hope u feel better sooooooon swcheety
You said..
U said I’d never grow up
U said u’ve had enuf
U said that I was clueless
U said my life was worthless
U said I wudnt understand
U said You’d never lend a hand
U said tooooo much for me to forget
U said everything, yet nothing that was worth hearing
U said things that hurt the most
U said things that may have affected my growth
U said you’d always be there for me
How am I suppose to go on having faith an trust
When u lied to me, U lied to me ??
U said u’d never stay
U said u’d mess up my life
Well..
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I'm oh so cool.. and…yeah tired. =D
Scar Face ji, Thank you. and I'm here for you as well.
ninja, go get some rest!
RaNi iS ThE BeS:ninja, go get some rest!
ha..i shud. I'm planning on doing homework tonight Insha'Allah. =/
err. please don't remind me about homework. I have tonz to do.
But u know me, I neeeeeed to procrastinate. lol. That's like my middle name. haha.
hahaha. good, now all u gotta do is go write it on ur birth certificate or something.
we all procrastinate. =] maybe not as much as u Rani, but im sure we all do. psychological studies proved that too
RaNi iS ThE BeS:I try not to let people get to me, but it doesn't work.
The people that I thought would always be by my side, are not. They're just a bunch of beezees saying things they never meant.
Or maybe I'm just expecting too much from them? I don't know.I try to keep quiet about everything that's going, but it all just comes out cuz I can't hold it inside for some stupid annoying reason.
How can feelings that came from the heart ever be anything BUT heartfelt?
There's no reason for heartfelt feelings to be permanent, na ji? The only requirement is that they came out of Frove and were truly meant when being said.
No one is ever by your side – always. Life is like a path. People will join your path at times, and they will leave your path at times… the important thing is to cherish those memories, and know that the memories can never, ever be taken away from you… that's all that matters…
Well, to me anyway… if you're looking for something different from your life, then that is your choice… *shrugs*… won't stop me from loving you! (Nor telling you what matters to me… )
Expecting too much? I have given up trying to expect ANYTHING from ANY relationship… and instead, just… giving. It hurts. A lot. But, one sweet, sweet day, I may reach this… sort of, well, nirvana (for want of a better word) that I am aiming for – where I can give, give, give all the Love that I have inside me, and expect nothing in return.
One sweet day, I'll be able to Love freely.
One sweet day, I'll be able to say “B o l l o c k s!” to the statement, “The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to Love and be Loved in return.” Right now, I pretty much worship that statement, but, you know… maybe one day…
Time will tell… along with my strength…
boo:
No one is ever by your side – always. Life is like a path. People will join your path at times, and they will leave your path at times… the important thing is to cherish those memories, and know that the memories can never, ever be taken away from you… that's all that matters…
So true, Boo.. 🙂
Expecting too much? I have given up trying to expect ANYTHING from ANY relationship… and instead, just… giving. It hurts. A lot.
Again very true…hurts lots.
But, one sweet, sweet day, I may reach this… sort of, well, nirvana (for want of a better word) that I am aiming for – where I can give, give, give all the Love that I have inside me, and expect nothing in return.
Although I would like to feel that way someday too, I don't think I ever can..
One sweet day, I'll be able to Love freely. I dont know, the love we give is our love, no one can take that away from us.. even if the other person doesnt feel the same way, we still felt certain feelings which were ours, our own.. I may be rambling at this point.. lol.
One sweet day, I'll be able to say “B o l l o c k s!” to the statement, “The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to Love and be Loved in return.” Right now, I pretty much worship that statement, but, you know… maybe one day… Hope I can do the same too…
Time will tell… along with my strength… wish u all the best huni x
boo:How can feelings that came from the heart ever be anything BUT heartfelt?There's no reason for heartfelt feelings to be permanent, na ji? The only requirement is that they came out of Frove and were truly meant when being said.
No one is ever by your side – always. Life is like a path. People will join your path at times, and they will leave your path at times… the important thing is to cherish those memories, and know that the memories can never, ever be taken away from you… that's all that matters…
Sometimes…memories hurt…
boo:Well, to me anyway… if you're looking for something different from your life, then that is your choice… *shrugs*… won't stop me from loving you! (Nor telling you what matters to me… )
I'm glad. If I can't stop loving you and telling you what matters to me, why should I expect any different from you?
boo:Expecting too much? I have given up trying to expect ANYTHING from ANY relationship… and instead, just… giving. It hurts. A lot. But, one sweet, sweet day, I may reach this… sort of, well, nirvana (for want of a better word) that I am aiming for – where I can give, give, give all the Love that I have inside me, and expect nothing in return.
One sweet day, I'll be able to Love freely.
One sweet day, I'll be able to say “B o l l o c k s!” to the statement, “The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to Love and be Loved in return.” Right now, I pretty much worship that statement, but, you know… maybe one day…
Time will tell… along with my strength…
Boo…
It's really very hard to love someone who doesn't love you in return. I'm not saying it's impossible. But it just hurts, no matter how much love you have inside of you. Someone I love very much is going through something like that…she says she loves him, but he doesn't care. It's not very easy…I see a bit of her dying each day…the only thing that holds her together is her faith in Allah. If she didn't have that…I don't know what would have happened to her.
I hope that the person you give all the love you have inside of you to…loves you back.
One time, I heard this quote that went something like, “You will never feel the true beauty of love unless it shines from both ends.” That's not the exact quote, but something like that. Yes, one person can love, truly love someone, but he/she won't feel the true beauty of love until it is felt from both sides….when it is both, given and received…other than that, love will just hurt you…
at least, that's how I see it. But like you, I also hope that one day I'll be able to love without expecting anything in return, if that's possible.
How can feelings that came from the heart ever be anything BUT heartfelt?
There's no reason for heartfelt feelings to be permanent, na ji? The only requirement is that they came out of Frove and were truly meant when being said.
No one is ever by your side – always. Life is like a path. People will join your path at times, and they will leave your path at times… the important thing is to cherish those memories, and know that the memories can never, ever be taken away from you… that's all that matters…
This is something I really needed to read this morning, Thanks Missy, like I said, CAN ALWAYZ count on you to be there J
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One sweet day, I'll be able to Love freely.
****sigh*****…am not sure about LOVE anymore…
It's really very hard to love someone who doesn't love you in return. I'm not saying it's impossible. But it just hurts, no matter how much love you have inside of you. Someone I love very much is going through something like that…she says she loves him, but he doesn't care. It's not very easy…I see a bit of her dying each day…the only thing that holds her together is her faith in Allah. If she didn't have that…I don't know what would have happened to her.
Nothing would have happened to her coz she truly believes in this love she feels for her **guy**
I do hope that idiot realizes that having someone weho loves u sooo unconditionally
I hope that the person you give all the love you have inside of you to…loves you back.
One time, I heard this quote that went something like, “You will never feel the true beauty of love unless it shines from both ends.” That's not the exact quote, but something like that. Yes, one person can love, truly love someone, but he/she won't feel the true beauty of love until it is felt from both sides….when it is both, given and received…other than that, love will just hurt you…
That’s what I have begun feeling lately…too much giving, how about some receiving.</
Scar face:How can feelings that came from the heart ever be anything BUT heartfelt?
There's no reason for heartfelt feelings to be permanent, na ji? The only requirement is that they came out of Frove and were truly meant when being said.
No one is ever by your side – always. Life is like a path. People will join your path at times, and they will leave your path at times… the important thing is to cherish those memories, and know that the memories can never, ever be taken away from you… that's all that matters…
This is something I really needed to read this morning, Thanks Missy, like I said, CAN ALWAYZ count on you to be there J
no probs dear…………….
Belief in Love can only come from within…
Whatever happens, Scar Face… as long as your mind, your heart, your conscience feels free… that is all that matters. the rest is secondary.
I know someone who is such a darn cynic when it comes to Love… doesn't believe it exists, thinks it is fake, blah blah… he is married and has kids and he is perfectly content (touchwood) with his Life…
read the quote in my signature ji… as long as YOU feel your soul is being kept alive, who cares whether you Love or not?! it doesn't matter!! you don't HAVE to find/believe in Love because everyone else around you is telling you so… make your own kinda music, sing your own special song… even if nobody else sings along…
Just…. be happy. Be content and free. Whatever that means to you, be that. The rest doesn't matter.
boo:Scar face:How can feelings that came from the heart ever be anything BUT heartfelt?
There's no reason for heartfelt feelings to be permanent, na ji? The only requirement is that they came out of Frove and were truly meant when being said.
No one is ever by your side – always. Life is like a path. People will join your path at times, and they will leave your path at times… the important thing is to cherish those memories, and know that the memories can never, ever be taken away from you… that's all that matters…
This is something I really needed to read this morning, Thanks Missy, like I said, CAN ALWAYZ count on you to be there J
no probs dear…………….
Belief in Love can only come from within…
ooohhhhhh no …its both internal an external sweety…cant explain in detail at the moment but its wat I believe…an overall feeling/experience..
Whatever happens, Scar Face… as long as your mind, your heart, your conscience feels free… that is all that matters. the rest is secondary.
I knw dat… a good fwend of mine keeps repeating this to me over an over an over …she is such a Swcheeeeethart
… doesn't believe it exists, thinks it is fake, blah blah… he is married and has kids and he is perfectly content (touchwood) with his Life…
Wow, must meet the dude, lessons to be learnt here…hahahahahaa…
read the quote in my signature ji… as long as YOU feel your soul is being kept alive, who cares whether you Love or not?! it doesn't matter!! you don't HAVE to find/believe in Love because everyone else around you is telling you so… make your own kinda music, sing your own special song… even if nobody else sings along…
sooo I keep saying errr singing lol…..Yeah exactly wat I am doing…….making my own kinda music, singing my own song…dancing to these special tunes that only I can hear hahahahaha…Now I sound like a looney lmao …
Just…. be happy. Be content and free. Whatever that means to you, be that. The rest doesn't matter.
I am …aaand say the same to u too
Scarrry…Is it really possible? Loving a guy unconditionally when they don't give a damn about you? And they show it too? I don't know…I guess I'll have to take your word for it, because like I said before, I have never been in love…but, I'll let you know my thoughts on love when it happens to me.
Rani . . . I miss you
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Scarrry…Is it really possible? Loving a guy unconditionally when they don't give a damn about you? And they show it too? I don't know…I guess I'll have to take your word for it, because like I said before, I have never been in love…but, I'll let you know my thoughts on love when it happens to me.
Heya Ranz
Yes sweety, it is possible to love someone unconditionally, unreservedly-completely..without them loving u back..
Im not sure about that person **NOT GIVING A DAMN*** coz in my case he did…
Now where a guy is forceful in showing u he doesnt give a damn about u….errrr a bit tough coz guys are really difficult
**creaturez** to understand ..lol
am note sure ..it cud mean many things, he cud actually be interested but wants to see how far U wud go…OR
he may not be interested at all..
in my **experience*** Men are truly Idiots…
they play around with women and their feelings, and think women are mere numbers to add to their collection
u knw like art collectors or sums..
Sure I am being negative especially since theres that rare MAN out there who are true in every way. …where love and feelings and woman
are concerned…no games, no conquests..etc…
In yr case, am assuming this has to do with yr fwend r8….well I suggest someone Accidently
knocks sum sense into the guy,if it doesnt work, then she truly must move on …LOVE neva stops
ie.she cant force herself to stop loving him, but she will get stronger in accepting that a relationship
with him may never transpire…Its DIFFICULT but not unachievable….
Well whatever happens I do hope that Allah plays his hand and that she does receive the love she pines for
aaand u know what for all the lost luvs…maybe just maybe all our Dua's will convince him
U neva been in luw?? Ok ..U must give me yr thoughts on it when u do love ok…
I knw I am no help at the moment as I am still trying to come to terms with a lot of things soooo maybe in the near future
I will start being more positive towards LOVE an MEN…
Scar face:Yes sweety, it is possible to love someone unconditionally, unreservedly-completely..without them loving u back..
they play around with women and their feelings, and think women are mere numbers to add to their collection
u knw like art collectors or sums..
Of course it is possible. ANYTHING is possible… why doubt? I really don't get why you doubt, Rani… explain?
Art collectors? Wahahahaha…. what say Rani? Us gals ARE, after all, works of art… as they say… God created women second because He likes to make a rough draft before creating the masterpiece!
hahahahahahhahahahahaha
mizzy I cudnt have said that better yaar…
one for the road for me 😉
ranz doubts because she hasnt loved..remember….
oh well u galz really are works of art…
lmao….
Scar face:Well whatever happens I do hope that Allah plays his hand and that she does receive the love she pines foraaand u know what for all the lost luvs…maybe just maybe all our Dua's will convince him
I have no doubt in Allah when it comes to giving his believers happiness. I know she'll find what she's seeking. It's just hard to see her go through it…
lol. art collections? I don't believe all men are the same. I hate thinking anything about the whole population/race, etc. I just like to think about that one individual…
Actually, this love stuff gets me confused, I think it's better that I talk about it when I actually love a guy to that extent…
NINJAAAAA! awww! I'm so glad I got to see you yesterday! It was a crazy day, na? lol. Actually, this whole week was crazy, especially cuz of Hayati. Didn't get to see her ALL week! and u too! What is wrong with u two?!!? lol. I only got to see u(ninja) on thursday. and monday? oh yeah! Monday too!
gosh. I can't wait for…something? I don't know what…I can't wait till everything falls into place. lol.
RaNi iS ThE BeS:gosh. I can't wait for…something? I don't know what…I can't wait till everything falls into place. lol.
whatever that means…
RaNi iS ThE BeS:NINJAAAAA! awww! I'm so glad I got to see you yesterday! It was a crazy day, na? lol. Actually, this whole week was crazy, especially cuz of Hayati.
Glad I got to see ju too hunz. =]
Haylie(hayati):RaNi iS ThE BeS:gosh. I can't wait for…something? I don't know what…I can't wait till everything falls into place. lol.
whatever that means…
It means that I can't wait to see you! Gosh. I've been wanting to see you ever since Monday. I hekka miss you.
Ninja ji, we need to get back into the hafitha system, I miss it.
Back to the topic. Well i feal like crap its like 1:30am i have to wrok very early have illion things to do and my brother is in Jail so i can't sleep cause i feal guilty that his siting in jail waiting to see what will hapened and i'm home.
Boy i hate the law of America well most of hte law.
I friken am the Law and i can't do anything about except sit and wait to talk to the jugde tomorrow.
Well i just wanted to get this out you guys can egnore this.
Wat the heck are u talking about????????Pls tell me this is a huge joke sweety ?
Damn, left my fone home today….hmmm ok will send u mail
hugz and luv
di
Marine:Back to the topic. Well i feal like crap its like 1:30am i have to wrok very early have illion things to do and my brother is in Jail so i can't sleep cause i feal guilty that his siting in jail waiting to see what will hapened and i'm home.
Boy i hate the law of America well most of hte law.
I friken am the Law and i can't do anything about except sit and wait to talk to the jugde tomorrow.
Well i just wanted to get this out you guys can egnore this.
ouchhh… Have you talked to the judge? Hope everything is going OK for you now… *touchwood*….
Hey didi no its not a joke its a new that came out it was all over the paper and there are over 30 Armenians and god knows how many others in Immigrationg jail. I don't know i'm gonna meet someone well can't say who but its a way of braking my brother out. ALl thought that *** cost like an arm and a leg.
Boo jaanu no the judge doesn't want to talk to anyone so i'm taking the law into my own hands. Lets just say I have been serving the law for the past 5 years well now its time for the law to serve me with help of my god saab teek ho jayena.
Hey didi no its not a joke its a new that came out it was all over the paper and there are over 30 Armenians and god knows how many others in Immigrationg jail. I don't know i'm gonna meet someone well can't say who but its a way of braking my brother out. ALl thought that *** cost like an arm and a leg.
Hey hun
I knw, was actually hoping it was a joke… better than u guys having to face this reality….
u got my mail sooo just think before u do anything irrational, I knw u are emotional at the moment
I send u more luv, will speak to u later hon..
di
hmmm my feelings? are…blah!! I feel sick! I need coffeee!!
I have a terrible cold.
My sandcastle has been stomped upon… and I feel so, so lonely.
boo:I have a terrible cold.
My sandcastle has been stomped upon… and I feel so, so lonely.
*hugs boo* There. Now I have your cold!
*runs to help boo make another sandcastle* There. Isn't it pretty?
*sits by boo and holds her hand as they watch the sunrise over boo's sandcastle* Main hoon na.
Sweety… I was just thinking of you…. I love you so much.
I love you too ur lovelyness!
boo…come a lil closer, baby. baby, baby, baby wanna steal your heart away! lol.
Hey u two galz… dont make my imaginations go wild… and b clear in ur replies…. dosti tak theek hai… ye sab kya hai haaaaaaaaan…..
Kanta bahen….
dude..they are both sick and disgusting!! stay faaaaar away from them.
boo:I have a terrible cold.
My sandcastle has been stomped upon… and I feel so, so lonely.
Don't you even dare think that….
Dont build castles, Don't use sand- let your love be so that every heart within which you reside, is like a palace.
Main aur Rani hai na!
~Khushi~:boo:I have a terrible cold.
My sandcastle has been stomped upon… and I feel so, so lonely.
Don't you even dare think that….
Dont build castles, Don't use sand– let your love be so that every heart within which you reside, is like a palace.
Main aur Rani hai na!
castles and sand are all this helpless little girl has… for each heart in which i find a palace, for my love… that is all i have.
You are not helpless, because Love isn't. We are helpless as people, Love in itself is not helpless at all. Infact, its the very thing people rely when helpless. A flower blooms everyday in love, the sun rises and sets in love. Its your vision and your belief in it makes it so. Boo, no – you're strong, you have love- and i know that you do, so don't deny.
Baqtiar:Hey u two galz… dont make my imaginations go wild… and b clear in ur replies…. dosti tak theek hai… ye sab kya hai haaaaaaaaan…..
Kanta bahen….
serioComic:dude..they are both sick and disgusting!! stay faaaaar away from them.
lol! take ur minds outta the gutter, misters.
~Khushi~:Boo, no – you're strong, you have love- and i know that you do, so don't deny.
Boo, she's right. Keep ur head high, boo-mburo. and remember your faith in love and that dii and I are hamesha tumhare saath.
Baqtiar:Hey u two galz… dont make my imaginations go wild… and b clear in ur replies…. dosti tak theek hai… ye sab kya hai haaaaaaaaan…..
Kanta bahen….
Men and we all know where your imagination had gone right? tsk tsk tsk
Casanova is back ladys watch out lol he will make your head spin, loose breat your heart will stop beating then you will fall into his beautifully planed trap
For starters,
I HATE TELEPHONES….
Someone pls remind me……….. Who invented this annoying thing we call
Telephones????
HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT….
If this damn fone rings once more, I am going to scrrreeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaammmmmmm
*********Beeeeeeeeg Loooooong Siiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh********
Dat said I now feel better …
Ok Di i'm starting to worry about you seriousely lol
Vat?????????? A woman can’t Yell errrr I mean scream if she wants to??? Lmao
Why u sooo worried now Mara?? All that frowning will give u added wrinkles hahahahaha
That time of the month, my dear Scar Face?
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaat???
wat time of the month ??? Oh u mean pay check time??/ Naaaaaah a few days left for that Rotlmao
U my dear am going to getcha for this LMAO
whahaha!! Get me back? sure…. try…
I had a dream about Khushi!!! whoo hooo! It was awesome! Narrating it to Khushi has made me completely hyper and happy!
Rani:
Now…..
How do I feel?? Seriously truly feel??
Cheated, used and absolutely freaking pissed off at someone I trusted, truly damn trusted
Whom I have found out to be a liar…an…..an…an…an
My choicest words which I will not Screeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaam out loud on a public forum…
How can one go on believing in another human this way..
al… even tho our situations may be different, I know exactly .. EXACTLY .. how you feel right now… don't worry hun.. humanity is just f*d up these days.
excuse my language. big hug to u
It sucks when you're happy and someone else sn't…
Scarrry…I've felt that way before…so trust me when I say that the feeling will pa.ss. Not everyone is like that, there are so many people in this world that are such nice and sweet people that you're amazed to see them. It's really easy to believe in other people even though one person has misused your trust. Or maybe it's just me cuz I'm so gullible…but I'm sure you won't feel that way forever. Friends will come and show you that it's wrong to judge everyone just because of one person's stupidity. Don't close yourself off from relationships, because relationships are what help us when times get tough.
take care hunnz.
“Life!… It's a cybernetic psychedic explosion of garishly illuminated images, sounds, smells, and feelings! I am skewed, warped, distorted, twisted, altered in such a way as to defy description. I am discomboomulated to the maximum intensity of a technorave, industrial force. I'M ALIVE, DAMN YOU, AND MY HEAD IS TWEAKED TO THE Nth POWER! My mind is swirling and pulsing with wreckless, exuberant abandon! Pounding and surging in a vortex of sensory overload! Euphoric insanity!!”
“Sooooo….. how's life been treatin you?” “I LIKE IT!”
overwhelmed
*dies*
excellent. 1 down, few more to go.
serioComic:excellent. 1 down, few more to go.
lol, whatever. I take that back! I'M BETTER THAN EVER!!!
too late for that missy!!
serioComic:too late for that missy!!
ha not really.
the tongue weighs practically nothing, but so few people can hold it
serioComic:the tongue weighs practically nothing, but so few people can hold it
true…for once I agree with you
there will be more instances where u will come to an agreement with me. this is not the last.
serioComic:there will be more instances where u will come to an agreement with me. this is not the last.
highly doubt it but okay.
doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt that the sun doth move
doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt u'll agree with me again one day
serioComic:doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt that the sun doth move
doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt u'll agree with me again one day
doubt truth to be a liar? lie? huh? okay perhaps I will agree with you ONE day..
Unique_princess:al… even tho our situations may be different, I know exactly .. EXACTLY .. how you feel right now… don't worry hun.. humanity is just f*d up these days.
excuse my language. big hug to u
I knw u do sweety…. tnx
RaNi iS ThE BeS:It sucks when you're happy and someone else sn't…
Scarrry…I've felt that way before…so trust me when I say that the feeling will pa.ss. Not everyone is like that, there are so many people in this world that are such nice and sweet people that you're amazed to see them. It's really easy to believe in other people even though one person has misused your trust. Or maybe it's just me cuz I'm so gullible…but I'm sure you won't feel that way forever. Friends will come and show you that it's wrong to judge everyone just because of one person's stupidity. Don't close yourself off from relationships, because relationships are what help us when times get tough.
take care hunnz.
tnx ranz…
I will ..
u take care too
serioComic:“Life!… It's a cybernetic psychedic explosion of garishly illuminated images, sounds, smells, and feelings! I am skewed, warped, distorted, twisted, altered in such a way as to defy description. I am discomboomulated to the maximum intensity of a technorave, industrial force. I'M ALIVE, DAMN YOU, AND MY HEAD IS TWEAKED TO THE Nth POWER! My mind is swirling and pulsing with wreckless, exuberant abandon! Pounding and surging in a vortex of sensory overload! Euphoric insanity!!”
“Sooooo….. how's life been treatin you?” “I LIKE IT!”
not good but thanks for asking anyways
Eish wat da heck u are going on about NOW Mr **foreva typing bullshit***
anytime, scarrrry.
RaNi iS ThE BeS:anytime, scarrrry.
aaaaand one for u tooo BOO
quote user=”serioComic”
“Life!… It's a cybernetic psychedic explosion of garishly illuminated images, sounds, smells, and feelings! I am skewed, warped, distorted, twisted, altered in such a way as to defy description. I am discomboomulated to the maximum intensity of a technorave, industrial force. I'M ALIVE, DAMN YOU, AND MY HEAD IS TWEAKED TO THE Nth POWER! My mind is swirling and pulsing with wreckless, exuberant abandon! Pounding and surging in a vortex of sensory overload! Euphoric insanity!!”
“Sooooo….. how's life been treatin you?” “I LIKE IT!”
-quote seriocomic-
Oreo – what the heck?
lol
where u copy n pasted that from coz i know u urself don understand all that urself lol
hey guyzzzz what up? heyyyyyyy aliea how r u honey? n hey every1 else!!! lol ya'll stay safe now
Scar face:Now…..
How do I feel?? Seriously truly feel??
Cheated, used and absolutely freaking pissed off at someone I trusted, truly damn trusted
Whom I have found out to be a liar…an…..an…an…an
My choicest words which I will not Screeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaam out loud on a public forum…
How can one go on believing in another human this way..
Sweetheart wahts wrong? omg – WHO did WHAT to you?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg r u alright? im concerned now? awwww honey try to keep your head on
and dont get too upset bc if someone treated you in a nasty way – then always remember its not worth shedding your tears if the person did that to you
but omg…. tellm e..whats wrong?
Scar face:Now…..
How do I feel?? Seriously truly feel??
Cheated, used and absolutely freaking pissed off at someone I trusted, truly damn trusted
Whom I have found out to be a liar…an…..an…an…an
My choicest words which I will not Screeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaam out loud on a public forum…
How can one go on believing in another human this way..
Sweetheart wahts wrong? omg – WHO did WHAT to you?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg r u alright? im concerned now? awwww honey try to keep your head on
and dont get too upset bc if someone treated you in a nasty way – then always remember its not worth shedding your tears if the person did that to you
but omg…. tellm e..whats wrong?
Hey guys…well its the let your feeling out thread and everything…
I m just wondering something…….. if you guys ever like someone and they like you right
do you ever get upset/hurt when they go out with their friends or spend time with their friends?
and um..is it normal…to feel upset & mad to the extreme? .. or …not?
Hey Kavita…stop worrying about what is normal and what is abnormal.
If he likes you, then don't worry about him going out with his friends. Sometimes a guy wants to spend time with his friends rather than his girlfriend. That doesn't mean he doesn't like you, Kavita. and I think you should talk to him about whatever it is that is bothering you. The most important things in a relationship are trust and understanding. Trust and understand each other, then you won't have a problem.
Take care, hunnz.
Hey Rani..
Well its not much that..with 'relationship' … I just…. its just…. Im not supposed to be doing any of this you know
and any time I can get to talk to him or whatever I put that time for him only bc I know its not really right to go ahead and do
all these stuff … taking into consideration my upbringing and my parents and everything …
but I dont know why i feel so bad if he tells me he is going with his friends … i just feel sort of like really bad.. i mean..i know i have no other
in the world to be wtih and stuff…and i sort of realized..something..maybe if I HAD friends and if I HAD people to hang with..then maybe it would be like this
and I wouldnt feel liek this when he does it … but then agian i cant explain what i feel… i just know that alot of pple would think this this is abnormal
but maybe its abnormal bc i am abnormal or something
thanks alot honey
Hey hey hey, don't you ever call yourself abnormal, Kavita. If you're not normal, then I don't know what is. What you're feeling are emotions every human may feel at one point or another in their life.
and about not having friends, don't say that. The more you put yourself down, the more you will believe it, trust me, I've been there. Just make friends the way you made friends on this forum. Talk to people, be yourself, don't put on a facade, be friendly. And I know you can do it.
And…if you know it's not right to do what you're doing, then hunny…don't do it. Going behind your parents back and going out with a guy isn't a great idea. Think about what your parents will think if they find out, they might not trust you anymore. Don't ever give your parents a reason to not trust you. No guy is worth that. Your parents will do for you, what no other person will. No guy, no friend, no cousin, no one, will sacrifice themselves for you the way your parents will. No one is worth more than your parents.
Always do what is right.
I'm not saying you should just go and break up with this guy, I don't want to be responsible for that. I'm just telling you to think it over, hunny. And talk to someone who knows a bit more about your situation than I do, and you can always pm me if you need me.
Take care, Kavita. And keep your head up.
Kavs Rani si right And calling yourself Abnormal get that out of your mind.
And you do have friends you have us even thought we are far. And also i agree with Rani about your parent no matter how many people come and go in and out of your life you willa lwyas have your parent and you will always need them so think about every little that you plan on taking
Love you guys
kavita_0026:Hey Rani..
Well its not much that..with 'relationship' … I just…. its just…. Im not supposed to be doing any of this you know
ur not supposed to be doing any of what sweety?? dating?? or loving?? or just not wanting yr b/f to spend time with his friends coz right now u need him more?? I dont think one shud feel a certain way just because its wat everyone else deems right..u are u , an individual, with yr own feelings and thoughts etc…so if u feel a lil resentful towards him spending time with his friends its NOT A BAD THING…its just the way u feel, u can change this by actually trying to figure out WHY u feel this way…coz u obviously would like him to spend time with his friends but ……theres dat feeling………… I am not sure if I am making any sense here anyways..
and any time I can get to talk to him or whatever I put that time for him only bc I know its not really right to go ahead and do
all these stuff … taking into consideration my upbringing and my parents and everything …but I dont know why i feel so bad if he tells me he is going with his friends … i just feel sort of like really bad.. i mean..i know i have no other
in the world to be wtih and stuff…and i sort of realized..something..maybe if I HAD friends and if I HAD people to hang with..then maybe it would be like this
and I wouldnt feel liek this when he does it … but then agian i cant explain what i feel… i just know that alot of pple would think this this is abnormal
but maybe its abnormal bc i am abnormal or somethingwat ??????? I repeat WAT????
u definitely having one of em paranoia moments thinking this, Kavs,( am kidding hun ) I suggest u read this very carefully…………..
U HAVE FRIENDS ,U HAVE FRIENDS ,U HAVE FRIENDS
U have Mara, Ranz and ME off coz…….okies I am apparently not much of a people, coz u knw aliens are considered
species of sorts but I AM HERE, ALWAYS HAVE BEEN AND ALWAYS WILL BE….u know that……and u also know that if anything is worrying u – that u can talk to me…ANYTIME….ok…i knw things are going really bad now but it will get better, wait and see….
I knw we are seperated by this darn net….errrr an the ocean and zillion km lol but u have ME…..cannot stress enuf …..aaaand I promise u I will send u my reply as soon as I can get sum frikkin spare minutes…..am sending u lotza luv and hugz sweety
thanks alot honey
Okies me will just send u an email laterz, luw ye Kavz, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand thanks for alll the mail and am sowrie I wasnt here sweety
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Hey hey hey, don't you ever call yourself abnormal, Kavita. If you're not normal, then I don't know what is. What you're feeling are emotions every human may feel at one point or another in their life.
Yup Kavs, pleeeeeeeeez dnt beat yrself up for being like any normal person by callin yrself abnormal …………Jeeez sweety….
and about not having friends, don't say that. The more you put yourself down, the more you will believe it, trust me, I've been there. Just make friends the way you made friends on this forum. Talk to people, be yourself, don't put on a facade, be friendly. And I know you can do it.
And…if you know it's not right to do what you're doing, then hunny…don't do it. Going behind your parents back and going out with a guy isn't a great idea. Think about what your parents will think if they find out, they might not trust you anymore. Don't ever give your parents a reason to not trust you. No guy is worth that. Your parents will do for you, what no other person will. No guy, no friend, no cousin, no one, will sacrifice themselves for you the way your parents will. No one is worth more than your parents.
Hmmm I actually think that u cant really trust ANYONE …except the almighty in whichever name u call him by ….sooooo
hon trust in the one above ( even though u cant see touch feel ) and have faith ……..things will improve…
***no disrespect to my parents , the rest of my family, extended family as well as friends….***
aaand Kavs, dis not just yr folks, dnt give ANYONE a reason NOT to trust u…
TRUST/HONESTY in any relationship (whichever name u call it )
should be based with just that……and yes NO guy is worth the effort and yr love if theres dishonesty. lying etc involved
…at the end of the day, its up to the individual to decide whether my words hold any value…..as I dnt want to be
responsible for any regrets as such….
always do what is right.
I'm not saying you should just go and break up with this guy, I don't want to be responsible for that. I'm just telling you to think it over, hunny. And talk to someone who knows a bit more about your situation than I do, and you can always pm me if you need me.
Take care, Kavita. And keep your head up.
Aaaaaaw ranz, I didnt see yr response, very sweeeet hon and as usual u make a lot of sense in what u say….
Big hugz to u my dear…
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Take care, Kavita. And keep your head up.
Da Bestest is correct on this. Listen to ker Kavz!
And always keep ya head up!
RaNi iS ThE BeS:
And…if you know it's not right to do what you're doing, then hunny…don't do it. Going behind your parents back and going out with a guy isn't a great idea. Think about what your parents will think if they find out, they might not trust you anymore. Don't ever give your parents a reason to not trust you. No guy is worth that. Your parents will do for you, what no other person will. No guy, no friend, no cousin, no one, will sacrifice themselves for you the way your parents will. No one is worth more than your parents.
Always do what is right.
Just my take on this, Kavita… please note that I am not telling you what to do, and how to do it… as I said, it is just my take on this… you can feel free to agree, disagree or argue with me… I’m cool, and I hope you are, too…
What do you mean 'right'? Do you FEEL right, in your heart, in your conscience? If no, then as Rani said, I'd rethink the situation… but if you do feel it is right in your conscience, even if it is for only a short while, then f*** what everyone else tells you. It's not THEIR hearts you have inside you, it's YOURS… and you have to carry it in your body, and when it feels heavy with “what ifs”, it hurts like hell. I wouldn't go against my heart, if I were you. Trust me, it will win every battle at the end of the day.
“Going behind your parents' back and going out with a guy isn't a great idea.”… but do YOU feel it is a great idea? This isn't your parents' life Kavita, it is yours to give to whomever you like, as much or as little as you like. If you would rather live for your parents, then by all means go ahead. But if you'd rather live for this guy, then by all means go ahead too. All I'm saying is – it's YOUR life. YOU make the decisions – not me, not Rani, not your parents… just you.
Whether you care about what your parents (or indeed, anyone) says or not, and whether they will trust you in the future or not, and whether they approve of this idea or not… is entirely up to you. If you choose to care, then please do… but if you don't choose to care, then don't let ANYONE tell you otherwise.
“Don't ever give your parents a reason to not trust you. No guy is worth that. Your parents will do for you, what no other
Hugs to all of my sweet sister i love you all so much … you all are just here at my emotional rescue i cant imagine what i would have done otherwise
Rani my love , How are you? Thank you so much for giving me these words you're so sweet… I guess I shouldnt use the word 'abnormal' then..its just..that I sort of see my self 'singled' out , if you know what I mean …. and when I saw my self singled out thats when i felt it was okay to maybe associate the situation with something that wasnt normal or what everyone does
Well its something that you guys dont know about me becuase I havent told anyone but no I dont really have friends I guess maybe bc i dont really talk alot or something… I dont know. And before i didnt think it mattered bc I just wanted to be loyal in every way for my parents and studies and everything..
And it still doesnt matter … bc maybe that is who I am you know? … but since this whole situation with this guy has come up…it just sort of prompted me to ask myself you know… why should i feel this way ; bc if i told this thing to any one they would probably laugh and say i shouldnt be that way ( well not you guys bc u guys r my friends ) but i guess pple looking in a judgemental way.
About going behind my parents back – well i've had a hard time with that and ended up corrupting my own body and self bc of it but no no I would not do that; my parents know who this guy is and he has come over to our home a few times… I know parents will give up anything for us
And Rani honey dont say 'break up ' with this guy bc … i cant accept he fact that im 'in' some..thing bc maybe not..i guess i just dont like to have this idea stereotypical name of 'boyfriend' or girlfriend or relationship or 'break up' im not use to it and it isnt routine for me so if i do 'break' it will be only once
Guys…dont think this guy is a bad person..dont get me wrong.. he is a very wonderful, kind person
i just dont know why ifelt the way i feel… which again promted the thought about the whole friend thing…if i had many firneds and stuff… then i would find what he is doing …is absolutely GREAT…hey even maybe i would have asked him to go out with him and his friendS..who knows…
but i dont have and mayb ethats why i see it different and maybe take it in a different way…….. oh god..this is too long sorry guys but i have to get this out… and im sure u guys want to hear to ge a better understanding of what is happening …… anyway thank you all
love you all always
kavi
Marine:Kavs Rani si right And calling yourself Abnormal get that out of your mind.
And you do have friends you have us even thought we are far. And also i agree with Rani about your parent no matter how many people come and go in and out of your life you willa lwyas have your parent and you will always need them so think about every little that you plan on taking
Love you guys
Hey Marine.. love …thanks..i guess i should take this 'abnormal' term out of my mind huh….
Aww guys i know you all are my friends that why i love you all so much i really do …even though i know we are far apart.. somthing i got from another thread was – we are all around the globe yet support each other and i think that is so amazing
alieaaa love…thank you so much for the response … as thanks go out to all of you all
gosh i actually laughed alot after reading your response..you'r supportive and funny ..good thing… yes i knowwww we're separated by the ocean and a zillion km ha.. but i'll be here for you too if you need any time to talk
and what is this thing about you ..and this..alien species!! if i remembered correctly it was oreo who started some kind of thing that u're from out of space
i know you were trying tomake me smile with that..
Yes..guys I know..I respect my parents alot and treat them and think about them before every decision i make bc they are the ones who are supporting me and keeping me and ..enduring me…
oh when i said im not supposed to be doing this..i sort of meant 'loving' i guess… i dont know… i thought it was wrong and stuff … but lately i've beging to figure out its not 100% wrong and immoral to love someone and at least i should not feel 100% guilty just to -love- someone ( have the feeling ) especially when my parents know who the person is and everything…. but i dont knw..i guess im getting 'used' to this whole ..thinking… well u're right about ..being who i am …and if i have feelings then it is what it is despite of 'norms' or what society thinks..but im just saying…shud i feel like this…..i mean u r totally right i feel HORRIBLE to feel upset bc he has dealings with his friends… bc i know he's sort of having negative emotions also ( he feels happy w hen he goes by his friends of course – so when i say not to gothere i guess he feels … unhappy? – so thast what make me feel unhappy too ) .. but why is he feeling that unhappy if he doesnt go there… with them and all… taking into consideration everything with parents with studies everything..it is NOT like i can see him on a basis or timely regular basis so when ever i do see him why should he even think of going somewhere he can go
agian..dont think he is a bad person he is a wonderful person and he is very kind and wonderufl and has a good heart..but maybe im the … @%^#@ one for being like that… i dont know ..but like i said..its not like I WANT TO DO THIS..OR I HAVE A DESIRE TO MAKE HIM UPSET..I DONT!!! its just that sometiems i get these feelings that i cant control
Booji – Hi…I must say…. a big..wow… wow wow wow..dont worry, Raniji wont be upset with you ..it is just your opinon on something like raniji had on the same thing …alright..ok im still wowing… you're right in a lot of ways..i mean it is my heart …ad you know what for a very long tim I have been fighting this heart..bc i didnt think it was moral to …fall into… you know what…. but… i gues now it seems like its winning and the only thing is just accept…but the thing is…loving someone makes it so much more easier for you toget hurt..and i swear i am considered a cold person ..well..was…well…… imean 'cold' in the sense that u know sometimes we hear feel see understand things but… you put this barrier around you so that nothing would hurt you bc you know if it hurts it will hurt real darn bad .. and im not meaning love only..just..other stuff.. Really i want to say thanks…bc .. thanks alottt!! i mean… u r right… a lot depends on myself… and… i have to figure stuff out..but i guess that where i get all confused..the figuring out part… but thanks alot… i mena..i tried to always do was was 'right' and 'moral' ( and u know this doesnt include 'loving' – well..for me! ) … .but it seems like i have…and now im actually seeing how… its not all of that immoral to..love… i mean.. to leave the heart and not fight it bc i fought it so much… u r so right…. my viewpoint …bc it is me… and the part where u said i have to carry this heart… omg..that is so true! thx alot *hugs* for u… n yea im cool too don worry abt it haha
nessaji thanks alot for the chin up
thanks alot u guys!! ok every1 of u said somthing like..'im not being responsilble for this but ….. ” just want to tell you guys that dont be feeling 'guilty ' or scared to tell me something of what ur advice is bc … i wont run off and do anything but ur advice is aiding me … from the point of cheering me up … supporting me…to the point of guiding me
okay guys…i feel weird talking about this..i mean what if this guy came here and saw all this!! .. i mean..i dont mean to make him sound 'mean' or anything bc he is Not he eally is not …..gosh…okay maybe i shud stop now about this … hehe..thank u all..i know I MADE ALOT OF POSTS..sooorrrrryyyyyyy its just..had soooo much to say
love you all … hugs kisses hugs kisses
kavi
Scar face:Aaaaaaw ranz, I didnt see yr response, very sweeeet hon and as usual u make a lot of sense in what u say….Big hugz to u my dear…
awww! That comes as a compliment considering the fact that I can never express myself and people end up being all confused. lol!
Nessa! Hi! Miss youuuu! Did you get my e-mail?
boo:And Rani, my beautiful twin ji… I really hope I didn’t offend you with this post. It is genuinely not my intention to… this is just what I felt… what I had to say to Kavita…
I lub you!! Hey, of course not. You gave her your point of view, and I gave her mine. I did my duty as a friend to try and help out, I can't do any more than that. I don't care whose advice she takes, as long as she is happy.
kavita_0026:About going behind my parents back – well i've had a hard time with that and ended up corrupting my own body and self bc of it but no no I would not do that; my parents know who this guy is and he has come over to our home a few times… I know parents will give up anything for us
When you were talking about your parents, I thought you meant that they didn't know about any of this. I'm sorry for the misunderstanding.
kavita_0026:And Rani honey dont say 'break up ' with this guy bc … i cant accept he fact that im 'in' some..thing bc maybe not..i guess i just dont like to have this idea stereotypical name of 'boyfriend' or girlfriend or relationship or 'break up' im not use to it and it isnt routine for me so if i do 'break' it will be only once
I'm sorry, I didn't know.
And I'm sure the guy isn't a horrible person if you feel what you're feeling for him.
kavita_0026:dont worry, Raniji wont be upset with you ..it is just your opinon on something like raniji had on the same thing
exactly.
I don't agree with some stuff boo said, but hey, who cares? That's her opinion. What I do works out for me, and as long as what Kavita does works out for her, I'm happy.
blah
*prisoner no.0026 fav song*:
No more maybes. Your babys got rabies. Sittin on a ball. In the middle of the andes
Yeah Im a freak (of nature) Yeah Im a freak
If only I could be as cool as you. As cool as you
Body and soul Im a freak Im a freak. Body and soul Im a freak
ok..so that was comic talking. now lets get serio on board…
you think of me just like a butterfly, you wanna pin me to yr wall so I can never fly
just like a flower that u need to dry, caught between two books squeeze me till I die!!
so prisoner 0026..me thinks yr possesiveness nature is out. and to some extent jealous to the fact that he has other things besides u while u have him only at this moment in time. i say keep yerself busy w things when he is out w his friends…they say an idle mind is a devil's workshop!!
he's schizooo I tell u…!!!
Hey Oreo is back why is when there is something seriouse going ont hat when you show up?
Well all whats up.
Kavs your right we are all from different place but still we are one family and thats the way god made it and thats the way it should be
U laffed, a whole lot???, well ***trying to pat myself on the back*** am glad to hear this
its not nice worrying sooo much all the time, and this comes from the preeencess of worrydome
Alien species, well yeah it was cosmic who mentioned this and kept callin me alien….hahahaha
(((am assumin he wanted to piss me off, highly unlikely off coz…)))
in a way he was r8, I am an alien of sorts, to this world, to the people i call friends an family
I feel alienated and would love to jet off on a kick a$$ spaceship r8 now hahaha
to where I belong????????????????
…earth sux r8 now
okaaaay will stop with all the space talk…..
aaaaaaaaaaaand hun my whole intention was
to bring back that smile on yr face soooo am happy it worked 😉
I knw yr guy aint a monster and pleeez do ignore lil ol Scarry…
I am just having an awful awful year so far soooooooo am being a bit negative towards the male species
especially them male species….
Feelings are feelings, like love is love
I think to an extent we can control our feelings but it depends on the depth of it and the situation off coz…
ok am just thinking about myself now, being a bit selfish, seeing as this is the **feelings** thread….
i feel seriously confused and irritated, really irritated, am breaking the fones and screaming at people, screaming at my poor
mom *****wiping away tears for being sooooo nasty********
all of this is making the guys I work with roll over with laughter which made me laugh after screaming at them
i feel blessed to have the strength to smile when all i wanna do is CRY ..I knw Mara hates us bollywood crying heroins hahahaha
but I feel this way now…..lol ..
laughing, crying, screaming, what else????????? wat next???????? Mom is going bak tonite
An aunt of mine had passed away, I repeat …..wat next?????………..was good to see her after 2 whole months 😉
off coz I am writing/typing with a bleary eye, lotza emotion today, pent up anger….
so wat I say may not make much sense at all, PLEASE IGNORE…
ps: Am losing a friend I called sister, a friend i shared soooo much with, a bond I thought would neva wither…
Scar face:An aunt of mine had passed away, I repeat …..wat next?????………..was good to see her after 2 whole months 😉
off coz I am writing/typing with a bleary eye, lotza emotion today, pent up anger….
so wat I say may not make much sense at all, PLEASE IGNORE…
ps: Am losing a friend I called sister, a friend i shared soooo much with, a bond I thought would neva wither…
Hey my loves, how are you all? Rani marine ..scarry (yeah m gonna start caslling you this since thats what every1 calls you!) booji
nice to see you all still replying…and just wanted to say thank you all so much n i know i didnt explain 100% what was happening so that sorta had
ya'll a lil confused … but thanks a million you have no idea how better it all made me feel …….so thanks alot guysu're all so sweet! … by the way did i tell you…. you know right now me and him are not talking…bc of this whole stupid thing..i am such a stupid girl oreo you are so right i need to stop being so possessive ! i feel kinda bad now coz i know i brought him off as like the 'mean' one buit when it really boils down to the end its me im the mean one huh…i mean…. how can i be so possessive of him
as for oreoji!! omg..oreo actually being nice to me give me brotherly advice – i feel special now lol thanks for the advice oreo sniffs….. but where did u go for all this time
aliea sweetheart now you are confusing me you are in a time of need and never say sorry …or NEVER tell us to ignore you bc we will never do that …JUST tell us your feelings and what ever you wrote was so deep but not sure what is happening…there with you – what did this guy do to you? bc it seem like he has upset my sweet little scarry and that doesnt maake me feel good at all …about your mom…aww hugs* oh honey..make things right..and keep your head up and dont let anyone upset your heart ….and about htis friend you are losing…… sniffs… i feel sorry to hear about all these thing but tell us more and let your feeling out and the more you tell the more we will udnerstand the situation and be able to advise you or tell you right things … about the passing away…oh honey*hug* have my sympathy i am so sorry to hear about it – tell us your heart
love ya'll
Scar face:i feel seriously confused and irritated, really irritated, am breaking the fones and screaming at people, screaming at my poor
mom *****wiping away tears for being sooooo nasty********
all of this is making the guys I work with roll over with laughter which made me laugh after screaming at them
i feel blessed to have the strength to smile when all i wanna do is CRY ..I knw Mara hates us bollywood crying heroins hahahaha
but I feel this way now…..lol ..
laughing, crying, screaming, what else????????? wat next???????? Mom is going bak tonite
An aunt of mine had passed away, I repeat …..wat next?????………..was good to see her after 2 whole months 😉
off coz I am writing/typing with a bleary eye, lotza emotion today, pent up anger….
so wat I say may not make much sense at all, PLEASE IGNORE…
ps: Am losing a friend I called sister, a friend i shared soooo much with, a bond I thought would neva wither…
Oh sweetheart, I don tever want to hear about you crying – ever! aww honey… try to make it up to your sweet mom before she goes back…oh honey you must miss her alot when she was gone and now she is here and bc you are having a hard time … you just let your anger out
Dont feel too bad, instead, just explain toherwhats going on and it will make her understand even more why you acted the way you did
dont keep your anger pent up sis… it doesnt do you any good….take it out here… if its so hazardous to take out in real life, take it out here type it out … pent up anger does not do you any good hon… get it out ..free your mind lift the weight off of it..type type type
dont worry although you have been feeling confused and irritated everyone around still loves you very very much
and..about this guy..how dre he hurt you? i dont know wht he did..but how dare he!
Unique_princess:he's schizooo I tell u…!!!
lol
kavita_0026:nessaji thanks alot for the chin up
love you all … hugs kisses hugs kisses
kavi
Anytime Kav, and that's the truth!
I'm sure I speak for quite a few here when I say, we love you also!
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Nessa! Hi! Miss youuuu! Did you get my e-mail?
I miss u too Da Bestest and NOOOOOO I have seen no email!
U aren't getting my PMs, I'm not getting ur emails…houston, we have a problem! hahaha
Try again please!
serioComic:me thinks yr possesiveness nature is out. and to some extent jealous to the fact that he has other things besides u while u have him only at this moment in time. i say keep yerself busy w things when he is out w his friends…they say an idle mind is a devil's workshop!!
This is pretty good advise Kav. By keeping urself busy, u won't notice the time he spends with his friends. Find something that interests you (besides him ) and concentrate on it (ie, reading, drawing…)! It will broaden your mind and give you two something to speak about when u are together.
Hey … yeah i was surprised oreo actually gave warm advice……
i know i know …… it is a good advice but…the thing is.. i mean wouldnt you feel bad i mean if you dont even get to see him on a regular basis and then when he comes by you how would you feel for him to say he has to leave now to go by his friends ( why cant he go by them, it so easy to go by THEM on regular basis bc they dont even have parents around to have to beg and ask for permission )
anyway…. we arent talking now ;… i feel very sick …. and that is really upsetting me bc i have so much homework to do soo gotta go gather the strength and do it … i just dont know what to say… im not like them who ever said that i was special for pple to wnt to stay with me … but anyway …..no more talk about this topic..
love
kavi
Nessa:RaNi iS ThE BeS:Nessa! Hi! Miss youuuu! Did you get my e-mail?
I miss u too Da Bestest and NOOOOOO I have seen no email!
U aren't getting my PMs, I'm not getting ur emails…houston, we have a problem! hahaha
Try again please!
OhmyAllah! We need to do somehting about this. I have to go to the Mosque in a few minutes, but I'm gonna send you an e-mail when I get back Inshallah, and if it doesn't work…I'm gonna sue somebody! lol. (Americans. *rolls eyes* something goes wrong and we immediately threaten to sue! hehe)
Kavita, listen to Oreo ji, he has great advice, Mashallah. It's cuz he's a guy, they have such practical advice. lol. and Nessa ji is right, we love you, and believe u too, keep ur head up and smile. take care hunnz.
yup, listen to me and you will have less headache and minimal heartache. have laughter as your appetizer, sarcasm as your main course and humour as dessert. and to top it off, i'll throw in a free cup of wit and charm, shaken but not stirred.
serioComic:yup, listen to me and you will have less headache and minimal heartache. have laughter as your appetizer, sarcasm as your main course and humour as dessert. and to top it off, i'll throw in a free cup of wit and charm, shaken but not stirred.
okay whatever u say DADDYji…. I also want a free cup of witz and tonza charmz, stirred NOT shaken plz, thank u 😉
kavz, on a serious note, cosmics r8, we women tend to advise with our emotions on the sleeve ( mizz boo not included )
whereas men tend to look at things logically….at least at certain times
serioComic:yup, listen to me and you will have less headache and minimal heartache. have laughter as your appetizer, sarcasm as your main course and humour as dessert. and to top it off, i'll throw in a free cup of wit and charm, shaken but not stirred.
wah!
Scar face:kavz, on a serious note, cosmics r8, we women tend to advise with our emotions on the sleeve ( mizz boo not included )
Should I take that as a compliment, or an insult, or neither?
boo:Scar face:kavz, on a serious note, cosmics r8, we women tend to advise with our emotions on the sleeve ( mizz boo not included )
Should I take that as a compliment, or an insult, or neither?
waddaya think?????
Compliment, yaar… for sure…
serioComic:yup, listen to me and you will have less headache and minimal heartache. have laughter as your appetizer, sarcasm as your main course and humour as dessert. and to top it off, i'll throw in a free cup of wit and charm, shaken but not stirred.
oreo you actually care about me — sniffs –*bawling*[:'(]
hug*
thank you
Scar face:serioComic:yup, listen to me and you will have less headache and minimal heartache. have laughter as your appetizer, sarcasm as your main course and humour as dessert. and to top it off, i'll throw in a free cup of wit and charm, shaken but not stirred.okay whatever u say DADDYji…. I also want a free cup of witz and tonza charmz, stirred NOT shaken plz, thank u 😉
kavz, on a serious note, cosmics r8, we women tend to advise with our emotions on the sleeve ( mizz boo not included )
whereas men tend to look at things logically….at least at certain times
lol ali.. sniffs..well maybe i' got caught up with these emotional sleeve..so what do i do now to feel better..be cold????!!
I FEEL SO OVERWHELMED WITH LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*touchwood* … but, knowing my crazy world, it won’t last long… sigh.
OH MY GOD!!!! I was sitting in the train this morning, and on the other side of the train, there was such a wonderfull, handsome, OMG, Saif Ali Khan look-a-like!!!! I'm not such a big Saif fan, but this guy was… yummy!!! I just couldn't help myself, I've kept staring at him untill I had to get out… Aaaaaahhhh, sometimes delays are SOOOOOO nice
(ok, that was random, but hey! This IS the totally random thread )
Ow… it's not, hahahahahahaha. Never mind, it had to do with feelings, so my post will fit in this thread as well
Sweet dreams tonight yaar… I think as soon as you reach your pillow, you will slowly dream away, thinking about the Saif Ali Khan look-a-like…
kavita_0026:oreo you actually care about me — sniffs –*bawling*[:'(]
hug*
thank you
*send shiverssssss down me spine*
im allergic to hugz so u can take that back.
Am Rani:OH MY GOD!!!! I was sitting in the train this morning, and on the other side of the train, there was such a wonderfull, handsome, OMG, Saif Ali Khan look-a-like!!!! I'm not such a big Saif fan, but this guy was… yummy!!! I just couldn't help myself, I've kept staring at him untill I had to get out… Aaaaaahhhh, sometimes delays are SOOOOOO nice
(ok, that was random, but hey! This IS the totally random thread )
Am Rani ji!!!!!
You HAVE been in my thoughts… just wondering where you'd disappeared off to madame…
Oreo ji – allergic to hugs? Whaaaaaaaaat? Even OUR Khushi's jhappis?
*send shiverssssss down me spine*
lmao …shiverz down ye spine?? dats a good thing dude…soo Kavz me suggests u send more hugz to warm up
cosmic, and do soo quickly before Nitzkar comes back and contaminate him with evilness
im allergic to hugz so u can take that back.
no probz theres pills for allergies sooo dis kewl now u can receive em freely
Am Rani:OH MY GOD!!!! I was sitting in the train this morning, and on the other side of the train, there was such a wonderfull, handsome, OMG, Saif Ali Khan look-a-like!!!! I'm not such a big Saif fan, but this guy was… yummy!!! I just couldn't help myself, I've kept staring at him untill I had to get out… Aaaaaahhhh, sometimes delays are SOOOOOO nice
(ok, that was random, but hey! This IS the totally random thread )
Oh wowwwwwwwwwwwwww lol … well that was a nice treat for you huh… Amraniji!!! How are you? And Shakz!!!! Omg… you guys are back where did you guys go? I wasnt here for al ogn time until ike 1 week ago when i came back also…… wow..hey if i rememebred correctly before i left for that while – one of u guys said u got engaged – i believe it was shakz? coz then an engaged person who is sooooooo overly happy with her new guy probably wont be admiring a saif ali khan look alike and call him yummy lol
aliea – right back at you girl – gots to send more hugs back to oreo to warm him up lol – he's being so nice! — dont worry oreo – u cant be allergic to something as loving as hugs n plus alie will throw a bundle of hugs for u so u wud get used to them
serioComic:kavita_0026:oreo you actually care about me — sniffs –*bawling*[:'(]
hug*
thank you
*send shiverssssss down me spine*
im allergic to hugz so u can take that back.
hugs for oreo for being so nice
I'm sad.
I'm having a horrible day and the worst isn't even over yet…this is gonna be a really long day. Ya Allah, please help me.
uff………….
*Takbeer*
RaNi iS ThE BeS:I'm sad.
I'm having a horrible day and the worst isn't even over yet…this is gonna be a really long day. Ya Allah, please help me.
uff………….
*Takbeer*
Awwww Shweetoo, having a rough day today. Don't worry, the sun will set and will rise again with a new day. I know nothing can be done for what has to happen will happen- BUT… I can do a little something to cheer you up….
Love you lots n lots n lots n lots n lots…..
Mmmmmmmmmwah! *Bigggg Hugggg*
xxx
RaNi iS ThE BeS:I'm sad.
I'm having a horrible day and the worst isn't even over yet…this is gonna be a really long day. Ya Allah, please help me.
uff………….
*Takbeer*
I love juuu Rani. These are the rough days. gah, I've been havin' em a lot lately. Insha'Allah everything will be just fine.
stay well yaar.
Ek voel baie baie moeg….
sad coz my fwend just resigned from work…
happy coz its wat she wanted to do for a while now
tired coz I partied the n8 away and am reallllly sleepy
elated coz my sis got an A level pass…she was really ill during her exams
Irritated coz this lady at this joint thought i was a ***,oh my gawd, I almost fainted.
impatient, coz I want this day at work to go by faster, need to go hommmmmmmmee..
blessed to have good friends and family….
grateful for being able to have another stressful day on this maddening earth
okies will stop now….hahahahaha
RaNi iS ThE BeS:I'm sad.
I'm having a horrible day and the worst isn't even over yet…this is gonna be a really long day. Ya Allah, please help me.
uff………….
*Takbeer*
I'm having too many of those recently, too…
Hang in there Rani………………..
boo:RaNi iS ThE BeS:I'm sad.
I'm having a horrible day and the worst isn't even over yet…this is gonna be a really long day. Ya Allah, please help me.
uff………….
*Takbeer*
TO BOTH OF U
CHECK YR PMS
LUWYE
I'm having too many of those recently, too…
Hang in there Rani………………..
RaNi iS ThE BeS:I'm sad.
I'm having a horrible day and the worst isn't even over yet…this is gonna be a really long day. Ya Allah, please help me.
uff………….
*Takbeer*
For My sweet Raniji.
My love, do not worry about the day. Sometimes we have bad days but think of it as – “it will blow away soon” fashion – and remember
we are all here for you and here with you so come and let your feelings out and off of your chest
for feelings locked in never do u good
Hugs to you my darling – Cheer up – Here is a big HUG
Cheer up little angel – you will be fine – dont worry to much – cheer up – smIle – promise that you will smile after reading this!
love -kavi
kavz dats sooooo Tweet hun 😉
Scar face:Ek voel baie baie moeg….
sad coz my fwend just resigned from work…
happy coz its wat she wanted to do for a while now
tired coz I partied the n8 away and am reallllly sleepy
elated coz my sis got an A level pass…she was really ill during her exams
Irritated coz this lady at this joint thought i was a ***,oh my gawd, I almost fainted.
impatient, coz I want this day at work to go by faster, need to go hommmmmmmmee..
blessed to have good friends and family….
grateful for being able to have another stressful day on this maddening earth
okies will stop now….hahahahaha
Aww Hugs to all of my sweet sisters… Ali…have i ever told you that your speaking is like POETRY!!! I must learn from you
so intelligent! really..do you write poetry? whenever you write (even somethig normal) like up there , it is so deeeep
awww….who thought you were a les…? maybe SHE WAS!
ali are you like online right now?! lol
Scar face:Irritated coz this lady at this joint thought i was a ***,oh my gawd, I almost fainted.
grateful for being able to have another stressful day on this maddening earth
1. LOL…. hahahahaha….. NOTHING againsts lesbians, of course… but just the fact that you almost fainted and felt irritated… LOL… what a compliment to you eh? LOL…. sorrysorrysorry…. I still love you!! Hey gaydar seems… in excellent condition… hahaha….
(Man. STILL can't stop laughing!)
2. *snort*…. grateful?? for being able to have another STRESSFUL day??
hahaha…. ali…. you make me smile man…
i know…! she totally does! her words just sorta go with the flow of everything…
boo:RaNi iS ThE BeS:I'm sad.
I'm having a horrible day and the worst isn't even over yet…this is gonna be a really long day. Ya Allah, please help me.
uff………….
*Takbeer*
I'm having too many of those recently, too…
Hang in there Rani………………..
Girls…
OH gosh Kavz, am not not sure what to say…seriously
Errrrr hun, nope am not into poetry..and honestly dont think i write in a poetic way…
however I do have a friend who is a poet, I mentioned her yesterday, Gossamer, will ask her to give u sum tips ..
dnt even know if dat makes sense hahahahaha
Intelligent?? Moi……….*********************blushing like a 5 year old************** Jeeez lol
I simply write the way I feel ………I dnt write poetry, but have posted a few words here on the forum hahahahahaaaa
Deeeeeep?? u really think sooo?? hmmm told u guys I am a serious chic nah, but deeep
wow u really are making me blush hon…
as for dat chic at the club, yeah we think shes a les…but wat da heck….eeeuyuk her thinking I am one????
naaaahaaaa…. i was chatting to her outa courtesy…the usual hi and wateva….
well at least da women think I am HOT lol
ok dat aint funny …take it bak…
i cant believe this
Right back at ya khushi
n everyone
Right back at ye
~Khushi~:boo:RaNi iS ThE BeS:I'm sad.
I'm having a horrible day and the worst isn't even over yet…this is gonna be a really long day. Ya Allah, please help me.
uff………….
*Takbeer*
I'm having too many of those recently, too…
Hang in there Rani………………..
Girls…
My darling… (LOL… that sounds uhm uhmm…. hahaha)
You don't know how much that means to me right now….
And you too Kavi… man! Go check your PMs…
Hey Ali! Whats up love
ooooooo Gossamer is that person that u weer talkin abt y'day – i got confused lol
awwwwwww why art thou blushin – you know you're an intelligent one!
oooooooooooooooooo you go to clubs??? ooooooo she was in a club lol – aww..but how u klnow she thinks u r a ***? nnnnnnnn nah dont take it back
BOW when someone thinks ur hot lol coz u're lucky
me don hae pple telling me that often no guyz
-er nor girl – lol
love yah huggies for u
boo:Scar face:Irritated coz this lady at this joint thought i was a ***,oh my gawd, I almost fainted.
grateful for being able to have another stressful day on this maddening earth
1. LOL…. hahahahaha….. NOTHING againsts lesbians, of course… but just the fact that you almost fainted and felt irritated… LOL… what a compliment to you eh? LOL…. sorrysorrysorry…. I still love you!! Hey gaydar seems… in excellent condition… hahaha….
(Man. STILL can't stop laughing!)
2. *snort*…. grateful?? for being able to have another STRESSFUL day??
Hi ladies..
Kush Hun…how r u my dear??
kavs yep am online 😉
Boo well at least my err experience made u laff. didye check yr pm sweety??
I have nuthing against les or gay ppl too, but ME, I REPEAT MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
CAN U IMAGINE MY SHOCK???
u knw when u are dancing, well when I am dancing, I am always running to ladies at intervals ( lousy songs )
to freshen up 😉 sooo dis lady starts chatting, saying to me : watya wasting time using more lipgloss coz u luk very cute jus the way u are
I smiled off coz, and continued doing my thing, then she starts telling me about herself and I am like ok ok ok ..shaking my head in response
but not really listening until she mentioned number…and I am like WHAT??
Didnt say bye was outa der in a flash
I didnt even get to tell Gossamer the full story coz we reached home only this am …my time
and yeah had no time to chat ….
honestly the men an women here are frikking MAD, totally mental, reminds me of cosmics assylum hahahaha
hahaha…. ali…. you make me smile man… kidding …
LOL heheheheheheeee geezh………… well…..maybe tons of mental pple go to those clubs
hehe …u was outta there in a flash huh …….rotfl
Sorry yaar… had to edit yr post… it was hard to find YOUR message in the middle of those quotes!! Hope ye don't mind…
“Didnt say bye was outa der in a flash” – hahahahah!!!!!!!!!! You are absolutely freaking crajee…. completely mental I tell ya!! No wonder you have so much of love around you woman…
*hugggggggggggggggggggggggggggssssssssssssss*
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww she gats love coz she's lovable not coz she's crazy..booji! hehehe
but if its so = she's crazy in the most lovable way ever – aww hugs shweetooo
Hey alia ( soz yaar, I keep getting confused with thy name!) how are uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu? how do u do! help me cheer up these two depressed sweeties! Ima make the whole world KHUSH
Woohoooo, BALLE BALLE on a FRIDAY FRIDAY, BALLE BALLE…… Love to watch you baby Go round round…round round ……..round round ……..round round *Khushi swirls round round *…….. Woooo, dizzy now!
vedy vedy funny kavs, I was seriously shocked….
I laffed about it latr with my fwends but still….why wud any1 think I am les type??
dnt mention the hugs and kisses I give to u guys ok…
Am not flattered, seriously…and am not going to that place again…and yeah Kavs
i do go to clubs but not to be picked up by women or men hahahaha
just to DANCE…dats the place u can have MUSIC LITERALLY FLOWING THROUGH U ….
luved dancing last n8
really wish u guys were der, u wud be feeling as good as i do now…
as for my writing skills…Jeeez cant believe u saying this in an open forum
u will have cosmic zeee—rating my way of expressing myself for sure…
how r u doing hun???
~Khushi~:Hey alia ( soz yaar, I keep getting confused with thy name!) how are uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu? how do u do! help me cheer up these two depressed sweeties! Ima make the whole world KHUSH
Woohoooo, BALLE BALLE on a FRIDAY FRIDAY, BALLE BALLE…… Love to watch you baby Go round round…round round ……..round round ……..round round *Khushi swirls round round *…….. Woooo, dizzy now!
YAAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel so emotional now………….. want to laugh my head off, and cry my heart out… sigh.
I wish I could be here with you guys right now…. riiiiigggghtttt nowwwwwww!!
Sigh… if only my wishes could come true!
Booji – omg – honey you areeeeee here with us!!! sniffs…i really wish though if one of these days we can all meet up …i treasure you guys so much you have no idea!
l******** holding khushi up *********** slow down hun… ya feel less dizzy now? come on = im gonna dance with ya……..*swirls n swirls* khushi..r ya dancin?
aliea..ooooh wow me never went to clubs before … but i guess its nice? i mean what kind of music do u dance to? nahhhhhhhhh oreo better not comment otherwise on ur writing compliments coz then we'd just have to prove to him how wrong his judgements are at times!
lets all swirl around with khushi **************swirls **************** im feelin the love in here …sniffs
boo kavs, Kush and Yumin, Lets have a nice looong group hug ok
I wish Ness and mara, shaks, amz and ranz were here tooo
if am missing out names forgive, okies
boo no probs hun, edit all u want….wat makes me happy r8 now is dat I got u guys to laff
doesnt matter if its at my expense ( am kewl wud dis ) but at least it worked….
I HAVE LOVE AROUND ME????????? WHERE??????? WHERE???? LIAR BOOO
theres no luw here …..lol….thnks sweetz, U have LOVE AROUND U TOOO. dnt eva forget this okies….
aaand kavs, sooooo sweet my angel 🙂
Kush, dnt worry about watye call me, alia, alie, al, scarry….hahahaha
aaand its with pleasure I shall try to assist u with making these beautiful people forget their problems for bit when in our errrrr presence lol…wat say Booo???
as fo balle balle on Sunday, okies ANYTIME…..luw dat song….
Boo sweety. if u read yr pm, then u will knw HOW I FEEL about u being here with US or my being there with YOU GUYS……
more luw to u sweety….aaand hey those problems can wait for another day nah????
“Woohoooo, BALLE BALLE on a FRIDAY FRIDAY, BALLE BALLE…… Love to watch you baby Go round round…round round ……..round round ……..round round “
these problems can WAIT for another day
they can wait THEY CAN WAIT
THEY CAN WAIT THEY CAN WAIT
THIS IIS OUR TIME OUR TIME OUR TIME OF HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GROUP HUG GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scar face:boo kavs, Kush and Yumin, Lets have a nice looong group hug ok
I wish Ness and mara, shaks, amz and ranz were here tooo
if am missing out names forgive, okies
boo no probs hun, edit all u want….wat makes me happy r8 now is dat I got u guys to laff
doesnt matter if its at my expense ( am kewl wud dis ) but at least it worked….
I HAVE LOVE AROUND ME????????? WHERE??????? WHERE???? LIAR BOOO
theres no luw here …..lol….thnks sweetz, U have LOVE AROUND U TOOO. dnt eva forget this okies….
aaand kavs, sooooo sweet my angel 🙂
Kush, dnt worry about watye call me, alia, alie, al, scarry….hahahaha
aaand its with pleasure I shall try to assist u with making these beautiful people forget their problems for bit when in our errrrr presence lol…wat say Booo???
as fo balle balle on Sunday, okies ANYTIME…..luw dat song….
Boo sweety. if u read yr pm, then u will knw HOW I FEEL about u being here with US or my being there with YOU GUYS……
more luw to u sweety….aaand hey those problems can wait for another day nah????
scarry ju rock yaar! *smiles*
OOOOOOO guys …cripezzzss!!!!!!!!!1 me gots to go
m sure these pple wont say this is online research for classwork hheheheee
love ya'll so much wish i cud stay u guys make me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy
love yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
kavi
I feel so emotional now………….. want to laugh my head off, and cry my heart out… sigh.
i knw exactly how u feel my dear, aaargh definitely dat time of the month lmao
kavita_0026:OOOOOOO guys …cripezzzss!!!!!!!!!1 me gots to go
m sure these pple wont say this is online research for classwork hheheheee
love ya'll so much wish i cud stay u guys make me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy
love yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
kavi
take care.
kavita_0026:OOOOOOO guys …cripezzzss!!!!!!!!!1 me gots to go
m sure these pple wont say this is online research for classwork hheheheee
love ya'll so much wish i cud stay u guys make me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy
love yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
kavi
bye my darling…..lmao, Jees still sneaking around at college hey
luw u sweetness…
p>
scarry ju rock yaar! *smiles*
Hmmmmm thanks yumz for confirming this
U see Cosmic …as clear as day…..
I rock for sure…
Yumz, hw u doing hun?? didye get my msgs????
lol, hope things are beta?? mmwah
Scar face:p>scarry ju rock yaar! *smiles*
Hmmmmm thanks yumz for confirming this
U see Cosmic …as clear as day…..
I rock for sure…
Yumz, hw u doing hun?? didye get my msgs????
lol, hope things are beta?? mmwah
lol,yeah and Cosmic be calling people blur…
Who cares what he thinks anyways? You rock
….my considerable socks
bahaha!
Everything's going okayish yaar. usual stress and all, but all is good Alhamdulillah.
how abt ya?
Sorry guys, but I just have to scream very hard, and since this is the thread “let your feelings out”…
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Yeah, that feels much better
I just sit here laughing, and my dad keeps asking what's wrong, hahahahaha. I'm laughing, ok, nothing is wrong! But I just can't explain how much fun I sometimes have, reading all your posts, and feeling all the “lurrvveee” being spread. Big kiss to all of you! MWAH!! (sorry Serio, just ignore)
Scar face:I feel so emotional now………….. want to laugh my head off, and cry my heart out… sigh.
i knw exactly how u feel my dear, aaargh definitely dat time of the month lmao
oye hoye!! this the “getting me back” part huh?
NOPE… not that time of the month… there's just so much sh!t going on… with intervals of so much of Love… I don't knw WHAT to feel but just feeeeeeeeel feeeeeeel feeeeeeeel all the emotions that come my way…. just let em flow through me, like the waves of the ocean….
no offence to whomever that gal is… but heck my face ain't like hers!
Am Rani:I just sit here laughing, and my dad keeps asking what's wrong, hahahahaha. I'm laughing, ok, nothing is wrong! But I just can't explain how much fun I sometimes have, reading all your posts, and feeling all the “lurrvveee” being spread. Big kiss to all of you! MWAH!! (sorry Serio, just ignore)
Okies enough lurve… PMs!!!!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dii… I love you oh so much.
Ninja…keep smiling, hunnz. If Allah brings you to it, He'll take you through it. Never lose faith and hope. I love you. and last night was superly duperly fun.
Boo… *hanging* You hang on as well, okay? Stay strong, twin ji. Just like the good times don't stay, neither do the bad times.
Scarrrry…your pms are filled with so much love. I'm sorry, but I won't reply right now, If I do, I'm gonna say things I don't want to say, I'll wait till the ghum wears off a bit.
that goes for everyone I need to reply to…
kavita_0026:promise that you will smile after reading this!
…and I did smile. Kavita, hunnz… thank you.
*smiles*
Hugs to all you guys… ahhhhh i love this lil teddy bear huggin this heart..he's so CUTE!!!
Thats why im sending the hugs to you guys
oh my god guys i am so scareedddddddddd my exams are coming up and i am behind in studying im scared whts gonna happen if i dont study everything in time sniff oh gosh…!! PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.. im sure ur pray will help me through I better go start burning the books!
love you guys
kavi
kavita_0026:Hugs to all you guys… ahhhhh i love this lil teddy bear huggin this heart..he's so CUTE!!!
Thats why im sending the hugs to you guysoh my god guys i am so scareedddddddddd my exams are coming up and i am behind in studying im scared whts gonna happen if i dont study everything in time sniff oh gosh…!! PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.. im sure ur pray will help me through I better go start burning the books!
love you guys
kavi
Hugs to you too yaar My prayers are with you. You will do just fine don't worry. Study hard, drink coffeee and act stupid. lolll no jk dont drink coffee. im such a bad influence. I know you'll do just fine, it's good to be stressed cuz den you'll study harder than the test really is and you will definitely ace it. (Inshallah)
Keep yo head up.
holla.
Hey Guys! How are you all doing!
Yemen – what up! Awww thnx for the good luck charms… yeah u're kinda right …stress is kinda good to have then u'll work ur butt off to make it..i just..hope i can be able to do that right now!!! abt the coffee thing lol… ! u're not a bad influ whatchu talkin abt!!! im not such a big fan of coffee but yeah i already made some n drank it …geesh dun konw the last time i had coffee hehehe …tea's my ..cup of tea…lol..get it? sry my jokes are SO CORNY lol
yeah i hope im done w/ all the material then try to cram it.!!
tnx alottt
luv — kavi
hehe yeah you will do great. Yemeni says so nd vhen yemeni says suttin…i dunno LOL
np
yeah thnx u so nice
what up with u?
not much.
I'm so supposed to be doing something productive right now, but i decide not cuz its only saturday.
yeah
how about you ji?
yeah..its only saturday is how
procrastination prolongs
i hate procrastination
if every1 in this world was only eager to do work n stuff – then i'd have no problem!
boo:Okies enough lurve… PMs!!!!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Boo… It's NICE to receive some love… You can never have enough… But since you prefer a PM… Go and check it!!
okay i am so f***ing pissed off
SO F***ING ANGRY DAMN IT
Da frikking toilets are not working in this place…
Can u believe this….Jeez we’r flippant in da middle of nowhere NOW the toilets wont work….
*************ssssssssssssssiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh***********
I miss Durban, @ least theres toilets everywhere DER….
Okies am kewl Now, either this ( ie typing out my irritation ) or screaming it out to everyone here lmao …
kavita_0026:okay i am so f***ing pissed off
SO F***ING ANGRY DAMN IT
kavz, Swearing?? dats sooo NOT lady like sweety ….da exams fustration again huh??
wish i cud help but my studies aint going sooo well either
heres a nice loong hugz from meee to ye
Boo… It's NICE to receive some love… You can never have enough…
Me thinkz ze same same same Amzee
Shakalaka Baby:Sorry guys, but I just have to scream very hard, and since this is the thread “let your feelings out”…
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Yeah, that feels much better
yup for sure Shakzee, glad it made u feel better Yaar…
take it easy now, breathe in ..breathe out …
hope da h/aches gone..and dat dinner went well…
Hey everyone how are my litle angels
Didi how are you. I miss you so much everything is cool on my end still waiting to hear from my brother.
But you sound so frustrated why don't you use a tree or something lol
Well i saw Sol yesterday and i was with a frined and totally egnored him lol it fealt so nice he had to say hi to me first lol MMUUUAAAHHHHAAHHHAAAHHHAA
Amzee, well a beeeeeg sloppy, wet 6 month ol baby kiss back at ye hun
aliea..ooooh wow me never went to clubs before … but i guess its nice? i mean what kind of music do u dance to? !
lets all swirl around with khushi **************swirls **************** im feelin the love in here …sniffs
well hun dis wasnt exactly a club, it was more a place where the rich elite folk hang out….aaand NO am not rich
just pretending to be hahahahahahaaaa….
now bak to clubs, well its nice then it aint sooo nice…
u will find all kinda people in clubs, from drug users to hookes to people who just wanna dance the n8 away ( like moi)
I dnt suggest u go to one, not if I am not around to gaurd errr guide u lol….it can be a crazeeee place…
MUSIC…wateva makes my heart beat faster…I dance to anything that has a good beat…sound,damn wats dat word am lukin 4??
was thinking the same thing when I got to bed on Friday n8, then I heard balle balle on the radio an laffed out loud to my empty room
..thinking of kush lmao
dis place is def full of luw..
Marine:Hey everyone how are my litle angels
Didi how are you. I miss you so much everything is cool on my end still waiting to hear from my brother.
But you sound so frustrated why don't you use a tree or something lol
Well i saw Sol yesterday and i was with a frined and totally egnored him lol it fealt so nice he had to say hi to me first lol MMUUUAAAHHHHAAHHHAAAHHHAA
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey luwie
fustrated?????? nope am not fustrated hun, just told the guys here watye said about using a tree and one of em said
** by the time they get to a tree, theyd lose cargo***** crazeee ppl here lmao
I shudve been more specific, theres no water…I need to wash my hands..
is he still at the prison??? damn…its been a while hey…
Sol, ****high five**** well dis gud u keepin yr kewl my darlin
no man is really worth agonising over as much as we do nah??
lol…
Scar face:I dnt suggest u go to one, not if I am not around to gaurd errr guide u lol….it can be a crazeeee place…
MUSIC…wateva makes my heart beat faster…I dance to anything that has a good beat…sound,damn wats dat word am lukin 4??
was thinking the same thing when I got to bed on Friday n8, then I heard balle balle on the radio an laffed out loud to my empty room
..thinking of kush lmao
dis place is def full of luw..
Thinking of my Jaanu and her balle balle huh?
def. full of lurveeeeeeeeeee…………..
oye hoye!! this the “getting me back” part huh?
NOPE… not that time of the month… there's just so much sh!t going on… with intervals of so much of Love… I don't knw WHAT to feel but just feeeeeeeeel feeeeeeel feeeeeeeel all the emotions that come my way…. just let em flow through me, like the waves of the ocean….
lmao, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat???no no no purleeez…dia aint da getting bak at ye part, in fact forgot about that the moment I posted it …
feeeeeeeel feeeeeeeeeeeeel feeeeeeeeeeeel away hun…am just hoping its more luw than shyt….lol
seriously though, hope things get better for ye, am sending ova sum luw to help give u the strength to
work thru this bad phase….
no offence to whomever that gal is… but heck my face ain't like hers!
LMAO ,AT YE BOOO
Am Rani:
Boo… It's NICE to receive some love… You can never have enough…
Am Rani and Scar Face:
Chup kar, the pair of you!!!
hi..
plz tell me the song here im giving the first 2 lines of a beautiful melody song…
“sochavu mi hum agar tere sansome avo..tere …avo..
Khojavu my tum agar meri khabo me avo..tere …avo..”
like that the song will go…
please tell me abt the song…
-chenna…
Hello chenna – sorry I dont know which song that is
Hey every1 what up! Oooooooooo marine – lol … u ignored sul – r u for realz?! omg yeah heck yeah let HIM say hi to u
oo ali abt the whole club things oooo u don recommend me go unless u're there to guard me huh lolz..dude is it that bad tho?
i mean…. whooo rent u scared .. i mean with druggers n hookers..n stuff?!
yeah sry about the bad UNlady like lang – but i HAD TO GET MY FEELINGS OUT Sniffs….. n culdnt write so much in here so just put a sad pic
n ali i sent you private msg with all my feelings oh god now if i read excuse my lang!!!
Scar face:yup for sure Shakzee, glad it made u feel better Yaar…
take it easy now, breathe in ..breathe out …
hope da h/aches gone..and dat dinner went well…
Of course dinner went well… It was actually at the restaurant where my fiancé proposed to me
And yes, it really made me feel better… I was just really pi.ssed of because my boss was giving me an hard time at work But I know how to handle him now… whoehahahaha
Headache is still around… How is yours??
kavita_0026:
CHEER UP BUTTERCUP! *MUAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*
sighs…what the heck? image thief detected..huh?!!!! i found this pic in my comp i guess my sis saved it from online — just thought i'd put it to reflect my feelings since i didnt wanna ..so called…TALK about all my anger and stuff at the moment — thanks ness – well sure hope that 'buttercup' is referrin to both her and me … hehe muahz to u
shakzzzz what up?!! awwwww love don worry abt yr boss too much..you know how sometimes pple can be big butt heads ..but then again he/she's ur boss ..sooooo gatta be careful
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ah ha! it was you who said u' got engaged………awwww sweetumsssssss good luck nnnnn thaz sooooo schweeetttt dining at the same place he proposed to you…….schweet! he betta treat you good
Hey Kavita!!!! How are you?? Things are getting better at work now, but today my boss (a male) said some weird se.xual things to me and I really dunno how to handle with that But like you said, I have to be careful before I say something about it… As a reflex I sticked out my tongue to him today, but afterwards I was like “OMG!! Did I really do that to my boss?!?!” lol…
Yup, it was me who got engaged It was really great to come back at the restaurant again… Every memory came back And don't worry about me, because my fiancé treats me very well… I'm really a lucky woman
Awwwwwwwwwwww so it was you who got engaged!!!!!!! ooooooo yupper i know you are a lucky woman! congrats!!!!!!!!!!!
so schweet
about the boss thing –whoa!!!!!!!!! he said sexual stuff to you? ARe you like KIDDING?! omg – your fiance is gonna kill him lol
omg……. hehe im trying to picture u stickin out ur tongue at him after he said… something sexual… err… how strong was his sexual comment?
n thaz just wrong of him dude!!
Scar face:Amzee, well a beeeeeg sloppy, wet 6 month ol baby kiss back at ye hun
Hahaha, should that cheer me up?? Better no kisses for me today, I got the flu But thanks anyway, hahahaha
boo:Am Rani and Scar Face:
Chup kar, the pair of you!!!
Yup, indeed full of love, this place…
Boo: puleassssseee remove that line in you signature?!?!?!? The song has been in my head for ages now.. everytime I get on this forum.. *sigh*
Shakalaka Baby:Hey Kavita!!!! How are you?? Things are getting better at work now, but today my boss (a male) said some weird se.xual things to me and I really dunno how to handle with that But like you said, I have to be careful before I say something about it… As a reflex I sticked out my tongue to him today, but afterwards I was like “OMG!! Did I really do that to my boss?!?!” lol…
Uhm, Shakz?? When someone says something sex.ual to you… sticking out you tongue is not the best reaction you can give… He might get that wrong, you know.. And you REALLY don't want the man to get you wrong, do you??
totally true – sticking out your tongue was NOT the best response…. at that time!
kavita_0026:Awwwwwwwwwwww so it was you who got engaged!!!!!!! ooooooo yupper i know you are a lucky woman! congrats!!!!!!!!!!!
so schweetThanks yaar!!!
about the boss thing –whoa!!!!!!!!! he said sexual stuff to you? ARe you like KIDDING?! omg – your fiance is gonna kill him lol
I just won't tell him I guess… otherwise maybe he will!!
omg……. hehe im trying to picture u stickin out ur tongue at him after he said… something sexual… err… how strong was his sexual comment? n thaz just wrong of him dude!!
I sticked out my tongue just before he made that se.xual comment, not as a reaction to the comment… We talked about company clothes (which I don't have) and he said something about that jokingly…
Right after that he made some comment about my chest that he liked the view or something… And I should add that I wasn't wearing anything that showed my cleavage… Just some normal V-necked sweater From now on I'll only wear turtle necks to work, for sure!!!
Am Rani:Uhm, Shakz?? When someone says something sex.ual to you… sticking out you tongue is not the best reaction you can give… He might get that wrong, you know.. And you REALLY don't want the man to get you wrong, do you??
Thanks for your well meant comment sweety, but I didn't do that after his se.xual comment on me… At that moment I just looked like “What are you saying? OMG!!!! I did misunderstood you, right?!” And my colleague was like “big yuck!!” too… I'll send you an e-mail with the whole story asap… I definitely don't want my boss to get me wrong!!!!
kavita_0026:totally true – sticking out your tongue was NOT the best response…. at that time!
I didn't stick out my tongue at that moment as I explained already, but I have a question for you… How DO you respond?? I mean… I let him know I really don't appreciate such comments when he makes them, and still from time to time he makes a se.xual comment again!! And everytime I feel myself getting red (because I really dunno how to deal with it) and I don't have lines back to shut him up… Really frustrating!! Hopefully you guys can help me with some good advice!!!! I would be really greatful towards you
Am Rani:I got the flu
Aaahwww sweety!!! The flu has got you too!!! (there's some epidemic going around in Holland) I really hate to hear this… Hopefully you'll feel better soon sweety!!! I'll try to send you an e-mail tomorrow from work to cheer you up!!
oh you did it BEFORE he said the se.xual thing..okay well that makes it a lil better
as fo rhim talking about your chest and stuff…what is he like a pervert boss or something?
its right that you told him that you dont appreciate him saying stuff like that to you b/c it shoul dbe professonial
in the professional env't
n if he does it again i think you should strongly ignore him – or make it clear that you dont find it Entertaning or nice .. to be hearing wha the is saying if its sexual stuff
am rani honey – get well soon *hug
shakz, yeah Im thinking same as kavi, if he makes anymore of those types of comments just tell him very sternly that you don't appreciate them and even though they be be in jest, you don't want to be hearing such comments and to keep it professional? Good luck with everythin hun x
Im SO FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW. WHY ARE SOME MEN SO ANNOYING EVEN IF THEY ARE THE ONES YOU LIVE WITH ARGHHHHHHHHHH
jeez, why can't I get them to knock before they enter my room?! I'm so damn angry. I'm going to put a lock on my door myself if I have to! *good luck me* or i'll get someone to do it! Ive had ENUF!
LIFE SUCKSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Unique_princess:shakz, yeah Im thinking same as kavi, if he makes anymore of those types of comments just tell him very sternly that you don't appreciate them and even though they be be in jest, you don't want to be hearing such comments and to keep it professional? Good luck with everythin hun x
Im SO FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW. WHY ARE SOME MEN SO ANNOYING EVEN IF THEY ARE THE ONES YOU LIVE WITH ARGHHHHHHHHHH
jeez, why can't I get them to knock before they enter my room?! I'm so damn angry. I'm going to put a lock on my door myself if I have to! *good luck me* or i'll get someone to do it! Ive had ENUF!
Aaaaw sweety, its sums we gotta live with, lol, been there, tried it and broke the door handle in the process, lmao Jeez
u guys just bring on sooo many memories 😉
reminds me of my bro, he will walk in when I am sound asleep, dreaming of Sonu 😉 and literally lift the matress and drop me off the bed
u wudnt believe how flippant annoying that can be, and he also has a habit of pulling my pillow from under my rested head
and hitting me with it until I am awake, ******sigh********** I miss him 😉
dats living with men nah….no one thinks of knocking before entering lol
Shakalaka Baby:Hey Kavita!!!! How are you?? Things are getting better at work now, but today my boss (a male) said some weird se.xual things to me and I really dunno how to handle with that But like you said, I have to be careful before I say something about it… As a reflex I sticked out my tongue to him today, but afterwards I was like “OMG!! Did I really do that to my boss?!?!” lol…
Yup, it was me who got engaged It was really great to come back at the restaurant again… Every memory came back And don't worry about me, because my fiancé treats me very well… I'm really a lucky woman
oye shakzee
sticking out yr tongue at da man will only make him want to go full force with this harassment hun.
Men are like that, they think weirdly …I knw its reflex coz I do dat sumtimes with da guys here but its
coz they know I am playful and theres A LOT of respect between all of us ….
Anyways, u must stop this now before it gets worse and it will coz if u dnt do or say anything at the onset it will be seen
in his favour when u do take it up…
Okies, first approach him and be very stern and firm about the fact that his behaviour is inappropriate and u
wud appreciate it if he stops all this sexual advances towards u…
give him a day or two, if it continues, tell him u will take it further…
if it still doesnt stop then do take it further, U CAN SUE the man
sooo do it the proper way, or when/if things get worse he will say u were encouraging him
sooo yeah dats my bit for now, will send u an email sooon
pls take it easy and be careful ok hun, this world is full of disgusting ppl like yr boss
Yemenilicious:LIFE SUCKSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it does sumtimes yumin,
der hope u feel beta soon my darling
alright i have my exams today!!!!!!!!!!!!1 arghhh!~!!! so much stufff to remember n still not finish studying!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah life DOES suck..at least right now
as for shkz – if yr boss does that again to u tell him ur fiance is gonna kick his butt lol
let him know that u're TAKEN n let him know that thats a professional place n doin stuff like that is NOT COOL
kavz hun,
all the best sweety
am sure u will do well
***hugz u tightly ****
thanks a mill love i dun only need hugz i neede some LUCK n some MAGIC RIGHT NOW..
sniffs – but prayer wud do me perfect soooooo ya'll pray for meeeeeeeeeeeee i need help
sniffs – im about to get a mental breakdown
alright lemem go study now test cmoin up in like 2 hrs
okies then am sending ova sum magik dust or wateva they call it..
as for prayin for ye, u dnt have to request this hun, ur always in my prayer
its not easy but do try an relax okies, as stressing soo soon
before yr paper will make u forget all u learnt and Please let us know how it went okies
once more gud luk
luwya sweetness
k i m gonna rub tha magic dust all ova me ima swallow it ima ingest it im rub it in mah hair
i need it
n thankx fot he prayers
i am so screwed
well if u continue chatting to me like this then u may well be ***screwed**lol
soo go on and do sum reruns of all u learnt lol
mmmwah
am sure the magic dust will help
kavita_0026:as for shkz – if yr boss does that again to u tell him ur fiance is gonna kick his butt lol
let him know that u're TAKEN n let him know that thats a professional place n doin stuff like that is NOT COOL
Hahaha, your post made me smile Kav!! But my boss knows I'm taken and getting married, and he's married too… But that doesn't help Some time ago I told to my colleague my b/f wasn't jealous… My boss overheard and said: “Oh well… in that case” *wink wink* then he hastily added: “Nooo… I'm just joking” So that won't do
kavita_0026:n if he does it again i think you should strongly ignore him – or make it clear that you dont find it Entertaning or nice .. to be hearing wha the is saying if its sexual stuff
That's what Am Rani said to me too before… Just ignore him!! Too bad that I'm his assistent (so I have to work very closely with him every day)…
Unique_princess:shakz, yeah Im thinking same as kavi, if he makes anymore of those types of comments just tell him very sternly that you don't appreciate them and even though they be be in jest, you don't want to be hearing such comments and to keep it professional? Good luck with everythin hun x
Aaawww, thank you sweety for your advice and everything… I really appreciate that!! I hope you're feeling better now… Take care of yourself hunn and don't get too frustrated!!
Yemenilicious:LIFE SUCKSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aaawww hunn… what's wrong??? Here's a hug to comfort you sweety I hope you feel better soon!!
Ugh! What a sleaze!
I'm sorry to hear that this guy is getting under your skin Shakalaka. But take heart, if you believe in karma, he will get what's coming to him!
A nice karmic kick to the face will do nicely!
Scar face:
oye shakzee
sticking out yr tongue at da man will only make him want to go full force with this harassment hun.
I know I know… but it was just joking at that moment
Men are like that, they think weirdly …I knw its reflex coz I do dat sumtimes with da guys here but its
coz they know I am playful and theres A LOT of respect between all of us ….
I have that with a colleague (male) of mine too… But in that way, it's okay
Anyways, u must stop this now before it gets worse and it will coz if u dnt do or say anything at the onset it will be seen
in his favour when u do take it up…
Okies, first approach him and be very stern and firm about the fact that his behaviour is inappropriate and u
wud appreciate it if he stops all this sexual advances towards u…
give him a day or two, if it continues, tell him u will take it further…
if it still doesnt stop then do take it further, U CAN SUE the man
sooo do it the proper way, or when/if things get worse he will say u were encouraging him
sooo yeah dats my bit for now, will send u an email sooon
pls take it easy and be careful ok hun, this world is full of disgusting ppl like yr boss
Thanks for all your good advice Scarry!!! You're the best!! Wow, nobody will mess with you I guess… They're probably to afraid you'll sue them
kavita_0026:— thanks ness – well sure hope that 'buttercup' is referrin to both her and me … hehe muahz to u
Yes it was Kavi!
And *muaaaahhhzzz* back at ya!
BTW, was that you in the desktop photo w/ Harry Potter?!?!?!?! You're gorgeous!
Nessa:Ugh! What a sleaze!
I'm sorry to hear that this guy is getting under your skin Shakalaka. But take heart, if you believe in karma, he will get what's coming to him!
A nice karmic kick to the face will do nicely!
Hahahaha, your post really gave me a good laugh!!! Thanks so much for cheering me up Nessa ji!!! That was just what I needed…
kavita_0026:alright i have my exams today!!!!!!!!!!!!1 arghhh!~!!! so much stufff to remember n still not finish studying!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah life DOES suck..at least right now
I wish you all the luck of the world with your exams Kav!!! Please let us know how they went… Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is how I feel today! I'm just too exhausted!
Shakalaka Baby:Sorry guys, but I just have to scream very hard, and since this is the thread “let your feelings out”…
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope you don't mind me borrowing Spicy Shakz!
Hahahaha of course I don't mind… As long as it's you, it's okay
Shakalaka Baby:Hahahaha, your post really gave me a good laugh!!! Thanks so much for cheering me up Nessa ji!!! That was just what I needed…
Glad I could make you smile sweets!
Just keep that mental picture (karmic foot to the grill) when you feel powerless!
I know I know… but it was just joking at that moment
I have that with a colleague (male) of mine too… But in that way, it's okay
Thanks for all your good advice Scarry!!! You're the best!! Wow, nobody will mess with you I guess… They're probably to afraid you'll sue them
Sweety, I knw u were joking and I knw it was reflex but Men are Men, u bludy casually luk at em and they think u want to
go ski naked with em or sums lol…oh my did i just type that lmao sum more
Anyways, I want to be more detailed but will talk to u sooon ok, hopefully this weekend
just take it easy hun and am sowrie if I came off a lil rude or abrupt okies 😉
Well, I dnt give or try not to give any1 a chance to mess wud me hun..I remember when I first started in this company ..( in durbs )
I was warned about the crazee men, ( ERIC INCLUDED ) right, then a month or so later, this man made a pass at me over the phone, I went over to him
and gave him a loooooooooooooooooong lecture about respect and harrasment bla bla bla, we now have a lovely working
relationship…and no one else even bothered to make a pass at me after that one lol…
I am craze for sure but hate it when one person disrespects another like wats happening with u…
I wont sue anyone coz I dnt need to, its all about attitude, I may be an ice queen to all but I rather be that than have
a zillion men thinking I am easy, I will thump them soooo hard, they will faint and wake up thinking they are monkies or
jack a$$es which isnt far from the truth …..sooooooooooo NO no suing or violence, just plain words for me…
Nessa:Shakalaka Baby:Hahahaha, your post really gave me a good laugh!!! Thanks so much for cheering me up Nessa ji!!! That was just what I needed…Glad I could make you smile sweets!
Just keep that mental picture (karmic foot to the grill) when you feel powerless!
lmao, oh my ..Yuk Ness and damage her pointed heels in the process , naaaaha
not worth the effort I tellya lol
Nessa:kavita_0026:— thanks ness – well sure hope that 'buttercup' is referrin to both her and me … hehe muahz to u
Yes it was Kavi!
And *muaaaahhhzzz* back at ya!
BTW, was that you in the desktop photo w/ Harry Potter?!?!?!?! You're gorgeous!
whoooooooo I wish nessa!
n shakz i agree with nessa and the karma thing lol
guyz the tests were hard but i nkow i got an A in 1 of em yippeeeeeeee as for th other 1 well its not n A but i hope tis at least a B – or somethin
Nessa:kavita_0026:— thanks ness – well sure hope that 'buttercup' is referrin to both her and me … hehe muahz to u
Yes it was Kavi!
And *muaaaahhhzzz* back at ya!
BTW, was that you in the desktop photo w/ Harry Potter?!?!?!?! You're gorgeous!
whoooooooo I wish nessa!
n shakz i agree with nessa and the karma thing lol
guyz the tests were hard but i nkow i got an A in 1 of em yippeeeeeeee as for th other 1 well its not n A but i hope tis at least a B – or somethin
lol. I'm practicing my spanish.
hmm…let's see….mis sentimientos…my feelings…(If it's even right)…my heart hurts. I mean literally, it hurts. I dunnoe why. It better get better, or else!
and…ummm…………………………I dunnoe. I'm confooozled. yep yep. *nods*
lol.
I think Rani has lost it. oh no!!!
*clears throat*
lol. lost what, exactly? My perspicacity? no, i haven't lost that yet.
Raniiiiiiiii! Sweetheart are you alright? dont stress ya self missy
just do what yeh can do and always remember that you are smart girl en your gonna ace those tests or studying esp
if they're in a different language
buene suerte mi amor!
i think thts right ..i learned some espanol en high school pero no se si im talking it correctly!
love u hun – do not LOOSE IT! plz!
U're doing just fine Kavi. Only it's buena suerte.
In fact, las dos hablaban correctamente.
Scar face:I wont sue anyone coz I dnt need to, its all about attitude, I may be an ice queen to all but I rather be that than have
a zillion men thinking I am easy, I will thump them soooo hard, they will faint and wake up thinking they are monkies or
jack a$$es which isnt far from the truth …..sooooooooooo NO no suing or violence, just plain words for me…
Scarry: you're not an ice queen!! You're just a strong independent woman, and that's great!! Be proud of that!
I wish I could be more firm from time to time But hey, I'm working on it!! I'm trying to be more assertive this year and it's getting better little by little (even my boss himself said to me that they didn't need to teach me how to be assertive, because I already am… lol )… But sexual comments from my boss are still difficult to handle…
Ohh thanks for the correction Ness!!!
Wait 1st of all what is an Ice Queen? Do tell me you guys
Shakz hun listen : U're a strong independent woman too n you gat so many pple that love you includin us n
n that fine finace of yours . I dont know if you told your fiance as yet but I suggest you tell him and have him help you how to deal with what that jerk of a boss is doing 2 you > n yeah we all know that you're a hottie but that doesnt give your boss especially ! the right to harrass you sexually
Being assertive is a good step to take to shun him of his stupidity n disrespect — > Hun —> You gatta make it clear to him that you dont appreciate the crap what he's doin to you coz it makes you feel very uncomfortable and he shud know that HE IS the wrong one coz you 're not supposed to be doing that in a professional place like that. So try being more assertive yes, and be Strong in your words, dont be all jokey coz they he's gonna take it all for a joke you gatta show him n be serious when u tellin him that its not aight for him 2 be pickin on u sexually n also tell ur fiance and ask him for advice coz after all he's the closest 1 u can trust n he loves u with all his heart so he'll kno whatz best for u… n dont blame me if after u tell ur fiance ( unless he knows already ) ur boss ends up run over with a van down the street or something..oopss sorry thats … cold..hehe…
So let him know juz let ur boss know that u aint gonna take it n it is really bothering u – or TEll a Co-worker how you feel and maybe they can tell ur boss about the problem if you cant tell him yourself — all the best — kav
kavita_0026:
I am IN LOVVVVVVEEEEEEEE with these!!!!!!!!! I so so so so so so am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Y iz lyfe such a b*tch sometimez…..????
kavita_0026:buene suerte mi amor!
aww! Thanks for the good luck, hunnz! You're toooo sweet!
Actually, it went very bad. lol. She's such a beezee to me! You know what happened!??! After everyone presentation, the teacher told everyone what they did good and what they did bad, so u know, we can learn from our mistakes. But she didn't do it to me. So I was all like, “Senora, you didn't say anything to me.” and she looks at me funny, and says, “Oh. I forgot. Why don't you go up there and give your presentation again so I can do it to you?” I was like “No thanks.” Especially since she knows how much I hate the stage! What a beezee! [:'(]
Nessa:In fact, las dos hablaban correctamente.
woot woot! We rock, Kavita! (thanks Nessa!)
Unique_princess:Y iz lyfe such a b*tch sometimez…..????
Because it's all part of the test, hunnz. But I know you're strong and I believe in you, hunnz, you'll make it through.
Remember your MSN display name? If Allah brings you to it, then He'll take you through it. So don't lose hope, Tayba ji, and just keep your head up.
I love you tonz.
Hey honeyS , what up? Boooooo Im in love with em tooo!!! Had to put 'em here in the threads b/c they look sooo beautiful they really do..and they match with your sig pic
Tayaba honey sometimes life just happens to give us the worse..n then we become all confused n sad n then we're hurtin n dont really know what 2 do but u know what – look inside urself – and do some positive SElf talk n u shall get through the moment b/c u r strong n i have confidence n u n i know that u can do n i know that u can get through b/c we're all here hopin for u… but u just have to have hope in urself and be strong and be positive and try to fight off negative talks n thoughtz…n i know all this cud sound easy but itz soo hard to do but at least try and let this be in ur consciousness Rani my shweetooo how are you? Yepp tnx nessa for the corrections (mine) hehe well I think I remember only a little spanish..un poco espanol (ha!) ; Awww Rani your teacher sounds like a #$^%& n Im gettin smoky offa mah chair coz she bein all mean 2 u coz its not funny n u don deserve it coz u're a good student n u're hard workin n i know u hold respect for u so at least she cud have given u back a response like the other pple…but do ya think she iddnt give yah a response coz it was 100% perfect..? coz then if thas why that'll be perfect!! if not..then …. i dont like teachers ilke that..who make fun out of people …i just never like when teachers do that..n some of them r like that ..n im smokin outta mah ears now coz i heard what yeh had to go through but dun worry hun … leave the past in the past..n work on tomorrow n show her that u r u.. n that u can do it n make it in her class n nothin getz to u
Love you guys, take care… Hey~ Rani you mentioned about msn ids /screen names..you guys wanna share em? I'ld love to talk to you guys any time if Im online … the only person i have pm is Marine..oh gosh wish she was here she has not replied in such long time!
i recently had break up with my boy frnd and it very hard to forget someone i feel………………..
DO U PEOPLE KNOW THE DIFFERENCE B/W LUV N TRUE LUV
love says: I L U b'coz u make me happy
but
true love says:I L U b'coz i wanna make u happy
kavita_0026:Rani my shweetooo how are you? Yepp tnx nessa for the corrections (mine) hehe well I think I remember only a little spanish..un poco espanol (ha!) ; Awww Rani your teacher sounds like a #$^%& n Im gettin smoky offa mah chair coz she bein all mean 2 u coz its not funny n u don deserve it coz u're a good student n u're hard workin n i know u hold respect for u so at least she cud have given u back a response like the other pple…but do ya think she iddnt give yah a response coz it was 100% perfect..? coz then if thas why that'll be perfect!! if not..then …. i dont like teachers ilke that..who make fun out of people …i just never like when teachers do that..n some of them r like that ..n im smokin outta mah ears now coz i heard what yeh had to go through but dun worry hun … leave the past in the past..n work on tomorrow n show her that u r u.. n that u can do it n make it in her class n nothin getz to u
Thanks ji, i'm great. how are you?
My teacher is a beezee…well, I'm rude to her too, so maybe I deserve her rudeness.
and no, my presentation was absolutely not 100% perfect. If it was, I wouldn't have stage fright. lol. I forgot my speeeechy thing! lol. and I kept saying “and umm” lol. It was bbbaaaaad! haha. I'll tell you what I got tho. A? B? C? D? F? lol. Definately not F, Inshallah, cuz I don't deserve it. I think I'll get a B inshallah. I don't think she'll give me an A, and I don't deserve anything lower than a B. lol. I'm so conceited.
and yes, Inshallah, I'll be nice on Monday so she can be nice too. If not, Imma smack her upside da head. lol. No, I would never do that. Maybe I'll just be rude back, but not cross the limit, cuz then she might fail me. lol.
just don't worry, Kavita. i'll be fine. I can handle her.
and about the msn screen name thing. sure thing. I used to have it on my profile, I guess I deleted it? I don't remember. But I'll send it to you in a pm, okay? Talk to you soon!
haasini:true love says:I L U b'coz i wanna make u happy
awwww!
Hey Haasini, welcome to the forum! I hope you like it here.
haasini:
i recently had break up with my boy frnd and it very hard to forget someone i feel……………….. Then don't forget him. Cherish the memories you had with him.
Haasini – Firstly – Warmest welcome to you – hope you feel some comfort in here
Okay honey – I know right now its hard to talk to anyone about this n even hard to think about it n its so confusing that you dont even know what to do
or how to feel or even how to act when it comes to dealing with this whole thing ; Just think about something – Why did you break up with him? Was it his fault or your fault ( the break up ) I mean if it is something he did that was extremely bad and you can never forgive him … then I know it will hurt you like… really bad. If not, see if you can talk t ohim about what occured and see if you can explain yourself and if he can explain himself about what
happened
Another thing is… what do you think you had with him? LIke..Love? You yourself gave a definition – but you didnt say which one of it you yoursel
felt (with him ) And i truely thought your words (defintion of love n true love ) to be extremely teary sweet
Just whatever it is, keep having hope and never give up on yourelf and your outlook on life b/c if there's a life there's a way n if there's a will there's a way
Good luck – come back n talk more with us – tell us more about yrself – we'll love to hear! *HUGS* — KAvita
Oye Rani u're rude to ur teacher..
well she does deserve it well!! but be careful she'z the one who gatta give u ur grade hehe
hey n B is a good grade ! be thankful
Kavita, I don't know what my grade is yet, she'll give it to us tomorrow, I think. But I'll let you know.
i would rather have an A, but since I know I did mess up on the presentation, I can't demand what I don't deserve, right?
and Kavita ji…I like the way you give your advice. Full of so much love and determination to see that the person feels better. You're awesome.
Heyy muahz* lets hope u get an A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if not im sure it will be a good grade – dont sweat !!! u're a good student!
Aww abt the advice thingy…um..i just wish i cud have given myself advice the way i give it to other pple..welli dunno if its good advice that i give but i just try to help … n yesh i know it hurtz like hell to feel upset n …well hurt… n i'd alwys wanna see u guys feel better
jiiii YOU'RE awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scarry: you're not an ice queen!! You're just a strong independent woman, and that's great!! Be proud of that!
I wish I could be more firm from time to time But hey, I'm working on it!! I'm trying to be more assertive this year and it's getting better little by little (even my boss himself said to me that they didn't need to teach me how to be assertive, because I already am… lol )… But sexual comments from my boss are still difficult to handle…
shakzee, I honestly never saw myself as above but thanks, and u know what u are as strong and have the willpower to ensure that
this situation is resolved in the way it should, just do as I say, and I promise u the man will NEVA eva think of making any sexual
( or other) advances towards u…if he does, then I will come on over to da Netherlands an kick his a$$, coz no one messes with my love ones…that my deary is
Scarry's promise 😉 ..
its not comfortable at all when u are subjected to verbal abuse like u mention, but u need to speak up sweety….FIRMLY
Heya kavs
mmmwaaaaah to u sweety
firstly an ice queen, am assuming is an expression…
am not sure exactly what it means but my sisters and mom and friends
think I am just that, coz I neva seem to give people the time of day lol
my sisters an friends get really annoyed coz they say that whenever we are at a
party, function, prayer, dance clubs, anywhere, and if theres **prospective*** partners
I chase them away with jus one luk hahahahahaha….
Reminds me of what Ness had said….lol
but anyways, I am seen as an ice queen, and a few guy friends have confirmed that at first glance/sight/meeting
I really am uptight lol, and if their nerves hadnt been strong enuf then they wudnt know that i am actually a fun/kewl/lekka
chick lmao ( an these aint my words nah)….soooooooooooo hmmmmmmm wat was I gonna say, oh yeah, I actually prefer being this way…
no unnecesary attention…lmao …
Unique_princess:Y iz lyfe such a b*tch sometimez…..????
a wat?? a wat?? care to complete dat for moi Taybz hahahaha
am kidding sweetie pie, munchkin, honey buney,
heres a beeeeg hug from moi missy
Love you guys, take care… Hey~ Rani you mentioned about msn ids /screen names..you guys wanna share em? I'ld love to talk to you guys any time if Im online … the only person i have pm is Marine..oh gosh wish she was here she has not replied in such long time!
waaaat?? an moi???????? no pm with moi??????? me feels sooo left out now yaaar roftlmbaao
I miss Mara too but shes doing a bietjie ok, not much but she will be fine…will sms her now and tell her u are thinking of her 😉
luwya
haasini:i recently had break up with my boy frnd and it very hard to forget someone i feel………………..
DO U PEOPLE KNOW THE DIFFERENCE B/W LUV N TRUE LUV
love says: I L U b'coz u make me happy
but
true love says:I L U b'coz i wanna make u happy
Yup tell me about it…firstly congrats on the breakup, LUV sukz..literallly stinks and Me doesnt wanna be a part of it
okies , now dats out…its very sweet nah, but does one really know what is love or true love,
love is love and all kinds of love should be TRUE, if it isnt then its not love…its probably LIKE??
wat if u wanna be there and give your luv and ths person literally slams the door on yr face, I say to HELL
WITH HIM AND LUV AND AND AND…
okies that was more fustration lol…
now my dear, am sowrie to hear u lost yr love, but why may I ask are u asking this question??
do u think that perhaps u dont feel **true love *** for yr ex??
Scar face:Yup tell me about it…firstly congrats on the breakup, LUV sukz..literallly stinks and Me doesnt wanna be a part of it
Sorry to go all Boogedy-lecture-ish on u dear… but Love is with you whether you want to be a part of it or not…
kavita_0026:Shakz hun listen : U're a strong independent woman too n you gat so many pple that love you includin us (aaawww… ) n n that fine finace of yours . I dont know if you told your fiance as yet but I suggest you tell him and have him help you how to deal with what that jerk of a boss is doing 2 you > n yeah we all know that you're a hottie but that doesnt give your boss especially ! the right to harrass you sexually
Me??? An hottie? You've got to be kidding yaar!! But thanks anyways But you're right, because nothing gives my boss the right to harrass me sexually… I've told my fiancé and he was like “What the ….?!” He really wasn't happy with it either and suggested the same as you guys did… Ignore the man and tell him you don't like it when he does it again…
Being assertive is a good step to take to shun him of his stupidity n disrespect — > Hun —> You gatta make it clear to him that you dont appreciate the crap what he's doin to you coz it makes you feel very uncomfortable and he shud know that HE IS the wrong one coz you 're not supposed to be doing that in a professional place like that. So try being more assertive yes, and be Strong in your words, dont be all jokey coz they he's gonna take it all for a joke you gatta show him n be serious when u tellin him that its not aight for him 2 be pickin on u sexually n
Today I was really assertive and I'm so proud of it!! My boss wanted to make some comment again (I think it might be a se.xually one) but he said “Oh know, I'm not gonna tell it…” With the implication of “please ask, and I'll tell you” But he had bad luck because I said: “I think that's for the best, so please don't tell…” I was so proud of myself afterwards
also tell ur fiance and ask him for advice coz after all he's the closest 1 u can trust n he loves u with all his heart so he'll kno whatz best for u… n dont blame me if after u tell ur fiance ( unless he knows already ) ur boss ends up run over with a van down the street or something..oopss sorry thats … cold..hehe…
Hahahaha, this part made me laugh so much!!! Of course I won't blame you!!
So let him know juz let ur boss know that u aint gonna take it n it is really bothering u – or TEll a Co-worker how you feel and maybe they can tell ur boss about the problem if you cant tell him yourself — all the best — kav
Thanks sweets for all your good advice!! I will tell a co-worker of mine… She doesn&#
boo:kavita_0026:
I am IN LOVVVVVVEEEEEEEE with these!!!!!!!!! I so so so so so so am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Boo… Those where MY lines… Pls don't steal them from me And remove you signature, otherwise I'll start singing!! And believe me, you DON'T want me to start singing
Scar face:shakzee, I honestly never saw myself as above but thanks, and u know what u are as strong and have the willpower to ensure that this situation is resolved in the way it should, just do as I say, and I promise u the man will NEVA eva think of making any sexual ( or other) advances towards u…if he does, then I will come on over to da Netherlands an kick his a$$, coz no one messes with my love ones…that my deary is Scarry's promise 😉 ..
Aaaawww… thank you sweets!! I'd love to see you come over and kick my bosses a$$ I can just picture it, lmbo!! And I'll try to think of your advice next time… Thanks again hunn!!
its not comfortable at all when u are subjected to verbal abuse like u mention, but u need to speak up sweety….FIRMLY
I will I will… Like I've written to Kavita: I've just made a start today! My revenge will be sweet, because nobody messes with me… whoehahaha!! (is that firm enough, or what?? lol )
Hey guys…everyone! Shakz yeah thats the spirit!!!!!!! dont let this crazy boss of urs upset u too much
ali diii oh you hear from marine?! she has not even been coming here or saying anything in pm i dont nkow if she is alright
tell me if u heard from her
gotta go study guys my next test is tomorrow – gawd they come so fast one afta the other!!!!!!!
love ya'll
kav
Hey thanks for all your comments guys, was just having a b*tch of a day! its one of those rules of life where ur extremely tired and the one person u dont want to meet, unfortunately bumps into u and u cant do anything about it at the point but go ARGHHHH lol. Im fine now though!!!!!
kavz da luvz…yup have heard from Mara
she is reaaaaaalllllllllllly reallllllllllllllly ..nore emphasise on the reallly …lol
BUSY…dnt think she is ignoring u hon okies…
she is okies…told her u asked after her, …..am sure she will contact u sooon
stay good nah….all the best with studies, catch up laterz sweety
lotza hugz
didi
Unique_princess:Hey thanks for all your comments guys, was just having a b*tch of a day! its one of those rules of life where ur extremely tired and the one person u dont want to meet, unfortunately bumps into u and u cant do anything about it at the point but go ARGHHHH lol. Im fine now though!!!!!
SUPER DUPER THEN..GOOD TO HEAR UR OKIES …MMMWAAAAAH
Lemme explain a bit before I do dis..
One of my nephews has this way of laughing,
It sounds like
**heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ***
Lol …and when he does dis he has this wide a$$ grin on his face that makes u wanna
Hug him for dear life….dats what I wanna do now, laugh like him and then be hugged for dear life .. aam daaaaaaaaaamn exhausted….
Soooooooooooooo here goes:
hhhhheeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeee lol
This is actually for Boo, thanks for making me want to smile whilst theres tears gushing out my eyes, yet strolling down my cheeks, yuk, feels awful
…coz u knw nah?? CHECK YR PM…
Oh well Bludy HELL headaches….
Dis sooooooooo damn Kold here……………………………
Scar face:Lemme explain a bit before I do dis..
One of my nephews has this way of laughing,
It sounds like
**heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ***
Lol …and when he does dis he has this wide a$$ grin on his face that makes u wanna
Hug him for dear life….dats what I wanna do now, laugh like him and then be hugged for dear life .. aam daaaaaaaaaamn exhausted….
Soooooooooooooo here goes:
hhhhheeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeee lol
This is actually for Boo, thanks for making me want to smile whilst theres tears gushing out my eyes, yet strolling down my cheeks, yuk, feels awful
…coz u knw nah?? CHECK YR PM…
Oh well Bludy HELL headaches….
Dis sooooooooo damn Kold here……………………………
*****hugs scarry for life****
Awwww!! That is really nice of you…
PM…. am checking now…
ali – HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG
there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scar face:kavz da luvz…yup have heard from Mara
she is reaaaaaalllllllllllly reallllllllllllllly ..nore emphasise on the reallly …lol
BUSY…dnt think she is ignoring u hon okies…
she is okies…told her u asked after her, …..am sure she will contact u sooon
stay good nah….all the best with studies, catch up laterz sweety
lotza hugz
didi
Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i jjust chatted with marine yes she is busy with lot of stuff but yippeeeeeeeeeeeim so glad i heard from hjer!! at leat now i know she is alright n alive !
hi RANI IS THE BES………..thnx 4 welcomng me i felt really gd to see someone rplyng me
and tell me some interestng thngs we can do in this forum .since i am still not used to it
Hey guys sorry i droped off the face of the planet. [OREO NO COMMENTS PLEASE]
Kavs i do love you and i did talk to you. Don't ever think i will egnore any of you.
You guys are my family.
Didi i will send you a long letter telling you everything
If you guys think its Sol its not he is out of my life and out of mind i got me a newcomer to Bollywood lol SUCH
Well my darling family i love you all and will talk to you guys soon MMUUUAAAHHH
HAASINI welcome darling you couldn't have joined a better place.
everyone i slike one big family we share eachothers problem and solve them to
So welcome to our little family
Marine:So welcome to our little family
To our family!
Didi i will send you a long letter telling you everything
lol…take yr time…just send a 2 bit word telling me u r ALIVE ….
okies….talk later hun…muuuwaaaaaaaaaah
kavita_0026:ali – HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG
there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw my…..am speechless …seriously ….hmmmm wat did i do to deserve soooooooooooo
many HUGZ.????????????????????
Alii youasked for hugs..remember! lol
marine soooooooo kewl to see u here..yah i know i chatted wtih u last night after long time!yay!!!!
booooooooooo watsuppppp hun
Hasini – i welcomed you too lol *hug* welcome!!! hope my advice helped ya out
Rani i miss u where have u been all these days — did ya get ur presentations grade back/??
i did???????? hmm okies
doesnt matter ..now me feels all glooomy coz u only gave me hugz
coz I asked for em lol
*GASPS IN SHOCK*
LOSING MAH BREATH NOWW need AIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dun feel gloomy love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
k i gave u the big teddy bear hug cuz u asked for huggies
as for the other huggies they were just extras coz… just wanted to give em to yah
*hug*
Kaveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my darling
I was joking about the gloooom part
u cant take my sarcasm seriously here hun
noooooowwwwwwwwwww, ******************hugz ********************* bak to u
dnt have shock absorbers on me sweety sooo take it easy nah////
me will write soooon okies
need to be stable in the mind first
mmwahzzz
Hahahahaha, I got the greatest offer today and it reminded me right away of you guys!!! My boss made a joke (a normal one) and I told him jokingly he had to watch out, because he was so close to me I could hit him. So he said: “Please, go ahead and slap me in my face” And he pulled his cheek towards me and said: “You'll be the first if you do it…”
OMG, that was SOOOO tempting!!! Especially after what he said to me before!! But I didn't do it… It was really tempting to just slap him in the face and I was really doubting if I should do it or not (he definitely wasn't expecting me to do it and it was a great opportunity ), but I behaved like a lady and didn't slap him
Afterwards I had to LMBO because it reminded me of you guys telling me I should slap him hahahaha… That was a reason too that made me think that maybe I should have taken advantage of the occasion
Hahaha, I'm sorry to bother you guys with this, but I still have to laugh when I imagine how he would have reacted when I did really slap him in the face (and of course it would be a good slap )!! Maybe next time I'll just hit him … a chance like this doesn't come around every day lol
LOL shakB hun… see we're always in your thoughts (OK maybe not me, as I didn't say you should slap him… but you know what I mean!)…
Good on you for behaving like a lady…
boo:LOL shakB hun… see we're always in your thoughts (OK maybe not me, as I didn't say you should slap him… but you know what I mean!)…
Of course you're in my thoughts too Boo!!! What would BWL (and life) be without you!?!?!?! I don't even want to think about it… you're my smiling buddy!!!
You just said it hun… don't even want to think about it!
How was your day?
Hey guys
I feel like crap 🙁 Im in bed now with my *wonderful* laptop (please don't shut down) – I've come down with food poisoning, been throwing up all night, and I collapsed in the bathroom in the early hours of the morning so Im really weak right now, cant walk without feeling like im gna fall! so been either sleeping or coming on here. I better get off before I get told off for “straining my eyes” Take care x
awww hunnn….
Get better soon…. (f)
boo:You just said it hun… don't even want to think about it!
How was your day?
You see? You did it again… I'm smiling!!
My day was very busy but okay… how's yours??
I hope you'll get well soon Unique!! Take care of yourself hunn…
Hey ya’ll
Tayaba – sooooooooooooooooooo sorry to hear what has been happenin to u awww….
hun get better soon …sniff* hate to hear that u’re goin thru all that pain
but hang in there!!!
it’ll blow over!
shakz – ooof! kkinda okay to hear that u’re boss is making NORMAL jokes lol
hey ali , boo … hr u!
Anyawy guys gotta go do my reports n study for a quiz!
ttyl
love — kav
Unique_princess:Hey guys
I feel like crap 🙁 Im in bed now with my *wonderful* laptop (please don't shut down) – I've come down with food poisoning, been throwing up all night, and I collapsed in the bathroom in the early hours of the morning so Im really weak right now, cant walk without feeling like im gna fall! so been either sleeping or coming on here. I better get off before I get told off for “straining my eyes” Take care x
ROFTLMBAAO,
wow wat an offer, am just glad u didnt slap the dude
think of the consequences nah…lol he cud have then sued U…omg
well hon hope u well and things are better…
sending u sum luw
het jy naweek baie geniet okies
mmmwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh
hugz more hugz ……lol
am just glad its time to go home
well not quiet …am off to a paaaaaarty wid sum chinese clients
but am so damn happy its weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekend ALREADY
Yay
chat to alll u luwely people soooooooooooooooooon
hey ali
wots up missy
oooh yah going to party with some chinese pple eh
well glad to see the cultures mixin
j/k
hey me tooooooooo glad that its the WEEKEND! well like… aftrer my class thats cmoing up lol
right now gotta STUDY for a quiz for next class n do 1 report for next class
ttyl lovely pplez
kav
Scar face:ROFTLMBAAO,
wow wat an offer, am just glad u didnt slap the dude
Well actually I wish I did… I'm sooo curious what his reaction would have been hahahaha!! But on the other hand… I couldn't look him in the eyes anymore if I had really done that… I think I would have gone searching for another job haha
think of the consequences nah…lol he cud have then sued U…omg
I don't think he would have done that. He needs me… lol
well hon hope u well and things are better…
I'm okay… just rushed off my feet all week and this week is getting even more stressfull But… I went shopping today and I bought the greatest stuff, so I'm very happy now hahaha How are you sweets??
sending u sum luw
Here's some luv in return
het jy naweek baie geniet okies
I will I will… (you mean “have a nice weekend”, right? We say: “Fijn weekend” in Holland) Fijn weekend to you too Scarry!!!
mmmwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh
hugz more hugz ……lol
Ahwww thanks hunn!!! Here are some more for you too
heyyy what up
shakz…how's ur perverted boss situation coming along?
ali…what up? how was the party?
Unique_princess:Hey guys
I feel like crap 🙁 Im in bed now with my *wonderful* laptop (please don't shut down) – I've come down with food poisoning, been throwing up all night, and I collapsed in the bathroom in the early hours of the morning so Im really weak right now, cant walk without feeling like im gna fall! so been either sleeping or coming on here. I better get off before I get told off for “straining my eyes” Take care x
Awww Unique, that su.cks! Hope you feel better now
Scarry se wereld …
I am sooooooooooooooooooo damn tired off everything that’s been happening lately, that I am at a point where I would literally like to leave this world or shut myself out completely from everyone and everything.
Time and again there are people out here who makes me question life and what is true and what is not…more importantly, who is true and who is not..
I am at a stalemate with this..
TRUST/HONESTY, believe me this is an essential tool to living a godamn decent life, if no-one had said this to you previously then its about time you begin thinking about what it is and how it affects us in our daily lives, with the people we love or come into contact with.
Why I interlink both trust and honesty?? Simply because I cant live my life without both, in order for any relationship by whatever name you call it, to succeed or prosper or ‘breathe’ there has got to be honesty and trust in it…without both from ‘both sides’ one cannot call it a mutual true relationship..
Sooo here I am once more trying to figure out why people would lie to me or cause unnecessary pain and uncertainty and doubt?? Why are people so selfish like this?? I know this is life and there are such people out here in the world waiting to bring hurt into our lives.. and I also know that at times we bring this onto ourselves when we let such people into our lives, which brings me to my question?? How do we know who to trust??
I am appalled and sick of it all, I really cannot take all of this anymore…there’s a limit to my trusting nature and when I feel that there’s more than what meets the eye, I begin to wonder if all of this is even worth it…
I don’t doubt people and truly believe that as evil or nasty as one may seem, there’s definitely some good somewhere deep inside but that may be silly ol scarry having false hopes..
Why do people use another for their selfish purposes in the name of friendship??
Friendships to me are li
Scar face:Scarry se wereld …
I am sooooooooooooooooooo damn tired off everything that’s been happening lately, that I am at a point where I would literally like to leave this world or shut myself out completely from everyone and everything.
Time and again there are people out here who makes me question life and what is true and what is not…more importantly, who is true and who is not..
I am at a stalemate with this..
TRUST/HONESTY, believe me this is an essential tool to living a godamn decent life, if no-one had said this to you previously then its about time you begin thinking about what it is and how it affects us in our daily lives, with the people we love or come into contact with.
Why I interlink both trust and honesty?? Simply because I cant live my life without both, in order for any relationship by whatever name you call it, to succeed or prosper or ‘breathe’ there has got to be honesty and trust in it…without both from ‘both sides’ one cannot call it a mutual true relationship.. I agree with you completely hun, for any relationship to function, these are the vital bases it needs, without them, the relationship will merely fall apart…
Sooo here I am once more trying to figure out why people would lie to me or cause unnecessary pain and uncertainty and doubt?? Why are people so selfish like this?? I know this is life and there are such people out here in the world waiting to bring hurt into our lives.. and I also know that at times we bring this onto ourselves when we let such people into our lives, which brings me to my question?? How do we know who to trust?? I guess we don't. We just take a chance, because that is exactly what life is all about. Taking chances and yeah some will hurt us, but its all part of the learning experience. I know how it feels to have trust broken so very severely, so I know what you're going through, but I can assure you, it does get better with times, although the scars remain for a very long time… *hug* I could tell you to construct walls around your heart as a defence mechanism like I did for a very long time, but that won't help, it makes things worse because it blocks the good things from getting inside, also.
I am appalled and sick of it all, I really cannot take al
…U know the drill!
U & ur fam are in my thots!
Well said!
Ali! Whats wrong you are not alright!!
Will send you an email on this a little later
love you alot hon
take care and please dont hurt yourself worrying too much
and just remember to keep hope and have faith
Can someone tell : What are ways that one can relieve PAIN from within themselves
Try to find love within the pain…. Pain from within is always because of Love. Try to keep faith on the love rather than in the pain that its inflicting…
Kavita…I pray.
My feelings:
I feel funny.
Kavs I agree with Khushi she is right and also please take you own advice that you gave to Ali.
Khushi and Rani jaanus how are you guys?
Hi Khushi Rani Marine – Thanks.
Yes Marine i know what khushi is saying has alot of meaning…I ..understand it.. I mean in the first place hurting comes from soem deep love hidden some where…………………………………………………………………………………
Thanks anyway….
Love ,
Kav
kavita_0026:Can someone tell : What are ways that one can relieve PAIN from within themselves
go jump off the cliff
OREO bite her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know sweety i understand you really…but pain is part of life if you don't feal pain then how will you survive, You are human after all rite? Just like happy ness and love we also accept pain..
Hope your alright
Oreo – u better be careful what u wish for coz if it happens i will totally come back for you
marine ! Ack – forget about me please, dont worry about what I said I shouldnt have told it to you in the first place and now you are worry about me but just leave it alright..?
i am…………….. FINE okay
yes FINE
and you're right – i am human……………………………………. and thats exactly why we feel this much pain
Anyway hope you are alright
i love you di
~Khushi~:Try to find love within the pain…. Pain from within is always because of Love. Try to keep faith on the love rather than in the pain that its inflicting…
No Kavs i'm glad you told me. I love you and I'm here for you as well as others but like i said i shouldn't have told you anything here I should've talk to you in YM i will so i'm here ok love.
And yah we all are human we all do one thing or another its just takes time to heal the pain that deep within you.
boo:~Khushi~:Try to find love within the pain…. Pain from within is always because of Love. Try to keep faith on the love rather than in the pain that its inflicting…
Marine:No Kavs i'm glad you told me. I love you and I'm here for you as well as others but like i said i shouldn't have told you anything here I should've talk to you in YM i will so i'm here ok love.
And yah we all are human we all do one thing or another its just takes time to heal the pain that deep within you.
Hey marin *hug* you're the best ( totally !
No its okay, dont regret what you said here ( it was all indirect )
We will talk in YM
And thanks for being there and thanks fr the inspiration
And you are right
Time can be everything when you need it to heal you
kavita_0026:Will send you an email on this a little later
love you alot hon
take care and please dont hurt yourself worrying too much
and just remember to keep hope and have faith
omw Kavz, Luw dis Pic of Hanuman Baba, oye and theres Shiv & shakti as well, brings tears to my eyes sweety…
send me sum nice pics if have em…
Now me wants to sing the hanuman chalisa, which I actually dnt know how to….well the words of it ie..
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Kavita…I pray.
lmao, we knw u do ranz…it wudve been the first thing I thot of associated with u an Yumz 🙂
My feelings:
I feel funny.
like a bunny??? elaborate….want a Hug from Moi *****hhhhhhuuuuuuuuugggggzzzzz ranz for dear life ************
well hope it makes u feel alrite sweety…take care
go jump off the cliff
hmmmm tell u wat…why dont U show us all how to do it''
common now dnt be a sissy. lol …go take that leap and show us galz da kinda leader u really are…
OREO bite her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
****wipes my eyes*****just in case
u didnt just type this??? Maraaaaaaa, are u flippant crazeeeeee
the contamination itself will Kill our dear Kavz da Luvz…
wat da hell….
u guyz keepin secretz frm yr didi?? hmmmmmph
dnt even think of mentioning messenger this or dat to me
go flex yr fingers an type ….
now watevas going on …I want in on the BIG secret coz u guys have been fightin and am bludy damn curious and inquisitive hhehehehehehehe
love u guys and Kavs
CONGRATS on the great grades mmmmwaaaaah
my magic dust did the trick nah lol??
kavita_0026:Ali! Whats wrong you are not alright!!
yup ….u got dat r8
kavita_0026:hey ali
wots up missy
oooh yah going to party with some chinese pple eh
well glad to see the cultures mixin
yup it was lekker hey, they gave us this really hard for me to pronounce perfume
***hmmmm, do they think i smell bad**** lmao
but thankfully Ness was there when i opened it up sooo she got the name r8..
oooohhhh and da FOOD …mmmm luwely, neva tasted more divine salads…yuuuummmmmyyyy
Well actually I wish I did… I'm sooo curious what his reaction would have been hahahaha!! But on the other hand… I couldn't look him in the eyes anymore if I had really done that… I think I would have gone searching for another job haha I don't think he would have done that. He needs me… lol I'm okay… just rushed off my feet all week and this week is getting even more stressfull But… I went shopping today and I bought the greatest stuff, so I'm very happy now hahaha How are you sweets??
Here's some luv in return
i ill I will… (you mean “have a nice weekend”, right? We say: “Fijn weekend” in Holland) Fijn weekend to you too Scarry!!!
Ahwww thanks hunn!!! Here are some more for you too
xxxxxxxxxxx
Hey luwie
Hope u are well now..shoppping….lekker…cant get enuf of dat huh
I haven’t opened my gmail yet so am not even sure if u have written lol
Hows plans for the wedding going???
Thanks for da luw sweety…mmmwaaaah lotz more bak to u and the fam??
Yup, dat is my Afrikaans way of saying have a lekker weekend..
Hahaha…
Luwye
Unique_princess:Scar face:Scarry se wereld …
I am sooooooooooooooooooo damn tired off everything that’s been happening lately, that I am at a point where I would literally like to leave this world or shut myself out completely from everyone and everything.
Time and again there are people out here who makes me question life and what is true and what is not…more importantly, who is true and who is not..
I am at a stalemate with this..
TRUST/HONESTY, believe me this is an essential tool to living a godamn decent life, if no-one had said this to you previously then its about time you begin thinking about what it is and how it affects us in our daily lives, with the people we love or come into contact with.
Why I interlink both trust and honesty?? Simply because I cant live my life without both, in order for any relationship by whatever name you call it, to succeed or prosper or ‘breathe’ there has got to be honesty and trust in it…without both from ‘both sides’ one cannot call it a mutual true relationship.. I agree with you completely hun, for any relationship to function, these are the vital bases it needs, without them, the relationship will merely fall apart…
Sooo here I am once more trying to figure out why people would lie to me or cause unnecessary pain and uncertainty and doubt?? Why are people so selfish like this?? I know this is life and there are such people out here in the world waiting to bring hurt into our lives.. and I also know that at times we bring this onto ourselves when we let such people into our lives, which brings me to my question?? How do we know who to trust?? I guess we don't. We just take a chance, because that is exactly what life is all about. Taking chances and yeah some will hurt us, but its all part of the learning experience. I know how it feels to have trust broken so very severely, so I know what you're going through, but I can assure you, it does get better with times, although the scars remain for a very long time… *hug* I could tell you to construct walls around your heart as a defence mechanism like I did for a very long time, but that won't help, it makes things worse because it blocks the good things from getting inside, also.
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Nessa:…U know the drill!
U & ur fam are in my thots!
hmmm me knw..thanks luwie
Scar face:wat da hell….
u guyz keepin secretz frm yr didi?? hmmmmmph
dnt even think of mentioning messenger this or dat to me
go flex yr fingers an type ….
now watevas going on …I want in on the BIG secret coz u guys have been fightin and am bludy damn curious and inquisitive hhehehehehehehe
love u guys and Kavs
CONGRATS on the great grades mmmmwaaaaah
my magic dust did the trick nah lol??
Ali! My love you are back! Overjoyed to hear that your family is doing well but my sympathy to those
who lost their lives or are still missing in the Lord name let us pray for their souls here today to be saved
I am sorry to hear about your country side where this crisis took place but dont worry – the place can be replaced & fixed ; I am overjoyed that your family is fine the lord is good
no oh my gosh me and marine want you to get yahoo mesenger b/c i am SO dying to chat with you any time and i know she is tooo
but i know how it is …sometimes we all get sooo busy! thats okay at leat you come in BWL and on email
love you no there is no secret my love – & what ever you think is a secret is all there for you & even marine to hear
btw, yes the magic dust DID HELP! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woooff u betta stock up on dat coz i gat like alot of exams comin up soon hehehehe ima need extra this time lol
love you so much hun missed u like crazy!
marine — hi my love — tell ali that she needs YM again! lol will talk to you later & email
love you lots guys
kav
lol didi i know ones she sees his teeth she will faint and that willbe the end of Kavs.
There is nothing that we are hiding from you just couple of picture that i had shown her and we were just joking about it. and the other thing we were just discusing life. and if you get YM you will know what i'm talking about. Iwish i can send you that internet thing but i can't afford it.
Maby oreo can sell part of his land give you the money lol.
Kavs whats up hunn how are you doing? Yes i get what you are syaing i wouldn't reveal anything direct. But glad your fine and i will order her to get one.
DIDI GET YM OR ELES lol
Ali! My love you are back! Overjoyed to hear that your family is doing well but my sympathy to those
who lost their lives or are still missing in the Lord name let us pray for their souls here today to be saved
I am sorry to hear about your country side where this crisis took place but dont worry – the place can be replaced & fixed ; I am overjoyed that your family is fine the lord is good
no oh my gosh me and marine want you to get yahoo mesenger b/c i am SO dying to chat with you any time and i know she is tooo
but i know how it is …sometimes we all get sooo busy! thats okay at leat you come in BWL and on email
love you no there is no secret my love – & what ever you think is a secret is all there for you & even marine to hear
btw, yes the magic dust DID HELP! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woooff u betta stock up on dat coz i gat like alot of exams comin up soon hehehehe ima need extra this time lol
love you so much hun missed u like crazy!
marine — hi my love — tell ali that she needs YM again! lol will talk to you later & email
love you lots guys
kav
xxxxxxxxx
kavz da luvz,
my darling huny bunny,
hahahaha *****hugz******
thanks for the prayers and for yr thoughts…hmmmm emotionally I dnt think many people will be the same
for me…am glad I didnt visit the beach when i was there, but will be going for sure for Easter …will take sum pics but am sure things luk better now..
off coz yr didis magic dust works, u think I will send sum for niks, neva…am sooo damn proud of ye missy
***more hugz**** and will be sending u more magic dust as the year unfolds…promise..
was jokin bout the secret, I knw watye talking bout, got ye mails, sorry havent replied, am swamped here
and too exhausted to type by the time I reach home..u know all the damn house chores hahahahaaaaa
now didnt I tell u guys to NOT mention the yahoo messenger to me????
mmmwaaaaahhhhh…have missed u too sweety, uve been in my thots constantly especially when I was getting ym hair chopped off hahahahaaaa, seriously thot off u and our hair conv ….when we do get together will SHOW u the tricks of the trade….
Marine:lol didi i know ones she sees his teeth she will faint and that willbe the end of Kavs.
eeeeeyuk Maaara, dnt do dat to my poor Kavz u hear me…be nice now…..
so wats dat song again??? WHO LET DA DOGS OUT?? thankfully Cosmics safe back in his kennel …
There is nothing that we are hiding from you just couple of picture that i had shown her and we were just joking about it. and the other thing we were just discusing life. and if you get YM you will know what i'm talking about. Iwish i can send you that internet thing but i can't afford it.
WAT??? U didnt just tell the whole madhouse folkz that I am financially ruined did u??? LOL
Jeez will u be patient already….that YM thing aint the most important thing in my mind sweety. I speak to u
and even that is not enuf coz u DONT LIKE MY ACCENT…U said I sound like Bluh bluh or sums:-( but dis kewl u aint the
only one who said this….sooooooooooo me aint gonna call u or em anymore, not until I master the amerikaaaano
and Jamaican accent…lmao
chill for a while okies, i have a laptop dat requires a certain this or dat internet thingy majig..flip dnt know this computer
jargon…so am waiting for the dude from the computer place to call me once they have stock of whateva the hell it is I need
as for YM, forget it, am already being harrased by dudes asking for my hand in marriage, cant take anymore of this IM nonsense
on my gmail, imagine what will happen on ym..??
Maby oreo can sell part of his land give you the money lol.
DID U JUST TYPE THIS….MAAAAARA U FREAK …AM GONNA STRANGLE U…I PROMISE U
wat da hell does that pest Cosmic have to do wud my finance problems…???????????????
pleeeees dnt confuse da confused nah…if u wanna blow my top off, do it the right way…
is dis like labola time or wat?? dat he has to sell lands or planets or wateva, and how come I dnt know anything??
Kavs whats up hunn how are you doing? Yes i get what you are syaing i wouldn't reveal anything direct. But glad your fine and i will order her to get one.
DIDI GET YM OR ELES lol
yeah yeah order all u want…u two ……am NOT getting YM
or else WAT?? HUH HUH HUH …..LMAO
*****luw u 2 crazeeeee a$$ choti behens of mine **********
mmmwaaaaaaaaaahhhh
ali – hi how r u hun.. its okay abt the email thing i knoooo sometimes its so hard to reply n stuff when u're like totally loaded with all these crazy things to do its totally fine
n plus don worry abt tryin to reply to mah email gawd… sum1 reading them must be get so confused have no idea how to reply in the 1st place
yesh i m going to need some of that magic dust for my exams
n i wish u cud give me some so i cud sprinke sprinkle sprinkle all over my body so i cud become REFINED and beautiful as the wide open sky and wonderful as the deep blue sea and and and everything that is nice and so that i wont be invisible to the world any longer because at least some person would be forced to SEE me through their lens
why did u cut ur hair hun?! or was it juz a shape up or sumthin? well i really wish we cud get together n with marine too n u guyz cud teach me all the tricks of the trade yesh yesh that wud be so magical ..being with u guys! oh gawd my heart wud melt n splatter all ova the place
abt the oreo thing — nooooo idont wanna dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
right now…im so upset n maddened by gnawing feelings that wont stop biting into my flesh that is already bleeding ; dont know what to do now all out of hope but will sit here in this little corner i call my world and b e eaten away
kav
Marine:lol didi i know ones she sees his teeth she will faint and that willbe the end of Kavs.
There is nothing that we are hiding from you just couple of picture that i had shown her and we were just joking about it. and the other thing we were just discusing life. and if you get YM you will know what i'm talking about. Iwish i can send you that internet thing but i can't afford it.
Maby oreo can sell part of his land give you the money lol.
Kavs whats up hunn how are you doing? Yes i get what you are syaing i wouldn't reveal anything direct. But glad your fine and i will order her to get one.
DIDI GET YM OR ELES lol
please save me! why ya'll pickin on poor lil oreo though ha
oh yes marine showed me some pics inYM with her and some friends haha wont say wot their doin u ask her lol she'll tell u up front n omg marine is like SO GORGEOUS gawd those luscious lips damn girl u fine … n ooo the eyes!!! love the eye do!
hey wot thing r u talking to send on internet marine?
wuv u hun
why do life have to be so screwed up some times, so confusing that you just have no idea as to what ideas to even have
why can guys lie so much & feel that it might be okay b/c that is what GUYS do & that girls are the ones that “have to be the decent ones”
& why do girls always wrap around their emotions too extreme
i just dont know but its not wrong for someone to be wrapped around their emotions but its wrong for someone to play with them or hurt them on purpose
i just dont know what to say anymore or whatever
n im so scared of the world its unbelievable im invisible to the world however i wish if god can send me some magic to change all that n that i can become someone and show those who like to hurt me or show me that i am not the only thing that makes them happy
Didi ok ok i get it wow don't et a ym n-e-way do those guys know that you don't swing that way lol. Well ok ok i will waith.
And have you seen Oreos land he can offord to sale some and help you out.
Kavs we are not picking on you we love you darling.
hey don't go telling people about my picture j/k but thank you very much for the compliment.
Didi i will send you the pictured trust me you need to see them
Marine:Didi ok ok i get it wow don't et a ym n-e-way do those guys know that you don't swing that way lol. Well ok ok i will waith.
okies just had my dose of coffee so am STILL not really following u…………DID U JUST SAY i DNT SWING WAT WAY???
ARE U NOW TELLING ME AND EVERYONE THAT I AM A L.ESBIAN?????????
************faints*****************
this may explain a lota thingz nah?????????????
u watchye bak, am gonna getye….
And have you seen Oreos land he can offord to sale some and help you out.
Kavs we are not picking on you we love you darling.
hey don't go telling people about my picture j/k but thank you very much for the compliment.
Didi i will send you the pictured trust me you need to see them
Wat???????? u r beautiful…….aaargh dnt understand why u dnt think soooo …
kavita_0026:i just dont know but its not wrong for someone to be wrapped around their emotions but its wrong for someone to play with them or hurt them on purpose
n im so scared of the world its unbelievable im invisible to the world however i wish if god can send me some magic to change all that n that i can become someone and show those who like to hurt me or show me that i am not the only thing that makes them happy
Kavita…
My two cents…
NOBODY can hurt you unless you let them… you're only as strong as you want to be, or as strong as you feel… and if you don't feel strong from within, NOTHING will change.. ya hear me girl? NOTHING will change. The strength has to come from within you.. and until you stop feeling sad and sorry that the world is not as perfect as you expected it to be, ain't nothing that will change honey…
There are some situations in life (believe me – I have been there myself of late) where saying, “Whatever” and moving the **** on is the best thing to do. But unless you can find the voice in your heart saying that it IS the best thing to do, life won't change.. you have to want to change. I have not a clue how old you are, and I don't care how old you are… but you are mature enough to deal with this, Kavita… from what I see, you are mature enough.. and that is all that matters.
Nobody can fight your battles for you. Do it yourself honey. Because I think you owe that much to yourself. And, if you don't mind my bossy words.. which you are under no obligation to follow (I HATE – with a passion – telling people how to live their lives.) stop seeing the world in a negative light (basically, if I may be a little rude and blunt, stop complaining and whining and groaning like it's everyone else's fault except yours… it may well be their fault, but it is first and foremost YOURS for letting their faults hurt you so much.). It won't get you ANYWHERE.
See, now you probably understand why I believe I am my only strength. Lol. Don't feel hurt or offended, OK? Not my intention.. 🙂
Ali – ! Marine was saying alright she gets it you dont have to get YM b/c when we asked you you said okay you cant soo i guess she was just making a joke and say that you dont swing that way ( meaning..erm..you dont go in YM and chat and stuff? lol i dont know ask her ) but im 100% sure she isnt callin gyou a *** why would she do that!
lol i think marine knows she's beutiful lol marine do u?!!! yesh plzzzzzzz show ali ur pics ..i luv her pics i swear her lipz n eyes they're like soooooooo like beautifully made!
kavita_0026:Ali – ! Marine was saying alright she gets it you dont have to get YM b/c when we asked you you said okay you cant soo i guess she was just making a joke and say that you dont swing that way ( meaning..erm..you dont go in YM and chat and stuff? lol i dont know ask her ) but im 100% sure she isnt callin gyou a *** why would she do that!
LMAO…aaaw Kavz, hw r u luwie?? dnt worrie bout it…am kewl ..now let Mara explain what she meant…
amnot sure…must be my perverted mind nah?? lol….
lol i think marine knows she's beutiful lol marine do u?!!! yesh plzzzzzzz show ali ur pics ..i luv her pics i swear her lipz n eyes they're like soooooooo like beautifully made!
okies nw Mara better send em pics to me…yup I keep tellin da dame dat shes gorgeous..
kavita_0026:Ali – ! Marine was saying alright she gets it you dont have to get YM b/c when we asked you you said okay you cant soo i guess she was just making a joke and say that you dont swing that way ( meaning..erm..you dont go in YM and chat and stuff? lol i dont know ask her ) but im 100% sure she isnt callin gyou a *** why would she do that!
LMAO…aaaw Kavz, hw r u luwie?? dnt worrie bout it…am kewl ..now let Mara explain what she meant…
amnot sure…must be my perverted mind nah?? lol….
lol i think marine knows she's beutiful lol marine do u?!!! yesh plzzzzzzz show ali ur pics ..i luv her pics i swear her lipz n eyes they're like soooooooo like beautifully made!
okies nw Mara better send em pics to me…yup I keep tellin da dame dat shes gorgeous..
boo:kavita_0026:i just dont know but its not wrong for someone to be wrapped around their emotions but its wrong for someone to play with them or hurt them on purpose
n im so scared of the world its unbelievable im invisible to the world however i wish if god can send me some magic to change all that n that i can become someone and show those who like to hurt me or show me that i am not the only thing that makes them happy
Kavita…
My two cents…
NOBODY can hurt you unless you let them… you're only as strong as you want to be, or as strong as you feel… and if you don't feel strong from within, NOTHING will change.. ya hear me girl? NOTHING will change. The strength has to come from within you.. and until you stop feeling sad and sorry that the world is not as perfect as you expected it to be, ain't nothing that will change honey…
There are some situations in life (believe me – I have been there myself of late) where saying, “Whatever” and moving the **** on is the best thing to do. But unless you can find the voice in your heart saying that it IS the best thing to do, life won't change.. you have to want to change. I have not a clue how old you are, and I don't care how old you are… but you are mature enough to deal with this, Kavita… from what I see, you are mature enough.. and that is all that matters.
Nobody can fight your battles for you. Do it yourself honey. Because I think you owe that much to yourself. And, if you don't mind my bossy words.. which you are under no obligation to follow (I HATE – with a passion – telling people how to live their lives.) stop seeing the world in a negative light (basically, if I may be a little rude and blunt, stop complaining and whining and groaning like it's everyone else's fault except yours… it may well be their fault, but it is first and foremost YOURS for letting their faults hurt you so much.). It won't get you ANYWHERE.
See, now you probably understand why I believe I am my only strength. Lol. Don't feel hurt or offended, OK? Not my intention.. 🙂
wooooohoooooo Boo, and here I thot I was having a bad day…J/k Yaar…
kavita_0026:why do life have to be so screwed up some times, so confusing that you just have no idea as to what ideas to even have
why can guys lie so much & feel that it might be okay b/c that is what GUYS do & that girls are the ones that “have to be the decent ones”& why do girls always wrap around their emotions too extreme
i just dont know but its not wrong for someone to be wrapped around their emotions but its wrong for someone to play with them or hurt them on purpose
i just dont know what to say anymore or whatever
n im so scared of the world its unbelievable im invisible to the world however i wish if god can send me some magic to change all that n that i can become someone and show those who like to hurt me or show me that i am not the only thing that makes them happy
take it easy sweetness, me will send u an email by tom morn ok…dnt
let it get u down hun..
Kavita…
My two cents…
NOBODY can hurt you unless you let them… you're only as strong as you want to be, or as strong as you feel… and if you don't feel strong from within, NOTHING will change.. ya hear me girl? NOTHING will change. The strength has to come from within you.. and until you stop feeling sad and sorry that the world is not as perfect as you expected it to be, ain't nothing that will change honey… My love – you are so right. I have to stop being this WEAK oh my god. I just I guess I cant sit here and be upset that the world isnt changing. I have to be stronger i just HAVE TO
There are some situations in life (believe me – I have been there myself of late) where saying, “Whatever” and moving the **** on is the best thing to do. But unless you can find the voice in your heart saying that it IS the best thing to do, life won't change.. you have to want to change. I have not a clue how old you are, and I don't care how old you are… but you are mature enough to deal with this, Kavita… from what I see, you are mature enough.. and that is all that matters. I know yes some pple just have to say F it an move on and away ; Im 19 yrs old – yeah I knwo i know everyone will say stop being like a little 5 yr old like marine said ot me ; by the way, how old are you? & where are you living right now? i asked you before but you didnt answer
Nobody can fight your battles for you. Do it yourself honey. Because I think you owe that much to yourself. And, if you don't mind my bossy words.. which you are under no obligation to follow (I HATE – with a passion – telling people how to live their lives.) stop seeing the world in a negative light (basically, if I may be a little rude and blunt, stop complaining and whining and groaning like it's everyone else's fault except yours… it may well be their fault, but it is first and foremost YOURS for letting their faults hurt you so much.). It won't get you ANYWHERE. Hey hey hey dont feel responsible for how i 'live my life' just b/c you gave me some sisterly advice in my time of need! b/c you have no idea how i feel thankful & greatful to feel & hear out from someone else's point of view about this whole thing. I think everything you said is 100% right and I think i have to change my self and in such a way that i love myself and that i force the world to at least love me/or be neutral [ or NOT dislike me or not be invisible to it ] No its not their fault… imean i know..it is all my fault b/c i am not god damn strong as i thought i was! i heard that this world is evil & mean & cold & nasty and if you're not strong & mean u will be eaten alive. well ………………..
you're right…it IS my fault everything s it just is
See, now you probably understand why I believe I am my only strength. Lol. Don't feel hurt or offended, OK? Not my intention.. 🙂
noooooo now why would i be hurt or offended if someone who luvs .. is telling me their thoughs on something!! n by the way i luve yeh too n m thankful for ur kind words n i just wanna let u know i totally agree with u 100% i gats to let the world stop eating me if only i stop being the scum to eat then it wont eat me! it is my fault
it just has to stop being
& im going to have to work on making things better – most of it of course, is really making myself better
kavita_0026:ali – hi how r u hun.. its okay abt the email thing i knoooo sometimes its so hard to reply n stuff when u're like totally loaded with all these crazy things to do its totally fine
n plus don worry abt tryin to reply to mah email gawd… sum1 reading them must be get so confused have no idea how to reply in the 1st place
yesh i m going to need some of that magic dust for my exams
n i wish u cud give me some so i cud sprinke sprinkle sprinkle all over my body so i cud become REFINED and beautiful as the wide open sky and wonderful as the deep blue sea and and and everything that is nice and so that i wont be invisible to the world any longer because at least some person would be forced to SEE me through their lenswhy did u cut ur hair hun?! or was it juz a shape up or sumthin? well i really wish we cud get together n with marine too n u guyz cud teach me all the tricks of the trade yesh yesh that wud be so magical ..being with u guys! oh gawd my heart wud melt n splatter all ova the place
abt the oreo thing — nooooo idont wanna dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
right now…im so upset n maddened by gnawing feelings that wont stop biting into my flesh that is already bleeding ; dont know what to do now all out of hope but will sit here in this little corner i call my world and b e eaten away
kav
u knw if I were there, u wud be running for ye life for talking such crap…
now listen to me okies, your didi at this very moment has a major crisis to deal with, its not that i dnt know HOW to answer yr mail,
its just that I want to give u the right advise and am not even in the right frame of mind to think logically
sooo be patient with me hun ok
and dnt think that I have forgotten coz ur in my thoughts and duas all the time…
just know that i truly love u lotz ok…
***hugz****
Ali!!! my sweetheart – its okay loveeeeeee dont go crazy ( just to send me an email )
i know things are up & everywhere over there so take care of those matters! we are only human there is just so much we can take, you know?
n i love u lots n thnkx for caring god bless you child
thankie for the hugzzz they wre so warm lol
here's urs *hugs [extra warm with a big splash a lurveeeeeee ]
luv yu
kavita_0026:Ali!!! my sweetheart – its okay loveeeeeee dont go crazy ( just to send me an email )
i know things are up & everywhere over there so take care of those matters! we are only human there is just so much we can take, you know?
n i love u lots n thnkx for caring god bless you child
thankie for the hugzzz they wre so warm lol
here's urs *hugs [extra warm with a big splash a lurveeeeeee ]
luv yu
kav
gotta go write my essay now! hmmpf
thanks but did u just call me child??????????????????????????
************faints**************************
bludy hell…
gud luk with da essay, if u need help, SHOUT out …
Hey Kav,
Boo is absolutely right that you have to be strong from within! But I can understand it is hard sometimes… When everybody and everything around you is hurting you, it can really bring you to your knees… That doesn't mean you're not strong, or that you're behaving childish.. it's just saying that something around you is really wrong! Not only YOU have to change and become stronger, sometimes a change of environment/friends or whatever will help too!! And remember… everything what's bringing you to your knees now will only make you stronger in the end!!
Take care sweets (will reply to your email soon) and good luck with everything! If you need me, I'll be there… And we're all here for you sweets… Don't let the world get you down!!
Lots of love, Shakz.
okies then…
Have this awesome luking pimple just near my lip and u knw how we women
go crazee when a pimple pops up outa the blue on the eve of the night u wanna
go out and dance till your feet cant carry u anymore r8…
well dis the case wud me…LUCKY CHICK that i am…
so me cancelled da plans, heading off home to cook sum healthy food
eat and sleep …..
Later my people…
*Sigh* …
Di and Kavs i know i'm beautifull and i don't doubt it i mean i'm not saying i'm not beautifull i'm just saying that my face and my personality doesn't go with my body and thats what i'm trying to change. I mean we all have something that wre don't like about ourselfs rite?
Di i was calling you a les lol
Kavs i couldn't agree with BOO more she is right that what we all need to remeber. I mean we all can get weak in the knees and bent down and brake down also but we all need to f ind the strangth within ourself and move on. If i let other to hurt me and act like its getting to they will hurt me but i never give other that apportunity to do it. i mean people only see you how you see yourself they treat you the way you treat yourself. So that what you need to do.
Hope i made any sence. lol
I feel so nostalgic.. and it's not the type that you feel like smiling over and saying what a wonderful time I had.. its the type that makes you feel like *sigh* I wish I had a clock that would magically rewind time and take me back to when happiness was so heavily in the air that I could practically taste it.
OMG UP when you find one let me know lol i could use some time i need a watch like that.
OK WHOS GOOD AT SCIENCE MABY WE CAN MAKE ONE LOL
tabzee so poetic!!!! aww hun *hug*
marine — yes sigh..boo is right & i've heard that… if you dont believe in yourself NO ONE will belive in you and i have to start believing in myself and being strong and showing the world that i am a person just like them and not UNDER them
love you guyz tonssssss
ali! you will not go dancing b/c you have a pimple!!!?? oh come on – so you mean when you go dancing pple look at yr face ..i thought it was only dancing
and besides one lil pimple is nott gonna scar yr beauty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ermm* marine* soo are yeh working on making that clock for tabzee?
Hey Kavs yah well you know what you need to do your the one who is with yourself all the time, Even though we know you we don't know as much as you know yourself.
Ali what you mean you won't go out cause you have apimple if it was like that no one would go out. Plus its so dark at the clubs who in the world is gonna see your pimple lol. Di your to much lol/
Hey all you gorgeous gyals h r u!
Marine.. you are Right on the spot with those thoughts
ali – you stop it right now young lady! – 1 little pimple should not
take anythign away fr you b/c you are awesome & a pimple have NO competition
in trying to prove otherwise!
Life sucks sometimes.
Why do we have to struggle with it?
why do we have to pass through so many test in life?
What is it that god has planed for us?
I want to know exactly why does he give us heart to love,
But he doesn't give us the one that we love.
Why are the only ones that can hear our hearts echo?
Why is love so complicate?
We go through life dreaming of that special someone,
Yet when we find them why can't we hold them?
I yarn for him, My love is the only one that my heart aces for beats for.
My love is the one i dream of day by day
Yet i wake up to a hollow day.
Why is he so close yet at the same so far away.
Why is life so much torture.
I live for life not for love, but yet love is the a biggest part of love.
Someone tell me if you can,
Someone make me understand as to
why am I being tortured so much by my feeling?
Will the say come that i can have my hearts desire?
Will the day come where i get to hold the one that my heart aces for?
Why can't he hear the echo of my heart?
I see nothing but color but yet my heart in black,
Why do I feel like that my heart is only half whole?
Dear god please hear my plea and answer my cry
What test should i go through to get the one that makes me whole?
I guess no one can answer me cause everyone has one question or another.
But at the end we all ask got WHY OH GOD WHY.
Sorry guys when I'm sad i don't know Why i put my feeling into a poetry. Tis is really how I'm feeling and if you know the answer really know the answer then tell me.
k luw am ALLLLLL yrs, lets talk…
our heart chooses whom to love, regardless of what our head tells us…
why ask god for answers when its all within u???
okies ..pm
mwah…
How is it within me di.
I wish it was then i could find it soon
Ok we'll talk in PM
aquamarine… theres a cliff waiting for you. i'll lead u to it. no worries. enjoy the wind that cuts through yr face, the thrill of flying like a free bird, the adrenalin rush like going down a bungee and finally, the splat that awaits u like a rotten egg.
Sure Cosmic lead the way. I will follow.
excellent. u made the right choice.
but first, u need to sign this disclaimer:
I hereby does not hold serio responsible for my stupid actions and agree that i was not forced into committing this 'jumping off the cliff' act and it was a decision made solely by me and me alone and any legal actions that might be carried out by anyone against serio in the future will be null and void and further taunting by the fellow bwl faltoos towards serio is definitely uncall for and is an act of cruelty towards the noble serio.
I also hereby agree that the cliff are of natural resources and holds no grudge towards serio if my intended purpose in carrying out the 'jumping off the cliff' act is not met at the end of my jump. I also agree that my being accepted into this amazing act is dependent on the decision made by serio and he may chooses, at any time, without prior notice, to cancel this act or to move this act at another location, which he may deemed fit as and when the need arises.
I, the pagal one,
Marine
If you think that i will sign and waiver or contract made by you then your crazy.
I rather really jump off a cliff or under a truck on the freeway then to sign a waiver made by a crazy person
Mara check yr pm,
ignore cliffhanger here
and listen to yr di
u aint DAT desperate, not when u have me to help sort through this
luwye
crazy? yeah im crazy.
truck? hmmm…that will be a good option for you. at least it doesnt contaminate the environment, i.e the beautiful cliffs!!
Oreo you should be the next Kevorkian helping people commit suicide, But no help neede here I love life to much
So keep your cliff and sale some of it nad move into civilization
hun, promise to call u laterz k
need to get my head around this whole thing..make sum sense of it..
**me luws ye..**
take care now…and please go to bed already..
ok but text me before snce i got docs appointment.
I'm going to bed and i'm alright don't think about it to much oneof us needs to be sain.
Lol, tell me bout it…yup will **sms** u before i do…
an dat docs appointment…***faints*** u r crazy Missy…but me still luws u
take it easy now, love is alllllll around ye…
yeah r8 hun, sane….meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee LMAO…
hmmmm ok then, when u hear what U have to tell u …that wud make u cry
sooo for now, gimme a hug and go to bed…
**hugz***
1 more thing, I hope u feeling at least a lil better now??
mmmwaaaahhhh,
di
Dis all bout Love nah…dis was written for me by my closest friend/sister….at least someone in this world understands Scarry….thought I should share it…
Have you ever felt what I feel?
Have you ever tried to understand someone
Tried so hard to fathom what they fee?
Hoping that somehow you will not feel alone?
Is life meant to be a game of guessing
You win if you can read between the lines
You lose if if you keep getting
No straight answers to what we call life.
Have you looked into some one’s eyes and seen
What they think without saying a word
What they feel, making you keen
Wanting to know more without a word?
Look into your heart and tell me
If what you feel is what I feel
If what you uphold is what I do
If what we feel is anywhere near the same.
I will soar with you if you let me
I will dance with you if you hold me
Close to you, your body, your soul
Let us match heartbeats then we will be one
Or let us alternate and we will com
I'm great di i really really am
oreo – dayem – you dont know when to stop huh! dun go advising pple to jump off cliffs..by the way how do u know its helpful to them..have u done it before
marine & ali – my schweet sisters — oh help us dear lord when we are in our greatest need & in our time of most greatest suffering when our hearts are the most vulnerable to destruction and pain
marine – how are you my love? whats been happening to you? please tell me … dont worry you will get what ever it is through… i know you must be so upset & worried about..S but let me tell you something
you must be strong …just as you guys tell to me… be strong & me & ali & every1 are here for you
i know sometimes we have NO idea as to how to answer these crazy q's that we have in our hearts & minds & we dont even have any idea as to how we GOT to this place where we are right now! but this is what i need yu to do
look inside yrself & seek yr self out & seek your heart out and realize how wonderful of a person you are
and that you as your own self does not depend on anyone else to be a sweetheart
we are here for you marine — as for you ali — seems liek something is going on with you too my love & i know it is about ….. i thin i know…& i sure know that there's a lot of heart ache involved — but im here for yeh okay ….
marine ali , if anytime that you cant hold back the tears, please rest yr head on my shoulder & i will cry for you
love
stop?? thats not part of serio's vocabulary!
continue, go on, keep going, never give up…thats more like it.
marine & ali – my schweet sisters — oh help us dear lord when we are in our greatest need & in our time of most greatest suffering when our hearts are the most vulnerable to destruction and pain
kavs darlin….tnx for the prayer hun, am fine..:-) will def keep u 2 kewl chicks in my dua's…
marine ali , if anytime that you cant hold back the tears, please rest yr head on my shoulder & i will cry for you
thanks sweety…..same here nah…Mara's the one in need of our shoulders…leave me outa this willye….**hugz***
be strong & me & ali & every1 are here for you –
i know sometimes we have NO idea as to how to answer these crazy q's that we have in our hearts & minds & we dont even have any idea as to how we GOT to this place where we are right now! but this is what i need yu to do
off coz ..was going to suggest some alcohol but it aint funny anymore…so guys, take it easy, Am here off coz..
sooo holler okies…as for the questions, just post em to me, will reply accordingly…
Love Sux…no offence to all those whose hearts are beating to the rhythm of anothers…yup WATEVA …I say..
take yr games and go play it wud someone who cares….am sick n tired of all this damn nonsense, sooooo….from me …I say, go make the most of life instead of wasting it on LOVE…not worth the damn effort…
as for you ali — seems liek something is going on with you too my love & i know it is about ….. i thin i know…& i sure know that there's a lot of heart ache involved — but im here for yeh okay ….
NUTHING is going on with me…just moodilicious dats alll…am kewl as the dew on a bright breezy sunny morning K..
U dnt know coz THERES NUTHING to know luw…stop wasting yr thoughts and mind conjuring up such fantasies bout scarry Didi having …what again???
Heart ache>??? lmao..nope…nope… me have NO heart…aches….soooo please chilll already….no worries…P R O M I S E…
thanks hon, as usual, u take care and know I am here for u tooooooooooooo, and if u really wanna be here for me,STOP worrying coz nuthings wrong…k ***more hugz***
serioComic:stop?? thats not part of serio's vocabulary!
continue, go on, keep going, never give up…thats more like it.
wow thanks for the advice oreoji – u r showing such a warm heart these days!!!!! look … how nice he is..giving us inspiration .. continue…go on… keep going..never give up guys!
all thanks to our sweet oreoji
man oh man – ali – i dont know if you'r being sarcastic or as strong as a bull in reality
but hey glad to hear that you are stronG & will always luv u & marine & every1 here &
i know marine has been upset abt soem stuff & we've gotta be there for her!
kinda agree with yeh on the love thing — partially agree however —
but i dont know…. sumtimes u go to distances to feel something for some1 & they just never seem to acknowledge it & u cant blame them coz they might say its not their fault that you are behaving in such ways ……….HMMPPH!!!!!!!!!!!! not their fault that they made you god darn fall into their comforty warm arms of love ey! argh! ARGH!!!!!!!!
AH BLAH TO THEM!
love you too hunny bunny lunny tunny munnyyyyy
sumtimes u go to distances to feel something for some1 & they just never seem to acknowledge it & u cant blame them coz they might say its not their fault that you are behaving in such ways ……….HMMPPH!!!!!!!!!!!! not their fault that they made you god darn fall into their comforty warm arms of love ey! argh! ARGH!!!!!!!!
firstly hun, with love u go the distance only because YOU want to for the person(s) u love ..it shud never be something demanded or u shud not feel
obligated to do so…and on that same token, one should not expect anything in return if one does go**the distance** for ther love…
am not sure if it makes much sense here but its just the way I think of it..of LOVE…
it really isnt their fault that U love them…thats absolutely true because no one screams out for love…it happens…
Sometimes one is a lil helpless when it comes to **whom the heart chooses*** to beat for…r8…
I dunnno, in this day and age, many people look at the outer factors of a person eg..the external beauty of one
therefore sometimes when one loves another, it is not always reciprocated …
am stopping here for now….sooo hope i have made a lil sense….
to me one should not feel compelled/forced into doing…it should FLOW…LOVE…..hmmm
no expectations…..
if i am going a distance to **FEEL** something for someone then I dunno…am seriously going to question myself as
to whether this LOVE is true/real….or if it is love in the first place…
sooo sweety, I dnt mean to sound harsh but ths is just my opinion/take on whatye had said above…nothing personal
to You or whats going on in yr life okies…
man oh man – ali – i dont know if you'r being sarcastic or as strong as a bull in reality
oh…errrrr a bit of both??? i guess…lol…Jeez dnt call me a bull ok…but me have to tell my mom this, she has been annoying me about my tempers and
moodiness of late…BULL lmao…oh my lord…Kavs u are toooo much luwie…..
i know marine has been upset abt soem stuff & we've gotta be there for her!
she does Kavs, sooooo give her much love, support and warm hugz during this time okies…
luwye sweety
didi…
Ali! I was saying some of those stuff in relation to alot of OTHER people's feeling and also your feeling maybe a little bit of Mine but i think you misunderstood me nope i think i KNOW you did..
sorry i was the boinker to say that
but 1 thing i must say — definitely NO expecting anything in return from a pereson if you love them – you will give yr heart & be wonderful to them leading to make their life easier & this shud make you yrself happy by itself …b/c you love that person & you want them to be alright
when i said 'distances' i dont mean you have to 'do work & struggle to love thta particular person' b/c then what u said wud be right…yu shud consider some questions of if yr certain abt the person or not
i guess by distance i sort of meant..the limitless heart
alright let me stop this CRAP
will talk to you later – kav
Hmmmm I guess I did luwie, but Like I said
when I was writin/typing..I wasnt talking specifically about YOU, was simply responding to the words u wrote love…
me knows, me understands…
C RA P.???.. dont stop…why shud u stop????
wat u say isnt crap hey, if no one else bothers, I do and it does help me sooo yeah
goooo on if u want to k
me luwye
hey hun h r u…. hope goood…naw just forget abt that whole thingi wrote up there…
i hope we're on the same boat now…
yesh yesh…. sailing away on warm wavy water…. starring at the twinkling stars through the dewy air
and embracing the quietness of the midnight moment
and capturing it
all to ourselves
LOLZ – now i guess i qualifiy to say lemme stop this CRAP lol
yesh yesh – i've been trying to learn how to sound intelligent………………..NOT
lol
yup ..stop da crap Kavz 🙂
my feelings…Luuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeee
is what I feel hahahaahaaa
I feel like crap…I remember the days when I would log onto the forum whenever I was upset…now this forum feels like a “stranger”
p.s. I hate it when I miss people
RaNi iS ThE BeS:p.s. I hate it when I miss people
im sorry. he'll be back in no time Insha'allah
Yemenilicious:RaNi iS ThE BeS:p.s. I hate it when I miss peopleim sorry. he'll be back in no time Insha'allah
HE?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RaNi iS ThE BeS:I feel like crap…I remember the days when I would log onto the forum whenever I was upset…now this forum feels like a “stranger”
Aww ranz…! you need a warm choco covered huggie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hug* aww dunt worry some of us are here! seeeeee
kavita_0026:Yemenilicious:RaNi iS ThE BeS:p.s. I hate it when I miss peopleim sorry. he'll be back in no time Insha'allah
HE?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lmao…I miss my dad.
and thanks, Kavita…
Can someone tell me…what do you do when you start having problems with a really really really close friend but when you try to talk about it, the friend ignores you? and you don't know what to really say becuase you don't even know what the problem is?
lmao…I miss my dad.
Aaaw Ranz, I miss my dad toooooo, so me knows whatye feeling, a bit of it I guess…
Can someone tell me…what do you do when you start having problems
with a really really really close friend but when you try to talk about it,
the friend ignores you? and you don't know what to really say becuase
you don't even know what the problem is…
Firstly doesn’t that just drive u crazeeeee, trying to figure out WHAT u had done, and it could be anything
that makes yr friend feel the need to ignore u sweetie…not necessarily what you had done or said hey..
I think you should just approach him/her and ask her/him what’s going on…
Whether its through the written word, telephonically or in person, whichever is more convenient for u ..
as long as you broach the subject and she is aware that her/his behavior is upsetting or hurting you…
if she /he wants to talk they would, otherwise, just leave it for a while and see what happens…
U mentioned,** start having problems**..so am assuming there must be some sort of bad vibes between you
two regardless of whether or not you know what the problem is…
Sooo for me, the only way of knowing is to actually talk to the person…
Its not healthy Keeping this in , upsetting yourself…sometimes what the other person may say, may hurt,
but personally I would rather just hear it…regardless of whether it results in a positive or negative outcome..
Besides whatever the case may be, no friendship, if it is REAL and TRUE should fall apart because of differences
or minor misunderstandings etc…<
Scar face:
Can someone tell me…what do you do when you start having problems
with a really really really close friend but when you try to talk about it,
the friend ignores you? and you don't know what to really say becuase
you don't even know what the problem is…
Firstly doesn’t that just drive u crazeeeee, trying to figure out WHAT u had done, and it could be anything
that makes yr friend feel the need to ignore u sweetie…not necessarily what you had done or said hey..
I think you should just approach him/her and ask her/him what’s going on…
She is right, Rani… check your PMs twin ji… I love you.
My feelings…at the moment…..
I feel as if no one cares. 'tis just how i feel…not necessarily true. =/
I feel as if no one cares. 'tis just how i feel…not necessarily true. =/
yumz mah angel SCARRY CARES…always did, always will nah,,***hugz***
hope u feel a lil better .sweetie..if sums bothering u ..wanna talk..u know where to find me..
Love u hun
Scarz ji,
You're soooo sweeeet Mashallah.
Thank you so much
Love you too
oye hun just tellin da truth..
me sends ye luw n more n hugz n more
schweeeeeeeeeeeeeetness, take it easy nah
Awwwww
You take it easy as well hunz.
Thank you, I feel so much better
Lekkkkkkkkker…..and I hope u feeel much more better as the minutes…hours..days
get wat am sayin
Oh boy….u wudnt believe this..but theres a a whole bunch of clowns in this office now
with lotz of balloons …
Jeeez I feel like I am in the middle of a carnival lmao…
wat da hecks happenin here …brb hun
Roflmbo!!!!!!!! ahahahahaha
that's hilarious
BALLOONZZ ARE COOL! go and pop em all =P
pop em up …Jeez afta all da effort..me got 2 ballooonz and 2 candies hahahaha..
u want >>????
its is absurd but soooo damn funny
oh this is our official invites to the annual *inspire day**
that we have errrr annually lol…
brilliant idea…..
now no one is goin to get any work done
**sigh** reminds me of Durbz now 🙁
yummmmm candy!!! gimme one =)
LOL clowns roaming around…passing out balloonz to scarz…too funny…
and theyre like…'here you go kid…' lol =) OKAY WHERE'S MY CANDY?
awww who's Durbz, yaar?
nah it went more like dis:
da clown: “Hey pretty gal, u know of inspire day r8, u read yr mail r8…”
Scarry: “Nope..neva heard of both now gimme mah balloon and sweet
coz I ve got tonz of work to do….”
then I say, “in fact u shud give me 2 of each coz u aint funny Mr, c…no smiles on my face…”
Idiot clown, then goes on a gives me a brief explanation on how much sugar is in each candy and
bla bla bla..now dat made me lafff…and hes got a cute smile toooo
Mr clown…
sooo there Yumz, one Candy coming yr way…..
Durbz…Durban…is where I am from, me lil city…
I miss home….:-)
LOL ahahah =P awww he called ju pretty gal
OH DURBAN! gotcha
i miss home too actually!! bleh.
I really need candy, coffeee, cake, anything sweet…lol to stay awake and study
da nerve of him huh?? lmao
I knw u doooooo…me feels ye
hmm lets see wat I have here…
chocolate??..
dat bit of candy…??
no cake
coffeeeeee…??
biscuits….??
can steal one of siph's muffins for ye..want sum???
Tell me watye want…will pass it ova …lol
watye studying???
Any sweets sorry you dont have to get up =P
im studying for Advanced placement exam for english =/
Advanced placement ???
exam for english ????
wat is dis??…neva heard of this one before…..tell me more pls
am interested..
sweetz…..k…me will send em all to ye
Good luck with the studying luwie….
u will be in my duas off coz ….sooo lemme know when u get back yr results k
Thanks Scar face and boo…
I DID talk to her, but there was a confusion between us, and when I wrote that post, I was waiting for her reply. lol.
I feel so bad now.
But everything worked out between us! Actually, there wasn't really a problem, I was just going psycho like always.
but thank you…
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Thanks Scar face and boo…
I DID talk to her, but there was a confusion between us, and when I wrote that post, I was waiting for her reply. lol.
I feel so bad now.
But everything worked out between us! Actually, there wasn't really a problem, I was just going psycho like always.
but thank you…
No need to feel badddd… Childhood problem hai, kyun?
KIDDDDINNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*runs away*
*runs to Khushi's house, sees her making roti with her belan, runs up to her, kisses her on the cheek, grabs belan and runs away after boo*
childhood problem!?!?
I came out healthy, thank you very much.
(well, my twin bro does tell me he kicked me out, you think maybe that had something to do with my psychoness?)
RaNi iS ThE BeS:(well, my twin bro does tell me he kicked me out, you think maybe that had something to do with my psychoness?)
I say it does.
lmao! Then it's all his fault! I had nothing to do with it! *innocent*
Scar face:Advanced placement ???
exam for english ????
wat is dis??…neva heard of this one before…..tell me more pls
am interested..
didi this is for SMART PEOPLE haha
kavita_0026:didi this is for SMART PEOPLE haha
ROFLMBO! thaz funny.
who's smart? pshtttttttt
you
of course
advanced placement student
ROFL! You're hilarious!
I needu study for this crap!! TWO MORE WEEKS!!!!!!
ahhhhhhh *dies*
yeah u're kinda blushing i know it hehe
aww dunt die lol … wake up & study the wunderful material of ADVANCED PLACEMENT english for extra smart pple ..extra extra hear all about ittttttt
hehehe alrite lemme stop before you wanna totally beat me up
its okieee just study & have confidence! you will do wonderful i am sure
LOL, ask Rani, when she compliments me, I'm like 'SHUT UP!'
Thanks ji, hopefully, It will go well. =)
if yuummmenilicious qualifies for advanced placement, then i dread to think of the future of americans!
serioComic:if yuummmenilicious qualifies for advanced placement, then i dread to think of the future of americans!
Oh Lord! you cant ruin my confidence now!
blahblahblahblah
OMG ninja, shut up, don't remind meeeeeeeeee! I don't wanna take these stupid tests grrrrrrrrrr
LOL RANI YOU SHUT UP!
ok, why dont u 2 go fight it off somewhere? and the winner can at least 'claim' to have both brains and brawns
ha, no!
fine fine…if u cant really prove that u have the 'brains' part then at least you can do smtg abt the brawns.
NEVER!
we're cool!
Oreo…you're in trouble, you pissed ninja off.
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Oreo…you're in trouble, you pissed ninja off.
pfffttttt….since when pissing off ppl became my concern?
Since today
(OMG)
(lmao…ohh nooo)
are u high on drugs or smtg? do u need help? if u do, then i can point u to the right places
Rani, what the heck, you're MAD crazy!
shut up! I need to go study!!
You're wasting my study time =p
heck no i aint on drugs boy, but u sure are on something…
RaNi iS ThE BeS:heck no i aint on drugs boy, but u sure are on something…
ON top of the world? ON the right track? sitting ON a chair? yup..u got that rite!
serioComic:RaNi iS ThE BeS:heck no i aint on drugs boy, but u sure are on something…ON top of the world? ON the right track? sitting ON a chair? yup..u got that rite!
you're not on top of the world, nor are u on the right track…..
you wish!
you are difinitely on the WRONG track buddy
Yemenilicious:you're not on top of the world, nor are u on the right track…..
you wish!
how would you know? since when u became 'me'?
since never? im just saying
its my opinion lol.. ( not that it matters to you)
it matters to me.
RaNi iS ThE BeS:it matters to me.
And that's exactly why I said it
me too. lol
serioComic:if yuummmenilicious qualifies for advanced placement, then i dread to think of the future of americans!
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Thanks Scar face and boo…
I DID talk to her, but there was a confusion between us, and when I wrote that post, I was waiting for her reply. lol.
I feel so bad now.
But everything worked out between us! Actually, there wasn't really a problem, I was just going psycho like always.
but thank you…
Am so glad it worked out for u and ur friend Rani! Alhumdulilah *hug*
Yeahhhhh!!! Last Sunday I watched DDLJ untill 0.30 AM and it was defnitely worth the lack of sleep!!! *sighs*
PS: I cried so hard that my eyes where still swollen the next day… Even my colleague asked what I did during the weekend hahaha!! Thank God for the excuse of hay fever!! She would have never understood that I cried so hard over a movie haha
Hahahaha…. ohhhhhhhhhh. Ohhhhhhhhhhhh ShakB m'dear…. welcome to Bollywoodism!
You're officially a Bollyholic now… please collect your free movie ticket (valid only for Bollywood cinemas) on your way out.
shakzz heyyyyyy soo gud to see u here been missing yah!! awwww DDLJ! watched it a while back…but wud watch it again…aw man
its so schweeettttt n sad n…schweeettttttttttt .
hay fever..lol
kavita_0026:its so schweeettttt n sad n…schweeettttttttttt .
*snort*
That sounded hilarious!
hahahaha well it ISSSS schweeeeeeeeeeeeeet n sad n schweett n sad n sccchweeeeeeeet
ok everyone, I want u guys to READ below properly ok…
RIGHT NOW…i wish i was in Durb, wud print this out and …lol…ok I wudnt..am just sooo damn angry….dats my feeelings for today…
it made me cry, coz it was actually sent by the MAN himself TODAY….Mr E…
CANT BELIEVE HE WILL SEND SUMS LIKE THIS
…BUT TRUE…MEN… NO WAIT I MEAN…….E
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
To All Married Couples and Singles Who Intend To Get Married
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand
and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know
what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me
softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the
chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't
talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out
what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory
answer, she had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn’t love her
anymore..I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated
that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had
spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt
sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take
back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried
loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her
cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had
obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing
something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to
sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did
not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want
anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She
requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a
life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a
months time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to
recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out
of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going
crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd
request.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to
face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention
was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day,
we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding
mummy in his arms. His words brough
boo:Hahahaha…. ohhhhhhhhhh. Ohhhhhhhhhhhh ShakB m'dear…. welcome to Bollywoodism!
You're officially a Bollyholic now… please collect your free movie ticket (valid only for Bollywood cinemas) on your way out.
Hahaha, thank you Boo! I'll definitely collect my free movie ticket This weekend I'm going to a Bolly movie again together with Am Rani (we're going to see “Kya Love Story Hai” – this time we really will ), so it will only get worse haha
kavita_0026:shakzz heyyyyyy soo gud to see u here been missing yah!! awwww DDLJ! watched it a while back…but wud watch it again…aw man its so schweeettttt n sad n…schweeettttttttttt .
hay fever..lol
Hey Kavita!!!! I've missed you too!! I'm sorry I didn't reply to your last e-mail, but my life is so hectic at the moment… I'm working my butt off, and at home I also got so many things to do before my marriage, so I really have a lack of time to e-mail you… Hope you're doing better now since the last time we e-mailed!! Let me know soon what's up in your life, okay?
About DDLJ… yes, it's true. You really feel different feelings while watching the movie… Love, anger, sadness and love again haha! You definitely have to watch it again
Scar face:ok everyone, I want u guys to READ below properly ok…
RIGHT NOW…i wish i was in Durb, wud print this out and …lol…ok I wudnt..am just sooo damn angry….dats my feeelings for today…
it made me cry, coz it was actually sent by the MAN himself TODAY….Mr E…
CANT BELIEVE HE WILL SEND SUMS LIKE THIS
…BUT TRUE…MEN… NO WAIT I MEAN…….E
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Aawww, sweety!! The ***!! How could he even think of sending this to you??? He should have known it would open old wounds (which are probably not all healed yet)! I wish I was with you so I could comfort you… but since I'm not, I'm sending you a big digital hug to make you feel better *mwah* Please don't cry sweety, he's not worth it…
-14 days-
FUN BEGINS (NOT)
Shakalaka Baby:About DDLJ… yes, it's true. You really feel different feelings while watching the movie… Love, anger, sadness and love again haha! You definitely have to watch it again
DDLJ… is one movie one cannot watch when one doesn't have that special someone(s?) to love…
Trust meeeeeeeeeeee. It drives you crazy and sends you into depression. lol.
boogedy, i know u are a (g)old member but that gold star of yrs…is blinding! talk abt conceited!!
Unique_princess:Am so glad it worked out for u and ur friend Rani! Alhumdulilah *hug*
Thanks… I miss you
ninja, wats 14 days? wat r u talking about?
boo, lmao, i like the star! I've been meaning to tell you, but yeah i dunno why i didn't
RaNi iS ThE BeS:ninja, wats 14 days? wat r u talking about?
im talking about AP exams jerk!
Hahahaha…. Oreo ji and twin ji….
HAHAHA…. LOL….
It's a “Moderators” star…. I did tell Mukesh it was a little too big… but he didn't seem to want to do anything about it, so….
it was a 'little' too big?? its freaking huge boogedy!! i can probably see it from the moon!!
lmao boo, i think we know what it is mukesh is a pimp, he was right to not do anything about it
and ninja, how was i supposed to know!?!?!? omg, when do i have to take it? errr sooo many stupid tests, i hate hate HATE DESPISE this year. grrrr
RaNi iS ThE BeS:and ninja, how was i supposed to know!?!?!? omg, when do i have to take it? errr sooo many stupid tests, i hate hate HATE DESPISE this year. grrrr
loll i think same day… blah
I kinda like the star! brings some colour to the place! lol.
brings colour or turns people blind?
serioComic:it was a 'little' too big?? its freaking huge boogedy!! i can probably see it from the moon!!
Hahahaa… OK I stand corrected…
Hey, can anyone actually see the WHOLE star? Or is a part of it cropped out 'cos it's too big?
Reckon we should sign a petition and show Mukesh? LOL… 😛
Hahaha… I think my sig brings out a little more colour…
uhhh it'll only turn u blind if ur like 60 with severe eye problems. Good luck =)
for sure boo! it looks good. It brings colour to the grayness! lol
lol it brings summer =D im so happy right now. my dad just came back from america. he looks so tired tho so hes gone straight to sleep! I relly missed him! He brought me a dkny watch that he carried in briefcase the whole flight. lol awwh!
Unique_princess:lol it brings summer =D im so happy right now. my dad just came back from america. he looks so tired tho so hes gone straight to sleep! I relly missed him! He brought me a dkny watch that he carried in briefcase the whole flight. lol awwh!
Alhamdulillah, glad he's home safely Tayba ji
awwwwwww dkny watches are hecka nice…Mubarak
your pops seems soooo coool!!
Unique_princess:im so happy right now. my dad just came back from america. I relly missed him!
I know the feeling, hunn, I can't wait till next weekend…
awww Tabzz soo glad 2 hear that yr daddy is there with you ! live it up!
ohh the yellow star is actually nice but i dont understand what it means?
Weekend!!!
*jumps with joy*
ajkfsakjfhsldkfhsdkljds#*&$()%&#rskhds
ooof week end means more study study study and catch up ooff!
last night i was goign to study for my test that is coming up but i …erm..studied on the BED!!! and i SLEPT AWAY damn it sooo soooooon darnnn!!! it was too comfy to studyyy lol ..
sighs this just means more for me to study today & tomm!!! no more study on bed for me lol
kavita_0026:ooof week end means more study study study and catch up ooff!
last night i was goign to study for my test that is coming up but i …erm..studied on the BED!!! and i SLEPT AWAY damn it sooo soooooon darnnn!!! it was too comfy to studyyy lol ..
sighs this just means more for me to study today & tomm!!! no more study on bed for me lol
LOL! awww, now you know
same thing happens to me i guess…
because as soon as i put my head on the pillow, im gone
thats why i think pillows are evil
Hope you do well on your exam
Pillows are evil huh hmmmmmmm how bout beds! beds are the culprits for carrying the pillows!
haha thanks for the ……………..encouragement……………….. i need that
I feel like crap. grrrr. I hate this bushwa.
I despise it.
I wish there was a way out.
grrr
RaNi iS ThE BeS:I feel like crap. grrrr. I hate this bushwa.
I despise it.
I wish there was a way out.
grrr
lmbo, a way out of talking to me jerk?
how dare you?!?!?!?!
*falls off chair*
*dies*
lmao! you BUM! Why would I want a way out of talking to you? Ur making me feel better. heeeeeeee (my stalker laugh)
but seriously, I wish yeah, i dunnnnnnoe what i wish. actually i do, but yeah.
omg, I wonder if I can stay up all night…make sure i don't fall asleep on you. lmao and make sure i finish my stupid bum faced essay.
LOL! you're such a loserrrrr
You wish what? that I do your stupid whorish essay for you?
MY FEETZ, keep dreaming
Its no problem for me, I don't sleep anyways!
lmao! NO! I can do my own essay, thank u very much. but of course, i don't mind if u wanna do it! lmao. no u bum, i have to do it.
I wish…that people weren't such jerks…
yeah, psycho lady, u never sleep. I need sleep. remember? I love sleep… my life has a tendency to fall apart when i'm awake.
I feel dead if I stay up past 3, lmao I'm oh so sorry if I sound dead by then. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I can't believe u told ur mom that! lmao! ur so funny!
haha! yeah you've been trynu convince me to do it for the past like…uhm….5 mins? =p
LOL I don't need sleep…for like 2 days…then ill collapse, then ill sleep for 5 hours the most…
and then continue the cycle again =p
im weird.
Told my mom what? that Im stupid? lol I am, and thats my vay of cheering her up….joking
we're so crazy…we're on the phone and its like 1AM…watch her jump me tonight!
And im being dead serious!
5 mins? shut up, do u really think i would make u do it? with ALL that sleep u get? I don't think so bum, maybe if u were normal, that would be a different story.
u jerk! You NEEEEEED sleep! GO TO SLEEP! gosh, i got so happy when ur dad told me u were sleeping yesterday, but i slept same time u did and i woke up before u too, so that's good. lol. oh but wait, i slept after school cuz i was hekka tired cuz i didn't get enuf sleep for like a week….errrrr ninja, seriously, take care of urself. Ur Abdullah needs to come fast or else imma kick his butt
lol! it was so funny how u told her ur stupid. lol!
forget 1 am! She's gonna jump you when it's like 4 am and we're still on the phone!
omg i lub u oh so much
I no needing sleeping buming
sheesh!
I will do hw, talk to you, and then get jumped because after that i'll be done for the day right?
If i die, then i was meant to die…right? lol
omg 4 AM!! ohhh myyyy Beloved Allah!!!!!!!!!
I lubjuuuu tooo
yeah, i think my mom will kill me too…I better finish my essay, if i don't finish it and stay up hekka late, she'll “halaal” me.
true, if u die, u were meant to die, BUT you choose the manner in which u die, i don't think u wanna die from lack of sleep.
(why are u whispering?)
LMBOOOOOOOO! HALAAL YOU? AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHADAJKhsakjfhsdf
im whispering cuz you're whispering
yes, she'll halaal me. lmao
I'm whispering cuz i needa whisper, u don't needu! I can't hear u, I have spaghetto in my ears.
(Haylie is right, I think u should marry him too)
LOL!
Mariam who? lmadksfhd
i needu whisper…letz play it safe here!
lol…
u better invite me to ur wedding and then i'll whisper to u, okay?
lollll
ohman shut up
hmmm…*thinking*
aaaaaaaa maaaaa gawwwwww ur thinking
….dont hurt yourself jaan
don't worry, those kinda thoughts don't eber hurt me
heeeeeeeeee(with emphasis on the h)
LOL!!
dont go retarded
i lub juuuuuuuuuuuuuu
omg we're so stupid.
don't name ur son that.
lollll
Zain is a hella nice name
hush yo mouf
Zain is not a hella hekka nice name
*hushes my mouf*
ok, we needu get off, now lmao
no we dont
aklsjfsdffd
its nice, stop being jealous
i ain't jealous of that name, i got my own prettiful names.
sthu
im naming my son that. heck to de yeahhhhhhhhhh
oof you guys are already thinking about wot to name yer sons?!!!
kavita_0026:oof you guys are already thinking about wot to name yer sons?!!!
hahaha! yeah…cuz she doesnt like that name so its gonna be my sons name!
heck yeah!
yep yep, and i already got 2 names i like, so she can keep Zain.
RaNi iS ThE BeS:yep yep, and i already got 2 names i like, so she can keep Zain.
Zain is pimp!
Yemenilicious:kavita_0026:oof you guys are already thinking about wot to name yer sons?!!!hahaha! yeah…cuz she doesnt like that name so its gonna be my sons name!
heck yeah!
hmmmph guys guys guys tsk tsk tsk so yeh guys already talkin about SONS and stuffers?
Yemenilicious:RaNi iS ThE BeS:yep yep, and i already got 2 names i like, so she can keep Zain.
Zain is pimp!
keep saying that and maybe when u name him that, he will think so as well.
RaNi iS ThE BeS:
keep saying that and maybe when u name him that, he will think so as well.
LOL so what?
munkiebum
lol, baqarah
ok fine, it's not that bad of a name anymore, it's starting to sound nice
Ya habeebati
Ya Rani
Ya A'azeezati
Kalli i'ndik hayaa wi adab
la-w samahti =]
Ya Qulbee
Ya Ninja
Ya lewanay
chishay de mata uway, bya wanaya yeh
pu lyara rasha =]
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Ya Qulbee
Ya Ninja
Ya lewanay
chishay de mata uway, bya wanaya yeh
pu lyara rasha =]
votever,
I AM NOT UR HEART, YOU'D BE DEAD BY NOW
It's 4.30 am, and I really don't know what I'm doing awake at this hour!
I gotta get some sleep. But my eyes refuse to!
Nosyira:It's 4.30 am, and I really don't know what I'm doing awake at this hour!
I gotta get some sleep. But my eyes refuse to!
luw awwww hey now wots on that mind of yers that is making you stay up this late hmm?
c'mon now tell tell
Remember to always take rest & relaxation techniques are always good to make you sleep well
Love, Kav
RESTRESTRESTRESTREST!
….yeah!
Nosyira, you should sleep girl… but i know how its like, been there done that..!
hmm Hey khushi!! how art thou havent seen you here for a while
yumminnn hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm take your advice rem you need rest rest rest tooooooooo
kavita_0026:yumminnn hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm take your advice rem you need rest rest rest tooooooooo
*looks around*
hmm
Yemenilicious : *looks around…IN GUILT*
kavita_0026:hmm
Yemenilicious : *looks around…IN GUILT*
oh, u were talking to me?
blah
Hahah yes i said YUMINNNNNNNNNNN hahaha
wot up with you? hmm yumin must comment on the beauty of that signiture pic of yours
I really do think that girl is wrapped in beauty and devotion!
i wonder what oreo thinks of her
Anyway, I am going to study BIOLOGY STUFF NOW
Soooooo gotta go start my chapter on hmm ANIMAL ORIGINS AND THE EVOLUTION OF THE BODY
Yesh yesh, Got to start from NOW TO study for me finals…which for this bio..is like TONS OF STUFF
Anyway, Take Care
Love, Kav
kavita_0026:Anyway, I am going to study BIOLOGY STUFF NOW
Soooooo gotta go start my chapter on hmm ANIMAL ORIGINS AND THE EVOLUTION OF THE BODY
Yesh yesh, Got to start from NOW TO study for me finals…which for this bio..is like TONS OF STUFF
Anyway, Take Care
Love, Kav
good luck once again hunz
And thank you
xxx
ahahaha hmm
soooo wot are yeh up to there yummin?
arghhh sittin here…staring at the ceiling! hahaha okay back to reading summm biology …hmm SPONGES ARE SO INTERESTING !
[SUREEEEEEEEEEEEEE – sorry i just need to motivate my self in SOME WAY hahaha]
lol, i don't feel like doing my homework
SPONGES ARE INTERESTING! YOU GOT THAT RIGHT!!!
tsk tsk tsk – homework is the KEY to your GOLDEN and SUCCESSFUL future
hehehehehhehee ooof!!! *smiles*
Hahah oh plz well havent gone into details on the sponges as yet but still!! need sum motivation! hahahaha
the only sponge that interests me is THE BOMB …THE ONE AND ONLY…THE SWEETEST SPONG EVER …
SPONGEBOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! luw this lil yella fella
who lives in a pineapple unda da sea?
SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTSSSSSSSS
aklfjdslkfjdlkdsjf
he'z zi bomb
(coffee kickin in!)
Spongebob is Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he is the Bomb!
Patrick is weird lol
kavita_0026:Spongebob is Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he is the Bomb!
Patrick is weird lol
lmbo!!!! ju on crackkk Kavitaa
*Gasps* Since when do I get accused of Being on CRACK when I say that spongebob is the most awesome sponge that ever existed! his lil pink star fish friend is weird lol but hmmmp makes yeh laugh when ya need a good one!!!
oh come on?! now u tellme which sponge in this world cares so much about citizens that he is absolutely DEvoted in ensuring their happiness … especially in the area of consumption & so motivated in becoming the BEST of the BEST sponge…notably…Employee sponge .. && is always there to entertain an extremely grumpy neighbor …come one now which spong has a SNAIL for a pet….and FEEDS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arf dont yeh ever see how his big eyes well up with tears when someone gets offended
okay okay sheesh
I take it back =P
Lol okay enough of this crazapit lemme stop hahahah spongebob is sweet & i shall leave it as that
wot other episodes do u watch…if ne
so…
this coffee addiction
is hekka annoying…
the end
So I see we're in a story telling mood hmmmmmmmmm
Aww man now for real you need to take it easy on the coffeeee
*Sigh* *deep breaths* *more sighs… *
Unique_princess:*Sigh* *deep breaths* *more sighs… *
whats wrong tayba jaan? *hugs*
GRRRRRRRRRRRR
I HATE THIS
I HATE IT ALL
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
SCREWWW THIS CRAP!
Worlds apart , the dreamers don't give up
It takes time, to get from the bottom to the top
Inside a whispered conversation,words were never exchanged
but even in simple looks, the meanings just the same….
Tayba…
Yemenilicious:GRRRRRRRRRRRRI HATE THIS
I HATE IT ALL
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
SCREWWW THIS CRAP! Ditto jaan…I love you so much, habeebati.
Inshallah, we'll work together for that sincere smile.
I loved our conversation on aim today…
I miss a certain special someone….oh so very much =[
Rani Jaan- Thank you so much hunz. I love you too.
I loved our conversation as well.
soooo its that time again – where I let it all out…hahaha
okies today me feels………………
thankful ..for my job, coz I just met a whole bunch of interesting ppl from around the world
and they all happen to be really nice folks…besides that…errr coz even though my work is extremely stressful…it provides me with a lota skills I didnt know I had …hahaha
like screaming at people…throwing a tantrum….breaking the company fone..etc etc
angry…coz I was gullible enuf to believe a few lies dished out to me by sum1 I TRUSTED…but am kewl now..its the aircon actually…
happy …coz I have 2 hours left for this work day to end…yippppeeeeeeee.need my bed
nervous…coz I have this blind date tom n8, and knowing meeee, will cancel at the last minute lol…((Al if u are wondering who??? its that dude Shereen is irritating me bout))…
grateful..once more ..for having a bunch of people ..my family, friends, who gives me a good enuf reason to wake up each day and just make the most of it…
cold…coz its freeezing in this MORGUE
In PAIN…coz my earache wont go awaaaaaaaaaaaaaay…oh and my noseache, which is the side effect of my ear being sore…
content…coz… well I have GOD…in whateva name u praise HIM..I have him/HER ( This is for Tz) by my side…
elated…dats due to the overdosage of painkillers hahahaha
wanna smile…but cant coz my ear will hurt
disappointed..coz I cant focus/concentrate enuf to give Taybz my view on her essay subject…damn!!!!
Afraid…to go home now, coz I think I left the washing on…OMG…my house is probably flooded…
LOVED…..
My didi – me miss you so much luwie — i see yr heart is flooded with emotions! take it easy on yer self
Hun…yr ear??? whats wrong? Di – you have a blind date? *gasp* — di, arent you scared of those things… I mean…you dont KNOW who
you are meeting up with? *gaspt* BE CAREFUL for pete's sake!
me luw you me miss you take it easy on yr self luw, kav
Yemenilicious:I miss a certain special someone….oh so very much =[
Rani Jaan- Thank you so much hunz. I love you too.
I loved our conversation as well.
Heyyyyyyy 1st of all this girl is so sweet (in yr sig pic) *shouts* BUT WHY DID YOU TAKE OFF THAT
Awesome pic that OREO ji fell in LOVE with? Hmmph? Dont you want him to have a chance to GAZE at his
lover eyes *runs like crazy*
btw ..who you miss and why did you write it so smallllllllllllllll hmmmmmmph!! me wonder!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
kavita_0026:Heyyyyyyy 1st of all this girl is so sweet (in yr sig pic) *shouts* BUT WHY DID YOU TAKE OFF THAT
Awesome pic that OREO ji fell in LOVE with? Hmmph? Dont you want him to have a chance to GAZE at his
lover eyes *runs like crazy*
btw ..who you miss and why did you write it so smallllllllllllllll hmmmmmmph!! me wonder!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
LOL! of course she's SO SWEET! she's my future daughter. duh?
I took the awesome pic off cuz this one is wayyyyyyy better. and who cares about oreo anyways =p
Kavita, stop wondering cuz votchu wondering is wrong.
I REALLY NEED TO HEAD TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!
okay byebyebyebye! its gonna be crazy…i got no sleep watsoever. blah
child i told you to ease it with the coffee addiction! you getting no sleep coz of coffee it aint gonna do you all that good i mean
i know u stay up to study -thats awesome – but dont KILLL YRSELF dude!
Yessssssss she's yr future daughter…hmmm thats a nice fantasy —- yeah well yah got a point there-who cares about oreo hahaha
have fun at schooooool
LOL! Kavita,
why are u sucha NERD?
WHO HAS FUN AT SCHOOL?!?! WHEN THEY GOT NO SLEEP ESPECIALLY?
*baba Ali moment* 'oooooh i know I know, NERDS!!”
….*puts hand on mouth* YEAHHHHHHHHH *end of baba Ali moment* LOL
acha BYE!
*Awesomely heavy Gasp*
Hmm SURE I get why Im a nerd — I go to bed without caring much sometimes, and I dont drink coffee to stay up
ALL night to STUDY and DO HOMEWORK – until the next MORNING – therefore I got NO … I repeat…absolutely NO SLEEP and then I go :… definitely I must be considerred a nerd na
hahahahahahahaha alrite dude have fun at SCHOOL! YEAH ! haha ..me doing my LAB REPORT now…t/c
P.SSSSSSSSSSSSS —- STUDYING IS GOOD – IT IS THE KEY TO YR SUCCESS!
Kavita
STOP SNEAKING ON BWL FROM SCHOOL
you bad bad girl!
HAHA – I cant HELP IT JI
Hahahahahaha dont you know BWL is my smile of the day, my GIVING of the day!!!
And plus when my head is ToTALLY Tired of EARTHWORMS or lobsters —- its HELLO BWL !
kavita_0026:HAHA – I cant HELP IT JI
Hahahahahaha dont you know BWL is my smile of the day, my GIVING of the day!!!
And plus when my head is ToTALLY Tired of EARTHWORMS or lobsters —- its HELLO BWL !
Awww *hugs*
keep smiling ji
tankuuuuuuuuuuuuuu for those smiles *cheesy smile*
btw, I just mixed like a teaspoon of instant grounded coffee in some milk….hmmmmmph taste good
I got to go study, else I will stay online forever !
Mi finals are coming up annd so much to remember, ESP. Biology ARGH!
*moving away from the computer* TEARY eyes I tell yeh! hahahahha
talk to you later yummmmmy luw you, kav
I'm supposed to be studying too.
whatchu talking? coffee IS SUPPOSED to taste good =P
it's still early here, so im gonna go organize a bit
and then go study…
i dunnoo….
im confused…
Yemenilicious:I miss a certain special someone….oh so very much =[
me too…
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Yemenilicious:I miss a certain special someone….oh so very much =[me too…
*hugs*
I loveth your signatureth =P
=D
kavita_0026:My didi – me miss you so much luwie —
i knw…I mis u tooooooooooooooooo…
i see yr heart is flooded with emotions! take it easy on yer self
I am trying to …promise i am
Hun…yr ear??? whats wrong?
dis gone bonkers on me…lol..am practically deaf in one ear..and DONT get started on seeing a doc…
I will …when I get sum time ….
Di – you have a blind date? *gasp* — di, arent you scared of those things.
nope.. shud I be??? I CAN kick a$$ hey…believe it or not..an besides Its only a guy…wat can he do???…but get deaf as well
with all my screaming hahaha
.. I mean…you dont KNOW who
you are meeting up with? *gaspt* BE CAREFUL for pete's sake!yup true dis…I dont..and wont coz I didnt show up….was tooo tired and sick to go out last n8
soooo I didnt….anyways…was going to meet him at my fwends braai with a whole lota people
I know around me…soooo it wasnt anything serious as such ….just an introduction of sorts..
my fwend keeps bugging me bout this ***really nice muslim dude*** she knows an wudnt give up until
I said **yeah okies, do yr thing…go ahead…***but am not even interested in all this crap …
me luw you me miss you take it easy on yr self luw, kav
Jeeeeeez mum…I am trying me best u knw…cant help it if the flu and all the otha bugz like me a lot..
am irresistable to em..
kavita_0026:Anyway, I am going to study BIOLOGY STUFF NOW
Soooooo gotta go start my chapter on hmm ANIMAL ORIGINS AND THE EVOLUTION OF THE BODY
Yesh yesh, Got to start from NOW TO study for me finals…which for this bio..is like TONS OF STUFF
Anyway, Take Care
Love, Kav
oh my, Good luck with dat hun
I hated biology, I cudnt for the life of me concentrate on this subject..
hated the whole disecting and YUCK..just freaks me out I tell u
how do u manage the whole slicing of worms and looking at foetus'
etc??????????????????
am feeling sick now….
so like I said…All the very best sweety 🙂 …
Unique_princess:*Sigh* *deep breaths* *more sighs… *
yoga lessons again huh Taybz????
missing u luwie take it easy nah….
Nosyira:It's 4.30 am, and I really don't know what I'm doing awake at this hour!
I gotta get some sleep. But my eyes refuse to!
Noysi wats up Luwie???
here….*******trying to shove sleeepin pills thru the screeen at Noysi*****
take em …will help..if it doesnt try Kavs remedy, drink warm milk ( yuk)
hope all is ok there hun??? if u wanna talk, holler k…am always here
sending u a warm love filled hug
Yemenilicious:LOL! Kavita,
why are u sucha NERD?
WHO HAS FUN AT SCHOOL?!?! WHEN THEY GOT NO SLEEP ESPECIALLY?
*baba Ali moment* 'oooooh i know I know, NERDS!!”
….*puts hand on mouth* YEAHHHHHHHHH *end of baba Ali moment* LOL
acha BYE!
who??? didye ask who???
Well I did…I had a blast….
have u ever met a person who was literally depressed for over a year AFTER she had completed matric???
well dats meeeeeee….dats how much I LOVED SCHOOOL…my high school, the grounds, the classes, the teachers ( except my bio teacher)
ALLL MY FWENDS…the fun we had….
no one understood my passion for schoool..
I LOVED SCHOOOOOOL…I wish i cud go back, the memories …sigh….
soooo when i tell u galz to have fun whilst learning…DO DAT…
u are supposed to create memories whilst becoming an educated individual
nooo need to become a bookworm,,, me thinks u guys just neeed to chillax a bit…
Look at yr school life with an open mind..enjoy these days coz huns when u walk into adult life..
the career world …things just SUX from thereon…but to be honest…I am enjoying the good and bad…
soooa lil change in attitude will work wonders…
you're right scarry.
I'm just a bit ehh, cuz of finals and exams…
sweety, I know u will do well, just try not to stress sooo much
I also know its easier said than done but TRY..dats the key word…
btw when is yr finals??
well, we have AP exams this coming thursday…
and then 2 weeks after that, finals…
I'm trying not to stress, I really am. But there is so much crap going on right now
not just school…and its so annoying. You know? when things just happen at once
and at the wrong time. yeah.
Thanks ji.
i knw luwie…
hmmm okies lets see…firstly
watever else is going on…leave it aside if it can wait for yr attention till yr exams are over..
then I suggest, instead of coffee to help u ..
just take a few hours, go out….as in outside…do anything else thats goin to take yr mind offf school and studies
u will feel refreshed an ready for round 2 of studying…
well from what I know..taking lotza breaks between studying helps..refreshes you
physically and mentally….
and also plan yr studies…get a timetable out…
set aside constructive workable hours for study and please addd in sleep in that timetable as well ok
am not sure if I make sense …am just tryin to think of meeee and what works for meeee
planning is everything …
try it for a day…eat healthy as well …lemme know if it helps a lil
any other problems…. let me knw..wil try to assist
lotza luw to u hun
and yes, u are in my duas…hamesha …
Shukriya ji
you're in my duas as well.
it's just…uhhh…
i shall try Inshallah.
***sigh***
it's just…uhhh…
i shall try Inshallah.
well Yuminz, its obvious sums bothering u hun….just keep da faith nah
lotz more hugz sweety
inshallah, u will be safe and everything will work out fine…
Scar face:it's just…uhhh…
i shall try Inshallah.
well Yuminz, its obvious sums bothering u hun….just keep da faith nah
lotz more hugz sweety
inshallah, u will be safe and everything will work out fine…
Always,
Inshallah, Allahumma Ameen…
*smiles*
ali didi i've been trying to tell our chotti yumin to take it easy
and i mean staying up all night getting no sleep …. honey come on your body needs Rest – Studying will pay off – but really it Wont, if it
is hurting yr body and making yr stress level add up to sky high – take it easy
ali hey ack… yu made me laugh when you said all that can happen to the blind date is him getting deaf with yr screaming…
oh didi you are deaf in one ear? please please get it checked out let the doctors see if they can fix any problem
Bio is really making people DEPRESSED NOW its so much and i dont know but……… its just so much to study and I dont know where to start
and i have these other stuffies to study for but i think i gat them down [errrrrrr i think *sighs* ]
and i m just hating everyone right now argh [except for you guys of course ] and ya'll know my 'everyone' is only like um like..1 person + my fam?
okay hate isnt a good word..to extreme and inaccurate… im upset about stuff and i dont know what to do with my stupid feelings that i Hate that are yacking at me and making my eyes tear up and the WRONG moment
anyway i have to go – READ ..or atleat TRY
love, kavita
kavita_0026:and i m just hating everyone right now argh [except for you guys of course ] and ya'll know my 'everyone' is only like um like..1 person + my fam?
okay hate isnt a good word..to extreme and inaccurate… im upset about stuff and i dont know what to do with my stupid feelings that i Hate that are yacking at me and making my eyes tear up and the WRONG momentanyway i have to go – READ ..or atleat TRY
love, kavita
I'm sorry hunz.
Yemenilicious:RaNi iS ThE BeS:Yemenilicious:I miss a certain special someone….oh so very much =[me too…
*hugs*
I loveth your signatureth =P
=D
*hugs back and doesn't let go* thanks jaan…
*sigh*
I wish we could bring people back…into our lives…
yeah…i wish!
Yemenilicious:yeah…i wish!
yea but thats what life's all about…. people come and go in your life…nothing's really eternal in this. we just take it as it comes, and keep going.
true.
wa ni'ma billah =]
Haylie(hayati):yea but thats what life's all about…. people come and go in your life…nothing's really eternal in this. we just take it as it comes, and keep going.
thanks for going stooge!!
can't breathe!
it's so hot!
I don't wanna do this crap!
Scar face:Nosyira:It's 4.30 am, and I really don't know what I'm doing awake at this hour!
I gotta get some sleep. But my eyes refuse to!Noysi wats up Luwie???
here….*******trying to shove sleeepin pills thru the screeen at Noysi*****
take em …will help..if it doesnt try Kavs remedy, drink warm milk ( yuk)
hope all is ok there hun??? if u wanna talk, holler k…am always here
sending u a warm love filled hug
Lol! I think I really do need them now, Al. It's 3 in the morn!
Why, don't you like warm milk, Al? I don't mind but I'd prefer hot chocolate! Mmm
No worries, hun. I'm just stuck to the computer screen.
I guess I'm so used to sleeping in these hours that I won't feel sleepy if it's not yet 3. Oh my.
Nosyira:
Lol! I think I really do need them now, Al. It's 3 in the morn!
Why, don't you like warm milk, Al? I don't mind but I'd prefer hot chocolate! Mmm
No worries, hun. I'm just stuck to the computer screen.
I guess I'm so used to sleeping in these hours that I won't feel sleepy if it's not yet 3. Oh my.
My kinda girllll!!
And hey – is it me… or is it your birthday in May or something? I seem to be getting a weird flashback…
Help me out!!
boo:My kinda girllll!!And hey – is it me… or is it your birthday in May or something? I seem to be getting a weird flashback…
Help me out!!
Oh did I mention it somewhere?? I guess I did…
But yes it is
Not too far Nosyira…. It's comin up!
Nosyira:boo:My kinda girllll!!And hey – is it me… or is it your birthday in May or something? I seem to be getting a weird flashback…
Help me out!!
Oh did I mention it somewhere?? I guess I did…
But yes it is
My schweet Nosiii your birthday is coming up? When is it?!
My dad got back from New York today in the morning. His intention was to go and see his sick friend, who was diagnosed with Cancer…however, before my father even arrived at NY, we learned that the guy passed away. ohman, no one expected it to happen THAT fast. Subhana'Allah. Anyway, it's been 5 days since his death and I decided to call his wife today…(I didn't want to call right when it happened, I had no idea what to say).
So As I was talking to her, I couldn't help but cry. =/ her words got to me…she said things like 'his death is my loss more than anyone else's…he understood my sorrows…he was there..now, im alone, with 6 kids…” She's real strong in faith though, (Mashallah). She said that she was happy that even after her husband found out he had cancer, he never ever became weak. He never committed shirk even once. Mashallah. My dad told us so many great things about him as well…i was like wow…Subhana'Allah. May Allah grant him Jannat…Ameen!
Then she told me about the day he died. She said that she was supposed to go somewhere and as she was on her way, something made her go back, finding him laying in bed. He called her and told her to go sit next to him…and he said… “pls, my kids, don't let them suffer after my death…” She replied, 'don't say that, May Allah grant you health to take care of them yourself'…hours later, he passed away. It just got to me so much. My family has been through so many major loses, that I know just how bad it stings. *sigh* May Allah Ta'ala grant his family patience..Ameen.
Inna Lillahi winna ilaihi raji'oon.
Yemenilicious:My dad got back from New York today in the morning. His intention was to go and see his sick friend, who was diagnosed with Cancer…however, before my father even arrived at NY, we learned that the guy passed away. ohman, no one expected it to happen THAT fast. Subhana'Allah. Anyway, it's been 5 days since his death and I decided to call his wife today…(I didn't want to call right when it happened, I had no idea what to say).
So As I was talking to her, I couldn't help but cry. =/ her words got to me…she said things like 'his death is my loss more than anyone else's…he understood my sorrows…he was there..now, im alone, with 6 kids…” She's real strong in faith though, (Mashallah). She said that she was happy that even after her husband found out he had cancer, he never ever became weak. He never committed shirk even once. Mashallah.
Then she told me about the day he died. She said that she was supposed to go somewhere and as she was on her way, something made her go back, finding him laying in bed. He called her and told her to go sit next to him…and he said… “pls, my kids, don't let them suffer after my death…” She replied, 'don't say that, May Allah grant you health to take care of them yourself'…hours later, he passed away. It just got to me so much. My family has been through so many major loses, that I know just how bad it stings. *sigh* May Allah Ta'ala grant his family patience..Ameen.
Inna Lillahi winna ilaihi raji'oon.
Oh sweety….
Losing a loved one is never easy, is it?
I am lost for words, Yemeni… just accept this instead…? :
Find the strength inside you Yemeni… I know you have it. It will see you through life, shining like a candle in your soul.
Take care of yourself, OK?
Thanks hunnz
I'm thinking…if it's getting to me THIS much…imagine his wife, no?
I think about them constantly…and i can never hold my tears back…
*sigh* I'll be fine, Inshallah. thank you again, ji
Oh myyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..sigh…not sums one wants to read this early in the morning …
Yumz luw….
It certainly is crappy losing someone you love, worse when u have to watch em die..
My sweetness, I feel your hurt and pain and wish I was there to Give u this massive hug…
I send you all of my strength, watevers left in me and hope **inshallah** that
You and the family find solace knowing that he is in Heaven nah…I cant
say much coz I know the grieving process is a long and awfully difficult one…
Its sad, but its life r8…or death…
Oh well, ur in my thoughts n dua’s luw
thank you much scarry ji.
Yemenilicious:thank you much scarry ji.
hun..tnx amongst sistas is not required …neva forget this, I knw and feel yr pain ..
I was thinking Yumz, about life and death and u know we always say that life is short sooo
live it, right??? but do we realllly go ahead and LIVE IT??
we dnt..well I havent …soooo am just thinking real serious thoughts
Yemenilicious:Thanks hunnz
I'm thinking…if it's getting to me THIS much…imagine his wife, no?
I think about them constantly…and i can never hold my tears back…
*sigh* I'll be fine, Inshallah. thank you again, ji
If I were a wife, and my husband died… I'd lose it. I think.
You yourself said she's strong, na?
If I were a wife, and my husband died… I'd lose it. I think.
booooo…
aargh stop talking bakwaaas hun….u wont lose it..I wont allow u tooo
u hear…stop thinking such thoughts now….
boo:
If I were a wife, and my husband died… I'd lose it. I think.
You yourself said she's strong, na?
awwww,
yeah she is strong…mashallah.
Yummin I actually did not kno wyr dad was going to NY to see a sick friend. Im really sorry to hear what happened honey… and you too, like auntyji must be very strong; in the name of the lord let them be blessed and let t hem live well; uncleji has gone to a better place where there is no suffering none at all it is a beautiful paradise where they get free wings to fly
I am sorry to hear this ji. im supporting you in this time of loss..just as all of us here..keep faith.. you are so strong in faith and the lord remembers this
As for what Boo said…. if I lost that someone…. I think I'd seriosly go mad …like mental institution mad!
Thank you, Kavz Hunz, you're so sweet.
It's written, God knows best, it's perhaps for the best, no? because he had cancer, in its late stages..so..yeah.
Thank you all. I really appreciate your kinds words.
….
“Don't seek anything other than contentment, because therein is the bliss and the comfort of your body. Then consider the case of a person who possesses the whole world, can he take with him in the grave more than cotton and a shroud?”
Yemenilicious:“Don't seek anything other than contentment, because therein is the bliss and the comfort of your body. Then consider the case of a person who possesses the whole world, can he take with him in the grave more than cotton and a shroud?”
I could not agree more with the part in bold…
But the latter part – if I may say so – I think that it depends on what 'the whole world' is. To some, it is their God, to others, their loved ones, to others, their job or the things they feel passionately about. One cannot physically take with him in the grave more than cotton and a shroud, of course, but one can take the memories of a life lived in the skin of one's self, na? But this is related to “contentment”. Whatever makes you content, is what you should seek, I guess.
“Don't seek anything other than contentment, because therein is the bliss and the comfort of your body. Then consider the case of a person who possesses the whole world, can he take with him in the grave more than cotton and a shroud?”
my question, HOW does one KNOW wat wud make them content, wat is contentment, and it surely
depends entirely on an individual basis, like Boo mentioned below…
I dont even know what da heck I am doing here, AM NOT HAPPPPPPPY in this place…
driving me bludy bonkers… I wanna be around kids….I love em…wannna be out smellin
da roses and LIVING life like I used to …..%$#@&^^&*%$^$&
I definitely am NOT content…am about to literally EXPLODE…have sooo much errrr emotion in me I wannna
screammmmm with irritation ….I am not sure why I feel like ???
Wanna just pack up and leave this place….go off to some remote indian village and just dwell
am betting I wud find a lota content ppl there…
Whatever makes you content, is what you should seek, I guess.
and wat if what u seek doesnt bring u contentment but more questions, irritation, hurt and pain??
is MAN ever truly satisfied?? like seriously…I dont think soooo
many wud say
' yeah I dnt care bout materialistic stuff bla bla bla
but they tend to go ahead an work their asses off satisfying just that…materialism
then there are those who claim to dwell only through their god, but do they really…
ok wat da heck am I talking bout…nevermind, sowrri am thinkin one thing, typing another,
lotza mixed up/random thoughts circulating wanting to come outa mah head….
*&%^&$^%$&*&*&*($#$%^**&&*(&(*%#$@5 soooo like if I SWEAR out loud here
will u guys kick me off from the forum ????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
am kidding….
I dont think anyone can be completely content with life simply because our world is so materialistically (?) based that sometimes achieving peace within is hard. BUT you be content of yourself. Accepting your needs as needs and realising that will help you control the pain you feel because you will accept yourself as you are. If your angry, accept the anger and deal with it, positively. If your hurt then know that you're feeling it, empathise with yourself (am I making sense) comfort yourself by accepting the fact that you are feeling what you are feeling, question yourself if necessary, breath some fresh air and then move on. Life is full of experiences, experience them as Life and then move on. Take each day as it comes. Its the hardest but the simplest and the best way to survive, I think anyway…
LOL, no we wont kick you out- but I shall kick your backside for foul language! Don't you dare. Breath and control the anger. Dance with me if you like, or use one of the members (not me! ) as a punch bag if you like (Oreo popped in my head just now…) but dont let anything hurt you so much so that it makes you miss out on the beautiful little things in life.
Arre baba, smile na!
Yemenilicious:My dad got back from New York today in the morning. His intention was to go and see his sick friend, who was diagnosed with Cancer…however, before my father even arrived at NY, we learned that the guy passed away. ohman, no one expected it to happen THAT fast. Subhana'Allah. Anyway, it's been 5 days since his death and I decided to call his wife today…(I didn't want to call right when it happened, I had no idea what to say).
So As I was talking to her, I couldn't help but cry. =/ her words got to me…she said things like 'his death is my loss more than anyone else's…he understood my sorrows…he was there..now, im alone, with 6 kids…” She's real strong in faith though, (Mashallah). She said that she was happy that even after her husband found out he had cancer, he never ever became weak. He never committed shirk even once. Mashallah. My dad told us so many great things about him as well…i was like wow…Subhana'Allah. May Allah grant him Jannat…Ameen!
Then she told me about the day he died. She said that she was supposed to go somewhere and as she was on her way, something made her go back, finding him laying in bed. He called her and told her to go sit next to him…and he said… “pls, my kids, don't let them suffer after my death…” She replied, 'don't say that, May Allah grant you health to take care of them yourself'…hours later, he passed away. It just got to me so much. My family has been through so many major loses, that I know just how bad it stings. *sigh* May Allah Ta'ala grant his family patience..Ameen.
Inna Lillahi winna ilaihi raji'oon.
Inna Lillahi winna ilaihi raji'oon…
that's so sad to hear hunz, Im so sorry =( May Allah grant him the highest garden of Jannat. Ameen. May He give sabr to his family and friends. Just makes you think about this life doesn't it… Insha'Allah Allah will help the man's wife carry on and Insha'Allah her children will become her strength. Ameen. *hug* if you need anything im here for you. lub ju ninja x
hey luwie
thank you for takin the time out to respond to my craziness…
I have had the worse few months ever 🙂 and TRUST me, I understand and can relate to every word u say
I just LOST focus on who I am and my values and beliefs etc..
seee I said u were my angel, like Boo is and Ness tooo and the rest of my ***angelic fwends***
if i cud , I wud reach out for u right this minute **if u were logged on *** and hug u
I am literally exhausted…***tooo much partying last n8 hahahahaa*** and stressed to even reply properly to above sooo
will let u know that it is deeply appreciated by me…
Life is full of experiences, experience them as Life and then move on. Take each day as it comes. Its the hardest but the simplest and the best way to survive, I think anyway…
oye trust me, I doooooooooooooooooooo…every sec of every minute of every day…
LOL, no we wont kick you out- but I shall kick your backside for foul language!
wooooohoooooooooooooo u will have to catch me first hahahahahaaaa
Don't you dare. Breath and control the anger.
beeen TRYING…wanna literalllly hit a walll..seriously…but will be fine
Dance with me if you like,
I will….get yr a$$ here quick…I wannnnnaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa goooo dancing
my fwends are actually waiting rather patiently for me to fiinsh up ***work*** so we can go
out for sum fresh air..wannnnna *** with ???????… will keep u in spirit….wt say???
or use one of the members (not me! ) as a punch bag if you like (Oreo popped in my head just now…)
Cosmic???? naaaaah me thinks I have given him enuf bruises to last a few lifetimes..pooorrrrr ol uncle
but dont let anything hurt you so much so that it makes you miss out on the beautiful little things in life.
dats like the 3rd time sum1 had said this to me today
Arre baba, smile na!
will be …later on….
thanks yaar, uve established yourself deep in my heart of hearts
sending u a warm hug
alie…errrr yr soni kudi ….:-) dis will take sum time getting used to !!!!
my feelings….
well I have said this on a few occassions but the love and friendships I have developed
through this place has kept me logging on day after day after day…and what do u know
its almost a year since my first craze post….
Yup, have decided to just take offf for a short while…I LOVE u guys and the forum tooooo
much to say I wont be back coz I willllll….but neeed a break from it alll
theres toooo much confusion in my life and I have lost focus and cant seem to think clearly, logically, constructively these days…
Each person here, has contributed to some craze memories that will keep me company
I wanna SHOUT OUT a MASSIVE thanks to everyone for being such gentle, beautiful souls
this forum has thought me soooo much, opened my heart to sooo much love, I didnt, never thought possible…
I, in return send out my love to EVERYONE here and wish u guys n galz
all da best in life, in love…in watever u choose to do with yr lives…
be good, keep smiling, keeep it simple, know that someone ***reads…MOI**** Out here
***sounds like the x-files hahahaa*** will always be thinking offf ye and keeping ye in her thoughts and prayers…
live life….we only got this one chance
and with a deeeeep sigh…and a sad heart
I say gooodbye
am going to miss the love quotes
and the songs threads…ME luws MUSIC
let the beat go on an on an on and on
soooo I leave u with tonza hugz and sloppy kisses
close yr eyes, think of me..and move ye body to the beat of the music
the beat of ye heart,
Oh my gosh…I love u guys sooo much
mmmmwaaaaaahhhhhzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i leave u with :
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
(let the music play baby)
(music take controle)
o na kar maan rupaiye wala bar bar ke na rajje
bai na kar maan rupaiye wala bar bar ke na rajje
o na kar maan rupaiye wala bar bar ke na rajje
bai na kar maan rupaiye wala bar bar ke na rajje
oooh aaah let the music play
oooh aaah let the music play
oooh aaah let the music play
oooh aaah let the music play (play the music)
sigh. I want to just hide in a cave somewhere away from everyone. but then I want to go crazy and lose control and not giv a f*** what anyone says. but then I think of that cave and it seems like the best idea…
Haylie(hayati):yea but thats what life's all about…. people come and go in your life…nothing's really eternal in this. we just take it as it comes, and keep going.
Only thing is…I wish I could do somehting, anything, but I can't do anything…I'll tell you about it later, hayati.
Unique_princess:Inna Lillahi winna ilaihi raji'oon…that's so sad to hear hunz, Im so sorry =( May Allah grant him the highest garden of Jannat. Ameen. May He give sabr to his family and friends. Just makes you think about this life doesn't it… Insha'Allah Allah will help the man's wife carry on and Insha'Allah her children will become her strength. Ameen. *hug* if you need anything im here for you. lub ju ninja x
You said that so simply, but it touched me so much, Tayba… Ameen.
Ninja jaan I love you so much, hunnz. I couldn't have survived these past few days without you. Thank you for everything, habeebati.
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Ninja jaan I love you so much, hunnz. I couldn't have survived these past few days without you. Thank you for everything, habeebati.
it was nothing ji
But it meant everything to me.
aaawww
Unique_princess:sigh. I want to just hide in a cave somewhere away from everyone. but then I want to go crazy and lose control and not giv a f*** what anyone says. but then I think of that cave and it seems like the best idea…
*hugs Tayba tight* It's okay jaan.
I say you go with the 'not giving a f*** what anyone says'
Because you know there's no way you'll hide in that cave….you're too special ppl will go looking everywhere for you
stay strong jaan And im always here for you as well…keep your chin up, ok? Because ppl's words nor their actions will benefit or hurt you, na?
only Allah ta'ala can do that. =]
I love you
Unique_princess:sigh. I want to just hide in a cave somewhere away from everyone. but then I want to go crazy and lose control and not giv a f*** what anyone says. but then I think of that cave and it seems like the best idea…
Tabz hon you dont seem okay…. Its good many times not to give a …..what anyone says esp. if what they say will affect you in such a horrible way…. stay inthat lil cave for a lil while…and take care of yr emotions esp that this time feels a lil vulnerable…. try to save yrself from pain but be cautious not to stay in that cave forever
Unique_princess:sigh. I want to just hide in a cave somewhere away from everyone. but then I want to go crazy and lose control and not giv a f*** what anyone says. but then I think of that cave and it seems like the best idea…
You're allowed a 5 minit break Princess, then you bring urself out of that cave!
As an artist/poet, you know that one needs to express oneself! Get to writing…
I'm here with much love, whenever, should ever u need me!
Nessa… such encouraging words!
Artist? Tayba ji? Aap artist bhi hai? Sach?
Yemenilicious:Unique_princess:sigh. I want to just hide in a cave somewhere away from everyone. but then I want to go crazy and lose control and not giv a f*** what anyone says. but then I think of that cave and it seems like the best idea…*hugs Tayba tight* It's okay jaan.
I say you go with the 'not giving a f*** what anyone says'
Because you know there's no way you'll hide in that cave….you're too special ppl will go looking everywhere for you
stay strong jaan And im always here for you as well…keep your chin up, ok? Because ppl's words nor their actions will benefit or hurt you, na?
only Allah ta'ala can do that. =]
I love you
Thanks soo much ninja, means soo much to me sis *hugz back* I was so stressed when I wrote that post. Your words are so true, no one should be able to hurt me. I love you too – hug x 100
RaNi iS ThE BeS:
aww hun *hugg* I know his this feels im going through it aswell. Just give your friend time and space and they will come back to you, and if they don't, then theres a reason for it hun. Reason, Season, Lifetime, yaad hai nai? *bigger hug* I love you and will reply to your email soon Insha'Allah x
kavita_0026:Unique_princess:sigh. I want to just hide in a cave somewhere away from everyone. but then I want to go crazy and lose control and not giv a f*** what anyone says. but then I think of that cave and it seems like the best idea…Tabz hon you dont seem okay…. Its good many times not to give a …..what anyone says esp. if what they say will affect you in such a horrible way…. stay inthat lil cave for a lil while…and take care of yr emotions esp that this time feels a lil vulnerable…. try to save yrself from pain but be cautious not to stay in that cave forever
Hey hun, no I wasn't okay that day – really did have enough of everything at that time. I think I will use the cave for a while and take care of those emotions.. actually im feeling a little better right now but I need some more time there lol. I love the ending of what you said, I will be careful sweety. Thanks so much -hug-
Nessa:Unique_princess:sigh. I want to just hide in a cave somewhere away from everyone. but then I want to go crazy and lose control and not giv a f*** what anyone says. but then I think of that cave and it seems like the best idea…You're allowed a 5 minit break Princess, then you bring urself out of that cave!
As an artist/poet, you know that one needs to express oneself! Get to writing…
I'm here with much love, whenever, should ever u need me!
Thanks so much Ness! aww just 5 mins! what if I need longer..? aah yes now that uni is over I will write my heart out lol. Thank you for your kind words sweety, I'm here for you always too. Lots of love xoxoxoxo -hug-
boo:Nessa… such encouraging words!
Artist? Tayba ji? Aap artist bhi hai? Sach?
Artist? nahin lol. Well I think Nessa means because I write poetry. I've been writing poetry for quite a few years now.. have a few books of them stacked away somewhere, I haven't really had a chance to look at them again in a while. I usually write when I'm inspired.. lol which is why I haven't written many poems in the past year, only a few. Will get to writing soon again hopefully
Haylie…youz psycho with your songs.
Yemenilicious:Haylie…youz psycho with your songs.
She's the one who posted the lyrics…just thought I'd let her know the rest of the lyrics and that it was a song..
Unique_princess:aww hun *hugg* I know his this feels im going through it aswell. Just give your friend time and space and they will come back to you, and if they don't, then theres a reason for it hun. Reason, Season, Lifetime, yaad hai nai? *bigger hug* I love you and will reply to your email soon Insha'Allah x
of course I remember, I also remember how much you made me smile that day…*hugs back and doesn't let go*
Thank you, Hayati. It is a nice song. Matches my feelings. lol.
RaNi iS ThE BeS:Thank you, Hayati. It is a nice song. Matches my feelings. lol.
yo feet
finals over
whoooooooo hoooooooooooooooooooooooooo
kavita- i feeel yooooooooh
I feel like going outside now…and sitting under my “money” tree…as Rani and haylie call it
yet…im broke…
…but they claim that i carry hunnit dolla bills…
…pshhh…*rolls eyes*
yup i'd sit outside under a tree..thats if i had one though! haha
mayen…its finally over these exams
now i got over 2 months ……. off
OhmyAllah! I just turned in my research paper! I can't believe I finished it in two days! Alhamdulillah! I feel oh so much better! The funny thing is, I was sooooo worried about not being able to write ten pages…and I ended up writing 15!!! including the title and reference page. I ALWAYS do that! I worry about the length of the essay, and I get worried that I might not have enuf pages, and I always end up doing more! lmao.I just hope she doesn't take off points. Inshallah, I really need to get a good grade. I hope I do. AMEEN! Now, I have so much work to do this weekend! – write my outside reading book paper on To Kill a Mocking Bird or Black Boy, haven't decided which one yet. – finish reading last two chapters of Black Boy- Do Spanish Study Guide- work on Black Boy study Guide and the New Negro stuff- Update US History notebook- Take the SATs on Saturday (Imma fail!!!) Is that it? There was more a few minutes ago…I forgot. errr…This week was oh so horrible. *dies*
OMG! GUESS WHAT HAPPENED?!?!!? In my Publications cla.ss, my computer was messed up, it would open up my user but not the other ones, so whe the lady came to fix the computer she moved my folder(it had all my clas.swork in it) and afterwards I couldn't find it. So my teacher told me he would look for it, he did, and he couldn't find it either. So yesterday I asked him what I'm supposed to do now and he's like “step into my office”(he's hekka cool, awesome teacher, and he likes me too! whoo hooo! lol anyhow) and he told me that he can't find my folder and there are two weeks of school left, so it's impossible for me to redo all that work. And the thing was, I was supposed to make a little portfolio thingy and put all my good work in there and make it all smancy fancy. But since all my work is missing, I can't do it. so he's like, “I guess you get an A” *dances* whoooooo hooooooooo! and I don't even have to make the portfolio! lol. well, he knows I do all my work and I did get an A in the class the last 3 quarters so he told me he knows I deserve it anyhow. fine by me. lol. I just need to do my Final, Inshallah it won't be hard…….. HEEEEEEE!!!!
Rani omg lol…there's an awesome teacher when you need one! OMG that teacher is super awesome! lol
RaNi iS ThE BeS:errr…This week was oh so horrible. *dies*
lol sooo sorry to hear…
RaNi iS ThE BeS:OMG! GUESS WHAT HAPPENED?!?!!? In my Publications cla.ss, my computer was messed up, it would open up my user but not the other ones, so whe the lady came to fix the computer she moved my folder(it had all my clas.swork in it) and afterwards I couldn't find it. So my teacher told me he would look for it, he did, and he couldn't find it either. So yesterday I asked him what I'm supposed to do now and he's like “step into my office”(he's hekka cool, awesome teacher, and he likes me too! whoo hooo! lol anyhow) and he told me that he can't find my folder and there are two weeks of school left, so it's impossible for me to redo all that work. And the thing was, I was supposed to make a little portfolio thingy and put all my good work in there and make it all smancy fancy. But since all my work is missing, I can't do it. so he's like, “I guess you get an A” *dances* whoooooo hooooooooo! and I don't even have to make the portfolio! lol. well, he knows I do all my work and I did get an A in the class the last 3 quarters so he told me he knows I deserve it anyhow. fine by me. lol. I just need to do my Final, Inshallah it won't be hard…….. HEEEEEEE!!!!
YAY FOR YOU!!!!!!
And – LOL… like big sister, like little sister… that sounds so like something Khushi would say… guess her sis is following in her footsteps! Hahahah…
OK, I confess. My sense of humour is not working right now. (And if Oreo is reading this – I just KNOW he is going to freakin POUNCE on that statement… sigh!)
And just one thing out of curiosity – whatever happened to backups of files? Arrrr don't kill meee Rani – I am seriously curious…
RANI! YAAAAAAAAAY! lol I love it when teachers goof up like that and give u As. I love love love love LOVE it! lmao!!
Boo: You're so cutee! lmao I was like when reading your comments. Will reply to ur PM soon hun! its been a crazy few days, couldn't log on for long!
Hai… what is with all the “lmao”s… tee eh why bee eh!!! Where have your ladylike (read: posh Londoner's) manners gone?
Oh oh oh! What IS that thing in My Fair Lady?
Oh oh! Hang on… imma Gogol it…
The rrrrrrrrrrain in Spainnnnnnnnnnnnn stays mainleeeeeeeeh in the playnnnnnnnnnn!
La la laaaaaaaa… I feel like singing in the rain outside… sigh! And it's not even raining. What a glorious day it is outside, dah-lings… would you care to come with me for a pranceabout and general shaking of the ar.se in broad daylight in the streets of Mystery Land?
Check it out: – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkEvy-9yVyQ
(LMAO… (hey IIII never claimed to have posh manners. )… oh this reminds me of Friends… doesn't Ross – is it Ross? – sing this song at the end of one episode when he… ahm ahm… gets laid lucky ? Hahaha! Crazy.)
I'm siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinging in the suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn (8) What a gloooooooooooooooooooooreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeuuuuusssssssssssssssss pheeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaalinnnnnnnnnnnn I'm lmao-ing againnnnnnnnnnnnn………………….. La la laaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Sigh.
And I have not eaten ANYTHING in the past – oh… many hours.
Heavens help my future husband.
first Boo..go eat young lady…
me feels:
a mixture of emotions
I met this famous south african soccer person today…
firstly he is sooo damn cute, 2ndly, I didnt know who he was sooo seeing everyone
asking for autographs, I went up to him, took my lil notepad out and asked for his autograph, then we had a short conv. where I admitted I had no idea who he was ..he laffed..sooo yeah…dat was a lekker morning…
a hour later, was involved in an accident, besides the usual, shock and nerves, we'r all well
then we rocked up at Inspire and my day just evolved into one of the most memorable ones for this year…coz of the gorgeous guy I met …sigh!!!
oh yeah and I wrestled…laffed my ass offf…was cheered by mah galz and guyz…
wat an experience..TRY IT!!!
NOW, AM LUKING FOWARD TO GOING HOME AND CHILLING..
my feelings…am on temporary high..
I truly wish all of u were here today….
LIFE is sumtimes beautiful!!!
boo:Hai… what is with all the “lmao”s… tee eh why bee eh!!! Where have your ladylike (read: posh Londoner's) manners gone?
Oh oh oh! What IS that thing in My Fair Lady?
Oh oh! Hang on… imma Gogol it…
The rrrrrrrrrrain in Spainnnnnnnnnnnnn stays mainleeeeeeeeh in the playnnnnnnnnnn!
La la laaaaaaaa… I feel like singing in the rain outside… sigh! And it's not even raining. What a glorious day it is outside, dah-lings… would you care to come with me for a pranceabout and general shaking of the ar.se in broad daylight in the streets of Mystery Land?
Check it out: – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkEvy-9yVyQ
(LMAO… (hey IIII never claimed to have posh manners. )… oh this reminds me of Friends… doesn't Ross – is it Ross? – sing this song at the end of one episode when he… ahm ahm… gets
laidlucky ? Hahaha! Crazy.)I'm siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinging in the suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn (8) What a gloooooooooooooooooooooreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeuuuuusssssssssssssssss pheeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaalinnnnnnnnnnnn I'm lmao-ing againnnnnnnnnnnnn………………….. La la laaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Sigh.
And I have not eaten ANYTHING in the past – oh… many hours.
Heavens help my future husband.
boo: LOLLL! I was laughing so much at this post of yours! that's how my uncle says my name he spells it out for some reason like a weirdo! hahaha!
my ladylike london posh manners? LOL they never existed! its so funny how people think londoners are meant to me posh and well mannered! We're so the opposite, sadly! lol. I think its just the accents (or so I've been told! lol) okay so wait let me make LMAO off posh – LM 'ar.se' O. lol im thinking of an episode of Friends I think in the last season where Amanda comes who has picked up a 'fake british accent' and she tells Monica that Pheobe was going to cut her out of her life and Monica and Pheobe start arguing and Amanda says “Oh! I feel like a perfect ar.se!” and Pheobe's like, “Well in America, you're just an ASS!” LOOOL! I loveeee Friends, whyy oh why did it have to end!!!!!
I love dancing in the rain too :p London's too hot for the rain right now so I just run through the sprinkler in the garden LOL. The neighbours think I'm crazy anyway Loved that video lol, and love that episode of friends when he dances around the poles with the two old women sitting there. Ross rocks!
That's it…Boo has gone round the bend! Nothing worse than an insane oracle! Do u have fever, if so…how high is it???
And Princess…errr, sorry…but you sound da poshiest! Especially when u're trying to whisper! I'm just sayin…
kavita_0026:Rani omg lol…there's an awesome teacher when you need one! OMG that teacher is super awesome! lol
I know, huh! He's super coooool! But he calls me a trouble maker… lol. just today, he was like, “u staying outta trouble?” I give him a hekka cheezy smile and say, “like always.” and he just laughs. hahahahahahahaaaaaaa
Haylie(hayati):RaNi iS ThE BeS:errr…This week was oh so horrible. *dies*lol sooo sorry to hear…
U bum, that is so not funny. Things are still not back to normal…
boo:YAY FOR YOU!!!!!! And – LOL… like big sister, like little sister… that sounds so like something Khushi would say… guess her sis is following in her footsteps! Hahahah…And just one thing out of curiosity – whatever happened to backups of files? Arrrr don't kill meee Rani – I am seriously curious…
Thanks boooooooo! *chokes boo with a hug* lol. yeah, khushi and I like to talk like fobs. and there were no backup filessssss! EVERYTHING was gone! Except photoshop and some ther stuff. Totally lost. *shrugs* as long as I get an A, i'm cool. I have too much to worry about right now, and taking one thing off of my list is sooooooooooo nice!
Unique_princess:RANI! YAAAAAAAAAY! lol I love it when teachers goof up like that and give u As. I love love love love LOVE it! lmao!!
lmao, the teacher didn't goof up though, it was the lady who was trying to fix the computer. lol. But hey, as long as I'm saved… I LOVE FRIENDS! lol. funny thing is, my dad likes it too, we watch it together. It's just embarras.sing when the *ahem* parts come up. lol.
Aliiiiiii wow seems like you are sooooooooo happy
hope everything got better there for you/ ? hoping
omg…you met a gorgeous guy hmmmmm *wonders* & *ponders*
love you lotss n miss you tons will tlak to you later & send email
& will buy a phone card later on to talk to you loveee youu
btw i need to know when you are free for talking!
*sigh of relief*
*hugs Ninja*
*hugs back*
i don't know…what we'd do without Rani, I love you habeebati
lmao. U guys would have tonz of fun without me! I love you too, qulbee! remember, keep ur head up, smile, and call me if u wanna yell at anyone. I'm ALWAYS here…hamesha(forever). *throws a pillow at ninja* (hehe)
…I can't trust people anymore. I used to be so gullible… readily believing people. But now, in the middle of a conversation with someone, the thought pops into my head that maybe this person isn't telling me the truth… but with certain people, like very close friends, I have to shove the thought out of my head because I want to believe them… but it's so hard now… I doubt almost everyone… even if it's about trivial matters. (My oh so cool Publications teacher was sitting next to me, helping my friend, Liz, and he read some of what I typed, and I quickly covered it and said, “Nooo…..It's personal.” He just looks at me and says, “that's nothing to feel bad about, Rani.” And I know he's right, cuz I don't feel bad about it… It's just something I realized about myself and decided to let it out…)
Not everyone is an expert in everything, are they?
Even I'm like that with very close friends.. my mind tends to turn into rock so that instead of absorbing everything that it encounters, it lets the thoughts remain trickling around the rock, until the thoughts are sorted out in my own head… and then let me decide if that thought is worth taking on board.
If I absorb every little opinion, I won't be able to look at other opinions as openly.
Blah. I doubt I'm making sense yaar.
Don't. If you feel doubt, then let there be doubt. If the person is genuin then the doubt will erase on its own na? But, for that to happen, you have to stick around them, you have to “pretend” you trust them, but make sure you don't give yourself (your trust) to them entirely. Afterall, only a few names will pop into your head when you say trust….
Trust I think is linked to the kind of thinking you have, when I say “thinking” I mean the kind of person that you are and how accepting you are of other “kinds” of “thinkers”. I hope Im making sense…? And people usually tend to trust 'their kind of ' people. Also depends on what kind of trust it is…
Rani, I completely empathise with you… I too feel the same at times, and more so as life grows with me. Take it in a positive stride, as a learning curve and have faith that not all humans are the same, there will be a chosen few on whom you can blindly trust
My feelings….
Because of the kind of person I am, or am expected to be- certains times, like these, I feel that my right of being human is being taken away from me. To people around me, 'Ideal' is the word that comes in their head when it comes to me. I am human, I err. I learn, I fall, I learn, I defend- I live. That doesn't make me any less 'ideal' in that term does it? *sigh* the world differs… and I differ from it. Expectations, I hate. Hope, I believe in. People very wrongly mix these two up and it hurts to feel as Im less 'human' because of it. Im not, Im a God's child not God. If He can forgive me for my errors, If I repent for the wrong that I do, If I accept it – why does it devalue me as a person?
Life, you really cannot be defined…
Rani its good to let this out
personally im stuck in believing anyone which must stop because it makes me look real stupid
You know what you must do – you listen to people and absorb what they say, but you dont necessarily have to believe them 100% ; believe them but be ready to forgive them if its not true and you find out later and it causes a problem
Sometimes its hard to forgive / forget however
BOO- You did make sense, hunn. So I'm not the only one who cannot trust…I hope we learn. I liked the trusting me, I don't like the doubting me…it makes me feel like i'm betraying my very close friends. But it'll all work out, I'm sure of it. I love you, twin ji. KHUSHI- Well, I don't know if I want to “pretend” that I trust someone when I don't, that'll just make me feel like a hypocrite…like I want them to be honst with me, but I'm not being honest with them…no, I don't think I want to do that, I'll just continue doing things as I'm doing them right now. It doesn't hurt that I can't trust…it's just something I have to solve myself and I'm sure it'll work out, Inshallah. But to tell you the truth, right now, the only people I can blindly trust is my immediate family. And when I say I trust, the first and only name that pops into my head is my sister. I love her so much, she's my everything. Other than her, I don't completely trust any of my other friends…and by trust, it's not just I tell them something and they keep it to themselves, it's everything… and dii…we are all human, we all err, so those who think you don't err, are erring themselves. So forgive them for being human. I love you, dii. KAVITA- I don't have a problem in forgiving people, in fact, I forgive people really easily, even if what they did cannot be forgiven. It's something I got from my mom, she also forgives very easily. It's very easy for me to forgive…the forgetting gets a bit hard sometimes. And believing doesn't make u look stupid, I'm telling you, I wish I could trust as easily as I did before…But like I said, it'll all work out. so keep smiling, hunn.
Sorry guys, but I have something else to say. lol. I hate it when someone is rude to you, and they think it's okay, but the second you are rude back, they're like, “whoa, is she okay?” I seriously need to stop letting people step all over me. The other day, when I walked into my English class, I was all happy because I had finished my research paper and it felt good to finally be done. And this girl starts being all rude to me, not like mean rude, but like joking rude. you know? I forgot what she said, but I was like wtf is her problem? So I told her off. I forgot what I said, but she says, “whoa, are u okay? you having a rough morning?” I was like, “I was in a perfect mood till u opened ur mouth.” lmao. and she doesn't say anything else. and yesterday, this other girl was annoying me, she was saying all kind of crap and finally, I said, “Lez, you need to shut the f- – -k up. I'm not taking ur BS anymore cuz ur annoying the heck outta me.” and she was just laughing. wtf? that girl be takin some pills. but lmao, it feels good not to let people step all over me. sheesh.
Rani- I need to learn how to do that
lmao, I'm working on it too, we can learn together. DID YOU HEAR?!?!? DID YOU READ?!?!?!!? I GOT AN A ON MY RESEARCH PAPER!!!!!!
RaNi iS ThE BeS:lmao, I'm working on it too, we can learn together. DID YOU HEAR?!?!? DID YOU READ?!?!?!!? I GOT AN A ON MY RESEARCH PAPER!!!!!!
OHMYALLAH!! YES I READ!!! ONCE AGAIN, CONGRATULATIONS JAAN!!
how would i say this…..oh yeah *balle balle!!* *hugs*
RaNi iS ThE BeS:KHUSHI- Well, I don't know if I want to “pretend” that I trust someone when I don't, that'll just make me feel like a hypocrite…like I want them to be honst with me, but I'm not being honest with them…no, I don't think I want to do that, I'll just continue doing things as I'm doing them right now. It doesn't hurt that I can't trust…it's just something I have to solve myself and I'm sure it'll work out, Inshallah. But to tell you the truth, right now, the only people I can blindly trust is my immediate family. And when I say I trust, the first and only name that pops into my head is my sister. I love her so much, she's my everything. Other than her, I don't completely trust any of my other friends…and by trust, it's not just I tell them something and they keep it to themselves, it's everything… and dii…we are all human, we all err, so those who think you don't err, are erring themselves. So forgive them for being human. I love you, dii.
When I say pretend, I mean to not give away trust completely because I know when you give away trust completely and it is broken, very few people can trust ever again, I stand as an example myself. When I say pretend, I mean 'test' – how else can you know that you can trust someone? When you are put through trying times and they do not leave your side and keep to your safety. I may sound cynical, but I dont think this is hypocrisy. People you think you kind of trust is parallel to you questioning whether they are reliable or not. In that sense, you still are sitting on the fence contemplating. If you feel thats hypocrisy than I guess it is. But I rather that than give my complete trust only for it to be broken and then to shatter me completely. It hurts me, a lot- knowing that I cannot trust, but I have to interact with 'these people' day in day out in my life. I cannot just turn around and say- I dont trust you so I wont have anything to do with you, that in my situation cannot be done, but ofcourse your situation completely differs mine. I'll put my trust out there- but not entirely because I dont think everyone can understand its delicate structure. I probably am sounding very negative here, but as I have grown and known- and rani you are at a very early stage in life, but I have begun to question whether I should let my trust be put out there only to be broken. It's like Im digging my own grave…
I love you too Shweetoo.
x
Rani- I don't think I'll ever learn…I've tried, but it's hard for me, to reply to ppl in a harsh manner.
I've always went with, “best response to a fool is silence”… sometimes it's the best idea…and sometimes I just feel like I had to say something…you know? uff f f okie im done :p
Ranz congrats on that paper
And where people stepping on you is concerned..wow.. same as yummin… I must learn that [?]
I know what you mean to be stepped all over on. But to talk back I dont know waht its like – but I've seen other people do it
and sometimes the other person is like wahat you said…'are you okay today? whats wrong' its like they tink they have the right
to stoep on people and be RUDE?? They are not special to do that but when people tell them off bc they deserve it … all of a sudden its wrong?
Hi yummin
Hi khushi
kavita_0026:And where people stepping on you is concerned..wow.. same as yummin… I must learn that [?]
Hi yummin
I think it's a bit hard..right kavz?
and hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
Let me allow you guys to ponder something
Let me ask opinions here :
Do you think people are treated differently depending on how they look ( ex. dressed up / plain) ?
Have you seen anything of the sort or have you experienced it?
hmmm maybe I shud start classes here on the forum
anyways…
am exhausted
Today I went to my old high school for my brother's interview there and I saw my old favourite teacher, and it was soooooooooooo nice meeting him after four years! He was so happy to see me and to see how I'm doing and how my life is since high school. I told him I graduate next year and to wish me luck and he said you don't need luck, you have always worked hard, and those who work hard don't need luck! awwwwww!! I was so happy!!! lol. He had to get up once during the interview with my bro and he's like oh my legs hurt I'm getting old, and I said “Sir! you look the same as you did four years ago!! Don't be acting now!” lol, hes probably in his late 30's now. He was telling my brother about my times there and about my cheekyness and my bro said he hated maths and loved English, the teacher was like, “it runs in the family I see!” lol he still remembers!. Man going past the old school halls and the canteen and the library and playgrounds and stuff brought back a countless number of memories!! High school days were the best of my life! Lol, in my mind I was playing back all those old memories as I walked through the grounds. Time flies!! Sometimes I wish I could go back to those days but I'm also happy to be here right now in this point of my life waiting for something beautiful to start Insha'Allah.. and If I went back in the past, it wouldn't let the future happen… school days were my days of naivety, innocence, blossoming friendships, falling in love lol. They were such carefree days, aaah those lazy hazy crazy days of summer!!!! its weird but even now when I see a cool evening and the sun shining through the window it takes me back to those days! and to those people whom I loved so much and still love so much lol..I had so many good times there, and I've learned so much since then about people, life, love and relationships.. and I'm so grateful for that beautiful period of my life! Alhumdulilah
Yemenilicious:RaNi iS ThE BeS:lmao, I'm working on it too, we can learn together. DID YOU HEAR?!?!? DID YOU READ?!?!?!!? I GOT AN A ON MY RESEARCH PAPER!!!!!!OHMYALLAH!! YES I READ!!! ONCE AGAIN, CONGRATULATIONS JAAN!!how would i say this…..oh yeah *balle balle!!* *hugs*
LMAO! ur oh so cute! *pulls ninja's cheeks* thankkkkyouuuubuddyyyyyy!
~Khushi~:but I have begun to question whether I should let my trust be put out there only to be broken.
oh, yeah, of course i'm gonna try to trust people and “test” them to see if I can trust them…and dii, don't let it hurt you, it's not ur fault if u can't trust someone, it's something that comes with time. I really don't feel bad I can't trust certain people because I know I can't trust them completely. But If I can't trust someone I KNOW I CAN trust, then that hurts…and ur not sounding negative diii, you never do. And if u can't trust, then don't. You know what to do, give them a chance, give them time, and eventually, if that person is trustworthy, I'm sure you will be able to trust, dii. “khushiyon ko toh hai aana…” Na? I love you oh so much, dii.
Yemenilicious:Rani- I don't think I'll ever learn…I've tried, but it's hard for me, to reply to ppl in a harsh manner.I've always went with, “best response to a fool is silence”… sometimes it's the best idea…and sometimes I just feel like I had to say something…you know? uff f f okie im done :p
Habeebati, u seriously have to learn. U can't just let bums walk all over you and ruin your time. I mean, to certain people, it's just best to not say anything cuz some people won't realize…to ignorant, u know? But to some people, u HAVE TO say something. Especially if u staying silent is frustrating u…and u know what i'm talking about. You don't need to be “harsh” to let someone see how it is, just tell them like it is, but in ur manner, politely. It'll work, trust me, habeebati. If not, call me up and I'll drill some sense into them.
kavita_0026:Ranz congrats on that paperAnd where people stepping on you is concerned..wow.. same as yummin… I must learn that [?]I know what you mean to be stepped all over on. But to talk back I dont know waht its like – but I've seen other people do it
about the paper, thanks! and just like what I said to ninja, u need to say the right things to the right people at the right time. But if staying silent is gonna bother u or ur lifestyle in any way, I say u open ur mouth… am i sounding harsh? <img src="https://www.bollywoodlyrics.com/cs/emoticons/emotion-7.
Unique_princess:Today I went to my old high school for my brother's interview there and I saw my old favourite teacher, and it was soooooooooooo nice meeting him after four years! He was so happy to see me and to see how I'm doing and how my life is since high school. I told him I graduate next year and to wish me luck and he said you don't need luck, you have always worked hard, and those who work hard don't need luck! awwwwww!! I was so happy!!! lol. He had to get up once during the interview with my bro and he's like oh my legs hurt I'm getting old, and I said “Sir! you look the same as you did four years ago!! Don't be acting now!” lol, hes probably in his late 30's now. He was telling my brother about my times there and about my cheekyness and my bro said he hated maths and loved English, the teacher was like, “it runs in the family I see!” lol he still remembers!. Man going past the old school halls and the canteen and the library and playgrounds and stuff brought back a countless number of memories!! High school days were the best of my life! Lol, in my mind I was playing back all those old memories as I walked through the grounds. Time flies!! Sometimes I wish I could go back to those days but I'm also happy to be here right now in this point of my life waiting for something beautiful to start Insha'Allah.. and If I went back in the past, it wouldn't let the future happen… school days were my days of naivety, innocence, blossoming friendships, falling in love lol. They were such carefree days, aaah those lazy hazy crazy days of summer!!!! its weird but even now when I see a cool evening and the sun shining through the window it takes me back to those days! and to those people whom I loved so much and still love so much lol..I had so many good times there, and I've learned so much since then about people, life, love and relationships.. and I'm so grateful for that beautiful period of my life! Alhumdulilah
I love your nostalgia moments, Tayba….
Current feeling o'mine:
I feel lost. I feel so lost. Lifeless, soulless, lost.
Current feeling o'mine:
I feel lost. I feel so lost. Lifeless, soulless, lost.
TIME WILL HEAL U SWEETNESS….
( WARM HUGZ TO U )
ugh…ufff…errr…mannnnn
i need a break!
A friend of mine recently celebrated her birthday and her children decided to throw a surprise birthday party with an Indian theme. I was asked to help with the food and part of the festivities. We decided to have a couple of Indian curries, chutneys, and 'please don't forget the flat bread.' We watched Kuch Kuch Hota Hai with Sub-titles that had some new words hitherto never found in any English dictionary.
After being fed-up with curried chicken with apricots and almonds, prawns soaked in wine and sauteed with Japanese pears, served on sizzling plates with saffron rice, we lounged about. Since, I was the only Indian, naturally, all questions pertaining to India were cast in my direction. I cannot remember the last time I waxed eloquent about my people and my nation.
Sad, but true, that I was often given to gloating of my travels to places outside of India. However, seeing my friends devouring my memories with rapt attention at once made me delirious and disgusted. I was asked to demonstrate 'Kabaddi,' and fortunately none asked me about Cricket or we would have been there till we all became permanent members of the local geriatric convention.
After numerous conversations each orbiting around something Indian that ended not too long before dawn, I took the long short-cut to home. I needed more time to savor the sensation as it simmered in my soul, each delicate yet distinct memory seeping into the woof and warp of the tapestry of my life. I must have looked a comic figure- what with my pseudo-turban conjured out of a St. Michael's scarf, bare feet, sandals in hand, humming Phoolon Ka Taaron Ka- but I could have cared less. My feet may have ambled upon foreign soil but my heart was home.
Unique_princess:He was telling my brother about my times there and about my cheekyness and my bro said he hated maths and loved EnglishWell, what do we have here? SAME HERE! lmao. Tayba, ur sooooo cute when u get all nostalgic! I lubb youuuu!
Awwwww *blushes* Thank juuuuuuu rani-ooo (dun ask lol) I lub u toooooo! OYE u whooondeeedooo! when u gona reply to my email, mai doh din mai jaa rahi hu Insha'Allah! lol I won't be able to reply till July! xxxxxxxx
boo:Unique_princess:Today I went to my old high school for my brother's interview there and I saw my old favourite teacher, and it was soooooooooooo nice meeting him after four years! He was so happy to see me and to see how I'm doing and how my life is since high school. I told him I graduate next year and to wish me luck and he said you don't need luck, you have always worked hard, and those who work hard don't need luck! awwwwww!! I was so happy!!! lol. He had to get up once during the interview with my bro and he's like oh my legs hurt I'm getting old, and I said “Sir! you look the same as you did four years ago!! Don't be acting now!” lol, hes probably in his late 30's now. He was telling my brother about my times there and about my cheekyness and my bro said he hated maths and loved English, the teacher was like, “it runs in the family I see!” lol he still remembers!. Man going past the old school halls and the canteen and the library and playgrounds and stuff brought back a countless number of memories!! High school days were the best of my life! Lol, in my mind I was playing back all those old memories as I walked through the grounds. Time flies!! Sometimes I wish I could go back to those days but I'm also happy to be here right now in this point of my life waiting for something beautiful to start Insha'Allah.. and If I went back in the past, it wouldn't let the future happen… school days were my days of naivety, innocence, blossoming friendships, falling in love lol. They were such carefree days, aaah those lazy hazy crazy days of summer!!!! its weird but even now when I see a cool evening and the sun shining through the window it takes me back to those days! and to those people whom I loved so much and still love so much lol..I had so many good times there, and I've learned so much since then about people, life, love and relationships.. and I'm so grateful for that beautiful period of my life! AlhumdulilahI love your nostalgia moments, Tayba….
Current feeling o'mine:
I feel lost. I feel so lost. Lifeless, soulless, lost.
Thank you Boo! I love my nostalgia moments too (I think – still have to decide whether nostalgia is a good thing? Is it? cuz doesn't it make you sad kind of? but then it also makes you happy too… also makes you think about stuff, I am so going off on one here, lol back to the topic).
Aww hun why u feel so lost? *big hug* What's up?!
heyy reply to my PM cuz as I said to rani im off in two days on holiday so I won't be able to reply to anything for a while! lol! xx
Awwwwww Boo
Its okay
dont worry like this it will be alright
Have some faith and remember alot of this lies within yourself
You can only be strong and fight bad emotions off if you make yourself strong
boo hunn… im kinda going through that too…im sorry. im sure you have great memories with your friend sweets, and that's just how life is, but we don't seem to accept it…
and I second everything the others said…except yeah…serio's
keep smiling
and now im wondering…why i posted about what you said on the other thread….here?
:p i think i need sleep.
peace.
irritated coz I cant spend as much time here with u galz as I wud love to
Exhausted coz work keeps me busy over 12 hours a day
scared coz a friend of mine was almost murdered and everyone who works for my company is in danger…
more scared coz we have a huge suspicion the perpetrator is actually a friend of ours
***shivers***
doubtful **again*** wondering..how well do we know our friends?? can we truly trust another?? why why why….how how how
OHHHH MYYY!!!! Scarz, THAT IS SCARRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh God, please YOU keep safe ok? Don't trust anyone! *scared for alie *
It's like you're living a thriller film…..doh!
tell me about it
I admit, finally admit, I dont give in to such admission but this entire thing SCARES me
has freaked me out, I cant talk to anyone, go anywhere without being extra cautious..
I havent slept since it happened, have been having awful nightmares……
yeah its like a thriller except u never know how the whole thing feels until u are experiencing it
everyone is trying their best to ignore the camera's the extra security …but it feels sooo uncomfortable
anyways …
have missed u guys a lot…this place makes me feel closer to home
makes me feel more sane…
Please tell me this has nothing to do with the incident with ur door & gate a couple months past!!!! Report it to ur job as soon as possible!
Remember what I told you! Keep weighty objects beside you & swing with ur eyes open!
Zilla…you need to contact me. Sms me if u need! Got it???
SenorJalapeno:I must have looked a comic figure- what with my pseudo-turban conjured out of a St. Michael's scarf, bare feet, sandals in hand, humming Phoolon Ka Taaron Ka- but I could have cared less. My feet may have ambled upon foreign soil but my heart was home.
Beautifully comical. Thank you.
eish I think I am in love with this Jalepeno dude
he sounds like HOT pepper but wat da heck
like seriously …
ness
feel like having
and they dnt have choco pics here ..damn!!
*faints dead away* rotflmao!
Daaaaaayyeemmmmm Zilla…the man just arrived! Give him a chance to unpack!
But he does have the gift of gab! My love belongs to King Fish!
Nessa:*faints dead away* rotflmao!
Daaaaaayyeemmmmm Zilla…the man just arrived! Give him a chance to unpack!
But he does have the gift of gab! My love belongs to King Fish!
NOPE IF I LIKE SUMS, AM GONNA SAY IT, U KNW ME BY NOW
and when i want something / ( someone) ….ROFLMAABO…am definitely
gonna SHOUT IT out hahahahaha…so errr mr Spicy Jalepeno, watch yr back hahaha
***wats *** ova moi***
love the way he writes, veddddddddddddy impressive indeed….
not that I read through it all properly hahaha
ps: note to Mukesh, put on some LOVE emoticonies thingys here okies
Scar face:NOPE IF I LIKE SUMS, AM GONNA SAY IT, U KNW ME BY NOW
…so errr mr Spicy Jalepeno, watch yr back hahaha
rotflmao…poor guy!
u are going to laff yrself silly at this:
my mum and I were chatting about guys and
she said to me **baby its mating season ***
lmao I cudnt stop laffing at this after the initial shock
no idea wat she meant, was too scared to ask, just thot of it now
Jalepeno dude is stirring up my heart in a mixture of heated lurrrrrrve
lmao
Scar face:scared coz a friend of mine was almost murdered and everyone who works for my company is in danger…
more scared coz we have a huge suspicion the perpetrator is actually a friend of ours
***shivers***
Watch out for yourself Scarry… please, take care…
Stirring up your heart? Dang! This is a first. I've only been known to stir up trouble- mostly for myself and occasionally for others. But, if words are even a poor indication to the inherent beauty of a soul, I definitely would not mind being around you…what with 'mating season' all around. Lol. Yeah, yeah, I know…too cheeky for a newbie to get ziggy but I couldn't help myself…you started it. I blame you for all ensuing loneliness and unfulfilled passion. Waaa! Oreo ji, whoever you are…spare me a spot in the bucket. I may need it soon.
Whoa… Senor…
Your signature… reminds me of Nitzah… sure you're not him in disguise?
You might have not a clue what I'm on about… apologies for that!
No. I saw it in a tech forum and appropriated it. Lol. Looks like I have to change it.
You seem to have a liking for coffee..
Boo! The Platinum muse erm member! Lol. Yes, coffee is my poison of choice. Would certainly die -or kill- for a perfectly brewed cup of coffee. I spend of most of my spare time and all my spare money in Starbucks or any cafe for that matter. If a woman wanted to get my undivided attention, she has but to dab herself with a bit of Jamaican Blue Mountain and I would promptly forget all else…even my name. Pity is I would probably forget hers too and bring about my premature end.
interesting…
how old are u ??
I'm afraid, very old. In fact, parts of me are fossilizing.
explains a lot
btw…
try ciro..one of my favs
Hey! What do you mean by 'explains a lot?' Ah you mean my wisdomousness is showing? I do not know Ciro. Is that a Cafe where you live?
Just wat I said, explains a lot Mr Fossil
Yr lack of wisdom has nothing to do with my statement
Am still singing *Lets go to the park, I wanna kiss u underneath the stars..*
Then we can go have coffee, as in CIRO coffee, at Capello’s, nw dat is a coffee place
Ciro is a brand of coffee…
So much for wisdom huh..
What park am I looking for?
Slooooow Down already
well its yr choice, u tell me which u prefer hahaha
I Thank God for John Legend and that wonderful song. Now, I am going to hum that tune all evening and drive myself insane wondering where that god-forsaken park is, and if the stars are out wherever it is that you live. Woman adorned with the wonder of wit, gifted with the talent of tune, given to the art of enticement, tantalizingly offering a stairway to heaven underneath a canopy of stars in a mysterious place…God! I cannot take this. I wish I could cut out my heart and howl at it a thousand times for not being in that park.
Hai… Ali has already asked you out for a coffee!
Platinum muse??
Senor… how did you come across this forum? 🙂
Apparently its more than just coffee. Platinum Muse because the self-crafted icon to the left, under your name says: Boo, Platinum Member, followed by five stars and what looks like two tiny people who must have escaped from Jonathan Swift's Gulliver's Travels: The Desi Version.
I was looking for someone to translate a few songs and ended up here. Certain things in life are providential and this, me being here, and getting acquainted to what increasingly appears to be a bevy of beautiful belles could only be some sort of destiny. If this sounds melodramatic, I apologize. Seeing that one has but one life to live, it is important to ponder the meaning of life as it unravels itself each day in a myriad ways. Don't you agree?
It does sound melodramatic. But apology accepted.
The story behind my display picture:
This forum is the new version. There was previously an older version of the forum, which I guess one could compare to a black and white TV, if this version is the colour one… or rather, a green and dark green TV, since those were the hues that graced our computer screens. It was during that time, I first joined BWL… and I can honestly say – there are not a lot of people in the world who have experienced magic like there was in this forum (I don't disagree that other forms of magic were experienced by millions of people over the millions of years since which civilisation began, but none like this, I can assure you). I have no words to describe it.. it was the innocence, and – dare I say – sheer madness of those times, that I feel enriched by, in my own way. I feel honoured to have been a part of that madness, from my own corner of my universe, in my own way… and I can honestly say, unless I get Alzheimer's or some other illness that may cause me to forget what was once a part of me, I will for my part never forget the memories of these times. I may forget the details of the memories, and maybe (heavens forbid) even the members may slip slowly out of my memory when I am in my rocking chair and trying to remember the names of my own great-grandchildren, but I will remember that there was once this crazy girl inside me, who was pulled into another world… and truly loved and cherished each moment of the madness of the said world.
My display picture is merely an attempt to show these feelings. Though, admittedly, there is no need to.
And as for the two tiny people – they are from the movie Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge, which always has been very close to me… but even more so after we had moved to the new forum.
In essence, what you have described – “the self-crafted icon to the left, under your name says: Boo, Platinum Member, followed by five stars and what looks like two tiny people who must have escaped from Jonathan Swift's Gulliver's Travels: The Desi Version.” – is a part of me; it expresses my self – to an extent, however microscopic it may be – and the person I am.
SenorJalapeno:Seeing that one has but one life to live, it is important to ponder the meaning of life as it unravels itself each day in a myriad ways. Don't you agree?
Of course… but it is equally important not to lose oneself so much in the endless paths of such ponderings, that they lose track of the experience of life. Don't you agree?
Nessa:Please tell me this has nothing to do with the incident with ur door & gate a couple months past!!!! Report it to ur job as soon as possible!
Remember what I told you! Keep weighty objects beside you & swing with ur eyes open!
Zilla…you need to contact me. Sms me if u need! Got it???
Omw Ness, u do remember I hit my head with the hammer r8…after trying to keep it close by just
in case the darn **attempted burglers** tried to break into my apartment..its still right by my side..I laff everytime I see it and
think of dat night…***shivers*** Jeez have been thru a lot since I got here …
Off coz I will sms, u are on speed dial hey
my mum and u ..jeez..u have to meet her hun
and NOPE it has nothing to do with that episode
this is much more intense, cruel and very frightening Ness
I am thinking about ..seriously thinkin about just packing up adn leaving
coz i dont want more drama ..hahaha
I feel like the darn drama princess of sorts
will give u all the details soon..supposed to be kept hush hush, but am too pissed off not to vent a little
love ya
~~Zilla~~
Boo, the people in the icon may be microscopic, but I have this deep seated feeling that there is nothing small about the size of your heart or significance of your thoughts. Of all the minor and major journeys in life that make up the JOURNEY that is life, the most important one is the journey into ourself where we ponder, probe and preview our soul and confront the adversity, cultivate the diversity, comfort the anguish and cheer the child in our lives. The more frequent and deeper the journey, the more wholesome our lives, our character and our relationships. You have a certain depth to your character and I for one am grateful you are a part of this.
Hai… Ali has already asked you out for a coffee!
Lol, I dnt ask Men out Hun..I am open-mindedly expressing my feelings … thoughts…errr yeah roflmao
SenorJalapeno:Boo, the people in the icon may be microscopic, but I have this deep seated feeling that there is nothing small about the size of your heart or significance of your thoughts. Of all the minor and major journeys in life that make up the JOURNEY that is life, the most important one is the journey into ourself where we ponder, probe and preview our soul and confront the adversity, cultivate the diversity, comfort the anguish and cheer the child in our lives. The more frequent and deeper the journey, the more wholesome our lives, our character and our relationships. You have a certain depth to your character and I for one am grateful you are a part of this.
totally agree with u Mr Spice for Life… she is an amazing young woman
and u shud be grateful to have an acquintance with her through this forum
'Of course… but it is equally important not to lose oneself so much in the endless paths of such ponderings, that they lose track of the experience of life. Don't you agree?'
I most certainly do agree.
'…she is an amazing young woman and u shud be grateful to have an acquintance with her through this forum…'
I most certainly am for having her acquaintance, and yours as well. Thank you.
thank u???
Uh huh. Thank you in advance for all the erm stuff in the park. Sheesh! Did we get off that subject already? I dont want to. Ever.
Scarzyyy…
…we just don't care, we just don't care, we just don't care….
LOL, I remember this song…!
Khushi is gone now?
Tayba must have left ages ago…
… now for Monday!
Great.
lol.
~Khushi~:Scarzyyy…
…we just don't care, we just don't care, we just don't care….
LOL, I remember this song…!
we just dnt care …we just dont care…i seriously dont give a #$%**%#@@ anymore hahahaha
love u chicky….
gonna miss u a lot
come back soooooooon so we can sing together..
.***MUSIC FEEDS MY SOUL…, MUSIC MAKES MAH HEART BEAT FASTER,
MUSIC IS THE RYTHM MY LIFE DANCES TO ****
SenorJalapeno:Thank you in advance for all the erm stuff in the park. Did we get off that subject already? I dont want to. Ever.
My my my *shaking head* lookit here!
SenorJalapeno:
Thank you in advance for all the erm stuff in the park. Did we get off that subject already? I dont want to. Ever.
My my my *shaking head* lookit here!
and I thot my flirting skills was non-existant hahaha
watye think of Jalepeno as a brother in law??
think it will work out??
roflmaabo
Hey! I was just signing up for the snog under the stars. Lol.
Sure, bro-in-law it is…but only if I might flirt with Dhiren??? Woo hoo…sssssssmokin! lol
was sarcasm Mr…
heard of dat..
besides u gotta EARN a snog under the stars with me..
was sarcasm Mr..heard of it?? besides u gotta EARN a snog under any star with moi…
btw, have u decided on the park??
Saracasm is when I think of responsibilities such as taking out trash and giving the dog a bath. When it concerns snogs, I take things quite literally. Its convenient that way you see. Now for issues of greater gravity: How may I go about EARNING a snog? Is there a policy manual lying somewhere around here?
Nessa:Sure, bro-in-law it is…but only if I might flirt with Dhiren??? Woo hoo…sssssssmokin! lol
Ness NO..behave…
no flirting wud my baby Dhiren, besides am making some progress with the guy
aaan I hate this forum and its duplicate posts
SenorJalapeno:Saracasm is when I think of responsibilities such as taking out trash and giving the dog a bath. When it concerns snogs, I take things quite literally. Its convenient that way you see. Now for issues of greater gravity: How may I go about EARNING a snog? Is there a policy manual lying somewhere around here?
lmao..oh boy I am seriously starting to like u dude
watch yr back hey…
do u work??
hahahaha…glitch in the matrix.
Forget that…go back to sparring with the Spicy One! I'll be still & learn!
The one 'Park' where I live is where all the self-made gypsies flock about to roll erm dried herbs in dead presidents. The cleaner parks around here are of the eternal kind where people are ushered horizontally in fancy cars and hard-wood with shiny brass handles, to sleep six feet under. I do not fancy a snog around there just in case some pseudo-frankenstein decides he's gotta have one on the kisser too.
roflmao
Mr…am i ever going to get sum work done with u lol
okies no parks, sooo where then??
u knw outa curiousity
Yeah. Gotta feed myself, and a stupid mutt that somehow thinks he belongs to me and just would not leave my house and I do not have the heart to kick him out. Trouble is he reeks like old socks and eats like Shrek.
I suggest u name the doggie
then give it a warm bath with nice smelling shampoos
dat solves part of the problem, as for feeding it…
well doggies aint choosy sooo wateva u eat, feed it the same
there a friend for life
I know why you like the idea of parks. That John Legend dude put that idea in your head. I could blow a hole in my roof if you really want to stand under the stars that bad, but on one condition. You gotta explain to Mrs. C and her collection of felines why they have a gaping hole in their floor Lol.
Nessa:hahahaha…glitch in the matrix.
Forget that…go back to sparring with the Spicy One! I'll be still & learn!
Explain the glitch in the matrix ..am too tired to use my thinking skills
learn what.. traitor….dis dude is gonna make me fall in love with him
hahahahaha
Lol Alie. The dog has a multiple personality disorder. I call him a variety of names. Sometimes I can see how confused he is. I call him by the names of all my math and language teachers in school. Yeah, yeah its an insult to the poor dog. Lol. I sometimes wonder if the devil concocted algebra as a means to frustrate humanity.
SenorJalapeno:I know why you like the idea of parks. That John Legend dude put that idea in your head. I could blow a hole in my roof if you really want to stand under the stars that bad, but on one condition. You gotta explain to Mrs. C and her collection of felines why they have a gaping hole in their floor Lol.
watch yr tone when speaking about JL u hear
no, dnt strain yrself …imagine Mrs C fainting, then dying from witnessing wat she isnt supposed to ..
Scar face:Explain the glitch in the matrix ..am too tired to use my thinking skills
learn what.. traitor….dis dude is gonna make me fall in love with him
hahahahaha
Will explain later.
Traitor indeed…leave me outta dis!! lmao
He's conquering & u're not fighting! You're falling faster than Rome! tsk tsk tsk…
SenorJalapeno:Lol Alie. The dog has a multiple personality disorder. I call him a variety of names. Sometimes I can see how confused he is. I call him by the names of all my math and language teachers in school. Yeah, yeah its an insult to the poor dog. Lol. I sometimes wonder if the devil concocted algebra as a means to frustrate humanity.
Alie??? since when are we on first name basis…seeing as we are…errr and I shud be calling u ???
Jeez dats mean hey…be nice to him?? her??
lets find a cute name for the lil one..hmmm
****thinking*****
As for algebra, lol…wat da hell does algebra have to do with this conv….
Hw old are u ???
If ur like 16 ( which is my actual guess) then I will be joining Cosmic using that bucket
Spoilsport Lol.
Nessa:Scar face:Explain the glitch in the matrix ..am too tired to use my thinking skills
learn what.. traitor….dis dude is gonna make me fall in love with him
hahahahaha
Will explain later.
Traitor indeed…leave me outta dis!! lmao
He's conquering & u're not fighting! You're falling faster than Rome! tsk tsk tsk…
common u have to explain a lotta stuff to me 🙁
also u shud KNOW me…..
our lil secret..will tell U later..am busy trying to get this bill in order
but Mr Spice here has my complete attention hahaha
Im old enough to blow a hole in my roof and stand underneath it with you. Definitely not 16. I am the president of the local chapter of Geriatrics Anonymous. Does that answer your question. Oh, all the teeth in my mouth are mine.
SenorJalapeno:Spoilsport Lol.
u better be talkin to Ness
You guys – you're mad!
Mr. Spice called you by ur name. Where is ur caution girl??!!!! rotflmao
Use ur head…goddess! I'm outta here!
Hi Nessa, I think someone is at your door. Perhaps you should go check. (I cannot fight for one's attention and fend off another's attack).
SenorJalapeno:Im old enough to blow a hole in my roof and stand underneath it with you. Definitely not 16. I am the president of the local chapter of Geriatrics Anonymous. Does that answer your question. Oh, all the teeth in my mouth are mine.
Why does the Cheeni Kum tune come into my head??!!
Sigh..!
boo:You guys – you're mad!
lol boo
we r just ordinary people, we dont know which way to go
we r just ordinary ppl …
Scar face:SenorJalapeno:Spoilsport Lol.
u better be talkin to Ness
I told u leave me outta dis! This is ur web (or most likely HIS)! Yup…I'm thinkin his! muaaaah!
Random thought – I like the way Senor writes. Although it seems a little formal, I guess.
Mad? The most sane of people have moments of alarming insanity and the most insane of people have moments of extraordinary clarity. I am neither. I just seek to rendezvous with a stolen moment beneath the stars.
SenorJalapeno:Hi Nessa, I think someone is at your door. Perhaps you should go check. (I cannot fight for one's attention and fend off another's attack).
then u will need to acquaint yrself with Cosmic, hes an expert at it
Ness: Pretentious Indian Blonde…have u forgotten??? I am cautious
Mr Spice ..whose attention are u fighting for huh…
Nessa:Scar face:SenorJalapeno:Spoilsport Lol.
u better be talkin to Ness
I told u leave me outta dis! This is ur web (or most likely HIS)! Yup…I'm thinkin his! muaaaah!
thanks for having faith in yr sista
Boo:
'Random thought – I like the way Senor writes. Although it seems a little formal, I guess.'
I guess so too. Its perhaps the result of a starched milieu at work. Will try to soften it up a bit.
SenorJalapeno:Hi Nessa, I think someone is at your door. Perhaps you should go check. (I cannot fight for one's attention and fend off another's attack).
Not attacking sir…by any means! This is the truth. My attacks are frontal.
I've attempted to extricate myself from the grasp of ur 'intended', but she will not let go. Tickle (her ears) a bit more…
You can do whatever you wish to do.. it was but a thought.
Scar face:SenorJalapeno:Hi Nessa, I think someone is at your door. Perhaps you should go check. (I cannot fight for one's attention and fend off another's attack).then u will need to acquaint yrself with Cosmic, hes an expert at it
Ness: Pretentious Indian Blonde…have u forgotten??? I am cautious
Mr Spice ..whose attention are u fighting for huh…
hahaha…this is too too sweet!
Boo ma…I'm with u! Familiar eh?
Nessa:SenorJalapeno:Hi Nessa, I think someone is at your door. Perhaps you should go check. (I cannot fight for one's attention and fend off another's attack).Not attacking sir…by any means! This is the truth. My attacks are frontal.
I've attempted to extricate myself from the grasp of ur 'intended', but she will not let go. Tickle (her ears) a bit more…
Firstly I WILL start screaming ..INTENDED??????????
On a serious note, I wud rather spend all my time wud u ( an mah fwends ) than a wannabe snogster…
besides my kisses will only make him want more ..sooo me better back off now
or I will have another pooch..
You're with me – but I've lost you, Nessa…
What?
boo:You're with me – but I've lost you, Nessa…
What?
yeah WAT already
boo:Why does the Cheeni Kum tune come into my head??!!
Sigh..!
A-ha! Gotcha girl…
I know..! It really does sound familiar!
I take it you've had a chance to see the movie? LOVED it..
Haaan ma. Saw & enjoyed!
Darnit all! Has the curtain fallen already?!
*pulls up a chair & popcorn* Have a seat ma…would you like popcorn?
That “haaan ma” sounded so… lovely? I smiled without realising I was smiling.
…glad to hear it. You haven't been smiling so much lately! Great to have that beautiful smile back!
I'd LOVE some!
You don't know HOW amazing it feels… to be on the OTHER end of the whole pulling-out-a-chair-and-popcorn thing… for once! Sigh sigh sigh! (And I don't just mean on BWL..)
And talking of popcorn… I will hopefully be having some REAL popcorn soon enough – I am off to see Jhoom Barabar Jhoom later on today! And I've worked out that, when Khushi will be leaving for her holiday to India – as in, actually taking off… I will be in a cinema hall watching Jhoom Barabar Jhoom with the friend I've told you guys about!
What a funny situation to be in.. thinking about one friend who will be 'leaving' me, whilst sitting with the other friend who will also be leaving me!
Nessa:…glad to hear it. You haven't been smiling so much lately! Great to have that beautiful smile back!
Ji… I haven't been so.. but I haven't been frowning either… just grumbling… hehe!
So, now I am a snogster? After having to deal with lectures on coffee, canine hygiene, John Legend protocol not to mention potential frontal attacks from Nessa, I am now a snogster? Woe is me!
My Rani is gone! But as I was once told: 'To Love someone is to wish them the highest good even when you know you are not the highest good for them.' I wish Rani happiness and temporary sorrow for myself Lol. Quick someone (Not Boo or Nessa Lol) snog me silly please?
boo:You don't know HOW amazing it feels… to be on the OTHER end of the whole pulling-out-a-chair-and-popcorn thing… for once! Sigh sigh sigh! (And I don't just mean on BWL..)
And talking of popcorn… I will hopefully be having some REAL popcorn soon enough – I am off to see Jhoom Barabar Jhoom later on today! And I've worked out that, when Khushi will be leaving for her holiday to India – as in, actually taking off… I will be in a cinema hall watching Jhoom Barabar Jhoom with the friend I've told you guys about!
Let me know what you think of it. Saw it last week and all I could think was, ” Wow, Bobby Deol can really dance!!! Can't wait until he comes to NY!” lol
Make the most of your time ma…great friends are such a big part of our lives. Be it online or in person!
SenorJalapeno:Quick someone (Not Boo or Nessa Lol) snog me silly please?
rotflmao…no worries Spicy One…u're safe with me! lmao
p.s. ur potential for a 'frontal attack' is quite slim.
Nessa:Make the most of your time ma…great friends are such a big part of our lives. Be it online or in person!
And on that happy note, Nessa ji, I shall leave…
Must go now.. and the movie is in about three hours!
Take care guys… it's been fun!
'p.s. ur potential for a 'frontal attack' is quite slim.'
Just as well, I'm duty bound to inform you that I had previously lowered my helmet to fortify my armor over future essentials in the southern hemisphere just in case. But, glad to know that an attack is not imminent and may never be. Whew!
SenorJalapeno:My Rani is gone! But as I was once told: 'To Love someone is to wish them the highest good even when you know you are not the highest good for them.' I wish Rani happiness and temporary sorrow for myself Lol. Quick someone (Not Boo or Nessa Lol) snog me silly please?
Rani?? who da heck u calling Rani huh…
stick with Alie
as for snogging aka kissing
dnt even dare attempt to snog sumelse u hear
patience…haha
Yes! God give me patience and give it to me now. If possible give me also other things under thine stars Lol. As for snogging others…why would I want to?
hw shud i KNOW u are afterall a MAN
SenorJalapeno:Im old enough to blow a hole in my roof and stand underneath it with you. Definitely not 16. I am the president of the local chapter of Geriatrics Anonymous. Does that answer your question. Oh, all the teeth in my mouth are mine.
Oh didi you are really treating this Senor Jalapeno like a Serio kinda dude
But geesh, Senor Jalapeno Sir Jalapeno Sir! Your style of writing is extremley impressive
But still tell na, how old are thou?
boo:Random thought – I like the way Senor writes. Although it seems a little formal, I guess.
I know Its like…awesomely interesting! Sounds like one of them big newspaper articles which explains important and complicated subjects !
SenorJalapeno:Mad? The most sane of people have moments of alarming insanity and the most insane of people have moments of extraordinary clarity. I am neither. I just seek to rendezvous with a stolen moment beneath the stars.
Whoaaa…what exactly does this mean senor jalapeno sir jalapeno sir!
boo:Nessa:Make the most of your time ma…great friends are such a big part of our lives. Be it online or in person!And on that happy note, Nessa ji, I shall leave…
Must go now.. and the movie is in about three hours!
Take care guys… it's been fun!
Booo have funnn darlin' tell us how that movie went!
Alright dudes ….whats a SNOGSTER????????????
SenorJalapeno:Yes! God give me patience and give it to me now. If possible give me also other things under thine stars Lol. As for snogging others…why would I want to?
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh is it just me
or am i seein stuff about senor jalapeno sir jalapeno sir and alie didi talkin; bout snoggin and warnin abt snoggin others n sayin that they WONT snog others
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dum dee dumm dee dumm … arf?
Kavitaji, all those questions…I feel like my brains are bundled up in a washing machine in a brisk cycle! You are like the Spanish Inquisition only with a more beautiful name. I am very old, or as I've previously said, a fossil. I can provide notarized copies of radiocarbon dating records if you further seek to verify my age.
A snogster is a rather fortunate fellow with all the rewards of a relationship with a beautiful someone but apparently none of the responsibilities. I was invited to a park somewhere so someone could decipher the intricate detail of my lower lip under the stars. If you go back a few posts, you will have a definite clue as to the identity of the 'Someone.'
As for the other posts dwelling on various other issues, I plead temporary state of exhilaration. All the promises that were made re-distributed my blood-supply bringing about a state of such sudden euphoria that all semblance of sanity vanished and caused me to rant and rave.
Finally, Yes! what you see indeed has happened. I wish I could say I was being 'seduced' but I'm afraid that may lead to grave repercussions and eventual loss of life and limb though not necessarily in that order.
Any more questions?
Senor Jalapeno Sir Jalapeno Sir! Wow your talent of speaking… god where did you learn to talk in this style? I too want to learn it! Haha
Oh I know why you would feel all jumbled with all of my questions : See I didnt visit my sweet BWL in quite a lil while soo here I am reading everyone's quotes and replying to em ; Oh ji how old are you certainly you cannot be a fossil… certainly you are not extinct..esle you would be a haunting ghost or something of that sort
Hm snogster is what what what…? Not sure I got that meaning …? Its a lucky guy who is in a relationship with someone beautiful but dont have any responsibilties for the relationship? Hmm I think that must be it….. Lower lip … under the stars??? oye ji !! Who are you talking about surely not alie didi sounds like she was ready to bite your head off !
Oh god you finally said it..'seduced' alright….guys i think its time to TAKE COVER!!!!!!!!!!!
Nice meeting you ji
'…where did you learn to talk in this style? I too want to learn it!'
Kavita ji, when one grows up in a neighborhood with more retirees in it than the average queue in front of the post office window that deals with pensions, they suffer the ignominy of reading letters written by grandchildren in 'Amerika and Greatu Brittanu' and worse, writing their replies as well. I was the official scribe to several old folk around my home, courtesy of my mother who was overcome by the urge to help others to my inevitable agony.
'Hm snogster is what what what…? Not sure I got that meaning …?'
A snog is a kiss. Actually its more than a kiss, it is an epic proclaimed by a pair of anxious lips on another pair of eager lips. Whereas a kiss is usually the Hors D'oeuvres, a snog is a heart-felt requisition for Hors D'oeuvres, Entree, Dessert, Movie and ensuing erm drama in a passionate burst of unrelenting desire.
'Nice meeting you ji'
Likewise Kavita ji. The pleasure is all mine.
Oh geez ji , you really learned alot whilst growing up then I must say.
Snog is a kiss…. ? A meaningful kiss? Hm snog sounds like a negative word but hey.. not all that sounds something is like that thing
Where art thou from ji?
From somewhere in the South of India ji. But, my feet and my heart have been far from home for a long time and I am slowly finding my way home.
Oh dear I find such sadness written between the spaces of your words!
I am only wondering if your quest to find home means your adapting to a new home
or if you are actually searching to find your 'actual' home
perhaps one that has long been left & missed.
Good luck.
I am going to bed now I am sleepy. Take care ji!
luw yr pc Kavz
sweet dreams haha
my feelings:
Given up, lost all hope, Faith in the one thing I truly yearned for..
Never really wanted in my life but secretly wished for …
Can safely say that I believe myself to be free from the madness I once
Craved…
Didi
your thoughts are deep
you sound like such a poet
***faints***
ok on the verge of fainting, neeeed to eat hahah
ur mad
am outa here
mwah..
check yr faceboook …
No seriously.
Lol – EAT!! and RELAX… I hope you aint be stressing yourself out TOO much
Will check facebook later
Mwahz
Scar face:Given up, lost all hope, Faith in the one thing I truly yearned for..
Never really wanted in my life but secretly wished for …
Can safely say that I believe myself to be free from the madness I once
Craved…
hmmm…don't give up yaar. no! NO! NO! NO!!!!!!! *stares at scarry*
and then *chokes scarry with a hug*
kavita_0026:No seriously.
Luw, PLEASE STOP WITH MY BEING POETIC…look at Senor wateva, makes me cringe every time I read sums he writes
aaaaaargh…can ye feel the jealousy hahahaha
Lol – EAT!! and RELAX… I hope you aint be stressing yourself out TOO much
ur kidding r8…off coz I am stressing..first I sent a container to god knows where
and lost +/- $ 60 000…roflmao..u shudve seen my face when i figured this out..but thankfully
we are tryin to amend the error..then we are synchronising from one system to a more **efficient** one and
its duplicating work ….%^%&$*&%%$%^*….I think I will become an expert on this seeing as I seem to have all the
darn major problems with my colleagues in the Usa, Portugal and UK…To name a few…
I cant believe how slow the americans are….lol..
then I seem to change things on bills that is actually illegal hahahaha
and and and ….
Will check facebook later
Mwahz
Yemenilicious:Scar face:Given up, lost all hope, Faith in the one thing I truly yearned for..
Never really wanted in my life but secretly wished for …
Can safely say that I believe myself to be free from the madness I once
Craved…
hmmm…don't give up yaar. no! NO! NO! NO!!!!!!! *stares at scarry*
and then *chokes scarry with a hug*
A lil too late yaaar,
have given up, cant explain hw i feel at the moment coz I feel all numb, feelingless
this usually happens, when am faced with a major crisis, I lock it somewhere deeep within and all feelings lost
coz I dnt wanna deal with it I guess…
I feel claustophobic, have lost FAITH in god, we seem to be at logger heads with each other now
me questioning and %^$%&$^&9 ANGRY and God?? am not sure…havent had any response hahaha
Am not sure HOW i manage to wake up in the morning –and YUK find I am still here….
hate it…hate this…
ur choking me??? oh my with soooo much love ???
am forcing myself not to cry at such affection shown to me…
I cant say I love right now, coz I cant feel sweety
but I have missed u a lot …and hope things are better on yr side
write to me sooon okies…
i miss our lil chats
hugz…as warm and tightly as I can hold u
take care of yrself toooo , know uve been having sum tough times
hope studies goin well and the family is doing well..
~~scarry~~
From somewhere in the South of India ji. But, my feet and my heart have been far from home for a long time and I am slowly finding my way home.
damn, And I gotta read this after givin u the 3rd degree..eish
okies…eerrrrhmmm***luking a lil embarrased***
do tell us..more about yr home..in India ie…
My ancestors from the south of Indiaand I yearn to go back and find my roots
How does one say what he wants to say about his hometown and not give away details about his life? How about I share a few memories growing up wherever it was that I grew up.
Tadpoles! I actually thought they were Lungfish when I first saw them. To make things more complicated an upper-class Baboon confirmed my misconception by saying they were Lungfish indeed and if I took them home and cared for them, they would grow. Being naive was an unfortunate prerogative and as such, come Monsoon, I began to forage around for Lungfish nee Tadpoles.
There were several vacant lots around my school, and during lunch hour, I would inhale my food, clean out my 'Tiffin Box' and turn self-proclaimed fisherman. I finally found a small puddle of relatively clean water that to my ecstasy was teeming with tadpoles. I filled my 'Tiffin Box' with water and scooped up as many tadpoles as I could and secured the lid tightly and went back to school. I could barely contain my excitement during the afternoon classes, but as hard as I tried to find time to check on my 'catch,' I could not shake my friends or Ms. Gauri, my teacher who looked like a hasty cross between a hawk and a hen, meaning she had the nose of a predator and the rump of the prey.
As you would have guessed, poor tadpoles slowly died- or committed suicide, devastated by the fact that they were mistaken for Lungfish, which must you know, are not that well regarded by amphibians. Please do not ask how I know this, for if I tell you, I must kill you. I knew something was wrong when I opened my 'Tiffin Box,' because the tadpoles were not moving but setting off this quaint aroma not that different from a horrible salted-fish dish my paternal grandmother used to manufacture on each summer visit.
No, they were not praying that God would help them ride out the tribulation that I had brought upon them, and hopefully become respectable croakers. I could not believe my luck and decided to take matters into my hands. That was when matters got worse. See, I had a friend RK, who once told me that if you smacked a frog silly and then promptly urinated on it, the frog would be revived. I decided to test the theory, and counseling myself as to the appropriate amount of biological brine a tadpole would need, proceeded to pee in my 'Tiffin Box.'
Parents have the uncanny knack of catching you when you least expect them, and in my case, I was caught with my pants down. A few minutes later, my matters were back in their 100% cotton barracks, but my ears certainly resembled pickled beets. Having brought me into the world, my mother perhaps decided to instill the idea that she could just as easily take me out of it, and she almost did.
Mercifully, I never had to use the 'Tiffin Box' to pack lunch, but, sadly, never could use it catch more Lungfish either and each new monsoon brought a new heartache. Presently the vacant lots were purchased by 'Bada Babus,' and my once glorious fishing grounds soon sprouted beautiful homes. It is no surprise then that each time I come across a puddle with tadpoles, I become the boy that went searching for Lungfish and came home with tadpoles.
oye ji !! Who are you talking about surely not alie didi sounds like she was ready to bite your head off !
lmao, Yeah Kavs he is talking bout snogging me..unless Mr Jalapeno here is trying to confuse a certain sum1..
Oh god you finally said it..'seduced' alright….guys i think its time to TAKE COVER!!!!!!!!!!!
the question here is..who exactly is being seduced…either Jalapeno
or u galz???
“you gals”
arf? ! aint me child
i just came back after a while n saw kissing and snoggin or what ever it is under some startlight star bright ..n u and senor Jalapeno postings lol
n then i think yumin n rani said something with boo ji n im like..huh? lol
aint me
you ask the other girls! lol
oye, on da defensive huh **winks**
mmmwaaaahhhhh…canye feeel dat sloppy kiss luw hahaha
me misses u sooo much
heck I misss Mara tooo…dat chicky chopped off her hair, she luks sooo darn cute
today, am feelin:
much more relaxed, coz I am almost done with mah work haha
happy coz I spoke to mum and she just make me laffff…..
she burned her lounge suite hahaha, dat cracked me up ..coz she treasures it sooo much
loved coz well I just feel it haha
admired, coz dis dude said I luk errr sexi hahaha
in da mood to dance ..coz coz coz
and irritated all at once, coz my urk headaches are back
content, for sum odd reason, i feel like this is hw things were meant to be..
hopeful, that a certain fwend finds the courage to express his love to another fwend
enriched, by the lil blessingz called family and friends
right now..
sooo damn pissed off, I am wanna scream …then murder anyone who is in my path
Men…hate them!!!
cant understand em
dont wish to make an effort anymore
Whew! Thank God I am a Dragon.
ur NOT helping …and I am the dragon, remember..
u can be the a$$ lmao..okies dat made me laff
I can be the a$$? Well, I'm glad that me being the butt of the joke made you laff Lol. I could turn the other cheek if you want so you could laugh more Lmao!
Scar face:oye, on da defensive huh **winks** WHY YES OF COURSE
mmmwaaaahhhhh…canye feeel dat sloppy kiss luw hahaha oo i can feel it..i can feel the power! lol
me misses u sooo much
heck I misss Mara tooo…dat chicky chopped off her hair, she luks sooo darn cute she cut her hair AGAIN?! n she told me she wanted it to grow back!
today, am feelin:
much more relaxed, coz I am almost done with mah work haha
happy coz I spoke to mum and she just make me laffff…..
she burned her lounge suite hahaha, dat cracked me up ..coz she treasures it sooo much geez you crack up when someone loses something they treasure? uhhhh uh hmm
loved coz well I just feel it haha
admired, coz dis dude said I luk errr sexi hahaha ioooooooooooo ali didi you gettin' eye up by guysssss who's the sexy mama in da house!
in da mood to dance ..coz coz coz
and irritated all at once, coz my urk headaches are back
content, for sum odd reason, i feel like this is hw things were meant to be..
hopeful, that a certain fwend finds the courage to express his love to another fwend
enriched, by the lil blessingz called family and friends
hm and its really interesting how this 'content, hopeful enriched' talk can be changed over night just because..MEN screwed it up… whew…. poor didi whats it with you and this….thing you call…MEN
Hey Senor J … by the way… you're not spanish are you..? either that or you like jalapeno peppers // ?
I am not Spanish, but I do like Jalapenos. They are awesome when accompanied by melted cheddar. I was called Chili Pepper because I fancied spicy food, and eventually ended up with Senor Jalapeno. For a while, I did try to learn Spanish, but the girl in question returned to El Salvador, and alas! no more foreign tongue, umm…I mean no more teachers.
hey luw…
wow, u CAN feel the power of my kisses..hugz…love…great…
at least it works for u 🙂
Lol, kavs the only reason mums sofas burning cracked me up was coz she is forever screaming at her grandkids to stop jumping and playing on it ..
And U have me on the other hand telling her **its just a sofa mummy** and she’s like
*Lyn, do u know how much that Lounge suite costs, bla bla bla ??**
Me laffing…**toldye to use yr money wisely, get sums yr grandchildren can have their way with and spend the rest of the money on a holiday ***
To that I usually get a response of …
*** u will have yr day***
Me: lmao..yeah r8…Hahaha…
soo yeah dats why I laffed myself silly, not coz other peoples sufferings make me giddily happy semorita…eish u shud knwo me by now man!!!
Kavi, yr didi aint a sexi mama hahaha, Jeez can only imagine Nessa's face when she reads this….heck..
well hun, it isnt men in general just one flipppant annoying MAN…whom I would love to kick errr ***more ladylike**slap
across the face…except I wudnt coz I am DAT damn nice…
Am not sure though, maybe I am allergic to this thing called Men?? hmm MAYBE hahaha
naaaah am kewl now sweety, was just reallllllllllllllllllly irritated at the time and where else can I vent out loudly other than here???
this guy though, I love him a lot right but he is just ellusive, fustratingly cold, irritatingly accusing, annoyingly flippant, I cant understand him, and
how can I if he isnt honest with me??? I trusted him only to find that he may have lied to me…upon hearsay…
when asked, he gives me the 3rd damn degree about talking about others..bla bla bla…
..damn…************huge siggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh
Hi alisha how are you? First of all I want to tell you thank you I received the package and I was so so glad – you are soo kind… now I get to boast to the air that I got chocolate all the way from Durban! You are too kind
As for replies – aww my I know you were not so cold as to laughat yr loving mom because she was sad her sofa got burnt ..ah my..well she need to def get another one to replace this one or is it irreplaceable?
Ohh so its a specific GUY hmm that makes everything more……better! hmm u seem like u kinda like him but geez he kinda seem to have a whole load of diff emotions flying round the place … n this whole thing abt him lying to u..are we talkin' lil petty lie here or like..BIG lie to make you really hurt ..?
love you tons alie i do
Senor Jalapeno – i didnt get the chance to reply to yr home post bc i had to go off suddenly..
sorry to hear that you're in such a fix with moving and all but I sure do hope that you find a good place
to live in … you can always tell us more if you want to let anything out we're here to listen … there may not be much that we can do but..we do listen … how about your parents ji? do you keep into contact with them? if you dont want to answer its okay…
As for learning spanish … there must be other means to learn it unless you had wanted to learn it from that one particular person [?]
Take care Ji
am tired, still at work luw, why are u rushing off?? this is like almost impossible being online at the same time as u an u run off sooo quickly eish!!
wat package??? the damn postal services in America Sux I tell u
I sent that ages ago hun..let me know if the Labello Works k..as for the chocs hahaha
only sent it coz I remembered u were on a diet hahahaha, kidding
Me dunno, spoke to mum a lil today but on other issues, we both forgot bout the sofa so am assuming that is under control of sorts
Yeah a specific guy, but one sided love hahaha, from me off coz…coz wh the heck is silly enuf to fall in love with dear ol Scarry
dnt answer that…
well it was major for me, but have realised it was a misunderstanding or more…my stupidity…….u knw us women
anyways we aint communicating as of today, that explains why I am STILL here, cant think straight sooo need to chill in a cold place
alone…
as for senor…..yuk, I cant call u dat**shivers*** where u moving to??
and yeah tell us more about yr folks
as for spanish, u can get Ness to give u lessons, shes the Spanish expert
Hey oh you're online God I dont know what to say I feel really screwed up Like really I dont know whats happening here its just crazy That guy I told you of I just got into a quarrel with him today and he was at work And I called him nothing but scum ..something i would NEVER call anyone (but myself – indirectly ) Its just I asked him about his past and I know it dont matter but I cant believe I believed he had no dealings with no one
cont'd from top : I know i cant give him nothing alisha but that doestn mean i dont love him alisha i dont do anything wrong nothing wrong i dont even go out with friends i dont even have none for god's sake and you know what
Tomorrow he's going to an oooh so nice wedding and I just wanted to take this time to call up a friend and lets go to the movies or something just so I CAN SAY I HAD FUN TOO when you were … Its fine with me I mean I am trying to be an understanding person to him .. and not yelling and screaming and venting everything inside of myself and him im TRYING to be more understanding and i am being successful bc im trying to make my mind calm
but its this stupid thing.. he goes out with his friend's sister to do grocery shopping and shopping for the wedding ( the wedding tomorrow is his friend's relative 's wedding ) and all that .. and anyway i know you'll say so friends are friends..well i dont want to know if he's going by their home and she's crying to him and telling him about how much she wants some guy to make time for her but it doesnt seem as if he wants to
and then he's going to tell me that he wishes i was like her .. i hate comparisons if you want to tell me i suck or i stink or im not pretty or whatever say it dont compare like that
anyway forget this part with girl crying and all that .. that was like 1 week back..and then my dad saw him and some girl walking and talking argh this is the GREAT moment for this to happen when everyone is THROWING everything at me right .. ok this was 1 week back too
look enough ENOUGH DAMN IT
an u knw I neva swear
oh my gosh sweety
dat done, breathe…okay…now here goes
First and foremost, I have to admit I am exhausted sooo didnt follow much of what u were saying soooo if I get it wrong, forgive k
wrt this fella, let me thump him for u ?? pleeeeeesh hahaha kidding
okies seriously though..
Firstly, u said what u said most probably coz u were extremely upset and the conv just wasnt going right
but then u dnt need to apologise for calling sum1 a scum especially since he behaved like a damn ass in the first place…..
dammit, men…anyways, listen, the point is hun, he told u NOW about the chick from the past, I remember u telling me sumthing of the sort
but thats life….sooo he had another love, they confessed undying love to each other at one stage, at this moment, HE IS WITH U RIGHT….
he is trying to make things work with u…he mentioned marriage sooo dat probably means he is more than serious…and wants to spend the rest of his life with u…??? am not sure …be more specific on this….
as for telling u after marriage, now I wanna thump him for his cowardice but also remember u are the jealous type sweety, u know this..and he prob knows dis tooo sooo he didnt want THIS to happen, u getting all worked up and upset and hurt and screaming and cursing, soo he prob thought, **heck if we r married at least I wont lose her if she is told then** or maybe not, am just guessing here…Okay so he had a relationship, even I wud be envious if my guy had a previous relationship but knowing that he is now woth me, I wudnt want to lose him over jealousy and anger that is uncalled for…
U say u grew up but no u havent, I cannot explain to u hun coz he is yr first love… u wud want for u to be his first love as well but the reality is that u are not…
no 1 love is the same, sooo ensure that the one u have with him is the one he wants to be immersed in eternally….
damn woman, use that jealous streak of yrs at the right times….If he walks with another girl dont automatically assume he is cheating on u luw…We are all allowed friends of the opposite sex other than our partners…
If it bothers u soo much then speak to him in a mature manner, no tantrums as such, ask him who she is but do it appropriately…
wat da hell are u talkin about kavita….listen to me…u devoted yr love to him, u care deeply about him, u WANT to spend yr life with him…wat do u mean u gave him nothing….I told u that those lil things u did against yr folks knowledge isnt criminal – trust me hun….as far as I can see you are too much of a saint….
giving sum1 yr love in its entirety shud be sufficient and if he does not appreciate it, his damn loss…
Also hun couples are supposed to fight, it makes the making up afterwards part all the more errrr interesting…anyways…
a little bit of jealosuy is ok but an abundance or an overdosage of it will certainly kill the romance and u dnt want that, neither do u want a partner who is soo damn scared to be honest with u that he will simply hide a whole lota things from u for fear that if he does approach u with anything u will blow a fuse…
there should be trust in a relationship luw and if u dnt show him that u trust him .it will /may cause further strain…
One thing I can identify with, knowing and thinking about ** the man u love, loving someone else**….dammit thats the worse feeling ever ***hugs**
yet hun still remember he is with u…not his ex…
am confused about who is crying to whom about what exactly??????????????
As for the wedding, why dont u go with him, u dnt need to socialise with anyone, just be with him, show him that u have time for him and u may not like his friends but at least ur making an effort Kavz, sigh..
building a strong relationship is a
Just want to tell you thanks..I read all of this the same day..and felt it so much better to calm myself !
But for right now i'll stay away from this thread!
Me toooo..ie staying away from the feelings thread
take care jaaan
How does one say what he wants to say about his hometown and not give away details about his life?
How about I share a few memories growing up wherever it was that I grew up.
Tadpoles! I actually thought they were Lungfish when I first saw them. To make things more complicated an upper-class Baboon confirmed my misconception by saying they were Lungfish indeed and if I took them home and cared for them, they would grow. Being naive was an unfortunate prerogative and as such, come Monsoon, I began to forage around for Lungfish nee Tadpoles.
There were several vacant lots around my school, and during lunch hour, I would inhale my food, clean out my 'Tiffin Box' and turn self-proclaimed fisherman. I finally found a small puddle of relatively clean water that to my ecstasy was teeming with tadpoles. I filled my 'Tiffin Box' with water and scooped up as many tadpoles as I could and secured the lid tightly and went back to school. I could barely contain my excitement during the afternoon classes, but as hard as I tried to find time to check on my 'catch,' I could not shake my friends or Ms. Gauri, my teacher who looked like a hasty cross between a hawk and a hen, meaning she had the nose of a predator and the rump of the prey.
As you would have guessed, poor tadpoles slowly died- or committed suicide, devastated by the fact that they were mistaken for Lungfish, which must you know, are not that well regarded by amphibians. Please do not ask how I know this, for if I tell you, I must kill you. I knew something was wrong when I opened my 'Tiffin Box,' because the tadpoles were not moving but setting off this quaint aroma not that different from a horrible salted-fish dish my paternal grandmother used to manufacture on each summer visit.
No, they were not praying that God would help them ride out the tribulation that I had brought upon them, and hopefully become respectable croakers. I could not believe my luck and decided to take matters into my hands. That was when matters got worse. See, I had a friend RK, who once told me that if you smacked a frog silly and then promptly urinated on it, the frog would be revived. I decided to test the theory, and counseling myself as to the appropriate amount of biological brine a tadpole would need, proceeded to pee in my 'Tiffin Box.'
Parents have the uncanny knack of catching you when you least expect them, and in my case, I was caught with my pants down.
ROFLMAO…wow not good for my craze imagination…hahhahaaa
Firstly, your story had me laughing myself silly, urinating in ones lunch box
hoping to revive an unconscious tadpole is by far the most hilarious thing I
had encountered. Do share more experiences with us. I do need to develo
hehe as for the tadpole thing..we use to catch them in the watery craters on the roads and put them in buckets and watch them transform to lil frogs
geesh …
Hey alie tell yr childhood stories! dont even hesitate…. !
Senor J – i agree..you tell us about these little nice times of your life which is like an extremely small part of yr life… magnified and extended by yr words
you can tell us more stuff…i mean..of course..if it doesnt hurt you too much [?]
how is your dog?
My dog goes wherever all dogs go when they die…since he goes to the Vet in four or five days. He just lies there and rarely touches his food. I made him a Peanut Butter and Jelly sandwich but he just ignored it and that is one of his favorite treats. C'est la vie! If I was half the friend to he was to me, I would be ten times as happy. I hope I was. No more pets for a while.
I feel your pain. I had the same experience with my dog Hiro (short for Hirohito).
You're doing the right thing.
ADDENDUM: Words once spoken, can't be taken back. For that reason I won't delete this. (said as the egg drips from my face)
I will apologize, though, for my presumptuousness. I wish you'll feel better about things soon.
So sorry to hear about your sweet dog [ to Ness and SenorJ ]
If you feel it in yr heart that this is the right thing… I suppose it is the righ thing. … And he will be going to a way better place..without no pain and hurt
Wannnnnaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa scream
And then cry …like cry from the soul sorta crying !!
what's up hun?
what's up hun?
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Jus wat I needed to see Yums, reallllly beautiful, dis lil baby, oh my word, I want my baby to luk just as cute…
Ur alwayz here at the right time ..holistically ..and as a lil sister
My mood right now is a looong story, I am stilll soooo upset I am literally hot with temper…
I doo seriously need a hug right now sooo thanks
hope u well and yr leg is better???? and the lil bro?? hw is he hun???
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im sorry to hear, sweets
im good. my leg is better and my brother is still a bum =p.
thanks for asking.
“Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.”
“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched … but are felt in the heart.”
“You cannot make yourself feel something you do not feel, but you can make yourself do right in spite of your feelings.”
“Let everything happen to you, beauty and terror, no feeling is final.”
“Eyes that do not cry, do not see”
My dog goes wherever all dogs go when they die…since he goes to the Vet in four or five days. He just lies there and rarely touches his food.
To doggie heaven.
I made him a Peanut Butter and Jelly sandwich but he just ignored it and that is one of his favorite treats. C'est la vie! If I was half the friend to he was to me, I would be ten times as happy. I hope I was.
Well I think you are doing the best you possibly can in this time, so why beat yourself up with such negative emotion, right now Desi needs love, warmth and more love, that’s the least you can do in this situation, where food is concerned, feed him some soup because under the circumstances I don’t think he will feel like eating much.. If he isn’t taking to the soup or anything that is warm yet liquid, then keep him on your lap and ensure he takes in the food..
No more pets for a while.
I know how u feel, my baby ..she now resides in Doggie heaven, I met her on this warm afternoon returning home from school, she was literally being torn apart by some other dogs in the area, soo my fwend and I proceeded with caution and ensured that she got out safe, yet tailless, since that moment, after wrapping her up in my jersey and carrying her home, she never left my side.. and had become my most valued friend whom I called Brutus ( after the sweet I had fed her, Frutus ) …and eventually affectionately called her my baby..
The day she died, Oct, 10th 2003, was one of the worse days of my life, it literally felt like a part of me had gone off to a deep end that is colder than the iciest mountains.
I was at college on the day, a drunk driver had run over her neck, and she bled to death.
She had been buried behind my flat, a neat little grave for her by my mum and younger sister before I arrived home.
When I did arrive, informing me of her departure was a tedious task for mum and Tz.
Both were nervous wrecks by then caus
I feel your pain. I had the same experience with my dog Hiro (short for Hirohito).
for HIRO
wt does hirohito mean ???
Hirohito kind of sounds japanese
Aw didi ***hugs**** [:'(]yr story is soo sad..why do these things all happen …why did she had to go THAT way ?!! god..thats the thing that REALLY gets to you..to know that all of this could have been prevented..but it just happened anyway and left you with a broken heart
but what can we do….this life treats us and our pets so unfair sometimes
im sure our dogs all go to heaven …for being mans best friend… they deserve no more than to be in heaven
***hugs****
Yemenilicious:“Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.”
I love this…describes me!
The name is Japanese. He was an emperor of Japan.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hirohito
I apologize, but I'm unable to make the link function correctly.
Ness:Yemenilicious:“Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.”I love this…describes me!
I really like this quote too
Along with this one : “Eyes that do not cry, do not see”
i really like the last one too
i'm just not good at letting my feelings out…and when they pile up, im all suffocated. sigh…
I wonder if letting feelings out is over-rated. I live a transparent life, only because I have nothing to hide as of the moment. When I was in Uni, I was very discreet, only because I had much to hide. Sometimes letting our feelings out may hurt others' feelings and though we may cajole ourselves into thinking what others may or may not feel as the direct result of our 'emotional outbursts' is of no consequence, perhaps, sometimes it is.
There was a time when I used to 'post-it' my feelings all over the house. For instance, a note on my refrigerator would say, 'I'm famished and there is nothing worth eating inside, you stupid infernal fridge.' My friends thought I was strange, but it helped control my outbursts, and saved me from inadvertently hurting others. Sometimes, I would leave notes here and there which would crack up later during the week. Since life is given to inexplicable moments of insanity, the only way to combat insanity is to give yourself to a bit of craziness here and there.
Oh, Ninja, I have Honey-Dew Melon, Lychees, Turkish Apricots soaked in Manuka Tree Honey, Raspberry Sorbet, and Pellegrino in my fridge. I have some lovely coffee -Ethiopian, New Guinea, Shade-grown Guatemalan, Colombian and a limited edition espresso roast- which is crying out for company. If I promise to get you to the Mosque on Sunday on time, would you care for a bite and an extended bout of caffeine intoxication?
“would you care for a bite and an extended bout of caffeine intoxication? “
Very interesting way to ask one out for a snack and for some coffee.
About your little notes, ji , I find them very interesting… in fact I find you to be an interesting person … mysterious but in a good way …
“Since life is given to inexplicable moments of insanity, the only way to combat insanity is to give yourself to a bit of craziness here and there.”
Does thou mean that we should make ourself 'feel' this craziness when … its going on so much we cant evade it or ignore it? But ji, how do you yourself…give in to craziness ? Explain to me.
The inside of your fridge reminded me of a delightful fairy tale land
Yummin “i'm just not good at letting my feelings out…and when they pile up, im all suffocated. sigh… “
Whats wrong?Whats been happening? I dont know.. but take it easy and try to channel any anger , hurt , pain unto inanimate things
*tons of hugs* Take breaks from studying ; and get your rest – coffee does its purpose but your body needs the natural rejuvenation
bleh.
im alrighty
im not killing myself anymore…im taking it easy
thanks for your concerns kavita.
Yemenilicious:i really like the last one too
i'm just not good at letting my feelings out…and when they pile up, im all suffocated. sigh…
u sure u not a guy yummnenilicious???
im sure man….im sure.
maybe u r mixing yr biological traits with yr emotional ones. let me bring u to the right path again
hahaha.
…again?!
yeah, again. i see a confused person underneath that pretty eyes.
im not confused…
im more of a lost person. lol
I'll be fine soon =)
lost, confused…it sends the same SOS signal to me.
i'll be
sitting at this cafe overlooking the lake underneath the bridge beside
the cherry tree across the field next to the farm house on top of the
hill shadowed by the alps. see u later.
w0rdddddddd
serioComic:i'll be sitting at this cafe overlooking the lake underneath the bridge beside the cherry tree across the field next to the farm house on top of the hill shadowed by the alps.
By the time you've finished saying that sentence, how will have the energy to go to the said meeting place?
lol serio can imagine such places! *shock, horror*
Yemenilicious:i really like the last one too
i'm just not good at letting my feelings out…and when they pile up, im all suffocated. sigh…
… I know that feeling hun. It sucks 😐 you need to let it out though, in which ever form you find best. I used to cry, but now I box. I find it much better in letting frustration out. I go crazy at the gym lol. I also write poetry when I need to let something out. Hmm.. boxing/poetry lmao how far apart are they? crajee. Letting it out always makes you feel better. I'm always here should you need anything jaan. I love you .
…I write poetry too <3
I love you 2
You do? wow! Would love to hear sometime if its okay with u hunz? xx
serioComic:yeah, again. i see a confused person underneath that pretty eyes.
oye hoye! I'm loving this! I knew I didn't introduce ninja to this forum for nothing!
serioComic:lost, confused…it sends the same SOS signal to me.
i'll be sitting at this cafe overlooking the lake underneath the bridge beside the cherry tree across the field next to the farm house on top of the hill shadowed by the alps. see u later.
And the moment a guy is concerned by a girl's sad eyes…he's in trouble
serioComic:lost, confused…it sends the same SOS signal to me.
i'll be sitting at this cafe overlooking the lake underneath the bridge beside the cherry tree across the field next to the farm house on top of the hill shadowed by the alps. see u later.
hmmmm now WHERE have I seen those lines before…?????????
yums me suggest u stay away from the clutches of Cosmic…Baaad news More haraaaaam than u will ever know
i am away, vot are ju talkin?
serio's words… the PRETTY eyes… the confused person……………………………. the CONCERN…………. the INVITE to meet him in a place far far away [lol]
all this….. trying to put t his all together…cud it be telling a story
Oh my darling yummin…….. tell me whats wrong na? Dont kill yourself over anything… sometimes its hard just to be your age..just coming to know about new things in life… just knowing that things existed that you thought were never there…; Dont let anyone pressure you… try to find some … comfort within YOUROWN SELF .. i n your own space
Oh so you write poetry !! Wowwwwwww me wanna seeeeeeeeeeee som.. and you tooooooooooo TABZZZ me wanna see yr poetry !!..
ooo gawd..never thought of boxing yr feelings out..but whew…its mad effectivEE!!!
*super hugs to you gals*
lmao… :S
I won't kill myself, ji. It's no biggy really. I just need time to clear my mind. I've been acting psycho lately…even ask Rani.
Poetry….yes thats what i need =)
*hugs*
From Rabindranath Tagore and his much celebrated Gitanjali…some of my favorite lines:
The Journey
The morning sea of silence broke into ripples of bird songs;
and the flowers were all merry by the roadside;
and the wealth of gold was scattered through the rift of the clouds
while we busily went on our way and paid no heed.
We sang no glad songs nor played;
we went not to the village for barter;
we spoke not a word nor smiled;
we lingered not on the way.
We quickened our pace more and more as the time sped by.
The sun rose to the mid sky and doves cooed in the shade.
Withered leaves danced and whirled in the hot air of noon.
The shepherd boy drowsed and dreamed in the shadow of the banyan tree,
and I laid myself down by the water
and stretched my tired limbs on the grass.
My companions laughed at me in scorn;
they held their heads high and hurried on;
they never looked back nor rested;
they vanished in the distant blue haze.
They crossed many meadows and hills,
and passed through strange, far-away countries.
All honor to you, heroic host of the interminable path!
Mockery and reproach pricked me to rise,
but found no response in me.
I gave myself up for lost
in the depth of a glad humiliation
-in the shadow of a dim delight.
The repose of the sun-embroidered green gloom
slowly spread over my heart.
I forgot for what I had traveled,
and I surrendered my mind without struggle
to the maze of shadows and songs.
At last, when I woke from my slumber and opened my eyes,
I saw thee standing by me, flooding my sleep with thy smile.
How I had feared that the path was long and wearisome,
and the struggle to reach thee was hard!
Talking of Tagore..
Where The Mind is Without Fear
Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high;
Where knowledge is free;
Where the world has not been broken up into fragments by narrow domestic walls;
Where words come out from the depth of truth;
Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection;
Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way
into the dreary desert sand of dead habit;
Where the mind is led forward by thee into ever-widening thought and action–
Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake.
boo:Talking of Tagore..
Where The Mind is Without Fear
Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high;
Where knowledge is free;
Where the world has not been broken up into fragments by narrow domestic walls;
Where words come out from the depth of truth;
Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection;
Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way
into the dreary desert sand of dead habit;
Where the mind is led forward by thee into ever-widening thought and action–
Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake.
wow, its beautiful…hmm I feel love after reading this..for my people ..weird
SenorJalapeno:The morning sea of silence broke into ripples of bird songs;
and the flowers were all merry by the roadside;
and the wealth of gold was scattered through the rift of the clouds –
while we busily went on our way and paid no heed.hmmmmm
The repose of the sun-embroidered green gloom
slowly spread over my heart. wwwwwoooooowwwwwwwwww lol…errrrrhmmmm like sunkissed dew on mah lipsI forgot for what I had traveled,
and I surrendered my mind without struggle
to the maze of shadows and songs.**more smiles**
At last, when I woke from my slumber and opened my eyes,
I saw thee standing by me, flooding my sleep with thy smile. like this one or dat one???How I had feared that the path was long and wearisome,
and the struggle to reach thee was hard!yup it feels sooo wearisome…and excuse meeee just tol ..dis is sooo hmmmmm significant to me at this moment
sooo Senor jeee its not fair jeee that u will only pm boo with yr poertreee skills jeeee and leave the rest of us
common folk wonderin if theres any talent in u jeeee
soooo i suggest u post em here jeee …u agree jeee or do u want Scarry to use forceful tactics jeee
I don't know how to describe how I feel right now. It's not sadness, yet its not jump for joy happiness. It's somewhere in between. So I think this will have to suffice:
AHkhfdk=dkfd jfkdfj hdfoejff=-f=adfpld ndndf;';f'apf[ sanfkacbad.c,a;# fkjabfJDJjvdn fmanfk DLJKNDFHKQEF JLANsmn dM DNMKDFNJwhf nkjs;DJ;.dhjsdbjbfduop”*1ue 3 erioeqkjfnfs dqjdfsm,.KHgp;[;alJHF EF =qannnSDDDDDOHJKdjl!
Phew! that felt better. I think I may be a headcase sometimes lmao.
*chokes tayba with a big fat Amreekan/desi/arab aunty style hug*
lol *hugz ninja back*
eww dont hug me.
psssht ur the one that started it! u know u lub me
LOL I do i do…
And they are here too.
who?
You and your sparring partner. Both of you need help, or erm a Aunty hug! Lmao.
Aunty hug? no thanks, we're good. help? maybe…but no
Well, I can give no Aunty Hug, but judging by my age, perhaps a Geriatric Hug? It's for free but if my false teeth fall off when I smile, you have to please help me pick them up. I can't see well and my back won't let me bend.
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhh aunty hugs – no
geriatric hugs- no
serious help- very strong maybe.
Yemenilicious:SERIOus help- very strong maybe.
u called??
no, i don't think so
theres no point in denying…just accept it like a warm embrace. u call, me come. together we'll figure out a way to cure yr mentalness.
and yet a 4th time
the day just gets better..oh joy
Unique_princess:I don't know how to describe how I feel right now. It's not sadness, yet its not jump for joy happiness. It's somewhere in between. So I think this will have to suffice:
AHkhfdk=dkfd jfkdfj hdfoejff=-f=adfpld ndndf;';f'apf[ sanfkacbad.c,a;# fkjabfJDJjvdn fmanfk DLJKNDFHKQEF JLANsmn dM DNMKDFNJwhf nkjs;DJ;.dhjsdbjbfduop”*1ue 3 erioeqkjfnfs dqjdfsm,.KHgp;[;alJHF EF =qannnSDDDDDOHJKdjl!
Phew! that felt better. I think I may be a headcase sometimes lmao.
LMAO… pardon me for saying this… but I read that as: SANta FKAC (f****ers) BAD.
NOW who's the headcase Tayba?
Boo seriously in what planet does your siggy work.
But i have to say its the cutest thing ever.
Marine:Boo seriously in what planet does your siggy work.
But i have to say its the cutest thing ever.
Ali come back to mother earth. That only works in the bolly movies
Marine:Boo seriously in what planet does your siggy work.
But i have to say its the cutest thing ever.
Huh? What do you mean, in what planet does my siggy work? Jeez I'm apparently known as mystery woman not alien woman! (That's Yemeni in Mars, what say? )
lol
well what i mean is for a man to tell a women that for me your perfect that hapenes but for a second then he forgets what he had said lol
I mean there is no perfect life hehehehe all though i shouldn't say got i got very clouse one hehhhehe
Ahhh… I get you now, Marine… hehe! I have a secret daydream that, one day, someone (anyone… don't know who!) I love will do that for me… should I start dropping hints to all my guy friends now, do you think?
feelingg reallll sick…ewwwww
I am feeling extremely annoyed. There is a firework inside me just roaring to explode in the form of dance, as Khaike Paan Banarswala from the new Don is pulsing through my various blood vessels… and all I can do right now is sit still and tap my foot.
AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
LOVE FOR DANCE IS A CURSE I TELL YOU… A CURSE A CURSE A CURSE… SIGH!
boo:I am feeling extremely annoyed. There is a firework inside me just roaring to explode in the form of dance, as Khaike Paan Banarswala from the new Don is pulsing through my various blood vessels… and all I can do right now is sit still and tap my foot.
AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
LOVE FOR DANCE IS A CURSE I TELL YOU… A CURSE A CURSE A CURSE… SIGH!
chilllllllllll, sweets
Wahaha! Another K3G thing… sigh! Where is Khushi when you need her?
Yemeni… tell me, have you seen a Bollywood movie yet?
Love for dance is a curse? I have a bigger problem. I'm afraid if I dare dance, I will be cursed. So, rather love dance and curse oneself for being unable to dance, rather than love dance, be unable to dance and be cursed for dancing.
Ps: Please try not to tap too fast and too often. People might think you are a tailor.
thanks to Rani…NO!
maybe saturday, we'll sit and watch a movie together.
& I also miss Khushi's presence…much.
SenorJalapeno:Love for dance is a curse? I have a bigger problem. I'm afraid if I dare dance, I will be cursed. So, rather love dance and curse oneself for being unable to dance, rather than love dance, be unable to dance and be cursed for dancing.
Ps: Please try not to tap too fast and too often. People might think you are a tailor.
*Anjali in K3G-like giggle… praying Khushi won't kill me…*
Wah… tussi bade mazaki ho, bade mazaki ho…
… aur cute bhi ho!
(See? See what happens to me when I start listening to upbeat songs?! Sigh!)
Siggggggghhhhhhhhhhh
I love love love k3g
Must remember to watch it again
Me is feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling
Michael Bubbles
Listening to QUANDO, QUANDO, QUANDO
SenorJalapeno:Love for dance is a curse? I have a bigger problem. I'm afraid if I dare dance, I will be cursed. So, rather love dance and curse oneself for being unable to dance, rather than love dance, be unable to dance and be cursed for dancing.
Ps: Please try not to tap too fast and too often. People might think you are a tailor.
Huh?
Scar face:Siggggggghhhhhhhhhhh
I love love love k3g
Must remember to watch it again
Me is feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling
Michael Bubbles
Listening to QUANDO, QUANDO, QUANDO
Which reminds me of the other day when I was stretching and wanted something to keep my company. So, I popped the k3g dvd in my computer, shared some of the funny moments and stretched away. I just watched the beginning part. I remember when I first watched this movie, loved it soo much.
Who is Michael Bubbles? .. Bubbles? How .. sudsable.
I have to leave to go clean up the rooms now – And for some reason, BWL never allows me to log out; I have to ask Mukesh about that.
Love you di
kavita_0026:SenorJalapeno:Love for dance is a curse? I have a bigger problem. I'm afraid if I dare dance, I will be cursed. So, rather love dance and curse oneself for being unable to dance, rather than love dance, be unable to dance and be cursed for dancing.
Ps: Please try not to tap too fast and too often. People might think you are a tailor.
Huh?
i was thinking
hmmmm every skill …can be taught sooo ur prepared for dancing lessons Pepper ??
or u wanna sit in dat corner an sulk away ????
kavs, booo, u guys wanna help, am sure I cud use the assistance
wished Kushi was here, she cud be the tutor hahahahaaa, I meant dance teacher
YAWN then AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
then another, YAWN!
I cracked the Quarter Century mark with Coffees today! Haven't had that many coffees in a long time. No wonder…its 2.28am and I cannot sleep Lol.
why?? wats up?? sums worrying u?? can I borrow the bed pls…need to sleep now
Careful, you may break the sound barrier! kidding
You may share if you wish or just jump in (it's like jumping rope). Feel better.
Ness:Careful, you may break the sound barrier! kidding
You may share if you wish or just jump in (it's like jumping rope). Feel better.
yup MUST be my eyes playing tricks
u didnt just saaaayy…ROFLMAO
aaannnd u call Mara and I perverted ???? lmao
I bet u my last cent Senor is blushing from head to toe hahahahahaha
the cheek Ness lmao
sheeeeshhh cant lmao…ooopz
**deep breathes** okaaaayyyyyy
*absolutely confused*
What did I say????
I apologize from the bottom of my heart Senor ji if I said anything untoward!
And I never called you perverted…but Mari….YES!!!
Erm, I did not get it either. As for blushing, you wish! I don't blush. I am brown dang it. Blushing is for pale people, like a friend of mine, who scarred my retinas when she wore shorts. Alie, Lol, you have a jaundiced imagination. Since when has green been your favorite color huh? Oh, Nessa ji, no apologies necessary.
so it was my mind/eyes
Jeez wat the heck was I thinking okies forget it hahaha
am still in a weirded mood
I shud be apologising but naaaah wont..
as for blushing…nope I dnt wish…why shud I wish for u to blush ??? **confuscious luk on face **
I have a beautiful imagination that has a lil naughtiness to it…no jaundice attach, very healthy indeed actually
well Greens been my fav color since ages..U psychic??? howd u guess ??
He could be psychic – be aware.
Di… you must be OVER exhausted or feeling really sick to ask him to borrow his bed aye. BTW, who's up for dancing? I can't dance [ha] but it'll be fun to watch you guys attempt to make history.
And by the way, Mr. hot pepper … how much coffee did you drink so? Take it light, I hope you and my sweet little yummin know coffee isnt that very good for your body .. at least.. not alot alot
xhausted
am missing my babies
wish I were back home
woke up and they were in my thoughts
***ssssssssiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh***
am also feeling hungry…:-)
oh and did I say xhausted….
I feel content, Alhamdulillah
Masha'Allah *hug*
I feel tired and in pain lol.
*hugs tayba* I hope you got some rest
***hugzz*** Tayba
Get well luw, ur in my duas nah
Me feels:
A fire storm raging in the midst of my throat and chest
Scarry…still sick?
awwwww
feel better!
Sick as hell yaar
Nothing is helping
Even poisoned meself with ginger and milk
Wasted weekend in bed I tellye
Sick as hell yaar
Nothing is helping
Even poisoned meself with ginger and milk
Wasted weekend in bed I tellye
aw, your chest hurts? are you having trouble breathing?
hmmmm mummy
I feel awful
nw I knw how them Wheezing patients feel
ok here's what i did..
i boiled some water…and i put it in a bowl and then i put a towl over my head and breathed the steam…my chest feels a lot better Alhamdulillah
im sorry, I hope you feel better soon, take care of yourself..
Ninja, that is what I do too, only that I add Vicks Vaporub (Have no idea whether its available in places other than India) before I breathe in the steam. Smells funny, and gets your face all oily and stuff but does make breathing easier.
Alie, Im sorry you are sick and that too on a weekend. Hope you get well soon.
Vicks vapor rub, is an international acclaimed healer Have a tub at home..it doesn’t smell funny ..and yup tried the steaming, not working…But thanks for the advice & concern
its my duty scarry
well, you're in my duas…feel better ji
Back @ ye luw…tnx Feeeling homesick though 17 days left …then am going Hooooooooooooooooomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Aww alie ..sorry to hear nothing is helping The flu is still roosting in yr throat and…. nesting in yr lungs sigh.. i nkow with the cold there…. noses must be clogged up..chests.feel heavy…breathing hard…some nosebleed… throat feels like flue roosting in it !
Listen here : TAKE REST.. dont say that you wasted yr week end in bed – YOU NEED IT , YOU ARE NOT WELL
DRINK JUICES TO INCREASE YR VITAMIN C INTAKE = orange juice is best
Deary you didnt poison yr self with milk and ginger… its GOOD FOR YR THROAT = my mom use to give tht to me and my siblings when we were younger..it helps clear yr throat
Told you…gargle with warm water + squeeze of lemon = helps your throat out REALLY WELL
Use vicks..on yr chest its good… haven't heard of breathing steam/with vicks.but that sounds good…if it doesnt work..just rub the vicks on yr chest/neck
If you have any good flu medicine to help take away any headache or stuffy nose and all that..that should be good too
Remember lots of WATER, LOTS OF REST you hear? Love you now take care of yourself and take this time to dissolve yrself into yr resting state
Yummin darling, how are you? How is the prob with yr chest..and the high temperature?? I really hope you feel better. Im glad to hear that the steam helped yr breathign and chest. You really have to relax and take rest , dont stress yourself out too much.
And I had suggested you take a little break from your mutual twin..THE COFFEE ..for a while.just so you can rest!!! Remember our bodies need sleep darling
Now I dont nkow what you're thinking of there…but it'll be alright you dont worry about too many things. The good thing about worrying is understanding that you have feelings and you're not stone cold… but the bad thing ofcourse is that sometimes worrying makes us really sad and uncomfortable … but hang in there; I nkow you have to study alot b/c of yr summer classes..study like you always did..you are a smart, intelligetn girl..and i've seen something in you that…alot of people dont have to yr extent : determination !
Take care , love you ,m wah
you're too sweet kavita…just too sweet.
thank you
EXCUSE ME WHEN I HAVE ANYTHING thats not perverted lol
lol..errr now
heheheh Ali thats funny actually i was thinking of something perverted when i posted this lol
J/K ppl
I feel like taking a walk…just keep walking…and see where I'll stop..I need room to breathe, room to think, room to just be alone…a walk in the middle of the night is all i need…sighhhh
aw thats sounds nice to bad i live in a bad neighborhood or eles i would go for a walk.
SOmone was just yelling at his wife saying i'm gonna kill you and you know i will get away with it no judge can convict me lol
Well marine u and ur neighbours….hahahaha
i konw a lot about them….. dont i???
how is the oldy……? still playing baseball…hahaha
how did i know you were gonna ask me about her.
i guess she is since she isn't hom ehehehehe maybe they are playing in the other field
Good ridden…. you are not around… hahaha
stop making me laff guys…mah chest cant take the pressure…
Jeeez….
Yumz: its all dat hugging I tell u…now u need space, and I thot mars had enuf room as is..eish…
Mara & Baqz: Keep yr pvt affaris pvt okaaaaay
my feelings:
none actually….am too numb..like literally to feel much or express myself coz everytime I say sums, aaargh sum1 thinks my words revolves around them..wat happened to freedom of expression??
Heyaz………. aw diii..cover up and snuggle in bed…and sleeeeeep
who's bothering you now with this thought…… who do we have to jump kick
Yumz: its all dat hugging I tell u…now u need space, and I thot mars had enuf room as is..eish…
Mara & Baqz: Keep yr pvt affaris pvt okaaaaay
lol…yeah
and Marine and Baqzloser…i second what Scarz said
for your ifo people, we don't have anything private. and plus if we did its not anyones business,since ppl started keeping their talk private i have seen a lot of ppl discuss manything so if its bothering anyone, but we didn't say anything for you to be bisturbed about, the last time i heard this was a public forum if you don't like it you aint gotta read it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha, this topic makes me laugh right now
me to hun
im feeling a lot better…
and I miss tayba…niggeritaaaa where are you???
i got your mssg
for your ifo people, we don't have anything private. and plus if we did its not anyones business,since ppl started keeping their talk private i have seen a lot of ppl discuss manything so if its bothering anyone, but we didn't say anything for you to be bisturbed about, the last time i heard this was a public forum if you don't like it you aint gotta read it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay I will simply close my eyes and breeeze thru…
Why do people bring others down?
I'm just too weary…..
Sounds as if it was a joke 'gone wrong', if you will. As yemizzle would say, “Chillllllllll!”
My feelings?
It is the first beautiful day since a 4 day 90+ degree heatwave followed by 3 extreme downpours with flash floods!
The sky is clear & blue. The trees are swaying in the breeze. Close your eyes and feel it on your face!
Feels good, na?
I'm just too weary…..
i'll tell you why…it's because they're gay and have nothing better to do. And sometimes, it's their way of feeling better. people waste too much time bringing people down rather than improving their screwed up selves…
sorry to hear Nosyira…feel better just chill yaar
..feel better just chill yaar
Yeah…I'm psycho…oops, I mean psychic! lmbo
LMBO!!! psycho it is
woah…that was freaky tho…
How did I know you'd chose that word!!! lmho!!
Not really freaky, it's what you always say!
LOL!!
hahaha…
my mood: serene.
am glad
*taking bow* why thank you!
and ur mood? murderous??? lmbo
yeah u can say so…
no kidding . i'm very very hyper
Is that a natural state or the coffee? lol
no, no coffee.
natural state
u're hyper naturally??? Then you add coffee to that???
man oh man oh man!!!! hahahahaha!
ooooh mannnnnnnnnn. lmbo =D
It rained for an hour! It was afternoon but the skies were a beautiful shade of charcoal-gray, reminding me of the impeccable suits of the Late Francois Mitterrand who was the Gary Cooper of European Presidents. I was sitting outside a cafe, chewing on an Oatmeal cookie, paying particular attention to the succulent raisins, when the heavens opened up. After the initial aqueous overture, the strong wind brought the rain in a fortuitous fusillade of fine mist caressing everything within its reach. While I was yet deliberating whether or not to get wet, since I was wearing my new loafers, it abruptly stopped raining.
I love the world just after the rain! The aroma of soaked earth, the damp peanut grass with its fragile pale yellow blossoms bowed as if in humble gratitude, the resonant amphibian chorus from across the freshly bathed palms, the huge boulders beside the beaten-path that look like badly squished Gulab Jamun served on a mutilated Banana leaf, and the mishmash of umbrellas.
Presently, the cafe was besieged by the pitter-patter of rushing feet that had resumed their rummage for cheap buys and the muffled soliloquy of the solitary janitor, mopping up the watery remains off the floor with a long mop and a longer face. I am convinced that each of the creases on his forehead has a pathos my imagination is ineligible to fathom.
I drank the last bit of coffee, gazed into the bottom of the cup, as I pondered if I should have played in the rain as always. I stood up and stepped out of the portico. A single drop of water quietly slid off the awning and exploded on my cheek. Rare is the moment when something so small holds so much in its embrace.
Yummin..no coffee? In natural state? *gasps*
Senor J … wow, rainy day does seem to satisfy your sense
One q – are you an english teacher/ english major/ english professor / something else ?
i knowwwwwwww i can't believe it either
Kavita ji, I neither teach nor erm profess english, but yes, I was once an English major in University, many many moons ago. I enjoy writing but keep my musings private. I journal extensively…fill up several volumes each year Lol. I comprehensively catalog my life. Helps me determine if I am becoming a better person than I was, or worse.
Yemini ji, what can't you believe?
you should share some of your writings with us Senor ji
You honor me just by asking. Thank you. But, all in good time. All in good time.
senorJ…if u have the ability to write like a true writer,
then u shud give it a try by writing a book. u might become the next
j.k.rowling…u never know!! but please dont write anything on
bollywood. ppl wont buy the book!! 😀
Serio ji, on a good day even if it were just in my imagination, I would woefully fall short of J. K. Rowling and her amazing Harry Potter Series. I have never read any of her books and watched just one or two of the movies but, its not that difficult to see she is gifted. However, should I ever decide to write a book, I will steer clear of Bollywood. Thank you.
I'm just too weary…..
am feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling elated…
happppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
over the moooooooooon or it shud be the sun coz its bright and glorious…no moon for a few hours
am in lurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
lifes greeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttttttttttttt
the fluey still sux but allllllllllllllllllll else is beeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaauuuuuuuutttttiiiiiiifffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuulllllllllllllllllllllllll
wish u all were here soaking in sum south african sun…luwely
scarry-
I'm pissed off
I'm pissed off
lemme @ em Yumz…will kick a$$ scarry style hahahaha
feel better yaar
ok you'll have a lot of beating up to do scarry
i'll have fun watching!
How are the tickets priced? I would like to buy a seat and watch.
Kavita ji, I neither teach nor erm profess english, but yes, I was once an English major in University, many many moons ago. I enjoy writing but keep my musings private. I journal extensively…fill up several volumes each year Lol. I comprehensively catalog my life. Helps me determine if I am becoming a better person than I was, or worse.
I knew it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ali, who are you beating up?
Psssssssssssssssssssssssst ! Ticket please ! I'll grab a seat right next to SEnor J.
btw, didi you sound soo happy yay! glad to flu is dying offf
My family and I are gong to the movies now
Talk to you guys later, loveeeee you all
Allah (SWT) knows best and He plans perfectly.
May He accept our duas. Ameen. Thumma Ameen.
Thumma Thumma Ameen!!
Allah Ta'ala is indeed the best of Planners, and everything really does happen for a reason. I love how you're strong jaan Masha'Allah. You know, im always here, ok?
*huggles*
*hugs Ninja baq* May Allah reward you well, I know you're always here.
I'm okay, really.
I'm glad May Allah reward you all good as well yaaro.
My feelings: I AM SO FREAKING HYPER, EXCITED AND PISSED ALL AT THE SAME TIME…
GRRR I DON'T LIKE THIS ALSKJAS:ASladjsadsajdsdsajalk;djs;ldsjdas;ldsdsdas;ldjsa
Geesh yummeni .. take it light darling.
Control thyself in such times.
Relax. Breathe in and out. Do you feel it? Do you FEEL THE POWER?
Kavita ji, I don't know if asking her if she feels the power right now is such a good idea…earlier (in another post) she mentioned twitching, and I saw her discussing hammers and roti-rollers…Lol!
O-oh, I guess power talking right now should be out of the picture!
*Hides and takes back my powered question*
Geesh yummeni .. take it light darling.
Control thyself in such times.
Relax. Breathe in and out. Do you feel it? Do you FEEL THE POWER?
*breathesss*
Oh geesh, breathless was what we were supposed to be avoiding.
Lets try again : breathe in real hard
Hold it
Hold it !
Let it out slowly. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Now that feels good.
ok you'll have a lot of beating up to do scarry
i'll have fun watching!
Errrrr Okies Yumz, but do give me sum details on the recipients nah…me isnt built for fist fights hahahaha
but am told I have a killer luk…lmao…reminds me of em days when I used to accompany my lil sis to her modelling
classes and fashion shows…
tickets are priceless – so u wanna watch u have to sell a limb or arm, or watever u cherish the most…will make a deal with u guys..*winks*
Kavz, ask Yumz, sum1s buggin her sooo me jus volunteered to beat em up for her…no one messes with mah lil sista's r8..
n wat movie did u guys watch???
this breathing u guys are talking about??? so wat is it, like yoga lessons or sums???lol tell me more…wats going on here….
ok scarry, im over it, let's not hurt anyone….
I feeeeeeeeeeel grrrrrrrrreaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!
Lol…thank god for dat…am in mah best dress today hahahaa
dont wanna mess up
oh and glad to hear ur feeling grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr8888888888888
about time
and how are you feeling madam?
Am feeling…erhmmmm mixed emotions .usual..
Hahaha..woke up thinking …todays my last day on the forum J
L J …thanks for the mail luw **hugz**
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
yessssssssssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhh
am missin Shakzee, amzee, boo and Kushi…hope they log in today
and am hoping I get all my dedications or final words b4 the day ends…
but it feels r8 hun…luw ths place but luw my mind more 🙂
sighhh, okay yaar…okie, as you wish
will keep in touch insha'Allah.
u betta 🙂
besides me is still trying to draw with mah right hand on facebook and I miss yr lil graffitttttiiiii
hahahahahaha =D
i will i will
I hate it! I hate it soooooooooooooooo much when people act like they have nothing better to do besides letting others down! it pisses me off SO FREAKING MUCH! It's like get a damn life! Some people act like they're the best people in the whole wide world and have the right to go and say things to others and make them feel like they're worth nothing but crap. I was talking to Rani on the phone, and I was hella pissed. I've never been this angry in such a long time actually. I get frustrated easily, but i've learned how to control my anger. However, today…this person just got to me. And thankfully, I controlled myself while they were talking to me, I know it wouldn't have been right if i said something, cos it would have been rude and nasty. I know no one's perfect, this person's not perfect, neither am I, but when 'they' sit there talking crap about people who concern me, it makes me go errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! It's the truth, yes, the truth hurts, but we need to learn some damn manners, right? Calling someone up just to be nasty and say stuff that you know will bother them is not cool, not cool at all! Especially since it was so random, I haven't spoken to this person in quite a while. i didn't really care at first, but it was obvious they were rubbing it in…BLAH. people seriously need to grow up! I think before you go and find the faults in other people/races, you should look in the mirror, because you make mistakes too! And Simply, treat others like you wanna be treated.
haha, that was long. lol. phew its outta me.
Eish love, this person is back irritating my lil one??? Same person??? Hmmph
I thought I wud chillax on this warm Sunday but luks like the fight clubs open..
Let me at em jaaaaan…promise to leave scars…J
Must go back home and get my fighting gear in order now..eishJ
Sweety, **hugz** in this life, in this world there are the good, bad, ugly, evil…
Its difficult to hold yourself or your own when one is condemning and obviously enjoying bringing another down with their attitude and evil words, but inshallah u remain strong and try not to let this person see the effect he/she had on u..
Hmm okay, u are obviously pissed off by whatever transpired, regardless look for the good within the other person and think of the situation with love..
No use filling your life, thoughts, feelings with negative energy because another human is guilty of being clueless, inhuman, rude, nasty, right..
not everyone is open-minded enough or willingly respect another individual, another race, another religion, etc..theres many folk out here who don’t think before preaching. Am not sure yet what would be the best method to handle such people…erhhmmmmm counting to a zillion in the hope that yr anger subsides hahaha..or simply making a conscious decision not to show u are being affected by their behavior?? ..
anyways hun, glad u got it out, hope ur feeling better NOW??, and dat u haven’t let this dampen your spirits FURTHER than it already had?? Don’t, its like letting evil in…sorta haha
My response most probably bares nothing in relation to whatever the situation entailed..its just wat I feel from reading what u had written..
Take it easy nah…**more hugz**
All else fails, call scarry, will kick a$$ on yr behalf …
And Simply, treat others like you wanna be treated. <font
Finally I am back in the forum. I am so freaking mad now.
Alisha… that girl calls him her BEST FRIEND. What on earth – who is she to possess him as such AND post pictures calling him her best friend.
And you know what, if he talks to me alisha, he calls me that girl's name so many times. Im so mad now I sent him a stupid message and you know what I am not going to call him back ever again and he said he wont call me back ever again either. Well fine! He said I only tell him about this whole story because I want to FIGHT with him. And I DONT. Why would I want to fight.
You know alisha, i swore to myself that i would NEVER make him hurt me again and i will never destroy my body and bleed and cry just because he has dealings with other people but i dont know what happened to me
u listen to me young lady…
and listen good
DONT U DARE.. do anything stupid like dat u hear me…Kavita????
it just pisses me off having to see u like this and then u say sumthing like that..
why??? why do u want to torture yourself because of HIM…why???
u think its healthy?? its right??? it isnt… and the only person who is going to feel more pain is U..sooo get that DAMN thought outa yr head or else u will find me at your doorstep …slapping sum sense into u…then holding u in my arms…pls stop this talk kavs, it worries me all the more having u hear u think this way…dont go there, ur stronger and u know it….***hugz**
hun, they may be best friends, its not impossible for a man and woman to be extremely close really good friends and loving each other the same…
i cant think of why he will call u by her name, thats freaky Yes…talk to him about how much it upsets u okay….dont scream…
go yell in the loooo or crie it out..just dont let it shadow logic when u are talking to him
I told u jealousy is healthy to an extent…
aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
am sorry am not there hun, wish I bludy wish I was there right now…..
am not sure what pictures u referring to sweety…need more info here
off coz u two will be back together, ur soo freaking crazily in love its makes u go all loonely like this …lol
sorry…just give yrself the space then….leave it for now…its okay to be upset and angry but what is the actual reason????????????
u cant possibly be upset bcoz he has a best friend and she happens to be a she right??
u need to develop trust in yr relationship luw…
anyways am about to leave work now….gosammz is leaving for Durban and I need to be home and then see her off…miscall me if u want to talk….
am here always….always….
friggin distance shyte irritatesme in times like these
just know that it isnt the end of anything and WARNING…dont u DARE do anything silly…
i wanna see u promise me this b4 i log off tonite?????
love u hun
***warm hugz***
didi
I was actually typing that msg and I didnt get to complete the last few sentences b/c of some prblem here. I will email you a few lines on what I was gonna say.
me love you thank you for listening sighhhhh
and NO i havent hurt myself – i told you i will not let him hurt me i will not alisha i will not i cant alisha i cant else i will be totally destroyed and i cant let it happen
I hate it! I hate it soooooooooooooooo much when people act like they have nothing better to do besides letting others down! it pisses me off SO FREAKING MUCH! It's like get a damn life! Some people act like they're the best people in the whole wide world and have the right to go and say things to others and make them feel like they're worth nothing but crap. I was talking to Rani on the phone, and I was hella pissed. I've never been this angry in such a long time actually. I get frustrated easily, but i've learned how to control my anger. However, today…this person just got to me. And thankfully, I controlled myself while they were talking to me, I know it wouldn't have been right if i said something, cos it would have been rude and nasty. I know no one's perfect, this person's not perfect, neither am I, but when 'they' sit there talking crap about people who concern me, it makes me go errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! It's the truth, yes, the truth hurts, but we need to learn some damn manners, right? Calling someone up just to be nasty and say stuff that you know will bother them is not cool, not cool at all! Especially since it was so random, I haven't spoken to this person in quite a while. i didn't really care at first, but it was obvious they were rubbing it in…BLAH. people seriously need to grow up! I think before you go and find the faults in other people/races, you should look in the mirror, because you make mistakes too! And Simply, treat others like you wanna be treated.
haha, that was long. lol. phew its outta me.
Awwwww hun *big hug* see, some people are just EEEJIOTS. I don't get how people think it is okay to belittle other people just because they are different from others. What gives them that right?! And if they do have a problem with it, like you said, they need to have manners and not be so rude. I am glad you controlled yourself whilst speaking to them hun, May Allah reward you for that. I think that person needs to learn that no one is better than anyone else. We were all made from the same clay and we will all end up in the same way. No one is superior or inferior to anyone else. Don't worry jaan, I think these type of people are just here so that our patience can be tested. ILY
Finally I am back in the forum. I am so freaking mad now.
Alisha… that girl calls him her BEST FRIEND. What on earth – who is she to possess him as such AND post pictures calling him her best friend.
And you know what, if he talks to me alisha, he calls me that girl's name so many times. Im so mad now I sent him a stupid message and you know what I am not going to call him back ever again and he said he wont call me back ever again either. Well fine! He said I only tell him about this whole story because I want to FIGHT with him. And I DONT. Why would I want to fight.
You know alisha, i swore to myself that i would NEVER make him hurt me again and i will never destroy my body and bleed and cry just because he has dealings with other people but i dont know what happened to me
Kavz, I know you have written this to Alie but may I offer some advice?
I know I don't know what is going on in this situation, but sweetheart please remember, never shed tears for someone who doesn't appreciate your worth. You're a gem. Don't harm or hurt yourself because of what he is doing to you. Think about how much you trust him, never mind the girl. If your instincts tell you that he is trustworthy then you have nothing to worry about. However, if he is constantly planting suspicion in you and you feel that he is not trustworthy, then don't let him cause you further hurt. And don't ever change the way you are to fit how someone wants you to be. You are a lovely, sweet and funny girl and you deserve the best. Always remember that. There is a saying that goes 'No guy is worth your tears, and the one that is won't make you cry'. However, I don't agree with that. Everyone will make you cry at some point in your life, it is upto you however to decide who is worth your tears and who is not… Feel better soon hunny *hug*
p.s – was jus speakin to Alie and she said she's v.worried abt you n is still thinking of you and passes you her hugs!
*hugs loserina back* Everything you said, is so right! thanks yaar. but like it pisses me off, even if it's someone i don't know and this person comes and says something rude to them in front of me. it just something that ticks me off you know? I can't stand it! it's all good. Allah knows best. I just wish people woul focus on pointing out the good in others, rather than sitting there thinking of new bad things to look for in a person.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! *throws pencil on floor*
aww foberina. I think this person needs to sit down and realise how they sound. Maybe someone should tell them what they are doing. Many times people say things without realising how they sound. Sometimes things they think should actually be kept as thoughts. The idiots just don't realise that. Some people just can't point out the good in others, because they don't have enough good in themselves to recognise what is good. I hope that made sense! Like you said, Allah knows best. Feel better soon Jaan. You want more pencils to throw? Pens? Homie I'd buy you a whole stationary shop if it'd make you feel better! .
You are the sweetest Loserina everrrrrrrrrrr!
lol. ILY miss Nazir Zaik =D
you know what?!?!?!?! you know what?!?!?!
*sigh* ily2. lol
Ninja, here's your pencil that you threw on the floor earlier. I sharpened it for you. Now, please write me a poem
hahahaha, write you a poem? =P
Yes, write me a poem. No wonder erm your friends think you are slow. Okay now, no twitching. Am I glad I am not anywhere within walking distance of you right now, Lmao. (Sheesh, woman, you make me laugh and look stupid, and its always when I am in public).
how dare you?! and why would i write you a poem…when you're SO rude…or even otherwise
oooohhhmmyyyvordddd *fobby accent*
You should write me a poem because because because I uh ah handed you your pencil. One good pencil deserves another poem…or something like it. Oh, meant to ask…vich vord? Vear did it go? Vot haffund?
0o0o0o =P you're vun funny man!
Vun? Oh please! Don't insult the voices in my head.
OkaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayAm pissed off..Dats one…Am missssssssssssssiiiiiiiiiiiinggggggggggggggggggg home..2 I WANNNNNNA BEEEEEE HOME I am hating being here in my skin at this moment Just received a call from mah fwend in durbs Me: M..gday..can I …bla bla bla……………..She: Jeez woman u sound like ur about to cry..wasssupMe: erhmmmm …in an exaggerated cheerful voice…m..day..bla blaBtw who is dis??She: its denise, wats up?? U k chicky…just thought of u …bla bla bla blaMe: Ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhh NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOI MISSSSSSSSSSSSSS U GUYS…I WANNNA KUM HOME D….***cries****She: okaaaay dats it…am gonna have a word with T..bla bla bla…Me: **between sobs** no man, why da heck did u call NOW off all the times… Damn JNBIMP has officially make me bonkers I need the calm of the ocean…NOW<fo
Can't wait to watch The Bourne Ultimatum!!!!!!!!!
OK TO BRIGHTEN UP THE TREAT A LITTLE here is goes
well 1st and forth most. NESSA what is with you the menly movies hehehehehehehe try watching some dance movies or love story hehehehehehehehe
Why is everyone is so much tense people who brought you to this work your parents so they have the only to irritate you so please don't waist your energy on anyone else.
The one thing i learned these couple of day is that life is to short and to precious to waits it caring about dumb thing like men or women that irritate us.
SO LADIES AND GENTLEMEN HAVE FUN LEAVE LIFE AND HAVE FUN HAVE FUN HAVE FUN
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ughhhhhhh how do u stop someone from doing something they shouldn't be doing but they are too blind to see it and only you can see it because your mind and eyes havnt been blind folded?!?!?
you can shoot them, cut them to pieces, throw them off a cliff,
poison them, tie them up a tree, bury them, smack them on their head,
hide them in yr closet, poke their eyes out, speak german to them in
the hope that it will finally register in their head and if everything
else fails, put them in an asylum!!
The only option I actually wouldn't mind doing in that list of torture is keeping them in my closet lol. Well what if they are a good friend who you want, you know, ALIVE! jeez!
Tabz if its real then i will tell you one thing. If you guys are really truly good friend then you will be able to tell each other what you are thinking. Me and my best friend we tell each other everything. If one doesn't want to do something then we tell each other and there can't be any hard feelings. You know what i mean.
I mean there has been lot of time times that she asked me to do or i asked her to do we didn't want to do it and we didn't want to say no. So we ended up swearing that this will never happened.
Cause best friends should be able to be honest with each other. You should be able to Tell her no without wondering if you hurt her feelings or will she still keep talking to you after you said no.
Thats why we can choose our best friends cause then we know if we need to say no there won't be any hard feeling if we say yes we will honor our yes.
I hope you understand what I'm getting at.
But if your thinking of doing it but you really don't want do it but tell her that you are only doing out of the sake for your friendship. And you do need to pt your feelings out on the table so its not a one way friendship i had that with a 10 year friend and i never said no but she took advantage of it so now i barely talk to her.
yes Marine, but sometimes, the person is blinded…as tayba said.
Tayba- I think you shud just keep reminding her, because i understand she just doesn't see where it's all going. Sometimes, no matter what you do, it won't go through to them…*hugs* I'll keep your friend in my duas Insha'Allah. I hope she realises before she gets too hurt
AMEEN!
I know yems that what i was saying maby i put it wrong
For 2 years i was blind abount something and somebody but my best friends opened my eye it took time but she did and thats what Tabz needs to do is be paitent
agreed
Also Princess, don't regret the outcome, no matter what that outcome may be. Remember that you did what you should have as a friend.
I had a friend who continued to ask for something that did not belong to them. When it was finally given to them, not only did it harm them, but I was 'implicated' for giving what they begged for! Needless to say it got 'ugly' for a while!
You are a sensitive soul and I'm sure you are feeling this situation deeply. Continue being a good friend and you will have nothing to regret or be ashamed of in the end of the matter.
Just my two cents!
Dammit I miss Boo ma!
'I need a long-brief moment,' he breathlessly gasped to a rowdy audience of rampant thoughts and ravaged emotions and sat on an old wooden bench still damp from the previous night's downpour. Across the narrow leaf-strewn path, lined in moss-adorned brick, was an antique lamp-post that had seen better nights, and his eyes wandered to the concrete base that had become a condominium of sorts for the odd insect. Against the fading back-drop of a 'No Littering' sign were plastic bags filled with assorted souvenirs of human recalcitrance for rule and regimen. At the top of that fuming fustian fullness was a crumpled McDonald's bag which made the 'M' look like a 3- perhaps hastily offered up for Pandora's peruse.
Silhouetted by the amber glow of the sinking Sun, was a large bottle-green fly, rubbing its feet in grotesque glee, as it sipped silently from the sugary residue of an open soda cup. It was a rare moment and there he sat surrounded by strange beauty and seasoned ugliness. He rubbed his knees, still sore from the long run, and felt tiny beads of sweat run down the back of his legs and soak into his socks- like scores of infinitesimal tributaries seeking the solace of a river but sadly finding a parched cotton desert. He chuckled to see that his shoes were covered in tiny slivers of grass much like hair on clothes after thirty minutes in a barber's chair.
Not so far away, a large old woman sat anxiously on a wooden crate, selling freshly boiled corn and peanuts with a booming voice and a beckoning look. There were hawkers selling barbecued banana, grilled chicken liver and gizzard, steaming siopao, ice-cold beverages, and fruit and bare-foot children selling awkwardly strung sampaguita garlands. As his eyes began to inventory everything around him, he noticed the syncopated cadence in the providentially conducted inadvertent music, accompanied by a mélange of mechanical noises, blaring horns and screeching tires. He smiled. Strangely, the chaos that surrounded him brought a quiet order to heart and mind.
From the corner of his eyes he saw a sudden burst of orange and turned to see that the Sun had escaped the frayed hem of a low-dwelling cloud that yet hung over the slender painted smoke-stacks of the power-station, and was perfectly placed…it looked the bald-warrior with a sun-burnt head genuflecting at the henna-stained feet of his queen.
In a few scattered moments life taught him more than he had learnt elsewhere, past cobbled corridors, steep stairways, stuffy lecture-halls and sanctimonious wise-men. The ache in his knees mysteriously vanished now replaced by the gentle warmth of the glowing content in his soul.
well 1st and forth most. NESSA what is with you the menly movies hehehehehehehe try watching some dance movies or love story hehehehehehehehe
Sorry, but this summer is all about action! No sappy luuurve stories or corny dance films for me thanks!
Finally I am back in the forum. I am so freaking mad now.
Alisha… that girl calls him her BEST FRIEND. What on earth – who is she to possess him as such AND post pictures calling him her best friend.
And you know what, if he talks to me alisha, he calls me that girl's name so many times. Im so mad now I sent him a stupid message and you know what I am not going to call him back ever again and he said he wont call me back ever again either. Well fine! He said I only tell him about this whole story because I want to FIGHT with him. And I DONT. Why would I want to fight.
You know alisha, i swore to myself that i would NEVER make him hurt me again and i will never destroy my body and bleed and cry just because he has dealings with other people but i dont know what happened to me
Kavz, I know you have written this to Alie but may I offer some advice?
I know I don't know what is going on in this situation, but sweetheart please remember, never shed tears for someone who doesn't appreciate your worth. You're a gem. Don't harm or hurt yourself because of what he is doing to you. Think about how much you trust him, never mind the girl. If your instincts tell you that he is trustworthy then you have nothing to worry about. However, if he is constantly planting suspicion in you and you feel that he is not trustworthy, then don't let him cause you further hurt. And don't ever change the way you are to fit how someone wants you to be. You are a lovely, sweet and funny girl and you deserve the best. Always remember that. There is a saying that goes 'No guy is worth your tears, and the one that is won't make you cry'. However, I don't agree with that. Everyone will make you cry at some point in your life, it is upto you however to decide who is worth your tears and who is not… Feel better soon hunny *hug*
p.s – was jus speakin to Alie and she said she's v.worried abt you n is still thinking of you and passes you her hugs!
Oh Tabzy thanks..its alright to reply..I was just…shouting through my fingers as I typed. Thanks for your advice on all that and you are right… I shouldnt let anyone hurt me because I am me I am myself and I should not hurt anywhere of me because I feel horrible about him and his associations. Another thing… you are so right I dont have to change myself to be like what other expect me or want me to be. Thank you tabzee. Love you ~~~~ Hugs~~~~~~~~ p.s – you talked to ali on the phone hm? Aww man… i feel her hugs right now. I miss her around here but what is done is done and at least she is still through email and facebook.
well 1st and forth most. NESSA what is with you the menly movies hehehehehehehe try watching some dance movies or love story hehehehehehehehe
Sorry, but this summer is all about action! No sappy luuurve stories or corny dance films for me thanks!
aw is it cause there is no one to hold…..don't worry i'm there i will hugg you when you cry…well i willhave to fill some big shoes but i'll try
And call me i'm so busy i forget i miss you call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me call me
Tabz if its real then i will tell you one thing. If you guys are really truly good friend then you will be able to tell each other what you are thinking. Me and my best friend we tell each other everything. If one doesn't want to do something then we tell each other and there can't be any hard feelings. You know what i mean.
I mean there has been lot of time times that she asked me to do or i asked her to do we didn't want to do it and we didn't want to say no. So we ended up swearing that this will never happened.
Cause best friends should be able to be honest with each other. You should be able to Tell her no without wondering if you hurt her feelings or will she still keep talking to you after you said no.
Thats why we can choose our best friends cause then we know if we need to say no there won't be any hard feeling if we say yes we will honor our yes.
I hope you understand what I'm getting at.
But if your thinking of doing it but you really don't want do it but tell her that you are only doing out of the sake for your friendship. And you do need to pt your feelings out on the table so its not a one way friendship i had that with a 10 year friend and i never said no but she took advantage of it so now i barely talk to her.
Hey Marine! Yes I completely understand what you're getting at. It does make sense and I know that we should be able to tell each other everything, and we do. Its just that she can't see what I can see because as Ninja says, right now, she's blinded by it. And now matter how much you describe to someone who cannot see, that picture in your eyes and mind can never reach theirs… if that makes any sense . I am so sorry to hear about your friend. I pray things get better for you both 🙂 I am just going to have to keep a watch over her to make sure she doesn't get hurt… well as much as I am able to… thanks a lot Marine. Much appreciated hun x
yes Marine, but sometimes, the person is blinded…as tayba said.
Tayba- I think you shud just keep reminding her, because i understand she just doesn't see where it's all going. Sometimes, no matter what you do, it won't go through to them…*hugs* I'll keep your friend in my duas Insha'Allah. I hope she realises before she gets too hurt
AMEEN!
Thanks hun *hug* I am just going to keep reminding her Insha'Allah. I guess this is something she will just have to go through…. and if Allah wills then I will be there for her through every part of it. I just hope she realises. Thanks for keeping her in your duas sis ily xxx
Also Princess, don't regret the outcome, no matter what that outcome may be. Remember that you did what you should have as a friend.
I had a friend who continued to ask for something that did not belong to them. When it was finally given to them, not only did it harm them, but I was 'implicated' for giving what they begged for! Needless to say it got 'ugly' for a while!
You are a sensitive soul and I'm sure you are feeling this situation deeply. Continue being a good friend and you will have nothing to regret or be ashamed of in the end of the matter.
Just my two cents!
Dammit I miss Boo ma!
I will try not to regret the outcome! You can only warn someone so much right? At the end of the day its their life and the decisions they make are entirely up to them na?
Sorry to hear about your friend! That does suck I hope they realised!!
Thanks Nessa… yes I know that I am trying to as much as I can, but in the end whatever happens, I'll know I did what I could and this was just something that had to happen.
I miss Boo too! lol.
Oh Tabzy thanks..its alright to reply..I was just…shouting through my fingers as I typed. Thanks for your advice on all that and you are right… I shouldnt let anyone hurt me because I am me I am myself and I should not hurt anywhere of me because I feel horrible about him and his associations. Another thing… you are so right I dont have to change myself to be like what other expect me or want me to be. Thank you tabzee. Love you ~~~~ Hugs~~~~~~~~ p.s – you talked to ali on the phone hm? Aww man… i feel her hugs right now. I miss her around here but what is done is done and at least she is still through email and facebook.
I am glad you realised Kavita. Never be someone you're not, if he can't accept who you are, then he doesn't deserve you. *Hugs back* luv ya 2. Yeah Alie rang the other day, she's been very worried for you hun! I hope you feel better soon xxx
You guys actually talk about me?
Oh my, if you talk to alisha again tell her I am alright. I've already sent her emails and Im fine.
Love you Tabz ~hugs~
I hate it! I hate it soooooooooooooooo much when people act like they have nothing better to do besides letting others down! it pisses me off SO FREAKING MUCH! It's like get a damn life! Some people act like they're the best people in the whole wide world and have the right to go and say things to others and make them feel like they're worth nothing but crap. I was talking to Rani on the phone, and I was hella pissed. I've never been this angry in such a long time actually. I get frustrated easily, but i've learned how to control my anger. However, today…this person just got to me. And thankfully, I controlled myself while they were talking to me, I know it wouldn't have been right if i said something, cos it would have been rude and nasty. I know no one's perfect, this person's not perfect, neither am I, but when 'they' sit there talking crap about people who concern me, it makes me go errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! It's the truth, yes, the truth hurts, but we need to learn some damn manners, right? Calling someone up just to be nasty and say stuff that you know will bother them is not cool, not cool at all! Especially since it was so random, I haven't spoken to this person in quite a while. i didn't really care at first, but it was obvious they were rubbing it in…BLAH. people seriously need to grow up! I think before you go and find the faults in other people/races, you should look in the mirror, because you make mistakes too! And Simply, treat others like you wanna be treated.
haha, that was long. lol. phew its outta me.
Hi darlin' I know this is lil late but I just saw it properly. Who ever it was who said those things to you ..thats wrong..i mean esp. if they didnt talk to you in a long time and then they call you up to say things to make you feel inferior or to make those who you know feel inferior. Its not nice. Everyone is entitled to opinions but one should never use their mistaken art of boasting about what they have and what you dont or they have something you have but theirs is better > just to belittle people or make them feel upset. I am really glad you controlled your self through out that. We know that you are the sane one> Do not let these people get to you and hurt you. People out there some of them are very mean but we have to be strong and you will be strong because you are your own unique person and NO ONE has the right to JUDGE YOU OR COMPARE YOU to something they have and you dont have it or something that makes you two different. Actually they may have that right but they should NEVER rub it in someone's face or try to belittle them and make them feel like they are the ground that they walk upon. Cheer up jaan and do not let these people get to you. They are not worth your heart being upset if they are to tell you something as such.
And by the way, no one is perfect and even them for saying such hurtful things .. they are not perfect themselves.
Muchlove ~~million hugs~~~~ bundles of kisses~
Kavita- thank you so much. *hugs back*. You're right, absolutely right. I shouldn't let people like this person get to me, the fact that they enjoy belittling people alone makes them not oh so great. i'm over it. your words mean a lot hunnz.
My feelings now:
I feel stressed, but content at the same time. Stressed that I have to deal with so much at once, but content because I know other people go through wayyyyyyyyyyyy more than the small crap that's annoying me.
soo…
Alhamdulillah
Oh jaan – dont mention it. Its true > Dont let these people get you down. It hurts you I know but be strong and just think of yourself as the STRONGER one > control thyself. You are too sweet for anyone to tell you anything ill but if it does happen > control yourself > understand they are entitled to their opinion but dont encourage fights/quarrels which will make matters worse : show them that you dont want to be like that > have faith and BUILD the worth in yourself
For the stress > Do this. Stop for a moment forget the studying, the upset, the war of emotions in your mind. Take deep breaths. hold it. Breathe out very slowly. Do this for a little while. Relax your mind. Relax your whole body. Think about your head being relaxed, your neck being relaxed, your chest your arms your stomach etc. For everytime you are thinking how relaxed yr muslces have become : say the word RELAX quietly or in yr mind and BELIEVE that your body has become relaxed.
Dont say 'small crap thats annoying me' and compare yrself to others. Others may have gone through more and others may have gone through less but you are yourself and you are your own person. And if something upsets you you have the worth to be worked on to feel better.
Love you jaan > tons of hugs n kisses ~~~~~~~~~ good luck with all those studying >>you're very determined you can do it !!! muah~!
Kavita-
Right back at yeh
i feel great!
I am great.
(Quite humble if I might add).
I feel like Im starting to get a cold.
don't get a cold pls =[
everyone here is getting sick…AAAAAGGGAAINNN!
I'm at work (again) and waiting for the person I am supposed to hire (on my day off, which for some strange reason has also been an off-day) who never arrived for his/her interview. I was thinking to myself, 'Sheesh! I am afraid to hire this person. Looks like if I don't, I will be understaffed (which is not new), and if I do, would be surrounded by another tardy nit-wit (which also is not new).'
I was informed just before lunch, that I had to meet with an important corporate sponsor who pours in a hefty amount each quarter into our feeding programme in the slums. I needed some information but when I walked in, one of my assistants was about to leave for lunch and the others had already left. I asked her: 'How much is your lunch hour worth to you?' 'My sanity,' she replied. 'How much is your sanity worth to you?' I asked. 'It's worth your sanity,' she replied and laughed. She was right.
I let her go for lunch only to find her in fifteen minutes in my office with a grilled-chicken sandwich, lemon iced-tea, and an Oatmeal raisin cookie. 'You are having lunch, while I go sort out your papers and get you ready for your meeting this afternoon,' she announced.
I had such a lousy weekend and grumbled all the way to the office today. Lol! But, this single act of kindness has uplifted my soul. Thank God for kind people. They make this world a much better place than what it has become.
awwwwwwwwwww! senor ji indeed.
I walked “out” of a 'friendship' about a couple of days ago (perhaps this explains my choice of signature?).. after a little bit of crying, distraction, dancing and finally laughing… I felt as though I was born again. Everything around me, which I never seemed to notice, was magnified a hundred times over and smiling at me. I felt so refreshed, so new… exploring the whole world around me with a different lens, a lens that didn't have a huge shade of the said person whose 'friendship' I have walked out of. It was like a gust of wind had taken out all the old cobwebs, and restored my spirit back to the way it was.
Regrets are a funny thing. I do regret not having done the things I wanted to do, in this 'friendship' of mine. I do feel sad about walking “out” of it. I do miss the company, the times. But at the same time… there is nothing else at this point in my life, which could have had me feeling this refreshed again. Because this friendship was everywhere around me – in my thoughts, in my heart, in my mind… even in the people I see around me – I think “losing” it has helped to see everything in a new light again.
I feel free. I feel my true self again.
Maybe one day, I can look back on this 'friendship', and smile.. and think about the good times and sigh nostalgically.. but right now, I just feel so free. It is taking getting used to, in all honesty. Such a big chunk in my life is missing, I find myself with all this free time.. more space in my mind for other thoughts…
It is all good. A little bittersweet, a little sad… but good.
It is times like these I just stare, amazed, at how strong human beings can be. We don't realise it often enough, but we are strong. Even in the weakest of moments, if we are able to hang in there, hang on to a tiny ray of hope we see so far away from us… that is strength.
Sigh… I am rambling pointlessly.
I love you guys. Here is a poem which reflects my mood:
Love After Love
The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,
and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
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Perfect. I've always believed that the secret to loving is in the living as the secret to living is in the loving.
Bon appétit!
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try
I'm in over my head
You got under skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)
Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind
[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
I'm going in crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
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too tired to sleep.
Boo – I love you oh so much, hunn. I'm glad you're feeling much better. Keep smiling, hunnz, I miss the smiley boo.
Boo, when I read your post it felt as though you were talking about someone you were in love with and then I pondered. I thought, if friendship could be as deep and strong as that then this life must have some real strong forces.
It seems strange: you are feeling free without pressures, wonderful being away from everything, yet it seems as though you are hurt by it but will cherish the friendship forever. Take it easy. You are the only one who knows whats best for you.
Same as Rani said, keep smiling.
When referring to the topic of Weight and exercising: I was accused of 'wanting to be myself' when I hinted that I didnt show much interest to lose alot of weight. In reality however, I did have loads of interest in losing weight because I know I have to but I was trying to COVER IT UP. And I understand I should change but Im not exactly sure what it is for someone to say “I'd tell you what to do (and follow up on you on weight loss tips/plans) but you dont listen, (with strong, matter of fact tone) because you want to be yourself, you dont want to listen to no one”
When referring to the topic of Weight and exercising: I was accused of 'wanting to be myself' when I hinted that I didnt show much interest to lose alot of weight. In reality however, I did have loads of interest in losing weight because I know I have to but I was trying to COVER IT UP. And I understand I should change but Im not exactly sure what it is for someone to say “I'd tell you what to do (and follow up on you on weight loss tips/plans) but you dont listen, (with strong, matter of fact tone) because you want to be yourself, you dont want to listen to no one”
it's not a shame to want to be yourself. In fact, confidence is required. I think that no matter what, the way people look at you depends on how you look at yourself. And change yourself because YOU want to see a change, not because someone else wants you to. It's funny, because when you try to please others, no matter what you do, they're never pleased. You're beautiful ji, really, you are
Bismillah…
Allah (SWT) truly does guide… I have changed so much in the last few years… All because my mom sent me to the Masjid. Alhamdulillah for my mom. Madressa has changed my perspective on life… I used to do things according to Islam without even knowing the reasons for what I was doing… When my mom sent me to Madressa… everything changed. I actually understood the reasons for wearing hijaab… I understood Islam. And indeed, it is a blessing.
I began to wear the hijaab properly, I began to dress more modestly, I began to see Islam in everything that I did, I began to think about what I was doing, rather than following beliefs blindly, I began to cherish special moments and special people with all my heart, I began to praise Allah for what He gave me, rather than grieve over what He did not give me, I began to love people for the pleasure of Allah, and I gave up certain things for the sake of Allah.
Madressa brought me closer to Allah… And Allah showed me the path to Islam. I intended to become a better Muslim…but later on in my life, when I grow old and have nothing better to do with my life. But now, it's all about now. I want to change now, I want to become a better Muslim now, I want to get ready for my hereafter now. Only Allah knows if tomorrow is in my destiny. I don't know, so I'll do what I can today. I want to strive in the path of Allah today.
My intentions start and end with Islam. These past few days have brought me even closer to Allah (SWT)… Yesterday, I woke up feeling so happy, you wouldn't be able to imagine the depth of my joy… And I realized it was because I had come closer to Allah. Allah (SWT) says in a hadith, “O My servant! If you take one step toward Me, I take ten toward you.”
I know I was born into a Muslim family…but I feel as if I found Islam today.
I haven't felt this happy in ages…and it feels good. I didn't know who to share this amazing feeling with, so I decided to share it with everybody.
May Allah (SWT) keep my steps firm on the straight path, Ameen.
Bismillah…
Allah (SWT) says in a hadith, “O My servant! If you take one step toward Me, I take ten toward you.”
I haven't felt this happy in ages…and it feels good. I didn't know who to share this amazing feeling with, so I decided to share it with everybody.
May Allah (SWT) keep my steps firm on the straight path, Ameen.
Awww! Alhamdulillah, I'm so proud. Masha'Allah, I see that change in you hun, I really do. That's exactly how i felt after i started attending Madrassa. It's a beautiful feeling, And Inshallah, May Allah guide us to strive to do better for His sake and His sake only. Allahumma Ameen.
was that the Hadeeth you were looking for? I love it so much! because it brings me closer to Allah Subhanahu wata'ala every time I feel like I'm slipping
Ameen to your dua hun, Thumma Ameen!
Thumma Ameen to all your duas.
No, that wasn't the Hadeeth I was looking for, I just wanted to read hadeeth books randomly. lol. I had heard this hadeeth some time back, and I fell in love with it. It's beautiful.
great to know madams above me
me feeelllssss
elaaaated ..
Ninja, thanks for the response.
Rani, its amazing what bliss can come from god. In my religion scriptures too it says if we make 1 step to god, He make 10 towards us.
Mama Pegasus – You're new here – Welcome – tell us more about yourself.
ask away then
wat is it u want to KNOW??
Anything – please tell us. Where you're from …what do you do in life as of this moment?
You should definitely find the Introduce Yourself thread and just introduce yrself there.
I am from here, at this time in this moment I am exactly where I am supposed to be, right here..
with u as company 🙂
anything else??
Um thats true but I already know that bit of information
Its okay dont worry about saying more about yrself (unless you want to)
Its good to see a new member here!
hmm I thought this place looked all gloomy and down and dull
soo decided to brighten it with my presence…:)
Brilliant!
*bowing* bahut shukriya!
hmm I thought this place looked all gloomy and down and dull
soo decided to brighten it with my presence…:)
Add this to my clue list. I missed you so much here didi.
I feel SO at ease after salaah =) Subhanallah.
awwww, ninja, me too!
lol. I just finished praying as well. I thought I'd check to see if you emailed me since I'm not supposed to go on later. Saw that you didn't, so I came on here…now if only Tayba was here… lol
It's 5:30 in the morning. lol. I feel so sleepy…
I feel relieved that I am home now. My mom woke me up early so that my dad can teach me how to drive since there is not much trafic outside! Its scary without traffic anyhow.
Ninja, what is salaah? Prayer?
yo my dad wouldnt let me go on the computer earlier…cos i had to do stuff for him.
i didn't really sleep, i read the whole time =D. go back to sleep hun =)
Oh my, 5:30am Rani – you should go to sleep ; you too ninja.
I feel relieved that I am home now. My mom woke me up early so that my dad can teach me how to drive since there is not much trafic outside! Its scary without traffic anyhow.
Ninja, what is salaah? Prayer?
yes, kavita
Yes. But it's not just to sit and supplicate. Salaah means to worship Allah (SWT) in a specific and prescribed manner which includes specific verbal and physical actions.
Wow! How nice. If I may ask, how long does average salaah take?
yo my dad wouldnt let me go on the computer earlier…cos i had to do stuff for him.
i didn't really sleep, i read the whole time =D. go back to sleep hun =)
idiot, you don't suffer for ur dad. You get so much reward. If you make your dad happy, Allah is happy.
sheesh. I'm getting all preachy after Salaah. lol
ninja doesn't sleep. I love sleep, but right now, I wanna be right where I am.
idiot, you don't suffer for ur dad. You get so much reward. If you make your dad happy, Allah is happy.
Aww Rani!!! BEAUTIFUL.
idiot, you don't suffer for ur dad. You get so much reward. If you make your dad happy, Allah is happy.
sheesh. I'm getting all preachy after Salaah. lol
Yo Rani, when did i say i was suffering? HUH? didn't say anything of that sort, I love helping out
ahem ahem *cough* yeah!
Wow! How nice. If I may ask, how long does average salaah take?
It depends on the individual and which Salaah you are making an intention for. Muslims pray 5 times a day. The morning prayer, in my opinion, is the shortest. But in general, Salaah might take about 10 mins or less.
But like I said, it depends on the individual. Like my mom, she will spend hours praying! Mashallah.
I hope you dont mind me asking these questions. Someday (soon) i'll really like to visit a mosque to see how it is. Are the 5 times (of the day) specific? Or can you chose any 5 times (Im guessing within a certain range)?
I hope you dont mind me asking these questions. Someday (soon) i'll really like to visit a mosque to see how it is. Are the 5 times (of the day) specific? Or can you chose any 5 times (Im guessing within a certain range)?
specific times, kavita ji.
idiot, you don't suffer for ur dad. You get so much reward. If you make your dad happy, Allah is happy.
Aww Rani!!! BEAUTIFUL.
lol. Thanks? What I said is actually from a hadeeth. If you please your father, Allah is pleased with you. If you don't please your father, then Allah isn't pleased with you. So I got it from that. lol
There is another hadeeth about mothers…The Last Prophet of Islam, Muhammad (SAW) said: Jannah(heaven) is under the feet of our mothers.
And another one in which Muhammad (SAW) says that a child should serve/please the mother three times before he/she serves/pleases the mother.
(I put it into my words, so it doesn't sound as great as the original text. lol)
Ninja, yeah yeah, sure. and shush it! I pulled the weeds for my dad yesterday! lol.
Rani, WOW PULLED THE WEEDS FOR 5 WHOLE MINS!
why are you yeah yeah suring me? i lived with this, i learned to love it. lmao
Absolutely beautiful.
But, you meant that a child should please the mother 3 times before pleasing the father[?]
I hope you dont mind me asking these questions. Someday (soon) i'll really like to visit a mosque to see how it is. Are the 5 times (of the day) specific? Or can you chose any 5 times (Im guessing within a certain range)?
Of course I don't mind you asking, I'm getting reward for answering your questions. So ask away.
Yes, the 5 daily prayers are at a certain time.
But you can always pray extra anytime of the day except during Sunrise, Sunset, and Mid-Day.
But if you wanna see the Muslims pray with the imaam(person who leads the prayers in a congregation), then you must make it on time for the 5 daily prayers.
Absolutely beautiful.
lmao, i remember when the teacher at masjid asked the little girls “what does this hadeeth mean by Paradise lies under the feet of your mother?” and one girl replied “DUH, THATS WHY I FEEL SO GOOD WHEN I SLEEP ON HER LAP!” ROFLMAO. TOOO CUTE!!!
Where do these imaams pray? In mosque? So, one can go to mosque 5 times and there will be congregation there?
Can you tell me the 5 times you have to pray?
Where do these imaams pray? In mosque? So, one can go to mosque 5 times and there will be congregation there?
Can you tell me the 5 times you have to pray?
the imaams pray in the mosque, yes. and the prayer times differ from place to place ji. so if you'd like, go to Islamicfinder.org and search the city ur in and you'll get the times for the 5 daily prayers…
I see, I see.
Ninja – shush! I pulled HEKKA weeds in those 5 mins, thank you very much.
Absolutely beautiful.
But, you meant that a child should please the mother 3 times before pleasing the father[?]
Let me try to think of the exact wording of the hadeeth… okay, this is not exact, but I hope it's close:
A man came to the Prophet (SAW) and asked him, “Oh Nabi! Who is the most worthy of my care/affection(I'm sorry I don't remember the exact word)?” The prophet (SAW) replied, “your mother.” The man asked, “then who?” The prophet (SAW) again replied, “your mother” The man asked again, “then who?” The prophet (SAW) replied once again, “your mother.” The man asked yet again, and the prophet (SAW) answered, “your father.”
Does it make sense, Kavita?
Rani- that's right =)
Kavita, that hadith is just emphasizing that the mother comes before the father for many many reasons…am sure you know them
Oh – now I get it. Thanks.
What does (SAW) mean?
And if you do anything against your parents, whats supposed to happen? Like what will happen if you didnt pull weeds (even for 5 mins) and if ninja didnt do the stuff for her dad? Ohhhh alright, those things are small stuff so you probably wont be penalized if you didnt do them[?] I guess Im trying to say, what will happen if we dont do somehting our parents want (a big, significant thing)?
Oh – now I get it. Thanks.
What does (SAW) mean?
And if you do anything against your parents, whats supposed to happen? Like what will happen if you didnt pull weeds (even for 5 mins) and if ninja didnt do the stuff for her dad? Ohhhh alright, those things are small stuff so you probably wont be penalized if you didnt do them[?] I guess Im trying to say, what will happen if we dont do somehting our parents want (a big, significant thing)?
(SAW) is an abbreviation for Salla Allahu A'laihi wasallam meaning – peace & blessings be upon him.
We are considered sinful, because Allah (Ta'ala) has granted them so much status and asked us (In the Qur'an) to respect them and obey them at all times, except when they tell us to do anything that is against the teachings of Islam.
Kavita – Yeah, what she said! lol.
But let me add, Allah is the Most Merciful. So if you (not referring to you, I'm saying just in general) commit a sin, and you genuinely regret it, turn to Allah and ask for forgiveness, Inshallah, He will forgive. (So long as you don't repeat your sins every time you ask for forgiveness).
But let me add, Allah is the Most Merciful. So if you (not referring to you, I'm saying just in general) commit a sin, and you genuinely regret it, turn to Allah and ask for forgiveness, Inshallah, He will forgive. (So long as you don't repeat your sins every time you ask for forgiveness).
Alhamdulillah. “the best of sinners are those who (continue to) repent”
Subhan'Allah
Right right – the lord is merciful.
Let me ask you something : how do you get someone for life(who eventually will become your husband/wife)? Your parents decides this?
Right right – the lord is merciful.
Let me ask you something : how do you get someone for life(who eventually will become your husband/wife)? Your parents decides this?
ok lets put it this way.. our parents, being the wiser ones, and the ones who know more, they tell us about the person…when they propose…and we have the right to say yes or no…our parents don't decide (or well, Islamicwise, they have no right to force us into something like that)
Kavita, are you asking according to Islam?
Well, in Islam, both the girl and guy have to accept the marriage in order to get married. Yes, the parents can always arrange the marriage. But there is no such thing as a forced marriage in Islam. You can always find someone you like and tell your parents that you want to marry that person. But 'finding' that guy should be done Islamically. For example, no dating/touching before marriage whatsoever…
I understand that. I mean to say, will you be sinned right now if you met some guy and liked him (whic I doubt your parents would want this) ? What age do you have to be before it is 'right' or 'permitted'?
Im glad to hear that arranged marriage is a no-no.
I have to go now girls but will be back later on in the day. Take care and thank you for the answers!
According to Islam, you can get married after you attain the age of puberty.
If you like a guy, that's not sinful. What you do with him could be sinful…
no no, arranged marriage isn't a no-no. Forced marriage is a no-no. There is a difference.
You're welcome, Kavita!
I think you are referring to marriage? Would you care to elaborate, please? I'm not sure if you are reffering to marriage.
hey guuys!!
just to fit in the convo…
marriage- im all for it.
uh-oh, psycho Hayati is back. lol
Haylie…welkom back..
me feels:
xHAUSTED…just happy to be leaving shortly..
thinking of my bed…sigh
Sigh
*hug* why the sigh scarry?
Hey Hayati, welcome back.
Ali – why the sigh…you alright?
According to Islam, you can get married after you attain the age of puberty.
If you like a guy, that's not sinful. What you do with him could be sinful…
no no, arranged marriage isn't a no-no. Forced marriage is a no-no. There is a difference.
You're welcome, Kavita!
Hi Rani – Yes I meant Forced marriage is a no-no. Arranged marriages are okay if both the boy and girl are okay with it.
You can get married after the age of puberty:this is meaning you can get married over 12-13 yr of age right?
“If you like a guy, its not sinful” > What do you mean by 'like' here? Just looking at him and having a crush or really liking him even to the point where future engagement may be considered?
“What you do with him could be sinful” > What exactly is sinful that you can do with him? You[or Ninja] said that no touching/no dating before marriage. How then can you know if you like the guy? Im good with the no touching, but are you allowed to at least get to talk to him and to know hime better?
Well, everyone is different. We don't all grow at the same pace. A friend of mineis 17, and still no sign of puberty. So it depends on the individual.
“If you like a guy, its not sinful” > What do you mean by 'like' here? Just looking at him and having a crush or really liking him even to the point where future engagement may be considered?
Yeah…it can be a crush, it can be an infatuation, it can be love…And when you want to get married to someone, you go to your parents and tell them. simple. It's just that cultures get in the way. In my culture, I could never go up to my parents and tell them I want to get married to a certain guy. Maybe I could tell my mom because she is so open-minded…but my dad…no way. lol. And in my culture, if someone tells his/her parents that he/she wants to get married, they think you can't wait to get in bed. Cultures are so annoying, I wish they didn't exist. lol
“What you do with him could be sinful” > What exactly is sinful that you can do with him? You[or Ninja] said that no touching/no dating before marriage. How then can you know if you like the guy? Im good with the no touching, but are you allowed to at least get to talk to him and to know hime better?
You don't need to touch a guy in order to see if you love him or not.
And about the talking…you aren't supposed to talk to him alone. You can talk to him if you have a chaperone with you. i'm sure that you know if a guy and girl get together and talk, at one point or another, they will discuss intimate things, and flirt. Flirting is a no-no.
For example, a friend of mine was talking to her finace on the phone and he said to her, “I can't wait to tear off your clothes.” That is definitely not allowed.
I hope I'm making sense? I'm horrible at explaining things.
I think you explained it perfectly well, jaan .
You are explaining it well Rani.
I cant tell my parents such things either. I cant tell them things ; i cant b/c im unsure about what i want too..and plus im scared ..like alot
So, you're meaning to say that its okay if you go to your parents and say that you want to get married , they agree, then its fine?
so you girls dont have boyfriends .. okay dont answer that i mean..not you girls! i mean..muslim girls – its wrong if they have them? alright flirting is a no no i hate those things too but…isnt it okay if its your fiance lol
awww, thank you. I just hope Kavita will think the same.
Kavita – i know it's hard to talk to your parents, but try befriending them. It will be easier to talk to them that way.
It's absolutely okay in Islam.
lol. I don't have a boyfriend, Alhamdulillah. It's just as wrong for a Muslim girl to have a boyfriend as it is for a Muslim boy to have a girlfriend.
My culture allows a boy and girl to flirt if they are engaged. But there is no such thing as engagement in islam. It's not wrong to be engaged, but engagement leads to sinning. For example, most people sleep with their to-be-wife or to-be-husband simply because they are engaged. But what happens if one of them decides to break off the engagement? So no touching/flirting allowed till you are married.
Definitely, I agree with the no sleeping together until after marriage.
But i just want to tell you – people who see each other and get to talk to each other … that doesnt mean they will sleep together
Its strange. I love my parents to death but I cant even tell them that.
lol. Kavita, I know that. I have tons of friends who date and most of them don't sleep together. But some do. It depends on the individuals.
But I know for a fact that flirting/touching happens between couples.
yes but one thing often does lead to the next thing. For example flirting….
Its strange. I love my parents to death but I cant even tell them that.
That you love them? That's not bad. You're parents know you love them, whether you tell them or not. But if you would like to tell them, then I suggest you try. And try talking to them more often.
I dont know if they know thta I love them this much
aww hun -hug- why don't u tell them u do? Better out than in hun.
I mostly tell my mum more than my dad, but occasionally I'll let him know in my own way. Like the other day we were talking about the amount of reward you get in Islam, when you look at your parents with love. And my dad's like 'hey, look at me with love!' LMAO. I'm like, 'dad I always look at you with love, you just never notice cuz ur too busy doing something else at the time' he's like *thinks for a moment* and then continues with what he was doing lol.
Aww how sweet, your dad seems so nice lol
How do you tell your mom?
Btw – i have to jet so i'll read yr reply later…mmmm mm mm mmmmuwah!
Aww how sweet, your dad seems so nice lol
How do you tell your mom?
Btw – i have to jet so i'll read yr reply later…mmmm mm mm mmmmuwah!
aw thanks 🙂
I just say 'I love you mum'. I don't let her leave the house or sleep without her knowing… same goes with my grandma. Alhumdulilah.
I dont know if they know thta I love them this much
I'm sure they do. But if you really don't think so, then tell them. I always tell my mom I love her. I sneak up on her, hug her, give her a kiss, and say I LOVE YOU! lol. Or if we're sitting down, I sit next to her and put my arm around her. My dad gets jealous! LMAO! He's like, “stop hugging ur mom, ur not a lil girl anymore.” And I'm like, “You're just jealous” And he just laughs. lol. Or if I'm going to bed and my parents are sitting together, I'm like, “Good night! I love you!” My mom always says “I love you too” But my dad doesn't. lol.
I remember when we were going to Pakistan and Afghanistan a few years back, we didn't go with my dad. It was me, my sis, my mom, my twin, and my lil bro. And my dad was soooooooo worried. He told me, “As soon as you get off the plane at every stop, CALL ME!” I'm like okay okay! lol. And It was sooooooooooooo hilarious! When we stopped in London, I went to the pay phone to call him, and before he hung up, he said, “Take care bachchu(it means child). I love you.” I was so shocked I didn't say anything in return. And I hung up and told my mom, “Mom, dad said I love you to me!” And she starts laughing like I'm crazy and says, “Of course he loves you. He told you all the time. He just stopped telling you recently.” And I'm like why? She just shrugs and says, “Everyone has their own way of showing their love.”
And Kavita, if you really can't tell them, then show them. Obey them, listen carefully when they talk to you, do special things for them when they don't expect it. They'll know.
P.S. The funny thing about the pay phone in London was that it gave me back the coin I used to call my dad! I was like, “COOL!” lol.
P.S. The funny thing about the pay phone in London was that it gave me back the coin I used to call my dad! I was like, “COOL!” lol.
That's cuz even our payphones are oh so kind over here LOL.
Your story was soo cute! aww!
No one understands…
No one understands…
u k jaan??
No one understands…
I'm sorry jaan … Allah understands for sure though . I love you.
hmmmm
u k jaan??
I'm okay, no worries scarry. it was just a feeling, still stalking me tho…
thank you
I'm sorry jaan … Allah understands for sure though . I love you.
I know He does, Alhamdulillah. I love you too, thank you so much for the greeting card. Certainly brought a smile to my face.
xxx
Am disappointed, for nowJ coz my mum was supposed to visit and spend some quality time with me,
however my family opted to move house and instead she will now be busy packing up and venturing to new heights.
Mixed feelings in my soul, because I was born on the very street my family lives in,
like literally haha.
Am thinking, the next time I visit home, it will be on brand spanking new ground L Will miss the old place, lotza memories, good and a whole lot of bad ones Cant believe how fast the years have flown
I still feel like a 17 year old kid, looking forward to life out of school, planning my future,
dreaming dreams, looking forward to making my grand Entry, waiting in anticipation to
travel the world … Foolish fool, gullible dreamer was me …
I know I have been a bit edgy of late. Some even wondered if I was having a male PMS moment. I am very sorry if I have offended anyone. What I share with you is not an excuse, just an explanation, and an attempt to get something off of my chest. If you have no desire to have a crappy day, please skip my rant and move to the next post. This may make you feel miserable.
I first lost a loved one to Cancer when I was a child. My aunt died of Hodgkin's disease and the memory of my grandmother crumpled in the corner like a wet, used, grocery paper-bag is still vivid in my memory as is her wailing.
Three of my friends have cancer, and each found out almost simultaneously. I had barely come to terms with the fact that my beautiful friend AC, single mother of a precocious child was just done with her chemo that left her bald. She found out she was 'Stage Two' almost a year ago. I am yet to recover from our conversation one evening late last year, when she said, 'I cannot live like this, I wish God just took me.' I looked into her eyes and saw no hope. It terrified me. I cannot imagine a life without faith or hope.
Now, I have three friends who are fighting for their lives. It sounds like an exaggeration considering two of them are Stage One, but try saying that to any woman that has just been told that the lump in her bosom is life-threatening. All these women are stunningly beautiful and have amazing personalities. I would gladly give up my entire life in exchange to live just one day of any of their lives because they have such uncommon grace, integrity and honor about them.
The ONCOLOGY sign is seared in my heart and mind. Each time I kneel before the Father and try to pray for my friends, no words come out. Not even a cry of anguish. I know God is not in the business of abandoning His children. He is not a delinquent Sovereign. I know that silence does not mean absence, and that distance does not mean indifference with God. I know deep in my heart that God is watching and God cares. But, I am scared. My family, my friends and my commitment to what I believe God has tasked me to do- this is the only wealth I possess and I feel as if I am being robbed.
I accompanied (since these women are all single and/or separated, my friends and I take turns to accompany them to the hospital so they will not have to endure this alone) one of my friends to the hospital. The nurse gave her a form to fill up, and I saw my friend's hand shaking violently as she struggled to fill up the form. The nurse, an older woman, put her hand over my friend's shoulder and said gently, 'Ask your husband to fill up the form for you.' It took me a moment to realize that she meant me. I quietly reached for my friend's hand took the form and was surprised I knew so much about my friend. I knew her maiden name, her age, her height, the color of her eyes and her hair, her parents' names, her address, her mobile number, her place of work, her medical history (hypertension and diabetes on her mother's side, and epilepsy on her father's side), surgeries (appendicitis)…I only needed help on one question. 'How much do you weigh?' I asked.
My friend stared at my face for a moment and then started to giggle. It took me a while to follow suit. It was not a 'giggling' moment…it was a grotesque moment, but we laughed and giggled right there in that well-furnished room with gorgeous flowers and wonderful art deftly placed under excellent lighting, as if to hide the hideousness of disease and perhaps death or banish it to the shadows. Unfortunately, there are many places in life where dreams go to perish, but I have yet to find a place besides God's presence where death goes to die.
While we were on the escalat
not wat i expected to read soo early in the morning..double sigh..
take care and be there for yr friends, its not going to be easy ..it only gets worse
I WATCHED my friend and aunt die so I can understand to an extent wrt what YOU may be feeling..
be strong, u do have that strength within u and around u ( here, this forum and the rest of the people here )
and know that u , your friends and immediate families are in my prayer
take care and smile..just once..for me:-)
~alie~
awww I'm so sorry about your friends. I hope they will recover soon.
I lost my aunt to cancer and my father to multiple diseases…If I would give anyone advice as to how to cope with such a thing it is: hold on tightly to the good things in life- the fun, happy, memories you had with your friends, and continue to make more of those memories while you still can. Don't let the worst part of this drain everything thats in you, but focus on the positive things that come out of it. Like scarface said, stay strong.
Also, feel free to rant all you want. It's always better to let it all out.
Good luck to you and your friends.
Senor ji…I have never experienced what you are going through, so I can't even say that I understand. Just don't lose hope, stay strong, and keep smiling…if not for yourself, then for your friends. I'm glad that you have this forum…it's a great place to let out your feelings.
And I don't know about anyone else, but you haven't offended me. I don't mind the hobbit jokes.
Hayati – I love you.
I understand what you're going through,my cousin died of cancer, and so did my grandmother …it's the worst thing that can happen to anyone. But I found it amazing how my grandfather cherished my grandmother's last days and made sure she was always happy and literally spent all the nights at her feet. He would sleep right outside her door, because she was basically unconscious the last 2 years. But he would talk to her and tell her how much he loved her…i would see her smile. It was so amazing how loyal he was.
Just hang on there Senor ji, I'm so sorry to hear I really am. Haylie said it all…Stay strong.
Thank you for your kind words of comfort. I am very grateful.
how are you?
I just remembered something…and it totally ruined my mood.
I feel horrible. crap.
I am well Ninja. Thank you for asking. How have you been? Erm…besides the ruined mood.
pretty good, thank you .
Wow! That was a fast reply. Someone had one too many cups of coffee? Lmao!
LOL!!!!!! nah, no coffee! just hyper!
Hyper? Sounds like you stand before the percolator and make coffee nervous. I am that way each morning. Do you know that the most expensive coffee sold around here is Yemeni Mocha? Reminds me of you each time I walk past that display.
Hyper? Sounds like you stand before the percolator and make coffee nervous. I am that way each morning. Do you know that the most expensive coffee sold around here is Yemeni Mocha? Reminds me of you each time I walk past that display.
yeap yeap *nods* Yemeni coffee is good.
Oooh and how does Yemeni Mocha taste??
In a lot of painL
Feeling exceptionally happy and in LOVE
As well as tired and sleepy
Grateful
Content
Roooomanntic
Worried about matters beyond my control
Stressed because work is just being its usual annoyingly present self
I feel like crying…
I feel like crying…
feel better yumz..
Senor, I hope you'e feeling better.
Ninja, I remember you telling me about your grandma and grandpa, it made me wanna cry… Your Grandpa is super cool!
I feel like crying…
*hugs ninja* My shoulder is always available. I love you, buddy.
Ninja, I remember you telling me about your grandma and grandpa, it made me wanna cry… Your Grandpa is super cool!
yeah, Subhana'Allah. And when she got really ill…before she passed away, he would always say to us “If she dies, I'm gonna die after her, she'll take my soul with her” and we'd make fun of him and we'd say, “ahhh man, that's never happened except in movies” and subhana'Allah…she died the eid after Ramadhan and he died on Eidal-Adh-ha…2 months after her. That year was so horrible. we kept expecting to hear of more deaths. then after that my cousin died…then my dad's aunt…it was sucha sad year. *sigh* we're all gonna go…one day.
Rani ji, I am much better considering the circumstances. My friends however, are still hurting and terrified. So am I. But, I trust in God that He will prevail. Thank you for asking. May your kindness be a reason for a blessing unto you from God.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
*******thinking********
Aww ninja … sad story
Feel better you all
OH MY GOD….my friend just called to tell me that my friend Andy’s mom passed away…L
Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!
Is it possible for any person to feel soul-LESS coz I feel soo hollow or empty right now..
She and I were talking about her mum just the other day and I remember having this really awful feeling about whatever we had discussed.
I wish I could be near/with her now, I remember her saying to me the other day that she wished I was in Durban coz she and I would be together …sitting there, praying, talking and gaining strength..
Then she said that she went to my *corner* of the office and sat there and cried coz she felt so helpless, I couldn’t respond to her coz I felt heart broken..
It reminded me of the time when she had Eza, and everyone had said to her that theres no hope of Eza surviving ( she was a premature born baby) yet she and I together ..prayed and prayed and cried and gave strength to each other ..and she survives and is as strong as any other kid her age…
GUYZ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH…..HATE BEING HERE NOWL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cant even think now, am feeling so bludy helpless and irritated that I am so far away from my dear friend..
Please pray for her and her family to gain strength through this time and that her mom’s soul rests peacefully..
Sorry ……… don’t know any other way to express myself right now…
yeah, Subhana'Allah. And when she got really ill…before she passed away, he would always say to us “If she dies, I'm gonna die after her, she'll take my soul with her” and we'd make fun of him and we'd say, “ahhh man, that's never happened except in movies” and subhana'Allah…she died the eid after Ramadhan and he died on Eidal-Adh-ha…2 months after her. That year was so horrible. we kept expecting to hear of more deaths. then after that my cousin died…then my dad's aunt…it was sucha sad year. *sigh* we're all gonna go…one day.
Subhan'Allah…May Allah make us all as lucky as they were…to pas.s away on such great days…May Allah (SWT) grant them the highest stages in Jannah. Ameen.
and they say, “arranged marriages never work” *shakes head*
God does everything for a reason. Just keep trusting. I hope your friends recover soon, Insha'Allah.
Scarrry – I'm so sorry, hunn. But God does everything for a reason, we all have to go someday. It's hard to see a friend suffer such loss, I understand how helpless you must be feeling. But stay strong for her, if you break apart, what will she do? Just be patient and stay strong.
Scarrry – I'm so sorry, hunn.
erhmmmmm to u sweety..
But God does everything for a reason,
i knw
we all have to go someday.
knw dat too
It's hard to see a friend suffer such loss,
one of the worse feelings ever
I understand how helpless you must be feeling.
am not sure about that but thanks hun
But stay strong for her,
doing dat already
if you break apart, what will she do?
not much anyone can do I guess
Just be patient and stay strong.
am extremely impatient but trying to..tnx..strength..?????????????sigh
i need warm arms holding ME…double sigh…thank u ranz
am not sure about that but thanks hun
I do understand, hunn. I won't say I do if I don't understand. I've been there, done that, and it feels horrible. In fact, I'm feeling like that right now.
Wanna borrow my Abhi? He's got amazingly warm and strong arms.
My fealing are sleppy lol. i sleped at 2 am woke up at 5 am heheheh so i love you guys good night
am not sure about that but thanks hun
I do understand, hunn. I won't say I do if I don't understand. I've been there, done that, and it feels horrible. In fact, I'm feeling like that right now.
aaaw ranz am sure yr friend knows u love and want to be there for him/her:) sending u a warm hug love:)
Wanna borrow my Abhi? He's got amazingly warm and strong arms.
hmmm ….
Oh my Ranz, am speechless, u wanting to share Abhi’s arms with me…
But I want..erhmmm I just want one pair of arms around me belonging to …….will leave this blank……………….
And as much as I am appreciative of u sharing Abhi’s, it wouldn’t FEEL the sameL
Thank you sweety …
I thought if I could just reach out further, I would be able to touch the sun this morning.
It looked radiant, a burnt orange, with an overwhelming aura..
So I decided to leave my scarf behind, and feel its energy touch my skin.
Was in the ladies just now, and to my shock found that I had worn two completely different earrings on each ear L
I was so stunned at my obvious blindness, I didn’t know if I should feel embarrassed (remembering a few odd stares from the people I had met on my way to work and at work) or laugh it off ( Because I am known for doing the most weirdest things ever imaginable ).
I chose the latter, off coz!!
It looked really ridiculously hilarious.
I feel odd.
I want to dance.
She knows. I hope you're feeling better.
Oh my Ranz, am speechless, u wanting to share Abhi’s arms with me…
But I want..erhmmm I just want one pair of arms around me belonging to …….will leave this blank……………….
And as much as I am appreciative of u sharing Abhi’s, it wouldn’t FEEL the sameL
Thank you sweety …
lol. I was hoping you would say that, I don't like sharing my Abhi. But since you were feeling very upset, I thought I would sacrifice.
And Inshallah, one day, you'll have the arms you want around you.
'…one day, you'll have the arms you want around you…'
What a nice thing to say. May it be so for you as well, Rani ji.
See? I'm very nice.
Insha'Allah.
Me feeelzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
SooopppeeerrrrrrrrrrrFREEEliceeeiiouuuuuuuusssssss, exxxxxtraaaaaadosssaaaaggeeeeeejjjjeeelliiiiccciooooussssss, ubeeerrrgrrrroovvvveeeeelllllliiiicccciiiiiiiiooossssslllyyyyy,
EGGGGGGGGXXXXXXX cited….
NERRRRRRVOUS…
Do I have news for u guys,
but I am waiting for erhmmmm confirmation from mah sources,
then I shallll TELL IT ALLLLLLL
JJJJJJJ
JJ<span style="mso-char-type:symbol;mso
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I smell something BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
*waiting for the news*
p.s – take it light!
See? I'm very nice.
Yes you are. Except when provoked. Lmao!
See? I'm very nice.
Yes you are. Except when provoked. Lmao!
psht, even when provoked, she's not that mean.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I smell something BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Hmmm it is…was sooo excited I had to type it up and spread sum smiles
*waiting for the news*
am busy writing u an email NOW..:) with mah news !!
p.s – take it light!
floating like a butterfly ..roflmao…reminds me of a song?? cant remember the name though haha
am just exhausted..lack of damn sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep..
She knows. I hope you're feeling better.
having so much love and support around me…yup I feel blessed ..thank u ranz..sweetness *winks*
Oh my Ranz, am speechless, u wanting to share Abhi’s arms with me…
But I want..erhmmm I just want one pair of arms around me belonging to …….will leave this blank……………….
And as much as I am appreciative of u sharing Abhi’s, it wouldn’t FEEL the sameL
Thank you sweety …
lol. I was hoping you would say that, I don't like sharing my Abhi. But since you were feeling very upset, I thought I would sacrifice.
lol knew u brat:) haha its kewl I have a lil cute teddy to keep me company these days…
And Inshallah, one day, you'll have the arms you want around you.
insha allah the same 2 ye hun..
See? I'm very nice.
Yes you are. Except when provoked. Lmao!
I have my moments.
See? I'm very nice.
Yes you are. Except when provoked. Lmao!
psht, even when provoked, she's not that mean.
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! *gives ninja a biiiiiiiiiiig jadoo ki jhappi*
*waiting for the news*
am busy writing u an email NOW..:) with mah news !!
Hey! Not fair! I wanna know too! *pouts*
Alhamdulillah…
lol! awww!
insha allah the same 2 ye hun..
….. I feel love…hope… faith… joy… beauty… wonder…curiousity… happiness… sadness… elevation, bitter sweetness… freedom… compassion….
…. all locked up inside of me, waiting for the day I can share it with someone I whom I am able to call mine.
Aww Tayaba! So much thought in those words you wrote up there…. All of those feelings will be able to come to life(with someone that is yours)..because you do have hope and faith in your heart.
My Feelings……….
love is not love,
frnds r not frnds,
life is not life,
ppl r not ppl……..
everything is going wrong today………
after all feelings r still feelings n no one can change that………
My Feelings……….
love is not love,
frnds r not frnds,
life is not life,
ppl r not ppl……..
everything is going wrong today………
after all feelings r still feelings n no one can change that………
Hun, love is love, people are people, life is life, friends may not be what u expect or want them to be but they are still friends…
Sweety, I do hope that your day brightens and that your mood is uplifted and that yr day ends with a smile.
Yes feelings are after all feelings but it can be changed…I cant change it for u, I can try and help make
you feel different, perhaps cheer you up but at the end of the day, you are the only one who can change
your feelings, change it for YOU.. To ensure the negativity u feel doesn’t overwhelm all the positives in your life.
Sending u a hug J take care of yourself u hearJ
oh that was so sweet of ya….
thanks dear…..
dont worry i m feeling much better now……….
in life u hv to console before u get into depression
thanks once again fr the bottom of my heart.
in life u hv to console before u get into depression
DONT!!! ….go into depression..it is unworthy of yr presence…u need a hug?? am here,
u need to talk??, am here, u need anything
just holler…we r all here…well I am but am sure the rest of the guys will say the same…
life is too short and precious hun, seriously tooo precious to hover too much on things beyond human control..
TRUST that God guides u and will lead u outa this feeling of gloom..omw..wat da?? lol//sorry am not even
sure why I am lecturing u
my thoughts just has a mind of its own at times hahaha…Good to hear ur feeling better…
u wanna go get sum coffee, cake?? chill and take in life?????
thanks once again fr the bottom of my heart.
no thanks nah …..gimme a hug instead:) catchye l8r my dear:)
no not again…….
i made a mistake in my sentence….
what i m trying to say is…. u need to console urself b4 u get into depression……… hehehehe
AHHHHHH I'm missing so many people
… *sigh*
AHHHHHH I'm missing so many people
… *sigh*
yumz warmly
…let them know they are missed
no not again…….
i made a mistake in my sentence….
what i m trying to say is…. u need to console urself b4 u get into depression……… hehehehe
lol ….no prob…
Aww Tayaba! So much thought in those words you wrote up there…. All of those feelings will be able to come to life(with someone that is yours)..because you do have hope and faith in your heart.
Insha'Allah.
Thanks sweetz. How are you? How's college? I start uni again soon – its my final year!!! WoooooooT!!!!!
My feelings….I feel small. Not sad, but small.
Ness, are you referring to a bad meaning of 'small' ? Like say..inferior? Probably not the case knowing you .. but if it is… cheer up hun.
We have a new member … Welcome. I hope that you're feeling better… be strong, hold on, find hope in everything you see .. understand that you have a say in your life and its not only other people around you that have the ability to make you happy.
Tayaba, congrats on the final year! .. yup college last Monday for me..so back to it again.
….. I feel love…hope… faith… joy… beauty… wonder…curiousity… happiness… sadness… elevation, bitter sweetness… freedom… compassion….
…. all locked up inside of me, waiting for the day I can share it with someone I whom I am able to call mine.
*sigh* Welcome to my world…
Ninja – there's no need to miss me, I'm right here!!!! lol. kidding. lub u ji!
Nessa –
My feelings….I feel small. Not sad, but small.
Feel better soon Ness xxxx
Tayaba, congrats on the final year! .. yup college last Monday for me..so back to it again.
Thanks 🙂 Good luck with college x
….. I feel love…hope… faith… joy… beauty… wonder…curiousity… happiness… sadness… elevation, bitter sweetness… freedom… compassion….
…. all locked up inside of me, waiting for the day I can share it with someone I whom I am able to call mine.
*sigh* Welcome to my world…
I love you.
Tayba ji – I love you toooo! My head still hurts. lol.
….. I feel love…hope… faith… joy… beauty… wonder…curiousity… happiness… sadness… elevation, bitter sweetness… freedom… compassion….
…. all locked up inside of me, waiting for the day I can share it with someone I whom I am able to call mine.
Welcome to my side of the world…
*My feelings….I feel small. Not sad, but small.*
Ness: hmm hope this helps love **here’s me …crouching a lil so that Ness can climb
up onto my shoulders…..slowly picks myself up and stands tall** together we stand TALL!!
Hows dat hun?? U feel a lil better?? Just a little??
U aren’t small, Nothing about u is small,
Even your feelings ain’t small.
Ur a larger than life figurina..lol..
Okay that shud do for now..
Love u J
Xxxxxxxxxxxx Unique_princess:….. I feel love…hope… faith… joy… beauty… wonder…curiousity… happiness… sadness… elevation, bitter sweetness… freedom… compassion…. …. all locked up inside of me, waiting for the day I can share it with someone I whom I am able to call mine.*sigh* Welcome to my world…
Boo/ Ranz & Taybz: Why wait?? Why not simply share all u have with everyone around u whom u love now,
<
Not inferior…insignificant. And thanks Kaveeeetah!
Ness: hmm hope this helps love **here’s me …crouching a lil so that Ness can climb
up onto my shoulders…..slowly picks myself up and stands tall** together we stand TALL!!
U aren’t small, Nothing about u is small,
Even your feelings ain’t small.
Ur a larger than life figurina..lol..
Okay that shud do for now..
Love u
U callin me fat???!!!! Kidding. Thanks Zilla! I love u too! U know it!
Princess & 99 – Thanks!
Its Kava daba doo to cheer yeh up lol… cheer up…. dont let anyone get to you …and well.. you're strong..we all know it ..stand strong..stand tall! .. 'course alisha is holding you up but hey its workin'
Alisha – Friday…….. 2 weeks have passed since college has started. Gotta get somethign to eat , take like a few mins break and onto studying! Its been going alright so far.. the professors alright ; I've made some useful acquaintances too
Thanks Kav! I appreciate your kind words!
Easier said than done
Kava daba, even 'the strong' have moments of pure weakness! It will pass…
I lub youuuuuu! Keep ur chin up.
Thanks Kav! I appreciate your kind words!
Easier said than done
Kava daba, even 'the strong' have moments of pure weakness! It will pass…
Aww! Feel better sooon darlin'. You need a super hug. Guys – pile up on her!
Aww! Feel better sooon darlin'. You need a super hug. Guys – pile up on her!
okie IM READY! *pulls up sleeves*
I feeeeeeeeeel sooooooooooooo freaking frustraaaaaateeeeeeeedddddddddddd!
I…*sighs*
I feeeeeeeeeel sooooooooooooo freaking frustraaaaaateeeeeeeedddddddddddd!
**Quick search for my punching bags** Will send em over to you hun
I…*sighs*
Take care nah!!
**hugz**
omg thank you! HURRY HURRY!!!!
My head is not working. errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!
wats wrong with it…too much twitching I tell u …
u need some oil or sums ??
u wanna screammm….go ahead, am already deaf..like almost deaf…
jus let it out
watz wrong hun love u swheeetness
I wish I could scream!! But, I don't have the urge to anymore. i feel a bit better
It's funny, how in seconds, your mood can be totally ruined. I dunno. I'm weird. thought of something that ruined my mood and it's just…blah. I'll be okayyyyyyyy.
Ninja – come over, we can scream together.
I wish I could scream!! But, I don't have the urge to anymore. i feel a bit better
It's funny, how in seconds, your mood can be totally ruined. I dunno. I'm weird. thought of something that ruined my mood and it's just…blah. I'll be okayyyyyyyy.
Sorry you feel that way hun. Hope you feel better soon.
I feel that way right now too. I just wana scream and break stuff. I spent such a lovely day with a friend and then I got home and a few hours later my mood is ruined. I wanna get a flight out of here and go somewhere else and just sleep as much as I want and then when I'm ready, I'll fly back. *cries*.
I feel like I dont have any feelings.
Ninja – *sending you a big comforting hug* Also attached is a purple flower … if at any time you feel you are being disturbed by negative, unwanted thoughts – picture a flower, see how pretty it is, imagine yourself smelling it and getting the sweet scent! p.s – It doesnt have to be a flower – it can be anything that you find positive, that you find yourself being drawn to.
Tayaba – Aww darling! *sending you a big hug too!* And the mental flower. If your mood was ruined after you spent a lovely day with your friend, try to put more focus on the lovely day and the lovely event of seeing your friend. Step a few steps further away from the negative event that caused your mood to be ruined. Its needed to face the bad thing, because it is only then that we are closest to making a solution … but dont get yrself too caught up in sadness.
Aww you poor thing! We should all take a flight somewhere and meet up eh … wont be space for crying then, just laughing and ..eating alisha's homecooked meals,watching her dance … steal a lil sip of Ninja's favorite coffee … watch rani take a pic of her eye with a camera ..that flahses bright… watch you beat up senor jalapeno lol… watch oreo and nitzah hug lolz
Enough of this … hehehehehe..was trying to make you smile..and made myself laugh alot haha..Gotta do homework now..take care !
Ninja – *sending you a big comforting hug* Also attached is a purple flower … if at any time you feel you are being disturbed by negative, unwanted thoughts – picture a flower, see how pretty it is, imagine yourself smelling it and getting the sweet scent! p.s – It doesnt have to be a flower – it can be anything that you find positive, that you find yourself being drawn to.
*hugs back* Thank you so much hun
Aww you poor thing! We should all take a flight somewhere and meet up eh … wont be space for crying then, just laughing and ..eating alisha's homecooked meals,watching her dance … steal a lil sip of Ninja's favorite coffee … watch rani take a pic of her eye with a camera ..that flahses bright… watch you beat up senor jalapeno lol… watch oreo and nitzah hug lolz
LMAO! The last 2 cracked me up Kavita. imagine Oreo and nitzah hugging…lmaooooooo! no way!
Sheesh! My human rights are being violated! Why do you have to mention me being beat up? What does that have to do with cheering up Ninja? Kavita ji, you and I have an axe to grind. That's it. Watch out! No more nice guy. Lmao!
imagining SenorJ getting beat up totally cheered up ninja. it did the job, and that's what matters
thank you kavitaaaaaaa!
…..and I do the beating too
Sorry Senor J, normally I am the superwoman but over here I am a puppet in Kavita's story, so watch out. I have to kick yo ass!
Kavz: thanks hun, that made me smile 🙂
tayba tayba fish!!! I miss you!!
Ninja Ninja dodo! I miss you too. I really wana come online cuz I have stuff to tell you and rani but I have an appointment with some lady for uni at 10:45 am and its 9:45am now and I'm still in my Pjz with my blanky LOL. x
Kick my ass? Lmao! Woman, all I have to do is get ready with a large screen, a DLP projector, A Walk to Remember DVD, some poetry, a bundle of gift cheques to the Spa, a Salon, a token for a boat-ride, a comfortable seat on a porch with a generous quilt, overlooking the valley to watch the storm with a large mug of hot-chocolate and oatmeal cookies nearby…you would forget all about ass kicking and start drooling every which way! Now get outta bed sleepy head and go to the meeting. Lmao! Bossy! Bossy! Ninja, get ready to save me.
lmao you lazy bummmmmm!! I'll speak to you soon Insha'Allah. then you can tell me! If I don't talk to you for one day… I start missing you. You're a special bum.
lmao this reminds me…when I was in SF yesterday…i saw the same bum that I saw when we went on the trip with my english teacher last year. and he was sitting in the same place….i was like WOAH! anyways…pointless story, tired my fingers for nothing.
Kick my ass? Lmao! Woman, all I have to do is get ready with a large screen, a DLP projector, A Walk to Remember DVD, some poetry, a bundle of gift cheques to the Spa, a Salon, a token for a boat-ride, a comfortable seat on a porch with a generous quilt, overlooking the valley to watch the storm with a large mug of hot-chocolate and oatmeal cookies nearby…you would forget all about ass kicking and start drooling every which way! Now get outta bed sleepy head and go to the meeting. Lmao! Bossy! Bossy! Ninja, get ready to save me.
DAMN YOU JALAPENO DAMN YOU!!!!!!!!!
HE FOUND MY KRYPTONITE!!!!!!! No0o0o0o0Oooooooooooooooo!!!!
AH don't worry, I'll find a way around that too. I'll push you off into that valley, I'm sure it would make my oatmeal cookies taste even better =D
lmao you lazy bummmmmm!! I'll speak to you soon Insha'Allah. then you can tell me! If I don't talk to you for one day… I start missing you. You're a special bum.
lmao this reminds me…when I was in SF yesterday…i saw the same bum that I saw when we went on the trip with my english teacher last year. and he was sitting in the same place….i was like WOAH! anyways…pointless story, tired my fingers for nothing.
Roflmaoo! awww you're a special foberina too. I went to brush my teeth and I don't know how but suddenly “go broil water” came into my head. ROFLMAO. I was grinning with toothpaste on my teeth like a retard! lmaooooo! man! I miss you tooooooooooooooo!
lol awww poor SF bum! So he's basically been just sitting there the whole year!
LOL *looks around* uhm didn't we agree to keep that thing about my stupid mistakes **PRIVATE**. you traitor! lmbo! jk it made you smile so whatever.
lmao…i dunno. i mean c'mon tayba he needed to pee. common sense jerk! lmbo
LOL its more funnier when everyone knows =D =D =D
Well, did you see some wet patch of ground around him? He wouldn't move! what if some other bum tried to move in! .
LOL!!!!!
*crax up* STOP MAKING ME LAUGH! lmaoooooooo!!
crap crap crap crap crap crap//
cud get used to this actually…
Oh wait I just thought of sums:
crap n doodle do
donkeys' escaped from da zoo
he's chasing all da monkeyzz
he hasnt a cliue, no he hasnt a clue
me feels oh so frikking blue!!
*cape flapping in the breeze* There's no need to fear, Underdog is here I'm here to save you!!! muah, muah, muuuuaaaaahhhhhh!!!
There, that should do it! *flourishes cape & flies away*
*cape flapping in the breeze* There's no need to fear, Underdog is here I'm here to save you!!! muah, muah, muuuuaaaaahhhhhh!!!
There, that should do it! *flourishes cape & flies away*
who u talkin to ness?? **luks around** u k hun???
me confuscious??? didnt follow dat …
but send u kisses anyway..sloppppy kissses
mmmwmaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
was talkin to you, stinkweed! lol
I just finished grading some papers for my teacher. It's crazy how stupid some kids are! I mean, c'mon, it's a multiple choice question, why in the world would you leave it blank!??!!? *shakes head*
Anyhow, I feel nice…really nice. I'm all happy happy cheery cheery bubbly bubbly and smiley smiley. for no particular reason…wow, this school year is starting off pretty nice… Insha'Allah it'll stay this way…
awww don't worry hun, it will Insha'Allah! Ameen.
hey girl thanks for your ECARD! it totalllllllllly made me smile!!! I LOVED it! . It reminded me of Fez from 'That '70S Show', because he sang that song once with his accent, and it was hillarious!!!!! lol. I love youuuuuuuu!
Ugh! i hate that show! For some strange reason, it disgusts me! But that fez guy is funny. lol
But anyhow, I'm glad it made u smile, that was my mission. I love you too.
I have to go downstairs and talk to the counselor about my schedule. Pray that everything works out. i'm still in school, btw. It's 6th period, and since I don't have a sixth period, I sneek onto the forum. shhhhh! lol.
I'll be back in a few minutes, Insha'Allah.
You hate that show?!?!!?! I LOVE that show! Its soooooooooooooo funnnyy! It has me in stitches lol! lol mission accomplished hun! ohhh Insha'Allah you're schedule will be great! and hey email me bak dude! lol its been forever!
The first time I saw it, these two guys were being gay. It was nasty. So every time the show comes on, I'm like, “Can we watch something else, please?” lol. It is funny, but blah. *shrugs*
and I'm sorrrrrrry! I will reply sooooon! I PROMISE! lol. And what do u have to tell me? I wanna know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Man…life really is beautiful…
Have you ever had one of those days where you feel extremely happy, but you don't even know why? Those days are so much fun…I love it…
And then there are the days when you feel that everything is awful…
I'm having a feel-happy day… It's amazing…but I'm so darned sensitive that the teeeeeeniest thing makes me upset. I mean, my day was going all happy happy joy joy and then I read something, not even directed towards me, and I get upset. Sheesh. I wanna see a psychiatrist…
I need to get over this… I hope this doesn't haunt me to my grave…
My heart hurts…it feels heavy…
No matter how much I try…it never works…the feeling creeps in with a big boom…and the worst part is when it creeps in quietly…
Everyone has problems…I have those…and on top of that, I'm a problem to myself…
Sometimes it's so hard to follow your own advice…
*back to my happy happy joy joy mood*
lol what! ive never seen that episode!
hey im talkin on msn but no reply from u! i wanna call u! answer me! lol
was talkin to you, stinkweed! lol
jamaican stinkweed it is then…..wer/why/how did u come up with that one Ness???
Its mah com puke ter that needs the saving jaan
Was venting at the pc & sudden bursts of inactive electricity in the city that neva sleeps..
Maaar, dankie for the rescuing…
Dat cape and under dog??
Hmm reminded me of a dog with underpants..rofl..not u..the doggie …
Me feeelss
Paaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Awful awful paaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
OOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH MYYYYYYYYYYYYYY GOOOOOOOOOOOODNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!
WAT??
Sheesh! My human rights are being violated! Why do you have to mention me being beat up? What does that have to do with cheering up Ninja? Kavita ji, you and I have an axe to grind. That's it. Watch out! No more nice guy. Lmao!
Ohh, Im sooooo scared ! Ninja, hold me still please! Im shivering too much … I cant take it anymore.
At least you put a smle on my face though
And im glad that at least I made some people laugh…*ahem* and some people didnt
Gawd, its for the cheers…reducing some stress no matter what it takes hmm.
lol what! ive never seen that episode!
hey im talkin on msn but no reply from u! i wanna call u! answer me! lol
OhmyAllah! You totally made my day by calling me! I swear, I was totally excited! BANANAS!!! lol. And STALKER?!?!!?!? LMAO! I swear, I was like, “What's a stoka?” LMAO! I LOVE your britishness! We were talking for like 2 hours! Did you get in trouble? I hope not! lol. And it was hekka funny when you were all confused when I was talking to my mom in Pashto! lol! Aww…..Thank you so much for being there for me yesterday…I've only told 3 other people what I told you yesterday…Hayati, Jasmine, and R…I'm glad I told Jasmine, but since she doesn't really know …you know, so she doesn't understand it. I'm super happy I told Hayati…I don't know what I would have done without her advice..but I regret telling R…I wish she would forget everything I told her. lol. So after that, I was VERY careful about who I told it to…but it was so easy telling you…you're so easy to talk to! Thank you for listening… And I'll send you the “special” email after I reply to your email…acha? And GUESS WHAT?!?!?!? Hayati said YES!
OhmyAllah! What is wrong with my teachers?!?!?!
I wanted to drop AP Psychology cuz he's giving us waaaaay too much work and I wanna be extra lazy this year. So I decided to drop, I had the papers signed and everything. But when I told my friend, she blew up on me! She wouldn't let me drop the class! She took my papers from me and talked me into staying! So I decided to stay…but yesterday, during 6th period (Tayba, remember how I told you I had to go down to talk to the counselor?) I decided to drop it. So when I went, my previous English teacher was there, and she was arguing with me! She didn't want me to drop it! And the counselor left it up to her to decide if I could drop it or not. So finally the teacher let me drop. I was excited. Just a little worried about how my friend and my teacher would react..my friend was upset..and the teacher….I told him I was gonna drop the class, and he says, “well okay” So I'm thinking, “Good. I can leave easily.” But then he asks me why and he starts sweet talking me into not leaving! He's telling me how he knows I'm capable of the work and he knows I'm “intelligent” and I'm like, “I'm really not.” He's like, “You were my student last year, I've seen your work” and blah blah. Basically, he was saying hekka good things about me and telling me to stay. He told me I should give it two more weeks and so I say, “After two weeks, I can drop it?” He's like, “Well, I'm not gonna let you. I'm gonna make sure you stay. But yeah, you can drop it.” And he grins. So he made me go back to the counselor and made me re-change my schedule!!!!
UFF!
SO when I came back into class, he was smiling at me and my friend was hella cheesin. Then he gives us pretzals as “data” and he says, “They're halaal, therefore you can eat them.” I'm like awww! tHanks! lol.
You know what he made us do!?!?!? He made us chew the tiny pretzel for 3 whole minutes! It was disgusting. ewww!
And I had told my other friend, April, that I was gonna switch out and I'll be in her class today. SO when she sees me, she's like, “what the hell? Where were you?” So I had to tell her how he wouldn't let me drop and then she got mad!
MAN! Everyone was all mad today!
Sheesh!
School is crazy…my teachers are psycho! *screams*
lol what! ive never seen that episode!
hey im talkin on msn but no reply from u! i wanna call u! answer me! lol
OhmyAllah! You totally made my day by calling me! I swear, I was totally excited! BANANAS!!! lol. And STALKER?!?!!?!? LMAO! I swear, I was like, “What's a stoka?” LMAO! I LOVE your britishness! We were talking for like 2 hours! Did you get in trouble? I hope not! lol. And it was hekka funny when you were all confused when I was talking to my mom in Pashto! lol! Aww…..Thank you so much for being there for me yesterday…I've only told 3 other people what I told you yesterday…Hayati, Jasmine, and R…I'm glad I told Jasmine, but since she doesn't really know …you know, so she doesn't understand it. I'm super happy I told Hayati…I don't know what I would have done without her advice..but I regret telling R…I wish she would forget everything I told her. lol. So after that, I was VERY careful about who I told it to…but it was so easy telling you…you're so easy to talk to! Thank you for listening… And I'll send you the “special” email after I reply to your email…acha? And GUESS WHAT?!?!?!? Hayati said YES!
I was SO happy to talk with you. MAN it was GREAT! and dude its not STOKA! lol I was like oh crap! Im gonna have to spell this! LOL! That was so funny though! Nah I didn't really get in any trouble, my grandma was just like SLEEP WOMAN! rofl! Alhumdulilah. Aww Im sorry u got in trouble though! yeah man I was like hello, rani? are you speaking to me? n then in my head im like how can she be speaking to me, its another language! roflmao!. and hey sista u do not have to say thanks for anything. As I always say to ninja, its Sisterhood. I am so glad that you decided to tell me, and I love you for telling me too. I just hope I did enough to make you feel a little better. I will continue to do my best Insha'Allah. I did some research on what I was saying I was gonna research on. I will let you know through email soon, Insha'Allah?
and habeebati you MADE MY DAY by tellinf me that hayati said YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O.M.G! I am so excited!!!!!!!!!! Give her a hug from me! tell her I said THANKS!!!! *yaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!*
ninjaaaaa did you read this?!?! Hayati said yes!!! =D
LMAO! And when you spelled it, I'm like, “OH! She means stalker!” LMAO! I LOVE YOUUUUU!
and I didn't get into too much trouble…just a lil , “STOP TALKING ON THE PHONE SO MUCH!” lol!
HAHA! And I was all thinking, “Shush it Tayba! My mom's talking to me!” LMAO!
I love you… And yes, please tell me if you find something that will help. You're amazing…
AND I LOVE HAYATI! LOL! She always helps me out! lol. And she said not to do anything for her. lol.
LOL you never hear the 'R' at the end of any word I say! hence = stoka! lmao.
lol sorrry! I was like so confused when you were speaking to your mum! I was speaking to myself in my head and to you on the phone. – man that made me sound so retarded lmao.
*hugs* ILY2. Insha'Allah I will continue looking through some books and asking around too. Don't worry jaan, you will get through this Insha'Allah. Ameen!
lol Hayati is “hekka” cool (I started saying hekka coz of u here!! lol!! people are like, what?! ). Imma send her a thank u note? lol.
I do hear the R!!! You just don't say them sometimes!
lol. It's all cool about being confused.
And Thank you. I love you.
I'm telling you, man, I rub off on a lotta people. Hayati now says “you know” “blah blah blah” and “and this and that” cuz of me! lol. And I a thank you note is soooo sweet! but she said u don't have to do anything. lol. She's an amazing bum.
I feel so happy…but sad at the same time. for some reason.
i feel so…alone. but then I think and I can just feel the environment of Ramadhan already…beautiful.
*sigh*
?
I feel so happy…but sad at the same time. for some reason.
i feel so…alone. but then I think and I can just feel the environment of Ramadhan already…beautiful.
*sigh*
heyy jaan, why do you feel alone? Main hoon na! I'm always with you in heart. Ily. Feel better!! !
yumz….
EMPTY..
hollow
CAVED IN
sigh
Que?
Feel better soon alie *hug* I hate that feeling.. I was feeling it last night hence the 'A Whole New World' song on the 'sing according to' thread.
I then went to sleep and had this beautiful dream, yet it was coloured with a tinge of sadness… and it was so meaningful.. the colours, the feelings… I decipher more of it as I type this to you… wow.
I think I need to go and reflect on it….
Oye! Reflect some other time. Post dang it. Post. Sheesh! People seem to log on after I leave. What the hades is this! Lmao!
lmao. Don't worry I won't reflect yet. Things are too busy at home today and my thoughts are constantly disturbed lol. Okay so I'm posting! How's life senor J?
Now that I am under the shadow of my hero's hijaab? Much better. Thank you. How has your's been?
lmao my hijab cape must have superpowers too . Yeah things have been good Alhumdulilah. Stalker doesn't know where to stalk me, uni is starting, 1 bad thing however – already have a huge reading list! arghh!
It's like I've been living on a knife's edge…what with all this rain and lights flickering…must be a loose connection somewhere. Thank God I have plenty of candles. Stalker That so does not sound like fun. Sorry you have to go through stuff like this, Tayba. I hope he breaks a leg or erm his neck and leaves you alone. Lmao!
awww! that sounds so nice! I love candles. Man with an atomosphere like that, I could write some poetry. The atmosphere in London is just dull today!
Oh the stalker is a novice lmao its okay. Turns out he's also stalking my friend a little and she's just simply going to kick his ass, seeing as I can't in Ramadhan. Otherwise he would have found my heel hitting his foot so hard.
Feel better soon alie *hug* I hate that feeling.. I was feeling it last night hence the 'A Whole New World' song on the 'sing according to' thread.
I then went to sleep and had this beautiful dream, yet it was coloured with a tinge of sadness… and it was so meaningful.. the colours, the feelings… I decipher more of it as I type this to you
glad to be of assistance:)
… wow.
I think I need to go and reflect on it….
hmm share..reflect and share yr thoughts…
It's like I've been living on a knife's edge…what with all this rain and lights flickering…must be a loose connection somewhere. Thank God I have plenty of candles. Stalker That so does not sound like fun. Sorry you have to go through stuff like this, Tayba. I hope he breaks a leg or erm his neck and leaves you alone. Lmao!
wish it wud rain here already….miss the rain..false hopes…lotza teasing…
Scarry – It was sprinkling here yesterday! i loved it..I only wish it would rain harder..I am completely in love with the rain…
It's so weird…I just woke up like half an hour ago, and I'm already having a bad day…
Scarry – It was sprinkling here yesterday! i loved it..I only wish it would rain harder..I am completely in love with the rain…
It's so weird…I just woke up like half an hour ago, and I'm already having a bad day… cheer up huney
hmm i knw yaar..i really wud like to smell sum rain already..jnb is too dry and disturbing at the mo'
It's so weird…I just woke up like half an hour ago, and I'm already having a bad day…
smile or I'll call you…collect!
Lmao! So thoughtful…and devious if I might add.
I CAN'T STOP SMILING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I feel the stormy heat of anger swirling vigorously in my chest. I want to scream i hate it i hate it
jerk jerk jerk some things are just stupid jerks ..stupid idiot stupid stupid stupdi jerk i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate you for being so stupidly involved with them jerk jerk jerk they are all stupid jerks and so you are you jerk idiot jerk jerk idiot you stupid jerk jerk i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you stupid s tupdi stupid i knwo some of it is on my behalf but why do you care of them so much ack!!! you stupid jerk..there's nothing wrong with being locked up in a silver case and not letting anyone see you jerk! you jerk ..be to yourself more sometimes god
JERKKKKKKKKK
i hate it you jerk i hate them jerk im glad i broke her stupid bell you jerk i broke it twice stupid bell im glad i broke her bell you idiot. you jerk you yell at me lik eim a stupid criminal when you go off an do the things you yell at me for and its perfectly fine you jerk you're her stupid best friend jerk but you are yelling at me for asking 1 qustion about it jerk when you yell at me for having another persons number inmy phone with whom i spoke to for 20 seconds or less … im glad i broke her stupid bell you jerk its broken that means that you can move it from ur vehicle jerk ..it was a mistake jerk but i realized that from the time u told me she gave it to u … must have been some weird body-mind connection and i snapped it apart…and mistakenly did it again JERKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK you jerk you jerk i hate it i hate you i hate her i hate them why dont you just have no stupid involvments with themall jerk why jerk why you jerk
Scarry – I'll try.
It's so weird…I just woke up like half an hour ago, and I'm already having a bad day…
smile or I'll call you…collect!
lol. go ahead, me don't care.
Khushi – YAY!
KAVITA! Hunny, what's wrong? I'm here for you if you wanna talk about it. Don't let someone get to you like that, hunn.
i hate it you jerk i hate them jerk im glad i broke her stupid bell you jerk i broke it twice stupid bell im glad i broke her bell you idiot. you jerk you yell at me lik eim a stupid criminal when you go off an do the things you yell at me for and its perfectly fine you jerk you're her stupid best friend jerk but you are yelling at me for asking 1 qustion about it jerk when you yell at me for having another persons number inmy phone with whom i spoke to for 20 seconds or less … im glad i broke her stupid bell you jerk its broken that means that you can move it from ur vehicle jerk ..it was a mistake jerk but i realized that from the time u told me she gave it to u … must have been some weird body-mind connection and i snapped it apart…and mistakenly did it again JERKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK you jerk you jerk i hate it i hate you i hate her i hate them why dont you just have no stupid involvments why jerk why you jerk
That's what I like to hear! Let it out, hunn! I'm ready to read more if you need to let off some more steam.
I love you, Kavita!
No but this is not nice and im saying jerk becuase i jus thave to say it jerk they are all jerks and you know waht im not going to destroy my skin on this one because all of t his.. no i just hate it and i hate them and it'll never change because i cant do stuff but it cant no no no i have to do something else something else somethign worse something that i wont even feel but it'll be much worse i hate it i hate them
im glad i broke her stupid bell you idiot brokenmeans throw it away dont keep it there y ou freakin jerk..stupid idiot we already fought today and now there's more stuff..jerk..heck why dont u stay by yourself a little more ..the heck im the bad one in this and i do absoulty nothing i have no involvment with no other thing or person i hate you i hate you you jerk i hate her and all of your other friends you jerk and ..abt her claiming you to be her best friend..and that she calls u everyday and that u go over by her every day..adn no doubnt her brother is never home so its only the two of u. …HA! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA DO YOU GUYS HERE THIS??????????????????? NOW TELL ME IF THIS PLUS ALL THE OTHER THINGS THAT HAPPENED TODAY CALLS FOR SOMETHIGN MORE SOMETHING MORE TO PUT ALL this thing away JERK IDIOT JERK JERK I HATE YOU I HATE THEM I HATE THEM ALL I HATE HER I HATE THEM ALL JERK
Kavita…check your pms, hunn.
I CAN'T STOP SMILING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
aaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
cute…
No but this is not nice and im saying jerk becuase i jus thave to say it jerk they are all jerks and you know waht im not going to destroy my skin on this one because all of t his.. no i just hate it and i hate them and it'll never change because i cant do stuff but it cant no no no i have to do something else something else somethign worse something that i wont even feel but it'll be much worse i hate it i hate them
im glad i broke her stupid bell you idiot brokenmeans throw it away dont keep it there y ou freakin jerk..stupid idiot we already fought today and now there's more stuff..jerk..heck why dont u stay by yourself a little more ..the heck im the bad one in this and i do absoulty nothing i have no involvment with no other thing or person i hate you i hate you you jerk i hate her and all of your other friends you jerk and ..abt her claiming you to be her best friend..and that she calls u everyday and that u go over by her every day..adn no doubnt her brother is never home so its only the two of u. …HA! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA DO YOU GUYS HERE THIS??????????????????? NOW TELL ME IF THIS PLUS ALL THE OTHER THINGS THAT HAPPENED TODAY CALLS FOR SOMETHIGN MORE SOMETHING MORE TO PUT ALL this thing away JERK IDIOT JERK JERK I HATE YOU I HATE THEM I HATE THEM ALL I HATE HER I HATE THEM ALL JERK
****holds kavs reallllly tightly*** ..there now luw..di is here//albeit late but still here
all i am going to say is ….break away for a while…tell him u need some time away from him for a while
the rest i will talk to u about in my email
now **smile** feign one if u have to…we women tend to get alll weak and emotional letting men think they can go on walking all over our feelings
and love..no MAN is worth your dignity and self respect…sooo smile and show that u aint going to let this get u down
u can cry in my arms..ranz is here tooo…for that but dnt allow him to see how much this has affected u..
sighs….hate distances….
love u jaan….
one thin I will do ..when i meet this jaan of yrs…i am going to thump him for sure
usually one greets another with a handshake or if its informal a hug…depends onthe person r8
when i meet yr guy..I will carry a club..an african made club
thump him onthe head and then explain that this is hw women are suppose to greet men in Africa
and he sounds like someone who will actually fall for this line…
heres me giving u another waaaaarmmm hug..a still holding u tightly..dnt wanna let go..sigh
kisses Kavs ont he forehead…u will be fine…ur stronger than this
for now…this place is yrs…
VENT…..
~di~
Kavita…
…I feel…not good. because of certain people. *sighs* ..
Hey everyone .. it sucks. Ninja – take care..im sending you a hug too … sigh… i feel as though im not worth giving this advice becasue im guilty of not taking it myself…but dont let anyone get to you … you're wonderful … dont let them hurt you. .. hugs..luv you…
Ranz..thanks ..i did check..gosh you are so nice.. me luw you
And Tayaba I know you sent me a mesage I cant write now but sigh… I just.. love you too sighh
Diii …. ..thanks im giong to use your shoulder to cry on right now… you made me laugh though..about hitting him over the head with… an african made club..and ..its the way women greet men – wowwww i wish that was reality .. we would get to hit so much men over the head we'll be hitting some sense into them anyway. I love you dii
It all sucks. I cant concentrate I have a huge headache. You said not to make him see how i feel, well I think I did tht like 120%. I think thats a bad thing..according to you.. Well, he's having fun at his friends wedding at this moment .. good for him. Jerk. Idiot jerk. Idiot jerk german shepard jerk. I get yelled at for being strange I get yelled at just for asking a few questions. Everything he does is always correct but from the time if i say ..okay if i was doing the thing..then ha..i'll be the most evil person alive.
Well ilt all sucks. I cant think I cant concentrate I hate it all. I cant believe this.
Well jerk! jerk jerk jerk you idiotic jerk jerk jerkjerk idiot idiot idiot idiot jerk idiot idiot jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk idiot jerk jerk jerk jerk idiot idiot idiot jerk jerk jerk idiot idiot IDIOT JERK JERK JERK JERK JERK JERK JREK JERK JERK JERK.
I cant even stay because my brother wants the computer.
Thank you all for being so supportive. Yesterday I swear that all of the stuff inside of my body including my vital organs and blood was up to my neck being all ready to gush out of me I hate it I hate now.
Anyway I have to go. I love you guys so much you'll never know I say… you guys will just never know.
Hey Kavi im on the phone with alie, I just read her your message here. She says:
'Send me your home phone number, and I'll call you because I want to speak to you. Don't do anything stupid or silly! I love you, I miss you and I'm always here anytime '
p.s
'I really need to speak to you so send me any number to contact you on.'
Hey hunn, don't cry. It's okay sweety, letting it all out is the best option, and scarry is right, you always have my shoulder to cry on, sweety. I'm here for you, hamesha. I understand what you mean when you say that he yelled at you when you did something “Wrong” but if he does the same, then it's okay. I have had that too, hunn. I don't understand why you're with him if he treats you like this. Love can make people do crazy things…And Scarry is right, take her advice. I love you, Kavita, I'm always here for you. And this forum is always here as well, vent out all your anger. It's not good to keep it in, because one day or the other, it's gonna come out at once, and it'll be ugly. So vent it out now, while it's still fresh, don't wait for everything to boil up inside of you and then explode…You don't know how worried I am for you right now, my hands are shaking while I'm typing…Take care of yourself, hunn. I love you.
Habeebi…I'm here for you, na? Let it out, I'm willing to listen. I may not have the greatest advice, but I care. I love you, ji…will call you today, Insha'Allah.
My psychology teacher was telling us how it's good to let out your anger or sorrow, because it builds up inside of us, and no matter what, it will come out one day…and it'll be ugly.
Like how kids are beaten up by their parents…most of them grow up to abusing their own kids. That's because they didn't talk about what happened to them when they were young, and now they are letting it out by beating up their own kids.
Or how when people are raped brutally, they either become rapists or they run away from sexual contact. Even holding hands brings back the terror for them…
And it's not just beating or rape, it can be anything, if we don't let it out one way or the other, it'll build inside of us and have our conscious mind will have a batle with our subconscious mind…and eventually, our Id (resides in our unconscious mind) will win and we'll explode…
It's scary to think about…because we may even develop mental problems…
So my point is, let it out, one way or the other, just let it out…
I always knew it was better to talk about our problems…but the way my teacher was describing it, it was hekka scary… *shudders* he gave us all kinds of examples…and I've seen it in people…and it's so scary…
Alhamdulillah, I have always been able to talk about my problems…except one thing that has been bothering me for years…I haven't told anyone about it, and a couple of weeks ago, I decided to tell someone about it (Tayba, I'm working on it! lol), and then my teacher gave us this lecture about talking out our problems, and I'm just glad I decided to let it out…
I'm sorry, am I rambling? I'm just so scared right now, I'm sorry.
Kavita…
…I feel…not good. because of certain people. *sighs* ..
main hoon nah..take it easy nah…wanna vent….am all ears 🙂 **hugz*** yemz again
Have u ever had that feeling when all hope seems lost somewhere in the midst of u..The feeling where u can’t seem to feel …can’t feel anythingYour life is robotic, feeling less, and there’s no other soul in this world who will understand.There’s no one who is there, here, to listen, even if at the end of listening all they had to say was**chup alie, ur talking bull.sh.it** the fact that there’s someone there to LISTEN for a change would make all the difference, or would it?? Still there isn’t anyone, No one who is here… when u truly need someone, truly need a shoulder, there’s none!!! Amazingly sad life I live, always THERE, yet.. Always Alone!!!!!Always…Always… Slipping away, that’s how I feel, slipping into a void, sinking into nothingness,Hollowed into space, all this space in my head. My heart, tumbled dried searching for answers that are lost within the spins…spun out through the drains perhaps, now on its way to the sewers??? Am literally, physically, mentally, emotionally drained, yet with amazement, my spiritual strength keeps me from drowning..
I love God, am amazed @ how he keeps me from going under, and grateful to have at his love!!!
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If I were to say I have never felt what you have so sententiously written about, it would be a lie. We all, well at least, most of the people I know, have felt something similar. Loneliness has never been a special concern in my life, but, after losing the nameless dog, I have longed for companionship like I never did and frankly, never thought I could. In the mangled aftermath of my loss, I have discovered several things about myself, besides the undeniable fact that I need God more than ever.
If I were to say, Alie, I know how you feel or for that matter how anyone who experiences what you write of, feels, that too would be a miserable lie. I do not know how you feel. I can only imagine. Doing that scares me a bit. So, I can vaguely comprehend how much more agitating you feel.
But, you are absolutely spot on about one thing: God does love you. More than you can possibly understand. Yes, He does keep us all from going under. The Apostle Paul, who endured many sufferings for the sake of Jesus Christ once wrote to the church in Rome:
'What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised—who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.'
You will be in my thoughts today and in the days ahead. I pray that God would give you strength, courage and peace.
I love God, am amazed @ how he keeps me from going under, and grateful to have at his love!!!
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I feeeeel so AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH overwhelmed! lmao!
A few days ago I found a frog in the lobby of the place where I work. We had an event of sorts that required a spectacular number of indoor plants that we had to beg, borrow or steal from other offices in the building and I guess the frog came as an added bonus.
I playfully gave the frog a tap and the darn thing wouldn't move. So I lined it up like a soccer ball and kicked it like one would a soccer ball from the corner. Poor frog flew in the air and splattered against one of the huge glass doors, needing immediate attention from two janitors who had to clean and disinfect like crazy.
The frog has been on my mind since that day. Sheesh! I wish I did not kill that frog.
A few days ago I found a frog in the lobby of the place where I work. We had an event of sorts that required a spectacular number of indoor plants that we had to beg, borrow or steal from other offices in the building and I guess the frog came as an added bonus.
I playfully gave the frog a tap and the darn thing wouldn't move. So I lined it up like a soccer ball and kicked it like one would a soccer ball from the corner. Poor frog flew in the air and splattered against one of the huge glass doors, needing immediate attention from two janitors who had to clean and disinfect like crazy.
The frog has been on my mind since that day. Sheesh! I wish I did not kill that frog.
At your age Senor saab??, I can’t phantom what had been going through your mind, but that’s cold blooded murder, the poor frog!! Eeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuu..
Developed a migraine now
Dat could’ve been my prince u just mashed…sighs!!!
Diii …. ..thanks…
for?? havent done much hun
im giong to use your shoulder to cry on right now…
do dat, shoulders are always available..wait letsee..okay..u can go ahead, no armani suits on today haha..me will join u as wellwe shall cry like a duo of bag ladies who just got drench in rain…
you made me laugh though..
yay was hoping u wud
about hitting him over the head with… an african made club..and ..its the way women greet men – wowwww i wish that was reality .. we would get to hit so much men over the head we'll be hitting some sense into them anyway.
i knw but it still wont work ..sighs…we can try though, will start with yr guy..then move on ..wat say??
I love you dii
i knw..back at u..i love u too hun..wish u cud pack yr bags and *** live with craze ol moi for a bietjie
i wud love dat for real….
It all sucks. I cant concentrate I have a huge headache.
wow..amazing…same here…know how u feel..at least u can have painkillers..me will have to wait:(
You said not to make him see how i feel, well I think I did tht like 120%. I think thats a bad thing
why is it??
..according to you.. Well, he's having fun at his friends wedding at this moment
so let him go ahead..what stopping u from having fun huh???
.. good for him. Jerk. Idiot jerk. Idiot jerk german shepard jerk.
chup with the name calling already..ur soo gonna regret calling him this…**winks** u know dat…
I get yelled at for being strange I get yelled at just for asking a few questions. Everything he does is always correct but from the time if i say ..okay if i was doing the thing..then ha..i'll be the most evil person alive.
waaaah?? not sure jaan, perhaps its the approach?/ the way u address the issues with him?? am with Ranz on this…
love is one thing right..but when the person u love starts treating with u such disrespect then u will have to think, really think about whether the
relationship is healthy and worth keeping. As far as I am concerned, there isnt any thing wrong with u as such, what u are going thru is the norm, there are thousands of young and old people who go thru the very stages u are at ..now…hun whilst am saying this i want u to knw that u have come a long way from that enclosure of yrs since I knew u and I am darn proud of ye **high fives kavs** baby steps..sweety, ur getting there..and I am here to help u as long as
I understand how you feel…but you're always in my duas, hunn. And I'm always here for you if you need to talk. I promise I'll listen.
A few days ago I found a frog in the lobby of the place where I work. We had an event of sorts that required a spectacular number of indoor plants that we had to beg, borrow or steal from other offices in the building and I guess the frog came as an added bonus.
I playfully gave the frog a tap and the darn thing wouldn't move. So I lined it up like a soccer ball and kicked it like one would a soccer ball from the corner. Poor frog flew in the air and splattered against one of the huge glass doors, needing immediate attention from two janitors who had to clean and disinfect like crazy.
The frog has been on my mind since that day. Sheesh! I wish I did not kill that frog.
At your age Senor saab??, I can’t phantom what had been going through your mind, but that’s cold blooded murder, the poor frog!! Eeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuu..
Developed a migraine now
Dat could’ve been my prince u just mashed…sighs!!! Maybe he was trying to do that so it would heighten his chances…who knows……………..
As for you Senor…. that was really a horrible thing to read. Seriously…its not nice to go around splattering animals into juices …. gosh..sighs… I really wished you didnt kill that poor frog too. I feel really sad for it. And Im kind of mad at you that you would do such a thing! But its over… and even you said you wished you didnt do it…yeah..AFTER you did it… sighs
i knw but it still wont work ..sighs…we can try though, will start with yr guy..then move on ..wat say?? Ha ha – ahhh well…. i wonder how many dudes will fall for that? .. i think if you really come to meet ..dude in real life..you'd fall for all of his jokey/nice attitude… i kind of dont like how he makes everyone love him so much…but…thats crazy
I love you dii
i knw..back at u..i love u too hun..wish u cud pack yr bags and *** live with craze ol moi for a bietjie
i wud love dat for real…. Mannnnnnnn! I wish diii ! Aw gaaawd.. think of seeing dii all day and cookin with her lol..dont blame me if i make you screw our lunch up..then we can go to some bushy area and stare and animals grrrrrrr! lol.. i know you're thinking about my 'misconception' of africa..but im talking about ..the parts where animals are..but wait…do they like..bite? i mean like…do they try to kill you? cos then…um… i would have to rethink
It all sucks. I cant concentrate I have a huge headache.
wow..amazing…same here…know how u feel..at least u can have painkillers..me will have to wait:(
Aww dii! Dont overwork yourself too much. Take rest!
You said not to make him see how i feel, well I think I did tht like 120%. I think thats a bad thing
why is it?? I meant its a bad thing ..according to you? .. I mean to not let him 'know' … but then again if he doesnt know then he'd probably think Im still a cold person … i know it gets more confusing as i share more info ha
..according to you.. Well, he's having fun at his friends wedding at this moment
so let him go ahead..what stopping u from having fun huh???
Whadda you mean! What fun am I going to have? What fun can I possibly have? I dont really…define 'fun' as…really excited upbeat things..cos i dont get much of that… sigh..well the most fun I had during this time was … um… putting on lipstick and taking out pictures on my phone and camera. ..yeah while im sure he was ……..ah forget it >> oh yeah and then i came on BWL..but..sighs.. i thought i scare you guys cos..darn…i was feeling like… strange and angry upset and yelling JERK JERKJERK mentally ..constantly.. and sometime outloud
.. good for him. Jerk. Idiot jerk. Idiot jerk german shepard jerk.
chup with the name calling already..ur soo gonna regret calling him this…**winks** u know dat…
Ah, you're right… Well I dont REGRET it… but I did ease up on the name calling..or thinking about name calling… I still think his friends are… *ahem*…J …. J … I… okay dii! I wont name call! ..but that doesnt mean its not in my mind…omg..that makes me sound like such an evil person!
ARRRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
(the sound Charlie Brown makes every time he misses that football!)
Not sure if I'm frustrated or angry or both! Thought I'd come home and ruminate on it!
beeeaaaauuuttiifullllll
must be the meds
I luked in the mirror this am and saw a beautiful woman staring back at me
that too..a makeupless woman
sighs…
for the first time in my almost 28 years..I feeel content being meeeeee
A woman who sees herself and feels beautiful is the most beautiful woman in the world. Strange isn't it? When a woman feels ugly, her feelings change the way she looks, thinks, and acts. Sigh!
So ur saying if a girl thinks she's ugly, then she's really ugly?
Sheesh. that's not too good for me.
When a woman 'feels' ugly, then it changes the way she looks, thinks and acts. Not permanently but at least for a while, unless she believes a lie more than she knows the truth- that she is beautiful. There are also exceptions to the rule. But, you, gorgeous, should not be worried. Not even the least. If your words and feelings are any indication, my heart tells me that you are one of the most beautiful people my eyes may have never seen. Smile! You add a little more warmth and a lot more light to the world around you. You most certainly do, to mine.
That was so very sweet Senor.
She IS beautiful. She just doesn't realise it. Rani, like I always say…. look at yourself through my eyes… only then you'll realise how beautiful you are, and what a wonderful person you are. You're special. Don't ever forget that! ILY
Senor thats very sweet ji.
But you should explain your concept..so you're trying to say if i BELIEVE THAT IM ..beautiful then I will be??
I wish your concept was true but I dont think it is.
How about you ji? Do you think you're beautiful?
RAni jaan you are beautiful and sweeet and loving and caring and I know from my heart ……. you can easily shine up a room! Love you!
Kavita ji, if I thought I was beautiful, I would have become a hair-stylist. Lmao! No, I do not think I am beautiful. I am blessed. I live the life of my dreams wide awake. God has brought better people in to my life and they all help make me a better man. I am unconditionally loved by exceptional individuals who could have chosen to bestow their affections on a much better person, but chose me instead. I am grateful.
See, the problem with thinking one is beautiful or handsome is that it is most often in comparison to another. Or, we restrict beauty to specific body parts: My face…my nose…my eyes…my hair…my ass…and so on. I believe our Father in Heaven is not in the business of making junk. 'Practice makes perfect' may apply to Homo Sapiens but absolutely not to God. With God, 'Perfect makes perfect.'
The Scriptures say, that '…we were fearfully and wonderfully made…' and I believe them. I look exactly as my Father in Heaven made me (except for my nose ever since I broke it several times playing Soccer, or my ankle that I broke in a biking accident, or my left shoulder that I severely injured in a fall from a tree, or my right thumb that I broke more than once…they all look slightly different from the way they were made).
Another thing I have learnt is that one man's definition of beauty is another man's reason for nightmares. My uncle was not an attractive man, and my aunt was so beautiful you would feel like sneaking up behind her to see where she hid her wings. My aunt adored my uncle. She was truly and deeply in love with him. I remember once asking her, 'What do you see in Uncle? He looks like a Gorilla?' She smiled and said, 'Honey, I wish I could lend you my eyes.'
The Bible says God would rather die than live without me (Gospel of John 3.16). I do not need another compliment or any other sort of assurance. I matter to Him who is from everlasting to everlasting and for no act of mine. That is what matters most in my life.
Oh, Kavita, you are beautiful. Your Father in Heaven sure thinks so. If you have doubts, feel free to pick an argument with Him, but be warned, He never loses an argument.
When a woman 'feels' ugly, then it changes the way she looks, thinks and acts. Not permanently but at least for a while, unless she believes a lie more than she knows the truth- that she is beautiful. There are also exceptions to the rule. But, you, gorgeous, should not be worried. Not even the least. If your words and feelings are any indication, my heart tells me that you are one of the most beautiful people my eyes may have never seen. Smile! You add a little more warmth and a lot more light to the world around you. You most certainly do, to mine.
awwwwwwwwwwww! That is sooo sweet of you….thank you. I want to believe you, I wish I could… but awwww… thank you…
P.S. I like the way you wrote Jameel in Arabic for the subject… (everyone else, Jameel means beauty beautiful)
That was so very sweet Senor.
She IS beautiful. She just doesn't realise it. Rani, like I always say…. look at yourself through my eyes… only then you'll realise how beautiful you are, and what a wonderful person you are. You're special. Don't ever forget that! ILY
I don't. I can't. I'm sorry… awww…I love you, hunn…I really do…I wish I could look at myself through your eyes…I love you oh so much… awwwwwww. Hunn, you're an amazing person, I love the way I am so comfortable with you… and I always come sooo close to believing your compliments.. I love you jaaan, don't forget that either. And don't worry, you better love me! lol. ILY93468349572304895734289!!!!
and so are YOU! For Allah's sake, you remind me of KAJOL! I swear, you are hekka beautiful! I'm fasting, so I can't li! I wish you would belive me… how do I make you believe?!?!?!? You are gorgeous! and I love you…
awwwww… I truly believe in this quote: “You don't love her because she's beautiful, she's beautiful because you love her.” *sigh*
yeh pyaasi pyaasi bahein, dekh rahi teri raahein…</em
I don't. I can't. I'm sorry… awww…I love you, hunn…I really do…I wish I could look at myself through your eyes…I love you oh so much… awwwwwww. Hunn, you're an amazing person, I love the way I am so comfortable with you… and I always come sooo close to believing your compliments.. I love you jaaan, don't forget that either. And don't worry, you better love me! lol. ILY93468349572304895734289!!!!
yeh pyaasi pyaasi bahein, dekh rahi teri raahein…
Kisi din banoongi main raja ki rani…
Rani:
Meri aankh mein jhaank kar dekh lo
Tumhein aaine ki zaroorat nahin
Ho bahut khoobsurat ho
Bahut khoobsurat ho
Bahut khoobsurat ho
Bahut khoobsurat ho
Chori Chori chupke se aayega voh
Aake tujhe le jaayega
Chori Chori chupke se aayega voh
Aake tujhe le jaayega
Yehi jeevan apna, yehi toh voh sapna
Maine dekha, tune dekha</
Meri aankh mein jhaank kar dekh lo
Tumhein aaine ki zaroorat nahin
Bahut khoobsurat ho
Chori Chori chupke se aayega voh
Aake tujhe le jaayega
hum sab ne dekha….
Bohot jald banegi tu raja ki rani!
awwww! Ameen! Aur tu bhi banegi apne mehboob ki princess! Thumma Ameen!
*sigh* this reminds me of
Tada kar aayega voh, tujhe mil jaayega voh…tera mehboob…
Tayba, I have to tell you somehting really really really important!
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I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!
I love you toooooooo! threeeeeeeeeeeee! fourrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! ok u get the point lol. Ameen to your duas! Thumma Ameen!
My friend is showing me some bridal pics. *sigh*
Sab ki baraatien aayi, dholi tu bhi la naa, dulhan baanake humko raja ji leh jaana….
LOL! Stop ittttt! I'll look for a guy for youuu! Acha? Exported from Amreeka! LOL!
Anything specific you prefer in him?
*Shouts* Rani!!! You brought smiles to our faces so many times, you are so sweet and loving and caring! You are beautiful.
You are beautiful Rani jaan … there is no doubt about it.
Would you stop with the Kajol thing alreadyyyyyyy …
I love youuu ~~hugs~~~
Heyy Tayaba ! How are you? What what, Rani are you match making? Exported from America lol ! How bout we find a guy here and then have Tayaba sent out so then we can see her too ! Tayaba you can impress him with your British accent ! ~~~hugsssssssssss and kisses ~~~~
Heyy Senor JJ …whats rocking your boat today? Hope the wind isnt making it sway too much!
Kavita ji, if I thought I was beautiful, I would have become a hair-stylist. Lol what are you trying to say about male hair-stylists?! Hm hm hm?! Hehehee Lmao! No, I do not think I am beautiful. I am blessed. I live the life of my dreams wide awake. God has brought better people in to my life and they all help make me a better man. I am unconditionally loved by exceptional individuals who could have chosen to bestow their affections on a much better person, but chose me instead. Aww ji ! It sound as though you just sort of put yourself down ( yeah hard to believe – I havent seen that much from you) However, Im sure they chose you because you are unique and they have good reason for the choice that they made and it was not forced upon them.. I am grateful.
See, the problem with thinking one is beautiful or handsome is that it is most often in comparison to another. Sighs..well its what other people say for heavens sake..oh she is more beautiful than her..she has more curves THAN HER OH THIS OH THAT…ack!! judging i tell you..not nice no no. Or, we restrict beauty to specific body parts: My face…my nose…my eyes…my hair…my ass ummmm is this one of your body parts that you think is beautiful im joking…and so on. I believe our Father in Heaven is not in the business of making junk. 'Practice makes perfect' may apply to Homo Sapiens but absolutely not to God. With God, 'Perfect makes perfect.' This quote made me think sooo much ji … its more about what people have turned beauty into right… EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL but..people on earth just turn it into differnt things with different definitions… That is uncool. Everyone is beautiful and this will always be a strong belief of mine.
The Scriptures say, that '…we were fearfully and wonderfully made…' and I believe them. I look exactly as my Father in Heaven made me (except for my nose ever since I broke it several times playing Soccer, or my ankle that I broke in a biking accident, or my left shoulder that I severely injured in a fall from a tree, or my right thumb that I broke more than once…they all look slightly different from the way they were made).
Another thing I have learnt is that one man's definition of beauty is another man's reason for nightmares. My uncle was not an attractive man, and my aunt was so beautiful you would feel like sneaking up behind her to see where she hid her wings. My aunt adored my uncle. She was truly and deeply in love with him. I remember once asking her, 'What do you see in Uncle? He looks like a Gorilla?' Poor aunty! How could you tell her such thing about her husband She smiled and said, 'Honey, I wish I could lend you my eyes.' Awwwwwww ….. thats so sweet …
The Bible says God would rather die than live without me (Gospel of John 3.16). I do not need another compliment or any other sort of assurance. I matter to Him who is from everlasting to everlasting and for no act of mine. That is what matters most in my life.
Oh, Kavita, you are beautiful. Your Father in Heaven sure thinks so. If you have doubts, feel free to pick an argument with Him, but be warned, He never loses an argument. Ahaha… or I can pick an argument with you for bringing that up. Im just joking ji … what ever you said.. I am in totaly belief. I believe everyone is beautiful. God must have made everyone great … after all , he
But, you,
gorgeous, should not be worried. Not even the least. If
your words and feelings are any indication, my heart tells me that you
are one of the most beautiful people my eyes may have never seen.
Smile! You add a little more warmth and a lot more light to the
world around you. You most certainly do, to mine.
yo mr senorJ….what u waiting for? propose to her already! if it makes u happy it cant be that bad, rite? 😉
go for the kill. aim straight at her heart. she wont have time to react. catch her off guard!! just do it.
Oreo! Shush it! The guy is old enough to be my grandpa! and besides, my heart is already taken.
whoa. my baaad. Jameel (masculine) and Jameela (feminine) means beautiful. Jamaal means beauty. I realized that after I logged off.
(I hope I'm right, where is ninja when u need her?!?!)
you're right.
I hope to learn 1000 popular Arabic words by the end of the year. After that I am going to pester Ninja to teach me conversational Arabic. Lol! I want to learn how to pray in Arabic. It is such a beautiful language.
I hope to learn 1000 popular Arabic words by the end of the year. After that I am going to pester Ninja to teach me conversational Arabic. Lol! I want to learn how to pray in Arabic. It is such a beautiful language.
one of the sincerest things I have heard someone say in a while..gud luck with this…
may I ask WHY?? though?? besides the attraction to the lang?
dnt answer if ur not willing to…
When my commitments to what I am doing where I am end, I would love to enroll at the University of Chicago and earn a degree in Ancient Near Eastern Languages (Egyptian, Hebrew, Aramaic, Sumerian, Akkadian and Ugaritic). While I am yet waiting for freedom from my commitments, I would love to learn Arabic. Oh, I believe that the language of prayer is raw, naked and utterly truthful. One cannot hope to hide anything from God. Lol! I just want to pray to Him who understands the words of any soul in any language, in a language that is different from mine.
When my commitments to what I am doing where I am end, I would love to enroll at the University of Chicago and earn a degree in Ancient Near Eastern Languages (Egyptian, Hebrew, Aramaic, Sumerian, Akkadian and Ugaritic).
May I ask….why the university of Chicago?? specifically?? its something I have been thinking about for the last year..well secrectly thinking about until NOW…NOT studying in chicago as such…
While I am yet waiting for freedom from my commitments, I would love to learn Arabic. Oh, I believe that the language of prayer is raw, naked and utterly truthful.
i believe so too..truly do..in fact I cudnt have phrased it better
One cannot hope to hide anything from God. Lol!
u think so huh, lol..u shud sneak in an listen to me pray..most of the time, its more conversations I have with God..and am laughing at my craziness, imagining God shaking his head at me and my pagalness..yet still loving me for being me..its difficult to pray for oneself ..sincerely pray for ones self…sighs…at the end of the day only God KNOWS wat truly resides in our hearts, minds and souls…am a useless…always seeking for others…never for me..yet God knows wat truly lingers in my soul..hence all the laughter..coz like u said **we cant hide anything..nothing..from God…heck its come to a point when i cant even lie to myself anymore…
I just want to pray to Him who understands the words of any soul in any language, in a language that is different from mine.
again u say what I feel….its the way I am..**sighs with relief** finally someone who UNDERSTANDS or may understand my faith..belief and so forth.. wud love to talk more with u ..discussing further on this…
I FEEL BETTER AFTER READING YR WORDS…
I feel like crying in someone’s arms… I need a hug…
*Running to Rani, arms opened wide*
Im giving you a warm hug filled with love and comfort. Aww honey! I can tell you not to cry because I dont want you to. But if it happens, Im here .. *surrendering my shoulders*
Feel better my darling and dont be upset. I love you , we all love you.
By the way, who is this person who has caught your heart? Just curious…is it Abhishek again or…some… . other person..who shares the same zip code as you?
~~~hugs and kisses ..and love..lots and lots of love ~~~
**grabs em tissues** wipes rans eyes…**wraps her up warmly in my embrace**
No probs…cry…go on now…
**kisses ranz on the forehead** u will be ok jaan…
Mwah,
~~scarry~~
ps: love u lil one
Kavita – *hugs Kavita tiiight* I love you for being here. and no, he doesn’t share the same zip code as me…*rests head on Kavita’s shoulder*
wraps her up warmly in my embrace**No probs…cry…go on now… **kisses ranz on the forehead** u will be ok jaan… ps: love u lil one
*hugs scarrry tight and doesn’t let go* I love you. *covers face in scarry’s shoulder and cries*
My arms for you are open, my heart for you does care, and whenever you need me…. I'll always be there. InshaAllah. Can't wait to speak with you again. *Big hug for now*
*hugs tayba tight and doesn't plan on letting go* I love you.
I love you more
*Holds Rani*
How are you hun? Doing better? It'll be alright, you watch…. we all love you
Tayba – Rani jitna pyaar aap se karti hai, utna pyaar aap Rani se nahi karti. Kavita – Actually, I feel so much better after my talk with Tayba on the phone. She made me feel so much better. I love her for listening to my nonsense.
lol stop quoting Fanaa u! I lub u more :p awww I'm soooo glad I made you feel better!!!! and its not nonsense!!!! Keep smiling beautiful! xx
Aww! You guys lol.. i m sensing all the love in the air
Tayaba Im glad you cheered Rani up!
And … its not nonsense hun … !
@ this moment, i truly wish I cud be in 2 places at once hun…
makes me feel really heart broken not to actually have u in my arms
dnt let go..u can remain here, safe in my arms for as loong as u wish…
and cry for as long a u want to….
sighs!!!..
reminds me of an incident of late…double sigh!!!
ps: good to hear ur feeling a bit better my sweet angel ranz…
**hugs u sum more** mmwah
scarry
Awww me wanna hug you some more too Ranz!
*HUgging Ranz!*
**Aasmaan kehta hai rab se
Tune chaand do kyon banaaye
Aasmaan kehta hai rab se
Tune chaand do kyon banaaye
Ek mera tha hai daag
Doosra hai saaf saaf
Sabki nazar us pe jaaye
Hay
Vohi to hai meri hai vohi to
Ki jisko dekh dkeh chaand jalta hai
Vohi to hai meri hai vohi to
Ki jisko dekh dkeh chaand jalta hai**
me soooooooo feeels this ..L O V E now
**hugs kavs**
for being such a pagli..lol..
I dont know where thse lyrics are from dii
*hugs back**
BUt vot vot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am the one always get called pagli and silly!!!!!!!!!
oh immmmmmmmmmm the one !
HMPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PSAHTT!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dont know where thse lyrics are from dii
*hugs back**
BUt vot vot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am the one always get called pagli and silly!!!!!!!!!
oh immmmmmmmmmm the one !
HMPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PSAHTT!!!!!!!!!!!!
oye chup!!!!
first..dose lyrics are from the movie mast..aassmaaa he kehta…sighs!!! sonu is just wow..i love his voice…i love that movie..with Aftab
soo cute and romantic..
have had sonu's cd's playing almost everynight..falling asleep with his voice in my dreams hahaha
now..yesh, u are the pagli one..the lil one..MY BABA SISTER…u not happy??? u not kush dat scarrry loves u sooo much???
hmmm ok
Thia was part of my gift for my birthday..I was home ill the week before sooo my family and friends gathered together…packaged my pressies and wishes and sent her offf as my surprise..woke up on saturday morning…with Alice standing over me..she moved and there was Thia..my baby sis..
I cant explain how happy that made me..now my point here is dat…she spent the weekend with me and left on Sunday n8…anyways, she saw yr message on my fone and asked
who is kavi Alish??
I said….my lil baby sis tzzz..
she sulked…lol…yup she did coz she is my life, my soul my everything and she is very comfy being the centre of my attention and her hearing me call U my angel BABY sister…made her a bit jealous…
soo i said to her..
**ur still my baby sis..always will be but she ( you kavi ) is OUR baby sister…the cutest most precious lil sister anyone would feel blessed to have in their life..soooooo now….am not sure if am explaining myself properly but just wanted u to know
that ur cute an lovable and paglish and i looveeeeeeeeeeee u soooooooooo much…hence all the teasing…
not in a literate way but in the adorable way u are my lil silly pagli sister….OKAY
okaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy…
love u…
sooo get used to the endearing terms I will use..ur lucky I dnt tease u the way I do tzzz..lol
mmwaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhzzz
~~~meeee~~
Hey di !! OMG – Did you actually tell your little sister that? Okay I feel LIKE A TOTALLY BAD PERSON NOW. Man I made someone feel down .. or at least – sulk! with some negative feeling! Aww man!! Poor girl
I love you tooo diii buttt I cant believe you said this to your little sister.
Im glad that you saw her for your birthday though. By the way, how old is she?
Sighs,,, me love youuu but…Why did you do that ?
As for the silly thing.. its alrgiht..its just i've gotten the name SILLY ..yes HE tagged it on me..and of course he says it in a friendly/”lovigng” way but gaaawwddd im always called the silly one ..GET THIS… EVEN WHEN HE SAYS SOMETHIGN SILLY! lol hahaa
love you diiiiiiiiiiii
hugssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
lol stop quoting Fanaa u! I lub u more :p awww I'm soooo glad I made you feel better!!!! and its not nonsense!!!! Keep smiling beautiful! xx
lol! I can quote fanaa is i want to! And I'm glad u made me feel better too. hehe. and keep smiling? okay! …….. I love you! and I hope ur ready, imma call u in a dew mins!
Aww! You guys lol.. i m sensing all the love in the air
Tayaba Im glad you cheered Rani up!
And … its not nonsense hun … !
I love you, kavee!
@ this moment, i truly wish I cud be in 2 places at once hun…
makes me feel really heart broken not to actually have u in my arms
dnt let go..u can remain here, safe in my arms for as loong as u wish…
and cry for as long a u want to….
awww hunn, it's okay, I feel better, really. Just having you say those words to me makes me smile! It feels good to know that someone cares…
ps: good to hear ur feeling a bit better my sweet angel ranz…
**hugs u sum more** mmwah
*hugs scarrry tiight* I wish I could make you smile…you're so nice…
Awww me wanna hug you some more too Ranz!
*HUgging Ranz!*
lol! awwwwww! *hugs kavee tight* I love you! U guys are sooo sweet! I can trust you guys to cheer me up when I'm sad. Thank you for everything….
lol. and I'm feeling much better now.
Great hun! Thats it!!!!!!!
~HUG HUG HUG *giggle* HUG HUG ~
hehee
ps: good to hear ur feeling a bit better my sweet angel ranz…
**hugs u sum more** mmwah
*hugs scarrry tiight* I wish I could make you smile…you're so nice…
You have no idea! She most certainly is!
And am glad to hear that you're feeling better 99!
Kavita-
Oooh, I wanna see more of her kindness. Btw, thanks nesserz. How are you?
Some days aer better than others, today isn't one of those days, but I'm alive!
What u up to?
I hope you feel better jaldi, nessa. If you wanna talk about it, I’m ready, bring it on. I’m kinda hungry, I should go get some food, but I’m too lazy. lol. What upperz?
I will and thanks 99 *big bear huuuug*
I don't stay down for long!
Oho!!!! So u're a laaaazy hobbit! *snort*
*hugs nessa tiiight and then tickles her afterwards*
Neither do I.
and I ain't a hobbit! You giant! but I am lazy.
Fee fi fo fum, I can't rhyme!
Ow, you broke my scapula you lazy hobbit! hahaha
grrrrrr.
and good!
to quote DH: “I'll sue!!” *sniffle* lmbo
Hey, tell the gorgeous Ninja I said wasss up!
sue me??!?!? You can’t sue me! and yes ma’am, I’ll tell her fer suuure.
Hey di !! OMG – Did you actually tell your little sister that?
erhmmm yup…
Okay I feel LIKE A TOTALLY BAD PERSON NOW.
waaahhh…??? why??? its not the end of the wereld deary
Man I made someone feel down ..
u didnt…jeeezzz….hun….
or at least – sulk!
okay yeah dat…but Tzzz luks cute sulkin hahaha so it aint a bad thing
with some negative feeling!
neva…she isnt like dat… she simply sulked a bit asked me a few q's bout u ..hugged me for dear life and dat was it…
Aww man!! Poor girl
waaahhhhhhahahaaaaaaaaaaaahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…woah..have te tell her to come view this bit hahaha
I love you tooo diii buttt I cant believe you said this to your little sister.
why not..its how i feel..wats wrong with wat I said..like seriously..am a bit confused???
Im glad that you saw her for your birthday though.
me tooo except she was irritated that i wasnt my usual self…nothing they did made me feel any better
enuf of dat…
By the way, how old is she?
jus turned 23 ..lol..yeah and her being the youngest ..she is still the baba ..my baby…
Sighs,,,
why sighs???
me love youuu but…
okaayyyyyyyy theres always the buttt… i love u ..butttt…flipppp!!!
realllly
Why did you do that ?
do wat??
As for the silly thing.. its alrgiht..its just i've gotten the name SILLY ..yes HE tagged it on me..and of course he says it in a friendly/”lovigng” way but gaaawwddd im always called the silly one ..GET THIS… EVEN WHEN HE SAYS SOMETHIGN SILLY! lol hahaa
lol…its cute kavs…he better be saying it in dat adora
Some days aer better than others, today isn't one of those days, but I'm alive! am grateful dat u are …
be strogn nah…**hands ova all my strength, love, massive hug, and more love to Ness***
Ha… hi diii
Dont be confused…
Anyway leave it.
Whats cookin with you?
And yes…he says it in a nice way… but still! hmmph! lol
Hugssss
Gotta study-have a test tomorrow love u
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Dont be lost Diii *running with open arms *
I have a test in a few hours I dont feel like studying though sighsss but will go ahead and review the things I studied last night.
i love you diii please tell me how your doctor visits are going and how the tests are coming along
it'll be alright
take care and dont stress yourself out too much
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No need. I'm here!
Permission to get all flirtatious please? Lmao! Oye! if the woman says yes, all ye of weak hearts, avert your eyes, we are about to 'bring it.' Oh yeah!
*throwing caution to the wind* lmao…yes, but only bcuz I'm such an inquisitive little lady!
Hmm little…? Tell me, cherie, not gnawing on the chicken leg again now, are you? Oh, I forgot to tell you! Remember a few days ago you posted something that went like this: 'Talk dirty to me…Read the menu.' Well, I mentioned that in passing while having coffee with friends, and you were a hit!
Now that the comic relief has past, tell me, besides caution, what else have you thrown to the wind? I'm thinking of a lake…Lmao!
Well, he does pay attention! Oh I remember ji! Wow! It did?! You must have great timing!
Haven't thrown much these days ji, any suggestions?
Hmm…the frontier pioneers up north could do with a bit of a bounce every once in a while though not on chilly days or you may put out an eye. The burden bearers down south do enjoy a bit of a wobble so commando it is, though not on windy days or they may be envious of their bearded cousin stealing the limelight.
But, an abandoned shore, abundant moonlight, and an inviting sea, would do just fine.
You never cease to make me laugh out loud and embarrass myself in public! lmao
Sounds pretty close to a great time! Last one there buys midnight coffee!
oh man! theres some hot bollywood action goin' on!! wheres me camera…
1 minute guys…let me just set..up…..this……camera…..and we….are….ready to…..roll
ok guys…take it from the top again…ness, can u do smtg with yr hair? its covering 70% of yr face. audience wants to see da faceeeee…not da hair. and senorJ, try not to show too much emotion for now ok? it seems that u are too eager to sweep ness off her feet. its a 3 hour movie people…if u guys are already in love in the first 15, what the heck are we going to show for the next 2.45???
alrite…3…2…1….andddddd ACTION!!
Lolz —- *awaiting the outcome of such fine art*
Which is my best side director ji?
Shall I bring you another glass of Haterade? lol
Lmao
Haterade
okay man im reallly crackin up nowww
cud imagine oreo with a lil hat on .. with that camera commanding and bossing the actors around
then again..that is like our lil oreo
oh man! theres some hot bollywood action goin' on!! wheres me camera…
1 minute guys…let me just set..up…..this……camera…..and we….are….ready to…..roll
ok guys…take it from the top again…ness, can u do smtg with yr hair? its covering 70% of yr face. audience wants to see da faceeeee…not da hair. and senorJ, try not to show too much emotion for now ok? it seems that u are too eager to sweep ness off her feet. its a 3 hour movie people…if u guys are already in love in the first 15, what the heck are we going to show for the next 2.45???
alrite…3…2…1….andddddd ACTION!!
roflmao..omg..wat da ??????????? wats going on here???
nevatheless…Jeeeezzzzz cant stop laffing u guys are totallly mental
ness NAAAAH leave the hair
remember yr hair holds they key..it is wat will attract Senor more sooo towards youuuuu
lol
not dat he needs further erhmmmm invitations hahahaha
oh boy…
Serio ji, I have but one request. I have a small scar just next to my left ear, courtesy of a ring. Usually its not visible but what with these glaring kino-flows and ARRI's and HD Cameras all in my face, perhaps it will. Since you've drafted me into the movie, I would like to be all vain and stuff Lol! If you can make me look good, I think you've done enough to deserve heaven. I warn you though…I was told a long time ago that I was the 'worst shepherd in the Nativity play.' I have no idea why since I didn't say a damn thing.
Alie, since when have you become assistant director? Huh?
Alie, since when have you become assistant director? Huh?
am assistant to NO ONE u hear me…
i was simply laughing an going wud the flow..coz it was rather cute
is dat a damn crime ??
why the 3rd degree huh??
me feels pissed off at the mo”
ness NAAAAH leave the hair
remember yr hair holds they key..it is wat will attract Senor more sooo towards youuuuu
lol
not dat he needs further erhmmmm invitations hahahaha
oh boy…
You're kidding me right? The director told me it was legs! Dang it someone get it straight!
I can't work under these conditions!
I'm a sheep, I need a shepherd
“You're the weirdest person I have ever met.”
“You're useless”
“I wish I could get rid of you”
“What the hell are you gonna do with your life?”
“who will wanna marry you?”
“I wish I could die right now so I don't have to deal with you.”
.
I wanna cry…I wanna let the tears flow…crying makes me feel better…but they won't come…
I'm a sheep, I need a shepherd
“You're the weirdest person I have ever met.”
“You're useless”
“I wish I could get rid of you”
“What the hell are you gonna do with your life?”
“who will wanna marry you?”
“I wish I could die right now so I don't have to deal with you.”
.
I wanna cry…I wanna let the tears flow…crying makes me feel better…but they won't come…
awww habeebati, I disagree with all of the above. Don't listen to any of that crap! And remember, people say all kinda things when they're angry, so whoever said this (and I think I know who it is) didn't mean it. *hugs* I'm here for you, and my shoulders are available, that is when Abdu is not on them.lol. kidding jaan smile, I love you!!
Rani, I cannot believe anyone would say that to you! Ninja is right. It's crap. Do not let it get to you. On a more sinister note, I haven't hurt anyone recently and I feel like I'm losing my violent bent. Could I have a go at this person? Please?
I'm a sheep, I need a shepherd
“You're the weirdest person I have ever met.”
“You're useless”
“I wish I could get rid of you”
“What the hell are you gonna do with your life?”
“who will wanna marry you?”
“I wish I could die right now so I don't have to deal with you.”
.
I wanna cry…I wanna let the tears flow…crying makes me feel better…but they won't come…
WTHECK. Who said this to you and how very well dare they????? No one, NO ONE has the right to speak with you that way, no matter WHO they may be. Rani I am trying to call you but your mum picked up. I don't even know if you're home but please if you see this then call my mobile asap and don't even worry about the time. If I don't answer leave a message and tell me what time I can call you. I haven't spoken to you since that night when you rang to wish me. I miss you and I am worried for you. I wana cry cuz I can't get hold of you! I hope you read this soon. I am so mad … why do people think they have the right to hurt others in such harsh ways. Astagfirullah. I love you rani and you are NOT useless, and BELIEVE ME if there is one guy that wouldn't want to marry you, there'd be something wrong with HIM and NOT you. *holds rani tight*
I'm a sheep, I need a shepherd – You are pure, but it does not imply being stupid. You are not dumb.
“You're the weirdest person I have ever met.” – You are the most beautiful sparkle I have ever felt.
“You're useless” – You mean half my virtual world to me.
“I wish I could get rid of you” – I wish I could hold you.
“What the hell are you gonna do with your life?” – Your existance, your life has done so much for me just by being. Your words raise me up.
“who will wanna marry you?” – I may never be able to agree to a boy good enough for my Rani, I love her so much.
“I wish I could die right now so I don't have to deal with you.” – I wish I am re-born a million times, just so that I can be around you.
I am not upset. At all. I'm not tiny bit concerned as to who said these things to you. But I was hurt – for the tears which are trapped within your innocent eyes. I wish I could have been the one to free them. Rani, it is that persons bad luck, ill fate and helpless destiny to have come across a jewel such as you and even dare to think such things, let alone utter them. I pity that individual, whose soul is such a graveyard where they missed the opportunity to blossom with your smile. I pity them so much.
No, Rani no *hugsi* No bacha – no way are you going to cry because of those words. As Tabz so rightly said, how dare they. Anger is boiling in me, but You are so special Rani that even my anger refuses to lash out because you represent every sweet feeling to me apart from anger and hate.
Tabz – please PM me and let me know as soon as you speak to Rani. I hate being bound like this…. I am sorry Rani. I am so sorry that sitting here, I cannot do much. I love you so much Rani…. I am so sorry…
Tabz, I am eagerly waiting to hear from you….
RANI:
YOU ARE beautiful NO MATTER what they say
DON’T let words bring you down
YOU ARE beautiful in EVERY single way
Yes, DON’T let words bring you down
So don't let them bring you down today
NO MATTER WHAT we do
NO MATTER WHAT we do
NO MATTER WHAT they say
NO MATTER WHAT they say
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds WON’T stay
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I wanna cry…I wanna let the tears flow…crying makes me feel better…but they won't come…
holds my lil angel scarry holding ranz
love u hun
Rani where are uuuu?! I am really worried about rani guys. I can't concentrate on anything and have been thinking about her all day… Today I was on the train and I was thinking about her and worrying and when I got off the train a girl complimented my abaya and we got talking and when I asked her name she said 'rani' (well not rani, but what rani's real name is) I was like The irony…. lol. I even said to her 'ohhhh man I was JUST thinkin of my friend rani… how weird' and the girl is like ookaaay lol.
I MISS YOU JAAN!
I knw wat u mean Tayba, she has been in my thoughts since last night, and its not like her not to reply to msgs
I do believe that Ranz is a strong young woman and that regardless of what life throws at her, she will come through it
It upsets me that distance is sooo evident at this moment when u want to be there for someone u love yet cant really…
I was talking to Mara earlier and there was this pic of Rani on my screen and I kept thinking
**where is she** isnt she online at around this time????*
Tayba u have her number soo call her and check up on our behalf pls.
and pls let em know ok…sms anytime..will be apprecaited dear
***for ranzz,
i miss uuuu to my lil one..my nieces namesake…
come on ova a give us a smile already
love u ***
scarry
Im confused guys – whats wrong with Ranz? Is she okayyy? Something happened? Oh my God… TEll me. Im feeling concerned and scared now.
I'm a sheep, I need a shepherd
“You're the weirdest person I have ever met.”
“You're useless”
“I wish I could get rid of you”
“What the hell are you gonna do with your life?”
“who will wanna marry you?”
“I wish I could die right now so I don't have to deal with you.”
.
I wanna cry…I wanna let the tears flow…crying makes me feel better…but they won't come…
Rani – My sweet love! Who is it that is bothering you? Please do not let these people or person get to you. You are beautiful you are wonderful your heart is so pure and loving. Be strong – I know you are strong – well all know you are strong my love. You were there for me when I needed you and you were strong for me – I need you now to be strong for yourself on top of the strength that I may be giving you right now. We are all here for you. But who ever is hurting you and saying mean stuff needs to stop!!! Who dare tell you any mean upsetting things?!!!. Like seroiusly why do people be mean to other people! Espeically if its not called for and espeically if … the 'victims' are nice loving people. Dont let them get to you Rani THEY are the ones who need to be hearing mean stuff from others because THEY are the ones with the problem not you. I love you. I love you soo much and I need you to be strong and we're all here for you.
OhmyAllah…I didn’t realize you guys would react like this. I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to scare you guys. I didn’t have time to come online. I had even forgotten that I posted anything! When Tayba called and told me everyone was worried about me, I was totally confused! I’m sooo sorry! I hope you guys can forgive me…?
I hope you guys don’t mind if I reply to each of you privately? I don’t wanna bore the rest of the forum with my repetitive nonsense. lol.
But lemme just say…
The quotes that I posted up…they weren’t said to me in one day by one person…I was just thinking about all the things different people said to me over the week…and so yeah, I just posted some of them. I guess I shouldn’t have.
But it’s not that bad, I have had worse said to me…but it’s my fault…if I change…then life would become easier.
I can just say I’m fine and get it done with, but this forum is my refuge…and I don’t wanna have to fake a smile here as well…
I knew this was gonna happen… darr lagtha tha, itni saari khushiyaan, kahin ghum agle mod pe toh nahi…
What hurts the most is that I know I’m not perfect, no one is! But when I have my flaws (and I have a lot of them) shoved in my face all the time, it’s kinda hard to change. And I want to change…for myself, if not for others. But when random people expect me to do it overnight, it just makes it harder! And then I give up on trying to change…and that’s when things get worse…
I probably don’t make sense. I’m sorry. I’ll go reply to you guys now. Check your pms, and if I keep in touch with you through email, check ur emails…
Ninja – check our diary.
And don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine.
P.S. If you don’t get any messages from me, please wait, I may not have enough time to reply to everyone today. I’m just gonna go in order… I’ll do it as soon as I can, okay?
Thank you so much for caring…it means a lot to me, really. You don’t know how nice it felt to have those beautiful messages read to me by Tayba…I felt so loved… Thank you.
OhmyAllah…I didn’t realize you guys would react like this. I’m so sorry! Dont be sorry Rani … we are here for you and you are free to vent and say all of your feelings. I didn’t mean to scare you guys. I didn’t have time to come online. I had even forgotten that I posted anything! When Tayba called and told me everyone was worried about me, I was totally confused! I’m sooo sorry! I hope you guys can forgive me…? No need to ask for forgiveness jaan – I am just content to know now – that you are safe and you are alright physically atleast…and that you came online and contacted us.
I hope you guys don’t mind if I reply to each of you privately? I don’t wanna bore the rest of the forum with my repetitive nonsense. RANZ!!! How dare you say such a thing my little jaan? I dont mind listening to ANYTHING you have to say ..and nothing is BORING … if you have to VENT and let your feelings out … you have 100% right to do so >>> dont call the words you say nonsense…and dont call the words you say repetitive and dont call the words you say 'boring' jaaan… you can say the same thing a million times – if it gives you some relief to get it out of your chest … that right there is a blessing in itself.
But lemme just say…
The quotes that I posted up…they weren’t said to me in one day by one person…I was just thinking about all the things different people said to me over the week…and so yeah, I just posted some of them. I guess I shouldn’t have. So you mean more than one person said 'mean' hurtful things to you? Oh Rani ! I agree with Khushi so much when she said that she pity them. They ought to receive pity. You mean so much to me … I see so much great things in you my lil schweeet scweet rani jaan …and to think of others saying such mean things to you …just make me realize that its THEM … THEY are the mean ones rani.. THEY are the ones with theproblem love ..and I want you to be strong and be strong enough to not make them hurt you … not make them make you cry.
But it’s not that bad, I have had worse said to me…but it’s my fault…if I change…then life would become easier.
I can just say I’m fine and get it done with, but this forum is my refuge…and I don’t wanna have to fake a smile here as well…No Rani – you dont have to fake anything here. BWL is your refuge and its our refuge and we are true to each other. I am here for you, we are here for you. To listen to you ->and even if we dont understand what you're saying or even if we cant do anything to help the situation – we are still here, we are stilling listening, will will still embrace you in your time
You do not have to be sorry jaan. Ever! Even worrying about friends is a part of friendship! Did you see the sun this morning?????
Ninja – check our diary.
And don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine.
Rani, I can't sign on .
private mssg me pls
*hugs* I know you're going to be fine, Insha'Allah. You've learned to be strong, Masha'Allah. and I can so relate to what you're saying, I go through it, but it doesn't seem to bother me anymore…cos yeah, I'm used to it. lol. don't forget to smile.
Ninja! I havent seen you on here for quite a while. I hope everything is okay? Oh hun, dont make others bother you also … be strong jaan. I know you are. And remember…stuff is wrong with THEM if they want to upset others.
I love you ~hug~
dear rani aka not the very best
deal with this u will, but the dark side u join must. and the secrets shall be reveal…
ouch.
Although Im not sure about what you want to change, you sort of sound like me… >> always wanting to change to be better. …yes But Rani – look at yourself – are you pleased with yourself? No. Answer that question. you are right — if you want to change do it for yourself I'm doing it for everyone. — do it becuase you know it will make YOU content and satisfied and better. It will. Nothing can be done overnight jaan… and I too hate it when people expects things to be done over night or over short periods of time..sighs.. but we are just humans. And I know sometimes we cant just go back to them and say .. “I could do it because I need time…and Im just human and I cant do everything so fast…and so and and so on” because sometimes they wont even be pleased. Oh, I wish I could tell the whole world that…but in my case, they just won't listen…I dont know who these 'people' are most of them are random people…but some are people I love… but I know you look up to your parents and that is wonderful. I think they are not your paretns though huh? … REMEMBER .. if you want to change change for YOU. Change for YOUR happiness, change for your better. I'm trying…
You do make sense jaan. But I want you to know – its okay NOT to make sense. … Its okay to say something so confusing that no one would understand:still say it if you want to, if you have the desire to let it all out. lol. Once I start, I won't be able to stop.
Please be fine. I'll be fine… don't worry. Take care of yourelf a
Ninja – check our diary.
And don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine.
Rani, I can't sign on . sorry! I changd the password cuz I couldn't sign on! private mssg me plsCheck ur pms, I pm-ed you the password. Sorry!
*hugs* I know you're going to be fine, Insha'Allah. I will, Insha'Allah. Please keep me in ur duas. You've learned to be strong, Masha'Allah. I have?…It was more like a “I had no choice” thing… and I can so relate to what you're saying, I go through it, but it doesn't seem to bother me anymore…I love you, hunn. Stay strong. cos yeah, I'm used to it. ugh…when will I get used to it? I've been going through this for 8 years now…there are times when I think I have gotten used to it..but the scars are too deep…I don't know if I'll ever be able to not let it bother me… lol. don't forget to smile. Seeing you smile makes me smile. I love you, hunn.
dear rani aka not the very best
deal with this u will, but the dark side u join must. and the secrets shall be reveal…
*giggles* Trust you to make me smile! Thanks, buddy.
You do not have to be sorry jaan. Ever! Even worrying about friends is a part of friendship! Did you see the sun this morning?????
Oh hunn…Did you forget to come to my house at night and steal all my ghum away? Because when I woke up that morning…there was no sun! All I saw was dark clouds pouring rain on us…but I loved it. Oh so much. Since I couldn't cry, the sky cried for me… I ran out into the rain and opened my arms to welcome it…I got drenched in the clothes I was supposed to wear to school. But I didn't change! lol.
And when I woke up this morning…still no sun…but no rain this time either…only dark clouds…
Looks like the ghum doesn't want to leave me, na?
But don't worry, I'll be fine, Insha'Allah.
I feeel soooooo overwhelmed!!!!!!!
feelings, feelings feeling feelings!!
i feel soo many feelingless feelings.wat are feelings??
why do we feel??
wats the purpose of feeling a feeling that is sooo unreal??
feeling this feeling that, feeling feelings beyond control
dats perhaps a lil of what I am feeling at the mo'
i am smiling, from deep within the depths of me, i smile, i FEEL that smile
coursing thru my veins, making me feel like i am on a high!!
can one trust her feelings?? I did …got me in a mess, put me thru many heartbreaking tests…
wat is real, wat is not, who is true, who isnt??
instincts??? they betray…friends..lmao ..am not so sure anymore!!
they say:
*let me in alie…*
*am not like the rest…alie*
I believe because I trust, I believe in my feelings, feelings that make me
smile and laugh in my sleep…
NOW..
My dear soul aches, for wats real…people are afterall people..
who is reall…who??????????????
thats part of what i feel…
heartbreaking madness is what i feel
yet through that darkness, the shadows are illuminated by a bright light..
believe me thats real..coz i feel..
smiles from my soul …and its all due to a stranger…
a complete stranger…
usually in my experience, a woman shed tears because of perhaps a thought word or deed from her partner had uttered
where men are concerned, my tears were always shed in vain, thru heartache..
yet the tears shed from my soul, just the day before ..was something else..
am not sure…cant trust wat i feel..coz i myself have no clue..am not sure if its real???
they were tears that has melted the restraints, the defenses that holds my heart and love in tact
now am a bit afraid..afraid…afraid afraid..TEARS OF LOVE?? tears shed accompanied by laughter..
laughter brought on with disbelief that a man could make me feel soooo utterly incomplete
without…without wat?? am not sure…yet!!!
yup me is feeeling different…on one hand I am heart broken because I allowed what one man said to me to pierce my soul and injure my faith, my love, my trust!!
and on the other hand, i feel FREE..coz thats all i needed, to break away…
i smile because of the words of another man, one whose soul is pure and true and one never fails to make my heart beat just a lil bit faster…
not love..cant beeee….love isnt for me
just ……=not sure..let this space be!!
am just Kush..
am in love…with life, appreciative of mine ( for a change )
in love with God, with the beauty that god had created,
am feeeling blessed
happpppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
love,
peace
light
amidst
all the darkness surrounding my heart, soul life..
theres
hope..
more strength
amazing strength
siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Its my party and I'll cry if I want to.
It's my party, and I'll cry if I want to! la la la you would cry too if it happened to you, why was he holding that beezee's hand when he's supposed to be mine? Like a queen with her king…so leave me alone for a while cuz i got no reason to smile. la la la la dee da da dee
lol that's all I remember.
Tayba jiiiiiiiiiiiii – screw them. Our MSN convo was funny… “S” *giggles* lol. That's my favorite letter.
dhood wali loves you tonz…
Don't forget to listen to our songs! And have a blast and screw them beezees!
That's the spirit Lmao!
lol rani thanks. I did have a blast! I always love our convos .
Senor *waves* how you doing?
Have you ever felt like you wanted to just…give up and not try anymore? For whatever reason, but for me, it's merely because when I look at the people I do my best for and respect so much, I find them to be very unappreciative and not only that, they show no care whatsoever! So, it's crushing me…and I feel unwanted all the time! No one seems to understand either…
…I don't want to give up, it's just not me. *sigh*
*tears*
Yes jaan I have felt and do still feel like that a lot. Its not a nice place to be. I am so sorry you feel that way. I am more sorry that people do not seem to realise your true worth. You are an amazing gem. You don't realise how much I respect you. I love you. You inspire me soooo much… I have become a better person after YOU came in to my life. Your wisdom, your insight, your friendship, EVERYTHING about you has a deep and important value in my life. You are not just my friend, you are my sister, and someone who helps and guides me. I appreciate you and I want you! I hope I can try and understand even. And if you still feel that I don't, then Insha'Allah I will always be here to listen to you and give you my shoulder. You already have my heart so I don't need to give that to you right now. I'm proud of who you are and I realise just how much you do for people. Allah is seeing it all, you WILL be rewarded Insha'Allah. Ameen, Thumma Ameen. x 10000000 for the sweetest duderina in my life. I love you. Feel better soon ..!
Have you ever felt like you wanted to just…give up and not try anymore? For whatever reason, but for me, it's merely because when I look at the people I do my best for and respect so much, I find them to be very unappreciative and not only that, they show no care whatsoever! So, it's crushing me…and I feel unwanted all the time! No one seems to understand either…
…I don't want to give up, it's just not me. *sigh*
*tears*
Never… never give up, I mean. Ninja – you are a wonderful person, you truly are.. you have an awesome way of being random and I love reading your posts, O Wise One…! .. I know it's too easy for me to say this, but please don't let anyone crush you. If they don't appreciate you, it is their choice na? (OK maybe they are not doing it consciously, so it is not really much of a choice..) You are a human being in your own right ji.. nobody – not even your nearest and dearest – can take that feeling away from you. Well that is my perception, I know. It is up to you if you agree with me or not.. but please take care of yourself Ninja. Believe me, I know I don't know very much about you, but I do know you have the strength to see through the bad times. You do.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I AM GOING TO KILLLLLLL SUZETTTE AND THIS FLIPPANT WOMAN WHO CALLS HERSELF BABY OR WATVA DA HECK …
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I CANNOT BELIEVE I WORK IN SUCH A HAZARDOUS FLIPPANT HOMICIDAL ENVIRONMENT
AM FEEEELLLLLLLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG*^&*)%$^)^*^(&()&*(()(&)()&&o(
RIGHT NOW
MURDERESSSSSS IF THERES SUCH A DAMN WORD
ARGH
HATE THIS….
I CANNOT UNDERSTAND HOW THE DAMN LARGEST SHIPPING LINE IN THE FLIPPANT UNIVERSE EMPLOYS SUCH
*&$(&^$&(^*(*(&(&*(&*( MORONS TO WORK BESIDE MEE…REEEEEALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYY
BESIDES ALL OF THIS CRAP I HAVE A DUMB BLONDE WOMAN AS A CLIENT WHO SIMPLY DRIVES ME
BONKERS….IF I DIDNT LIKE HER AS MUCH AS I DO, I WILL SHOOT HER ..RIGHT NOW…
****INHALES***
EXHALES
OK
feel a lil better..jus a lil….
am simply wondering if all this is worth it in the end…..at the end of each day
i hate having to go waaaaaaaaaaaaay out to get sumthing done for a client and then my own ppl mess up my account
just drives me crazeeeeeee with irritation and they have the audacity to TELL me I am wrong.lmao yeah damn right!!!
after spending two damn hours getting this hazadous box under control ..bein extra careful..at the end of the day..I am WRONG..
HHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMPPPPPPPPHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and i dnt need such feelings right now
our finance ppl are seriously clueless, how can the mng of finance NOT seee or find or even add for that matter
calls me in ..spends an hour annoying me with bullsh.t and at the end it takes me 5 bludy minutes to see what had happened and correct
their stupid mistake
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaarggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…I shudnt be sitting here in another dept whilst my company wastes soo much
time employing baboons to run the damn finance dept….
OKAY..SUZETTE just called to inform me that its her worse day too and and and…
anger subsiding now…
dammit hate not beign upset for longer periods …
hate it when i cant shoot ppl who irritate the helll outa me..suzette included
hate shipping her shipments..all those damn relcoms
drives me nuts
hate it when things gooo wrong after working my bludy a$$ off ..
hate it that i do love the challenges UPS brings but still
at this moment..i dnt need this added pressure
okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay
love this forum coz i can actually scream without having to frighten off Willem
who btw is by my side telling me if I start crying he WILL comfort me then
carry me off to the balcony and attempt to have his way with me lmao
now he blushes when he sees this
siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
So, you have had an interesting day huh? Lmao! Oi Willem, what the hades are you waiting for? Do not take no for an answer. Carry on!
interesting>> no..unbelievably disastrous
I actually slept last night, its been a while since I slept for longer than 2 hours
I WOKE up this morning watching the sunrise from my bed, feeling absolutely great and wouldnt leave the house until I found this song
..turned up the volume and danced ..danced sum more and sang along as well..the I had to run off coz I was already late but it was a damn beautiful morning indeed
came in to work ..feeeling great..coz I have made a few very important decisions yest ..
I logged in….found an email that really surprised me..didnt know how to respnd but eventually did..
only to receive one that truly confused the hell outa me and as much as I tried not to get upset..
my temperamental side took over..since then its been downhilll…
I dnt know..really..wer are u Senor, I want to talk with u…well more to u..lol
i need to talk to someone who will hopefully not give me bullsh.t in return…
if i am not already, after today, I think I will die of heartache..or heartbreak a damn heart attack of sorts
I need to speak to someone or else I will go craze in this **cocoon** of mine
As for Willem..are u bludy nuts..dnt encourage him..he is already a handful
craze kid that he is..
and besides u dnt want to feel responsible for someone having their hands chopped off coz they attempted to touch me
right!!! not my darling Willems coz he is super great at the mo…he isnt even saying anything to annoy me..
i need a bottle of vodka and another stroh rum or something as hazardous
Imagine you and me on the beach… talking until we are too tired. Then sleeping.
Boo that's so cute. *Sighs* I want to be on a beach too…. feel like just forgetting everything and everyone and going far away.
Yup! Y'all walk about on the beach. Stay away from the lake this weekend. Its 'bottoms up' day for the lads. Lmao!
duble yuk…..
u STAY away from the lake this weekend coz I am having a picnic there
Double yuck? Dang it woman, in one fell swoop you insulted both cheeks. We are going to the 'fire dance' this weekend, which is just a fancy term for a bunch of men dancing naked around (at a respectable distance) a log fire. We yell and shout make ourselves a nuisance to the farming community a few kilometers away Lol. When we go into the 'Palengke' the next morning for breakfast, the older folk have this scornful look but the younger women giggle and blush.
Ew, EW, EEEEEW!!
rotflmao!!! Talk about terrorism!
Lmao! Aww come on, DancyPants, you would love it so much, you'd be one of us. We would turn you in a erm flash!
None for me thanks, I'm driving! lmao
If your friends are anything like you, I'll sit and laugh from the shore (w/ my digifocus)!
Senor Saab….!!
Well, – I mean – Uhhh –
*speechless*
Nessa ain't gonna join the dark side, I guess… it's much more fun being on the other side and watching huh?
(Rani loves it when I'm speechless lmao…)
*cracking up laffin* Boo ma, oh Boo ma! Quite an invite, na?!
All the flirting I've been accused of lately!! *snort* If I accepted there may be a contract out for my head! lmao
FYI…I love when u're speechless, as well as *faints dead away*!
Yay! Audience! I will not disappoint you. I promise. Lmao!
exhibitionist!!
Egg-layer!
full-mooner! LMAO
Behind-the-scene gawker!
Excuuuuuse me???? That's no insult! lmao
You've never seen some of the behinds I have to endure at the lake. If you had, it would be an insult, and perhaps injury to your poor pinked-out eyes.
First of all: I DON'T have conjunctivitis!!!
Second: Now we come to the 'bottom' of the invite! Why should I suffer your friends' less than stellar 'backfield'?! I would never do that to you ji!
Lol! Touche!
LMAO!
You guys are too much.. I have a hilarious cartoon image of Calvin and Suzy in my head right now… quarrelling…
*runs away*
Yes jaan I have felt and do still feel like that a lot. Its not a nice place to be. I am so sorry you feel that way. I am more sorry that people do not seem to realise your true worth. You are an amazing gem. You don't realise how much I respect you. I love you. You inspire me soooo much… I have become a better person after YOU came in to my life. Your wisdom, your insight, your friendship, EVERYTHING about you has a deep and important value in my life. You are not just my friend, you are my sister, and someone who helps and guides me. I appreciate you and I want you! I hope I can try and understand even. And if you still feel that I don't, then Insha'Allah I will always be here to listen to you and give you my shoulder. You already have my heart so I don't need to give that to you right now. I'm proud of who you are and I realise just how much you do for people. Allah is seeing it all, you WILL be rewarded Insha'Allah. Ameen, Thumma Ameen. x 10000000 for the sweetest duderina in my life. I love you. Feel better soon ..!
awwwwwwwww! why you gotta make me teary, now!!! lol. Ameen to your duas ji! Jazaka'Allahu khair for all the beautiful words, as I am undeserving, really! I love you so much. I was thinking about you earlier, I want to talk to you. Thank you, sweets!
Never… never give up, I mean. Ninja – you are a wonderful person, you truly are.. you have an awesome way of being random and I love reading your posts, O Wise One…! .. I know it's too easy for me to say this, but please don't let anyone crush you. If they don't appreciate you, it is their choice na? (OK maybe they are not doing it consciously, so it is not really much of a choice..) You are a human being in your own right ji.. nobody – not even your nearest and dearest – can take that feeling away from you. Well that is my perception, I know. It is up to you if you agree with me or not.. but please take care of yourself Ninja. Believe me, I know I don't know very much about you, but I do know you have the strength to see through the bad times. You do.
I'm listening to you, and not giving up. Thank you so much, boo. your words mean so much to me, they do.
dat dang it word again…
anyways just for u
YUK YUK YUK YUK YUK yukkkkiiiittttttttttttttttttyyyyyyyyyy YUK DUDE!!!
ITS WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY TOOO EEEEEEEEEEEEUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
AN PLS SPARE MAH POORRRR SOUL FROM SUCH DETAILS….
will only believe such sillllly imagined lies when I see proof that this is done!!
Hey lady! What's up?!
Imagine you and me on the beach… talking until we are too tired. Then sleeping.
oh my God Boo…Oh my Dear God!! U shud be here witnessing my expression coz Words wudnt do justice to how this made me feel
'**thinks**years ago..vash and I ( always ) standing on the pier luking at the sunset, feeling the wind wildy caressing our skins…
this is wat Durban looks like..exactly..perhaps more stunningly beautiful..this is the view one will get when u are in a yacht..oh my gosh
I CANNOT tell u how much I miss home right now, how much i miss this view, how much i miss standing on the pier or sitting on those
rails that feels like its about to give way… or walking on the sand, shoes in my hand, laughing, carefree, eating ice cream..laughin sum more, how much i miss facing the wind on a yacht ..looking back at my beautiful city of Durban
feeling free…i wanna do that right now..just sink into the middle of the ocean ( on a yacht )
dammit…i feel sooo lost right now…
forget the beach Boo. When ur in Durban I am renting a Yacht or stealing my friends lil boat, and we are going to drift towards the ocean and then simply lay there soaking in the beauty of nature and watching life and talking..endless talking..hand in hand…
THANK YOU once more for KNOWING ..
I LOVE U
**Hands over the bucket to boo ** now for my massively choking Hug…..
I love u soo much for bringing back memories of me and MY LOST vash.. I told u
u remind me of her!!!!! and love u more for being u ….
Ps: TAYBA….wat da heck hun..ur also welcome to join, u KNOW u dnt even need an invite…..lets sail away..enuf space in there to have yr
**meeeee*** time ..
cheer up hunney…**hugs**
SIGH!!!
U guys are the bestest in die hele wereld
neeesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
***hugs**********
i think i am going to cry .just saw Boo's pic and its just ….u knw:)
hw r u love??
me missssssssssssssssssssssssssssss u
lol n now the darn tears!!
Yeah, I know! Boo has that effect on others! Nostalgia is her specialty, right Wife #2?!
S'ok to cry…it doesn't compromise your strength!
Today is a good day! Thanks for askin! No need to miss me, I'm right here! lol
k I just went out to the ladies to touch up my erhmmm makeup and I walked right into the glass doors
lol..I started laffing and the security dude luked at me in a sorta weird way coz I guess most women wud simply shy away in
not mee though.. i just laffed l..
he says: **ur having a bad day huh**
me: **nope, more like a bad life**
dat just wiped the smile outa my face…
anywys…think of me now walking into a glass door..dats gotta bring a smile to ye face..nah??
S'ok to cry…it doesn't compromise your strength!
i know ma….I know…eish!! me feels like grabbbing u thru this flippant screen and squeeezin ye with my hug and love…
yoh..wuts with da formality nah…me aint the president…yet…
like I will stop…
hws mah angel?/ and wers the pics of her tatoos?? she promised:(
**sulks***
Alie ji – it looks so much like Durban, because it IS… I thought that was where you would like to be the most…
Cry all you want ji… but promise me you will smile again, and mean it when you do! Bas!
Ness – Wife #2…. sigh! That nickname in itself is nostalgic…….
I really do have my head stuck in the past… (therefore my butt must be sticking out into the future… BAHAHAHAHAHA… what an image! I wonder what that would mean… I am heading for a erm.. 5h!tty future? LMAO… OK OK I will stop now… it's Senor's job to freak us all out… I get the picture… )
anywys…think of me now walking into a glass door..dats gotta bring a smile to ye face..nah??
yoh..wuts with da formality nah…me aint the president…yet…
like I will stop…
hws mah angel?/ and wers the pics of her tatoos?? she promised:(
**sulks***
Hell no!!! You walking face first into any type door doesn't even draw a chuckle! Is ur nose ok?
You? The president???? Oh heaven forbid!!!! ROTFLMAO
Our mobs aren't compatible! I've tried to send you photos of the wayward Scooter and her 'tattoos'! Uff!
Must email them or some junk!
Ness – Wife #2…. sigh! That nickname in itself is nostalgic…….
I really do have my head stuck in the past… (therefore my butt must be sticking out into the future… BAHAHAHAHAHA… what an image! I wonder what that would mean… I am heading for a erm.. 5h!tty future? LMAO… OK OK I will stop now… it's Senor's job to freak us all out… I get the picture… )
*cracking up laffin*
Now that is a photo I would sell my firstborn to see! Well…maybe my little brother! *snort*
OhmyAllah! This stupid stupid kid! He wrote an essay about a story he didn’t even read! Grrrrrrrrrr! Got me hekka maddddd! And and AND he wrote a PARAGRAPH with NO SENTENCES at all! It was about 5 words long! And the idiot – grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! I don’t even know why I’m so pissed, it’s just a damned essay, but grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Rani jaan – what exactly doe this essay have that is making you so pissed? Or is it the person you are pissed with? Whatever it is, take it easy hunnie – it'll be alright.
Ninja my jaaaan I dont know whats wrong but it'll be alright you are strong, dont go letting others upset you honeyy bunches of oats… now me love you and you can do it you are smart and wise you are loving and sweet … dont let them get you down..they are at fault , if only they can see.
Im trying to keep up with studying sighssssssssssssssssssssssssssss bio bi o bio next week test # 2 ..messe dup on test #1 soo depresseding and test 2 has more complicated stuff!!!!!!!!!!! i wont do good sighs i got 2 more tests in addition to bioo but plssssss help me make it to study bioooooo and UNDERSTAND sighs
Can't put anything into my own words right now, so….
I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone..
…… cries.
it's Senor's job to freak us all out…
What the? Lmao! Woman, come by the lake over the weekend, and you will comprehend what 'freak' is all about. Yeah, yeah, we're gonna scare all the fish away
it's Senor's job to freak us all out…
What the? Lmao! Woman, come by the lake over the weekend, and you will comprehend what 'freak' is all about. Yeah, yeah, we're gonna scare all the fish away
for sure..poor fish….yuk
Can't put anything into my own words right now, so….
I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone..
…… cries.
My dear Tayba,
This is for you…
I wanna run to you, oo,
I wanna run to you, oo.
Won't you let me hold you in my arms
And keep you safe from harm?
I wanna run to you, oo. (I'll run to you, oo)
But if I come to you, oo,
Tell me will you smile,
Or be sad anyway?
(Don't you dare) Run away,
No, I need you there,
I need you there so I can wipe away your tears,
To dance away your fears.
No, if you only know how much…
Giving you the rest of the huge bar of chocolate ,
Boo………………………. *runs to Tayba*
I am so scared that, one day, I might have bipolar disorder.
A ridiculous thing to say now, I know. I am no hypochondriac (hah!) and I know suicide and physical harm to self are not options for me (as of now, anyway). I have a lot going for me right now (I say this at the risk of sounding important and 'big'… but I know you guys get what I mean!).. I have no intention of quitting all that I am working for.
But… but but but.
There are days – no no, moments, rather – when I am so so so happy… I feel like Life is hugging me tight and jumping around with incredible joy that I will not do injustice to by expressing in words.
And then come moments when I feel like I have hit rock bottom. I have not really, of course. As I said, I have a lot going for me right now. But when one is in that state of mind, one does not think clearly. When you are feeling so sad, so lonely, because the one thing you live for – Love, in my case – is not there… there is little rational thought going on in your mind. There are moments when I feel like giving everything up (not dying or self-harming myself), but just giving up on everything that makes me me. Because I don't have the energy for it. Not of the physical sort, but the mental sort. It takes me all of my energy just to remain strong and smiling, where am I supposed to find the energy to actually succeed in life? There are moments when I let my sadness take me over completely, and weaken me. The side-effects of this, of course, show in the downward plunge in my performance. With people, with work, with everything. I see myself becoming the person I don't want to be. And I find myself falling into a downward spiral. I actually see myself, falling down with no control.. and the worst thing is, I can't do anything about it.
Nobody else can live my life for me, get over the difficult times for me. They can offer me comfort and warmth, but I am such a person who does not share my sorrows (nor some of my joys… including BWL, as an example of a joy in my life I do not share with the people in my life). I do not want anyone to find out. I want to battle this out myself. And yet, I am so scared, that I won't be able to.
When your heart takes over your brain, your everything depends on the mood of the heart. When the heart feels light and full of joy, you feel it too. And by the same token, when the heart feel heavy with sorrow, you feel it too.
I know I do not show all the symptoms for a bipolar disorder right now. Maybe I never will. But I am still very scared. I have seen what having a bipolar disorder (cannot remember which type) does to people, and I do not want to be like that. I have seen the pains that come with the depression in a bipolar, and I do not want that. I have a life, family (though none of my own), friends, a present and a future (and a past that I fondly keep sticking my head into..)… I have many things I am yet to do, many dreams I am yet to realise. Most importantly, I have real, real, real ANGELS in my life.. the people I love so much, so, so, so much. Words cannot describe how much their presence lights up my life, they really can't. Just take my word for it. I do not want to imagine a life without them. I do not want to even think about cutting them out of my life because I somehow felt the 'need' to, by having a bipolar disorder. I do not want to be on medication for a significant part (if not the rest) of my life, or battling it out with a psychiatrist. I do not want to fight a battle with myself for the rest of my life.
I am a positive person. Rude as this may sound (and my apologies for that in advance), I don't want to be one of those people that wastes away their life by being sad and depressed (to the point of it actually destroying their lives). (I also, just to show you the bigger picture here, do not want to be one of those people that are hanging on to drugs/cigarettes/alcohol and watching themselves helplessly as their lives crumble away as th
I am so scared that, one day, I might have bipolar disorder.
A ridiculous thing to say now, I know.
Since when does** ones concern for oneself ** is seen as ridiculous in the eyes of the people who love and care for them hey?????
I am no hypochondriac (hah!) and I know suicide and physical harm to self are not options for me (as of now, anyway). I have a lot going for me right now (I say this at the risk of sounding important and 'big'… but I know you guys get what I mean!).. I have no intention of quitting all that I am working for.
Then don’t, even for LOVE, don’t especially for love, Love is love my dear, and although life is love and vice versa, do not lose that fire within, the one u had throughout your existence, the one that’s within your soul. Love will come around, when the time is right.
But… but but but.
There are days – no no, moments, rather – when I am so so so happy… I feel like Life is hugging me tight and jumping around with incredible joy that I will not do injustice to by expressing in words
.
**smiles***
And then come moments when I feel like I have hit rock bottom. I have not really, of course. As I said, I have a lot going for me right now. But when one is in that state of mind, one does not think clearly.
I agree, and its natural and human to go through such stages in ones life, live it, experience it and then let it go and freely as it arrived.
When you are feeling so sad, so lonely, because the one thing you live for – Love, in my case – is not there…
But it is Boo, it is, if LOVE is NOT there then why do u feel these feelings?? Coz off ?? For the sake of?? Why?? Love is there, but the person u love isnt, right?? Don’t confuse the two and don’t confuse yourself and don’t confuse your beautiful soul honey.
there is little rational thought going on in your mind. There are moments when I feel like giving everything up (not dying or self-harming myself), but just giving up on everything that makes me me.
Can identify with this, and as much as u say u don’t have the strength, that is what simply makes u go on when u yourself have no idea why u are going on when all u want to do is simply give up..That very STRENGTH u think u don’t have keeps u going!!!
Because I don't have the energy for it. Not of the physical sort, but the mental sort.
Go on a diet, a mental diet, kick out the negatives and look within that mental mind of yrs ( not mental mental … u know what I mean ) and kick out the excess..relax ..
Smell the roses, take a walk.. Watever, refresh em brain cells of yours..
It takes me all of my energy just to remain strong and smiling,
Why?? Why ?? Cry if u have to, frown, sulk, scream smile laugh..but do it coz it’s a natural process it comes freely..dont waste that precious energy
Doing what u don’t FEEL like doing, in this case smiling..
where am I supposed to find the energy to actually succeed in life?
Its within u..ur the one not letting it out by trying too hard …
There are moments when I let my sadness take me over completely, and weaken me.
Weakness is or shouldn’t be seen as a sign of negativity, and sadness shouldn’t be seen as a sign of weakness.
The side-effects of this, of course, show in the downward plunge in my performance. With people, with work, with everything. I see myself becoming the person I don't want to be.
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Me feel:Fantastically fantabulously fantastical J I am thinking I should start my own dictionary!!!
It will be called
**the dictionary of futuristically futuristic words that are essential to the survival of the future man in the 100th century **
By her highness Alishia
Alie ji – it looks so much like Durban, because it IS… I thought that was where you would like to be the most…
Cry all you want ji… but promise me you will smile again, and mean it when you do! Bas!
okay I am luking at this pic again..more like obssessively staring at it..Boooooo WERE DID U GET THIS FROM??
I simply cant believe this my dear, it is one of the sincerest acts of kindness and will never be forgotten…My DURBAN
( attempting to hug the foto ) lmao sigh!!!
me cant and dont make promises I may not keep my luw …:)
Roflmao wooohoooo lol okaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy erhmmmmm wow
not an image I wanna see ……lmao
*hugs Tayba tightly* Oh oh oh oh, things will things will work themselves out! The sun will be brighter tomorrow!
I am so scared that, one day, I might have bipolar disorder.
A ridiculous thing to say now, I know. I am no hypochondriac (hah!) and I know suicide and physical harm to self are not options for me (as of now, anyway). I have a lot going for me right now (I say this at the risk of sounding important and 'big'… but I know you guys get what I mean!).. I have no intention of quitting all that I am working for.
But… but but but.
There are days – no no, moments, rather – when I am so so so happy… I feel like Life is hugging me tight and jumping around with incredible joy that I will not do injustice to by expressing in words.
And then come moments when I feel like I have hit rock bottom. I have not really, of course. As I said, I have a lot going for me right now. But when one is in that state of mind, one does not think clearly. When you are feeling so sad, so lonely, because the one thing you live for – Love, in my case – is not there… there is little rational thought going on in your mind. There are moments when I feel like giving everything up (not dying or self-harming myself), but just giving up on everything that makes me me. Because I don't have the energy for it. Not of the physical sort, but the mental sort. It takes me all of my energy just to remain strong and smiling, where am I supposed to find the energy to actually succeed in life? There are moments when I let my sadness take me over completely, and weaken me. The side-effects of this, of course, show in the downward plunge in my performance. With people, with work, with everything. I see myself becoming the person I don't want to be. And I find myself falling into a downward spiral. I actually see myself, falling down with no control.. and the worst thing is, I can't do anything about it.
Nobody else can live my life for me, get over the difficult times for me. They can offer me comfort and warmth, but I am such a person who does not share my sorrows (nor some of my joys… including BWL, as an example of a joy in my life I do not share with the people in my life). I do not want anyone to find out. I want to battle this out myself. And yet, I am so scared, that I won't be able to.
When your heart takes over your brain, your everything depends on the mood of the heart. When the heart feels light and full of joy, you feel it too. And by the same token, when the heart feel heavy with sorrow, you feel it too.
I know I do not show all the symptoms for a bipolar disorder right now. Maybe I never will. But I am still very scared. I have seen what having a bipolar disorder (cannot remember which type) does to people, and I do not want to be like that. I have seen the pains that come with the depression in a bipolar, and I do not want that. I have a life, family (though none of my own), friends, a present and a future (and a past that I fondly keep sticking my head into..)… I have many things I am yet to do, many dreams I am yet to realise. Most importantly, I have real, real, real ANGELS in my life.. the people I love so much, so, so, so much. Words cannot describe how much their presence lights up my life, they really can't. Just take my word for it. I do not want to imagine a life without them. I do not want to even think about cutting them out of my life because I somehow felt the 'need' to, by having a bipolar disorder. I do not want to be on medication for a significant part (if not the rest) of my life, or battling it out with a psychiatrist. I do not want to fight a battle with myself for the rest of my life.
I am a positive person. Rude as this may sound (and my apologies for that in advance), I don't want to be one of those people that wastes away their life by being sad and depressed (to the point of it actually destroying their lives). (I also, just to show you the bigger picture here, do not want to be one of those people that are hanging on to drugs/cigarettes/alcohol and watching themselves helplessly
Can't put anything into my own words right now, so….
I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone..
…… cries.
My dear Tayba,
This is for you…
I wanna run to you, oo,
I wanna run to you, oo.
Then what are you still doing in mystery land, huh.?! Huh?!?! Come over! I have my awtr book and dvd ready
Won't you let me hold you in my arms
And keep you safe from harm?
Of course I will… I need that so much right now… so so so much… I need to know it’ll be okay…
I wanna run to you, oo. (I'll run to you, oo)
But if I come to you, oo,
Tell me will you smile,
Or be sad anyway?
I’ll smile that you’re here… of course! I wont be sad if the sadness goes… I pray it does…
(Don't you dare) Run away,
No, I need you there,
I won’t run away from you. Ever.
I need you there so I can wipe away your tears,
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*hugs Tayba tightly* Oh oh oh oh, things will things will work themselves out! The sun will be brighter tomorrow!
*hugs Ness back* I hope so Insha'Allah. I hate being sad… but I can't help it right now. There has been no sun for two days now either .
I think I've worked out why on earth I am always bursting with joy and hyper when I'm around you Tayba… you make me feel that way. Such a beautiful gift you have given me, girl… the least I can give you back is my love. (That sounds like I only give you my love because you give it to me or blah blah something silly and politicsy like that.. but you know what I mean! I LOVE YOU A LOT!)
So much ghum man… what do I do with it all? I feel like packing it away into a little box (though, I doubt a little box will be huge enough for the amount of ghum I have to cram in there!) and throwing it off into the sea and then dancing on the beach. (I might even take a leaf out of Senor Saab's book… ROFLMAO! Sigh!)
Then it will be like a Lord of the Rings thing, won't it… the evil evil box of ghum… created by the Lordess Boo… oh but wait, I don't want to be Sauron. I guess it will be LOTR with a twist then…. some poor soul millions of years later will find that box of ghum… and will make it his – or her () – life mission to destroy that box of ghum.
Then there will be a fight – happiness vs all the evil spirits of ghum (I don't believe in spirits, but let's just go with the flow. )… the evil spirits are rising… there is so much ghum in the world, and it is up to the few khushi-ised people left on Mystery Earth to fight them and bring khushi into Mystery Earth for ever after.
The battle is long and hard.. sacrifices are made (no blood is shed, mind you. Well DUH!! Spirits don't have blood to be shed… or do they? ), tears are shed, sweat is poured out of skins… and finally, the final battle comes. The poor soul carrying my ghum is very, very near Mount Gloom.. and there are pseudo-battles everywhere… spirits evaporating off the face of Mystery Earth one by one.. and the box is thrown into the huge roaring pool of melted chocolate in Mount Gloom. The ghum gets dissected into a million and one piece by the force of the chocolate.. and ghum is forever gone.
So yeah… guys. If my theory does work out, you have nothing to worry about! Only a million-odd years to go before the ghum is gone.. let's hope the sun stays alive and our species continues to thrive and survive until then.
I think I've worked out why on earth I am always bursting with joy and hyper when I'm around you Tayba… you make me feel that way. Such a beautiful gift you have given me, girl… the least I can give you back is my love. (That sounds like I only give you my love because you give it to me or blah blah something silly and politicsy like that.. but you know what I mean! I LOVE YOU A LOT!)
Awwww! how sweet! Don't worry Boo, Insha'Allah I'll always stick with you, that way you'll always be bursting with joy! (not that I am sticking with you JUST so you can feel joy, okay that sounds so wrong LMAO. but you get what I mean right? You give me lots of joy too.. lmao Boo! look what you did now! I sound like you in the post you just wrote to me ROFLMAO!)
So much ghum man… what do I do with it all?
You give it to me, I'll throw it in with mine and then we'll find somewhere to dump it.
I feel like packing it away into a little box (though, I doubt a little box will be huge enough for the amount of ghum I have to cram in there!) and throwing it off into the sea and then dancing on the beach. (I might even take a leaf out of Senor Saab's book… ROFLMAO! Sigh!)
Then it will be like a Lord of the Rings thing, won't it… the evil evil box of ghum… created by the Lordess Boo… oh but wait, I don't want to be Sauron. I guess it will be LOTR with a twist then…. some poor soul millions of years later will find that box of ghum… and will make it his – or her () – life mission to destroy that box of ghum.
Then there will be a fight – happiness vs all the evil spirits of ghum (I don't believe in spirits, but let's just go with the flow. )… the evil spirits are rising… there is so much ghum in the world, and it is up to the few khushi-ised people left on Mystery Earth to fight them and bring khushi into Mystery Earth for ever after.
The battle is long and hard.. sacrifices are made (no blood is shed, mind you. Well DUH!! Spirits don't have blood to be shed… or do they? ), tears are shed, sweat is poured out of skins… and finally, the final battle comes. The poor soul carrying my ghum is very, very near Mount Gloom.. and there are pseudo-battles everywhere… spirits evaporating off the face of Mystery Earth one by one.. and the box is thrown into the huge roaring pool of melted chocolate in Mount Gloom. The ghum gets dissected into a million and one piece by the force of the chocolate.. and ghum is forever gone.
Okay Boo, LOL at your imagination there missy! I can almost imagine the in-between bits where you talk to yourself. Have I told you there is a girl in my class who reminds me SO much of you that I can't stop staring at her and wondering if you look anything like her. (She probably thinks I'm a freak but w/e ).
Now with the ghum box. Rofl you reminded me of the myth of Pandora's Box!!! hahaha!! Also, if there's a “pool of melted chocolate” then WHAT in the world is it doing in 'Mount Gloom'!!!!!!!!!! Chocolate is meant to be comforting, woman! (until it gets you fat. Damn that delicious treat).
Alsoooo, the ghum doesn't deserve to be thrown into the melted pool of chocolate!
!
LOL!! ROFL!! Tayba jaan… you crack me up! (In the nicest of ways! )
I thought you were actually trying to sound like me on purpose.
Lmao… aww Tayba that is such a sweet thing you do! Stare at her and think of Boo (oh this rhymes).. lmao… awww! How exactly does she remind you of me? Does she go round saying she lives in Mystery Land too? Lmao…
Oh I thought about that too… why on Earth melted chocolate is in Mount Doom… and then I realised, it's a bit of a Harry Potter-ish twist. Treat the 'evil' with 'love' and the 'evil' is gone. Like, you know, in the book, it is about love and how that helps Harry, etc… just like that only the good things can get rid of the ghum. Er. That made sense in my head – I swear! Lol!
Chocolate liquid fight!! Ohmydays that would be AWESOME.. See you got me all excited just talking about it. I guess I should wait until Senor Saab comes in here and helps us get more excited about chocolate (thinking of what Nessa said to him… “Talk dirty to me. Read the menu.” ROFL!).. LOL hehe!
Well I just realised – in that case, a chocolate liquid fight might not work… lmao bahahahaha we'd all be squirting at ourselves in an attempt to eat (drink? ) the chocolate… My, what a sight THAT would be!
How can you have any chocolate LEFT Tayba? Lol oh gosh… that sounded rude didn't it. I'm making you out to be a greedy pig with the chocolates. Sorryshorry I didn't mean it like that! I have a chocolate chip cookie next to the laptop right now. 🙂 I am in heaven. BWL and chocolate and IM-ing a friend who always lifts my spirits… yay!
And oh Tayba ji – lol! That sentence made me laugh… I had a cartoon image of Tayba all angry, with steam coming out of her ears and a very, very frowny, red face going, “Million odd years MY FOOT!” Hehe!
Where could we throw it? I'm telling ya girl, Mount Gloom it must go into. But we might need something else for Mount Gloom… and not a pool of melted chocolate. Oooops. Or we could throw it into outer space? But then I feel mean doing that… poor aliens gonna be all ghummed up and they won't respond to our calls!
OH MY DAYS TAYBA GET UP AND DANCE TO JADOO WITH ME!!! Come onnnnnnn!!!!
Rofl, nooo I wasn't trying to sound like you on purpose. As I was writing that I realised what was happening LOL.
You know, I have NEVER even spoken to the girl but there's something about her that reminds me of you soooooo much. I don't know what it is! I can't seem to explain it. lol I'll have a think about it and tell you. Her name is Rosheen I think. She's British but she looks German or Polish. Actually the way she dressed in the last class made her look French. But she is from here because the teacher made us tell the whole class where we are all from at the beginning of term lol. She's short, of a petite nature and really pretty Masha'Allah. But its not her appearance that makes me think of you, well it is a little but that's just crazy cuz I have never seen you! lol. (Wow that sounds so weird to say because I feel like I've known you all my life lol aww I luv ya!) I don't know what it is that reminds me of you!!!! lol this is so crazy. I was actually thinking that if I ever happen to be in mystery land (where ever that may be) (maybe I've already been there without knowing) but we could have walked past each other without ever knowing! lol how strange! When I look at her I wish she was you sometimes. It would make the class a WHOLE lot more interesting lmao. But then I wouldn't know if she was you! I'd have to wait for her to do something crazy like talk to herself all of a sudden really loudly, or I'd have to wait for it to rain and then follow her to see if she begins dancing . Or check her work to look for immaculate spelling and punctuation LOL. Sighh! I don't think Rosheen has any clue as to what Bollywood is even! lmao maybe I shouldn't talk to her. She may take away the Boo-ness I see in her . There's this other girl called Chantal who reminds me of Nessa. I think I told Nessa once lmao.
Ooooh Harry Potter style!!! lol. Boo! leave all the 'evil with love' thing to J.K. Rowling! rofl! lets just take our chocolate pool away from Mount Gloom/Doom and move it to Mount John Abraham. ROFL. He was on tv today .
Senor Saab is coming no where near our chocolate pool until he is properly dressed! LOL!
Awww I love that song!! *dances around with Boo* – you know dancing in the chocolate pool sounds more fun lol. But we'd be burning and putting on calories at the same time roflmao! oooh and I have lots of chocos left over because I am trying to be health conscious! lol! and partly because I'm trying to save them for when I am free and can relax with a good book and my chocolates. My brothers are trying to eat them though! I know it! because I see one less everyday. The fools think I don't know. lol.
Ok now to get rid of this ghum….What gets rid of ghum? I know! How about we put all the well wishes and prayers we have recieved over the years from our family, friends in 'real' life and friends on the forum alll in one big mountain… it will be symbolised by a beautiful smelling white pearly gas, and then we let out the ghum which will be a foul black colour. Then slowly the two will battle and the black ghum will start going gray and be overpowered by the gas of 'duas and prayers' which will finish off the black ghum and restore sunshine over mount gloom, and then we will rename it Mount BOOM BOOM BOOM! PARTAYYY! (okay that was so gay but you get the jist right?!) lmao. Ghum will never stay when we have the prayers and wishes fr
boogedy, i suggest you check in into one of my 'Kill sadness in a matter of seconds' center, which i helped setup after i attended the 'Kill ninja in a matter of seconds' convention. well ok, u can say that i didnt met my objectives but heck…who cares, right?
I feel useless right now! blah!!
on a brighter note…Serio, how can you ever kill ninja?! mwahahaha!! you can't =P impossible! Mustaheel!
DEAD
DEAD
DEAD
DEAD
DEAD
DEAD
DEAD
I wish i was bludy dead already
I dont WANT to be here sooo why the heck doesnt god take me
am seriously fed up of it allllllllllllllllll
am exhausted to the brink of madness and seriously cant and dont want to go on
one hour on the fone with a certain someone and this is how they make me feel
I truly cant go on… i wish I could just disappear or die..yeah I SSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
want death but its not coming my way
my mood earlier today:
Have u eveer been sooo kush for no apparent reason??Well I feel that way, I am soo darn happy I am radiating light throughout the officeBeaming like the stars in the sky, would’ve wanted to compare my kushiness to the moon, sigh!! Chand aur chand..lmao
Am sooo crazilicious happy, I am hoping nothing/no one dampens this spirits..heck to hell with ppl ..Am not going to allow zeeee darkness to enter hahahahahaha
but I did let someone get to me…
I truly cant see any reason for my existance
dats how I bludy well feeel right now!!!
*hugs scarry than SMACKS HER*
Don't you EVER wish for death you hear me? No matter what. Life is a beautiful gift given to you by Allah The Almighty, do not ask Him for death. There is nothing that you can't get through. Everything is a test. He has sent it in your life for a reason, and if He brought you to it, then He will take you through it. Insha'Allah. You have to keep faith. A person without faith is like….. I can't even find the words…. like a zombie.. for lack of a better word. I know you have faith, you just need to be reminded. Don't let anyone have the power to make you feel so low, that you question your very existence. No one has that right, and if they make you feel that way, then they don't deserve to be in your life.
I'll leave you with a quote that me and Ninja are very fond of:
'When the world pushes you to your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray'.
Feel better.
x
Alie – no no no………….
Sigh.
Gish.
Bleh.
Helb.
Lebh?
I love this game… ! He ha!
Teeehehehehe….
x
lmao.
Blah.
Scarry…. go die. No seriously, go do that and set your self in the list of the many who go ahead and declare themselves slaves to grief.
I have had times where I have wanted to be dead too… But Scarry please please please please PLEASE believe me when I say, it will all add up and “treat you right” at the end of it all. And If I may say so, I am living example.
Not to go too much in depth at the moment, but I would have been dead a long time back had I not decided to hold to people who love me rather than the ones I love but turn the blind eye on me. Im not saying every single person will have a happy life, it just doesnt work like that. Its a yo-yo, so take it as one. Sometimes you need to step back in life and be able to laugh at your own situation.
No matter how pathetically stupid the situation can get…
And if not anything Scarry, don't even blink with the thought of death passing your thoughts… please? You have people unknown to you out there in the world and in here, in our world – who love you. If you cannot spend an hour with that person on the phone, no problem – just let them be… but I promise we will share your silences here. Happily and anytime. I pray I say this and it wont go back on me, but I hope this remains – forever.
Khushi x
Not to go too much in depth at the moment, but I would have been dead a long time back had I not decided to hold to people who love me rather than the ones I love but turn the blind eye on me. Im not saying every single person will have a happy life, it just doesnt work like that. Its a yo-yo, so take it as one. Sometimes you need to step back in life and be able to laugh at your own situation.
No matter how pathetically stupid the situation can get…
Yep. *noddy nod nod*
If you can't laugh at yourself, who else can you laugh at?
Cry all you want, but don't ever fall… unless you're falling in love, of course. And believe you me, the only way anyone can fall is if they see through their own eyes that they have fallen… so instead of looking down at grief, look up at the skies of joy.
I know I know… easier said than done (oh believe me when I say this…). But look for beauty, and you shall find it.
….. my eyes are red and burning.
Tayaba take some rest hun.
Now for didi! Didi!!!!!!!! *screams madly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* Aw man!! When I read your 'mood earlier today' I felt like I wanted to be like you I want to be this strong girl I admire you , your strenght, they way you feel elated for no obvious reasons…but for the subtle.
And you know I alwyas tell you I admire you and the strenght that you keep. Didi! Look how one person has completely changed you. Yes, you are human – I will not sit here and ask you : “You were so happy, you said no one would change you, how did you make this person change you?” … You are human diii .. somewhere there is a chance for others influencing you.
But this is where you must be a stronger influence upon YOURSELF and upon your perception of how that certain person has influenced you. Dont let them get you down diii !! Oh god! This is kind of strange!!!! AND dont ever say stuff about DEATH …. DEATH isnt coming no where here okay? And if it is I'll slap it in the face for you just so it can leave YOU and YOUR THOUGHTS. Dont give in didi. DONT GIVE IN. Be strong. This is who you are. I know who you are. And I know some people can hurt us to the bone and make us change for the negative, for the worse. This is where you have to be strong didi! Remember yourself. Remember your feelings BEFORE this person came along. Why did they change you? Who are they to change that bubbly, elated for subtle reason darling? Do NOT forget yourself in this. Do NOT forget yourself because some other came by and induced changes by throwing upon you, their beliefs or commands or whatever they told you. You are you. I know you let any one belittle you. I know you wont take insults. I know you. I dont know what this person said. Obviously, this person must be significant for them to GET at you like this.
Dont forget yourself. Dont forget that special part of you that makes you you … just because of some outside person. This must be a horrible thing. This person must have told you really horrible things to make a strong person like you ask for … D .. Im not going to say the word. But dont you ever say you want it. So many people love you. And if that certain person told you mean stuff out of hate/dislike —- then it is MANY people (who love you) against 1 ODD sheep (who is inducing these negative thoughts).
I love you dii. Be strong my love! Hugs and Kisses. Although I know they can not mend things. You have to mend things and you have to block negative thoughts out. Or you can take/think of the negative thoughts in but DO NOT accept them.
I love you diii! And I miss you. And I have every confidence in you that you will get through this.And the strenght from ALISHIA will soon overpower all things that are negative and all things that are posing threats.
I love you dii! Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee reply back. I really need to know you're okay.
Scarry- I hope you're feeling better, hun!
…& I continue to struggle.
Remember our virtual date last night and smile and wonder how people do if im gona call you or not. I love you! .
Man someone is singing so loudly outside lol. I know the day's nice but its 9:17! my mind is still asleep! Mummy ninja im only going to hand in my paper. I'm not going to the class where time STOPS. Need to go library and get some books for next paper. SIGH! will have to confuse you tomorrow! rofl. Hope you're feeling better habeebati.
Remember our virtual date last night and smile and wonder how people do if im gona call you or not. I love you! .
Man someone is singing so loudly outside lol. I know the day's nice but its 9:17! my mind is still asleep! Mummy ninja im only going to hand in my paper. I'm not going to the class where time STOPS. Need to go library and get some books for next paper. SIGH! will have to confuse you tomorrow! rofl. Hope you're feeling better habeebati.
I love you too!
*hugs tayba and then smacks her* you skippppppppppperrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Jumu'ah Mubarak jerk! rofl no…Jumu'ah Mubarak sis!! bahaha ok that sounds better
lmao khair mubarak jaan. Remember once when I texted you 'Jumuah Mubarak Loserina' ROFL and you showed your dad!
*faints*
rofl, il be like unclerino, sorry about calling ur daughterina a loserina. I mean she's a fobberina.
wtheck am I on abt. lol.
lmao khair mubarak jaan. Remember once when I texted you 'Jumuah Mubarak Loserina' ROFL and you showed your dad!
*faints*
rofl, il be like unclerino, sorry about calling ur daughterina a loserina. I mean she's a fobberina.
wtheck am I on abt. lol.
**no crack usage on the forum** chicka's ..u galz are pagalish cute..tnx for making me smile
btw dare I ask why the subject is titled..ALIE
last I checked..I go by da nic…
hmmmm
hahaha tayba!! i remember that…he was like “gimme the dictionary, what does loserina mean!” LMAOOOOOOO!!
Scarry!!! im so happy to see you online, ji!
Scarry!!! im so happy to see you online, ji!
am NOT
ur imagining things again Yemz
yemz LOVE U ..Shukriya
Firstly. am NOT suicidal..Jeeez..u guys sound like I am going to kill myself or sums
like dat!!!
2ndly didnt know there were any responses to my posting ..only saw em now…
dnt have time to reply or say much..just wanted to say ..thanks…for being here
this place is hopelessly lovable, and each one of u are as much loved tooo..
Kush n ranz n kavz – pls check yr pms
yemz u b awrite..scarry says sooo, and soo it shall be
tayba i love u …cant wait to see my pressies:) an u slapped me?? woah watchye bak deary..kidding!!
Boo n a kiss an another MAAAASIVE hug – pagli..stay strong hun
Ness wish u were here..love u ..
Kush n ranz n kavz – pls check yr pms
Babe – No PM from ya Try again? Mmmmmmmwah!
x
Babe – No PM from ya Try again? Mmmmmmmwah!
noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
sigh!! k will send to u shortly
LOL Erm,…. it maybe because you are spelling my name wrong – it misses the 'h'
Khushi Teehee
lol..hehe
must be that
ok am actually busy typing yr pm now..sooo am hoping u excuse the errors
my eyes are just too darn sore and my head aches 🙂
mmwaaahhhh
Dii !! My loveeely my lovely my lovely!! I miss you. And Im sooo thinking about you … if you're alright.
I have so much confidence in you that you are strong. I dont want anyone to hurt you though !
Whatever it is, you can get through it – you know it, we know it – and you + us … big force hmm !
I love you diii and I miss youu soo much. Please keep yourself well. Pleasee
I will check my pm just now.
ooooooucchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
dammit..I just ripped the damn skin off my flippant finger
shykes and its bleeding like hell now……
me feeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllsssssssssssssssssss pain
🙁 🙁 🙁
Dii !! My loveeely my lovely my lovely!!
kavs my pyare kavs….
I miss you.
i miss mee too..lol I miss u too kiddo
I have so much confidence in you that you are strong.
thank u …
I dont want anyone to hurt you though !
shyte happens nah…
Whatever it is, you can get through it – you know it, we know it – and you + us … big force hmm !
lol..unexpected I tell u ..shukriya my jaan
I love you diii and I miss youu soo much.
I love u too kavita
Please keep yourself well. Pleasee
okay mummy
I will check my pm just now.
check again, just replied to you 🙂
smile nah?? pleeezzzzzz
love u
okay kavs, am off…al wants to meet me in town sooo me have to hurry outa here
have a super duper weekend
relax an stop stressing already
me luws u much much much like cadburys chocolate:)
hehehehehe
thanks for being here and listening and mostly for making me laugh
MAN! I thought grownups were supposed to be more mature and wise than us!?!?!? What the heck is going on??!!? Kids are waaaaaay more understanding than them! grrrrrrrr
I know I'm gonna sound like a whining lil kid, but I don't care! I've had enough! grrrrrrr
WHAT THE HECK!!! Why do boys get whatever they want but just becuz I'm a girl, I get only clothes?!?!?! SO NOT FAIR! All my life I have never gotten what I really wanted, besides clothes. And I can't just walk around naked, now can I?!?!
All I want is an ipod. It's not my fault if my sister suggested she get me the ipod touch and now I'm all excited for it!
And my twin grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr he was all like it's expensive blah blah and on and on and then he goes and gets himself a PSP the NEXT DAY! He makes my sister go to like HEKKA stores so he can get it! And I have to wait! WHY?!?!?
My stupid twin got a Playstation when he was like super young, I never complained. I didn't want one anyway. And he's always buying games for it and stuff and that's like hekka money! And he gets freaking 80 dollar shoes and 60 dollar shirts and jeans! I settle for the cheapest outfits I can find cuz I would rather have my twin buy himself the expensive things cuz he's so into them and I don't care, as long as I'm comfortable in my clothes.
And now……….when I want an ipod (been wanting one ever since they came out) no one but my sister is willing to get me one! “It's so expensive” WELL I can't help it if it is!
They go and buy my twin EVERYTHING he wants, price doesn't matter no more. and he can do w/e he wants! He can go to his friends house and not come back till like super late and no one is gonna say anything! He can use the computer all night and no one will stop him!
but if I wanna go to my friends house, answer is no, if I want to use the computer for more than 2 hours, answer is no, if I want to buy and ipod, answer is no!
Why oh why oh why!?!!?
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Man, when I have kids, Insha'Allah, I'm not gonna make a difference between my daughter and son. and if my hubby does, he's in trouble!
okay. I'm done with my complaining for now. Thank you.
'I'm done with my complaining for now. Thank you.'
You crack me up. Lmao! Looks like all the families I know have one problem or another. When I started playing cricket, I was told to study hard since cricket does not put food on the table. In effect, my parents just about told me that I was not good enough to make money playing cricket. My brother picked up the game, and suddenly, they ran around from London to Melbourne and bought him the best cricket gear they could afford. I was royally pissed, but decided I'd be happy for my brother's sake.
I worked my netherlands off and bought myself a Yamaha, which, my parents deemed too dangerous after just three crashes. Damn bike was given off to my cousin, apparently, they didn't care much if he lived or died, which he almost. I remember going to visit him in the hospital and thinking, Dang! Dude, Im sorry you look like stale past with soggy breadsticks, but am I glad you did not screw up my bike.
The list is endless. However, I still love my parents and on most days still love my siblings. But, if I ever get to have kids (if those kids ever find out that I am planning to have them, they would kill me), I would treat everyone the same. They get nothing. Its all MINE! Lmao!
End of transmission.
On a separate but serious note: Poor hubby. Never gonna know what put his lights out. Lmao! Rani, if you holler, I'll promptly hire a couple of cheerleaders with incandescent pom-poms and come cheer for you while you put his lights out! Go Rani! Yay!
'I'm done with my complaining for now. Thank you.'
You crack me up. Lmao!
Why, thank you.
Well, I sure would like to throw away culture just about right now. Grrrrrrr. When will they understand!?!?!!? Treat them equally! grrrrrr.
LMAO! I'm totally gonna steal that!
I have always wanted to ride on a bike…with john! Damn, he looks super sexy on that… *drools*
On a separate but serious note: Poor hubby. Never gonna know what put his lights out. Lmao! Rani, if you holler, I'll promptly hire a couple of cheerleaders with incandescent pom-poms and come cheer for you while you put his lights out! Go Rani! Yay!
Excuse me!?!? You calling my hubby poor? Imma smack the old offa you if you say that again. And no thank you, I prefer to “put his lights out” in private.
lol. go rani? that's right, go me!
MAN! I thought grownups were supposed to be more mature and wise than us!?!?!? What the heck is going on??!!? Kids are waaaaaay more understanding than them! grrrrrrrr
I know I'm gonna sound like a whining lil kid, but I don't care! I've had enough! grrrrrrr
WHAT THE HECK!!! Why do boys get whatever they want but just becuz I'm a girl, I get only clothes?!?!?! SO NOT FAIR! All my life I have never gotten what I really wanted, besides clothes. And I can't just walk around naked, now can I?!?!
All I want is an ipod. It's not my fault if my sister suggested she get me the ipod touch and now I'm all excited for it!
And my twin grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr he was all like it's expensive blah blah and on and on and then he goes and gets himself a PSP the NEXT DAY! He makes my sister go to like HEKKA stores so he can get it! And I have to wait! WHY?!?!?
My stupid twin got a Playstation when he was like super young, I never complained. I didn't want one anyway. And he's always buying games for it and stuff and that's like hekka money! And he gets freaking 80 dollar shoes and 60 dollar shirts and jeans! I settle for the cheapest outfits I can find cuz I would rather have my twin buy himself the expensive things cuz he's so into them and I don't care, as long as I'm comfortable in my clothes.
And now……….when I want an ipod (been wanting one ever since they came out) no one but my sister is willing to get me one! “It's so expensive” WELL I can't help it if it is!
They go and buy my twin EVERYTHING he wants, price doesn't matter no more. and he can do w/e he wants! He can go to his friends house and not come back till like super late and no one is gonna say anything! He can use the computer all night and no one will stop him!
but if I wanna go to my friends house, answer is no, if I want to use the computer for more than 2 hours, answer is no, if I want to buy and ipod, answer is no!
Why oh why oh why!?!!?
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Man, when I have kids, Insha'Allah, I'm not gonna make a difference between my daughter and son. and if my hubby does, he's in trouble!
okay. I'm done with my complaining for now. Thank you.
Hee-e-eey Rani,
Tum jo gussa bhi karo to mujhe pyaar lagta hai…. jaane kyun?
I'm not being much help, I know… but I just feel like dragging you off into a field and dancing to this song with you… maybe I'll let you borrow my iPod… LMAO KIDDING!!! It's yours… for the day. Sorrysorrysorry I know you are going to kill me now… I can see the local newspaper headlines (WELL!! I'm not famous enough to make national or international news headlines rofl..) now… “Twin kills twin on field”……
I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!! I totally mean those lyrics… tum jo gussa bhi karo to mujhe pyaar lagta hai… jaane kyun?
Tum jo gussa bhi karo to mujhe pyaar lagta hai…. jaane kyun?
I'm not being much help, I know… but I just feel like dragging you off into a field and dancing to this song with you… maybe I'll let you borrow my iPod… LMAO KIDDING!!! It's yours… for the day. Sorrysorrysorry I know you are going to kill me now… I can see the local newspaper headlines (WELL!! I'm not famous enough to make national or international news headlines rofl..) now… “Twin kills twin on field”……
I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!! I totally mean those lyrics… tum jo gussa bhi karo to mujhe pyaar lagta hai… jaane kyun?
hee-e-eey shona, hey shona! You lil saali! come here! *runs after boo and tackles her to the floor then tickles her like crazy, steals her ipod and runs with it* hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
I wanna dance! my cute twin ji, you totally made me smile and giggle with that! I love youuuuuuuuu!
STUPID FOOL! Bewakoof! I won't kill you for an ipod! after dancing with you like crazy, i would tie you to a tree on that field and run off with your ipod! hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! *pulls twin's cheeks* I LOVE YOU!!!!
Jaane kyun? Kyun ke mai teri twin hoon! I LOVE YOU, meri jaaaaaan-e-mann!
*closes eyes* ooooook
Haylie! Long time no see; whats rockin' your boat on this fine night? hehe
LIKE RIPPING MY HEART OUT AND HANDING IT OVA TO THE SALVATION ARMY
I want to be pretty like everyone else Why is there such thing as being stupid pretty. I wish everyone was the SAME on the 'pretty scale'
Im glad Im invisible ! But when I really need to show someone something … it can never work.
Stupid things SUCK
lol..Jeez woman
Kavs wats wrong with the mirrors in the US huh?? will send u one from here
U ARE BLUDY BEAUTIFUL SILLY WOMAN
why da heck do u think otherwise?????? **slaps sum sense into u ***
huh???
they are…
u are?? are u ???since wen?? do i have like xray vision then???
woah..wat do u wanna show and to whom missy ?? huh?? lol
**spreads sum magic dust all over Kavs*** ur a beautiful angel
stop being sooo darn negative silly madam
I want to be pretty like everyone else Why is there such thing as being stupid pretty. I wish everyone was the SAME on the 'pretty scale'
Im glad Im invisible ! But when I really need to show someone something … it can never work.
Stupid things SUCK
OH NOOOOOOOOOO YOU DIDN'TTTTTTT!!! what are you talking woman?!!?!?!?! you are pretty! *dies* if you're not pretty, then what exactly is pretty?! HUH?!! OhmyAllah! Kavitaaaaa keep that chin up high, cos you're a gorgeous lady!
*closes eyes* ooooook
lmbo! i miss you around here haylieeeeeee!!
faking my smile doesn't work anymore…I just can't
& things get to me so easily now…
I was never like that…
am I being impatient?
Astighforallah
am I being ungrateful?
Aouthu billah
I'm not strong…even though people say I am. I don't feel that I am.
I feel weak, everyone is able to get me down within seconds.
I don't know what it is…
Sometimes….
I just …don't want to be here anymore…
Kavita, you ARE pretty. What the heck are you on about woman?! You're BEAUTIFUL! Masha'Allah. You may not see it, but others do. I'm telling you, you're gorgeous. You're not invisible. Wtheck?! I SEE YOU! lol. On a serious note though, you're not invisible.. and never to us!!
faking my smile doesn't work anymore…I just can't
& things get to me so easily now…
I was never like that…
am I being impatient?
Astighforallah
am I being ungrateful?
Aouthu billah
I'm not strong…even though people say I am. I don't feel that I am.
I feel weak, everyone is able to get me down within seconds.
I don't know what it is…
Sometimes….
I just …don't want to be here anymore…
NO. You're being HUMAN. Check your email hunny. Don't even think about not being here. You just try and go, watch how I come after you with a baseball bat.
I love you.
DON'T DO IT!
They'd sell it for way too cheap!
Why is there so much sadness?
It's nearly Christmas!
Oof! You guysss !
You wouldnt say that if you saw me in real life.
When I was talking about 'showing it' to someone… its that I dont have any 'IT' to show! But I want to.
Confusing.
I know – I like this time because of the season – its my favorite couple of months of the year. And plus – I cant wait until it starts snowing! They've already decorated the streets with christmasy stuffies yay..
Where I am, they start preparing for Christmas in September, since its a 'Ber Month. I remember despising it when I first got here. However, I am happily converted now Lol. I love Christmas for all the right reasons and one not quite so…this cafe near my home called San Francisco Coffee starts serving their 'Holiday Blend' coffee starting November. Yum!
Yum!
rotflmao!
Preparing for Christmas in September? Ohh geesh !!
Well..umm…
*bright eyes* Thats the SPIRIT!!! The..spirit spirit!!
Oi Kavita ji, how in the world did you get a picture of my future ex-wife? She looks stunning doesn't she? Sigh!
What you mean?! She and I are SUPER close buddies !!
Hm weird – she never told me she was into you ..in fact … I dont think you were ever mentioned in our long long convos !!
I think you may be mistaking her for another soul
And yeah – she looks stunningggggg !!
I have a request you guys, please please please please please please please please please please please keep me in your duas. I need everyone's prayers so much right now.
Dont' worry, I'm not gonna die, or at least, i don't think i'm gonan die…well not physically at least.
Just please keep me in ur prayers.
Thank you.
JAAN don't worry! Everything wll be okay Insha'Allah!! Just do what I said to do. Have faith. Be strong. I love you. I'm waiting for ninja to come home from school and then I'll speak with her too. Don't worry, get offline for now and know your in my duas.. *BIG HUG*
I have a request you guys, please please please please please please please please please please please keep me in your duas. I need everyone's prayers so much right now.
Dont' worry, I'm not gonna die, or at least, i don't think i'm gonan die…well not physically at least.
Just please keep me in ur prayers.
Thank you.
*runs to her twin and holds her hand tight… and hugs her*
I have a request you guys, please please please please please please please please please please please keep me in your duas. I need everyone's prayers so much right now.
Dont' worry, I'm not gonna die, or at least, i don't think i'm gonan die…well not physically at least.
Just please keep me in ur prayers.
Thank you.
always. always. always. I love you. Allah is there. Ya Rab.
Let me cry out tears that have no ending to them…
Yemz…Gooo ahead..there will be an end to it…
***grabs yemz and hold her while she cries*** go ahead hunnie..am here to wipe em away
ova n ova n ova n ova …for as long as u wish **hugs**
Ranz… there was no need to ask – ur always in my duas..feel better an theres no way ur allowed to die ..whichever way ie..me will have to go first u hear…love u hun **hugs**
kavs..**kisses kavs with mah glossed up, sexi lips ***hope ur feeling better munchkin?? **hugs**
Tayba…u too jaan, hope ur feeling better?? love u 🙂 **hug**
Oi Kavita ji, how in the world did you get a picture of my future ex-wife? She looks stunning doesn't she? Sigh!
lmao ooooh gosh Senor ..reaalllyyyy I am ..errrr I dunno wat to say to this except tell u that theres a broad smile on my face
for reasons I cant really share here hahaha
Oi Kavita ji, how in the world did you get a picture of my future ex-wife? She looks stunning doesn't she? Sigh!
lmao ooooh gosh Senor ..reaalllyyyy I am ..errrr I dunno wat to say to this except tell u that theres a broad smile on my face
for reasons I cant really share here hahaha
Oh wait, I m just seeing that Senor wrote future ex-wife !! Lol, yesterday I thought it said future wife!
BTW, what could future ex-wife possibly mean?! Oh please, she is too good for you !!
kavs..**kisses kavs with mah glossed up, sexi lips ***hope ur feeling better munchkin?? **hugs**
Aww… the sound of munchkin makes me feel better
Oooo – someone's looking reall hawwt with that glossed up sexxified lips .. be careful with that smack though..i don wanna be the one responsible for some of that sexy gloss wiping off…too soon!
me luw youdii n miss u..utake care of yrself hun..get rest..and dont sterss yr self out too much
*hugs and kisses*
Let me cry out tears that have no ending to them…
My baby!! My jaan! Cry if you must,but I want you to know that they will come to an end. Agreed with Alishia.
Cry if you must to let out anxiety, and pain. But stop when … even some of it has left.
I dont want to see tears in those beautiful eyes of yours. And for a pious,sweet,innocent person like you, wrapped peacefully under a [ninja hijab … I'd never wish anything to harm you!
Fight it off jaan! Be strong! Im here for you – we're here for you. *sending you a million warm comforting hugs and kisses*
Keep your head lifted to the clouds.
I have a request you guys, please please please please please please please please please please please keep me in your duas. I need everyone's prayers so much right now.
Dont' worry, I'm not gonna die, or at least, i don't think i'm gonan die…well not physically at least.
Just please keep me in ur prayers.
Thank you.
Rani, I will keep you in my prayers. Now, I dont know what it is thats bothering you but obviously its bringing along emotional disruptions! You are not going to die – dont call such things on.
Everything will be alright. Whatever it is thats bothering you – find a way out, there must a be a solution somewhere, check, one is hidden. Keep your head high and dont let anyone disturb your mind. You are you. You dont have to please estranged ones.
I love you hun, it'll be alright! *Sending warm comforting hugs and kisses* Keep your head up to the stars *hugs*
Hey guys,
Just to let you know that all is okay with Rani now! Alhumdulilah. Relax She'll be online whenever she gets the chance Insha'Allah xxx
Taybaaaaaaaaa! I love you!!! Thank you for letting everyone know.
*kisses boo's hand and hugs her tight*
Everyone, I'm fine. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah!!!
LMAO! You guys, during my third period Law Enforcement class today, I called Tayba to let her know that everything went by fine, Alhamdulillah in class! LMAO! But it was too loud in there, so I went to the bathroom. I was only in class for like 5 mins! I was in the bathroom talking to tayba for the rest of the period! LMAO! But when I went back to class for like the last 3 mins, he didn't say anythign to me at all! And when class was over and I was walking out to the door, he smiled at me! LMAO! I love him! he's a cuper cool teacher!
Let me cry out tears that have no ending to them…
Ta'aali. You can cry your heart out in my arms. I promise It'll get better, Insha'Allah. Ameen. I love you, Habeebi.
kavs..**kisses kavs with mah glossed up, sexi lips ***hope ur feeling better munchkin?? **hugs**
Aww… the sound of munchkin makes me feel better
**smiles***
Oooo – someone's looking reall hawwt with that glossed up sexxified lips ..
who?? **luks around** lol u such a pagli lil one *hug**
be careful with that smack though..i don wanna be the one responsible for some of that sexy gloss wiping off…too soon!
u lil witch ..aarghh I give up on ye …am gonna me givin yeh lotza glossy sloppy kisses from no onwards
me luw you dii n miss u..
lol…am in yr face all the time, screaming, shouting and giving u such a hard time with being yr didi and u
STILL miss me n love me?? okay then lol….I wish u could visit here so I can spoil ye rotten…my angeljie
utake care of yrself hun..
I am ..u do the same ..take good care of uuuuuu
get rest..and dont sterss yr self out too much
aaaaaaaaaaaaaargh pls pls pls STOP saying that..u sound like my mummy now ..and everyone else here
am not fragile…lmao …an NOT stressed..hehehe
*hugs and kisses*
mmmuuuuwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
u feel dat my jaannnnnnn.. I love u tooo much much much…love in my dil for u
gud to see yr bubbly self again
an to hear that yr situation is healing
loveye
flirty: hahaha
i was doing a lil dance with the new hottie in the kitchen, I kept telling myself to smile but after **accidently**bumping him for the 4th time..lmao i was laughing like a damn 12 year old
Loved: Coz of my fwend V….I never knew ..just how loved I am …
happy: coz I am in love
Scared: coz I am erhmm alone ..yet not
On a high: lmao my meds hahaha
Broke: my bludy medical bills..arrrghhhhhhh… I need a 2nd job now:)
disappointed: coz I wasnt home to celebrate my eldest sisters bday and coz my fam wont be here …
Euphoric: no apparent reason..lol…
gifted: for having my beautiful souled friends
Nervous: coz …my pending op
Happpppy: coz I will be seeing my ex mng Trev in a short while and my darling Chanty..I missed them soo much
Beautiful : coz I am lmao
Stronger: coz of God – I love God…more than life itself…more than anyone or anything ever..
Xtremely kush: coz I am busy arranging my lil**team building ** with frends..ie our weekend of adventure..am at the moment surrounded by pamphlets containing info on mountaineering, bungee jumping, sky diving ( shivers hahaha ) white water river rafting ( my fav ) and hiking…
sad: coz the road was soo darn dusty and rocky to this place
grateful: for having this life..wudnt want it any other way…well maybe the love love bits of it..
I cud change that..and become stronger and not let myself love …hmmmm **thinks** nah..even that makes me unique hahahaha…LOVE ..eish!! cant help but be meeeee
…………………..
xxxxxxxx ~~~~ Alie~~~~xxxxxxxx
I feeeeeeeel…..OH SO HYPER!
I feeeeeeeel…..OH SO HYPER!
excellent. perfect time for u to jump off a cliff
excellent. perfect time for u to jump off a cliff
uhhhhhh… no. this is the only imperfect time! bad timing Oreo, my apologies!
My heart felt like melting but I knew I couldn't let it.
My heart felt like melting but I knew I couldn't let it.
coz not y wud u allow dat
HYPER!!!
MAIN CHALIIIIIIIIIIIIIII….. BANKE HAWAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!
booooooo! MAN! I swear, last night I was telling my sister how when Kajol sings that part I used to think she was saying, “main chali, balke khafa” And then later I thought she was saying, “main chali, banke khafa” And then just recently, like a week ago i think, I realized she was saying, “banke hawa” !!!! LMAO!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I feeeeeeeeel so at peace! Alhamdulillah!
I feel peaceful.
I feel ready
To accept this new day.
zi.ndagii is tarah se lagne lagii |
ra.ng uR jaa'e jo diwaaro.n se |
ab chupaane ko apna kuchh na rahaa |
zakhm dikhne lagii daraaro.n se |
mai.n tere jism kii haa.n parchhaa'ii |
mujhko kaise rakhoge khud se judaa |
bhuul karna to merii fitrat hai |
kyo.nki insaan huu.n mai.n nahii huu.n khuda… |
At this moment,
I feel comforted
by my own self.
I feel tired
and tired
and tireeeeeed
and irritated :@
I feel tired
and tired
and tireeeeeed
and irritated :@
n tired n tired
an HUNGRY ( wanna eat Kfc )
an blind..
an
an an an
Me forgets
At this moment,
I feel comforted
by my own self. LOVE U ANGEL
I just want to cry and cry and cry… I feel so lost on a dark road…. hope sprinkles it's bright light here and there, but when I try to feel it's light it eludes me….
I have a friend, who is more like a sister to me. I have known her since I was 12 or 13. She's my complete opposite. She's the one with the tough, strong, exterior who won't show her emotional side unless she really has to… but you know it's there. I am the emotional one who has a strong feeling about nearly everything. My feelings don't have a switch off button. Although I am five days older than her, it feels as if she's older than me. My older sister. She takes care of me as if I were little. I feel so… so safe around her. If we are out and walking through an area of London I don’t like the look of, she’ll figure out a different route for us, just so I feel more reassured. She has me home by the time my parents want me home. Whenever she comes to my house, she acts as if it is her own house – which it is. I just love the fact that I don't have to tell her 'this is your own house, do as you please'. She refers to my grandma with the same name I call her with. She treats my brothers as if they were her brothers. She brought the older one dinner just the other day. She talks to them about football non-stop – She's the tom-boy and I'm the complete girly-girl. When we met at the age of 12/13 you wouldn't have guessed how close we'd become. A tom-boy and a girly-girl? She always says to me, 'Tayba, I think I became more of a girl when I met you' lol. She's been my rock over the years, she's literally wiped my tears. I've only ever seen her cry once at a funeral. But when she's upset I know… she doesn't need to cry to show me she's upset. All we have to do is be together… and talk. We've had the most craziest times together. One time comes to mind now as I type this. We were both 15 and so tired of walking in our shoes that we decided to take them off and walk bare footed all the way back to my house – laughing as strangers gave us funny looks, probably wondering why we were holding our shoes instead of wearing them. Other times all we need to do is put on a dvd and not watch it. Instead we sit there talking about everything that amuses us – as the dvd continues to play, sometimes successful in capturing our wavering attention as we fight for the last of the popcorn left in the bowl. When we go on holiday we make sure to bring each other back something special. We practically have the same taste in clothes and jewellery. What’s mine is probably owned by her anyway, but she know’s what’s mine is hers. Alhumdulilah because of our friendship, our mothers have become friends too. I am thankful everyday that Allah SWT sent her in my life. I can be a complete fool in front of her and not worry about being judged – a trait that makes old friendship so very beautiful. I can wake up in the morning and not even worry that she’s at my door and I probably look like crap, because she’s my sister and she doesn’t care. I love her so much…….
…… Her dad had a triple heart-by-pass on Monday morning……
Uni is throwing crap after crap at me and all I wanna do is walk out and run to her. I can’t go to the hospital because the doctors have restricted it to family only. Even though I am practically family. Doctors arent gonna buy that are they? I wish I could give her a hug. He hasn’t woken up properly yet because he lost a lot of blood during the surgery and his blood pressure keeps dropping too. I know she is strong, but she’s human and her emotions have to come out. She texts me a few times in the day to keep me updated and I do reply. I feel so helpless… so v
Pray for her and her family please…
I know hun, she and her family have been in my duas since u told me
insha allah, he will come through this and heal ….
your selfless love, duas and thought is wat counts at this moment, one doesnt necessarily need to be there physically
in order to BE THERE for the people they love..I know wat u are going thru and feel yr pain, fustration and irritation to an extent..
and yep my words may not help coz it just doesnt when ur the one going thru this……hang in there, weekend is almost near my jaan
and when ur hugging her, give her a hug from me tooo…
I will ensure her family gets most of my attention during my prayer times…
I wish now, to be with u ….coz I KNOW how u feel and want to hold u close coz as much as u wanna be there for yr frend who hurts, ur also hurting and need support…a hug
theres a reason for everything…this will pass..have faith..and keep on praying for his recovery
love u tayba…
pls pls pls pls pls pls take care of yourself my darling….am already worried bout u ….now more sooo
sigh!!
pls keep me updated u hear…pls pls pls do..u knw i wont be coming in here from next week sooo pls sms or sums
one more massive hug
*hugs tayba tight* don't blame yourself for anything jaan, it's how it's meant to be. Allah is there for her always, and your intentions definitely count. She and her family will be in my duas…Insha'Allah.
smile, na! be her shining light
Hey Princess!
Your friend and her family will definitely be in my prayers!
Goes without saying that you will be kept in my dil & duas as well!
I feel:…odd & small!
I'm sitting near a huge ceiling to floor window watching the storm roll in. The wind is whipping around the trees, while gold & pumpkin colored leaves fall to the ground! The sky is a steel-ish, pewter-ish color, with white shot throughout! It's beautiful!!! Do pal is in my ears and all I can do is stare! I feel so small! So…odd!
Sometimes emotions can be a real bit.ch!
I feel:…odd & small!
you're neither.
THere is this guy at work who really annoys me no end…
Ok sumone please give me good reasons not be upset by this lil chat of ours: coz Am about to explode with irritation…
Do I really SOUND fustrated/unloving and cold???
*(%)*&57_*(%&*%*)%^)&$%&($%($&^(^(_()
hw dare he..jus coz I dont entertain ppl's advances…does dat make me cold??
am I ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I HATE MEN….
Van Wyk, Earl Cecil [11:46 AM]:
sooooo talk to me Miss Alishia …
Pillay, Alishia [11:46 AM]:
jeez dntye have work dude..thot releases were stressed at the mo!!
Van Wyk, Earl Cecil [11:47 AM]:
it's a bit difficult if there's no wrok
Pillay, Alishia [11:47 AM]:
Really ?? OK THEN kom en hulp ons asseblief
Van Wyk, Earl Cecil [11:47 AM]:
nee ek wil nie
Pillay, Alishia [11:48 AM]:
Jy seker?? fine
Van Wyk, Earl Cecil [11:49 AM]:
Van Wyk, Earl Cecil [11:50 AM]:
so what you doing for the weekend
Pillay, Alishia [11:51 AM]:
goin out with mah fiance..
Van Wyk, Earl Cecil [11:51 AM]:
wtf…..you got a fiance, dam poor guy
Pillay, Alishia [11:52 AM]:
Hmmmphhh..wateva dude…
Van Wyk, Earl Cecil [11:53 AM]:
you always look like you need a sum good loving an some one to make u smile more..
Did I not tell u that you are a natural beauty?
Pillay, Alishia [11:53 AM]:
EARL u bludy devil …..aaargggghhhhhh wat da??
PillayAlishia [11:54 AM]:
dont make me come on over there an slap u
Pillay, Alishia [11:54 AM]:
jus coz I dont entertain silly boys like yrself dat make me wat???
Pillay, Alishia [11:54 AM]:
cold and unloving?? Eish..must be the capetonian thing..
Van Wyk, Earl Cecil [11:56 AM]:
well you never seemed to like me, that's the impression you gave & i don't know what i did, so yes i thought you were cold & unloving
Pillay, Alishia [11:59 AM]:
cuz my dear, u were SMELLING meee FOR CRYING OUR LOUDLY..jeeez dat freaked me out dude..but I dnt have a problem with anyone.
Except u and yr bludy irritating flirting….did we not
I feel:…odd & small!
must be dat pygmy costume..crampin yr style nah…
Fact: Ur far from Odd, ok maybe a lil bit odd hehehe
an definitely not small my darling …Huge heart – amazingly massive soul
arms big and long enuf to wrap me up in warm hugs..wats small about that
ur allowed to feel it though ( yup godessa gives u perm ) hehehe
feel better soon..sorry bout yest..was in one of mah crazeee moods hehe
love u
feel better u hear…
and call me…
**waiting**
~alie~
I feel:…odd & small!
I always thought of you as the complete opposite Ness ! You are surely grand in my eyes.
Feel better hun and dont let crazed people affect you .. we all know you're strong..keep that chin HIGH
Tayaba my darling – your loving friend and her family will be in my prayers surely. You will also be in my prayers (I know howmuch this is affecting you).
Everything will be alright.
I promise.
Lets all join hands and pray. God will listen to us. Have hope, have faith, be strong. Do not let anythig break the strength in your backbone. Be strong, hold that head up high. Your friend needs that.
You are all in my prayers. IN the name of the LORD, everything iwll be alright – and her dad will recover successfully.
Love you hun
Ali – your convo made me laugh … man, that dude seems weird .. If you're engaged and you're 'blocking' out some dude who seems to be irritating you at themoment (clearly obvious lol ) … I dont think that makes you cold and unloving.
You are lucky to have a guy interested in you .. or shud i say .. giving you the eyes .. even though he's irritating you ( correct me if im wrong) he's still some dude .. dont you feel worthy (at least 1 bit ) by him just telling you you smell good and … and telling you you have such natural beauty!
Some people are surely wishing for that seemingly nothingness
kavi
kavi
kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaavaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
stay
stay
stay
i wanna talk to u
I missssssssssssssssssssssssssed u jaaaannnnnnnn
Jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan me missssssssssssss uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
good thing u texted me!! now im here
im in the compouter lab printing my lectures
will do that and chat to u
how r u hun! i miss u madddddddd alot
I have class in 1/2 and hour
i'll stay here for awhile
yay u're on !! whats with that dude!!! n u're not really engaged to a guy name alfonso r u hmmmmmmmm
roflmao
my ma will die of shock
she wud prefer an indian bloke nah..
no am not engaged to any alfonso..it was the first name that popped into my head
we have this instant chat thing at work and he flippant annoys me …arrrgghhhh
in fact he is still in the office
around my corner
men are soo annoying…
btw if i were engaged..dammit
u will find me SCREAMMMMING it out to the world already..
hehehe
talk to me bout u ..u have 1/2 hour
jaldi
I knowww thank god for tha half an hour
Im inthe computer lab at college printing up all my necessary paper work *ahem ahem* lol …well just printin up some lecture outlines and all those stuffiess !!
yea lolz! im like..hmm alfonso hmmmmm mayen..couldnt she come up with a better name anyway hehehehee ..neway alfonso probably gave it away to the guy that u were jokin…not that alfonso is a weird name or anything!!! no offence against anyone who' s name is alfonso
whats jaldi?
me miss u ! how u been? im okay ..i m guesssing..just..trying to like…Catch up with studying the stuff for class ..finals coming up in a month or so..still got lots of time but tiem flies fast hmm other wise i think im alright — the weather here is getting colddderrrr nowwwwww love wearing my big coat though..and was waiting for this cold ever since!
u truly think that was funny
I think its **annoy alie day** here
coz I just had a conv with sum dude who has bee bugging me since last year'
here goes:
3:51 PM bkdave108: hi how r u
|
7 minutes |
What on earth?! Is this another dude? I like the first dude better
this one's mad annoying!! lol u see how mucht imes he said the same thing .. lol but wait??? he knows u?? i mean he knows yr name?
is he like in yr working area or..?
lol that was funny hheheheeeeee man u know how to handle men i needa learn from u
stupid men just like to step down on women
whats jaldi?
quick
yea lolz! im like..hmm alfonso hmmmmm mayen..couldnt she come up with a better name anyway hehehehee ..neway alfonso probably gave it away to the guy that u were jokin…not that alfonso is a weird name or anything!!! no offence against anyone who' s name is alfonso
am soo busy with work it isnt even funny
I have to get all my vessels in order before I go on leave jaan
I truly didnt have time to come up with a better name hehehe
no not funny at all kavs..I just spoke to my it dude to help me block ppl I dont wanna chat to
..gave me a bludy migraine
keep popping up I actually blocked him but my gmail does craze things at times
nope no idea who he is..keeps sending me fotos of him
he knows me coz I am Alishia on my gmail chat…
soo its obvious..but he is really buggging..creepy
hence the rudeness
am seriously busy and he go on an on an on
flippant drivin me nuts
lol yeaaa sound like he wud drive anyone nuts being like a broken record over there and so interseted in how u LOOK seriously wat doe that have to do with a good friendship
*hmph!*
aw mayennn take it light hun *hugs* …. nnn sending u some .. umm what shud i call it… *relieve thyself magic dust*
sending u tons!! ooo look there's a heap!!! its builiding uppp bigggggggggGGGGGGGGGG!! ooooooo gawd im drowing init now — and here i am blowing ALL of it too uuuuuuu
oh boy an here I am bugging u..gooo get yr paper work in order for yr lectures
love u
WHAT WAHT !!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *YELLS – STEAM coming out of my ear!!* I dont got to concentrate whilst PRINTING STUFF!! gawd ..WAS SO happyt o see u online..its all good..im done printing.. u not buggin me u actually made my day better
n i just said paperwork to sound smart lol.didnt u see my *ahem ahem*
luv u hun
tc
I feel:…odd & small!
you're neither.
Didn't expect anyone to respond to that!
Thank you Ninjitsu!
I feel:…odd & small!
I always thought of you as the complete opposite Ness ! You are surely grand in my eyes.
Feel better hun and dont let crazed people affect you .. we all know you're strong..keep that chin HIGH
Thank you Kava Daba!
It's interesting to find others' perception of us. Thanks for the vote of confidence.
Working on the chin part…think I've been sucker punched!
I feel:…odd & small!
must be dat pygmy costume..crampin yr style nah… Shut it! lmao
Fact: Ur far from Odd, ok maybe a lil bit odd hehehe The truth will set me free! *snort*
an definitely not small my darling …Huge heart – amazingly massive soul
arms big and long enuf to wrap me up in warm hugs..wats small about that
ur allowed to feel it though ( yup godessa gives u perm ) hehehe No perms thankyouverymuch!
feel better soon..sorry bout yest..was in one of mah crazeee moods hehe
love u
feel better u hear… How can I NOT hear you Oh Bossy One?! *runs away laffin*
and call me…
**waiting**
~alie~
ur allowed to feel it though ( yup godessa gives u perm ) hehehe No perms thankyouverymuch!
jaan – I meant u have my permission 🙂
good to see u smile
love u
I know what you meant mom!
S'ok, you'll pick up the pace!
I'm not smiling! I never smile! I only grimace…remember that!
I know what you meant mom!
mom:)
S'ok, you'll pick up the pace!
Sowrie must try and keep up , my new affirmation
I'm not smiling! I never smile! I only grimace…remember that!
nah nah nah ..u smile for sure jaan
I love u
*looks for nessa, finds her, gently lifts up her chin, gives her cheek a loud kiss and runs away* I lub you, ji.
Nessaaa .. aww hunn ! Dont say thatt .. you are grand to all of us , I can bet on it.
Hmmph – who was the lil idiotic organism who sucker punched you? Tell up ! Because we all gonna gang up on him
Luv u hun …stay well … and I know life has many 'sucker punches' but I still want you to try your best to lift that chin to the stars
I feel a bit ticked off. I cooked today and none of the foods came out the way I wanted it to. Seeing me in frustration and desperation for better tasting dishes, my brother comes by and says : “You know how people have bad HAIR DAYS?”
I go … “Yeah”
He goes : ” Well you're having a bad cook day!”
ARGH! Pshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhttttttt Im TRYING to be nice to cook a GOOD lunch and if it doesnt come out perfect then … look its not like it taste like ROCK or something… ANYWAY!
Gosh, people should be grateful already .. the thing is i didnt think it tasted THAT messed up
But, the food business is over.
I feel SOOOOOO EXCITED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ordered a SAMPLE of Everyday minerals for my face a week ago and it came ! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I'm going to try it in an hour !! I hope it works good I've been waiting for it !! Yupppieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Okay sooo the colors are way off lol im soo bad at picking colors ! But Hey I CANT WAIT TO TRY IT !!!
You don't need makeup, kavita.
I don't wear makeup…and if i do wear it, all i'll wear is surma and lip gloss. I hate that face junk. I have stopped wearing surma and lip gloss. I use vaseline for my lips cuz i don't want chapped lips. lol. and I should start wearing surma cuz its sunnah, but i get lazy. lol.
I feel… I feel… I feel like I don't want to stop feeling, but I wanna feel no more.
You don't need makeup, kavita.
I don't wear makeup…and if i do wear it, all i'll wear is surma and lip gloss. I hate that face junk. I have stopped wearing surma and lip gloss. I use vaseline for my lips cuz i don't want chapped lips. lol. and I should start wearing surma cuz its sunnah, but i get lazy. lol.
I know ! I hate 'makeup' and I dont buy it. But I always wear powder though. My face cant take 'foundation' but I heard good stuff about mineral powder so im just trying it ..i know my face4 goes CRAZY my face is mad sensitiive..~! wouldnt surprise me if it doesnt take his mineral thing
anyway..i like to have on kohl/kajaal ..i dont wear lipgloss it looks horrible on me .. whats surma? oh yes i put on vaseline on my lips bc my lips get dried and chapped soooooo easily esp how its cold now..forget abt it!
I feel… I feel… I feel like I don't want to stop feeling, but I wanna feel no more.
Jaan! That statment reveals that you feel very confused… Dont lose your head. I love you .. It'll be alright
Hey girls,
Just wana say thank you for your kind words and prayers. I'm pretty much emotionally exhausted right now. I didn't get to visit my friend on Friday either. Anyway, I will reply to you all individually soon Insha'Allah. For now, know that I love, value and appreciate all three of you very much. Stay wonderful x
*muah, muah, muuuaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!*
Never a need for thanks! I love you too princess muchisimas(very much)!
*long loud screeeaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmm*
then…exhale!
(Ness) At it girl! Thats it – let it ALL out – let us CAPTURE it and TAKE IT AWAY – away, away. *hugs*
Tayaba – my darling! Wondering about your friend and her family… Is her father better? It will be alright
Well… the so called 'mineral makeup' .. dont even know what to say .. I didnt see no difference ..and plus the colors were so bright for my face I suck at picking colors I told you! Anyway.. I was all excited but .. Im glad I didnt get over excited b/c that woudl have really ended up in over disappointment. Stupid stupid stupid advertisments !
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Anyway – Natural stuff ..always goes! Gotta start putting milk on my face at night! Lol – ali ..i know you'd make a comment about you drinking milk not feeding it to your face! But… it makes my face better .. AT least I hope it will
Man – Im online….basically…. watchingLucky ..I found it on Youtube..they have subtitiles..oviously i cant let it run at its own pace so im totally skipping ahead..cant believe i played the 1st part with an intention to listen to the song..and now im like.. late in the movie!
I just *SNIFF SNIFF*
You know what I wish …….. like dont you ever think about..being in fields with…someone…and you have a dupatta lik ein the movies ..and you're singing and stuff ..and thre's trees and you're running around them .. dont u think of being in a place like where movies are being shot
and u know waht! dont u think of having a bad guy come and start troublinbg you and then this person just comes to your rescue
gosh i just ………… why do i have this movie thing in my head
Nessa –
Tayba –
Kavita – Yes, natural always works. AND LMAO @ your description of running around the trees in a dupatta! awwwwwwwwwww! Ur so cute.
I feel… I feel… I feel like I don't want to stop feeling, but I wanna feel no more.
Jaan! That statment reveals that you feel very confused… Dont lose your head. I love you .. It'll be alright
I'll figure it out.
i remember ali saying something about this same movie type dupatta thing …
dont know..why ami thinking of it! and especially with the BAD guy trying to umm abuse me lolz~ and then i'll BE SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAN THAT'LL BE AWESOME lol im such a psycho!
kaveeeeeee**hug*** u warmly
hw are u luw?? why u up soo late??
ranz **sulks** werz mah HUG???
**HUG RANZ***
Hey! Well – I got caught up in watching Lucky – No Time for Love – but I kept fast forwarding it it. Im supposed to be studying na .. sigh, but I feel so GOOD here! Now switched to a song from Paheli – god Rani is so Beautiful I wish I can look like her. And Shahrukh khan-god – *DIES* Man, why do I LOVE him so MUCH! DArn it !
ITs 1AM here.What time is it there? How ar eyou? I miss you alot. I hope you are keeping well?
Now, tell, dont you have those imaginations…the movie-like imaginations.w.ith u in a field..with a dupatta..singign and dancing…?
its 08.05am here
jus having breakfast, u want???
am trying to keep well love:)
Rani Is Beautiful and soo are u..and I dnt even wanna hear u object to this..uhear?
i actually never did watch paheli, hope its good
and watye studying for??
as for the imaginations?? nope, not really..not danicng around fields
I listen to this song **am in love**
close my eyes and I feel like I am in the middle of these fields..just breathing and feeling
and singing and being held ..observing and loving nature and who ever mystery man is..
but me dnt really imagine dancin around fields etc like in the movies lmao
dats pagalish, besides why imagine when one can actually do those things..not in fields but dance wherever and whenever u wish.. I doo.
now wats with this bad dude thing huh??
Well the bad dude thing goes like this — > Im minding my own business and then there's some BAD DUDE and then he starts harassing me lmao lolz and ahem ummmmmmmm yeah..those stuff like u see inthe movie and then … GOOD GUY COMES … gets rid of the bad guy and beats him up and SAVES MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and then im like ………..Phewwwww .. YOU SAVED ME *stares*
okay gotta use the bathroom reaaaaaaaaal bad lolz brb!!!!!!!
sometimes….it's just unbearable!
*sigh*
I miiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssssss him!!
*wails like a baby*
let it rip boogedyyyy!!! yr wailing registered only 0.7 on the richter scale.
My wailings can make the earth quake ji?
*WWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS*
If you think you can do better… be my guest.
I forgot my friend's birthday Man, I never miss birthdays… I can't believe I forgot! Especially hers…. sigh. I have so much crap on my mind and usually I'm okay at handling everything… but right now it feels like I'm falling apartttt!! gotta pull myself together…. *deep breath*
lol! Tayba, just don't forget mine.
Boo – me too
Ninja – Keep smiling, jaan!
Oreo – shut up
Kavita – I love it when ur happy.
Scarzee – I'm beautiful? waaaah? You have never seen me in that case, ur pretty too.
Oreo – shut up
Hahahahaha!!!
You really think he is going to listen, jaan?
sometimes….it's just unbearable!
*sigh*
What is, hun?
sometimes….it's just unbearable!
*sigh*
What is, hun?
everything, sweets. where are you?!
I'm feeling:
………….weird!
It's because you are…well…weird! lmao Hey beautiful one! What it do?
My feeling: Today is a good day.
Wow…I feel home. This place brings a lot of memories to me…my early days on Internet. Wondering what has changed and what has not!
i m so hurt…reading news and all abt the world…
and ppl fighting and causing a lot of troubles…
wish ppl could stay in peace…for eternity…
Walu! OMG – yo'ure back! Where were you hiding!!!!!!
I feel :
IT ALL SUCK.
.
.. but now Im watching Dhoom Tana from Om Shanti Om
That girl is so pretty! And SRK .. aw gosh… *HARD COLLAPSE*
..
.. *wakes up*
What happened? .. Ohhh as I was saying… SRK… he's the best man! I think Im too obsessed with him
I think I need to stop I need help!
It's because you are…well…weird!
More facts about our Ninjitsu? I so need protection. Erm anyone know the hotline for the FBI Witness Protection Program?
It's because you are…well…weird!
More facts about our Ninjitsu? I so need protection. Erm anyone know the hotline for the FBI Witness Protection Program?
LMAO!!
hahahaha….
LOL!!!
how does being weird make me dangerous tho? waaaah?
i m so tired of driving….its annoying
I hate the way I feel. Man, I just wish I could stop feeling.
Everything is stupid stupid stupid
Everything is a stupid stupid thing
Everything really is stupid! But most of all, PEOPLE are stupid. I mean seriously man, what in the world is so hard to understand about SECRET?!?!!? If I tell you something, and I say its a secret, that means you keep ur big nastee mouth shut up about it! YOU DO NOT GO AROUND TELLING EVERYONE! I tell you because I feel I can trust you and then you go and betray my trust by telling every person you see!?!?!? I mean what the heck!?!?!? is ur problem man?!?!
I hate them kinda people.
Sigh!
Anybody home…..? Hello…..? I need hugs.. !
a hug for kushi on the way….
well in this world no one is honest n tru…so everyone is fake n they intent to hurt others to feel wanted….
Hugs for Rani and Khushi..
Ranz… not sure exaclty how you feel but you sound upset…take it easy… maybe from now on be a little more concealed with that person … if it hurts you … this much…when something is revealed…and you told them it was a secret … maybe they are not worth keeping your secrets …then again I dont know who 'they' are ..feel better soon hun…and take it light…can you maybe..undo the 'secret'? not sure exactly how that will work though
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grrrrrrrrr! *smacks forum*
no no sorry! *takes smack back*
okay I FEEL HORRIBLE! WHY DO THINGS ALWAYS GO WRONG?! eeeeeeerrrrrrrr!!!!!!!
Hi Ninjaaa! Having probs with posting hmm..it happens to the best of us sometimes..unfortunately!
How do you do? Sleeping well?
Should I take it that the forum is working again? Let's seeeee……
Ninja, Insha'Allah things will start going right….Ameen.
I feel so worried and stressed out… final year sucks.
h.u.r.t
OH WOWWWWWW SO NOW IT WORKS!!!!!! PSHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT WHEN I JUST WROTE A WHOLE BUNCH OF STUFF!
Anyway my Ninja darling..be strong..do not let them get to your skin..hold on *hug hug*
DARN FORUMMMMM!!! Not workinggggggggggggggggggg
Errr
TESTINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Oh! So it decides to work when IM TESTING AND NOT when Im writing what I have to write!
ARGH!
seriously…something is really wrong with this forum….
it doesnt work properly…. i m annoyed….
I FEEL YOU person above me!!!!!! *THREATENS FORUM*
where the heck is Mukeshhhhhhhhh?!?!?!
I emailed Mukesh today..we all needa email him !!
Our beloved Prophet peace be upon him says, “The most perfect of believers is the best of you in character, and the best of you are those among you who are best to their wives.”
What does this tell us? The wife is definitely someone who should be cherished, surrounded by love, and cared for. This wife is where the Ummah and its members learn things that build them as good Muslims in the society. The school of the mother is indeed the best of schools. She teaches her children good morals and conduct. She drenches them with unique love that they'll never experience again throughout their life. And before all that, she tries to be the best wife she can be. She's there for her husband when he's in need…and when he's not. She tries to be his comfort, his support, and his…everything. Her presence is what makes her home feel ALIVE. Honestly, just try going in a home where there is no mother present. It feels dead.
Now, let's look at what we witness daily, shall we? How many cases do we know of where the “man” (or so he calls himself) of the family abuses and mistreats this beautiful wife each and every day? Oh so many. In my case that is. It hurts, because very close people to me have to go through it. One of my close friends has to witness her mother being mistreated and tortured each and every day. WHY?! Because apparently her father doesn't realize that if he's not good to his wife and children, he wont be blessed with any good all his life. It's not like he has a bad wife, of course not. In fact, she is one of the people I admire and respect so much. She does all she can to keep everyone happy. Even at times when she's not able to leave her bed, she still tries and gets up just to make sure her children have ate and are well. People like her amaze me beyond explanation. Why would anyone wish any harm to such a person? WHY? So many people are blinded from what they're blessed with. This man has a diamond in his life and he fails to cherish her.
He's losing so much. She, on the other hand, may be living an unbearable life right now, but she's getting so much reward, Alhamdulillah. For every pain she goes through, imagine that. It still hurts though. It hurts me and I'm not even experiencing it. Imagine her and her children. I can't even begin to imagine my dad laying hands on my mother. I'd have a heart-attack. Ya'Allah. When will people realize? It seems that we are blinded to the point where we don't realize what we have until it's gone…
Wives should be beaten once a day as a general rule! Lmao! I can see all the women in here looking for knives and what not! Im just kidding! Considering the sort of woman I am attracted to, chances are, I'd be the one beaten up once a day.
On a more erm SERIOUS note, Oye Ninjitsu! I intend to lay hands on my wife all day, every day. She is welcome to return the favor. Okies, I getting my mind out of the gutter. Normal service has resumed in my life and you shall (ALAS!) see more of me presently.
Hello Boo, Kavita, Ness, Ninjitsu, Rani, Tayba…who am I forgetting? None! Whew! Lmao! Hello Alie! (Alie and Ness, thank you for the encouraging messages. They were very much appreciated).
Ya'Allah. When will people realize? It seems that we are blinded to the point where we don't realize what we have until it's gone…
Precisely. It's human nature to realise what we had after it's gone. If only we could cherish and be grateful for the people we love more often than we show.
Hello Jalapeno – good to see you back =) how are you?
All is well on this side of the Pacific. Long Christmas vacation coming up so Woohoo!
Happy holidays.
I have oh so much work to do in these holidays… and then next semester is dissertation semester…. *faints*
Senor – Welcome bacKK
Tayaba..you have school work to do over the holidays?? Thats horrible!
I feel betrayed. I DESPISE it when I trust someone sooo much and they easily go and break my trust like it's nothing. it freaking stings. darn it.
I don't want to go to my chemistry class. someone please, hurry and tell me I don't have to go!!!!!!!
Kavi – yes I do jaan. I know… it sucks..!
my fishy – I'm so sorry they didn't understand what a precious thing your trust is. It's not your fault for trusting someone you thought was a friend. They'll realise, because what goes around, comes around. *hug* I love you, stay strong. Good luck with chem test x
I feel so misunderstood.
I feeelssss:
a bit of this and a bit of that
its still veddy early in the day to decipher my true feelings..am still trying to get to grips with all my backlog at work and trying to hide my face hehehehe ..
I feel blessed and great to be here…
life is awesumely beautiful with shades of ugliness
oh wait
am just sooooo haaaapppy I got mah copy of the Transformers Dvd
u wudnt believe how many ppl where thinking of gifting this to me for xmas..
except its sooo darn expensive sooo decided to buy it myself
I soooo am drooolin ova Josh
which reminds me
Las vegas is back on Screen
i m so sad that frnds r never loyal n pretent to me a lot…
after all i m not a fool… its equivalent to being rude…
plz stop it…. i cant take the preassure anymore….
i care for u, y treat me like ***….
i m so sad that frnds r never loyal n pretent to me a lot…
after all i m not a fool… its equivalent to being rude…
plz stop it…. i cant take the preassure anymore….
i care for u, y treat me like ***….
12cu
Awwwwwww hunnie..its the way life is nah
In life, not all friends will be loyal to u or sincere and true, this is a reality u should accept
However, in life there are a few people who will always be true to u in whichever way they can
I do hope that u find this small array of folk, and keep them safely locked up in yr life, sharing
Lotsa love, happiness – the good and bad together…
Heck if all else fails, u have the forum and yr friends here, there are many ppl in this forum who are
Sincere, true and extremely great friends….
We are always here to listen, advise, should u require any and simply be there by yr side yet not…u knw wat I mean
As for Me, all I can offer u is my love, duas and support, watever it is ur going thru, I pray that God ensures u have enuf strength to help u through this phase of uncertainty
Wrt yr friends whom u doubt…. I say listen to yr heart, head and deeper still yr soul, u will know whom to trust and whom to let go off…
From me ..a massive hug my sweethart
Luw always
~alie~
ps: a lil secret my angel…dnt have expectations, they will break yr heart, go on caring and loving yr frends, but dnt always expect the same amount of love in return….coz everyone is unique and expresses themselves in their own way…
not sure if this makes much sense to u 🙂
i m so sad that frnds r never loyal n pretent to me a lot…
after all i m not a fool… its equivalent to being rude…
plz stop it…. i cant take the preassure anymore….
i care for u, y treat me like ***….
12cu
Awwwwwww hunnie..its the way life is nah
In life, not all friends will be loyal to u or sincere and true, this is a reality u should accept
However, in life there are a few people who will always be true to u in whichever way they can
I do hope that u find this small array of folk, and keep them safely locked up in yr life, sharing
Lotsa love, happiness – the good and bad together…
Heck if all else fails, u have the forum and yr friends here, there are many ppl in this forum who are
Sincere, true and extremely great friends….
We are always here to listen, advise, should u require any and simply be there by yr side yet not…u knw wat I mean
As for Me, all I can offer u is my love, duas and support, watever it is ur going thru, I pray that God ensures u have enuf strength to help u through this phase of uncertainty
Wrt yr friends whom u doubt…. I say listen to yr heart, head and deeper still yr soul, u will know whom to trust and whom to let go off…
From me ..a massive hug my sweethart
Luw always
~alie~
ps: a lil secret my angel…dnt have expectations, they will break yr heart, go on caring and loving yr frends, but dnt always expect the same amount of love in return….coz everyone is unique and expresses themselves in their own way…
not sure if this makes much sense to u 🙂
Hi Alie,
well i feel much better after reading ur comments…
yaar in life whn it comes to F'ship i always fail….
dont know y….anyway i do not accept anything but at least dont pretend to love me.
i hv a gd frnd (a guy) my best buddy n now since he has a gf…he forces me to accept her…
but i cant… i mean i just cant tolerate her, she is much younger n always talks when she shld not…
even in his family…no one really likes her. i just like my best buddy but i just cant tolerate her…
its not Jealousy becoz this is not the 1st girl in his life….
never felt this way b4. she always wants me to put her in…i cant.
she tells me that she loves me n when i come to know she talks abt me…
y? she wants me to accept her, but how can i do it when she cant accept me…
she tells things abt me that has nothing to do with her….i do not do that to her….
now becoz of her… i hv fought with my frnd…things hv changed… i hv just let it go…..
lets c how sincere my frndship was, in n will be…..
Hi Alie,
yaar in life whn it comes to F'ship i always fail….
Hmmmmmmmmmmm.. I dnt think sooooo
sweety will reply to u properly in the morning
just wanted to send u more love..
smile nah
**hug**
I feel betrayed. I DESPISE it when I trust someone sooo much and they easily go and break my trust like it's nothing. it freaking stings. darn it.
I don't want to go to my chemistry class. someone please, hurry and tell me I don't have to go!!!!!!!
Hey beautiful…
The feeling sucks, doesn't it?
But tell you something… if you give someone something as precious as your love/faith/trust, etc… you have to accept the consequences too.. what they do with it is up to them, isn't it? Unless they gave you their word, of course…
Sigh… THIS I learnt the hard way… if only life was as simple as reasoning it out in your head before your heart gets damaged!
Ninja, these people are stilling hurting you?? What on earth!!! Noo that is just WRONG!! ..You are such a sweet girl…I just dont understand why they would do anything to hurt you this much… I nkow they are your close friends..try to tell them how you feel about it, maybe that will make them aware of how much their actions are affecting you. Love you *hugs*
Dii…boo..one2cu … hiii !! miss u guys.. hope you all are ok gotta run out now *hugs*
I feel..RELIEVE — just took my last final!
My feelings:
Laugh when I truly feel like crying
Smile when I feel a frown emerge
Am Calm when the storms within unsettles further
Cheery, when my soul and body is in pain
Seem content when all I want to do is scream
Moving on even though I feel its worthless
Breathing when I truly don’t want to
Its amazing how one can truly not show any sign of the turmoil, the heartbreak, the pain and hurt and suffering one is experiencing within themselves and in their life, On the surface…Have noticed that ppl simply do not take the time to look into the soul of another, ie through the eye of another, one can see what can never be seen on the frontier – the truth!!!
The smiles, the laughter, the masti……….its like living a life of deception….
I feel sane in my insanity
Hate is too harsh a word to use, but I truly do not admire my falseness…
Strength to withstand the greatest loss, suffering and pain, yet for how long can one go on being strong???
When will the darkness vanish??? When willl I see the light???
I knw my answers are within but within is destroyed, completely empty …..
Theres a limit to the madness….
I feel pain, no amount of pills can take away this pain….yet numb from it all???
I need a heart, a brand new heart that will have the power to withstand anything life throws at it…
The power never to break…the power never to kneel at emotional confusion and love…
I wish for a new heart…coz this one isnt doing me right…
I feel helpless, betrayed, lost, empty, enstranged……cold…..sore…..
I am confused…..
I am not moving forward
Neither am I stepping back
I am not side stepping
It truly is like I am standing at the edge of my life
Wat is going on with me????
Is this natural???
I will probably regret even saying the things I say later on but this place is my sanctuary
My place of peace and trying to understand myself
Pls pls pls go away feeling these feelings of emptiness
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
watch your thoughts, they become words
watch your words, they become actions
watch your actions, they become habits
watch your habits, they become character
watch your character, it becomes your destiny
in the search for me, i discovered truth
in the search for truth, i discovered love
in the search for love, i discovered God
and in God I have found everything!
Head up Buttercup!
I agree with everything you've said except for the last line. Buttercup? Think Pink, Ness. Think Pink. Lmao! Alie, remember, you can't and shouldn't hurt brothers. Lol! Whew!
I agree with everything you've said except for the last line. Buttercup?
Think Pink, Ness. Think Pink. Lmao! Alie, remember, you can't and shouldn't hurt brothers.
Lol! Whew!
Ur r8 Bhai Senor anna… I cant and shudnt hurt my brothers r8..its not ladylike..my sisters are always telling me this
except does Alie ever EVER listen and follow rules and wats seen as the norm?? NEVA.. am sure u follow where dis leads to…
Roflmao..Did a stranger whom uve never met – whom one day decides to include u in her life and respect u as a brother….
tell u how much she loves u??? coz I do..u craze crack pot of a brother..I owe u a massive hug for saying soo little but bringing out my smile and
laughter…..I think I am going to really cry now…
u guys truly bring my sanity amongst all the caos and darkness in my life
i wanna thank u Senor Bhai…for bein u and bein here at the time I need **someone** the most…….
Dragon has lost her fire..dat sparkle..SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS: I THINK U ARE JEALOUS OF MY BUTTERCUP NIC..
DNT WORRY NESS AND I HAVE NUMEROUS ENDEARING TERMS WE CALL U …JUST NOT ANY U KNW OF HEHEHEHEHE
watch your thoughts, they become words
watch your words, they become actions
watch your actions, they become habits
watch your habits, they become character
watch your character, it becomes your destiny
in the search for me, i discovered truth
in the search for truth, i discovered love
in the search for love, i discovered God
and in God I have found everything!
Head up Buttercup!
I knw hun but the pain lingers ..digs deeper and u knw everything soo I dnt have to spread it on the forum
love u …
the only thing that keeps me from going off the rail is GOD…
Feel better, Alie 🙂
I wannnnaaa go dancing!!!!!!! Like proper ball room dancing, wearing a beautiful beaaaautiful long dress, with a rose in my hair and the guy in a nice manly black suit. I wanna spin under the stars with him and I wana feel the wet grass with my feet. I wana breath the fresh sea air and I wanna leave my footprints on the sand. Sighhh!
I wanna go watch Beauty and The Beast…. I LOVE the dancing in there!!!!! sighhhhh!
*sings*
When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me……
I knw hun but the pain lingers ..digs deeper and u knw everything soo I dnt have to spread it on the forum
love u …
the only thing that keeps me from going off the rail is GOD…THEN U'RE ON THE RIGHT TRACK!
Biiiiiiiiiig hugs back at ya! Bear hugs back at ya!
I freaking hate people.
I freaking hate people.
wats new…
wat have they done this time
I freaking hate people.
Yeah..what did they dooo noww!!! People are sooo ooooooffff!!!!!!!
Sadness, heartaches, loss of oneself, its like I am lost within myself
Craze nah, but this is how I feel, theres soo many forces of **negativity** in my soul, in my thoughts and feelings, words but Thankfully not deeds…
I feel like I have been fighting with everything I possess, to break through this barrier, to win this fight
This fight ??? Wat exactly is it??? Hmmmm . All of this is simply craze, its like I am fighting demons within..
Yet …how does one actually fight oneself??
HOW??? There is no lesson as such thought through the medium of education or through the valuable insight books brings to a soul…so where do I go and whom do I speak to???
Is there anyone who would ever truly understand me??
**********SHOUTS******
IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE?????????? WHO WILL UNDERSTAND, WHO WILL BLUDY LISTEN TO ME, HEAR ME, TAKE IN WAT I SAY, HOW I FEEL???? IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE WHO WILL HOLD ME IN THEIR ARMS WITH LOVE AND SINCERITY…?????????????WHO WILL WIPE AWAY MY TEARS…???????????????
HOLD ME WHEN I AM TOOOO WEAK TO STAND????????????????
Nope there isnt, was not written in my fate, I am a sole soul..here to withstand all the flippant harshness, the hatred and the craziness that this life will throw at me…..
I simply destined to live a life that feels like that of a corpse whose soul had not found its peace…
Have found closure with that..have accepted this fate..this destiny of mine!!!!!!!!!!!
At this moment, I am typing and glancing out the window, watching the sunset, infested in loneliness once more….
Am I appreciative of this life gifted to me??? Initially I questioned my existance, then found peace within but now realise that it was simply my way of not really dealing with matters that haunts my soul…instead I hid it, from the world, from the people I love and from myself….in answer to my question, Yes I am amppreciative..but feel undeserving…purposeless..wat PURPOSE do I serve..wat is this parasite within me that seems to be tearing me apart from myself, it feels like I am bein eaten alive…
I want to scream right now, until theres no sound left – I want to cry until the oceans start floods, instead I frown at this thought and wonder why I cant just let it out in this way??? Except it never really brought much consolation to me….
The truth ….as much as I laugh, attempt to bring masti into the lives of the people I love an care for..as much as I smile and breathe…..I am and have been empty for a loooooonnnnggggg time
Everything in my life isnt simply wrong, or straying into darkness, the lifelessness and imminent doom had been etched into my soul for sooo long I cant really decipher when or how it all started…
Wat do I dooooooooooooooooooooo????????????????????????????????
I wanna run away far away from everything and everyone……but my legs or some far greater force wouldn’t allow me that priviledge ..to simply up and away….throw away all this damn falseness..this $$$$$$$$$$ this materialistic life……………
Watever is happening..it feels like I am being sucked into this deeeppp, claustophobic hole…
And somehow, I have given in an allowed myself to be victimised by this demon….
I cant seem to see beyond the masses of pain and heartache I feel…I cant seem to find my way in this darkness…
Many may say that my faith in God has waivered or withered somewhat..yet this is not the case.. My faith and belief ….my constant trust in God has never been more strong than it is at this moment, yet does it stop me from feeling this way???? No….it doesn’t….does it stop my heart from feeling feelingless, does it stop my soul from drowning??nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Wat is true?? Who is true?? What is real?? Who is real???
My instincts, my heart, my soul, my mind, theyre all at war with each other coz they have diversified from my body.. To each their own..driving me craze in the process… and ***lol*** the a
I feel like people are avoiding me, because they are trying to forget me or erase me from their lives. They are my sand – the more I hold on to them, the more they seem to be running away. I am sick of this game. I wish they would just f.uc.k the he.ll off. Stop sending me mixed signals. I don't have the patience to dance along to your bullsh.it any more. Do you hear me loud and clear? Why does a relationship have to go your blo.ody way? Why not mine, for a change?
I just want to run into my friend's arms and cry in his arms and lie there forever under the stars on a rooftop somewhere in India. He makes me forget my crazy world, and for that very reason, he makes me feel so safe. He also makes me laugh so sincerely, no matter how rubbish I am feeling. And he, who has never once said I love you to me in all our year and a half of acquaintance… I can feel his love so much more than those idiots who've been telling me they love me so friggin' much.
When will people stop messing with me? This is not fair, and the morons blo.ody well know it. Urgh.
I feel like people are avoiding me, because they are trying to forget me or erase me from their lives. They are my sand – the more I hold on to them, the more they seem to be running away. I am sick of this game. I wish they would just f.uc.k the he.ll off. Stop sending me mixed signals. I don't have the patience to dance along to your bullsh.it any more. Do you hear me loud and clear? Why does a relationship have to go your blo.ody way? Why not mine, for a change?
I just want to run into my friend's arms and cry in his arms and lie there forever under the stars on a rooftop somewhere in India. He makes me forget my crazy world, and for that very reason, he makes me feel so safe. He also makes me laugh so sincerely, no matter how rubbish I am feeling. And he, who has never once said I love you to me in all our year and a half of acquaintance… I can feel his love so much more than those idiots who've been telling me they love me so friggin' much.
When will people stop messing with me? This is not fair, and the morons blo.ody well know it. Urgh.
***
HUG***
BOO….
i love u …
truly doo angel
am xhausted
Dii..Im here for you if you ever need me *hugs* I love you and… I know sometimes life can feel miserable and be a total mess … Go measures to look for your inner strength, find it and consume it wisely … in your times of greatest need…like now… I know you have it in you ..You are a strong woman I tell you! Will keep you in my prayers .. Keep your chin up .. show the world that proud woman and absorb in their reaction … I love you!!
As for you being exhausted…sleep sleep sleep..rest rest rest…and take a nice warm shower..or do the bubble bath thing that you sometimes doooo .. and relaxxxxx…listen to yr inner voice ..let it speak to you ..and let it put you to sleep!! *hugsssssssssss*
Boo ji – *HUGS* Keep your chin up high…show the world who you are ..and we all know you are a darn great woman! Some people just SUCK … but hold the little strength that you have and let it sustain you …and then let it grow even more bigger…
Keep your chin up high… Be strong… Dont let them get so deep inside of you …
Hugs* ..Yr in my duas too..*Hugs
Does anyone know where MACYS IS AND WHAT IT SELLS
Dii..Im here for you if you ever need me *hugs* I love you and… I know sometimes life can feel miserable and be a total mess … Go measures to look for your inner strength, find it and consume it wisely … in your times of greatest need…like now… I know you have it in you ..You are a strong woman I tell you! Will keep you in my prayers .. Keep your chin up .. show the world that proud woman and absorb in their reaction … I love you!!
As for you being exhausted…sleep sleep sleep..rest rest rest…and take a nice warm shower..or do the bubble bath thing that you sometimes doooo .. and relaxxxxx…listen to yr inner voice ..let it speak to you ..and let it put you to sleep!! *hugsssssssssss*
shukriya
Does anyone know where MACYS IS AND WHAT IT SELLS
erhmmm clothing?? cosmetics?? sounds familiar
Ooofff!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ack forget it – I was in a heated state when I asked that stupid ARGH question! Hmph!
And … just to let everyone know not ALL WOMEN live off of MACY'S
Coz see- there's some that have never stepped foot in the darn place!
moeg van al vat ek het gedink
somebody.please.do.my.freaking.work.for.me.
I am so tired of essaying =( my head hurts, I'm sick of coffee, my toes are cold even with socks on, my head feels light and faint. My eyes hurt. I need sleep…. it's 5:19 am and I only got 292 words out of a 30000 word essay. It is due on Thurs and then I have a 3,500 word essay for Friday – and I don't get it and the teacher hasn't emailed me back to let me know if I have an extension yet. *sigh*
AHS JHFJE HFJE HFJDNFJ FJFJOSL;DKLS BH4 .
*tears*
somebody.please.do.my.freaking.work.for.me.
I am so tired of essaying =( my head hurts, I'm sick of coffee, my toes are cold even with socks on, my head feels light and faint. My eyes hurt. I need sleep…. it's 5:19 am and I only got 292 words out of a 30000 word essay. It is due on Thurs and then I have a 3,500 word essay for Friday – and I don't get it and the teacher hasn't emailed me back to let me know if I have an extension yet. *sigh*
AHS JHFJE HFJE HFJDNFJ FJFJOSL;DKLS BH4 .
*tears*
erhmmmmm NO.. well letseee now…maybe just maybe u shud consider throwing out the sweets and sticking to the diet ur supposed to be on, then u will achieve sum result…in the aftermath???
wat I mean is…sleep when ur suppose to, and instead of intoxicating yrself with coffee, indulge in sweet dreams, spend the days given to u actually concentrating on writing your essays instead of filtering thru territory that will distract u
instead spread that hammock in yr garden and relax…have sum tea and insha allah u will be inspired to complete the essay…
just my 2 cent worth!!!!!
ciao
Scarry:
Can't throw the sweets out just yet, but thank you .
Dear Tayba Jaan
My post was supposed to make u and not
Sigh!!!!
Surely your folks can ensure that u have some free time during the day and off coz keep yr brothers from bein unruly??
afterall this is yr finals and u definitely need the space and quiet right??
anyways…all else fails..come over here…
u can spend yr days at my flat…I dnt have a garden *yet* but theres a lovely summer breeze from the balcony..shud u wish to leave it open ( the door ie ) and I apparently have the most amazingly comfy chair….
am thinking..my study table is facing the window soo u have an even better view of the beautiful blue skies ….and puffy white clouds drifting by
lazily…..one cant fail but to draw inspiration from this sight!!!!
u have a selection of **calming** music u can listen to as a backdrop….
am just thinking…..this can actually work to yr advantage…am sure u will meet those deadlines and insha allah get those A symbols ur prone to acquiring…
~~~~~~~~~~
**shrugs**
wat a day!!!!
I feel Greeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
somebody.please.do.my.freaking.work.for.me.
I am so tired of essaying =( my head hurts, I'm sick of coffee, my toes are cold even with socks on, my head feels light and faint. My eyes hurt. I need sleep…. it's 5:19 am and I only got 292 words out of a 30000 word essay. It is due on Thurs and then I have a 3,500 word essay for Friday – and I don't get it and the teacher hasn't emailed me back to let me know if I have an extension yet. *sigh*
AHS JHFJE HFJE HFJDNFJ FJFJOSL;DKLS BH4 .
*tears*
You'll do well…you ALWAYS DO!
My help: try adding lots of 'very's and 'really's! lmbo
Miss you! 🙂
Tayba jaan, Nessa is right, insha'Allah you'll do fine. My duas are with you, jaan. I love you.
Last night…
“I don't like you. I don't give a s h i t about you. I hate the s h i t you do. You're annoying. I HATE YOU. you hear me? I HATE YOU. I don't want to have anything to do with you.”
“You don't understand. that has nothing to do with hating you. I can still tell you whatever I want. I can get in your business all I want, and I will. But I hate you. I hate you, but Imma still get in your business and say anything I want to you. I can do whatever I want.”
*sigh* Why do you hate me so much? I haven't even done anything to you. How is it possible that you have so much hatred in your heart for me? when you have done worse things to me but I have never hated you as much as you hate me. And I can never hate, nor will I ever want to hate you.
Last night, for one second, I wanted to hate you. I wanted to run away from a place where everyone hates me. I wanted to run so far away that if I ever thought of coming back, I wouldn't be able to find my way back. I wanted to run far enough so that I never miss you or think of you. I wanted to hate you so much that I would never be able to forgive you.
But I can't. I don't have that much hate in my heart and may Allah (SWT) keep it that way, insha'Allah. Ameen. I only hated you for a second, and may Allah (SWT) forgive me for that.
Go ahead, hate me, but I see that you're wrong. I don't hate you for the painful words you said to me, I only pity you. I pity you because you are ungrateful for the things people do for you and in return, all you give them is pain. Hate me, but I can never hate you. Hate is so strong… I have never hated anyone, and I don't intend to make you the first one. I have already forgiven you, I cannot NOT forgive you… a couple days from now I will forget the tears you made me cry, I'll forget the pain you made me feel, and I'll even forget the words you said to me. Because that's just the way I am, Alhamdulillah. I don't want to walk around with those words stuck in my heart, Alhamdulillah that Allah has made me so forgiving.
It was people like you that made me hate and pity myself. It was people like you that I lost all the self-confidence I had in me.
Maula mere, Maula mera dil yahi bola, yaara raaz yeh Usne hai mujh par khola – ke hai ishq mohabbat jiske dil mein usko pasand karta hai Maula mera…
Allah loves those who have love in their hearts. I don't understand how you will ever become close to Allah with all that hate in your heart… you need a miracle. May Allah (SWT) give you that miracle. May Allah (SWT) guide you and fill your heart with love, insha'Allah. Ameen.
Forum members (You know who you are): It is because of people like you that I have learned to love myself. It is because of people like you that I found the self-confidence I had lost a long time ago. It is because of people like you that I have learned to not let people's hateful words hurt me.
Boo: I love you for being my twin. You don't know how much I needed you last night… I felt so much better after I thought of you. You are so amazing, and I'm so proud to call you my twin… I love you. I didn't even have to talk to you to feel better, just thinking about you and how much I love you and how much you love me too made me smile and wipe those tears away… Please don't ever leave me. <img src="http
My Feelings:
I'm tired of sadness. I'm tired of hurt. I really really am.
Whatever it is I did to others, it must be big. I feel as if people are punishing me for something huge I've done. And I'm dying to know what it is. I am. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy. Nor the time I had a real smile on and didn't have to fake one. I wan't to be happy again. But it seems, the people around me don't like seeing me happy. I wish things were better. It's like, every time I move up a step in my life, I always expect pain. I'm really not a pessimistic person. But it's always been that way, so I can't help but expect it. I just wish my family and I understood each other more. I wish my friends didn't hurt me so easily and simply not cared. I wish I could say “it's okay” and mean it for once. I wish they would understand. I wish I would stop and tell them that it's not okay so that they would realize just how much they hurt me. then again, they probably wouldn't care. I feel as if my feelings don't really matter. When I'm hurt, people always expect me to move on and get over it. And it stings. because I get tired of it. I know that Allah Ta'ala does everything for a good reason, and Alhamdulillah, I think I have become strong because of all this. It's just sometimes, I wish it would be better. just sometimes.
For the past 3 months or so, I have been acting that everything is okay with one of my friends. Even after she's hurt me and betrayed my trust. over and over. I was acting out well for a while. Until one of my friends rubbed it in my face and made me realized just how much it bothered me. I decided that I'm going to continue the act, but I'm starting to fail. every time I speak to my friend I remember what my other friend said and I start being cold and replying in one word sentences. And I hate myself for it. it's beating me… I was speaking to my friend on MSN earlier. I actually struggled to instant message her. After about 15 mins of debating I IMed her. Then i started replying in one word sentences. fine. yes. mhm. you? ha. you know? Then she said to me, “I want to know why you instant messaged me if you weren't going to say anything.” ouch. I felt so used. why? because I've done soooo much for her. And I felt used because now that she's good and happy, she doesn't care to speak to me again and is asking me why i speak to her. Did she even bother to speak to me? I feel like I'm putting too much effort while others put no effort at all. And it's pretty funny because I always end up being the wrong one. I know I'm wrong for trying to act that it's okay. but it's how I've been. all my life. thats what I've been used to. And people who lie to me and say that they care don't make it easier. because they're continously hurting me and acting like I have no feelings. I wish people would understand that I am human. It stings even more because I am always trying my best in order not to hurt others. even if it be just one word that I utter. And they do it so easily. I just wish that the people who really cared were here….
School is stressing as well. I have so much to do, very little time. The last thing I need right now is pain.
I try so hard. But when the wounds are constant, it's difficult to heal. I'm breaking down…
My Feelings:
I'm tired of sadness. I'm tired of hurt. I really really am.
Whatever it is I did to others, it must be big. I feel as if people are punishing me for something huge I've done. And I'm dying to know what it is. I am. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy. Nor the time I had a real smile on and didn't have to fake one. I wan't to be happy again. But it seems, the people around me don't like seeing me happy. I wish things were better. It's like, every time I move up a step in my life, I always expect pain. I'm really not a pessimistic person. But it's always been that way, so I can't help but expect it. I just wish my family and I understood each other more. I wish my friends didn't hurt me so easily and simply not cared. I wish I could say “it's okay” and mean it for once. I wish they would understand. I wish I would stop and tell them that it's not okay so that they would realize just how much they hurt me. then again, they probably wouldn't care. I feel as if my feelings don't really matter. When I'm hurt, people always expect me to move on and get over it. And it stings. because I get tired of it. I know that Allah Ta'ala does everything for a good reason, and Alhamdulillah, I think I have become strong because of all this. It's just sometimes, I wish it would be better. just sometimes.
For the past 3 months or so, I have been acting that everything is okay with one of my friends. Even after she's hurt me and betrayed my trust. over and over. I was acting out well for a while. Until one of my friends rubbed it in my face and made me realized just how much it bothered me. I decided that I'm going to continue the act, but I'm starting to fail. every time I speak to my friend I remember what my other friend said and I start being cold and replying in one word sentences. And I hate myself for it. it's beating me… I was speaking to my friend on MSN earlier. I actually struggled to instant message her. After about 15 mins of debating I IMed her. Then i started replying in one word sentences. fine. yes. mhm. you? ha. you know? Then she said to me, “I want to know why you instant messaged me if you weren't going to say anything.” ouch. I felt so used. why? because I've done soooo much for her. And I felt used because now that she's good and happy, she doesn't care to speak to me again and is asking me why i speak to her. Did she even bother to speak to me? I feel like I'm putting too much effort while others put no effort at all. And it's pretty funny because I always end up being the wrong one. I know I'm wrong for trying to act that it's okay. but it's how I've been. all my life. thats what I've been used to. And people who lie to me and say that they care don't make it easier. because they're continously hurting me and acting like I have no feelings. I wish people would understand that I am human. It stings even more because I am always trying my best in order not to hurt others. even if it be just one word that I utter. And they do it so easily. I just wish that the people who really cared were here….
School is stressing as well. I have so much to do, very little time. The last thing I need right now is pain.
I try so hard. But when the wounds are constant, it's difficult to heal. I'm breaking down…
Hey beautiful, (I am writing this to Ninja but Tayba and Rani – it is for you too!)
You feel hurt because you care. Your heart cares. You feel pain because you have a heart to feel the pain with. Because you are sensitive and much as you are mature-for-your-age, you are still an innocent child
These words are beyond beautiful…
Ninja, I second everything boo has said. She's completely right. I know exactly how you feel, I've been through it. Just look at my post before yours and you will know. And we can't change ourselves overnight. You won't change so quickly. Trust me, I've been like this for about 8 years now. It takes an angel like Tayba to help you through this. Allah will send you your angel too, jaan. And sometimes, you can be your own angel.
I'll say the rest in an email, acha? So check our email account.
And boo jaan, I'm learning to be more confident. I love you…
Boo- A thank you really isn't enough to show you just how much I appreciated your words but it's all I can do right now…
Thank you soooooo much hun, thank you for being so amazing.
I've been feeling so crap lately! No worries, it's has been from within, not from without! 😉
Anyway, a friend sent this to me this morning and it made all the difference! I pass it along to you all, without whom my days would have been pretty overcast on many an occassion! Love you all!
Beautiful words:
“What is Real? asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side. . . “Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out-handle?”
“Real isn't how you are made,” said the Skin Horse. “Its a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real.”
“Does it hurt?” asked the Rabbit.
“Sometimes,” said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. “When you are Real you don't mind being hurt.”
“Does it happen all at once, like being wound up,” he asked, “or bit by bit?”
“”It doesn't happen all at once, said the Skin Horse. “You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't metter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand.”
Nessa-
that made me smile.
Glad to have been of assistance Ninjitsu!
Of all the wonderful blessings God has bestowed upon me, one of my favorite ones is the experience of going over for a cup of coffee at Starbucks each morning! They holler out my name before both my feet are over the threshold, smile as if they haven't seen me in ages, inquire about my day even though it is but 7am in the morning, give me a steaming mug of coffee even if it comes at a steep price, and wish me the best of days. Some set off girly giggles when I politely flirt with a quiet comment about a particular shade of lipstick, the copious amount of mascara or eye-shadow or even pink toddler-shoes that war with the black apron and white and khaki outfit.
Small price to pay for such a great start to the day. Thank you God for the little things of life that make such a big impact on my life. Life is beautiful even when it is not. Oh, and for you my friends, I wish you the best of days all through the week.
oh my…
didnt I just say that !!!!
shykes..wat da??
oh btw..thanks for making me laff
Senor Flirt …lol Mr Expert on Lipstick shades??
since when??
hope ur well Mr dearest Anna..
u have sooooooooooooooo Not Been missed:)
mwah
Why are the ones we love so far? I freaking hate this distance.
Do you have any relatives in South Jersey?? The flirty kind, like yourself?
I pull into my local crack den (coffee house ) and have a game of chicken with a monstronsity of a vehicle! It's no 'car' to say the least! I walk quickly inside, wondering if this person saw my turn signal. When the smell of coffee hits me, the 'incident' is quickly forgotten! As I'm standing at the register a man walks up behind me and tells the clerk to charge me double because I stole his parking space. My heart lept into my throat and I turned toward a huge grin & big green eyes. I smiled back and pushed his coffee cup toward mine and tell the clerk to 'ring it up'. the look of shock on his face is hilarious! As we exit, he says, “Thanks I should have my spot stolen more often, my name is Marcus.” and hands me a business card. I tell him my name and he says, “You are very beautiful.” and walks to his hellish vehicle while I stood dumbfounded!
WTF???? Men! I'm still dumbfounded by the way…
To show us truly what love is!
Flirting does not always work…especially at the Lufthansa check-in counter. Lmao! I once was having trouble with baggage. I had to carry this stupid duffel bag -imagine the girth of a Stegosaurus' belly and the length of a Brontosaurus' neck- for a friend and was trying to convince the woman behind the counter that I can somehow shove the thing in the overhead bin. I thought saying 'You have a beautiful smile' would help…since she did have a beautiful smile. Alas! Once I said it, the smile turned to a monstrous frown and I had to check the canvas Shrek and cough up a fortune going over the limit. Flirting is costly.
lmao…so you say!
Anyway…it was more eerie than ego stroking.
Uh huh!
Why are the ones we love so far? I freaking hate this distance.
Second what Ness said.
I love you.
…. it's hard, but i'll try.
Yemz: trying is better than not…
keep well hunney
Tayba: I 3rd wat Ness said
Ness: Did u call him??? U shud…yr excuse: **well was just checking if ur one of em losers who carries fake biz cards in the hope of looking hot** oh well sums to the effect..my brains are chewed now..cant think of sumthing awfully smexi to say to dude who got yr nerves in a wreck..hehehe
Senor: forget the airport anna…u have it all here..in the beautiful form of Ness…lol
she makes ye tingle huh..lmao…okaaay..flirting sux..I dunno HOW TO>???? an fools who try to flirt with me..well I begin frowning like the lady in yr story..sooo guess it doesnt work on everyone….
I feel…..impatient…
Am going home for the weekend:) yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy
but the only flight I got was on Sat morning at 7am..sigh..
so am wondering if anyone will notice if I rock up clad in my Pjs…lol
knowing me…I prob will go ahead a wear my Pjs…
adios
my hommies:)
Ps: Anna..u read my email?? wat u think of my theory?? huh?????
u better reply soon…
Ness: Still waiting for yr addy
Tayba: Yrs tooo???
Like send it over this year pls…
Yemz: If u see Ranz….pls give her a hug from me okay..thanks
Ness: Did u call him??? U shud…yr excuse: **well was just checking if ur one of em losers who carries fake biz cards in the hope of looking hot** oh well sums to the effect..my brains are chewed now..cant think of sumthing awfully smexi to say to dude who got yr nerves in a wreck..hehehe
Senor: forget the airport anna…u have it all here..in the beautiful form of Ness…lol
she makes ye tingle huh..lmao…okaaay..flirting sux..I dunno HOW TO>???? an fools who try to flirt with me..well I begin frowning like the lady in yr story..sooo guess it doesnt work on everyone….
No Zill…I didn't. My mind & heart are elsewhere…
And leave Senor be! When he finds his 'prem kahani', it will be someone very deserving.
Today I feel…fortunate & loved!
Dii – I have to crack up with you. Senor – commenting on a lipstick shade … on the girls at STARBUCKS ?! Rotfl …… Is that what you call flirting? I guess it is… I hope it was worthed .. haha
I hope you all have been doing alright..hanging in there hmm
Classes are starting tomm !
Stupid Break was unproductive
But then again..breaks are supposed to be, or what?
Rani:
Stare Mashey! Stange yeh? You know what? Tame khobe ke wali dale, and in it te khkwale wey just like in real life . Za taasre meena ka wum sooooooooooo muchhhh!! Waley? zaka tame der kha marguray yeh! Kha? <3 Khuday pa maan.
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LMAO! TAYBA JAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! I love you oh so much, chandni! Your Pashto is off the hook, Masha'Allah! You even speak it so well! Masha'Allah Masha'Allah Masha'Allah! lol.
Zuh khayem, thu tsange yeh? Yeh tha khobe ke zuh khkwale wum? Keep on dreaming, baby! lmao! Au zum taasra dera meena ka wum! Tola na kho thu kha marguray yeh!
Khuday pa maan. Allah de mal shi.
Sapne dekho, zaroor dekho. Bas unke poore hone ki shart mat rakho.
*sigh*
Kyun aisi umeed ki maine, jo aise nahaam hui…
Why did I have such hope that has failed like this…
Door banayi thi manzil, toh raste mein hi shaam hui…
I had made my destination so far, that it became night on the paths…
Ab toote sapno ke shishe chubte hai en aankhon mein…
Now the glass of broken dreams are piercing my eyes…
*hug* I hope you're feeling better after my email, jaan. Za taasra meena ka wum! lots .
someone told me I make them nervous… is that a good thing or a bad? lol can't figure it out .
ok that depends.
is this person a guy
… LMAO! no, I mean it depends what kind of nervous.
When I was younger, I often got nervous around beautiful women. There was this sister of a friend, who was off in college in the US that came back for the Summer. I had never seen her before and when I was introduced to her, I said: 'Hi, you pleasure me.' Gawd, I wanted to kill myself. Fortunately, she obviously has a hearing problem. She said: 'Its a pleasure to meet you too.' Whew!
LMAO……
HAHAHAHAH…….
*breathes*
omg….
okay…roflmao..erhmmmm Senor ***shakes head*** ur too much yaar
I feel:
sad: coz Am leaving home tonite..
edgy: cz I have soo little hours left and sooo much to get done
uncomfortable: being on the forum:(
someone told me I make them nervous… is that a good thing or a bad? lol can't figure it out .
Either way…it's a good thing!
*snicker* uh huh!
ROTFL !!!! Are you SERIOUS DUDE?!
OMG!
*DIES of bizarre laughter!*
BIZARRE laughter???? Now I'm intrigued!
What up Kava Daba! How's the schooling?
You have no idea! The kind of crap that came out of my mouth in the presence of beautiful people or in front of large crowds when I was young. It still does, but lets make fun of the past, not the present. On the fifth anniversary of my brother's death, my parents had a thanksgiving gathering in our home (Mom said it was thanksgiving because my brother was in a better place and we could not argue with her logic).
After a few words from our Pastor and a few more from people who should have never been given a microphone, my Dad asked me if I would inform everyone that dinner was served. I asked him how do I say it and he asked me to say: 'Good evening! May I have everyone's attention please? Dinner is served. Thank you.' Guess what I said? 'Good evening! May I have everyone's dinner please? Attention is served. Thank you.'
I laugh now, but it hurt for a long time thinking of all that laughter.
Charming and cute I say!
Unless of course, it was last week!
Haha! Senor, you're killing me here!
But my oh my! What a little lad! How old were you anyway? I mean if you were really little, Im sure everyone must have passed your comment off as nothing but Cute!
Nessa ! How are you?! I see you are hanging it out here with Senor.
School – UGH – today is the 2nd day – Im in the comp lab right now…
Didnt wake up early ..like i did this morning…in a long time! Right now I feel like bhoot! Not to mention that I look like one!
I shud go kick back in the library and sleep lol…
Oye! You said let's be civil. Lmao! I do not fear large crowds anymore. But I still dread speaking to beautiful women. Show up at my door and you will see it happen.
Haha! No doubt about that! Our beautiful Nessa will have you blacked out in no time!
Oh Senor, still as charming & as cute as ever…
Kavi – Should you be working on a project? 2nd day and you're already sighing? That doesn't sound good!!!
He probably wont be charming and cute as ever when he see you ! Unless….charming and cute is defined by cross eyed followed by being unconscious!!
Please Nessa ji, show up at his door and get him how we want him!
Nah..im not sighing! Did you HEAR ME SIGH?!
Its not that..its just that I did not want to go back to college for this semester… I mean…people live happily with regular jobs..why should you need to do all that college stuff…?
I dont know..I dont know…I think Im going to leave now !
Cheers you two!
Man!!!! Can I clear a room or what???? Sheesh!!!!!!!!!!!!
Take care Kava Daba!
Can't visit him. From what I hear, it's invitation only! rotflmao
I am neither cute nor charming. But, if the old adage is true and beauty does lie in the eyes of the beholder, when Ness sees me I would be as handsome as anything anybody ever laid eyes on.
Well dude, would yew invite her already! So we cud get this black out process movin'!!
Okay im going for real now!~!!! lol
byeeeeeee guys!
I am neither cute nor charming. But, if the old adage is true and beauty does lie in the eyes of the beholder, when Ness sees me I would be as handsome as anything anybody ever laid eyes on.
Then I'd pass my eyes around for the others to see you! Though I'm sure they see what I see!
Every 'fumble & crack' wrapped in that humility, make my eyes smile!
I'm fading fast as well. Ciao Kavita. As for you Ness- I enjoyed this evening with you! Thank you for putting up with me. I thank myself (a bit more) for putting up with you. Adios mi amiga.
Dios te bendiga Senor!
Sleep well!
You have no idea! The kind of crap that came out of my mouth in the presence of beautiful people or in front of large crowds when I was young. It still does, but lets make fun of the past, not the present. On the fifth anniversary of my brother's death, my parents had a thanksgiving gathering in our home (Mom said it was thanksgiving because my brother was in a better place and we could not argue with her logic).
After a few words from our Pastor and a few more from people who should have never been given a microphone, my Dad asked me if I would inform everyone that dinner was served. I asked him how do I say it and he asked me to say: 'Good evening! May I have everyone's attention please? Dinner is served. Thank you.' Guess what I said? 'Good evening! May I have everyone's dinner please? Attention is served. Thank you.'
I laugh now, but it hurt for a long time thinking of all that laughter.
*CACKLES with laughter*
Oh, and also – Nessa, I am intrigued too… bizarre laughter? Superb!
I had the most wonderful time in here today! Thank you Boo and Ninjitsu! Thank you God for blessing my life with friends! I so do not deserve them but am so very grateful! I am off to dinner. Have a great evening/morning everyone. Ciao!
enjoy your time getting fat!
Then I'd pass my eyes around for the others to see you! Though I'm sure they see what I see!
Every 'fumble & crack' wrapped in that humility, make my eyes smile!
uhmmmm …I dnt think others will c what u see ..wateva da heck u guys are taslking bout..the sentence just didnt make sense to mee….
wat I see is love..but then again..am I drama queen Right….
wat wud i knw….
Then I'd pass my eyes around for the others to see you! Though I'm sure they see what I see!
Every 'fumble & crack' wrapped in that humility, make my eyes smile!
uhmmmm …I dnt think others will c what u see ..wateva da heck u guys are taslking bout..the sentence just didnt make sense to mee….
wat I see is love..but then again..am I drama queen Right….
wat wud i knw….
Hmmm…I wonder…
You don't see humor, self deprecation, humility, intelligence, calm, dedication? I can't speak for the others, but I'd bet my last chocolate bar, they see the same!!
Call it what you wish Alie, but I 'see' things when I look at all of my friends on the forum and I do not apologize for it! It's what draws me to them, yourself included!
I read somewhere that the mouth speaks what's in the heart. If you see love in my words & actions, perhaps you should check your own heart.
None of this was said negatively. In fact, it couldn't have been said more positively!
In the interest of self-preservation, I need to say what I have to say as fast I could say it and leave as fast as I can:
As most good things in life, this, I'm afraid has to come to an end. In the few months that I have been a part of this forum, I have experienced kindness, compassion, understanding, generosity and have received the gift of undeserving friendship from strangers around the world. I am very grateful. After considerable thought, I have decided that it is best that I leave. I do not know if this is permanent or temporary. Perhaps time will tell.
I wish you all the very best in life. Thank you for the wonderful memories.
Ciao
Senor
Senor…. is it okay if I ask why you wish to leave?
I second this question, please.
I third it.
Too many thoughts in my head to express them right now…. want to blank out…
*Looks at Boo, doesn't have the heart to keep seeing her blank expression, looks back down, and then the tears flow*
I fourth it!!!
This is so not fair! All the cool people leave the forum and retarded ones are stuck to this place like glue! (lmao. hope someone doesn't include me in the list of retards!)
This makes me sad. Just when this forum is getting unboring again!
Diiii – Shona mere shona, rona nahi rona…
Boo – Dey doh mujhe dey doh saare ghum…
Is it possible to get a new life altogether?
Or at least… smash my head against something real hard and pray I begin to suffer from amnesia?
I have never been stoned in my entire life, but I have a sudden urge to try it.
Life is too effing hard when it shouldn't be.
Be careful what you wish for, hunn. If you suffer from amnesia, what will I do? I don't want to lose a twin.
I'll be honest with you, there have been times when I wished to start life freshly. Like suffer from amnesia and whatnot. Sort of like take a break. but You have too many beautiful memories with too many beautiful people to wish for amnesia, jaan.
Give it some time and you'll gain the strength to move on.
And main hoon na. I'm just a PM, email, MSN away.
I love you, twin ji.
I fourth it!!!
This is so not fair! All the cool people leave the forum and retarded ones are stuck to this place like glue! (lmao. hope someone doesn't include me in the list of retards!)
This makes me sad. Just when this forum is getting unboring again!
Exactly. There was so much laughter here the last couple of days – I found myself actually laughing out loud. Everything here is done in jest, but right now, you could cut the tension with a knife.
I am sad about all of this too. Really puts a downer on all the laughs!
WHAT?!?!?!!?!!?!? THIS SUCKS!
I know Rani, the forum was starting to feel like before again! no joke! Just when I start logging on the forum again! why o why?
truth is, mr.senorGay…errr i mean mr.senorJay was on parole people. and his parole was revoked for flirting with the lady behind the starbucks counter. and plus the fact that he was suppose to be working while on parole, not chatting in some bolly forum (of all places!!)
so senoray…remember the rules of the prison…make war not love. and never ever, bend it like beckham!!
I feel weird!
In the interest of self-preservation, I need to say what I have to say as fast I could say it and leave as fast as I can:
As most good things in life, this, I'm afraid has to come to an end. In the few months that I have been a part of this forum, I have experienced kindness, compassion, understanding, generosity and have received the gift of undeserving friendship from strangers around the world. I am very grateful. After considerable thought, I have decided that it is best that I leave. I do not know if this is permanent or temporary. Perhaps time will tell.
I wish you all the very best in life. Thank you for the wonderful memories.
Ciao
Senor
I feel weird!
thats cos u are weird.
… and proud. kthanks!
In the interest of self-preservation, I need to say what I have to say as fast I could say it and leave as fast as I can:
As most good things in life, this, I'm afraid has to come to an end. In the few months that I have been a part of this forum, I have experienced kindness, compassion, understanding, generosity and have received the gift of undeserving friendship from strangers around the world. I am very grateful. After considerable thought, I have decided that it is best that I leave. I do not know if this is permanent or temporary. Perhaps time will tell.
I wish you all the very best in life. Thank you for the wonderful memories.
Ciao
Senor
U cant okay
U cant leave…
I don’t want u to go..
Just don’t
Simple as dat..
Am gonna start singing*** pls don’t go..dnt go…pls dnt goooooooooooooooooooooo
I want u to stay, pls remain…where u belong..pls dnt go….
……… now am gonna sing
**dnt u dare go breaking my heart….u said u wudnt soooo dnt go…dnt leave….
Pls stay……for a lil while much more than longer*********
Guys pls help me here okay……….
Senor Anna..u cannot leave…..okay
Am more than panicking at yr news…my heart is breaking..no my already broken heart cannot take any more
Super glueing soo u just cant leave…
If not for anyone else then me..coz I love u and want u to stay okay pushed monkey u have to ….
Or I will go craze and start eating bananas then I will braid my hair and live on trees and singing
Sway with me whilst swinging from branch to branch looking for u
Ness & Kavi:
I told u guys not to tease me..coz I may fall in love with him and then he will break my heart
Now seee whats happening…exactly what I said…..he is breaking me heart hommies
Anna u cant goooooo…noooooooooooooooooo …u cant
U CANT
U CANT
U CANT
Besides like I said to u ..if its my posts then:
Am sorry
But brothers and sisters are allowed to fight with each other even over the most annoyingly petty stuff
I just wasn’t thinking yest Sam…..pls accept my maaf…I really am sorry if it was my silly bickering…
**thumps Senor anna on the head** if this is actually the reason for yr goodbyes coz it’s a silly reason….
My random outbursts..heck I have said worse to u..u knw dat….sooo why leave now…
It cant be mee..right??<img src="https://www.bollywoodlyrics.com/cs/emoticons/emotion-42.gif" alt="Confused"
alrite senoray!! somebody really got the ultimate hotz for u!! and its puttin' da forum on fire…yeeeehaaaaaaa!!!
surely u cant say no to da lady's request rite? 😉
but u gota decide dude….forum faltoos or prison dudes
but u gota decide dude….forum faltoos or prison dudes
those two shouldn't even be in the sentence together!
Ninja letting her feelings out well on MSN:
Kullu man 'alaiha faan says:
you know what, I've been holding it too long. i needu freaking pee!
Tayba says:
ROFL
Tayba says:
why do u say things that make me want to post it on the forum!??!!?
.
but u gota decide dude….forum faltoos or prison dudes
those two shouldn't even be in the sentence together!
I know that's right Ninjitsu! lmao
And can you believe someone is matchmaking??? Bwaahahahaha!
Princess ILY x infinity!
INCLUDE??
Oh sweet 99, you just may be #3 or #4!!! lmbo
Ninja letting her feelings out well on MSN:
Kullu man 'alaiha faan says:
you know what, I've been holding it too long. i needu freaking pee!
Tayba says:
ROFL
Tayba says:
why do u say things that make me want to post it on the forum!??!!?
.
I sympathise with her…. R O F L!
Tabz you have that effect on people! Seriously!
In the interest of self-preservation, I need to say what I have to say as fast I could say it and leave as fast as I can:
As most good things in life, this, I'm afraid has to come to an end. In the few months that I have been a part of this forum, I have experienced kindness, compassion, understanding, generosity and have received the gift of undeserving friendship from strangers around the world. I am very grateful. After considerable thought, I have decided that it is best that I leave. I do not know if this is permanent or temporary. Perhaps time will tell.
I wish you all the very best in life. Thank you for the wonderful memories.
Ciao
Senor
I cannot at the moment explain why, but I understand Senorji….. Sir, I haven't spoken to you much but you have brought life to this forum. May I take this opportunity to thank you for spreading sunshine in our momentary lives here at this forum. Thank you. The best of wishes to you.
Ninja letting her feelings out well on MSN:
Kullu man 'alaiha faan says:
you know what, I've been holding it too long. i needu freaking pee!
Tayba says:
ROFL
Tayba says:
why do u say things that make me want to post it on the forum!??!!?
.
I sympathise with her…. R O F L!
Tabz you have that effect on people! Seriously!
I MAKE PPL WANA HOLD IN THEIR PEE?!?! LMAO
INCLUDE??
Oh sweet 99, you just may be #3 or #4!!! lmbo
Okay, you can include me in the list of retards, as long as you don't include me in the list of retards that need to get their butt off the forum! Deal or no deal?
truth is, mr.senorGay…errr i mean mr.senorJay was on parole people. and his parole was revoked for flirting with the lady behind the starbucks counter. and plus the fact that he was suppose to be working while on parole, not chatting in some bolly forum (of all places!!)
so senoray…remember the rules of the prison…make war not love. and never ever, bend it like beckham!!
uhm… Marine… the emoticons… lmao.
crazy lady!
May I take this opportunity to thank you for spreading sunshine in our momentary lives here at this forum.
sunshine through my window
Thats what you are, my shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel Im on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far
In the interest of self-preservation, I need to say what I have to say as fast I could say it and leave as fast as I can:
As most good things in life, this, I'm afraid has to come to an end. In the few months that I have been a part of this forum, I have experienced kindness, compassion, understanding, generosity and have received the gift of undeserving friendship from strangers around the world. I am very grateful. After considerable thought, I have decided that it is best that I leave. I do not know if this is permanent or temporary. Perhaps time will tell.
I wish you all the very best in life. Thank you for the wonderful memories.
Ciao
Senor
U cant okay
U cant leave…
I don’t want u to go..
**dnt u dare go breaking my heart….u said u wudnt soooo dnt go…dnt leave….
Am more than panicking at yr news…my heart is breaking..no my already broken heart cannot take any more
Super glueing soo u just cant leave…
If not for anyone else then me..coz I love u and want u to stay okay pushed monkey u have to …. Aren't you the reason his leaving I'm sorry no offense
Ness & Kavi:
I told u guys not to tease me..coz I may fall in love with him and then he will break my heart
Now seee whats happening…exactly what I said…..he is breaking me heart hommies
HUH????????????????????????
Am sorry
But brothers and sisters are allowed to fight with each other even over the most annoyingly petty stuff
OK well let me get this clear your in love with him yet you guys are brother and sister???
It cant be mee..right??
Besides wat wud the forum be wothout u???
Plain..boring and not something to look forward to… GLAD TO KNOW WE MATTER TO YOU DARLING</e
Ali keep your head up and clear your head deside what it is exactly you want.
But you see, it's not me, it's not my family.
In your head, in your head they are fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are crying…
LOL i love this Oreo now you write songs how cool is that
LOL i love this Oreo now you write songs how cool is that
hahaha, write songs?
I feel used.
I feel used.
who? whooo did that to u? let me have a go at 'em!
who? whooo did that to u? let me have a go at 'em!
lmao, aww! an idiot!
it's okay, I be used to this feeling!
lmao, aww! an idiot!
it's okay, I be used to this feeling!
be used to this feeling? what kind of crap is that? u need not be used to this feeling. i say stand up and make some noise!!
Awwwwwwwww! Serio is bacccck new and reformed peoplee!!!
Awwwwwwwww! Serio is bacccck new and reformed peoplee!!!
yes, let me spread some peace around..and destruction to those that deserves it!!
aw look people! He wants to be a knight in shining armour!
I already have a knightress in shining niqaab though, but u can protect the rest! I will ocassionally call on you when my knightress is asleep (the very rare times she's asleep, I don't wana disturb her then!)
LMAO! take that as a hint u fool go to sleeeeep! I LOVE U!
jerk
that wasn't funny. ok it was, I don't feel like laffin.
*sniffle* But…but…I'm in love with someone here!!!! And it's yooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!
Knight in used tin foil is more like it! lmao
I feel used.
What????
*imitation of lion from Wizard of Oz*
Let me at em, leeeet me at eeemmmmm!
*sniffle* But…but…I'm in love with someone here!!!! And it's yooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!
ohhhh thaz not gooood! lmbo!
What????
*imitation of lion from Wizard of Oz*
Let me at em, leeeet me at eeemmmmm!
rofl, Ness, I love you!
ohhhh thaz not gooood! lmbo!
lol i know but that how i am lol i don't love maybe one day hehehehe
how are you doing?
I'm well, thanks.
yourself?
I feeeeeeeeeeel…
like asking a guy out!
Hehe … why dont you go for it then! Or you wanna tempt him and wait until he makes the first move?
THIS IS WHAT I THINK OF YOUR LOVE. SORRY BUT I DON”T LOVE I JUST CRUSH
You can't hide what's inside freakazoid! You luurrrvvessss me!
And stop cluttering up the forum with these useless emoticons! SHEESH! lmao
I'm so tired of waiting… sometimes my tears just fall..
I'm so tired of waiting… sometimes my tears just fall..
x infinity…!
stay patient.. Allah has perfect timing!
I love you.
Aw Tayaba – *hug* Are you alright there?
Marine! Hiiieee !!! Haha..you dont love you just crush huh…CRUSH on what exactly ? Anyway… GO girl with your bad self! Those of the male race are evil … evil I tell you ! I hate that guys just stomp on girls, just becuase they are girls. That is just the worse thing EVER.
…so hopeless
…so hopeless
No jaana. There's always hope… even in the most darkest situations… Allah will find a way of shining his light into this darkness… and when you see it.. you'll know just what to do. And I'll walk with you through these dark days, I have so many torches, you'd be surprised!
I love you!
…so hopeless
*Hug* … Even when times seem dark and rough and hard and tough … talk to yourself and have faith … and hope … and a little faith will build up into lots more … Chin up, jaan. *Hug* Im here if you ever want to talk about anything.
I feel like I have NO purpose in life. I feel LOST AND COVERED. I FEEL THAT MY LIFE HAS no goal.
I know Im confused a bit. But I dont want to feel it.
confused a bit prisoner no.26?? told u to go easy on the prison food.
chillaxx…take a kit kat, have a break, smell the coffee, drink some fresh air
No wonder you be saying stuff like DRINK some fresh air! Thanks for the confirmation.
If you ask me I think some of that jungle food has already gotten into your head!
My neck is killing me! Grrrrr!
SCHOOL IS GAY
Kavi –
My feelings: yyyyyaaawwwwnnnnnnnn!
What are you laughing about Nesss?
It is GAY
I feel like I want to puke…
My eyes hurt from crying and I don't want to face another day ever again. I've never thought about suicide so seriously before……. but maybe it is better than all this, despite all my preachings to my friends if they ever feel suicidal…………? I gave a fair number of people so much of love and strength when they needed it…. and I feel like I have no more love and strength left for myself. I am too f.cuk.ed up.
Ninja . Feel better soon beautiful. I love you .
Boo – *slaps boo* then *hugs her tight and doesn't let go!* Get thoughts like that out of your mind okay? This life we have been given is way too precious to throw it away jaan. Think of people who have terminal illnesses, I have watched someone die fighting cancer, fighting time. Stepping into the unknown could be even scarier then living through this life. You have a life jaan, and InshaAllah there's still time. Time to fix things, time to learn from things, time to move away from things, time to come closer to things. And oye, main hoon na? hum sab hain na? It's okay to feel broken jaan. It's okay to feel like you can't drench anymore love and strength out. It's okay to be tired. I'll give you the love and strength. We all will. Just like we've always done. I know how much this forum means to you. You will get through this jaan. Remember, you're not alone. You have many who love you fiercely. *wipes Booness' tears* It's fine if you want to crumble jaan. I have lots of superglue . We'll put you back together. I know these tears won't stop if I tell them to, so please let them out jaan. And when you're done, you'll feel a whole lot better already. Everything comes with a solution hun. Sometimes its not the solution we want, but it's the solution that'll help the situation. You too will find a way out of this darkness. I have lots of torches too . Just ask Ninja. We've been torching our way through tunnels till we find the light that leads us out. *Pulls Boo's hand* come with us jaan. We'll find a way to be happy. I promise you, beautiful. One day you will be wake up, and realise you're okay. The pain will be gone, and you'll know that you'll be just fine. I promise you that again. Just like I did before. Till then, Taybaness has her arms open each time you wanna breakdown . We'll get through this together. Tayboo 4eva!
Zindagi mai koi bhi kami ho, aankhon pe zaraa si namii ho….aansu na bahanaa tum, dukh na utaana tum, haar na jaana duniya se…. rehna na gumsum, haske batanaa duniya se:
Aayege phir se din khushiyon ke, badlay ga yeh manzar…. .
I love you.
T………………..x
Tayba… words just fail me.
Kabhi khushi kabhie gham…. Karan Johar sure has got it right.
My eyes hurt from crying and I don't want to face another day ever again. I've never thought about suicide so seriously before……. but maybe it is better than all this, despite all my preachings to my friends if they ever feel suicidal…………? I gave a fair number of people so much of love and strength when they needed it…. and I feel like I have no more love and strength left for myself. I am too f.cuk.ed up.
*hugs boo too and doesn't let go*… I second Tayba, hun.
Jaan, When you feel like you don't have anymore strength, you're not looking hard enough. . Because you do, you have us at least. And we appreciate you mysterywomanji. We do. You know that whenever you need anything, all of us will do whatever we can to be there. Even though we're stretched out all over the place and we're so far away from you (from what we know ), our hearts are oh so close to you, boo, habeebati. . I mean that. I've felt oh so helpless and weak so many times, and it's so hard getting over feelings such as those, because they often tend to keep haunting me. And I have also felt alone. But, you know that with this forum and the gorgeous people in it, one learns to stop crawling and stand up. Because we know that the love here is honest, Alhamdulillah, because these days, honesty among people is very rare. It's okay to cry and think of yourself as weak, because knowing you boo, after those tears, you will start again, stronger than before. The beautiful words you've kindly advised me with will forever be in my heart…and even if one day circumstances force me to depart this forum, I will never forget them. Because they are engraved in my heart, they felt honest to me, I accepted them fully. I love you, hunn. You have enough love and strength for your beautiful self… I promise you. And for now, take my strength… have my love…you deserve it.
<3
Ninja……….x
Dear Boogedee woogedeee
U CANT DIE !!!!! DATS AN ORDER
Why????????
give me one VALID reason for your wanting to comit suicide, to end it all
To end yr life…to simply stop existing..Just ONE reason..a valid one..
Dats all for now…
Huggzzzz
PS: Just something…***My strength is my weakness and my weakness my strength***
I feel like I have NO purpose in life.
I feel LOST AND COVERED.
I FEEL THAT MY LIFE HAS no goal.
I know Im confused a bit. But I dont want to feel it.
.feeling like crap.
.feeling like crap.
i told u to stay off those drugs, didnt i? its ok…just do nothing for the next 1 hr…it will be out of yr system by then.
i told u to stay off those drugs, didnt i? its ok…just do nothing for the next 1 hr…it will be out of yr system by then.
Cho chweet!!
Aap bhee naaaa!
i told u to stay off those drugs, didnt i? its ok…just do nothing for the next 1 hr…it will be out of yr system by then.
Cho chweet!!
Aap bhee naaaa!
ok my mistake….its not the ninja who is on crack, its boogedy!!!
ok my mistake….its not the ninja who is on crack, its boogedy!!!
the ninja!
I'm oh so pimp!
See Oreo!?!?! I not lie! Thees girl get berry happy ven ju talk like that. Look her biiig grin becuj ju make her special peel.
See Oreo!?!?! I not lie! Thees girl get berry happy ven ju talk like that. Look her biiig grin becuj ju make her special peel.
whatever it is that u are taking……..give some to me too!!
I take milk! It's alll minnee! I NOT GIVE U ANY! ITS MINE!!!!!
whatever it is that u are taking……..give some to me too!!
BITE YOURSELF! lmbo
I feeeeeeel extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra happppppppppppppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!
Rani, I lub uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!
Tabz, I lub uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! And I hope ju feeling better habeebati!
Ness, I lub youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu, and I miss you too woman!
Boo, I lub uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu, beautiful!
Oreo, say no to drugs man! get high on candy! it's safer!
Senor Buddha buttwipe idiotic jerky fool, get your butt back on the forummmmm!!!
Kavz, I hope I didn't annoy you the other day, but you know I'm right !
Scarz, womannnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!! sigh!
Khushi, I hope you're khush
Marine, I hope ju not partying too much!!!!
okay I'm done, I'm sooooooooooo high. lol
Sigh!
I have been thinking about all my friends and how much I love them a lot too.. over the past couple of days.. Nessa's post about her having the best friends and me arguing her point must have caused it. I don't know.
I feel so grateful, though. A warm feeling of gratitude that only your loved ones can fill you with. I can't explain lol… it means a lot to me, never being alone. Lonely… now that's a different thing.. but it feels so nice to know I am not alone.
Aaaahhh must be all this V-Day crap… making me think……….
Ninja, jaan, you didnt annoy me! I was actually asking you and Rani the same questions because I wasnt exactly sure what was going on with Senor. I think I get a lil bit of whats happening … I just wish Alishia and Senor would both come back!! *hugs* – lolz, Im glad you're sooo happy! Better let yourself be engulfed by it, while it lasts!
Lol, Boo, dont over think on this V-Day crap ! I dont know why there's a special day for this, I think its stupid! I mean, Valentine's Day should be like everyday, shouldnt it? You should share your love and care all the time … ugh, what am I saying!
Okay, time to get to school ! Yippeeeee …………….. NOT!
She prolly didn’t annoy you, but you sure did annoy the heck outta me!
I feeeeeeel extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra extra happppppppppppppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!
Tabz, I lub uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! And I hope ju feeling better habeebati!
Alhumdulilah that you're happy. May it always stay. Ameen, thumma ameen!
I love you too, and I am feeling better, Alhumdulilah. I just have a headache right now .
It's killing me to watch you kill yourself this way. At times, I hate that I'm not a part of your life… but then, even if I were… you would go down this road anyway.
Where did you go? oh jaan….
I pray that you recieve guidance everyday.
It's killing me to watch you kill yourself this way. At times, I hate that I'm not a part of your life… but then, even if I were… you would go down this road anyway.
Where did you go? oh jaan….
I pray that you recieve guidance everyday.
Tabzy kitty
sent you an email angel…
keep the faith…
al I can offer..at this moment..
my love and a massive cyber hug
ur always in my duas…
Alishia
Mr. Fine-and-dandy….
I am so glad to see your self again! Really. Maybe because it's a familiar thing… seeing you here… brings back memories of happier times. I don't know… am trying to work it out, though.
I am not the best of people to have a conversation with right now – I am too too emotional and I will blabber whatever nonsense comes to my head. Going through a madly mad emotional-rollercoaster-time right now.
When you say you 'hate' someone, or think that they (she) are (is) a 'b****'…. and you know really, deep down, that they're NOT.. but for all you care, for your intents and purposes, you still 'hate' them anyway not hate hate, but 'hate' hate (if you get what I mean?)… do you feel guilty? I don't particularly feel guilty. I think I'm just doing this because it's an aspect of my life I can control, you know? I actually have a say in liking this woman (or not, as the case is..).. and somehow, I think in my subconscious, that makes me feel better. Rather, 'better', in inverted commas. Because when everything else is slipping away from your hands as quickly as sand would, I think it's human nature to try and look for some stability… something they can control. Maybe in our subconscious, at least. There's a certain sort of… satisfaction… I think. (?) In being able to speak for yourself and make decisions yourself and have life go your own way, for once. Because – believe you me – not a lot else in life is going my way. Rather pathetic, I bet you're thinking.. if the only thing in life that is going my way is my dislike for The Other Woman.. I'm thinking the same thing, actually. It's like I'm trying to find my way through a dark room…
Sometimes being childish, stubborn and immature helps, in its own way. Strange, isn't it?
Ahhh you WERE warned, Senor!
I have this habit of grabbing the people I LOVE and holding them really tightly ..whenever I feel words can do nothing to help…
and many times I am told to simply bugger off..but I still hold hold tightly soo if that didnt help heres another round…
Angel face, I was watching my music dvd the other n8 …I had on my fav pjs…myl egs were on the poles of my bed…( have this 4 poster bed thingy ) and I am facing a rather odd angel trying to eat woolies tin roof ice-cream and watch my songs….
there was that song from LAAGA CHUNARI MEIN DAAG..dnt knw the name of it…but this is the one at t
worried. very very worried.
dnt be coz everthings gonna be alrite now..yup everythings gonna be alrite
besides dnt add wrinkles with worry on dat gorgeous face of yrs
It's killing me to watch you kill yourself this way. At times, I hate that I'm not a part of your life… but then, even if I were… you would go down this road anyway.
Where did you go? oh jaan….
I pray that you recieve guidance everyday.
Tabzy kitty
sent you an email angel…
keep the faith…
al I can offer..at this moment..
my love and a massive cyber hug
ur always in my duas…
Alishia
I'm fine, Alhumdulilah. I got your email, and I replied to it too. Thank you for caring, you're also in my duas. .
The power of dua is beyond amazing. Ohmy… It's amazing how much a talk with Allah SWT makes you feel so at peace. Nothing in this world but prayer can bring that type of peace. Dua truly, truly is the weapon of the believer. Alhumdulilah….
lol
You sounds as if you're just figuring this out!
Nope, just remembering what I had missed the past few weeks .
Felt good to the core, like a hug, didn't it?
It did… it felt like my troubles were leaving me as fast as tears do from the eyes. My heart felt lighter. Alhumdulilah.
Khushi is very very sad to leave. I will miss this place so much. Writing random things, getting random responses – Singing according to my mood… *sigh*
You may not believe this, or find it funny ( ?) – but I feel like I'm leaving an empty home…. and have tears in my eyes. No one is online at the moment and I want to see all you right now….. all of you.
Dii, I'm with you… feeling the same way.
Khushi is very very sad to leave. I will miss this place so much. Writing random things, getting random responses – Singing according to my mood… *sigh*
You may not believe this, or find it funny ( ?) – but I feel like I'm leaving an empty home…. and have tears in my eyes. No one is online at the moment and I want to see all you right now….. all of you.
booohoooohooooo….khushi has left us…..noooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! less 1 target for me to pick on. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy oh whyyyyyyyyyyy must this happened??
Khushi is very very sad to leave. I will miss this place so much. Writing random things, getting random responses – Singing according to my mood… *sigh*
You may not believe this, or find it funny ( ?) – but I feel like I'm leaving an empty home…. and have tears in my eyes. No one is online at the moment and I want to see all you right now….. all of you.
booohoooohooooo….khushi has left us…..noooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! less 1 target for me to pick on. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy oh whyyyyyyyyyyy must this happened??
Happened??? Lmbo, Boo will have a field day when she sees this!
and it is not less 1 target, it is one less target! lmao! .
Khushi, Rani …. love ya!
Khushi is very very sad to leave. I will miss this place so much. Writing random things, getting random responses – Singing according to my mood… *sigh*
You may not believe this, or find it funny ( ?) – but I feel like I'm leaving an empty home…. and have tears in my eyes. No one is online at the moment and I want to see all you right now….. all of you.
booohoooohooooo….khushi has left us…..noooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! less 1 target for me to pick on. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy oh whyyyyyyyyyyy must this happened??
Happened??? Lmbo, Boo will have a field day when she sees this!
and it is not less 1 target, it is one less target! lmao! .
Khushi, Rani …. love ya!
hey hey…from where i come from, 'less 1 target' is absolutely acceptable.
as for the other one…well, what can i say…distraughted by the fact that khushi is not coming back!
hey hey…from where i come from, 'less 1 target' is absolutely acceptable.
Well that explains it all!! lmao!
Well that explains it all!! lmao!
serio is in no mood to fight back. the void left by khushi and rani is too much to bear.
Well that explains it all!! lmao!
serio is in no mood to fight back. the void left by khushi and rani is too much to bear.
Lmao light weight
I dont give a ***
I DONT I DONT
I DO I DO
I DONT KNOW I DONT KNOW
I dont give a ***
I DONT I DONT
I DO I DO
I DONT KNOW I DONT KNOW
*holds Kavz*
*holds Kavz*
*holds yummeni holding kavz*
*holds yummeni holding kavz*
uhm, excuse me? where'd you come from? *lets go of kavz and vanishes*
Kavz, call me when this dude is finished holding you!
uhm, excuse me? where'd you come from? *lets go of kavz and vanishes*
somebody is using the jumper technique i see….niceee…i'll catch up with u soon
somebody is using the jumper technique i see….niceee…i'll catch up with u soon
we gotta get some things straight anyway, so make sure you come prepared to fight!
lmao ..and he wonders why women are stalking him eish
He aint holding me lol, he holding you!
Yesh, if ya'll gonna fight, just let me know ahead of time so I can get some popcorn for myself and the other members
And oh yeah, Ninja I 'll save some of the goodies for you so you can eat when you're done kicking oreo's butt
He aint holding me lol, he holding you!
Yesh, if ya'll gonna fight, just let me know ahead of time so I can get some popcorn for myself and the other members
And oh yeah, Ninja I 'll save some of the goodies for you so you can eat when you're done kicking oreo's butt
What! the only reason he 'held' me was because I was holding you! He wanted you to know he was there por ju, babez! He better hop off before I chop off his hands!
I don't want goodies, kicking Oreo's butt will be the ultimate reward! lmbo
*cracks up* – looks at Ninja in a weiiiiiiiiirdddddddd -are-you-serious way – he held you because he wanted to be there for me? lol ah ha ha ha
Sureeeeeeeeeeeeeeee … Im sure thats why he tried to steal some Ninja love!
Oh yeah, well I guess the goodies will be for all of us in the celebration Dont worry , I know when you see all the chocolate in the celebration, you'll want some!
*cracks up* – looks at Ninja in a weiiiiiiiiirdddddddd -are-you-serious way – he held you because he wanted to be there for me? lol ah ha ha ha
Sureeeeeeeeeeeeeeee … Im sure thats why he tried to steal some Ninja love!
LMAO! Oreo just needs a really hard kick! I just wish! lol!
He's here 'holding' me when I want to kick him and then when a chick goes and creates a whole thread for him he tells her to go away! Oreo doesn't tell girls to go away! He invites them to his special lil asylum! *raises brow*
It's so annoying how the smallest, most ignorable things ruin my mood in seconds! I hate it!
It's so annoying how the smallest, most ignorable things ruin my mood in seconds! I hate it!
told u to stay away from ppl like not-so-unique princess!!
You know I rock your world! looserrrrrrrrrr
Ninja – I love you jaan. Don't let losers get to you. Cuz they be losers. Feel better luwer and email me if you needu let it out. *hugs*
love,
jur mum. .
You know I rock your world! looserrrrrrrrrr
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
lol
—
no bumwipe! jur mum!
Feel better soon Ninja … and for those who's giving you troubles, exercise those Ninja skills of yours – be powerful at heart and mind!
Well, if you ask me, the almighty Oreo is backing down from an unexpected slap of feminine boldness!
**inhales***
contemplative…
hmmm
relaxed…
calm…
FREE…
bold and daring….
READY!!!!
…..
Am just thinking…am not sure if I missed the forum and the occupants!!!
as much as I thought I would…
not because I suddenly dnt feel any kindness or love towards you guys, I GUESS i have grown a little more erhmmm wiser these past few weeks..have realized and finally gotten a hold of myself…
My huge-est problem in life is that when i love someone, its one of those hard to let go of feelings…and loving each one here albeit the fact that this is just a forum, an open space, a place many individuals happen upon by chance or word of mouth, a place that may not necessarily hold truth and honesty as always openly advertised…a few traits I hold dear in my life…and automatically expect reciprocated from anyone who calls themselves my friend, or professes their love for me…Yet not….is just that….. my loving…who I am …someone who loves regardless of who the recipient is…Not many things surprises me anymore, have grown to trust instincts..my intuition..like Senor had once suggested:) ***I miss him a lot***
Have learned to once more gaurd myself…. as being me ..its simply sooo easy for distraction, falseness and confusion to invest itself in my heart…especially when ur a trusting individual who doesnt expect the whole world or simply the people she calls her dost to utilize that trust and turn it into a venomous experience….
The good thing about having to experience a lot of negative is that you can learn from that and ensure the same mistakes are never repeated…
I feel..COMPLETE…
I AM LOVED…***WINKS*** for me ..and it feeels just great man
I love in return….
I feel beautiful….coz I am hehehe
and honoured to have been a part of this craze forum family…
…………..a huge part of my heart has many names on it….this is where u will remain…hamesha!!!!
Moving on………………….
xoxoxoxoxoxoxxxxoooo
lmao
I feel great. But lost at the same time. Oh so lost……….
*Hugs* I'm sorry jaan .
But its good to be lost in one sense na? We are like travellers in this world… we make dua and inshaAllah Allah will pave the way for us. I'll help you as much as I can jaan. I love you beyond words.
*hugs tabz back* sometimes it's definitely a good thing to be lost. Sometimes I wish I was alone for a while.
I feeel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freakingggggggggggggg frustratedddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!
why do peeps like to piss me offfffffffffffffffff !!!!!!!!
I don't mean to ruin the forum with my rudeness the minute I come back, but I need to say this. I just hope someone doesn't go snitch on me to Mukesh ji! lmao!
Why is it that you are talking about truth and honesty? You are the same person who left the forum, then came back with a new name, and once we figured it was you, you changed it back to your old name. If you can do that, why can't any random person log onto the forum with a fake name and fool us into trusting him/her? And once we trust him/her, he/she goes and breaks our trust?
Now, I don't care what personal reason you had to do that for, it shouldn't be acceptable that you lie to us like that.
Why do you think we can't trust the forum and its members? Because of people like you.
Before, you just annoyed me, now you straight up piss me off. And I don't care what your opinion of that is. In fact, your opinion isn't worth anything to me anymore. And if you feel the same way about me – cool.
So before you point your fingers about truth and honesty, make sure your hands are clean.
lets get readddddyyyyyyyyy toooooooooooooooo RRRUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMMMMBBBBBBBBBBBBBBLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
for this i wud need 2 bags of popcorn, 1 bowl of chips, some coke on the rocks and my favourite reclining sofa…aahh….bliss!
lets get readddddyyyyyyyyy toooooooooooooooo RRRUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMMMMBBBBBBBBBBBBBBLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
for this i wud need 2 bags of popcorn, 1 bowl of chips, some coke on the rocks and my favourite reclining sofa…aahh….bliss!
LMAO! sheesh Oreo! I thought you'd be the 'good guy' in this case! WHAT A SHAME!
Rani – I wanted to reply to that too! you go girl! Because most of the time, the forum is all about honesty and truth!
Here is something true… I miss the Loonies. Just wanted to get it out. Oh and one other person who surprised me with a nice little SMS and made me wander out of a meeting…trouble was I forgot my feet in there and annoyed my Boss who later chided me for being too old to day-dream. Its all your fault. But, I loved the SMS. Gracias mi amiga.
Here is something true… I miss the Loonies. Just wanted to get it out. Oh and one other person who surprised me with a nice little SMS and made me wander out of a meeting…trouble was I forgot my feet in there and annoyed my Boss who later chided me for being too old to day-dream. Its all your fault. But, I loved the SMS. Gracias mi amiga.
Firstly, LMAO! Buddha!
Secondly, you idiotic loserific bum! Where were you?! Tayba is going to beat your old butt! lmbo!
Let me welcome you back while I can, LOL!
Tayba, you may kill him now!
I feel all sick and icky.
stupid flu!
for this i wud need 2 bags of popcorn, 1 bowl of chips, some coke on the rocks and my favourite reclining sofa…aahh….bliss!
make that a diet coke! lol
I feel all sick and icky.
stupid flu!
Feel better soon.
I'm just getting over 5 days of fever, chills and other unmentionable bodily functions…lost my voice too!
Awww my lovelys [Ness and Ninja] … feel better soon *hugggs*
Btw, Nessa, how have you been?! [besides the chills and fever ]
I don't mean to ruin the forum with my rudeness the minute I come back, but I need to say this. I just hope someone doesn't go snitch on me to Mukesh ji! lmao!
Why is it that you are talking about truth and honesty? You are the same person who left the forum, then came back with a new name, and once we figured it was you, you changed it back to your old name. If you can do that, why can't any random person log onto the forum with a fake name and fool us into trusting him/her? And once we trust him/her, he/she goes and breaks our trust?
Now, I don't care what personal reason you had to do that for, it shouldn't be acceptable that you lie to us like that.
Why do you think we can't trust the forum and its members? Because of people like you.
Before, you just annoyed me, now you straight up piss me off. And I don't care what your opinion of that is. In fact, your opinion isn't worth anything to me anymore. And if you feel the same way about me – cool.
So before you point your fingers about truth and honesty, make sure your hands are clean.
I agree. This forum is about truth and honesty. No one seems to have given anyone a reason to distrust the other here on the forum. Except for the multiple accounts you made which had decieved us into thinking you were someone else… and then you didn't really offer an explanation as to why you did that… we overlooked it. Until you made this comment..
I've found friends here who are more true than people I know in 'real' life. Sure this is a forum, but everyone knows that the relations we've made here are beyond special. I'm sure you know too. It would have been different if you were referring to the honesty of any given member outside of the forum, but your post specifically referred to the forum. And that is why I felt I should address this, as the only dishonesty I have seen in the forum was when you became 'mama pegasus'… I'm sorry.
for this i wud need 2 bags of popcorn, 1 bowl of chips, some coke on the rocks and my favourite reclining sofa…aahh….bliss!
shoot man, I do all the hard work and u sit there and enjoy?! gimme some too!
lmao. I go girl! woooot! I love u!!!
The loonies miss u too! And u didn't love my email!?!? traiting buddha! or is it treacherous? vutever!
You go girl! *hi5*
She should have been told all this a long time ago. *shakes head*
I love you, Tayba.
Girl! Don't be sorry! You take that back right now! You're being honest here! She doesn't realize how many people she can hurt by her dishonesty and how many people might even leave the forum because of the dishonesty they see in it due to her!
Here is something true… I miss the Loonies. Just wanted to get it out. Oh and one other person who surprised me with a nice little SMS and made me wander out of a meeting…trouble was I forgot my feet in there and annoyed my Boss who later chided me for being too old to day-dream. Its all your fault. But, I loved the SMS. Gracias mi amiga.
Maybe you wouldn't miss me if you replied to my email, you stupid buddha!!!! Imma jump you!!!!!!!!!! (
(I miss you too)
(but Im still gona kick yo butt)
<3
Girl! Don't be sorry! You take that back right now! You're being honest here! She doesn't realize how many people she can hurt by her dishonesty and how many people might even leave the forum because of the dishonesty they see in it due to her!
I am sorry. Because I have been hurt by this type of dishonesty before. Seriously hurt. Beyond imagination.
Make mine a Jack Daniel on the rocks Oreo I'll be the chips and dip you get the papcorn….Ness you can't bring anything to the party???darn girl didn't know u were cheap lmao.
I don't mean to ruin the forum with my rudeness the minute I come back, but I need to say this. I just hope someone doesn't go snitch on me to Mukesh ji! lmao!
Why is it that you are talking about truth and honesty? You are the same person who left the forum, then came back with a new name, and once we figured it was you, you changed it back to your old name. If you can do that, why can't any random person log onto the forum with a fake name and fool us into trusting him/her? And once we trust him/her, he/she goes and breaks our trust?
Now, I don't care what personal reason you had to do that for, it shouldn't be acceptable that you lie to us like that.
Why do you think we can't trust the forum and its members? Because of people like you.
Before, you just annoyed me, now you straight up piss me off. And I don't care what your opinion of that is. In fact, your opinion isn't worth anything to me anymore. And if you feel the same way about me – cool.
So before you point your fingers about truth and honesty, make sure your hands are clean.
I agree. This forum is about truth and honesty. No one seems to have given anyone a reason to distrust the other here on the forum. Except for the multiple accounts you made which had decieved us into thinking you were someone else… and then you didn't really offer an explanation as to why you did that… we overlooked it. Until you made this comment..
I've found friends here who are more true than people I know in 'real' life. Sure this is a forum, but everyone knows that the relations we've made here are beyond special. I'm sure you know too. It would have been different if you were referring to the honesty of any given member outside of the forum, but your post specifically referred to the forum. And that is why I felt I should address this, as the only dishonesty I have seen in the forum was when you became 'mama pegasus'… I'm sorry.
MEN I COULDN'T”T HAVE PUT IT BETTER MYSELF………… But yah i need a pack of beer for this lmao.
It wasn't right in the beginning and I can't make it right now either…
Slow your roll girl! A WHOLE PACK!?!? *throws pack outta the window*…………. *A high dude walking by coincidently catches it!* Phew…Okay. Let's have some good soda, shall we?! lmbo
I am sorry. Because I have been hurt by this type of dishonesty before. Seriously hurt. Beyond imagination.
*holds tayba* I know. I'm sorry too. Stupid idiotic losers these days.
Awww my lovelys [Ness and Ninja] … feel better soon *hugggs*
Btw, Nessa, how have you been?! [besides the chills and fever ]
Thanks Kava Daba!
I've been ok, thanks. How about you?
I'm not cheap, I'm frugal and whaaaa????
A Friends moment : You DEFINITELY need to come with subtitles! rotflmbo SHEESH!
I am sorry. Because I have been hurt by this type of dishonesty before. Seriously hurt. Beyond imagination.
*holds tayba* I know. I'm sorry too. Stupid idiotic losers these days.
*ready to hold Ninjitsu, holding Princess, but sees Serio on his way* lmao
*ready to hold Ninjitsu, holding Princess, but sees Serio on his way* lmao
LMAO! *grabs Ness and Princess and walks away, leaving Oreos butt behind…alone. But aparently he has spotted a hot chick and is following her* Great, now we can hold each other freely! sheesherz!
Lmao. Girl, why ain't you asleep?!?! huh!?!?! or wait, did you sleep and wake up!??! lmao Im so confused.
Got your emails, will reply soon InshaAllah. I loverz ju.
Lmao. Girl, why ain't you asleep?!?! huh!?!?! or wait, did you sleep and wake up!??! lmao Im so confused.
Got your emails, will reply soon InshaAllah. I loverz ju.
Dude, I slept horribly horrible. Stupid nightmares won't leave me alone. I got two disturbed hours of sleep.
You better reply soon, who you think you iz!
just keeding, I lovez you more!
wtheck why do you keep getting them nightmares for?!?!? *hugs fish* Did you sleep on your right side and say kalimahs?
I think I iz your mum. Shut up and be good lmao.
I keeding too I love ju morest. <3
*ready to hold Ninjitsu, holding Princess, but sees Serio on his way* lmao
LMAO! *grabs Ness and Princess and walks away, leaving Oreos butt behind…alone. But aparently he has spotted a hot chick and is following her* Great, now we can hold each other freely! sheesherz!
In all honesty, all I had to do was throw a footie ball! Hmmmm…that gives me an idea!
wtheck why do you keep getting them nightmares for?!?!? *hugs fish* Did you sleep on your right side and say kalimahs?
I think I iz your mum. Shut up and be good lmao.
I keeding too I love ju morest. <3
Wherever Boo is this second, I know her nerves are going wild! lmao
wtheck why do you keep getting them nightmares for?!?!? *hugs fish* Did you sleep on your right side and say kalimahs?
I think I iz your mum. Shut up and be good lmao.
I keeding too I love ju morest. <3
Yeah I did… stupid crap lol
Oh lmbo, I gotta show forum the pimped out icon I made for you! lol let me go find it .
Lmao! Imma make you an arabic one. one day. But stupid photoshop makes arabic writing look all weird. I gotta learn the trick first!
And I love you akthar!
lmao. Ah I miss herrr. When she comes back I'm going to give her a paragraph of incorrectly spelled words, as a welcome back gift .
wtheck why do you keep getting them nightmares for?!?!? *hugs fish* Did you sleep on your right side and say kalimahs?
I think I iz your mum. Shut up and be good lmao.
I keeding too I love ju morest. <3
Yeah I did… stupid crap lol
Oh lmbo, I gotta show forum the pimped out icon I made for you! lol let me go find it .
Lmao! Imma make you an arabic one. one day. But stupid photoshop makes arabic writing look all weird. I gotta learn the trick first!
And I love you akthar!
LMAO. I LOVE that icon. Whenever I log into facebook, I see it and grin. Did you get mine btw??!!!!
vuts akthar? more? cuz if so then I love you akhtharest lmao.
lmao. Ah I miss herrr. When she comes back I'm going to give her a paragraph of incorrectly spelled words, as a welcome back gift .
We should put one together and PM her! It would make her day!
vuts akthar? more? cuz if so then I love you akhtharest lmao.
lmaoooooo *goes off laughing* yes. I rest my case. You vin oh breeeeeet vun. lol
Slow your roll girl! A WHOLE PACK!?!? *throws pack outta the window*…………. *A high dude walking by coincidently catches it!* Phew…Okay. Let's have some good soda, shall we?! lmbo
Wait you can't trow my beer out the window……backiking ninja……you can't i say you can't i love my alcohol more then anything lmao.
I'm not cheap, I'm frugal and whaaaa????
A Friends moment : You DEFINITELY need to come with subtitles! rotflmbo SHEESH!
ahem ahem i don't need subtitles darling…..oh dang wait i do lol instead of writing bring i wrote be LMAOOO
Girl! Don't be sorry! You take that back right now! You're being honest here! She doesn't realize how many people she can hurt by her dishonesty and how many people might even leave the forum because of the dishonesty they see in it due to her!
I am sorry. Because I have been hurt by this type of dishonesty before. Seriously hurt. Beyond imagination.
Exactly. She should be sorry for being dishonest, jaana. There isn't any reason why you should be sorry. Take it back now.
I love you so much, Taybanzle. Keep the chin up.
…..True. Fine, I take it back. I'm only speaking what's in my heart and mind, and you're right…. I shouldn't have to apologise for that. .
I love you too Randon.
Yes, I am right.
I love you oh so hekka very much more!!!
I don't mean to ruin the forum with my rudeness the minute I come back, but I need to say this. I just hope someone doesn't go snitch on me to Mukesh ji! lmao!
Why is it that you are talking about truth and honesty? You are the same person who left the forum, then came back with a new name, and once we figured it was you, you changed it back to your old name. If you can do that, why can't any random person log onto the forum with a fake name and fool us into trusting him/her? And once we trust him/her, he/she goes and breaks our trust?
Now, I don't care what personal reason you had to do that for, it shouldn't be acceptable that you lie to us like that.
Why do you think we can't trust the forum and its members? Because of people like you.
Before, you just annoyed me, now you straight up piss me off. And I don't care what your opinion of that is. In fact, your opinion isn't worth anything to me anymore. And if you feel the same way about me – cool.
So before you point your fingers about truth and honesty, make sure your hands are clean.
I agree. This forum is about truth and honesty. No one seems to have given anyone a reason to distrust the other here on the forum. Except for the multiple accounts you made which had decieved us into thinking you were someone else… and then you didn't really offer an explanation as to why you did that… we overlooked it. Until you made this comment..
I've found friends here who are more true than people I know in 'real' life. Sure this is a forum, but everyone knows that the relations we've made here are beyond special. I'm sure you know too. It would have been different if you were referring to the honesty of any given member outside of the forum, but your post specifically referred to the forum. And that is why I felt I should address this, as the only dishonesty I have seen in the forum was when you became 'mama pegasus'… I'm sorry.
MEN I COULDN'T”T HAVE PUT IT BETTER MYSELF………… But yah i need a pack of beer for this lmao.
the tribe has spoken (tho one is busy drinking beer than anything else) and have decided that we need to boot out someone from the bolly island. unique…i know this is tough for u but hang in there..u can swim rite? but on 2nd thots..mebe we can still keep u arnd here for the time being 😉
so to the one booted out: we can do this the easy way or the hard way…easy way, just walk to the plank and jump off the ship. hard way…i will let senorJ recite his 101 stories that will last roughly about 3 days and 14 hrs, before u eventually walk the plank. yr call.
Why dont you jump off your own plank
I feel extraordinarily ~~~~~HAPPY~~~~~ Did you see how wonderfully the SUN shined down on the green swaying trees? Did you Did you notice how blue the sky seemed? The SUN .. so bright, so YELLOW, so HAPPY! The wind – it cleanses my face with each blow! It refreshes me after each visit. I feel like dancing and skipping around the tall buildings – I want to become FREE. I sing, I sing of happy SONGS! I do a —lesser degree move—- of the pretty star girl who danced to the song in the movies. I FEEL HAPPY. I feel high off of a cup overflowing with happiness! Bring some towels bring some mops … its creating a RIVER! The SUN it shines so brightly It makes me feel ELATED It makes me want to DANCE around and SKIP like a little school girl who is FREE like a blue bird on a cheerful SPRING day. I am happy ~~~ I just touched the CLOUDS. The feathery friends glided through my fingers. Pull me into your trace … let me be the tail on your track! I want to dance and SKIP I want to feel FREE. Happy Elated Energetic The MIND holds immense POWER Flying Bubbling Skipping Dancing Running Happy Happy Happy Unbelievably JoYFul
the tribe has spoken (tho one is busy drinking beer than anything else) and have decided that we need to boot out someone from the bolly island. unique…i know this is tough for u but hang in there..u can swim rite? but on 2nd thots..mebe we can still keep u arnd here for the time being 😉
so to the one booted out: we can do this the easy way or the hard way…easy way, just walk to the plank and jump off the ship. hard way…i will let senorJ recite his 101 stories that will last roughly about 3 days and 14 hrs, before u eventually walk the plank. yr call.
1) Why don't you just say that you don't want me to leave? .
2) I actually like listening to the buddha's stories! I know I'd choose the hard way!!!
the tribe has spoken (tho one is busy drinking beer than anything else) and have decided that we need to boot out someone from the bolly island. unique…i know this is tough for u but hang in there..u can swim rite? but on 2nd thots..mebe we can still keep u arnd here for the time being 😉
so to the one booted out: we can do this the easy way or the hard way…easy way, just walk to the plank and jump off the ship. hard way…i will let senorJ recite his 101 stories that will last roughly about 3 days and 14 hrs, before u eventually walk the plank. yr call.
Lol i'm wiling to share my beer..OH DANG SORRY YAAR I FORGOT U DON”T DRINK lol
Woaahhhhhh…hmmm…BUSTED!!!..Jeeez u guys..am all red faced with guilt here!!!
Am gonna try an roll my responses to everything pertaining to me and my lack of honesty and trueness and and and …on this thread..not that wat I say matters ..**as per hearsay:)** .neva da less………..
First and foremost, Its about time u guys figured me out.. I mean theres just a period of time one can pretend being all sincere and nice and all things good…right!!!
Wat was I gonna say..Oh yeah….u guys forgot to include the following in your list of descriptions…
From Deceitful, to dishonest, untrustworthy, untrue, conniving, manipulative, evil minded, synical, ferociously brutal, cruelly inhumane, sadistically aggressive, viciously nasty and a mind player to booth!! Which to me relates to just one thing..evilness..everything ScarFace aka, Scarry, Aka Alishia Aka Alie is…
There!!! Its said..U guys got me man!! I dunno wat to say ..I FEEL elated now that I can finally stop pretending to be that seriously annoyingly nice and too good to be true Alishia…
That said:
Ranz: I 2nd Yemz, u goooo girl, for telling it like it is, for being true to how u feel…and yeah u guys shouldve told me at the onsett about these feelings u feel…am really appreciative that u took the time to point these **attributes ** of mine to me now:)…
Tayba: I agree with Ranz, Never be sorry for the way u feel, or for what u believe to be the truth and right…sooo pls dnt apologize, just go on being honest…
Yemz: u once changed yr nic on Facebook, I remember asking u why ..u answered….Thats my reason as well..whether u care to believe me or not, is your choice…but hun, ..did u do that as a means to play vicious mind games on the people u call friends?? No need to answer me…**winks**
Mara: Oye luw, why didn’t u approach me sooner when u felt this way?? U know ( knew ) u can always approach me about basically anything..right?? Well guess not…hmmm…shykes wats with all the alcohol promotions going down…? eish
Nessa: Ur right this is the MOTHER of all ironies, one I shall retain as a lesson:) … I agree ..u are by far the most honestest person I have ever had the pleasure respecting as my sister…continue being u…
Senor Anna: Stop teasing…ie stop teasing Cosmic, U KNOW theres nothing there….good to see ur still the same!
Cosmic: Leh….**drops an oreo crumb and a half eaten popcorn in his mouth* dats all ur getting ….wrt leaving…no thanks… I will leave in my own terms, when the time is right…until then ..grin and bear my presence !!!
Oh one more thing!! Mr Tribal counselor…good to hear thoughts of me chills u to the spine…wahaaahahahaaahahahahahaaa…
Kavi: all that color?? 🙂 good to see u happy like this angel….keep the emotion going strong…Life is amazingly great…
It’s the lil things that brings great pleasure …
I think that’s all I have to say ….for now….
Woaahhhhhh…hmmm…BUSTED!!!..Jeeez u guys..am all red faced with guilt here!!!
Am gonna try an roll my responses to everything pertaining to me and my lack of honesty and trueness and and and …on this thread..not that wat I say matters ..**as per hearsay:)** .neva da less………..
First and foremost, Its about time u guys figured me out.. I mean theres just a period of time one can pretend being all sincere and nice and all things good…right!!!
Wat was I gonna say..Oh yeah….u guys forgot to include the following in your list of descriptions…
From Deceitful, to dishonest, untrustworthy, untrue, conniving, manipulative, evil minded, synical, ferociously brutal, cruelly inhumane, sadistically aggressive, viciously nasty and a mind player to booth!! Which to me relates to just one thing..evilness..everything ScarFace aka, Scarry, Aka Alishia Aka Alie is…
There!!! Its said..U guys got me man!! I dunno wat to say ..I FEEL elated now that I can finally stop pretending to be that seriously annoyingly nice and too good to be true Alishia…
That said:
Ranz: I 2nd Yemz, u goooo girl, for telling it like it is, for being true to how u feel…and yeah u guys shouldve told me at the onsett about these feelings u feel…am really appreciative that u took the time to point these **attributes ** of mine to me now:)…
Tayba: I agree with Ranz, Never be sorry for the way u feel, or for what u believe to be the truth and right…sooo pls dnt apologize, just go on being honest…
Yemz: u once changed yr nic on Facebook, I remember asking u why ..u answered….Thats my reason as well..whether u care to believe me or not, is your choice…but hun, ..did u do that as a means to play vicious mind games on the people u call friends?? No need to answer me…**winks**
Mara: Oye luw, why didn’t u approach me sooner when u felt this way?? U know ( knew ) u can always approach me about basically anything..right?? Well guess not…hmmm…shykes wats with all the alcohol promotions going down…? eish
Nessa: Ur right this is the MOTHER of all ironies, one I shall retain as a lesson:) … I agree ..u are by far the most honestest person I have ever had the pleasure respecting as my sister…continue being u…
Senor Anna: Stop teasing…ie stop teasing Cosmic, U KNOW theres nothing there….good to see ur still the same!
Cosmic: Leh….**drops an oreo crumb and a half eaten popcorn in his mouth* dats all ur getting ….wrt leaving…no thanks… I will leave in my own terms, when the time is right…until then ..grin and bear my presence !!!
Oh one more thing!! Mr Tribal counselor…good to hear thoughts of me chills u to the spine…wahaaahahahaaahahahahahaaa…
Kavi: all that color?? 🙂 good to see u happy like this angel….keep the emotion going strong…Life is amazingly great…
It’s the lil things that brings great pleasure …
I think that’s all I have to say ….for now….
a good attempt at covering one's a$$ but which failed miserably. pls try again. oh wait…dont bother.
Woaahhhhhh…hmmm…BUSTED!!!..Jeeez u guys..am all red faced with guilt here!!!
Am gonna try an roll my responses to everything pertaining to me and my lack of honesty and trueness and and and …on this thread..not that wat I say matters ..**as per hearsay:)** .neva da less………..
First and foremost, Its about time u guys figured me out.. I mean theres just a period of time one can pretend being all sincere and nice and all things good…right!!!
Wat was I gonna say..Oh yeah….u guys forgot to include the following in your list of descriptions…
From Deceitful, to dishonest, untrustworthy, untrue, conniving, manipulative, evil minded, synical, ferociously brutal, cruelly inhumane, sadistically aggressive, viciously nasty and a mind player to booth!! Which to me relates to just one thing..evilness..everything ScarFace aka, Scarry, Aka Alishia Aka Alie is…
There!!! Its said..U guys got me man!! I dunno wat to say ..I FEEL elated now that I can finally stop pretending to be that seriously annoyingly nice and too good to be true Alishia…
That said:
Ranz: I 2nd Yemz, u goooo girl, for telling it like it is, for being true to how u feel…and yeah u guys shouldve told me at the onsett about these feelings u feel…am really appreciative that u took the time to point these **attributes ** of mine to me now:)…
Tayba: I agree with Ranz, Never be sorry for the way u feel, or for what u believe to be the truth and right…sooo pls dnt apologize, just go on being honest…
Yemz: u once changed yr nic on Facebook, I remember asking u why ..u answered….Thats my reason as well..whether u care to believe me or not, is your choice…but hun, ..did u do that as a means to play vicious mind games on the people u call friends?? No need to answer me…**winks**
Mara: Oye luw, why didn’t u approach me sooner when u felt this way?? U know ( knew ) u can always approach me about basically anything..right?? Well guess not…hmmm…shykes wats with all the alcohol promotions going down…? eish
Nessa: Ur right this is the MOTHER of all ironies, one I shall retain as a lesson:) … I agree ..u are by far the most honestest person I have ever had the pleasure respecting as my sister…continue being u…
Senor Anna: Stop teasing…ie stop teasing Cosmic, U KNOW theres nothing there….good to see ur still the same!
Cosmic: Leh….**drops an oreo crumb and a half eaten popcorn in his mouth* dats all ur getting ….wrt leaving…no thanks… I will leave in my own terms, when the time is right…until then ..grin and bear my presence !!!
Oh one more thing!! Mr Tribal counselor…good to hear thoughts of me chills u to the spine…wahaaahahahaaahahahahahaaa…
Kavi: all that color?? 🙂 good to see u happy like this angel….keep the emotion going strong…Life is amazingly great…
It’s the lil things that brings great pleasure …
I think that’s all I have to say ….for now….
a good attempt at covering one's a$$ but which failed miserably. pls try again. oh wait…dont bother.
ooofffffffffff BUSTED again….
nah, I prefer my a$$ exploited like above…seeing as u care soo much about my assets…liabilities..wateva
this is my day job…
Scarry… do you realise why people are upset? Because your sarcasm at the beginning of the posts where you refer to yourself with two different personalities doesn't seem to know why. I have experienced this type of dishonesty before which led to my heart being broken. And this same dishonesty has left people angry and confused….
The forum isn't working properly for ninja, she wanted me to pass you this message:
“Okay, Scarry, no, that's not the reason I changed my name on Facebook. I wasn't trying to annoy or play mind games with my people I call my friends. You can't compare that to what you did here. Facebook is something private. And everyone who's on my profile, knows me well. They know me enough to know whether I'm honest or dishonest. And when I changed my name, it was a prank my friend and I planned for a close friend. So you can't throw something like that in my face in order to justify your actions here. It comes nowhere close. I messed around with my friend because I knew I had that right. It's different. Thank you very much.”
Wat was I gonna say..Oh yeah….u guys forgot to include the following in your list of descriptions…
nobody forgot to include it nobody wanted to put the effort into it
From Deceitful, to dishonest, untrustworthy, untrue, conniving, manipulative, evil minded, synical, ferociously brutal, cruelly inhumane, sadistically aggressive, viciously nasty and a mind player to booth!! Which to me relates to just one thing..evilness..everything ScarFace aka, Scarry, Aka Alishia Aka Alie is…you forgot psychotic
Yemz: u once changed yr nic on Facebook, I remember asking u why ..u answered….Thats my reason as well..whether u care to believe me or not, is your choice…but hun, ..did u do that as a means to play vicious mind games on the people u call friends?? No need to answer me…**winks**how r u gonna say what she did and what you did r the same thing. what she did was funny what you did was scary not to mention disturbing….you made up a whole another person and had a conversation with yourself..
Mara: Oye luw, why didn’t u approach me sooner when u felt this way?? U know ( knew ) u can always approach me about basically anything..right?? Well guess not…hmmm…shykes wats with all the alcohol promotions going down…? eish Sweetie i did tell you having multiple personality's is not good…When you came and made the first person i said Ali thats not cool thing to do…and when there was noting to talk about anymore you started bringing out my personal info on the forum…I asked you to stop yet you didn't…and then when everyone stayed away from the forum you brought the 3rd person….so excuse me for not telling you things that would eventually end up giving me a headace…..
Nessa: Ur right this is the MOTHER of all ironies, one I shall retain as a lesson:) … I agree ..u are by far the most honestest person I have ever had the pleasure respecting as my sister…continue being u… you say that this one you should retain as a lesson yet i give it 1 week for you to do the same thing again and to forget the lesson you were tought…
I think that’s all I have to say ….for now…. one more thing to add. you call everyone your sisters and your brothers yet i never had sisters or brothers that made this much drama happene….I came to the forum after a while and it's like nothing changes with you. I understand if you need ppl around you so you don't fell lonely but biting us is not the way to go..
I think that’s all I have to say
Scarry – (btw, great forum name, you sure are pretty scary) I didn't want to reply to any of this, because everything you said was bull$hit, but what you said about Ninja angered me beyond words that I just couldn't ignore your stupid and pathetic post.
I second this.
Ninja is the most PURE, HONEST and SELFLESS person I know. And I'm SURE everyone can and will vouch for this. You two are not comparable in any form or way. She's beyond the definition of a true sister. You want me to be honest? This post has angered me and hurt me. Because Ninja means more to me than you could ever know. So, please don't compare your actions with hers. Please.
*deep breaths* I think I need another walk.
I third this.
Ninja is the the most honest person I have ever met. Don't you ever dare try to call her dishonest again. You are insulting her beautiful personality by even comparing yourself to her, so don't you ever dare compare what you did with what she does. got it? get it. good. I've known her longer than you have, and I know her way better than you do. Plus, I have had the pleasure of knowing her off the internet (people like you ruin the honesty in the internet). If honesty could take the form of a human, it would take Ninja's form. Don't you even dare try to apologize to her, I know she'll forgive you if your sorry was sincere, but you aren't worthy of her forgiveness.
too good to be true Alishia…
So this whole time you were pretending to be sincere and nice and all things good? Oh whoa girl, do you need some acting lessons or what! Too good to be true Alishia? My oh my oh my! There was nothing good about you to begin with!
One more thing; don't call us your family again. Someone like you isn't worthy of being a family member of this beautiful and honest forum family.
One more thing: Because of you, I will doubt every new member that joins and comes onto our Say Something threads because I will be forced to think, “Is this Scarry?”
People make mistakes, we all do, we are all human, no one is perfect. But what makes us good people is that we see our mistakes, try to fix them, and apologize for them. But look at you! Instead of apologizing or trying to explain yourself, you're being sarcastic and trying to turn the blame on someone else! You make me sick.
I third this.
Ninja is the the most honest person I have ever met. Don't you ever dare try to call her dishonest again. You are insulting her beautiful personality by even comparing yourself to her, so don't you ever dare compare what you did with what she does. got it? get it. good. I've known her longer than you have, and I know her way better than you do. Plus, I have had the pleasure of knowing her off the internet (people like you ruin the honesty in the internet). If honesty could take the form of a human, it would take Ninja's form. Don't you even dare try to apologize to her, I know she'll forgive you if your sorry was sincere, but you aren't worthy of her forgiveness.
That's exactly it: If honesty could take the form of a human, it would take Ninja's form. And I know she'll forgive her too. That is why I am saying, they aren't in the LEAST comparable. I don't think anything on this forum has ever angered me more than when she called my sister dishonest. I'm literally shaking with rage right now.
Princess: You know you don't feel well. Leave it. It's been said!
99: Was wondering when you'd make it on!
Ninja is the the most honest person I have ever met. Don't you ever dare try to call her dishonest again. You are insulting her beautiful personality by even comparing yourself to her, so don't you ever dare compare what you did with what she does. got it? get it. good. I've known her longer than you have, and I know her way better than you do. Plus, I have had the pleasure of knowing her off the internet (people like you ruin the honesty in the internet). If honesty could take the form of a human, it would take Ninja's form. Don't you even dare try to apologize to her, I know she'll forgive you if your sorry was sincere, but you aren't worthy of her forgiveness.
That's exactly it: If honesty could take the form of a human, it would take Ninja's form. And I know she'll forgive her too. That is why I am saying, they aren't in the LEAST comparable. I don't think anything on this forum has ever angered me more than when she called my sister dishonest. I'm literally shaking with rage right now.
No one has the right to call our sister anything but honest, jaana. When I started to read her post, I was thinking, “How childish and pathetic can she get? I'm ignoring all this.” But when I came to what she said about Ninja, I swear man, she couldn't have angered me more if she had said something about me, but Ninja! She's like the epitome of honesty and purity and beauty! I was boiling with anger and I couldn't even let it out because I was with my family. I was dying to get to the computer to reply to it.
Ninja, my beautiful habeebi, I love you so much.
Angry posts aren't complete unless I get to say something. I love youuuu! Was just waiting for a chance to get away from family so I can properly reply.
I miss you, how are you?
I miss you, how are you?
I knew it was just a matter of time!
I love you & miss you too kid!
Some days r better than others. Today was shyte!
To read this filth and see yet another innocent person get the shaft from this chick is too much!
I've given her venom waaay too much attention and now I'm finished with it! Take care guys.
No one has the right to call our sister anything but honest, jaana. When I started to read her post, I was thinking, “How childish and pathetic can she get? I'm ignoring all this.” But when I came to what she said about Ninja, I swear man, she couldn't have angered me more if she had said something about me, but Ninja! She's like the epitome of honesty and purity and beauty! I was boiling with anger and I couldn't even let it out because I was with my family. I was dying to get to the computer to reply to it.
Ninja, my beautiful habeebi, I love you so much.
The only reason I replied was because of Ninja. She has all of my respect. Every last drop of it. And she doesn't deserve this ***.
I”M SAYING THIS OUT OF LOVE
i feel like kicking your guyses ass i swear i can't believe you letting this get to you. we all know that she is trying to piss everyone off and it seems to be working cause you guys r giving your energy to her….IT”S NOT WORTH IT
RANI== darling how r u? miss u..I understand where your coming from, but is she really worth that much of your energy do you really thing that whats she says is gonna effect the way anyone thinks about anyone…I know we have been hurt and we all have been lied to but that doesn't mean we should stop trusting or that we shouldn't think that the next person who comes to the forum is an honest person…I love you please don't stress over faltoo things jaan you life and health is precious.
Tabz==darling like i told you today let her think the way she wants to. if she thinks that Ninja is not honest or that she not loyal let her think that way who cares. we all know who Ninja is and we all love her for that.
Just cause she is not here to defend herself doesn't mean she can't, and knowing her she will overlook this and tell you to stop getting mad and end up forgiving Ali.
NINJA===my favorite double kicker how r u come back soon. We all know you and we all love you there is nothing that has ever made me think other wise.
I am very glad that i had the pleasure of meeting you as well as Nessa, Tabz, Kavit and Rani you guys r wonderful people and you guys have been nothing but honest and loyal from the star.
you guys we have been here for a long time, before the drama started-we r here while the drama is happening-we will be here when the drama ends. so keep you head up and keep smiling LOVE YOU GUYS
Thanks for that Marine! It means so much!
I was really dying with anger, but thanks to Nessa, I cooled down. I realized that some people just aren't worth it!
Ninja is the the most honest person I have ever met. Don't you ever dare try to call her dishonest again. You are insulting her beautiful personality by even comparing yourself to her, so don't you ever dare compare what you did with what she does. got it? get it. good. I've known her longer than you have, and I know her way better than you do. Plus, I have had the pleasure of knowing her off the internet (people like you ruin the honesty in the internet). If honesty could take the form of a human, it would take Ninja's form. Don't you even dare try to apologize to her, I know she'll forgive you if your sorry was sincere, but you aren't worthy of her forgiveness.
Guess what bum? I love you! oh so much! Even though I don't deserve all that, but it made me feel so much better that you feel that way about me, habeebati. You know how much you mean to me. I'm willing to do anything I can for you, I hope you know that. And I have the pleasure of knowing you as well. Alhamdulillah. JazakaAllah for being the beautiful person you are.
People make mistakes, we all do, we are all human, no one is perfect. But what makes us good people is that we see our mistakes, try to fix them, and apologize for them. But look at you! Instead of apologizing or trying to explain yourself, you're being sarcastic and trying to turn the blame on someone else! You make me sick.
Exactly, I wish that instead of pointing fingers at people on this forum, she would just apologize and admit that she was wrong!
I've never been this pissed off! Seriously man, admitting that you're wrong is something only courageous and honest people are capable of doing!
Your sarcasm KILLS ME! It really does, please stop it.
P.S. Rani, check our email! lol!
Thanks for that Marine! It means so much!
I was really dying with anger, but thanks to Nessa, I cooled down. I realized that some people just aren't worth it!
Well i'm glad that Nessa was able to calm you down.
But to be honest i was waiting for firework lmao i'm so evil
The one i love about all this is that we all can see who's real and who's fake.
Well i'm glad that Nessa was able to calm you down.
But to be honest i was waiting for firework lmao i'm so evil
The one i love about all this is that we all can see who's real and who's fake.
I'm glad too! I was still intending to go ninja style, but the forum wouldn't let me in! lmbo!
Everything happens for a good reason man!
That's true, but it's soooooooo annoying when people just refuse to admit it!
OK OK yaar don't have a cow I'm admitting it I'm psycho to lmao
No but i know what u mean. you r the best double kicker so i'm glad u couldn't go Ninja style up in here
From Deceitful, to dishonest, untrustworthy, untrue, conniving, manipulative, evil minded, synical, ferociously brutal, cruelly inhumane, sadistically aggressive, viciously nasty and a mind player to booth!! Which to me relates to just one thing..evilness..everything ScarFace aka, Scarry, Aka Alishia Aka Alie is…
Pleasure to meet all of u welcome to the forum I'm sure u will enjoy your stay. do visit more often. R there more of u we should know about????? oh and what happened to madhuriya she was here a while ago. is she still part of the aka group?
Hunn, you deserved all that and much more. And you should know how I feel about you, didn't I make it clear last night? and *ahem* I know exactly what you're willing to do for me. (*evil grin*) but jokes apart, waiyyakum. You bring out the best in me.
I don't know the exact population but more than a 100,000 I think. Sadly, Indians have a very bad reputation in the Philippines. Most of the Indians here are money lenders and often the butt end of the joke and derogatory comments. I cop a lot of them, but that's the way life is sometimes.
I know exactly what you mean Senor [If Nessa reads this she will laugh her head of] every Indian from Philippines are either in import export or our in the money lendinglol even my best friend and most of his friends they are Indians from Philippines
lmbo…man oh man!
It's been the longest winter without you……. see, somehow I can't forget you……. .
Sheesh! With summer cranking up the heat, I'd rather live out a lonely winter than endure this darn summer with a boat-load of people [exceptions to the rules of course are those who sport hijaabs and a certain someone who laughs like she's got a sub-machine gun stuck in her throat].
PS: I notice that Boo is around. Had to make a quick correction, or I would have to suffer the sinister stroke of the ever-present red pen.
Excuse me, who are you talking about? *raises eyebrow*
It's like taking me to the highest mountain; showing me the world and saying, “This is what you can't have.”
Excuse me, who are you talking about? *raises eyebrow*
I'm pretty sure he means you. I'm the air-raid siren!
Told to me by someone I hold very dear.
“We don't truly know what it is we want, until we can not have it.”
Excuse me, who are you talking about? *raises eyebrow*
I'm pretty sure he means you. I'm the air-raid siren!
That lil wench! I do not laugh like that! … do i? LMAO!
Nessa… thank you for making me smile.
Told to me by someone I hold very dear.
“We don't truly know what it is we want, until we can not have it.”
grrrrrr! I've never been so emotionally retarded before!
I'm pretty sure he means you. I'm the air-raid siren!
That lil wench! I do not laugh like that! … do i? LMAO!
Nessa… thank you for making me smile.
Told to me by someone I hold very dear.
“We don't truly know what it is we want, until we can not have it.”
grrrrrr! I've never been so emotionally retarded before!
1. I don't think you sound like that…but then again, I don't think I sound like an air-raid siren. rotflmbo
2. Stick around, it gets worse! lol Seriously, things will get better. I promise.
'…I don't think I sound like an air-raid siren…'
You are right and you are wrong. Lmao! Occasionally you do sound like an air-raid siren, but often you do sound like a sub-machine gun. You may disagree all you want, but, I heard you giggle. I never forget. Rani on the other hand, has one steam-powered shrill whistle of a laugh like one that comes off a pressure cooker just before your biryani is done…
Hello ladies! Just in case you feel like throwing a little 'mutilation party' you know where I live. Come get me. Lmao! Ninjitsu, save me some space in your basement. I coming to hide. Tayba, guard the door.
There's no room at Ninjitsu's…Gollum (seriomonster) is there, remember? He ain't lettin you near his 'precccioussssss'! bwaahahaha!
And Hijaab Woman (name has been trademarked) has denied your request on several occasions! Boo hoo for you!
Hey 99 you ready with that stick?! You hit him low (lmao) and I'll go for the throat!
LMAO @ how reasonable you sound ji!
I do not laugh like that! oooooh buuuoooy! Nessa! I can't believe he just said that! You hold him! I wanna kick this boy real good! A pressure cooker! Gimme that stick! At least I sound like a girl! You girrrrl! You buddhi! HA!
Lmao! Well, Rani has no choice but to hit me 'low' because what the Almighty has bestowed upon her life abundantly in beauty and charm, He has withheld in erm 'inches' so… Lord, I have the giggles. As for you, gun-giggle-girl, you better watch it when you go for my throat, you are gonna get it right on the kisser and it ain't gonna be pretty.
There's no room at Ninjitsu's…Gollum (seriomonster) is there, remember? He ain't lettin you near his 'precccioussssss'! bwaahahaha!
spot on!! imma feed u to skank if u come anywhere near her senorJ. skank by the way, is our resident pitbull. dont ever mess with him! and if skank goes AWOL, then I wont mind setting you on fire since the cops are looking for me anyways!
Lmao! Well, Rani has no choice but to hit me 'low' because what the Almighty has bestowed upon her life abundantly in beauty and charm, He has withheld in erm 'inches' so… Lord, I have the giggles. As for you, gun-giggle-girl, you better watch it when you go for my throat, you are gonna get it right on the kisser and it ain't gonna be pretty.
99 – You gonna let him get away with yet another short crack?! I think it's time you done him in!
Senor ji – You're such a polite & well spoken old man (insert 'gun giggle'). Was that a threat of violence or something else?
A mutiliation party? Goaash, what mind you have!
But now that you mention it dot dot dot
Be afraid dot dot dot [stares] be VERY afraid
And me? – I'll kick back and enjoy the show!!!
'…I don't think I sound like an air-raid siren…'
You are right and you are wrong. Lmao! Occasionally you do sound like an air-raid siren, but often you do sound like a sub-machine gun. You may disagree all you want, but, I heard you giggle. I never forget. Rani on the other hand, has one steam-powered shrill whistle of a laugh like one that comes off a pressure cooker just before your biryani is done…
Hello ladies! Just in case you feel like throwing a little 'mutilation party' you know where I live. Come get me. Lmao! Ninjitsu, save me some space in your basement. I coming to hide. Tayba, guard the door.
pssssht! u said my cough makes me sound like a man!!! Imma let rani straight through!!!! *kicks serio off his seat and sits next to my boo* .
Sheesh! With summer cranking up the heat, I'd rather live out a lonely winter than endure this darn summer with a boat-load of people [exceptions to the rules of course are those who sport hijaabs and a certain someone who laughs like she's got a sub-machine gun stuck in her throat].
PS: I notice that Boo is around. Had to make a quick correction, or I would have to suffer the sinister stroke of the ever-present red pen.
Really? I love summer!!! even with its stickyness and bugs, everything is so beautiful and full of life! The poor trees have been naked for way too long!!!!
Now for this sub-machine laugh (lmao) are you addressing rani or me?! or someone else?! (before I get called slow, I can't be bothered to flick through the pages, I'm tired ).
It's like taking me to the highest mountain; showing me the world and saying, “This is what you can't have.”
Jaan . Keep faith, na? No human can say you can't have something. Not when Allah is the Almighty Provider. I love you. Chin up lady! x
Shrugs
I dont like summer!
Lmao! Well, Rani has no choice but to hit me 'low' because what the Almighty has bestowed upon her life abundantly in beauty and charm, He has withheld in erm 'inches' so… Lord, I have the giggles.
LMAO! I want to beat you up and buy you coffee at the same time! My face is all like and then it goes to “awww” and then it goes back to the and then a
You lil buttwipe of a jerk! You're lucky you live so faaaaaar away from me, or else I would smack you upside your head when you're drinking hot coffee and make you spill it all over your precious lower self! Hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
lmao! I got no choice but to let him get away with it, he's so darned far away that my threats don't scare him! lol. Before this stinky buddha, no one eber called me short.
LMAO! “make you spill it over your precious lower self” hahahaha! Coffee could turn out to be an enemy for you, buddha! .
Rani – one day when things are easier inshaAllah we'll fly out and surprise him. The three of us =D lmao, talking of surprises, this reminds me of the convo on the phone just now when we were talking about a surprise forum party and how it would be so fun LMAO! *giggles*
LMAO! “make you spill it over your precious lower self” hahahaha! Coffee could turn out to be an enemy for you, buddha! .
Rani – one day when things are easier inshaAllah we'll fly out and surprise him. The three of us =D lmao, talking of surprises, this reminds me of the convo on the phone just now when we were talking about a surprise forum party and how it would be so fun LMAO! *giggles*
lol. You better take his address or we'll get lost! He prolly won't be home, that waitress-chasing loser. We'll be ringing the bell and no one would answer! oh, poor guy will prolly have a heart attack if we show up at his doorstep! lolllllllll IT would be so much fun! We can steal his cane and hide it under his bed! LMAO!
lol, forum party sounds like fun… didn't we already have one? For boo? her surprise bday party? lmao!
LMAO! “make you spill it over your precious lower self” hahahaha! Coffee could turn out to be an enemy for you, buddha! .
Rani – one day when things are easier inshaAllah we'll fly out and surprise him. The three of us =D lmao, talking of surprises, this reminds me of the convo on the phone just now when we were talking about a surprise forum party and how it would be so fun LMAO! *giggles*
lol. You better take his address or we'll get lost! He prolly won't be home, that waitress-chasing loser. We'll be ringing the bell and no one would answer! oh, poor guy will prolly have a heart attack if we show up at his doorstep! lolllllllll IT would be so much fun! We can steal his cane and hide it under his bed! LMAO!
lol, forum party sounds like fun… didn't we already have one? For boo? her surprise bday party? lmao!
rofl waitress chasing or skinny dipping at some lake. We'll wait till he comes home lmao. Then we'll play knock down ginger on his door. (That's when you knock and run away and make the person keep coming outside his/her house to see who it is). LOL it would be soooo fun. He'll come out all the way on to the road to see who the hell he is. Then ninja will sneak in. Then I will, then you. And then we shut the door on him. LMAO. .
Yesssss booos bday partaaaaaay! I remember now! but that's not what I mean! I mean everybody online same time to shout SURPRISE! damn it wont work on the net :p you all needu come to london jerks
Yesssss booos bday partaaaaaay! I remember now! but that's not what I mean! I mean everybody online same time to shout SURPRISE! damn it wont work on the net :p you all needu come to london jerks
The budda is so shameless he'll go skinny dipping with some waitress! He better hurry up cuz I am so impatient! We'll sneak in his house if he's not there and take his food and watch tv lmao!
lmao, we all can't be on at the same time, it's like impossible! hahaaaaa! London? I wannu come london! *excited*
Yesssss booos bday partaaaaaay! I remember now! but that's not what I mean! I mean everybody online same time to shout SURPRISE! damn it wont work on the net :p you all needu come to london jerks
The budda is so shameless he'll go skinny dipping with some waitress! He better hurry up cuz I am so impatient! We'll sneak in his house if he's not there and take his food and watch tv lmao!
lmao, we all can't be on at the same time, it's like impossible! hahaaaaa! London? I wannu come london! *excited*
Lmao skinny dipping with the waitress. I bet she's from Starbucks, where else do they know him so well! lmao!
Yeah lets raid his fridge, (you better store ferrero rocher cuz we're nuts about them!) and watch somethin funny on his tv =D Powerpuff girls! *remembers the poster Boo made last year* *giggles*
Jaan nothing is impossible. We can make it work somehow!!!!! Some of us will just have to be up in the late hours of the night. I'm always up so this time someone else can stay up . And if its my surprise party, then I should be up to see it . You fool,, why are you telling me about my surprise party? It's meant to be a surprise. Haaaa! 😛
Yeah lets raid his fridge, (you better store ferrero rocher cuz we're nuts about them!) and watch somethin funny on his tv =D Powerpuff girls! *remembers the poster Boo made last year* *giggles*
Jaan nothing is impossible. We can make it work somehow!!!!! Some of us will just have to be up in the late hours of the night. I'm always up so this time someone else can stay up . And if its my surprise party, then I should be up to see it . You fool,, why are you telling me about my surprise party? It's meant to be a surprise. Haaaa! 😛
Yep, it's the red-haired one from Starbucks! lol.
He better have Ferrero Rocher! The three of us love it sooo much! He better have three diff boxes or else we'll be fighting over them! HAHA! OH YEAH! POWERPUFF GIRLS! LMAO! I remember the poster! LMAO! I LOVED IT!
LMAO! I'm not having a surprise bday party for youuuu! so shut ur trap! I prolly won't be able to come on, how horrible does that look? No host? LMAO! We'll do it when I get my hubby to buy me a laptop, teekh hai?!!?
Yeah lets raid his fridge, (you better store ferrero rocher cuz we're nuts about them!) and watch somethin funny on his tv =D Powerpuff girls! *remembers the poster Boo made last year* *giggles*
Jaan nothing is impossible. We can make it work somehow!!!!! Some of us will just have to be up in the late hours of the night. I'm always up so this time someone else can stay up . And if its my surprise party, then I should be up to see it . You fool,, why are you telling me about my surprise party? It's meant to be a surprise. Haaaa! 😛
Yep, it's the red-haired one from Starbucks! lol.
He better have Ferrero Rocher! The three of us love it sooo much! He better have three diff boxes or else we'll be fighting over them! HAHA! OH YEAH! POWERPUFF GIRLS! LMAO! I remember the poster! LMAO! I LOVED IT!
LMAO! I'm not having a surprise bday party for youuuu! so shut ur trap! I prolly won't be able to come on, how horrible does that look? No host? LMAO! We'll do it when I get my hubby to buy me a laptop, teekh hai?!!?
LOL yes please seperate boxes of ferrero rocher! aisha brought me some last week and I just gave one to my mum and none to my brothers lmaooooooooooooooooo I LOVE IT!
that poster was soo funny! I love shrekkerz!!!
Ohhh *nods head* I get it. You want me to be non-chalant about this….. *sure there's no birthday party, sallllll coool* *hums* =p
lmao! I got no choice but to let him get away with it, he's so darned far away that my threats don't scare him! lol. Before this stinky buddha, no one eber called me short.
You know what'll frighten him? You being all nice & sweet! That will just about terrify him! Bwahahahaha!
Give it a shot…then…pounce!
Reading all this madness… looking back on my time on the forum… I never once thought, before I came to this forum, that I would be so loved by such crajees from all sorts of random corners of the world………. And I never once thought I would be made Moderator (…….. such are the levels of my Faltoo-ness huh? ) – I still remember the day, Mukesh asking me… it was…
I belong here.
It makes me beam with pride sometimes, to know that I am part of a forum. My forum family. Not many feelings as special as this in my life, that I can honestly tell you. When I look at the people around me… it makes me smile… to think that I have found a whole new dimension to the word “friendship”, that they may not have seen……… it's like my little secret place. There are so many different types of friendships…. as Khushi has once so rightly said to me (paraphrased), “You can't name the type of friendship, but you can feel it.. you know at which stage you are at…” (or something like that)… … I have various friendships at various stages in my life, but this… this place, this forum… it turns everything topsy turvy and inside out… perhaps because it is in a place that is sacred to me – our hearts, that it is all so beautifully muddled up… short girls kicking buddhas and kicking people off cinema seats and surprise parties of words and images of skinny dipping men… sigh! I have no words for how much I love this forum, and how much…. much… richer… it has made my life. Truly. The more of life you see, the more 'it' all makes sense to you… the more… well, to me anyway… the more you begin to find your place in this world. And I have seen – and am seeing – so much of life in this forum…. where do I even begin to express my joy and gratitude?
Bah…. you've caught me in a pensive mood… sorryshorry….
'I would smack you upside your head when you're drinking hot coffee and make you spill it all over your precious lower self!'
I've actually spilt coffee on myself more than once, though, never on my 'precious lower self.' As much as I do not see any opportunity for me to erm deploy the Admiral, I would rather that he be erm raw than blanched.
'Before this stinky buddha, no one eber called me short.'
First things first. I do stink. Had to rush from playing tennis to the office to get some things sorted, and by the time I finally got to leave the place, it was smelling like salted squid.
'He prolly won't be home, that waitress-chasing loser.'
That is correct! I never bring them home. My mother would say to us when we were young: 'The girl you bring home is the girl you are going to marry.' So, I've developed this 'See but do not touch' and 'Flirt but do not fiddle' window-shopping philosophy that has thus far served me well. Oh, by the way, I do not 'chase' waitresses…just baristas. It's the coffee in their hands…I swear!
'The budda is so shameless he'll go skinny dipping with some waitress!
Nope. Skinny dipping is either a private affair or selective affair with people who share similar appendages…think erm many 'gongs' but no chimes…just splashes.
'Lmao skinny dipping with the waitress. I bet she's from Starbucks, where else do they know him so well! lmao! Yep, it's the red-haired one from Starbucks!'
Starbucks, Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf, Figaro, San Francisco, Seattles Best, Cibo…I'm popular wherever coffee is brewed within a few miles of where I live. Just so you know, its not the 'red haired' one, its the 'auburn' haired one. Have no interest in carrot tops.
PS: Nessa, quit getting the girl all riled up. Imma smack you. No pouncing. I just went skinny dipping. God knows where your pounce may leave you erm hanging. Lmao!
Skinny dipping is either a private affair or selective affair with people who share similar appendages…think erm many 'gongs' but no chimes…just splashes. What's that name Gollum has given you?
Just so you know, its not the 'red haired' one, its the 'auburn' haired one. Have no interest in carrot tops. Still stalkin Ginger eh?
PS: Nessa, quit getting the girl all riled up. Imma smack you. So much violence! ROTFLMAO!!!
Reading all this madness… looking back on my time on the forum… I never once thought, before I came to this forum, that I would be so loved by such crajees from all sorts of random corners of the world……….
I belong here.
…. where do I even begin to express my joy and gratitude?
Bah…. you've caught me in a pensive mood… sorryshorry….
1. But you are!
2. Yeah ya do! (my best Joey Tribiani impression!
3. I think many, if not most of us, feel the same Boo.
Nessa ………… ! I think we do, don't we (feel the same..)? Where's the closing parenthesis on point # 2 miss?
You three (The Powerpuff Girls lmao… love you too donkey jee! ) should take a camera with you (or better still, a camcorder..)… ohhhh the look on his face when he sees you three on his doorstep…. damn, imagining a surprised buddha is probably just as hilarious as the real thing! Oh gosh I have just burst out into a beam….
Sigh!
Sometimes (*touchwood*), I think: there's nothing a moment in the madhouse of BWL forum can't cure! Madcaps!
LOL… I was thinking about all this phone-talk when I was washing my hands about half an hour ago… and I burst out laughing there and then lmao… thinking of the conversation between Rani and Tayba…
Rani: Senor doesn't sound American.
Tayba: Yes he does.
Rani: Senor sounds like Nessa.
Tayba: Nessa is AMERICAN.
Lmaooo!
Oh, and Tayba darling… Jalapeno?? Seriously?? I cracked up at that Rani LMAO… first thing I thought of was, “You fob.”
Ahhh reminds me of the time I first talked to Tayba on the phone (She was the one I lost my.. euhmm.. BWL phone virginity to… )….
Sigh!
We were compleeetely hopeless! We just went, “Hello” and then burst out laughing… seriously!… for about a minute, minute and a half… just laughing/giggling away… and every time we tried to say something, we just burst out laughing some more…. oh gosh, just thinking about that time is cracking me up now… *giggle* Sigh! I'll never forget that moment…
'I would smack you upside your head when you're drinking hot coffee and make you spill it all over your precious lower self!'
I've actually spilt coffee on myself more than once, though, never on my 'precious lower self.' As much as I do not see any opportunity for me to erm deploy the Admiral, I would rather that he be erm raw than blanched. ohmy! Shut uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup!
'Before this stinky buddha, no one eber called me short.'
First things first. I do stink. Had to rush from playing tennis to the office to get some things sorted, and by the time I finally got to leave the place, it was smelling like salted squid. blah. u loser
'He prolly won't be home, that waitress-chasing loser.'
That is correct! I never bring them home. My mother would say to us when we were young: 'The girl you bring home is the girl you are going to marry.' So, I've developed this 'See but do not touch' and 'Flirt but do not fiddle' window-shopping philosophy that has thus far served me well. Oh, by the way, I do not 'chase' waitresses…just baristas. It's the coffee in their hands…I swear! lollllllllllllll pagal
'The budda is so shameless he'll go skinny dipping with some waitress!
Nope. Skinny dipping is either a private affair or selective affair with people who share similar appendages…think erm many 'gongs' but no chimes…just splashes. you know what, buddha? Ur a loser!
'Lmao skinny dipping with the waitress. I bet she's from Starbucks, where else do they know him so well! lmao! Yep, it's the red-haired one from Starbucks!'
Starbucks, Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf, Figaro, San Francisco, Seattles Best, Cibo…I'm popular wherever coffee is brewed within a few miles of where I live. Just so you know, its not the 'red haired' one, its the 'auburn' haired one. Have no interest in carrot tops. auburn? don't matter, ur still a loser.
PS: Nessa, quit getting the girl all riled up. Imma smack you. No pouncing. I just went skinny dipping. God knows where your pounce may leave you erm hanging. Lmao! That sounds like me
LOL… I was thinking about all this phone-talk when I was washing my hands about half an hour ago… and I burst out laughing there and then lmao… thinking of the conversation between Rani and Tayba… glad we could make you smile.
Rani: Senor doesn't sound American. I never said that! I said he doesn't sound British!
Tayba: Yes he does.
Rani: Senor sounds like Nessa.
Tayba: Nessa is AMERICAN.
Lmaooo!
Oh, and Tayba darling… Jalapeno?? Seriously?? I cracked up at that Rani LMAO… first thing I thought of was, “You fob.” lmao! Even i cracked up when she said it! Then she goes to her brother, “Rani says it's not Jalapeno, it's halapeno”
Ahhh reminds me of the time I first talked to Tayba on the phone (She was the one I lost my.. euhmm.. BWL phone virginity to… )…. LMAO! Me too! Sucha playa, that tayba.
Sigh!
We were compleeetely hopeless! We just went, “Hello” and then burst out laughing… seriously!… for about a minute, minute and a half… just laughing/giggling away… and every time we tried to say something, we just burst out laughing some more…. oh gosh, just thinking about that time is cracking me up now… *giggle* Sigh! I'll never forget that moment… Lmao! with us too! I was so nervous thoo! hahaaaa… but we heard our voices on msn before, we were singing songs to each other…
…left it for you to find Miss Red Pen!
Rani: Senor doesn't sound American.
Tayba: Yes he does.
Rani: Senor sounds like Nessa.
Tayba: Nessa is AMERICAN.
Wooooow! rotflmao I'd love to listen in on one of your convos.
Lmao! I bet you would.
…just because you already have!!! *rolls eyes*
Hey! What's up Houdini! lol How do you do?
Houdini my hind-side! I cannot seem to escape work. Just got back home to find the two stray cats that my friend rescued putting on the 'alto-soprano' meow-show for my benefit. They look really freaky when they get their hair to stand up with their tails right up.
I had some 'French Vanilla' coffee a while ago, and it has done wonders to my soul. I feel as languid and mellow as summer evenings, as full as a ripe plum. If not for these damn mosquitos that keep sucking my exquisitely caffeinated blood, this would have been a 'paradise' moment.
How are you, Firestarter? Lmao! I know what you were trying to get Rani to do to me. I remember that. Girl was born with a tomahawk in her hand and trouble on her mind. Stop giving her ideas.
Sheesh…I'm not liking ur neighborhood. When I visit, please check me into the nearest 4 star.
Mmm…French Banilla! Had some mixed w/ Hazelnut this morning. Did Ginger 'build' it for you? lmao
Firestarter…hmmm…me likey! lol Me? What was I 'trying' to have done to you? *eyes wide with innocence*
No, Ginger did not 'build' it for me. I builded it all by myself. Now, about the neighborhood- as long as it has me in it, it would be just fine.
Yeah…you and that homemade slingshot on neighborhood watch! *snort* “Who knows what evil lurks in the hearts of men?”
As my mom would say, 'Put that thing away or you'll put an eye out!” Hmmm…why was it always an eye?
The Shadow! Come near my neighborhood woman, and the slingshot would be the least of your worries…now, I do not know your mother, but could it be that she read Treasure Island one too many times and fancied an eye patch? Oh, Ginger says 'Hello.' Well, not really to you, but she was 'extra' friendly today. Lmao! Double 'Oh,' just in case you would be around the lake next weekend, perhaps you would be able to catch a glimpse of other things that 'lurk' in other places. Do not bring children. Its an R-18 sort of environment.
Aadmi aadmi ko kya de ga
Aadmi aadmi ko kya de ga
jo bhi dega wohi khuda de ga
mera qatil hi mere munsif hai
kya mere haq mein kya fasla de ga
zindagi ko kareeb se dekha
is ka chehra tumhain rula de ga
hum se poocho na dosti ka sila
dushmano ka dil hila de ga
awwwww
Dii, guess what?
I love you! *tugs on dii's hair and runs away* Neener neener neener!
trips rani while she runs. yesssss!!!
hold on skank…dont bite her yet. she's still a nice gal. for now.
Am trying to imagine Saif Ali Khan tripping a Rani-shaped hobbit… lmao lmao lmao!
Lmao! Sorry Rani, it was funny. Run Boo Run!
1st day of classes after the break
D'ooohhhhhhh!
Hah…I wonder which one of us will be faster at running.. lmao! But hopefullyyyy… I will be able to play the Oh But I'm Your Twin, Dearest card to save myself…
The Shadow! Come near my neighborhood woman, and the slingshot would be the least of your worries…now, I do not know your mother, but could it be that she read Treasure Island one too many times and fancied an eye patch? Oh, Ginger says 'Hello.' Well, not really to you, but she was 'extra' friendly today. Lmao! Double 'Oh,' just in case you would be around the lake next weekend, perhaps you would be able to catch a glimpse of other things that 'lurk' in other places. Do not bring children. Its an R-18 sort of environment.
lmao Senor & Ginger sittin in a tree…
Hey have her give you one of those overpriced mugs! I love those mugs!
Thanks for the warning…no lakes in my future! *SHIVERS*
Ness, nope, there will be no tree. Thank God. Ginger is not 'tree' material. She is just 'coffee shop polite flirt and get the hell out of there' material.
Boo, I know who will run faster- the one who fears Rani more, which, naturally would be me. Lmao! I'd probably knock you over on my way to 'far far away.'
Ness, nope, there will be no tree. Thank God. Ginger is not 'tree' material. She is just 'coffee shop polite flirt and get the hell out of there' material.
Boo, I know who will run faster- the one who fears Rani more, which, naturally would be me. Lmao! I'd probably knock you over on my way to 'far far away.'
Meeru India lo vunte eepatiki cheppu to debba tagiledi… lmao!
Ayya baboi! Meeru cheppulesukontarenti? Nenu chala pedavadini kada mari? Naku cheppulu levandi. Mari meeru oka cheppu aruvistharenti? Oka sari mathram debba tagilinchi, ventane cheppu meeku (dooramuga nundi) ichivesthanu.
ooookaaayyyy…
You wanna learn a new tongue? I could teach you…Lmao! I
t was just a bit of banter in Telugu. I was telling Boo that she is a wonderful person. Don't bother to ask her, she may not be able to interpret it as well as I've written it.
Ness, nope, there will be no tree. Thank God. Ginger is not 'tree' material. She is just 'coffee shop polite flirt and get the hell out of there' material.
Omg … *laughs* …… then realizes how wrong that sounds!
Well, at least you paint smiles on her face with your so called 'polite' flirting! That should be good enough to make you feel good about yourself
So kind of him, isn't it? Just spreading the…erm… love! *snort*
Not everything everyone does is to make them 'feel good' about themselves. Sometimes we do things to make others feel good.
Ohmyword! *rolling eyes* lmao
Am trying to imagine Saif Ali Khan tripping a Rani-shaped hobbit… lmao lmao lmao!
LMAO! I can SOOO imagiiine thaaaat!
trips rani while she runs. yesssss!!!
You saala! Just wait and see! Imma turn you into Govinda if you trip me one more time! *throws a bucket at oreo*
LMAO! Euuugh the only problem is that I'll be laughing so hard I won't be able to run no more!
Ohmyword! *rolling eyes* lmao
Ohyourword, indeed!
siiiiiiiiigh… love this feeling
Ness…
I love you alllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Awwww *hug!*
Silly headache.
Stupid heart.
Silly world.
Stupid him.
Sigh.
I can do this.. *touchwood*
'You can do it' (Rob Schneider in Waterboy, Little Nicky, 50 First Dates and The Longest Yard).
I have not seen even one of those films. I need to catch up on a lot of things.. a lot of my 'missed' life from a year ago…
OK I'm being a brook again.
How are you today?
I've had an interesting day. Showed up at the club this morning, only to be told that I hadn't reserved a court, and that no courts were available. So, I decided to go and enrich the brilliant minds that came up with the Sausage McMuffin with Egg at McDonalds. Went to the supermarket to get some Olive Oil (Ybarra!), Balsamic Vinegar (Bertolli), Polish Kielbasa and Bratwurst, came home to slave in the kitchen to make a sad version of 'Lentejas Estofadas' since I could not find Chorizo de Bilbao.
Had coffee with a friend (you know where), but no 'Ginger' around to flirt with, so it was just coffee. Tasted stale, Lmao! Went home for a nap not because I was tired but because I needed to escape from the sweltering heat that was downright oppressive if you would ask. Had dinner with a great man bravely battling cancer, and learnt more about courage in one evening than I've learnt the rest of my lifetime. Had to wait for my friends who were in the Yoga Studio, twisting themselves into pretzels, so ended up in Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf and had my fifth cup of coffee for the day.
It started raining as we were on our way home, so here I am, doing what you were doing a while ago (babble that is), listening to the rain.
How was your day?
I'm so glad I'm able to laugh freely now… LMAO! By the way, whyyy do you insist on using capital 'L's for your 'lmao's and 'lol's… (I'm trying the sad-smiley-approach here LOL…)
The rain sounds are fantastic, aren't they? Definitely sounds you can lose yourself and your thoughts to.
I like this quote from Harper Lee's book, To Kill A Mockingbird… I have a crush on Atticus Finch, by the way. I think he's one of those silently sexy types… in my head, anyway. lol.
I'm feeling it right now.
Lmao! I thought it might bring you unprecedented joy! As for 'licking' I think my middle initial should be 'L' because I've received more lickings in life than anyone else I know. That which does not kill us only makes us stronger.
Silly headache. stupid head ache
Stupid heart. greedy heart
Silly world. messed up world
Stupid him. beautiful him
Sigh. *smiles*
I can do this.. *touchwood* Yes… I can do this. Alhamdulillah.
I love you… Insha'Allah, we'll see this though, shnookums.
Silly headache. – I hope your head is better now!
Stupid heart. – As I would say in Arabic – Salamtik! – I don't know how to translate that. but… I love you. Gimme all your pains. <3 I'll borrow them for a few days – weeks.. months even.
Silly world. – This world is so freaking silly. More so these few days!
Stupid him. – <3
Sigh. *sighs with boo*
I can do this.. *touchwood* – of course you can, you're… BOO!
I think I'm going crazy.
I think I'm going crazy.
*hug* you won't go crazy, I promise.
I'll keep you sane, hun. If I fail, I won't mind going crazy with you! I'll try my best though.
I'm here, always!
I love you beyond words.
Ninja… stop. I won't be able to return your kindness…
I love you…
I want to cry.
I wish I could hold you right now…
I hate how people make it so hard for us to even see each other. When we're so close to each other. *sigh*
Habeebati, you know how much you mean to me. I'll do anything, expecting nothing in return. nothing. Because I know you'd do the same.
I want to cry too…
ookkaaayy….theres a crying session going on in here? dayemmmm….i wana cry too!!
ya rite!!
jerk!
you know you want to cry! don't lie!
I hate how people make it so hard for us to even see each other. When we're so close to each other. *sigh* Insha'Allah Saturday…
Habeebati, you know how much you mean to me. I'll do anything, expecting nothing in return. nothing.Exactly…
I want to cry too…It'll be okay insha'Allah. In the end, everything turns out good insha'Allah. I promise.
I'm sorry jaana, I called you back just about 2 mins ago but ur mom was using the phone. My sis took too long on the phone, I'm sorry!
Oreo – shut ur trap.
Ameen, thumma thumma thumma Ameen to us meeting on Sunday!
I love you!
jerk!
you know you want to cry! don't lie!
tears of happiness actually, realizing that u gals are truly a wreck!
tears of happiness actually, realizing that u gals are truly a wreck!
What a true hater! We're happy the way we are! you're just jealous!
Lmao! I thought it might bring you unprecedented joy! As for 'licking' I think my middle initial should be 'L' because I've received more lickings in life than anyone else I know. That which does not kill us only makes us stronger.
I say that too! I must have picked it up somewhere, in my subconscious… it's so true!
Ninjalicious – Thank you ji.
Ninjalicious – Thank you ji.
Lmao! I thought it might bring you unprecedented joy! As for 'licking' I think my middle initial should be 'L' because I've received more lickings in life than anyone else I know. That which does not kill us only makes us stronger.
I say that too! I must have picked it up somewhere, in my subconscious… it's so true!
thats just part of kanye west's stronger lyrics. senorGay…stop copying and pasting and making this kids believe it was yr wise words!
tears of happiness actually, realizing that u gals are truly a wreck!
……………………. more business for your mental asylum ji?
thats just part of kanye west's stronger lyrics. senorGay…stop copying and pasting and making this kids believe it was yr wise words!
I love the way you two diss each other. It's oh sooooooooooooo………amusing!
I love that quote as well!
boogedy…business is starting to pick up again. i had a terrible start this year but it looks better now. sun is out, and so too are the mentals!
I love the way you two diss each other. It's oh sooooooooooooo………amusing!
diss each other?? nooooooo!! really?? nooooooooo…
we are buddies…u know the movie dosti? well..we are not like that
u knw batman and robin? well…we are not that too.
starsky and hutch? not that too.
hmmm…well…ok..mebe not buddies after all.
diss each other?? nooooooo!! really?? nooooooooo…
we are buddies…u know the movie dosti? well..we are not like that
u knw batman and robin? well…we are not that too.
starsky and hutch? not that too.
hmmm…well…ok..mebe maybe not buddies after all.
…. if we weren't such good buddies… would I correct your 'typos'?
'thats just part of kanye west's stronger lyrics. senorGay…stop
copying and pasting and making this kids believe it was yr wise words!'
Firstly, never said they were my words. Secondly, they are not Kanye's words. They are a slight variation of the German Philosopher, Friedrich Nietszche's words. You seem to have all the time in the world to pass judgment and protect your 'reputation' as a hard-ass, why don't you Google a bit before you display your er wisdom…or the lack thereof.
'thats just part of kanye west's stronger lyrics. senorGay…stop copying and pasting and making this kids believe it was yr wise words!'
Firstly, never said they were my words. Secondly, they are not Kanye's words. They are a slight variation of the German Philosopher, Friedrich Nietszche's words. You seem to have all the time in the world to pass judgment and protect your 'reputation' as a hard-ass, why don't you Google a bit before you display your er wisdom…or the lack thereof.
ooh…somebody is in a mood for some dissing.
well, i could hv googled it but i chose not to. should i google every single thing before i put in a comment? i dnt think so. and just bcos u know a certain philosopher doesnt mean that i need to knw him too and just bcos i did not use this philosophers name doesnt mean it display the lack of wisdom on my part. if u came to that conclusion, then i guess it shows a lack of wisdom on yr part actually.
u chose the german dude i chose kanye…i chose what i knw u chose what u knw. to each its own.
'to each his own.'
Ain't that the truth Lmao! German dude is dead, and I am not far from there Lol! Why the hell was I in such a hurry to grow up as a kid, I have no idea.
dnt be surprise that the younger (ahem ahemmm) folks like myself can actually be nearer to the grave than ppl like yrself. not that im saying u r old..lets just say elder by 1 or 2 decades 🙂
if u want to become a kid back, look no further than ppl like rani and ninja…they talk silly most of the time. shesssshhh!
if u want to become a kid back, look no further than ppl like rani and ninja…they talk silly most of the time. shesssshhh!
whaaaaaaaat? we talk silly?! US?!
REALLY?!
REAAAALLLLYYY???
REALLYYYYYYYYY???? ………………..
O.K.
I so not saying anything. Lmao! Where is Rani when you need her?
whaaaaaaaat? we talk silly?! US?!
REALLY?!
REAAAALLLLYYY???
REALLYYYYYYYYY???? ………………..
O.K.
yes really. we could have renamed this place to Sillywood instead but thank god for ppl like senor and me. we balanced out the sillyness. and no, im not talking about u Ness.
yes really. we could have renamed this place to Sillywood instead but thank god for ppl like senor and me. we balanced out the sillyness. and no, im not talking about u Ness.
uhm, okay, Oreo. Keep thinking that.
Oye! Why are you dragging me into this? The girls know where I live. Lmao!
at least it will speed up their meeting with you!
I'm certainly not haunting you JUST for that!!!
*sigh* This tunnel is too long and the light keeps eluding me…..
*sigh* This tunnel is too long and the light keeps eluding me…..
I'm with you, till the end of this long annoying tunnel.
I love you, ji!
Sometimes its the light at the end of the tunnel…at other times its the tunnel at the end of the light. Whatever it is that makes you feel so, may the Almighty lift it off your shoulders forever, but if it be His Will that you experience whatever it is you are experiencing, may He grant you the patience to persevere and the courage to overcome. Chin up, Princess. The Sun still rises in the East, you are still beloved of God, and I still think you are wonderfully crazy.
yes really. we could have renamed this place to Sillywood instead but thank god for ppl like senor and me. we balanced out the sillyness. and no, im not talking about u Ness.
Wahahahaha!
Sillyness…. Silly Ness…. Sillyness…. Silly Ness…
OK I'll stop sounding like a broken tape recorder floating down a brook…
But LMAO!
ETA:
Although technically, it's 'silliness'….
*sigh* This tunnel is too long and the light keeps eluding me…..
………………….. manzil se behtar lagne lage hai yeh raaste….
………… na?
It may be dark in the tunnel, but you have so much of love with you…. You are never alone…
You are never alone…
For a Schizophrenic, those words may offer no comfort. He/she would probably say: 'Don't make me come in there and kick your ass.' However, if it was a person suffering from a Multiple Personality Disorder, it would be more like: 'Good morning. Thank you all for coming. The meeting is now in order.'
Tunnels…sigh! the worst of which is the one of our own making.
Tunnels…sigh! the worst of which is the one of our own making.
…………. who else has the authority to make tunnels around our lives, but ourselves?
My 'tunnel' business was flourishing not so long ago, but then, I remember someone saying to me, 'When you are neck deep in ****, the first thing you do is to stop digging.' I have. But, I do carry a portable tunnel- fondly known by most as the 'misery of melancholic memories' or the 'agony of re-living the past.'
My 'tunnel' business was flourishing not so long ago, but then, I remember someone saying to me, 'When you are neck deep in ****, the first thing you do is to stop digging.' I have. But, I do carry a portable tunnel- fondly known by most as the 'misery of melancholic memories' or the 'agony of re-living the past.'
…. welcome to my side of the world.
I was thinking about this yesterday… perhaps the problem is that we think the past should be left where it is – in the past… but maybe, with certain personalities (like mine, for instance… there is a reason Nessa always says I take her down Memory Lane haha…!), the problem is that we try to stuff the past in that old cupboard labelled 'Past', but it's in our present, too… it's in our existence now, too… and instead of making these memories a painful reminder of what was, why don't we use them as our strength? Just like we accept khushi and gham with open arms, can we not accept the past and the future with open arms too?
And on that thought, I have to leave you Senor saab…. Gosh, it must be so late for you! Not feeling sleepy?
G'nite anyway for you!
oooooh! Cat fight, I like!
Ameen, thumma thumma thumma Ameen to us meeting on Sunday!
I love you!
Thum thumm thumm thumm thumma Ameen! Ya Allah, please let us meet! Ameen!
I'll bring the movies insha'Allah and you lock your door and we sit and watch! You can let your littlest sister in cuz she says she loves me! I LOVE it when kids love meee! And I love you too!
dnt be surprise that the younger (ahem ahemmm) folks like myself LMAO! Dream on, duuude! can actually be nearer to the grave than ppl like yrself. not that im saying u r old..lets just say elder by 1 or 2 decades 🙂 Hahaaaaaaaaaa! Buddhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
if u want to become a kid back, look no further than ppl like rani and ninja…they talk silly most of the time. shesssshhh!
And oye! Silly talking is fun, you should try it some time na! It'll help with that asylum duty you have.
Main yahaan hoon yahaan hoon yahaan hoon yahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. eugh. I shouldn't be singing this song to a buddha. Where is your sexy son, Abhishek? Lemme talk to him, please?
*sigh* This tunnel is too long and the light keeps eluding me…..
Raastein mil jaate hai, manzile mil jaate hai… Tum se hi… Tum se hi…
You'll find your way jaana, kyun ki yeh zindagi bohot laambi hai. I love you, moonlight.
I was thinking about this yesterday… perhaps the problem is that we think the past should be left where it is – in the past… but maybe, with certain personalities (like mine, for instance… there is a reason Nessa always says I take her down Memory Lane haha…!), the problem is that we try to stuff the past in that old cupboard labelled 'Past', but it's in our present, too… it's in our existence now, too… and instead of making these memories a painful reminder of what was, why don't we use them as our strength? Just like we accept khushi and gham ghum () with open arms, can we not accept the past and the future with open arms too?
We can…
At times… when I sit and think about the past… about the way things were, about how they changed, about all the people who decided to walk out… I realize, that even though I'm still refusing to accept some things, that things are best this way. That what seemed like happiness back then, was nothing but an illusion I was living… an illusion that came to an end too late and caused the most pain…
*sigh*
At times… when I sit and think about the past… about the way things were, about how they changed, about all the people who decided to walk out… I realize, that even though I'm still refusing to accept some things, that things are best this way. That what seemed like happiness back then, was nothing but an illusion I was living… an illusion that came to an end too late and caused the most pain…
*sigh*
Suffering is a gift from Allah (SWT), in it is hidden mercy… It gives us more chances to do more good deeds. Remember that Allah (SWT) tests those whom He loves.
This is my Jihaad. I'm striving to struggle with myself right now.
This is my Jihaad. I'm striving to struggle with myself right now.
Indeed, habeebati. That's the best form of jihaad… You'll pass this test.
I love you
This is my Jihaad. I'm striving to struggle with myself right now.
Indeed, habeebati. That's the best form of jihaad… You'll pass this test.
I love you
I hate it that when the forum is getting back to normal and it's so much fun right now i'm ruining it with my depressy mood. But I can't help it. I don't want to fake happiness. I hate fake smile. I hate being fake. I hate me so much right now for every bad thing I have ever done and for every single person I have ever hurt. I need to change. I never knew Jihaad was so hard…
Habeebati, the forum is still normal. This is normal us. We can't always be happy and we can't always be sad. It hurts me so much every time you say that you hate yourself… Because it's already enough that you feel that the world hates you… I wish I could give you the love you want so you could love yourself… I wish I were able to do something… I hate this.
Jihad is hard hun, and after the hardship…. Allah's reward will be more than enough… it will be equal to the hardship…
I'm here…
Jihad is hard hun, and after the hardship…. Allah's reward will be more than enough… it will be equal to the hardship…
I'm here…
I'm sorry habeebi. I wish I didn't hurt you. I don't know who will be able to give me the love I need. No matter what I do, no matter where I go, no matter how hard I try, Ninja, the fingers just point back at me. It's me. It's my fault. I can't help but hate myself.
I'm just striving for the day I can look at myself with just a little respect.
I know you're here, and I love you for that. Thank you for being my rock…
I'm sitting here thinking of my twin, wishing she was here with me… and then I remember the words she said to me a few days ago and I realize she is sitting right next to me… She'll be there when I go to bed with tears in my eyes… She'll be there to hold my head in her lap and smooth my hair away from my face and dry my tears. She'll be there with me… along with all my other beautiful friends.
I feel like crying till there are no tears left…..
I feel like crying till there are no tears left…..
I wanted to find a pic of someone crying in someone's lap… and came across this and had to chuckle!
Tayba…. I love you. I'm here.
This is my Jihaad. I'm striving to struggle with myself right now.
Everything will work itself out in the end. I promise.
Wow! A lot of people seem to be going through a rough spot right now. May your own personal gods help you find your way…
It seems that I'm nothing in people's eyes… my feelings don't even matter…
It seems that I'm nothing in people's eyes… my feelings don't even matter…
But you're so much in my eyes. And everyone respects you so much. Your feelings matter to me and to so many other people. If certain people don't care, they will, insha'Allah. I know it's hard, but insha'Allah everything will work itself out in the end. Till then, If Allah brought you to it, He'll bring you through it. I love you, habeebati.
Rani – InshaAllah, thank you. I love you too, hun.
Ameen.
I wanted to call you today, but I got stuck at College all day today with my buddy Zee. got home at 8! We ate sooo much tho! lol!
It seems that I'm nothing in people's eyes… my feelings don't even matter…
………………… then they are missing out on something.
'…then they are missing out on something.'
My sentiments exactly.
'…then they are missing out on something.'
My sentiments exactly.
PS: It never showed when I 'Posted' it the first time, so I 'Posted' it again.
In the past three months or so, two people I am good friends with have commented to me that I am lucky/blessed to have such good friends around me, and that listening to me talk about them makes them wish they had such good friends too. When my second friend told me that, I told him that he was the second one to have made a comment like that to me, and he was teasing me saying, “You keep count?!”.. haha! But it's kind of hard to forget such comments, because on both occasions, I did not have a clue what to say in response… I still don't know what to say lol.
But I'm digressing. The point is, it just made me realise how far I've come. From that little seven year old girl with no friends and lonely lunchtimes, to picking myself up… picking my messy life up and doing something about it. I had my reasons for having no friends (and that is a long story and involves too much mystery-revealing! Ha ha ha… kidding. I don't know what I'm kidding about actually.. possibly the fact that I think I am important enough to have been able to say that which I know I am not… oh gosh, I am babbling bakwaas again…). If someone had said to me back then, that I would have love beyond words… I… well hell, I don't know what I would have done! Probably I'd have stared at them and wondered what the hell was going on lol.
I have seen – experienced – loneliness before. I have experienced being left out of things before. I don't know if it's more or less than the misery other people in the world (some of my own friends, even..) have had to go through, but hey… who's quantitising? And to hear people say that I have such wonderful friends in my life to me… for other people to actually be sad that they don't have what I have – especially since I have been in the same place as a little girl… it just… feels overwhelming. I can't explain it. I am not saying I get pleasure out of seeing other people sad or lonely (hell no!), or that I feel special only because other people have told me I am special (feeling special comes from within and all that jazz, you know… )… but… that… it… how do I put it… it just gave me another reason to realise how far I have come. It sort of gives me hope… in a funny way. It taught me that you have within you the strength and the capacity to live life the way you have dreamed. I know it will not always work out (and how… sigh.), but it's just amazing… I am here now… but who knows where life will lead me in two years' time…?
It funny because two years ago (well, nearly two years ago), I was saying how I don't know where I will be in two years' time… maybe I will change my mind and believe that SoulMates do exist… who knows… (ha ha ha….! Sigh!) the point is, the opinions we have now, the thoughts we have now, the life we lead now… may completely change in time. It's important to remember that, I think. Someone I deeply love(d), always used to ask me, whenever I expressed an opinion to him, “Is that so? Do you really think so?” …. and I would always reply, “I don't know ji… this is just me – now… my opinions, my thoughts, my feelings – now.. at this point in time… who knows what will happen in the future…” .. and funnily enough, I also always used to say to him, “I don't know what the future holds and I don't care what the future holds – I love you now and I love you so much…” Sigh. Madness. Time. It changes a lot of things.
Groan..
CONFESSION………………………???????????????????????
Lately, I have been feeling weaker than ever. Weak… in every way I was considered “strong” in. I feel that the fact that everything around me is falling apart, has made me get caught in between it all… which was the one thing I tried to avoid.
I feel so weak as a friend… I feel so weak as a daughter… I feel so weak as a person… and most importantly, I feel even weaker as a Muslim… And of course… that is my main problem right now…
I need to renew my Imaan…
drifting ninja,
well, at least u are aware that u are drifting. that itself is a strong indication that it is within you to stop the drift and get right back in track 😉
Lately, I have been feeling weaker than ever. Weak… in every way I was considered “strong” in. I feel that the fact that everything around me is falling apart, has made me get caught in between it all… which was the one thing I tried to avoid.
I feel so weak as a friend… I feel so weak as a daughter… I feel so weak as a person… and most importantly, I feel even weaker as a Muslim… And of course… that is my main problem right now…
I need to renew my Imaan…
Sweetheart, read that beautiful email you sent me that time I felt weak in my Imaan. It helped me, InshaAllah it'll help you too. I wish I could advise you more on how to strengthen your imaan, but I feel like I am drifting too . But we realise this, and InshaAllah Allah will never let us waver away from Him. Ameen. We can always help each other, jaan. . I love you for the sake of Allah…..
You are not a weak friend…. I see how much you do. I appreciate how much you do. I love you for everything you do. You have my heart, so look inside it, you'll see what I think of you. You help me strengthen myself, never ceasing to amaze me. How can my source of strength ever be weak? You have my duas with you, you have Rani's duas, you have duas of your friends. You will surely be successful in everything you do, InshaAllah. Ameen.
Hun, sometimes things need to fall so we can get a chance to start again. I'll help you pick up the pieces for as long as I can, InshaAllah. I have seen all that you do, you are not a weak daughter. In fact, I need to learn from you. You make me want to be better. I've always said this, I'll say it again….
When I get married and have a child, I want her to be exactly like you. InshaAllah, ameen!!! Thumma Ameen x 1090248394802932094
I love you, my ninja star
Lately, I have been feeling weaker than ever. Weak… in every way I was considered “strong” in. I feel that the fact that everything around me is falling apart, has made me get caught in between it all… which was the one thing I tried to avoid.
I feel so weak as a friend… I feel so weak as a daughter… I feel so weak as a person… and most importantly, I feel even weaker as a Muslim… And of course… that is my main problem right now…
I need to renew my Imaan…
Dearest jaan, first of all I want to say that I totally want to steal Tayaba's idea ……….. if I ever get a daughter, I want her to be exactly like you too! You know why? The honor and the way you live up to your parents, is golden. And your ways, attittudes, personality – I find them to be nothing but P-u-r-e. Your faith in God is way beyond what one can be able to describe. It is not too late to regain your territory. Step those hesitant feet upon what you feel you should be reclaiming.
Now, I dont know whats going on between you and your friends for you to feel like a weak friend … but surely, in my eyes, I truely believe anyone should be lucky to have a friend like you! Remember to express your opinions and feelings to your friends, so that misunderstanding won't be an obstacle. And as a daughter? You feel weak? I feel faint when you say such things … I fear that it is only through the skewed perception of yours .. that you are seeing it this way. I find it hard to believe that a daughter like you would do/think anything to let her parents down! I dont want you to be too hard on yourself where matters are concerned.
It can feel that its very hard to bring yourself together and can take many sleepless nights and daydream days … to finally feel secure … just to realize this period of security is another temporary phase…. So, knowing this…. I want you to fight through these weak points and put trust in yourself and faith in your heart that you can do it, you can do whatever you like, Realization and passion will get you to the highest peak!
I love you and Im here for you *hug*
Lately, I have been feeling weaker than ever. Weak… in every way I was considered “strong” in. I feel that the fact that everything around me is falling apart, has made me get caught in between it all… which was the one thing I tried to avoid.
I feel so weak as a friend… I feel so weak as a daughter… I feel so weak as a person… and most importantly, I feel even weaker as a Muslim… And of course… that is my main problem right now…
I need to renew my Imaan…
Lately, I have been feeling weaker than ever. Weak… in every way I was considered “strong” in. I feel that the fact that everything around me is falling apart, has made me get caught in between it all… which was the one thing I tried to avoid.
I feel so weak as a friend… I feel so weak as a daughter… I feel so weak as a person… and most importantly, I feel even weaker as a Muslim… And of course… that is my main problem right now…
I need to renew my Imaan…
… but if our imaan prevails, we'll always do our very best. We'll be the strongest of Muslims and we'll survive the Greatest Test. Insha'Allah. Ameen – Thumma Ameen.
You're in my du'as, I love you.
Ninja .. hun, just wanted to know how you're feeling
Hope you've been feeling better
love you lots — sending a hugee hug for you—-
drifting ninja,
well, at least u are aware that u are drifting. that itself is a strong indication that it is within you to stop the drift and get right back in track 😉
Thank you. InshaAllah, I'm hoping that it doesn't take me too long to get back in track.
Sweetheart, read that beautiful email you sent me that time I felt weak in my Imaan. It helped me, InshaAllah it'll help you too. I wish I could advise you more on how to strengthen your imaan, but I feel like I am drifting too . But we realise this, and InshaAllah Allah will never let us waver away from Him. Ameen. We can always help each other, jaan. . I love you for the sake of Allah…..
You are not a weak friend…. I see how much you do. I appreciate how much you do. I love you for everything you do. You have my heart, so look inside it, you'll see what I think of you. You help me strengthen myself, never ceasing to amaze me. How can my source of strength ever be weak? You have my duas with you, you have Rani's duas, you have duas of your friends. You will surely be successful in everything you do, InshaAllah. Ameen.
Hun, sometimes things need to fall so we can get a chance to start again. I'll help you pick up the pieces for as long as I can, InshaAllah. I have seen all that you do, you are not a weak daughter. In fact, I need to learn from you. You make me want to be better. I've always said this, I'll say it again….
When I get married and have a child, I want her to be exactly like you. InshaAllah, ameen!!! Thumma Ameen x 1090248394802932094
I love you, my ninja star
I read it jaan… and I suck at taking my own advice. But it did make me feel a little better. Ameen to your duas my dear princess, Thumma Ameen.
You have no idea how much it helped to know that I'm not a bad friend to you… You do so much for everyone around you… I would be so blind if I didn't see that and tried my best to repay you… What I do for you is nothing… you're just so awesome, that you see it as something big.
JazakaAllah so much… I know we'll be able to help each other through this… just like we've always done.
I love you so much.
Dearest jaan, first of all I want to say that I totally want to steal Tayaba's idea ……….. if I ever get a daughter, I want her to be exactly like you too! You know why? The honor and the way you live up to your parents, is golden. And your ways, attittudes, personality – I find them to be nothing but P-u-r-e. Your faith in God is way beyond what one can be able to describe. It is not too late to regain your territory. Step those hesitant feet upon what you feel you should be reclaiming.
Now, I dont know whats going on between you and your friends for you to feel like a weak friend … but surely, in my eyes, I truely believe anyone should be lucky to have a friend like you! Remember to express your opinions and feelings to your friends, so that misunderstanding won't be an obstacle. And as a daughter? You feel weak? I feel faint when you say such things … I fear that it is only through the skewed perception of yours .. that you are seeing it this way. I find it hard to believe that a daughter like you would do/think anything to let her parents down! I dont want you to be too hard on yourself where matters are concerned.
It can feel that its very hard to bring yourself together and can take many sleepless nights and daydream days … to finally feel secure … just to realize this period of security is another temporary phase…. So, knowing this…. I want you to fight through these weak points and put trust in yourself and faith in your heart that you can do it, you can do whatever you like, Realization and passion will get you to the highest peak!
I love you and Im here for you *hug*
Kavita…. I told you how much your words helped. Thank you so much.
I love you too, and I'm here too. *hugs back*
Beautiful Boo –
… but if our imaan prevails, we'll always do our very best. We'll be the strongest of Muslims and we'll survive the Greatest Test. Insha'Allah. Ameen – Thumma Ameen.
You're in my du'as, I love you.
Thumma Thumma Ameen
I love you beyond words, habeebati.
I miss you…
Ninjaaaa daaarliiing, haylie and I wanted to come over yesterday. Iono why she couldn't, but Aamir and his family came over yesterday and spent the night and left just a while ago, so yeah.
ooooh! lol! When we were going to Sunday school yday, my mom was all like in the car, “I miss Ninja, we haven't seen her for so long! Why don't you invite her over? She doesn't have school tomorrow, na? (meaning today)” And I'm all like “I wish she would come!”
I had soooo much fun with Aamir and Aaliyaah (his lil sis – she'll be turning 1 in june insha'Allah we're gonna partaaay! Insha'Allah!) tho! On Saturday we went fruit picking (Our neighbors are from the philippines, they're super nice. they don't like the fruit so they get happy when we go to pick them! =D) and then afterwards I had to wash the car while everyone enjoyed the fruit we picked! but anyhow, I was super sick my stupid throat was killing me and then I got the cough today and stupid runny nose! but anyhow, we went to sun valley mall this morning, it's super nice! lol! and then we had a bar-b-q and then afterwards they had to head home cuz aamir's daddy had to go to work.
But Alhamdulillah, I wish you coulda came! IT woulda been so much fun!
I wish I wasn't so shallow…
I wish I could do more for my friends…
I wish I didn't feel like this…
I wish I could care more…
I wish I… I just wish.
Most Wonderful Rani, if your heart shared a corner in Starbucks over coffee with mine, my heart would declare with each beat that what you've said is absolutely not true. Contrary to what you find yourself 'wishing,' truth is, you've been my 'wish' come true. Feel better, little one, you are very much loved.
I wish I wasn't so shallow…
I wish I could do more for my friends…
I wish I didn't feel like this…
I wish I could care more…
I wish I… I just wish.
You do more than you know for your friends… It's enough that you brighten our lives with your presence. Wishing that you could care more proves that you do care.. at least enough… & you're not shallow.
I love you.
I'm sorry I wasn't there to help make you feel better.
Rani – if you think you need to be better, then why don't you?
I wish I wasn't so shallow…
I wish I could do more for my friends…
I wish I didn't feel like this…
I wish I could care more…
I wish I… I just wish.
I wholeheartedly agree with Ninjitsu! What more could you possibly do??? You do so much already! And for some of us *clears throat noisily* there's much work to be done! Taking on the weight of one's friends is quite an undertaking. Pace urself. Oh and it isn't a crime to make them/us “Walk it off!” as my old softball coach used to say!
I'm always thinking of you kid!
Ouch. It's easy to say I want to change, but it's hard to actually do. If it makes you feel any better, I'm trying.
Ouch. It's easy to say I want to change, but it's hard to actually do. If it makes you feel any better, I'm trying.
. I know just how much you try. And as Nessa's siggy says… “desire is the starting point…” – And you have that.
I love you…
Buddha, Ninja, Nessa – Thank you…
You guys are right. I can only do so much for my friends, and I do what I can. If they don't appreciate it, then it's not my fault. I'm sick and tired of blaming myself for everything. I'm sick and tired of it. I can't take it anymore. I feel like I'm always saying sorry for things that are out of my control!
I'm sick of being ignored. All of my friends have ignored me at one point in time when I opened up to them. If I had something to say, they just brush it off, ignore it, or reply to it hekka weirdly like “oh.” I mean what the heck? If my own friends can't help me get over my stupidity, then who can? All of them have ignored me, except one, and maybe that's why I call her my only hope? And then there is another “pending” one…
I know I have flaws, I know I make mistakes, but for how long, how long, will I keep blaming myself? I'm the only one who ever says it's my fault wholeheartedly. I'm the only one ready to apologize. I'm the only one willing to forgive. I'm the only who tries to be a better friend. I'm the only one who cares enough to talk about it. I'm the only one who wants things the way they were before everything got messed up. I'm the only one all alone.
(Well, I'm not the only one, as in only one, but I'm the only one out of the people I'm thinking about in my head.)
What is wrong with me? I sit here blaming myself for everything that goes wrong and everyone else is sitting there agreeing! Why is everythign my fault? How is everything my fault? It can't be! I try and I try and I try, why don't things get better? Because you can't play tug-of-war with one side pulling the rope, I need someone else to pull on the other end to even things out! No matter how “perfect” I get, things won't get better unless the other side shapes up.
I'm sick and tired of being the punching bag or the secret box or the stress reliever. I'm sick and tired of being the ugly duckling.
My friend… she calls me every time she needs to talk, I listen to her, I advise her, I help her, and that's it. She asks me how I am, I'll say I'm not okay, and she says “oh.” That's it. What thaaa?
I have another friend who comes to me and pours all her secrets into me as if I'm some box and gets the ease she needs from me and returns. Why can't she listen to some of my secrets? Why is it that every time I have something to say to her she runs the other way?
And another friend, who comes to me when she's in a rage, let's it all out on me and then leaves! No sorry, no nothing! Just a lil “thanks. I feel better now” and a giggle and then poof – gone.
Why is it that with all these people I can sit and listen to them for hours and adivise them for hours and care for them for hours and only focus on them for hours and when I ask for just a few minutes in return, suddenly they have some place to go? Or suddenly they have nothing to say but “oh.” (For Allah's sake! OH?!?)
I'm not saying I hate doing this, I love helping my friends, I love to be there for them when they need me, I really do love it. Don't get me wrong, nothing makes me feel better than knowing I've helped ease someone's pain somehow. But what kind of friendship? I don't feel like I'm their friend, I feel like a counselor or a therapist or something. All I'm asking for is a friendship, where I give some and take some. Because it hurts when I'm the only one giving.
And I'm
. I know just how much you try. And as Nessa's siggy says… “desire is the starting point…” – And you have that.
I love you…
I love you too, habeebi. And I know you know how much I try, because you see me trying. You're prolly sick of me talking nonsens to you all the time! ! And I love you for caring so much. Jazakallahu Khayran.
I love you too, habeebi. And I know you know how much I try, because you see me trying. You're prolly sick of me talking nonsens to you all the time! ! And I love you for caring so much. Jazakallahu Khayran.
I'm not sick of anything… you know that. And I'm upset that you said such a thing.
And I hope I wasn't one of the people who ignored you… sorry if I was.
waiyyakumul jazaa.
I'm sorry for hurting you, habeebi. It wasn't my intention. I felt that you might have been getting sick of it, but since ur not, Alhamdulillah.
And it's okay.
I ignored you?
No, it's not okay.
hunn, you didn't do it intentionally, na? It happens. I love you.
Rani…
I didn't mean to hurt you jaan… but what I was trying to show you was, the feeling needs to come from within you. No one else can find your peace for you… and unless you yourself walk through that path, the little 'I Wish' stones will forever remain stuck in your shoes. If you wish for so many things – rightly, fairly, justifiedly.. or not.. who am I to judge.. – then you need to go through it yourself, to realise…
Am I making sense?
I don't know what you will realise. Maybe you are a perfect person already. Maybe there are some things you want to change. There is nothing wrong with either… what is more important, is that the voice is from within you. If you can't be happy with yourself, if you can't be at peace with who you are – then what is the point of it all? Is it justice to yourself? Is it justice to your God? Is it justice to your family, friends, loved ones?
I want you to be happy, jaan… if it means 'changing' then so be it… it not, then so be it too… but the energy has to come from within you.
I don't know.. these are just my thoughts… I love you. You don't have to agree.
boo, i know hunn. The energy does come from me. I want to change for the better. But in the meantime, I just wanted to complain, is all.
Change doesn't happen overnight…
I love you too, shnookumz.
I wish I wasn't so shallow…
I wish I could do more for my friends…
I wish I didn't feel like this…
I wish I could care more…
I wish I… I just wish.
Rani, you are a wonderful friend! And in this forum, all of your great qualities are never concealed *hug*
You guys are right. I can only do so much for my friends, and I do what I can. If they don't appreciate it, then it's not my fault. I'm sick and tired of blaming myself for everything. I'm sick and tired of it. I can't take it anymore. I feel like I'm always saying sorry for things that are out of my control! If the situation is out of your control, the only thing you can do is to say sorry for the situation itself. And in addition to that, give support to the person in the situation. But if its not in your control hun (which im assuming most of your friends' problems are not in your control), you should never blame yourself. You stand there with that friend and you support them, and give them advice, etc etc … why must you blame yourself for making them feel better ?! They should feel blessed to have someone like you!
I'm sick of being ignored. All of my friends have ignored me at one point in time when I opened up to them. If I had something to say, they just brush it off, ignore it, or reply to it hekka weirdly like “oh.” I mean what the heck? You feel sick of being 'ignored' because friendship is a relationship of reciprocity, where there is some mutual thing going on … where both people give and accept. The important thing here is to really be true to yourself and evaluate your prosocial behavior ; doesnt helping out serve some function to you? [in addition to your friends]. Im sure it makes you feel like a good person… you know helping out others. Another important thing – express your feeling! Tell your friends exactly what you feel and explain to them why you feel shuned! Misunderstandings and hiding significant feelings will get you no where.
I know I have flaws, I know I make mistakes, but for how long, how long, will I keep blaming myself? I'm the only one who ever says it's my fault wholeheartedly. I'm the only one ready to apologize. I'm the only one willing to forgive. I'm the only who tries to be a better friend. I'm the only one who cares enough to talk about it. I'm the only one who wants things the way they were before everything got messed up. I'm the only one all alone. Rani, I have to say…. with this desire that you have … it shows how much of a wonderful, dedicated, genuine, true friend you are and willing to be. Your friends ought to be blessed that they have a golden friend like you. You should NOT be so hard on yourself, especially when you know that you are trying your hardest and your best. Dont strike yourself so hard. Give yourself compliments for trying so hard.
What is wrong with me? I sit here blaming myself for everything that goes wrong and everyone else is sitting there agreeing! Why is everythign my fault? How is everything my fault? It can't be! I try and I try and I try, why don't things get better? Because you can't play tug-of-war with one side pulling the rope, I need someone else to pull on the other end to even things out! No matter how “perfect” I get, things won't get better unless the other side shapes up. Exactly! Reciprocity! Rani, you can NOT lift all of the heavy weight of a friendship on your back ALONE. You just CANT. Furthermore – if your friends have problems that are out of your control – you should NEVER blame yourself! What you're doing … is the correct thing to do – I m ean… you're helping them out – giving them psychologial support. But never blame yourself hun… you just can't!
I'm sick and tired of being the punching bag or the secret box or the stress reliever. I'm sick and tired of being the ugly duckling. If your friends run to you, you definiitely are serving them a purpose, wh
http://youtube.com/watch?v=qd7_ndP2N7E
http://youtube.com/watch?v=VnjMp_5qXPs&feature=related
Sigh…
Donkey tum samjhogi… couldn't stop thinking about these parts all throughout! Really, so – sigh.
I haven't been floating like this in ages.
Just wanted to let it out…
And this one…
Rani jaan… I've spoken to you about this over the phone and on MSN too… and you know the way I feel, at least I hope you do. Feelings are never in our control, so no, you shouldn't blame yourself. Things will work themselves out, it's the cycle of life… this too will pass & InshaAllah you'll come out of it stronger and wiser. Ameen thumma ameen. I love you .
http://youtube.com/watch?v=qd7_ndP2N7E
http://youtube.com/watch?v=VnjMp_5qXPs&feature=related
Sigh…
Donkey tum samjhogi… couldn't stop thinking about these parts all throughout! Really, so – sigh.
I haven't been floating like this in ages.
Just wanted to let it out…
Main Samaj thi hoon Shrek…. the beginning of it… it is so beautiful…. Indeed, as Aamir says in that youtube video… 'Ab tumhe darr lagtha hai….'
Siiiiiigh! I love you Shrekoobooness <3 (I make up a new one each time lmao) .
I wish I could stop feeling.
If I had one wish… for this duniya… I would wish to love selflessly.
The things… the places… the people that I used to find comfort in are now the cause of my discomfort. And I don't know how to change it…
I wish I could stop feeling.
If I had one wish… for this duniya… I would wish to love selflessly.
Ameen… Thumma Ameen.
Never wish to stop feeling… you're human. As long as your heart is alive… you'll always feel. Come on ji… you're at least allowed to feel?
I love you
The things… the places… the people that I used to find comfort in are now the cause of my discomfort. And I don't know how to change it…
It'll change… Be patient with yourself… It won't stay this way.
Believe me, I've gone through the same feelings. Believe in yourself…. and you'll realise that if you don't want it to stay that way… you'll subconsciously get over it… sooner or later. Don't worry about anyone else, don't worry about what they want/need from you. This period… is yours. Love yourself but at the same time… compete with it. Our nafs isn't as strong as we make it… we just need to realise that.
And I'm here… as long as Allah lets me.
I don't have words to describe to you what I felt when I read that. The tears welled up in my eyes and the minute I told you that on MSN, they rolled down, as if they were happily looking for the freedom they wanted, as if they were tired of being caged inside my eyes. And then you said *wipes Rani's tears* and I smiled through the tears and wiped them, thinking you were doing it.
I love you.
The things… the places… the people that I used to find comfort in are now the cause of my discomfort. And I don't know how to change it…
Maybe if you avoid them for now[temporary], that discomfort won't be present[?]
.. but then another kind of discomfort may emerge.
Rani, if you feel like there has to be change, and if you have the power to change stuff, then try to change stuff … but dont blame yourself when things dont work out … none of us know the absolute future of our actions.
sigh
I was once told that some men tend to define their lives by the work of their hands. It is not entirely true about my life, but it certainly would be a lie if I were to say it entirely was not. I have been traveling often lately, not by choice, but by official decree. I remember times when I would barge into the Director's Office and beg to be assigned travel schedules. I would cajole, coax and coerce colleagues into giving up their travel schedules so they could 'spend more time with their children,' not because I cared for their children but because I missed the thrill of flying every week. There was a time I could close my eyes and remember the floor plan of major airports in South East Asia. I took pride in the fact that people recognized me in certain cafes in several countries and remembered my name because I had one too many coffees there.
Now, things have changed. I have become reluctant to travel. It is I who needs cajoling, coaxing and coercing now, since, the prospect of incessant travel has become more of a burden than a boon. There are many reasons why I feel so, but none more beautiful and becoming than Ninjitsu, Rani and Tayba. I know now why I dislike traveling often- it takes me away from computers and internet…it takes me away from you. As much as you are forever awake in my heart, not being able to communicate is a thorn in my flesh I cannot seem to bear.
I missed you so much.
Aww… let it all out, let it all out.
.
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I feeeeeeeel happppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy …. why arent the smiley faces working????!!?!?!! Gosh!
Rides for no reason.. are so much fun! hehe
I like smiling. Especially when I'm on the street. It's nice to smile at strangers and receive smiles back.
=)
Oh, and I miss Khushi…
Yup..can be a good feeling … but there are many people who won't smile back at you… they'd just give a cold look … or a 'im in a rush, no time for smiles' look ; I wish everyone can be nice to everyone … but thats impossible … where Earth is concerned .. for sure
🙂 No matter if people don't smile back… the fun is in giving… especially when you can't hold the smiling in yourself for long and you're longing to just splash the whole world around you with the drops of your smiles…
I love that feeling… and trust me, I get it SO often when I'm out on the streets and I'm thinking about BWL and our madness… sigh! I can't help but beam out to strangers and and and… Ahhh BWL BWL BWL….
Meri sanson mein from Aur pyaar ho gaya is such a beautiful song. I love Alka Yagnik's voice in this song… I just… it… it's so… so… ah well, I am biased. Oh, the feelings this song teases out of me!
Well atleast your giving smiles is self serving.
hehe if only those street walkers knew where those smiles were coming from
well, the important thing is that you're soaking into the experience!! and thats the way to go hm?
I've been given this 'school boy' impish grin at birth, and even when I am dead-serious, I cannot seem to make people believe that I am not smiling/smirking. I was always in trouble at funerals: 'Sam, be polite and have some compassion for crying out loud…stop smiling!' 'Mother, I am not smiling. This is me serious. You would know when I am smiling because I would show my teeth.'
Things haven't changed much. Often, my boss would ask me, 'Mr. Jalapeno, is something amusing you?' 'No, Ma'am, I am listening.' 'No, I saw you smiling a moment ago, would you care to share whatever it is that made you smile so we could all join in?'
Sheesh! I swear I'm going to invest in one of those 'Silence Of The Lambs' masks. But, on a separate note, Boo, its wonderful that you so generously share your smiles. I will be having breakfast with a few colleagues in Shangri La Makati tomorrow at 7am before Church. Throw me a smile if you happen to be there.
So …. SAM *grins* … you have a sorta natural 'im smiling' kinda look? How interesting ^_^
So … even when you're sad… you appear to be ..happy? Whoa there Sammy
Hey little one.
Thanks for being a part of my 'force field'.
It's been accomplished!
Hey big one! lmao. vutt thaaaa very bad opposite sounding thingamajigger!
Thanks isn't necessary, I only did what a friend would do. I'm glad I could be a part of that shield…
Alhamdulillah!
I LOVE YOU!
Hey big one! lmao.
I LOVE YOU!
Oye kiddo, that sounds all kinds of bad! rotflmao
I feel empty.
Nessa! lmao! shhhhhhhhh!
BTW, I called back after ju called, did u get my message?
Tayba – I'm sorry hunn… I love you.
I know that feeling well.
Nessa! lmao! shhhhhhhhh!
BTW, I called back after ju called, did u get my message?
Yeah!!! I called a minimum of 4 times, but kept getting the vm. Figured ur phone hated me !!! rotflmao
I'm done with you…kidding kiddo! I'll drop you an email. We can synchronize another clandestine meeting! Bwahahaha!
I'm done with you…kidding kiddo! I'll drop you an email. We can synchronize another clandestine meeting! Bwahahaha!
I'm so sorry! My phone is sooo stuuupid! Grrrrrrrrrrr! And it's so annoying when I don't get to it and someone else does and then I wonder who called and when they put it down I check the caller ID and if it says “Unknown number” or “private number” I get so frustrated cuz I don't know who it is! LMAO!
If you want, you can call me now, if not, then you can try tomorrow same time you tried today? and I'll go check the email in a sec.
AND U BETTER BE KIDDING! *grumbles*
oh vait you said you WILL drop me email. lmao. mi maaaalo!
And i think its best u call tomorrow cuz sis is on phone! lmao!
i'm such a slow idiot!
you're MALA…cause u're a girl…I think! But you're not really mala!
I shall leave the rest for ur happy buddha (a chinese take-out on the corner*snicker*) to refute!
It was great talking with you today! Thanks muches! Love you infinity!
Noooooooooooo it's mi malo! Cuz i'm saying my bad, not that i AM bad… LMAO! OHMY! I'm correcting YOUR spanish?!!??! I have hit insanity!
My happy buddah is nowhere to be seen! so i win!
It was great talking to you too! I love you infinity times two! But where are you going? That sounds like parting words! lol. STAY! or better yet, come on msn!
Noooooooooooo it's mi malo! Cuz i'm saying my bad, not that i AM bad… LMAO! OHMY! I'm correcting YOUR spanish?!!??! I have hit insanity! Yes you have cuz it's STILL INCORRECTO! rotflmao
My happy buddah is nowhere to be seen! so i win! He's like the wind. Blows in, blows out, tumbles over things! lol He'll be in to refute your claim in no time!
It was great talking to you too! I love you infinity times two! But where are you going? That sounds like parting words! lol. STAY! or better yet, come on msn! Hmmm…MSN sounds pretty good. hahaha
It's perfectly fiiine! I'm giving it a lil rani twist.
And naaa, he'll prolyl come and give us a totally random story and blow out again. lolll he can't disagree with me…
MSN does sound good, but I don't see you. Where are youuuu??!!?
You are right, Rani, I could never disagree with you. As for Ness and her wisdomous words about me blowing in and out and tumbling over things…woman er BIG woman, you'd better quit talking smack or you'd be the one tumbling over things…Lmao! Miss you Nessa Ji! Hope you are doing well.
You are right, Rani, I could never disagree with you. lmao Such a kiss up!
As for Ness and her wisdomous words about me blowing in and out and tumbling over things…woman er BIG woman Everyone is big standing next to 99…except for mayhaps Ninjitsu! lmao
you'd better quit talking smack or you'd be the one tumbling over things…Lmao! Yahooooo back to the threats! *siiigh* U're so eeeeeasy ji!
Miss you Nessa Ji! I miss you too Senor Samwich Ji!
Buttwipe, good buddah.
If one day you feel like crying, call me.
I don't promise you that I will make you laugh, but I can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away, don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stay, but I can run with you.
If one day you don't want to listen to anybody, call me.
I promise to be very quiet.
But if one day you call and there is no answer, come fast to see me, perhaps I need you.
If one day you feel like crying, call me.
I don't promise you that I will make you laugh, but I can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away, don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stay, but I can run with you.
If one day you don't want to listen to anybody, call me.
I promise to be very quiet.
But if one day you call and there is no answer, come fast to see me, perhaps I need you.
*hug* I love you. .
If one day you feel like crying, call me.
I don't promise you that I will make you laugh, but I can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away, don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stay, but I can run with you.
If one day you don't want to listen to anybody, call me.
I promise to be very quiet.
But if one day you call and there is no answer, come fast to see me, perhaps I need you.
How touching …
I wanna have chocolate… I can have chocolate… But, I shouldn't have chocolate… Hmm
And I'm trying to get used to this… It's all so different.
ASMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! I love it when you do things I want you to do without me knowing LMAO! Sorry I couldn't speak when u called, omg manic.
Sigh…. Aisha's gone. Another farewell…. I miss her already. I wanna cry…
YES appreciate, I only did it for you. So, now you can stop harrasing me lol x.
I dunno how to change my picture thing. It makes me look like a dull grey man.
LOL what are you talking about?! I didn't harass you this time . Yeah it's gonna take ages explaining to you, so I'll just do it for you when I come to your house next week InshaAllah.
I
miss
Aisha.
LOL, do you know I called you Aish on the phone?! lmao!!!
Did you? loool, didn't clock! Yeah come over sooooooonish ma luv x.
lol yeah I did InshaAllah sometime this week? Results are out this week I wanna watch ur bday video 4m last year so keep it ready! lol. Aish called… she can meet me one more time before she leaves for America. YAY!
oh sick…. Yeah come inshAllah, Im free middle of the weekish… n yeah I found da video, everythingz set.. I shall cook ya a meal n we can dress up Whey! Photoshoot+Pandoos for next week andd Picnic afta? ( bare skint ) Hay fever kinda calm alhamdulilah!!!!!! x – This is our new chating place Lol, now I remember this place, you dont have to get excited tho 😛 x
Hey 99, I got ur texts & missed calls! Sorry for my absence…I haven't orgotten you!
I LOVE YOU!!!!! And congrats on graduating…u're the most, kid!
Rani, you graduated? Congrats!!!
I feel relaxed … listening to 'Doli Taro Dol' with Salman and Aishwariya
oh sick…. Yeah come inshAllah, Im free middle of the weekish… n yeah I found da video, everythingz set.. I shall cook ya a meal n we can dress up Whey! Photoshoot+Pandoos for next week andd Picnic afta? ( bare skint ) Hay fever kinda calm alhamdulilah!!!!!! x – This is our new chating place Lol, now I remember this place, you dont have to get excited tho 😛 x
Sounds great babe . We'll make plans soon InshaAllah.
I feel so alone.
I just got the message…
CHEERS lady! I'm so very proud of you. You worked so hard and you truly deserve it!
Take this and this! lmao
I love you! (And will call you in 10 mins!) lol
I feel so alone.
you don't even know how much I feel you, hun…
I'm here for now, na? email me if I'm not around…
I love you & miss you.
you too, forum family…
Ninja darling… hope you're well… nice to 'see' you here… was feeling so quiet just now and saw your post and I smiled on the inside. 🙂
Ninja… I can't believe I wasn't around when you were here…
I miss Ninja so much. I was talking to Haylie today about Ninja and I started to tear because she was so far away from me… I don't remember feeling this helpless. I was always able to reach her. We were always a phone call away from each other when we couldn't reach each other on MSN or if email was taking too long. The day before she left, I told her that it still wasn't hitting me that I wouldn't be able to see her for a whole summer and that it would hit me when I go to call her and realize she's not home… She's miles and miles away from me and I need a card to call her, I need to dial millions of numbers to reach her and I'm not even able to reach her cuz of the crappy connection and because her thing isn't connected…
I talked to her once after she got there. I didn't get a chance to tell you guys because I was barely online. But she was good alhamdulillah and giggling and laughing and going crajee with me like usual… Alhamdulillah.
*siiigh*
I was always able to get to her on the phone… We talked almost every day… When she would write a post in the let ur feelings out thread, I would call as soon as I could and talk to her about it, but now… *siiigh*
I miss her.
I just got the message…
CHEERS lady! I'm so very proud of you. You worked so hard and you truly deserve it!
Take this and this! lmao
I love you! (And will call you in 10 mins!) lol
Nesssssssss!! Thank youuu!!!!!!! Lmao I loveee the 'You would be squished' piccy!! Awwww! *squishes Nessa* . Thank you for this… It feels great to know it's over and that it ended well Alhumdulillah! I love you too!
I feel so alone.
you don't even know how much I feel you, hun…
I'm here for now, na? email me if I'm not around…
I love you & miss you.
you too, forum family…
You're never not here jaana…
Remember…. ?? ?????? ?? ??????
???? ??? ??????? ???????
'Were the world to conceal you from my sight, you would but remain in my mind….'
listen to it when you're down jaan. I love and miss you so much.
Ninja… I can't believe I wasn't around when you were here…
I miss Ninja so much. I was talking to Haylie today about Ninja and I started to tear because she was so far away from me… I don't remember feeling this helpless. I was always able to reach her. We were always a phone call away from each other when we couldn't reach each other on MSN or if email was taking too long. The day before she left, I told her that it still wasn't hitting me that I wouldn't be able to see her for a whole summer and that it would hit me when I go to call her and realize she's not home… She's miles and miles away from me and I need a card to call her, I need to dial millions of numbers to reach her and I'm not even able to reach her cuz of the crappy connection and because her thing isn't connected…
I talked to her once after she got there. I didn't get a chance to tell you guys because I was barely online. But she was good alhamdulillah and giggling and laughing and going crajee with me like usual… Alhamdulillah.
*siiigh*
I was always able to get to her on the phone… We talked almost every day… When she would write a post in the let ur feelings out thread, I would call as soon as I could and talk to her about it, but now… *siiigh*
I miss her.
I miss her too.
I love you, Rani.
I know how you feel, kind of. I know for you it was easier to be in touch with Ninja so now that it's hard to be in touch, it must feel beyond horrible. Sigh.
I know… I used to talk to her every night on MSN for so long and sometimes on the phone too. Now it's so hard to get in touch with her and it sucks… there's no phone line or much internet access. She's closer yet she's gone further. Sigh.
I miss her a lot too… but she has our duas na jaana and she lives in our hearts always. I love you jaana, I won't say feel better because I know missing someone doesn't go until they are back in our lives. So here's duaing that she comes back very very soon. . AMEEN! THUMMA AMEEN!
**huggssss**
Thumma Ameen…
I was complaining to my mom yesterday about how I missed Ninja and wished I could talk to her and she goes “me too” every time and I'm like grrrrrr on the inside “you don't understand, if YOU miss her and want to talk to her, then imagine ME!” lol. I didn't say it to her, but I felt it so badly… This reminds me of something Rahim Khan said in the Kite Runner: “…it always hurts more to have and lose than to not have in the first place.”
I had another dream about her last night. I already told you about the one the night before, how Haylie and I were talking to her – I don't remember if it was face to face or on the phone. In the one last night, she called me… we were talking and talking…
May Allah (SWT) be with her and ease her of any pain, insha'Allah. Ameen – Thumma Ameen.
F****** retards!!
*SCREAMS LIKE A FIEND!
Kavita, what's wrong hunn?
*siiigh* I hate that when I try to do something right, I end up doing it wrong.
Kavita, what's wrong hunn?
*siiigh* I hate that when I try to do something right, I end up doing it wrong.
*tears*… I feel the exact same way. I feel so fed up of being me.
F****** retards!!
*SCREAMS LIKE A FIEND!
Hey Babe ******grabs kavs and holds her**** I have missed u soooo much young lady…soooo much …
soo much anger?? am here ..talk to me sweety..who is annoying u to the extent of u using such grammar huh??
and retards?? Kavs dats a bit harsh nah??
hope ur feeling much better since u posted this…. **worried luk on face***
hug..
di
Rani:
The point is that u had made the effort to try to do something which u believed to be right..
Being right or wrong..watever the case or situation… should not be the underlying goal as such..
Many tend to put sooo much emphasis on the need to be either right or wrong yet what exactly is right and what is wrong??
In my opinion..it is an individual conclusion of any act, thought word or deed..soo for one the matter at hand could be seen in the negative and for another the same matter could be seen as a positive…
I knw it doesn’t make much sense ..wat I am saying is that if yr heart and soul feels right about doing something ..do it….if the end result isnt what u envision..dont lose heart..acknowledge that u tried and did -said..(watever the case is)…from yr heart….no matter what the consequence….learn from it and move on….as long as during the doing process …u felt good within, dats all that matters…
Tayba:
then become the u …u envision yourself to be…if u feel that the u ..u are now, brings u soo much sadness..change your view of yourself and start living the way u wish yr life to be…appreciate though, the beauty of being u..coz theres only one U…ALL THE BAD u feel is in yr life now can be turned into good…all it takes is u to make this change… dnt be soo hard on yrself..if god loves u the way u are…I guess theres nothing there to change nah…
Guys! You actually replied? When I saw my post … it rang a bell in my head! I think I must have forgotten writing it here because I felt so enraged that day!
Sorry for the language. I just had to say that! OUT LOUD.
Im good now. Im always good
Diiiiiii I seee you came back! I missed you a ton. *huggggg* replied to your last email this morning
Rani and Tayaba Ness .. hope you girls are doing wonderful.
This past weekend .. I attended an indian wedding for the 1st time! We were invited for 3 days in a row…for the celebration and all.
It was niceeee. I ate so much lol ^_^
And oh gosh, you guys wont believe!! I cant even believe!! — Last night, they were celebrating and everyone were dancing and they pulled me and my siblings up to dance. We felt so weird because we've NEVER danced anywhere before. But everyone kept pulling us up and eventually we just started moving and attempting to 'dance' to the music. Although very reserved, I 'danced' to all these upbeat indian music they were playing >>whew<< It was interesting—- haha
Now I dont think i'll ever be doing that again..but at least I can say I've danced outside before ..if that make much sense..
Kavita – awwwww! lol! The first time I danced in a wedding (danced in public, actually) was at a Yemeni wedding! my friend took my hijab, tied it around her hips, dragged me on the dance floor and wouldn't let me go till i danced, so i danced! lmao. To Arabic and English music! LMAO! I was so shockkkedddd! I couldn't beleive it lmao! But it was fun!
Tayba – I love you.
Oh wowww haha…
I couldnt believe it either … you know…when they all pulled us(me and my siblings) up to dance! I couldnt believe it..but it happened…and it turned out to be fun
Kavita, what's wrong hunn?
*siiigh* I hate that when I try to do something right, I end up doing it wrong.
*tears*… I feel the exact same way. I feel so fed up of being me.
Tayaba *hug* I hope that somehow you are shown the good light … of knowing that you are truely a wonderful girl
Alot of times I get the feeling that I wish I was someone else too
Some things we cant change; and if we really cant change 'em, our topmost job is to start accepting them
For the things that can be changed; you can try to twist and turn a few twigs and observe the outcome. And if you like what you see, maybe you can do it more often.
You just have to remember that … when ever you've tried 'something else' make sure 'you' as yourself is assimilated into the 'new' thing … so that you can feel that you are in your own skin and you can feel comfortable and happy about whatever change took place
Love you tons *hugs*
Kavita –
Raja Raja… aaja aaja… Intezaar kills. At least we have hope… I love hope. Sometimes hope is all that takes me through the day… I've never lost hope… I've come close… but at the end of the day, hope is something I can't lose even if I wanted to… Because all Allah (SWT) has to do is say “BE” and it shall be… Subhan'Allah, Allah (SWT) works in such amazing ways…
Now I dont think i'll ever be doing that again..but at least I can say I've danced outside before ..if that make much sense..
even .. ..at yr di's wedding….…
good to hear u had soo much fun dear…an all this time u thought u cudnt dance…told u everyone dance…..
I feel constipated
Raja Raja… aaja aaja… Intezaar kills. At least we have hope… I love hope. Sometimes hope is all that takes me through the day… I've never lost hope… I've come close… but at the end of the day, hope is something I can't lose even if I wanted to… Because all Allah (SWT) has to do is say “BE” and it shall be… Subhan'Allah, Allah (SWT) works in such amazing ways…
…so faithfully sweet!
Ameen, thumma ameen!
I've adopted your words to the point of startling unsuspecting Muslims with whom I come in contact! I said insha'allah to a friend at a restaurant last night and a couple next to me just stared. Then the woman smiled. I asked if I'd pronounced it correctly and she said yes!
I love u 99!
Kavita, what's wrong hunn?
*siiigh* I hate that when I try to do something right, I end up doing it wrong.
I didnt get to throw my word in here
Rani – the thing that should satisfy you and make your heart content is the fact that you tried your hardest to do something the right way. Not all the time we get exactly what we want or exactly what we plan for. Some people dont even try. Regret comes the hardest for them – because 1. They'll never know how things would have turn out if they had tried their hardest and 2. They would not be able to live knowing that they did try their hardest even if things may have turned out in the wrong way.
So, find it somewhere in your thinking to allow yourself some heart's content that you did try your hardest and your intentions were good ones
Now I dont think i'll ever be doing that again..but at least I can say I've danced outside before ..if that make much sense..
even .. ..at yr di's wedding….…
good to hear u had soo much fun dear…an all this time u thought u cudnt dance…told u everyone dance…..
Haha..oh yeah you know i'll be trying mah hardest when your wedding comes around! lol … yeah i thought i really couldnt dance … but the thing is… I really cant lol .. I was totally stepping from side to side. At the end of it all, my mom told us(me and my siblings) that its good that we tried but we all looked like we were exercising!! [like aerobics] hahahaaaaaaaa
But I tried right~!! Gosh! And the 1st time…. it was fun though
Ameen, thumma ameen!
I've adopted your words to the point of startling unsuspecting Muslims with whom I come in contact! I said insha'allah to a friend at a restaurant last night and a couple next to me just stared. Then the woman smiled. I asked if I'd pronounced it correctly and she said yes!
I love u 99!
awwwwwwww! I love you tooooo Nesserz! *squeeeeeeeeeeeeeezes Nesserz into a tiiiiiiight hug* OH NO! IM SORRY! I didn't mean to choke you! I only wanted to HUG YOU! LMAO! I LOVE YOU!
So, find it somewhere in your thinking to allow yourself some heart's content that you did try your hardest and your intentions were good ones
awww thank you hunn. I do realize my intentions were good, but I
was hurting because even though I did it unintentionally, I hurt a
friend. But that's all sorted out now, so it's okay.
I wish… it wasn't so hard to talk… Others can talk easily and openly… I can't. It hurts. It hurts knowing someone else is able to do that… and I can't. They must be special…
Na.nge pero pe angaaron chalti rahi… Ley chal vahaa jo mulk tera hai, jaahil zamaana, dushman mera hai…
I wish… it wasn't so hard to talk… Others can talk easily and openly… I can't. It hurts. It hurts knowing someone else is able to do that… and I can't. They must be special…
Na.nge pero pe angaaron chalti rahi… Ley chal vahaa jo mulk tera hai, jaahil zamaana, dushman mera hai…
The words will come to you jaan… just get them out of your heart – even on a piece of paper… and then try to formulate them in a way that you'd be able to say it face to face to whoever you wanna say it to? … I love you. I love that song line the most out of the whole song…
.
It hurts me that I'm so misunderstood… It hurts me more that I'm always misunderstood by friends. I guess it's my fault… I say the wrong thing or take the joke too far maybe.. I don't know. But it hurts. So much.
Tayba – you misunderstood, it isn't about that.
Maybe you weren't misunderstood? I love you.
It was a two way thing, but aise cheeze dosto ke beech hoti rehti hai. There's no friendship free of these situations…
I love you too Geet!
I feel like smiling. Because words won't do justice.
… …
*walks in, sits next to Rani and…* too.
Today was a good day.
Alhamdulillah for good days. They feel overwhelmingly good after the bad days, na? And it makes being grateful for those moments of peace so wonderfully amazing, na? I love you. Oh so much. May Allah (SWT) grant you with so much peace so that no matter what happens, you'll be able to say today was a good day at the end of each day. Ameen – Thumma Ameen.
Haan ji, they most definitely do! A good day makes the bad days worth it…sometimes.
I love you too shorty. Shave your feet and I'll let you sit with me. lmao *ducks & runs away*
I understand, but insha'Allah, one day… na?
And oye! Imma sit next to you in those nasteeeee feet you sent me! Then Imma send em back. *runs after Neesi with krazy glue on hands* Once I get my hands on you, I aint lettin go! *evil giggle*
Gotta tell ya ladies…
Its great to come here and be welcomed with a show!!! *sits down comfortably*
Its great to come here
me feels great ….Luws u babe
Its great that you feel great! ^_^
You shud sit down and watch the show!
C'mon GUYS ……… We're waiting! ^_^
…..or maybe they ended on good grounds…..
DRATS!!!!!!!!
^_^
How can you miss someone who was never really yours? How can it hurt this much? How can you still love them after knowing such a big truth about them? How can they even enter your mind? How can you miss what was not even real?
………….How how HOW? ……………
Sometimes… sometimes I really effing hate nostalgia. It can kill a person.
I wish I could just switch off for a while… without taking her with me everywhere.
How can you miss someone who was never really yours? How can it hurt this much? How can you still love them after knowing such a big truth about them? How can they even enter your mind? How can you miss what was not even real?
………….How how HOW? ……………
Sometimes… sometimes I really effing hate nostalgia. It can kill a person.
I wish I could just switch off for a while… without taking her with me everywhere.
I know. And I'm sorry you had to suffer for something wholly unnecesary! Nostalgia is such a bee-yotch sumtimes, na?
I'm here with 2 ears, should you need them.
I'm helping my friend with his father's funeral, but my time is your time! Be well.
I saw pics of Angie and Brads kids Ooh my..I didnt really see them yet..they are twins right?
omw…I soooo wanna get married now now and have as many beautiful babies ahh di… you shall, you shall
as for Brad ( am not a fan of him ) but my gosh he luks hot hey..it must be that beared look he has…looks sex.i ..lol Im NOT a fan of brad pitt either!! Im still debating how they could call him the most sexiest guy? I mean…seriously? pshhhtt
I feel SAFE..and I may be alone but am grateful for the beautiful people in my life.. Thats right… embrace the good things you have!
who continously reminds me how blessed I am…
am still thinking babies now ….cant wait for December 🙂 yay! december! I cant wait either! 🙂
Hey hun, Im sorry to hear that you feel this way …
How can you miss someone who was never really yours? It seems confusing hun, but I guess it is possible … eventhough the person was never really yours …… the bond that you formed with them (even if its in your mind/thoughts/emotions) can last forever … and sometimes we find..when that person is absent… our mind/emotions/thoughts constantly remind us of them …… and it can hurt alot right? Think of the positive side..? You made a good relationship with someone..you created a bond…that will have a lasting effect on you. Dont feel too discouraged … day by day, you will see how much stronger you will become.
How can it hurt this much? If it hurts that much ….. I wont doubt the pain; If it hurts that much … I cant take it away … but I can listen… Im here if you need me!
How can you still love them after knowing such a big truth about them? How can they even enter your mind? I know exactly how you feel on this one .. I've had a horrid experience with someone … and the truth is… Im guilty of it and I cant even explain why .. up to this day .. how that person could enter my mind over and over….after I know what they did to me; I just dont understand hwo it works..and WHY i cant just tell them to get lost; I guess… sometimes, the past has to be left in the past .. and I will tell anyone this : If you realize that what happened in the past is affecting your life soo greatly and even dangerously, then dont stay knowing that person … just give yourself some space .. trust me… it will be really hard … to be with that person, live with that person, go out with that person…if you have this sorta…hatred type thing going on deep inside of you..
How can you miss what was not even real? IT doesnt have to be real for you to miss it; people miss various types of emotions when they are not feeling them; people miss thinking about certain things; people miss thinking about things that they made up … it doest have to be real for you to miss it … but if you understand that you miss it this much… can you try to go back to it? If you cant… maybe you can let it live with you forever … and day by day, you will be able to live easier without it.
Im here for you if you need me*hug* Dont bottle up your feelings
I saw pics of Angie and Brads kids Ooh my..I didnt really see them yet..they are twins right?
omw…I soooo wanna get married now now and have as many beautiful babies ahh di… you shall, you shall
as for Brad ( am not a fan of him ) but my gosh he luks hot hey..it must be that beared look he has…looks sex.i ..lol Im NOT a fan of brad pitt either!! Im still debating how they could call him the most sexiest guy? I mean…seriously? pshhhtt
I feel SAFE..and I may be alone but am grateful for the beautiful people in my life.. Thats right… embrace the good things you have!
who continously reminds me how blessed I am…
am still thinking babies now ….cant wait for December 🙂 yay! december! I cant wait either! 🙂
pagli okies almost done. .check yr mail ..hugs galore…
mmmmmmmmmwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I am so happy!!!
She was real to you.
I love you.
Hey twin ji, happy eh? It's about time we go and celebrate, what say? How does 4 pm sound? lolly, can I call you anytime? You can pick the time. I've also left an email in ur inbox, and I'll be off to leave another if my mother (lol it rhymes!) doesn't catch me! I love you. I miss you.
Tomorrow is my first day of College. Ninja was supposed to be with me. We were supposed to take classes together. But she isn't back from Yemen yet. I miss her so much. It's been waaay too long since I haven't spoken to her properly. I miss those days when we called each other everyday. How I'd call her mom and try to get her to be less annoyed (she didn't like the fact that we talked every day) by talking to her in Arabic. It didn't work. How Ninja would get scared every time she called my house and my dad picked up. I still remember the night we stayed up till 5 a.m cuz my dad was in Afghanistan and how her dad was all chilled out and was telling her mom something like, “Relax, what's the big deal? She's talking to Rani.” The days we planned to meet each other and how our parents almost always ruined our plans. And how when we did meet, we'd hug for like 10 minutes! And how I'd call afterwards and ask if her mom was mad and she'd say, “yeah, but it was worth it.” And the day I was singing to her on the phone and her dad heard and gives her a funny look and she said something like “she's singing me a love song.” And then she'd giggle on the phone and be like “my dad thinks we're gay.” And the day I was in her room and her brother walked in the room with no shirt on and ran super fast as soon as he saw me and Ninja and I cracked up and couldn't stop laughing and her siblings looked at us and laughed as well. I miss her late replies, her late laughs, her screaming at the kids, her screaming at me! I miss her.
*siiiiigh*
Whoa Rani's going to college! Yay! The time has come hmm… good luck, and you'll be fine!!! Watch and see! College is way too overrated.
I miss Ninja too! When is she coming back?!
Hey Tayba,
These are just my thoughts an opinion after reading yr words…hopefully the situation has healed and ur in a better place in thought and feelings..
I dnt mean to upset u as I said its my personal opinion after reading yr words..its not personal to anyone as such ..its justt my general opinion….
I hope u feel better soon..take care of yourself..
How can you miss someone who was never really yours?
One can, and one does, it’s the basis of love …how can one miss wats in ones very heart and soul…
whats yours
is an indication that someone or something belongs to you yet my humble opinion feels that nothing and no one belongs to anything as such or anyone for that matter an yet again it boils down to pure loving a thing or person..dats how u miss ( the actual presence and sight of ) and love unconditionally.
How can it hurt this much?
Because one allows such a thing/person to cause them the feeling of hurt, disappointment, anger and watever other feelings an individual feels. Theres nothing *wrong* with feeling feelings..if its deep within u ..then just let it be…and truly at then end of each moment one can easily turn the feeling of hurt into one of love…by doing so one will be manifesting love into each moment through that moments thoughts instead of prolonging the hurt feeling surrounding the individual ..
How can you still love them after knowing such a big truth about them?
Simple
Love has no wrong or right, it has no good or bad/evil, it has no hurt or betrayal..its a complete feeling of oneness of knowing that u the individual loving the other is lovin them for them..not because their truth differs from what others perceive to be r8 because as stated, being r8/being wrong is a perception…it’s a way to condemn another for being true to themselves..instead of loving them for being their true selves..
The largest truth with LOVE isnt a condemnation of ANY individuals perception of what is right or wrong, its SIMPLY loving regardless…
How can one stop loving ?? I dnt believe any human truly stops loving… its etched in every soul..L O V E !!
How can they even enter your mind?
How can one stop the natural flow of thought?? If its an intended thought then u can change it to something that will bring u a 🙂
If it’s a natural flow of thought, then don’t discard, just try not to allow it to affect u in being negative
..
How can you miss what was not even real?
Wats real and wats not…how can any person judge wat is or feels real to another? How can one judge themselve for feeling wat they believe is real..
The reality of this is that watever it is u as an individual is experiencing – if its FEELS and u believe for that moment IN ITS AUTHENTICITY, then its real…
………….How how HOW?
……………
Its not the question of how!! Dear..and will not profit your mind and feelings by trying to justify what is…
In my
Rani… how was your first day at college?
How can you miss someone who was never really yours? How can it hurt this much? How can you still love them after knowing such a big truth about them? How can they even enter your mind? How can you miss what was not even real?
………….How how HOW? ……………
Sometimes… sometimes I really effing hate nostalgia. It can kill a person.
I wish I could just switch off for a while… without taking her with me everywhere.
I know. And I'm sorry you had to suffer for something wholly unnecesary! Nostalgia is such a bee-yotch sumtimes, na?
I'm here with 2 ears, should you need them.
I'm helping my friend with his father's funeral, but my time is your time! Be well.
*hugs back* Thank you And yes, Nostalgia really is a bee-yotch at times . S'ok though, that's life na… good days and bad!! Today is better! Thank you for this post and I'm also sorry to hear about your friend's father. I hope the funeral brings you and them comfort .
Hey hun, Im sorry to hear that you feel this way …
How can you miss someone who was never really yours? It seems confusing hun, but I guess it is possible … eventhough the person was never really yours …… the bond that you formed with them (even if its in your mind/thoughts/emotions) can last forever … and sometimes we find..when that person is absent… our mind/emotions/thoughts constantly remind us of them …… and it can hurt alot right? Think of the positive side..? You made a good relationship with someone..you created a bond…that will have a lasting effect on you. Dont feel too discouraged … day by day, you will see how much stronger you will become.
How can it hurt this much? If it hurts that much ….. I wont doubt the pain; If it hurts that much … I cant take it away … but I can listen… Im here if you need me!
How can you still love them after knowing such a big truth about them? How can they even enter your mind? I know exactly how you feel on this one .. I've had a horrid experience with someone … and the truth is… Im guilty of it and I cant even explain why .. up to this day .. how that person could enter my mind over and over….after I know what they did to me; I just dont understand hwo it works..and WHY i cant just tell them to get lost; I guess… sometimes, the past has to be left in the past .. and I will tell anyone this : If you realize that what happened in the past is affecting your life soo greatly and even dangerously, then dont stay knowing that person … just give yourself some space .. trust me… it will be really hard … to be with that person, live with that person, go out with that person…if you have this sorta…hatred type thing going on deep inside of you..
How can you miss what was not even real? IT doesnt have to be real for you to miss it; people miss various types of emotions when they are not feeling them; people miss thinking about certain things; people miss thinking about things that they made up … it doest have to be real for you to miss it … but if you understand that you miss it this much… can you try to go back to it? If you cant… maybe you can let it live with you forever … and day by day, you will be able to live easier without it.
Im here for you if you need me*hug* Dont bottle up your feelings
Kavi… thanks so much for your advice. I may not be able to express it, but I smiled at your words and it made me feel a little better. I'm sorry you've had an experience that made you feel similar to what I felt that day. I pray that you are able to move past it without letting it hurt you. *hug*
No, I can't go back to what I was missing. But that's okay. Sometimes things that are done can't be undone. It's just the way life is sometimes, na?
Thank you for being there, it means a lot to me . xxx
Alishia you seem to have deleted your post… just wanted to say thank you .
She was real to you.
*weak smile*
Tomorrow is my first day of College. Ninja was supposed to be with me. We were supposed to take classes together. But she isn't back from Yemen yet. I miss her so much. It's been waaay too long since I haven't spoken to her properly. I miss those days when we called each other everyday. How I'd call her mom and try to get her to be less annoyed (she didn't like the fact that we talked every day) by talking to her in Arabic. It didn't work. How Ninja would get scared every time she called my house and my dad picked up. I still remember the night we stayed up till 5 a.m cuz my dad was in Afghanistan and how her dad was all chilled out and was telling her mom something like, “Relax, what's the big deal? She's talking to Rani.” The days we planned to meet each other and how our parents almost always ruined our plans. And how when we did meet, we'd hug for like 10 minutes! And how I'd call afterwards and ask if her mom was mad and she'd say, “yeah, but it was worth it.” And the day I was singing to her on the phone and her dad heard and gives her a funny look and she said something like “she's singing me a love song.” And then she'd giggle on the phone and be like “my dad thinks we're gay.” And the day I was in her room and her brother walked in the room with no shirt on and ran super fast as soon as he saw me and Ninja and I cracked up and couldn't stop laughing and her siblings looked at us and laughed as well. I miss her late replies, her late laughs, her screaming at the kids, her screaming at me! I miss her.
*siiiiigh*
Sigh indeed. It's been Seventy Eight days and counting…. but InshaAllah soon she will be back. I really miss her too. Beyond words… I called today but her voice was distant and the line was bad. Sigh!
Come back soon, you crazy fish!
Tayba once told me something which seems to be the freaking motto of my life! *weak chuckle* She said, “Why are we so far away from the ones closest to our hearts?”
Sigh… sigh!
Oh it's madness… it's madness.
Kavi… thanks so much for your advice. I may not be able to express it, but I smiled at your words and it made me feel a little better. I'm sorry you've had an experience that made you feel similar to what I felt that day. I pray that you are able to move past it without letting it hurt you. *hug*
No, I can't go back to what I was missing. But that's okay. Sometimes things that are done can't be undone. It's just the way life is sometimes, na?
Thank you for being there, it means a lot to me . xxx
Hey Tayaba, Im glad I made you smile. Thank you for your prayers, I've also prayed for me to -forget- about certain things and to let my heart be pure … and thank heavens, I have sensed a large change.
I know life can be..unfair sometimes… but what can we do, sometimes we cant do much. Be yourself and do what you can do.
*hug*
I feel good
Im glad that my friend likes the chocolates that I bought her for her birthday! 🙂
Classes started a few days ago ..
Its so ughhhhh … I dont know!
Sighs…
i leave for a few months and I come back to a forum that I feel so strange in.
why? *deep sigh*
I 'leave' the forum for a while, but I have never once left you guys… your madness always jumps out at me at the most random but beautiful of times!
I was looking at a view I once described to Nessa, telling her I wished she was here and we could have just sat down with a drink and talked… and I smiled and thought of her.
I saw Vivah the other day… and thought of Rani and Khushi, then of Ninja.
Tayba… well. She's Tayba. She's a donkey. She's always there.
I was in India and saw so many 'Sam's painted on the walls… most, if not all, of them in a Christian context.. and I thought of guess who!
Oreo. Oreo cookies!
I kept seeing so many references to 'twin' somewhere… oh YES! I remember now.. it was on facebook… whenever I look through the bumper stickers (oh boy, I love the bumper sticker application… hours and hours of fun! ), there always seems to be something or the other in reference to twinship… and who do I think of other than my twin… Hehe!
I also once saw a bumper sticker (don't know what the sticker itself was.. can't remember..), made by a Khushi Something… and I thought of Khushi.
I saw some shipping truck with one of the companies that I think Alishia works at or something… and I thought of her!
I think of you guys all the time dammit. You crazy bunch of people.
Grrr! I'm very annoyed! Someone I would have liked to talk to on facebook chat has JUST gone offline the moment I am online on it!! Grrr!
I'm thinking of Tayba….
Boo! The last time I wrote my name on any wall was way back in school when my friends and I used to play a game where we would 'pee' our names on the wall. Mine was quite easy. Lmao! I had a classmate whose name was Velumurugan. He never could finish peeing his name on the wall even he chugged down all the water in the world. Thanks for reminding me of those summer days when pale yellow was the color of the day and the faint scent of ammonia their signature perfume.
Senor saab! Do I detect a hint of sarcasm in that thank you?
i leave for a few months and I come back to a forum that I feel so strange in.
why? *deep sigh*
*Holds Ninja close and doesn't let go*
Why indeed….
I love you. Oh so much. It will feel like home again soon jaan, InshaAllah.
Tayba… well. She's Tayba. She's a donkey. She's always there.
Lmao. Thank God for my species, we're available world wide =D
I'm glad to be always there My lovable huggable Shrek
I feel like crying.
You feel like crying? Quick! Beat the crap out of me…you will feel better .
You feel like crying? Quick! Beat the crap out of me…you will feel better .
You would really allow tayba to do that to you?
*Holds Ninja close and doesn't let go*
Why indeed….
I love you. Oh so much. It will feel like home again soon jaan, InshaAllah.
I love you too habeebati. I wish I were there in person to help you through ur hard times…
Absolutely! I may cry 'Mommy' and intermittently wet my pants once perhaps twice, but if it would make her feel better…it is worth the pain.
On a separate note, Hey Ninjitsu! Did I tell you how much I missed you? Well, just in case I didn't, I do now: I really missed you.
Absolutely! I may cry 'Mommy' and intermittently wet my pants once perhaps twice, but if it would make her feel better…it is worth the pain.
On a separate note, Hey Ninjitsu! Did I tell you how much I missed you? Well, just in case I didn't, I do now: I really missed you.
I'm sure tayba would love that right now, she needs to let everything out and if you're ready to do that, then thats really great.
thank you for missing me, I missed you too. How are you doing?
I am full! Just had a Quarter Pounder, Caramel Sundae and a Large Coke. But, generally speaking, life has been busy but meaningful. God is good to me though I am absolutely undeserving of His mercy.
sounds yummy. You're lucky I'm not fasting at the moment!
*Holds Ninja close and doesn't let go*
Why indeed….
I love you. Oh so much. It will feel like home again soon jaan, InshaAllah.
I love you too habeebati. I wish I were there in person to help you through ur hard times…
Sigh… Distance is a killer.
You live in my heart jaan. I feel your love with me.
You feel like crying? Quick! Beat the crap out of me…you will feel better .
Thanks for the offer Senor, but I'm just too exhausted for that…
If you have a secluded cave in the middle of nowhere to lend me, I could take you up on that.
I have one. It's the one Oreo hates cuz I keep going there! lol. But I'm not letting you go in there by yourself, it's a scary cave.
After a crazy restless and tearful night, I somehow felt a sudden urge to watch Hum Tum and cry. Oh, how I loveeeeeeee Bollywood!!! I ended up giggling and chuckling and awww-ing and laughing and clapping-and-laughing… 🙂
I kept thinking of you, Rani because… duh! Rani.. 🙂 But also because I know how much she loveeees the movie… and especially that drunken scene when Karan talks of Rhea's tears and how they hurt him.. I kept going “Awwww!” and thinking of you all the more because you posted that scene in the favourite scenes thread thing… and I kept thinking of you! Really wish you me and Tabz could've watched it together… it would have been SOOOO much fun!
Now I'm watching a little bit of KANK… and I'm reminded of Khushi. Sigh. I was thinking the other day about how whatever bad mood I'm in, when I think of Khushi all that bad mood-ness disappears and I'm filled with love. Crazy. If you're reading this you crazy girl… I love you and believe you me, you are never far from my thoughts!
Tayba…
I love you, stay strong jaan.
Tayba…
I love you, stay strong jaan.
…I second that!
Tayba…
I love you, stay strong jaan.
…I second that!
Third… I love you so much, jaana. Remember Noor's quote? He'll teach you how to fly, jaana. May Allah (SWT) grant you and your family sabr and may He grant your amma the highest stages in Jannah insha'Allah, ameen thumma ameen.
Tayba…
I love you, stay strong jaan.
…I second that!
Third… I love you so much, jaana. Remember Noor's quote? He'll teach you how to fly, jaana. May Allah (SWT) grant you and your family sabr and may He grant your amma the highest stages in Jannah insha'Allah, ameen thumma ameen.
Fourth…
I love you. Take care of yourself, jaanana..
I hate the feeling of helplessness.
Wanting to do so much… but in reality you are so limited and unable to do a thing….
Ninja… I agree with you.
Sometimes it is so hard not to let all of the world get you down, and to believe that one day your time will come… your moment of glory will surely come…
Faith is one life-long test and a comfort zone all at once. Isn't that funny?
Ninja, I so agree with you, sadly *cries*
But, I think the thing to save us … is trying our best -and- acknowledging that we are doing so
Thank you girls. I love you
Kavita gives some good advice there above.
Ninja, I love you.
I'm so tired. I feel numb.
I love you a million babe
Hope you're doing alright
Now, shall I tuck you in? *hug*
It seems like you need alottt of rest
Dont deprive yourself of it
*tucks tayaba in*
*gets ready to sing a good-night song*
eerrmmm…okaaaay.
today:
I wonder if this is what it feels like to be on the verge of a break down. I actually do feel like nervously laughing.
I wonder if this is what it feels like to be on the verge of a break down. I actually do feel like nervously laughing.
It's ok Tayba. Find a solitary spot and let it out! I use my bedroom closet.
As odd as it may sound, it's a release valve. You need to release the stress somehow and crying isn't the only way.
Whats the other way?
Screaming your head off?
Rani, correct me if Im wrong – your avatar is from Ajaa Nachle right?
Whats the other way?
Screaming your head off?
That is a release valve as well Kavita.
I'm not one to hold too deeply what others think of me. Someone once told me, “People can say anything to anyone at anytime about me! I just can't be bothered!” I've held onto those words for sometime.
I guess my feelings today are of sadness. Sadness for those whose noses are so far in the air or heads are so far up their backsides, that they can't see the ground to take a step forward. Self absorption makes one dependant.
My 2 cents.
I dont feel good at all. I know what is causing this feeling but I dont know WHY it causes this feeling.
I dont hate them, I just feel incapable of many things because they exist
I dont hate them, I really dont.
Something is really high in my body. I can feel it, I can sense it, I KNOW it. My heart, my trembling, I know it must be adrenaline. I feel this growing pain in my chest, and I feel like Im out of this world, in a sense, because my mind is SO much focused on 'something'. But it died away just recently. But still, I've lost my ability to concentrate, and despite me reading about Research Methods in Psychology … I dont understand any sentence. I cant concentrate now, and I have 2 tests in a few days AND I have SO much to cover.
Im still feeling it. But to a leser degree. I dont want to go downstairs for my family to see, I think they will see that I am different. Im in my attic, its quiet and Im by myself, sitting on the floor, tissue in one hand, a picture of the Lord in the other.
I dont know if this is right. I dont know if this is supposed to be happening. It was worse before, I got better, but this doesnt mean anything. I dont know whats wrong. I mean – I know whats wrong, I know the Cause of my feeling and the cause is 'They'
But I dont know WHY They cause me these feelings. Its not healthy. I dont know how to fix it. I dont know how to make it stop. I want it to stop. I tried to make it stop before – but my method of trying was very destructive and dangerous, and so I quitted that means.
Even so… but it was worse before, but why is it still happening? Didnt I just mention that it got better?
I feel like, there's no where else to turn, nothing else to do. I feel like this is the end of whatever today has to offer. I feel like there is nothing else I can see or hear or do … that has to do with the matter. I am not even in access with the CAUSE. I just have to HEAR about it, and think about it and IMAGINE how great of a time they must be having, with there being no existence of one such person as me.
I dont know how to fix iit-or approach the fixing. The idea that have in my head…that [should] help, I dont have the resources to carry it out. I think I need help
Kavita… wow. It must have felt good to let all that out. If you want to talk, I'm here. 🙂
My feelings today:
It hurts SO MUCH to be so far away from the ones you love. I swear man, one of these days, I am going to do something crazy about it and end up wasting all my money. lol.
LMAO! I crackedddd upppp when I read that! ILOVEYOU!
Kavita… wow indeed. Hunn, please talk to someone who knows more about this problem so you can get some help. If no one knows, then please tell someone who can help. It's not very healthy to go through something that's making you feel like this all alone. I'm here for you if you need me. But I recommend you tell someone who knows you and “They” very well so that you can get all the help you need to get through this. I'm glad you let it out one way. Please take care of yourself hunn…
I'm not one to hold too deeply what others think of me. Someone once told me, “People can say anything to anyone at anytime about me! I just can't be bothered!” I've held onto those words for sometime.
I guess my feelings today are of sadness. Sadness for those whose noses are so far in the air or heads are so far up their backsides, that they can't see the ground to take a step forward. Self absorption makes one dependant.
My 2 cents.
I love and miss you…
Something is really high in my body. I can feel it, I can sense it, I KNOW it.
I think I need help
common sense, intelligence (whatever that is left) escaping from yr body perhaps? its not a common phenomenon but it happens sometimes. stay calm, relax, take it easy..the more u resist the worse it becomes.
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaha! You guys know fully well I pretty much wear my emotions on my sleeves (whether that is a goood thing or a bad thing is another issue completely… and no I shan't bore you with a long rambly 'faltoo' post on that… )… you guys know when I'm up and you know when I'm down… but right now, all I want to do is shout from the top of my head… (and sigh.. I wish Khushi was here… she would have noticed all the Small Things… ):
~ I AM IN LOVE AND SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!! ~
=)
Today Ninja showed me something that was really upsetting. It's about a disasterous event that tore apart a Yemeni family in America. A gas explosion tore their mother apart from them, and these children are really very young. The siblings were injured and one suffered major burns. People from around the world have been donating money in their aid, and a woman has created a website to share their story and to help collect money. This Eid they were presented with some of this money.
If you want to check the website out:
http://alghaithigirls.blogspot.com/
Like Ninja said, it really does make you remember how bad others have it.
Pass the link on if you can please
Thanks.
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaha! You guys know fully well I pretty much wear my emotions on my sleeves (whether that is a goood thing or a bad thing is another issue completely… and no I shan't bore you with a long rambly 'faltoo' post on that… )… you guys know when I'm up and you know when I'm down… but right now, all I want to do is shout from the top of my head… (and sigh.. I wish Khushi was here… she would have noticed all the Small Things… ):
~ I AM IN LOVE AND SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!! ~
=)
AND I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU! This is no fair, I no like love triangles. lmao I am so happy for you, twin jiiii! !!!!!
Nessa –
Cheers Boo!
Enjoy the time when its here
Even I want to scream out the same thing
Something is really high in my body. I can feel it, I can sense it, I KNOW it.
I think I need help
common sense, intelligence (whatever that is left) escaping from yr body perhaps? its not a common phenomenon but it happens sometimes. stay calm, relax, take it easy..the more u resist the worse it becomes.
Im sensing help and support
And for that, I owe you a huge kiss *come here boy!*
I want a guy who'll come back to me at the end of the day, who'll see his home, his paradise in me.
Boo: I hope that it is he who you are so in love with
I just haven't been feeling like myself today [and yesterday evening]
Not sure what it's about, but the feeling is real uncomfortable
Sometimes it takes a LOT of patience and strength and understanding to see your guy with his arms around other women. A LOT. And even more of faith and trust.
I don't think the fool realises how lucky he is to have me.
Sorry for the post flood guys, I didnt realize when that happened, and I cant delete them.
It ALL times take a whole lot of patience and strength to see your guy touching up some woman because they are his friends and/or they value each other.
I have surely grown where that type of 'strength' is concerned
But watch him get a worse case paranoia when he sees me and some guy having 0 space between us
This scenario is yet to come, but I already know what it will end up into!
The world just aint fair
I think Im coming down with a cold, and I thought I was immune to all that !
On top of that, I have a headache and I am writing my lab report which worsens the situation even further
Sometimes it takes a LOT of patience and strength and understanding to see your guy with his arms around other women. A LOT. And even more of faith and trust.
I don't think the fool realises how lucky he is to have me.
Lmbo jaan I love u!
He's so beyond lucky!!!!! <3
Sorry for the post flood guys, I didnt realize when that happened, and I cant delete them.
It ALL times take a whole lot of patience and strength to see your guy touching up some woman because they are his friends and/or they value each other.
I have surely grown where that type of 'strength' is concerned
But watch him get a worse case paranoia when he sees me and some guy having 0 space between us
This scenario is yet to come, but I already know what it will end up into!
The world just aint fair
Aww hunn… no the world isn't fair… people act like idiots all the time… but it's life na? We have to deal with all types of situations. Of course it takes a lot of patience… there's this quote I really love …..
“… and she held him in her arms, not knowing she was holding my whole world….”
I love it so much… I think every girl understands this sentiment.
Be strong sweetheart, and know that you're a gem and life will be fair to you too. Happier days will come, one day he'll realize how it made you feel too… what goes around always comes around!
Woah, I suddenly feel so tired… my energy is so low these days … I feel numb inside.
Sometimes it takes a LOT of patience and strength and understanding to see your guy with his arms around other women. A LOT. And even more of faith and trust.
I don't think the fool realises how lucky he is to have me.
LOLLY! I agreeeee, he's damned lucky to have a beautiful crajee and wonderfully amazingly sweet daaarling like you! ILY!
Sorry for the post flood guys, I didnt realize when that happened, and I cant delete them.
It
ALL times take a whole lot of patience and strength to see your guy
touching up some woman because they are his friends and/or they value
each other.
I have surely grown where that type of 'strength' is concerned
But watch him get a worse case paranoia when he sees me and some guy having 0 space between us
This scenario is yet to come, but I already know what it will end up into!
The world just aint fair
Aww hunn… no the world isn't fair… people act like idiots all
the time… but it's life na? We have to deal with all types of
situations. Of course it takes a lot of patience… there's this quote
I really love …..
“… and she held him in her arms, not knowing she was holding my whole world….”
I love it so much… I think every girl understands this sentiment.
Be strong sweetheart, and know that you're a gem and life will be
fair to you too. Happier days will come, one day he'll realize how it
made you feel too… what goes around always comes around!
Ditto! Keep the chin up, Kavita! Things will coem out all right in the end, insha'Allah!
Woah, I suddenly feel so tired… my energy is so low these days … I feel numb inside.
awwww
hunn, I'll give you my energy, I have an overload of energy at the
moment as it is! Insha'Allah things will become easier habeebati.
Ameen thumma ameen! ily.
What would you do if the person you loved cheated on you? With someone you both knew? Someone who is always out with you in that group of friends?
Hire a gunman to shoot the two fuckers. Or I'd do it myself.
I love you.
Can I please do it?
Hire a gunman to shoot the two fuckers. Or I'd do it myself.
I love you.
Can I please do it?
Wait your turn Princess! Wow…bummer Boo.
But in the interest of full disclosure…well…I DO have a gun permit, soooooo…[;D]
(later: that sounds ominous…i was kidding! lol)
What would you do if the person you loved cheated on you? With someone you both knew? Someone who is always out with you in that group of friends?
Sometimes we have to figure out who is worth all the pain and who isn't. And in my opinion, he isn't. But you have to figure that out for yourself, and I make dua that insha'Allah you find clear answers to all of your questions, habeebati. Don't just focus on how much you love him, focus on how much love you have in you and if he's really worth all that love. And you have a whole lot of love in you. Remember that, shnookums. I love you oh so much, twin ji.
Don't just focus on how much you love him, focus on how much love you have in you and if he's really worth all that love.
Wah!
Well said twin ji, very very very very very well said. I never saw it like that.
Boo, murder then both. And curse them out nastily before you do it
Sigh, what you have to do is THROW him away [from your mind, from your heart] because you dont deserve a scumbag; you are better than that. And he is beneath the scum on the floor that we step on! Then look back at him and see your advantage of having to FIND OUT WHAT A person he is – before it would have been irreversibly late. Stupid, idiotic JERK! UGH! And as for the lil *** who was after him knowing he was with you … psht, cast the b**** out of your life
Tayaba, hun, Im alright hehe, Im not at all upset about all of it; I was just claiming what is true…[the world doesnt seem to be fair]. And i've come to grow so much as a person, regarding many aspects of life! About the quote:
“… and she held him in her arms, not knowing she was holding my whole world….” You are indeed correct! A girl in love would most definitely melt from the impact of this feeling!
Im alright with everything though, but thanks for the uplifting words! Thanks for yours too Rani. And you're right – what goes around comes around, AND IT BETTER COME AROUND … someday…
Don't just focus on how much you love him, focus on how much love you have in you and if he's really worth all that love.
Wah!
Well said twin ji, very very very very very well said. I never saw it like that.
I am, after all, your twin. lolly, I'm always here whenever you need a new perspective, boobz! *pulls jur cheeks*
I love you.
you call her boobz now? lolz
I don't want to break up with him, I really don't… I really don't…
Oh lord. My life is going to have a big empty hole in it all over again.
Sigh.
Kavita – ur welcomes and yep i call her boobz! lolly
I don't want to break up with him, I really don't… I really don't…
Oh lord. My life is going to have a big empty hole in it all over again.
Sigh.
Someday, someone will thank him for letting you go…
Ily.
Someday, someone will thank him for letting you go…
Ily.
Sigh. Geet, I love that quote. Its on my forum profile ..
I don't want to break up with him, I really don't… I really don't…
Oh lord. My life is going to have a big empty hole in it all over again.
Sigh.
Coco Shrekky…
'Pyaar se hai badi kya kasam….?'
You made the right decision, and even though it hurts like shyt right now, you will get through this and become stronger. Stronger than last year, stronger than this year. You will make it because you deserve to be happy, you're not the one who did anything wrong, he was. His life should become an empty hole, not yours. Because he's the one who will carry the pain of knowing he ruined something beautiful with his own stupid hands. You deserve a man who knows how to treat you as well as you deserve to be treated. And we will find him together, whenever you're ready… aao milo chalo? . I love you… *Hugs*
I've never felt this broken.
This useless.
This helpless.
*Holds Geet* I'm sorry you feel this way habeebati…
Tum mujhe apna maanti ho agar
Yun khafa hoke na jhukaao nazar
Mushkile apni majburi
Ho, de do mujhe saari be-nuri
Pareshaaniyan bhi do, hairaaniyan bhi do
Nige-baaniyan bhi de do de do naa
And if you feel you can't, then I'll just keep holding you. Na kuch kar sake toh dua hum karenge…. dua hum karenge .
You know I love you… x
I've never felt this broken.
This useless.
This helpless.
Why, jaana?
And Tayba… I have no words for you… I… thank you. Thank you.
I've never felt this broken.
This useless.
This helpless.
…insignicant emoticon!
But you know I'm here!
lolly i'm in a good mooooooood!
Tayba – thankieeez! ily2!
Boo – it's a confusing story lolly but ily!
Neesi – ILY! lolly ur so funny! I know u are, thank you sooooo much hunn! ILY!
hehe I'm in a super goooooood moood!
I was soooo blah yesterday. crappy ***. Wanted to go hide in a cave, planned to, was going to, but then Hayati (Haylie) called! I love that bum oh sooooo much! She unknowingly changed my mind about the cave. lolly She calls me and is like “I haven't spoken to you in so long! (We hadn't spoken in about a week) I need my fix of Rani” And I laugh even though I had no idea what a fix was but I was sure I heard something else so I'm like “what? ur fix of rani?” lolly and then she explains to me how it's like when them peeps take drugs or w/e and I'm like “so i'm a drug now?!? :O” and she's lollying and is like “yeah!” (wtfish? this is the third time i've been called a drug!) and then she's all randomly “I love you” and I'm like “Ily2 girl” and she's like “I love talking to you!” And I'm like “what?” (Haylie usually isn't all this lovey-dovey ish lolly) and she's like “okay, Imma be really sappy now. I love talking to you. You're my only friend that I can go to expecting results and I always get them. With everyone else they're all blah (she didn't actually say blah, i forgot what she said exactly but it meant blah lmao) but with you, I can go to you and get the results I expect” or I think she said need… lolly but yeah basically that, it was soooooooooooo sweeeeeeet! I was alll “awwwwwwww” lmao and she said this other day to me, “I love you so much (she usually says ilysm right before she gets into a rare sappy mode. lmao) You're the only one I can call when I'm about to die and you're all like 'Insha'Allah' and fix it” and i'm like “I say insha'Allah to u dying? ” and she lollyies and is like “no, u just make everything alright, u fix it.” lolly the girl was making me teary
hehe. I think i'm hiiigh! lmao, i'm in SUCH an AWESOME mood! Alhamdulillah!
ily haylie!
lolly, yeah just wanted to share that with u guys.
heheee i feeel sooooooooooo SPECIAL! Feeling special is so awesome! Especially since I know she meant every single word she said to me!
aaaaah that was JUST what i needed to hear!
lolly
I love myself! I'm super coool! *giggles* I'm hiiiiiiiiiiiiigh! LMAO!
okay i go before i make a fool of myself… if i haven't already lmao!
lmao
wow I didn't think you'd remmeber every word I said and I actually forgot about it til now haha
It feels weird to be quoted, but awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww I'm glad I was able to better your day to that extent.
I love the number of happy faces you put in the post, thats hilarious
11 super happy faces, and 2 squigly-cross-eyed faces. It was fun counting them
lolly ILY HAYLIE!
I didn't remember every single word, thass why i used the blah! lmao
and yes awwwwwww i know! ILY! *pulls ur cheeks* hehe, I pulled jur cheeks at sunday school last sunday! lmao wooooooot!
and ur a bum u actually counted them! lmao! one of the many reasons why ily! i like how u called them super happy faces.
ilysm!
p.s. it's so awesome to see u on the forum!
I miss him, and he's out there having the time of his life, his arms around a gazillion women. How is this FAIR?!
I need a break which I'm never going to get.
Peek a Booooooooooooooooo!
I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so that you eventually learn to trust yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. – – – Sometimes you need to forget what you want and remember what you deserve. – – – Nobody said that it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
If he's having the time of his life, let him. He doesn't even know what he's missing, what he's letting go of for a few days of fun. One day he'll realize how much you loved him and regret all of his mistakes. But that day you'll be waking up with the man that already knew what he held when you were in his arms. And jaana, you deserve someone who knows your worth. and jur priceless my shnookumz!!!
I love you oh so much, twin ji. Hang in there, jaana, you'll make it through. I'll be with you… jaise tera aasmaan…
I'm exhausted.
So am I.
I miss him, and he's out there having the time of his life, his arms around a gazillion women. How is this FAIR?!
I need a break which I'm never going to get.
He took you for granted. He's busy collecting stones and the stupid fool doesn't even realize he's lost a diamond. You're worth so much more.
I need that break too. Really wish it were possible jaana. But we just have to learn to dance in this rain till then. I love you!
I'm exhausted.
The blahness type of exhaustion is the most tiring. Rest your heart a while with me? <3 I love you, feel better soon Dia… x
1. I've been invited to a wedding.
2. it's in Turkey
Why should something so beautiful and exciting cause feelings of dread?
I'm absolutely miserable!
1. I've been invited to a wedding.
2. it's in Turkey
Why should something so beautiful and exciting cause feelings of dread?
I'm absolutely miserable!
aww jaana… I wish there was something I could do to make you feel less miserable… Insha'Allah when you go, you'll have such an awesome time you'll feel silly for dreading it… ameen. ilysm.
I'm exhausted.
The blahness type of exhaustion is the most tiring. Rest your heart a while with me? <3 I love you, feel better soon Dia… x
thank you. ily2 🙂
So am I.
I'm sorry…
I'm fucking pissed off at this stupid ass world. I'm turning fucking 19 and I'm still being treated like a crappy 9 year old. What the fucking hell does age matter when you have no fucking freedom to do what you want to do – what the hell it's just a stupid shitty number. We die when it's written for us to die, and age has nothing to do with that. So why the hell does it matter so much that we get older when all that happens when you get older is all the stupid ass problems get fucking worse by the minute? I have never been this unexcited to turn a year older. And why oh why oh why has this world forgotten fairness? Where the hell did people learn to treat people sooooo damned unfairly? This fucking world really isn't fair. And I don't give a shiit how right they are because they're being so fucking wrong by being so damned unfair. This is supposed to be my time to have fun, to be stupid, cuz I can't do it later on for whatever reason. I'm not a fucking kid, I don't need to be treated like one. Damned idiotic shiit man, now I feel like a stupid kid. But they don't even let me be a kid, and nor do they let me grow up.
Why does everything have to go wrong all at once?
I miss you so much… this world seems so ugly and cruel without you… Ley chal wahaan jo mulk tera hai, jaahil zamaana dushman mera hai… Where have you gone when I need you so much? Nothing feels right without you. Please make it right again… please give me back that twinkle of hope in my eyes that is slowly burning out. I can't afford to let that twinkle of hope burn out from my eyes… just give me one reason… one sign… to let it burn a moment longer… En aankhon ka teri ishaara miley, jeena ka kuch toh sahaara miley…
Aye bekhabar… I need you…
For Rani... I love you... *hug*
--MALE--
Duniya mein kitni hain nafratein
Phir bhi dilon mein hain chaahatein
Duniya mein kitni hain nafratein
Phir bhi dilon mein hain chaahatein
Mar bhi jaaye pyaar waale
Mit bhi jaaye yaar waale
Zinda rehti hain unki mohabbatein
Zinda rehti hain unki mohabbatein
--CHORUS--
Aah aah...
--FEMALE--
Mar bhi jaaye pyaar waale
Mit bhi jaaye yaar waale
Zinda rehti hain unki mohabbatein
Zinda rehti hain unki mohabbatein
--CHORUS--
Aah aah...
Taken from the orginal BWL lyrics website...
Mehhhhhhhhhh.
Loooooooonely.
i have many friends, and God has blessed me with a big family, and im constantly surrounded never alone. but even though im smiling and laughing, deep down…im lonely. ive never felt more alone, i just want to cry. and i dont know why.
SmokinAce: I know the feeling so well… if it's any consolation, at least you are acknowledging that you are alone and you just want to cry… I on the other hand seem too scared to go down that Alone path again… it's a lonely path and takes a lot of courage to walk down. And no one can help us with it but ourselves………..
Sigh.
thank you boo for your kind words. i know its a tough road, but you and i will both be alright.
Boo, I LOVE AN MISS U. Hope dis makes u smile, *me singing* u are NOT ALONE, I am ther wud u, though we'r Far A part, ur always in my HEART. *hug* ACES: Above song 4 u to dear. Hope u feel fulfilled from within… ~ALIE~
thank you madhuriya for your kind and thoughtful words, it means alot.
I want a holiday. 🙁
I want a holiday. 🙁
Me too…
… at one point, you just stop caring. You just put your middle finger in the air and say “F.u.c.k you”. I finally became that girl. And you know what? It feels kinda damn good.
Wanna talk about it ji?
I know exactly what you mean… but so oddly, I'm at peace now.. I don't even feel the NEED to say eff you any more… :/
I'm listening to the new version of Bachna Ae Haseeno… it ALWAYS makes me want to get up and dance!
lol I think you'll know exactly how I feel cuz its what you went through and what you wrote about on Dec.15th. Go check. I really hope you know what I'm talking about It just feels so damn good to put my middle finger up and say “you know what…. EFF U!” lmao. Aaaah I love you Shrekkerzzzz!
I'm so happy you're at peace, yaaay! *hugs*
I have a cold. My brother said I sound like a duck. Lmbo. I always sound like a duck when I have a cold!
Exactly. It's not arrogance (as most people seem to think it is), it's…… the result of long days and longer nights taking their toll on you.
Blah. I don't know what I am blabbing.
I know what you're saying, and you're right. Spot on, actually.
Yeh ishq nahin aasan,
Bas itna samaj lijiye…
Ek aag ka dariya hai,
Aur doob ke jaana hai…
Wah? Wah? *giggle*
Oh how I miss Khushi.. and KABHI KHUSHI KABHIE GHAM!! I HAVEN'T SEEN THAT FILM IN AGES!
And you know, so randomly yesterday… I thought of the Village Lounge Nitz created… only he could come up with something like that…
Good old trip down Nostalgia Lane, huh? I loved the whole of “Lyrics Corner” <3
I miss Shereena and Aman's banter. LOL it was hilarious!
I KNOW!! Hahahaha… and Nitz and Oreo's comments on their conversations going “what language is this!!” LOL… hehe… it took a while for me to understand what they were on about sometimes… hehe!
And Lisa with her hammock… man I want a hammock!
Come to my house! I have one!
*flies over to Tayba's house*
I want garam garam samosas please!
of course! and some Cadbury!! and KKHH in the dvd player!
Let's watch something new, ji…
New year, new start and all that jazz… yaknow…
Ok but we will still watch A Walk To Remember seeing as SOMEONE has only seen bits of it on *gasps* YOUTUBE!
and then we'll read Twilight together and discuss Edward Cullen's absolute sexyness. *FAINTS*
WHO IS THAT SOMEONE!!! LEMME AT THEM!! How could they NOT watch all of it!!
(erm…. *sheepish grin*)
WHO IS THAT SOMEONE!!! LEMME AT THEM!! How could they NOT watch all of it!!
(erm…. *sheepish grin*)
LOL pathetic attempt SHREK, PATHETIC ATTEMPT!
We will so watch that movie together!
Now go buy Twilight at its marked price! Do not go and try to find a desi discount anywhere, you will not find it! Oh wait! Amazo does it cheaper around the world! Go to amazon and buy the whole saga! and then ring me so I can discuss with you how Edward Cullen is so perfect and how unfortunate it is that HE IS NOT REAL
WHY?? DAMMIT!! WHYYYY?! *moans*
WHO IS THAT SOMEONE!!! LEMME AT THEM!! How could they NOT watch all of it!!
(erm…. *sheepish grin*)
LOL pathetic attempt SHREK, PATHETIC ATTEMPT!
We will so watch that movie together!
Now go buy Twilight at its marked price! Do not go and try to find a desi discount anywhere, you will not find it! Oh wait! Amazon does it cheaper around the world! Go to amazon and buy the whole saga! and then ring me so I can discuss with you how Edward Cullen is so perfect and how unfortunate it is that HE IS NOT REAL
WHY?? DAMMIT!! WHYYYY?! *moans*
LMAO.. I'll just borrow it from the library… one of these days!
Uh huh honey honey… and now I'm about to see what you mean to me…
Oh I LOVE music!!
I was so intrigued by this whole Twilight malarky I tried to watch the film online lmbo… Unfortunately, I couldn't seem to find a full version anywhere and I was feeling too lazy to search any further…
My new year's resolution is to read a lot more of everything and learn as much as I can… which fits in nicely with your trying to make me read Twilight series! Does anyone have any?
Oh, and doesn't the Bella girl in Twilight remind you a little of Hermione Granger in Harry Potter? (My days I am going to DIE of shame if someone tells me she actually IS Hermione Granger off Harry Potter… )
READ THE BOOK BEFORE YOU WATCH THE MOVIE! PLEASE! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PUHLEAAAAAAAAAASEEEE!
The movie does not do ANY JUSTICE to the BOOK. Robert Pattinson is VERY HOT but he does not come near the hotness of Edward Cullen.
And do not get me started on Kristen Stewart (movie Bella) SHE DOESN'T EVEN BLUSH OR ACT CLUMSY IN THE MOVIE! I mean they're alrightish… but they don't fit the book characters as well as they should or could. And POOR JACOB… POOR POOR JACOB…. *sniffs*
You'll understand once you read the books DO NOT GET IT FROM THE LIBRARY U BUM! *Relives The Notebook situation* LOL!
I have all four books in the saga!
Btw she is not Emma Watson (Hermoine Granger) altho I can see some similarities! lol!
Oh I definitely am going to get the book sometime
-Before I ever watch the movie!- Movies spoil it!
And the Twilight girl looks nothing like our dear own Hermione Granger! Although, she is beautiful!
And damn, You – Know – Who killed Cedric, and the dude made it even better in Twilight!!
I am SO hungry and feeling SO stressed… and yet, I am not stressed. Man… this kind of stress I can handle… give me a heart ache and I completely crumble!
Tayba ji OK OK I will read the books first!
I am SO hungry and feeling SO stressed… and yet, I am not stressed. Man… this kind of stress I can handle… give me a heart ache and I completely crumble!
Tayba ji OK OK I will read the books first!
not bad boogedy…it rhymes! fallin in love has definitely done u some (very very minor) good.
Glad my falling in love has been given your seal of approval, Mr. Oreo… that has been my dream all my life…
I'm listening to Tom Jones' Sex Bomb… loooovely song!
*siigh* I'm home again. It feels weird to come here after so long… for my own selfish reasons. It's weird that I've been annoyed at everyone for staying off the forum for whatever random reasons and now I've done the same. lol. Actually, it's not funny, it's sad. But at the same time… it's nice. I used to come here when nothing made sense, when I was lonely, when I needed some love, when I was tired of my life. And now, once again, I'm here again for those same reasons. Maybe, just maybe, not everything has to change…
Me too… Me too. One of the main reasons why I came back… needed to re-read those old and beautiful pms.
*satisfied sigh* Twin moment ji. I was on FB a while ago and I said those exact words to a friend… well maybe not exact, lmao I said *sheepish giggle* LMAO But anyhow, you were also on my mind as I was logging on and here you are… magically putting a smile on my face just like the old days.
I love this place.
I concur…on both points.
Coming home feels 'odd', yet I love it here. Quite the cnnundrum. hahah
Thanks for finding me today and bringing back the memories of being stared at in public places because of my ridiculously loud laugh! hahaha I love you!
I FEEL absolutely Broken. FINALLY letting it out shows me the extent of this experience..my feelings..
I feel like i am an outsider observing everything and everyone around me…my own thoughts are like echoes of someone elses conversation.
*Sigh* I wish life could stop for a whole second so I can breathe again, so I can FEEL my uncried tears on my face once more… I feel numb… like… theres just nothing left…
am still trying to understand the way this universe works…a second of pure blissfull happiness and an infinitey of sorrow…
..
I concur…on both points.
Coming home feels 'odd', yet I love it here. Quite the cnnundrum. hahah
Thanks for finding me today and bringing back the memories of being stared at in public places because of my ridiculously loud laugh! hahaha I love you!
Man u need to stop using words I don't understand! I'm too laz to google it you know! It's a lot easier on the phone cuz then I can just ask you for the meaning! lol cnnundrum my foot! and why do I feel like you spelled it wrong? lmao it looks wrong. oh how I love you too sweetheart!
*deeeeeeeeeeeep breath*
(I'm doing as it says on the box…)
Relieved, grateful and blessed..
I concur…on both points.
Coming home feels 'odd', yet I love it here. Quite the cnnundrum. hahah
Thanks for finding me today and bringing back the memories of being stared at in public places because of my ridiculously loud laugh! hahaha I love you!
Man u need to stop using words I don't understand! I'm too laz to google it you know! It's a lot easier on the phone cuz then I can just ask you for the meaning! lol cnnundrum my foot! and why do I feel like you spelled it wrong? lmao it looks wrong. oh how I love you too sweetheart!
Aren't you in college…you know 13th grade??? lmbo
Yes, it is misspelled…mayhaps you need to invest in a G1.
I love you too. <3
Relieved, grateful and blessed..
Hey, I was going to reply to your “~now~” post yesterday but I ran out of time and could only make one post. I'm glad to see that you are better now, but if you still need to talk or let it out, then I'm here for you. Don't hesitate to pm me.
*deeeeeeeeeeeep breath*
(I'm doing as it says on the box…)
What box!?!?
I concur…on both points.
Coming home feels 'odd', yet I love it here. Quite the cnnundrum. hahah
Thanks for finding me today and bringing back the memories of being stared at in public places because of my ridiculously loud laugh! hahaha I love you!
Man u need to stop using words I don't understand! I'm too laz to google it you know! It's a lot easier on the phone cuz then I can just ask you for the meaning! lol cnnundrum my foot! and why do I feel like you spelled it wrong? lmao it looks wrong. oh how I love you too sweetheart!
Aren't you in college…you know 13th grade??? lmbo
Yes, it is misspelled…mayhaps you need to invest in a G1.
I love you too. <3
Hey hey hey! Just because I'm in the 13th grade (I CALL IT THAT TOO BTW! LMAO) doesn't mean I listened during all of the previous 12 years! and why do I need to invest in a G1 for?!? Those phones?!?! Stop confusing meee! lmao oooh u did the <3 thing, I never liked that much lmao but it looks cute on you! hehe ilyTHREE!!!
Hey girls..
Does being a woman stop you/scare you about doing certain things?
I'm not talking about the whole suppressed-because-you're-a-woman-and-your-family-don't-think-you-deserve-an-education type thing, or the whole sexism-in-the-workplace thing… but… does it scare you sometimes, to go out into the world and do as you will, because you're worried about the things that can happen to you as a woman?
Put it this way – would you be able to walk the streets of Mumbai at night time on your own? And would you feel more confident doing that if you had a male chaperone with you? (Not that it's as simple as that, cos stuff can still happen but… you get what I'm trying to ask… I hope… lol)
I dunno… sometimes, it just seems like there are so many things out there to experience, but you need a silly guy with you to do so… or if you're rich enough, a bodyguard will do.
Lol.. seriously though… thoughts, anyone?
Hey girls..
Does being a woman stop you/scare you about doing certain things?
I'm not talking about the whole suppressed-because-you're-a-woman-and-your-family-don't-think-you-deserve-an-education type thing, or the whole sexism-in-the-workplace thing… but… does it scare you sometimes, to go out into the world and do as you will, because you're worried about the things that can happen to you as a woman?
Put it this way – would you be able to walk the streets of Mumbai at night time on your own? No, I would be hekka scared! lol And would you feel more confident doing that if you had a male chaperone with you? Yes, I actually would! Definitely! (Not that it's as simple as that, cos stuff can still happen but… you get what I'm trying to ask… I hope… lol)
I dunno… sometimes, it just seems like there are so many things out there to experience, but you need a silly guy LMAO @ SILLY GUY! with you to do so… or if you're rich enough, a bodyguard will do. I want ABHISHEK!!!
Lol.. seriously though… thoughts, anyone?
But guys are so awesome. I love them. LMAO And anyhow, it's no fun doing stuff alone though. I don't like going out alone or walking the streets by myself, I need someone with me. I'm too dependent on people sometimes. lol
I love it!
Hey girls..
Does being a woman stop you/scare you about doing certain things?
I'm not talking about the whole suppressed-because-you're-a-woman-and-your-family-don't-think-you-deserve-an-education type thing, or the whole sexism-in-the-workplace thing… but… does it scare you sometimes, to go out into the world and do as you will, because you're worried about the things that can happen to you as a woman?
Put it this way – would you be able to walk the streets of Mumbai at night time on your own? And would you feel more confident doing that if you had a male chaperone with you? (Not that it's as simple as that, cos stuff can still happen but… you get what I'm trying to ask… I hope… lol)
I dunno… sometimes, it just seems like there are so many things out there to experience, but you need a silly guy with you to do so… or if you're rich enough, a bodyguard will do.
Lol.. seriously though… thoughts, anyone?
Yes, it scares me. Because as independent as I want to be (and you guys know how much being free means to me), I know that if a group of guys came up to me with the wrong type of thoughts, I would freak out. I would feel safer if I had a man with me, as he is physically stronger than me and I'd feel protected. But it does really get to me, in fact it irritates me so much that there are things out there I'd like to experience but I'd never ever be allowed to experience alone… I don't think I could walk the streets of Mumbai alone at night… I can't even walk the streets of London alone at night! lol. Sadly. Blaaaah! I guess that's why my dad never let me study abroad. Now that is one experience I would have LOVED to be a part of. BLAH! And still stupidly, I look for jobs overseas . Ah dreams!
Let's take self defence classes. Learn to kick butt. lol.
Babe you already know how to kick butt…
I know what you mean about it getting to you and irritating you… it's the SAME with me (any surprises there? )… I'll just have to find guy friends who want to travel the world with me then lol.
*Yet another time I wish I were a guy* Booooo we could've traveled togetherrrrrr!!!!! You know what? We will find a way to do that too… *goes to search for two hunky guys* lmao!
I miss Khushi…
“My Little Candle Of Hope.“
…
Hhahahahahah… oh this crazy internet world we live in… I just had a mental image of you typing into Google “Hunky guys for Boo and me, to travel around the world with” HAHAHAHAH….
Try couchsurfing.
I feel ill. 🙁
And it's been ten years since BWL… according to the dates at the bottom saying “1998 – 2008 BollywoodLyrics.com”… how lovely. We should do something…
boooo ily
ilytoooo!
The other day, I cried for the memories of being hopelessly in love… it wasn't a painful tear-shedding session, nor a tears-of-joy-flowing-from-my-eyes kind of thing… no, it was more just laughing at the memories and my innocence and then crying for the beauty of them.
I am so, so, SO Iris from The Holiday….
I am so, so, SO Iris from The Holiday….
OMG! SO AM I!!!!! I was just telling this to Asma the other day! LOL aaaah another similarity Shrekkerz!!! <3333 lmbo.
And that Ba$tard from the newspaper… HE reminds me SO much of…. well, you know…
The way Iris would do everything, run around after him… just for a smile from him. Ahhh! Lmbo poor thing!!!
*sigh* I LOVE U BOO!
oh and by the by… Jude Law is well fit. Lmbo
THANK you! FINALLY someone who agrees with the total hotness that is Jude Law.
Hey, I was going to reply to your “~now~” post yesterday but I ran out of time and could only make one post. I'm glad to see that you are better now, but if you still need to talk or let it out, then I'm here for you. Don't hesitate to pm me.
Hi Rani,
Thanks for yr thoughts dear..means a lot to me..can I ask that u make a small lil dua for me:) thanks
will keep yr offer to talk in mind for future…take care of yourself ok and inshallah I hope all is well with u 🙂
Not sure how I feel…am just exhausted ..confused …tumbling downhill really fast…
SIGH
THANK you! FINALLY someone who agrees with the total hotness that is Jude Law.
lol are u surprised that I agree?
sorry I missed u on gmail earlier hun, didn't realise I left it on.
I feel like I'm breaking.
I wish you could be here and have cheesy curly fries (with BBQ and mint sauce… don't you dare go “ewww” on me like everyone else does – I'll have you know it's a kickass combination!!) with me, Tayba. There's no one else in the world I want with me right now but you… sigh.
Don't break… main hoon, na?
I wish you could be here and have cheesy curly fries (with BBQ and mint sauce… don't you dare go “ewww” on me like everyone else does – I'll have you know it's a kickass combination!!) with me, Tayba. There's no one else in the world I want with me right now but you… sigh.
Don't break… main hoon, na?
*Lets the tears flow in Shrek's arms…*
Those simple and beautiful words mean so much to me right now. I really needed to hear them because I feel so alone. I love you so beyond words. And that sauce sounds perfect. Because I'll be sharing it with you.
I absolutely love you, Tayba. And your tears will always find a home in me… but… eat the sauce at your own risk though, Donkey. You are not allowed to smoosh me with the sauce, ok ji?
Hey, I was going to reply to your “~now~” post yesterday but I ran out of time and could only make one post. I'm glad to see that you are better now, but if you still need to talk or let it out, then I'm here for you. Don't hesitate to pm me.
Hi Rani,
Thanks for yr thoughts dear..means a lot to me..can I ask that u make a small lil dua for me:) thanks
will keep yr offer to talk in mind for future…take care of yourself ok and inshallah I hope all is well with u 🙂
Of course I will make dua for you. You take care of yourself too and Alhamdulillah things are okay with me.
I feel like I'm breaking.
I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting, but I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in place.
I really needed to hear them because I feel so alone.
Dear friend, please don't feel like you're alone. There is someone who is praying for your peace of mind (Sakeena). Hoping joy is what you'll find.
I love you.
I feel so wrong and helpless.
scratch that – i feel awesome!
I miss so many people and so many things that it hurts.
Filhaal, I miss Khushi and lover ji…
I've been reading Khush's pm posts to me… and it's making me cry so much… *siigh*
And how quickly the tears turned into smiles and giggles as I read another one of her posts… I remember that night so well… what a beautiful night it was for both of us…
That you would spend
A few moments of your life
With me
That you would give me
All I ever needed
Is Enough.
“I love you” doesn't cut it, but… I love you.
Booooooooo awwwwwwwwww hai hai main sajdke jawaaaan kudiye!
OMG GUYS RANI IS ACTUALLY A GENIUS!! SHE KNOWS THE TUNES OF SONGS BEFORE SHE'S EVEN HEARD THEM!
pffft… trying to tease me huh? How about this.. I take a twist on the “kids say the darndest things” saying, “RANIs say the darndest things” and she goes, “Oh wait I'm confused… was that actually a typo? Rani says?”
Of course I'm a genius! I'm oh so clever!
and OYE! chup kar! I didn't know you were trying to be a copy cat!!!!!
*siiigh*
I feel overwhelmed and helpless and tired and sad. And I'll smile throughout it all because no notices I'm fooling them with my broken smile.
But when no one else even notices, Allah knows. Jiska koi nahi hota, uska Khuda hota hai. He who has no one, has God.
You. You bloody fool. You're probably sleeping right now, but let me tell you this – nobody, and I mean no-f***ing-body can ever, ever hope to love you as much as I love you. Ever. I adore you beyond words, sentiments, the universe and Shah Rukh Khan himself. I live for you, I breathe for you. Every single goddamn step in life, I take because I know that is what you would have wanted me to do. Every single thing I do, you are always there, always… your voice in my head, muttering my name and love beyond expression.
I know we've parted – and parted we shall remain – but you will always, always, have a place in my heart. You will always be loved by me. How can I not love you, you who understands and knows me so well, you with whom the world just stops… how can I not… how…
Maybe one day, one sweet day, you will realise how much you have come to mean to me. How much influence you had on this little girl's life, and for the beautiful better. How this girl who can be construed as mad in every sense of the word, still cherishes those innocent letters of conversation between you and her. How they are her most favourite possession in the whole word… a few words, typed in gay abandon, across a screen… how that is all she ever looks to and looks back on.
Maybe one day you will understand, how you gave me the biggest gift I could ever want – life.
I know you, mister. I know you want to see me fly through the open skies, I know you never meant to break my heart and crush my dreams……….. and believe you me, I will. I will be happy and I will be the craziest.
Because I love you and I want you to be happy, just like you want me to be happy.
Maybe one day, you will see. You will understand my love for you cannot even begin to be matched by anyone else… not even yourself.
You will always be loved by me. How can I not love you, you who understands and knows me so well, you with whom the world just stops… how can I not… how…
Maybe one day, one sweet day, you will realise how much you have come to mean to me. How much influence you had on this little girl's life, and for the beautiful better. How this girl who can be construed as mad in every sense of the word, still cherishes those innocent letters of conversation between you and her. How they are her most favourite possession in the whole word… a few words, typed in gay abandon, across a screen… how that is all she ever looks to and looks back on.
Maybe one day you will understand, how you gave me the biggest gift I could ever want – life.
I know you, mister. I know you want to see me fly through the open skies, I know you never meant to break my heart and crush my dreams……….. and believe you me, I will. I will be happy and I will be the craziest.
Because I love you and I want you to be happy, just like you want me to be happy.
Maybe one day, you will see. You will understand my love for you cannot even begin to be matched by anyone else… not even yourself.
Awww twin ji… I love you.
How can I not… you… you with whom the world just stops… how can I not… how…
Maybe one day, one sweet day, you will realise how much you have come to mean to me. How much influence you had on this little girl's life, and for the beautiful better. How this girl who can be construed as mad in every sense of the word, still cherishes those innocent letters of conversation between you and her. How they are her most favourite possession in the whole word… a few words, typed in gay abandon, across a screen… how that is all she ever looks to and looks back on.
Maybe one day you will understand, how you gave me the biggest gift I could ever want – life.
I will be happy and I will be the craziest.
I want you to be happy,
Maybe one day, you will see. You will understand my… cannot even begin to be matched by anyone else…
[… and that's why I'm different. Thank you, Haylie. I love you.]
I feel you, twin ji…
This time last year, I was paining over him. One year later, and I am still paining over him. I'm so so so scared I'll go back to those old days of crying every day for a good eight or nine months, not even one day without tear drops adorning my torn, painful self.
I was watching something on DVD, where the guy just says to his wife at the end of the conversation, “I love you”… and that made me realise how much I missed hearing those words from a guy. I missed their warmth, their comfort… I missed them so much.
This time last year, I was paining over him. One year later, and I am still paining over him. I'm so so so scared I'll go back to those old days of crying every day for a good eight or nine months, not even one day without tear drops adorning my torn, painful self.
I was watching something on DVD, where the guy just says to his wife at the end of the conversation, “I love you”… and that made me realise how much I missed hearing those words from a guy. I missed their warmth, their comfort… I missed them so much.
You've come a looooong way sweet Boo! And you become stronger each day. This day isn't a set back, it just dreaded nostalgia! You and nostalgia are quite a team! Stay strong lovely and drop me a line anytime please. I've missed this place…AND THE GREEN IS BACK! WOO HOO!! lol
Oh…and, I love you.
I was JUST thinking, as I was opening the BWL page (before it even loaded..) about how I should drop you a line, asking you how you have been… and then I see this.
Thank you, Nessa. Honestly – thank you. I guess pain fogs your perspective sometimes, and I needed to hear these words from someone from outside the fog… 🙂
Oh dear… I am sounding like I'm at an AA meeting or something! Although, you know… there really should be one for lost loves!! LLA…
I love you too…
I've been thinking the same thing for the past week…about you, I mean!
Anything to bring you outta the fog!
Will pm you my personal email addy…man I missed you and that red pen! lmbo
This time last year, I was paining over him. One year later, and I am still paining over him. I'm so so so scared I'll go back to those old days of crying every day for a good eight or nine months, not even one day without tear drops adorning my torn, painful self.
I was watching something on DVD, where the guy just says to his wife at the end of the conversation, “I love you”… and that made me realise how much I missed hearing those words from a guy. I missed their warmth, their comfort… I missed them so much.
…. I won't say anything, I'll just hug you and hope you feel the warmth of my love.
Numb.
How funny, while you're feeling numb, I am on the other side feeling a rush of emotions for loves past come slowly but surely back towards me… like a wave that I know is going to form when it hits the shore… and I can only keep using all of my mental willpower to stop it from coming but I know one day or other, my heart will snap from all the tension of the stretching it has been doing, and the waves of tears will come crashing down on me.
And I wish to be numb numb numb to it all… enjoy the numbness sweetheart, use it to your advantage… feelings may be good and all, but sometimes if life were to give you a magical pain-numbing cream, you just gotta grab it with both hands and rub it all over all the wounds of the past and the present.
Nessa – I look forward to your correspondance…
And I wish to be numb numb numb to it all… enjoy the numbness sweetheart, use it to your advantage… feelings may be good and all, but sometimes if life were to give you a magical pain-numbing cream, you just gotta grab it with both hands and rub it all over all the wounds of the past and the present.
I feel you.
Dil hai toh phir dard hoga, dard hai toh dil bhi hoga.
I cannot emphasize that line enough. I love it so much. I love you so much.
Numb.
Jaane tu ya jaane na phool phir khil jaate hai.
Iloveyou.
[Taking a small break from my break to come to this haven of mine. Why? Because sometimes we need to do things to keep ourselves sane.]
She sits in the corner
singing herself to sleep
wrapped up in all the promises
no one seems to keep.
Sometimes when you need to hear those words the most (I love you), you're the one that ends up saying them first.
Promises shouldn't be broken…
It's so easy to make promises, to say you'll be there for someone… but it's actually showing up that matters the most. I've had so many people tell me they'll be there for me… but when it was time to fulfill their promise, did they show up? Forget showing up, they couldn't even offer a mere “I love you”.
I have so many emotions, so much pain inside of me that I don't know which one to take care of first. But you know what? Dil hai toh phir dard hoga (If there is a heart, then there will be pain), dard hai toh dil bhi hoga (if there is pain, then there must be a heart). Because Dil toh aakhir dil hai na (a heart is, after all, a heart), meethi si mushkil hai na (it's a sweet sort of hardship).
This test that we call life, it's also a game. And I'm still alive.
…
Sometimes when you need to hear those words the most (I love you), you're the one that ends up saying them first.
Promises shouldn't be broken…
It's so easy to make promises, to say you'll be there for someone… but it's actually showing up that matters the most. I've had so many people tell me they'll be there for me… but when it was time to fulfill their promise, did they show up? Forget showing up, they couldn't even offer a mere “I love you”.
I have so many emotions, so much pain inside of me that I don't know which one to take care of first. But you know what? Dil hai toh phir dard hoga (If there is a heart, then there will be pain), dard hai toh dil bhi hoga (if there is pain, then there must be a heart). Because Dil toh aakhir dil hai na (a heart is, after all, a heart), meethi si mushkil hai na (it's a sweet sort of hardship).
If ur referring to me above, I'm sorry I couldn't get to you sooner sweetheart…
BELIEVE ME sweetheart – the world has PLENTY of beautiful things, and one day – one damn fine beautiful sweet day – you will find your inspiration, your own beautiful secret to life that will stop you from EVER being sad again… you HAVE TO have faith… life is WAY WAY WAY TOO SHORT for you to EVER lose faith…
I can't pull you out of this sadness. Heavens know I wish I could, but I CAN'T. Only YOU can do that, sweety… only YOU can come up with YOUR OWN SWEET INSPIRATION FOR LIVING… and the most BEAUTIFUL thing will be, that you came up with it YOURSELF. Sometimes we look outside our own selves for love and comfort, that we forget there is always, always a welcome place in our heart for ourselves.
FIND IT, sweetheart… whatever it is that's getting you down – DON'T let it get the better of you.
You are a BEAUTIFUL person. Discover yourself.
BELIEVE ME sweetheart – the world has PLENTY of beautiful things I know… 🙂, and one day – one damn fine beautiful sweet day – you will find your inspiration Insha'Allah! 🙂 , your own beautiful secret to life that will stop you from EVER being sad again Insha'Allah… 🙂 … you HAVE TO have faith… life is WAY WAY WAY TOO SHORT for you to EVER lose faith… I haven't lost faith… I've just lost my strength for the moment. And yes… yeh zindagi bohot lambi hai, aur humare paas waqt bohot kam hai. I know, sweeti, I know.
I can't pull you out of this sadness. Heavens know I wish I could, but I CAN'T. Only YOU can do that, sweety… only YOU can come up with YOUR OWN SWEET INSPIRATION FOR LIVING… and the most BEAUTIFUL thing will be, that you came up with it YOURSELF :)… that would be beautiful, wouldn't it? This sounds like something I would say… I guess I just needed to hear it from my twin, my reflection… 🙂 . Sometimes we look outside our own selves for love and comfort, that we forget there is always, always a welcome place in our heart for ourselves. Oh jaana… I need to find that welcome place… I'm too tired of looking and not finding anything 🙁 *rests in boo's arms*
FIND IT, sweetheart… whatever it is that's getting you down – DON'T let it get the better of you. I'm trying… I promise you, I'm trying like I've never tried before.
You are a BEAUTIFUL person. Discover yourself. This is one of the most beautiful and sweetest thing someone has said to me recently. I love you oh so much.
Boo! LOL I was NOT referring to you! Yes, I did have certain people in my mind while I was writing that, but you did not come up, twin ji.
I will repy to your emails soon insha'Allah
I love you. Seriously, I love you.
*siiigh*
If this isn't love, I don't know what is….
If you ever leave, baby you would take away everything, the good and the bad…. how do I live without you? How do I breathe without you?
How do I… how do I… oh how do I live without you? I need you with me…
Sigh.
If this isn't love, I don't know what is….
If you ever leave, baby you would take away everything, the good and the bad…. how do I live without you? How do I breathe without you?
How do I… how do I… oh how do I live without you? I need you with me…
Sigh.
DEFLATED….
LOST…
DEAD…
BUT not faithless yet…….
Gosssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhh…
aarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I just wanna scream and cry and yell an throw myself off the pier or just walk into the ocean or probably jump into the shark tanks at Ushaka
I wannnaaaaaaaa just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaargggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh
get this flippin feeeeeeling offf me…I wana grab ahold of God and have a long much awaited chat to him/her
I wannnnnnnaaaaaaaaaaaaa justttttttttttttttttttt ………………… I GIVE UP!!
Scarface,
I KNOW what you're going through. Don't give up. Friends are but momentary distractions, and my life at its very core feels very very lonely. I haven't felt like this in a VERY long time. But hang in there cos this is life too. I have learnt to just deal with it. Y'know? Just…. get out there and DEAL WITH IT. Life sucks and you're either dealing with it or losing it. I chose to deal with it.
On a seemingly, but not quite, disconnected note… I really REALLY REALLY want to have a baby. Oh the broodiness! A gorgeous little girl to look after. I think that's worth more than any amounts of high-flying careers. 🙁
OK, and now I have to go… sigh. I've lost hold of the person I once was, and I feel like I am now a different, yet the same, person. I don't get me anymore.
And I HATE the dating game. I HATE it. To the very core. ARGH!!!
I am MAD
I HATE certain people
I am MAD
I HATE certain people
hates too deeply negative jaana.. ur way too strong and pure for such a feeling.. wish I was there with u- physically-… just holding u…
I wish I could say I feel hate even after wat happened ..but I dnt… we cant blame ppl and circumstances for the experiences they bring into our lives right…
I feel stronger after last week.. I feel like a part of my soul had been snatched away.. although my flat has excessive security I find myself waking up in the middle of the night scared and tip toeing into the lounge to see if the house is safe…
Do I hate the ppl who had caused me to feel sooo afraid of being in my own home?? No… Whatever their reasons were for choosing me as their target…only GOD KNOWS… I think u just need to vent a lil..scream, shout…speak to someone and get it outa yr system…
if all else fails u and i can go mad together.. just knw that I am there with u..in yr Dil, ur in my duas, my heart and r a part of my soul…no matter what the situation is that is causing u to feel this way… U will outshine it and emerge a stronger woman…
I feel a lil annoyed that I cant communicate with u properly now…
take care of yrself hun….
replace the negative feeling of hate with LOVE.. coz love is the only.. the constant … the all of everything…
see everyone and every situation with love….difficult I know, but try to…
Love u
di
IT IS..
U ARE.. ITS THE BEAUTY OF EVOLVING
JUST KIDDING..THEN STOP LOOKING AT IT FROM THAT VIEWPOINT. IF ITS SOMETHING SERIOUS U WISH FOR..WHY WASTE YR TIME AND ENERGY PLAYING AROUND.. JUST PROCLAIM WAT U DEEPLY WISH FOR AND U SHALL RECEIVE…
LAW OF THE UNIVERSE..LAW OF ATTRACTION… ALL THE BEST..TC
Di, thank you for words that rescued me from the crap I was feeling at the moment..
It really did brighten me up as I was reading it.
Thank you for caring
Love you
Kav
Let your feelings out …
Do I even feel anything?
Maybe not
Or maybe Im just avoiding everything
And it feels as though Im not feeling anything
But in reality, I am [?]
Im not even sure.
When will I be able to be a better person?
To do all that I wish/need to do?
But does it even matter? Do we really have to 'do' all these stuff to survive?
I guess we do.
Because, not doing it makes you feel like things arent right and something needs to be done!
Let your feelings out …
Do I even feel anything?
Maybe not
Or maybe Im just avoiding everything
And it feels as though Im not feeling anything
But in reality, I am [?]
Im not even sure.
When will I be able to be a better person?
To do all that I wish/need to do?
But does it even matter? Do we really have to 'do' all these stuff to survive?
I guess we do.
Because, not doing it makes you feel like things arent right and something needs to be done!
oh wow. I feel you. I don't know what to say. Will a hug do? *hugs tiiiight* Chin up, sweetheart.
You know how Shakespeare said, “Alls well that ends well.”?
Well, what if it doesn't end well? Then what?
Hey Rani, thanks hun. Im okay now. How have you been?! How's Ninja?
As for the Shakespeare business that you brought up, what a good question.
I guess we have to see the glass as half full and see the wellness in all endings.
But sometimes that may be hard to do
Hey Rani, thanks hun. Im okay now. How have you been?! How's Ninja?
As for the Shakespeare business that you brought up, what a good question.
I guess we have to see the glass as half full and see the wellness in all endings.
But sometimes that may be hard to do
Shakespeare, you know I love you! But exactly what happens if all things dont end well?
Hey Rani, thanks hun. Im okay now. How have you been?! How's Ninja?
As for the Shakespeare business that you brought up, what a good question.
I guess we have to see the glass as half full and see the wellness in all endings.
But sometimes that may be hard to do
Shakespeare, you know I love you! But exactly what happens if all things dont end well?
I'm glad you're feeling better jaana. I don't know how Ninja is, really. Sorry.
No, I think you're right. We do have to see the good in every ending. Because everything happens for a reason. So things end for a reason. We may not know the reasons for them right away, but eventually we will.
Patience is virtue.
Thanks Kavita.
I'm glad you're feeling better jaana. I don't know how Ninja is, really. Sorry.
No, I think you're right. We do have to see the good in every ending. Because everything happens for a reason. So things end for a reason. We may not know the reasons for them right away, but eventually we will.
Patience is virtue.
Thanks Kavita.
Hey Rani, its okay … I guess we have to make ourselves feel okay no matter what … like those words Shakespeare used … maybe we just have to accept our situation, see ourselves as well and try with that.
You're right. Everything does happen for a reason. And many times, we are blinded to the reason. But there's a reason, even if we dont know it.
How have you been these days my darling? And how come you dont know how Ninja is *stares* I know the two of you are close as butter and bread! I hope things are okay with her though.
~Hug~
Whenever I used to feel lonely and tortured, I used to come to the forum… way, way, WAAAAYYY back in those old days…
… and now I am feeling lonely and totured… so here I am.
Sigh.
Sometimes, things suck. Like a beyotch.
I hope you feel better about the situation soon.
~Hug~
You're right. Everything does happen for a reason. And many times, we are blinded to the reason. But there's a reason, even if we dont know it.
How have you been these days my darling? And how come you dont know how Ninja is *stares* I know the two of you are close as butter and bread! I hope things are okay with her though.
~Hug~
Yes, WE have to make ourselves feel okay. Trusting ourselves, having faith in ourselves is key. It so is.
Blinded we are. But soon, we will see.
I've been miserable. Someday, somehow, I'll make it out alright.
I just didn't hear from Ninja, but she's good, alhamdulillah.
Whenever I used to feel lonely and tortured, I used to come to the forum… way, way, WAAAAYYY back in those old days…
… and now I am feeling lonely and totured… so here I am.
Sigh.
Aaah Twin ji, our twin things really touch me. Same here, darling, same here.
I love you baby. We'll be okay one day.
I am so miserable.
I have to say this.
I cried so much that my heart literally hurt. I couldn't breathe properly. My eyes stung with the tears. I couldn't stop. the tears kept coming in painful sobs that shook me completely. I finally had to stop. I had spent too much time in the bathroom, 30 minutes crying, and I was afraid someone was going to wake up and knock on the door. It was hard to stop, the tears weren't enough, I had more locked inside me, but I forced myself to stop. Good thing too, cuz my sister woke up to use the bathroom and I had to go the opposite way so she wouldn't see my puffy and red eyes. Then I ran back to the room in the silence and covered the evidence in the darkness of the night.
I woke up to find that my eyes were still red and puffy. And they still sting.
It hurts.
*hug*
*hugs back*
I miss Khushi.
I miss her too.
I am feeling so confused and messed up and crazy…………… but happy that it's SOMETHING to feel, as opposed to nothing…
*hugs* It'll be okay, jaan. It always is in the end, we just have to deal with the middle stuff, waiting for the good ending. I guess you could say that the wait is the hardest part. Waiting… intezaar quite literally kills. I've never been very good at it.
Patience. We have to practice patience… like Edward! lol
Chin up, my strongness.
I'm not going to give up. These m*f*ers can go to he.ll. URGH.
I just wish I had someone to see me through this… a guy, someone who'll hold my hand but oh well… if sailing solo is what I'm given by life, then sailing solo it will be!
Sigh.
I am so miserable.
I have to say this.
I cried so much that my heart literally hurt. I couldn't breathe properly. My eyes stung with the tears. I couldn't stop. the tears kept coming in painful sobs that shook me completely. I finally had to stop. I had spent too much time in the bathroom, 30 minutes crying, and I was afraid someone was going to wake up and knock on the door. It was hard to stop, the tears weren't enough, I had more locked inside me, but I forced myself to stop. Good thing too, cuz my sister woke up to use the bathroom and I had to go the opposite way so she wouldn't see my puffy and red eyes. Then I ran back to the room in the silence and covered the evidence in the darkness of the night.
I woke up to find that my eyes were still red and puffy. And they still sting.
It hurts.
My baby, that was a terrible night for you, that is certain…Im so sorry you had to go through all that pain. Remember what we said Shakespeare's quote probably means? We have to make ourselves feel better. I know life is a total byotch sometimes. I know. I know. I know. Trust me. I so know. If I could have taken away some of your pain that night, I so would have. Im no magician to solve problems or move mountains, but I will listen to you if you ever ever need to talk about anything, and I repeat, anything.
Im sending you some hugs to take you through all these emotions … wherever they stemmed from. I know you are a girl of strong faith. May the good Lord see you through rough times.
Hey, quoting is working today!
But argh, BWL wont let me edit my posts, else I'd add this up there.
How bout a chuckle?
I miss her too.
I am feeling so confused and messed up and crazy…………… but happy that it's SOMETHING to feel, as opposed to nothing…
Hey hun, I dont want to sound like a broken record or anything, but I know life can be a total beeyottch at times. But try your best to live above all the badness. As Im writing this, Im saying to myself, 'you give advice, but dont take it yourself!'. That shouldnt stop me from giving advice, however.
I know how its like to feel NOTHING. And I know how it can feel good to actually feel something, even if that something is kinda bad. At least you're finding some pro about feeling what you feel. And if this has to get you through it, continue to see things on the brighter side. Chin up. I hope you do feel better about things. ~~Hugs~~~
How bout a chuckle?
I'm not going to give up. These m*f*ers can go to he.ll. URGH.
Thats the spirit! Be strong. Even if you have to curse them a million times in your mind! Hug.
I just wish I had someone to see me through this… a guy, someone who'll hold my hand but oh well… if sailing solo is what I'm given by life, then sailing solo it will be!
One day he'll come along. And you'll probably look back and say, 'that wait was so freaking worth it!'. Its best to find some scum bag right now than to wait a little while, and find a good guy.
Sigh.
I'm not going to give up. These m*f*ers can go to he.ll. URGH.
I just wish I had someone to see me through this… a guy, someone who'll hold my hand but oh well… if sailing solo is what I'm given by life, then sailing solo it will be!
Sigh.
I second Kavita. He'll come along and once he does, it'll be worth the wait, he'll be worth every guy that passes you by.
And, i'm not a guy, but if you say, i can borrow my twin bro's clothes (he's going to be in Afghanistan for a while anyway!) and hold your hand pretending to be your Raj until the real thing comes along?
Im sending you some hugs to take you through all these emotions … wherever they stemmed from. I know you are a girl of strong faith. May the good Lord see you through rough times.
Yeah… we do have to make ourselves feel better. We did say that, na? And i'm trying. but I never was any good at doing things by myself. I know you would have taken my pain away if you could have, I know it. Thank you. For everything.
What about you, sweetheart? Here you are going around showering everyone in need with hugs and love and strength… but what about you? I may be broken beyond repair right now, but I like to think I'm strong enough to help you in some way, even if it's just to listen as well. If there is anything I can do for you, I'm here.
And, i'm not a guy, but if you say, i can borrow my twin bro's clothes (he's going to be in Afghanistan for a while anyway!) and hold your hand pretending to be your Raj until the real thing comes along?
Awww, how sweet of you Rani lol
And Boo can be Simran
And, i'm not a guy, but if you say, i can borrow my twin bro's clothes (he's going to be in Afghanistan for a while anyway!) and hold your hand pretending to be your Raj until the real thing comes along?
Awww, how sweet of you Rani lol
And Boo you can be Simran
Yeah… we do have to make ourselves feel better. We did say that, na? And i'm trying. but I never was any good at doing things by myself. I know you would have taken my pain away if you could have, I know it. Thank you. For everything.
What about you, sweetheart? Here you are going around showering everyone in need with hugs and love and strength… but what about you? I may be broken beyond repair right now, but I like to think I'm strong enough to help you in some way, even if it's just to listen as well. If there is anything I can do for you, I'm here.
Rani, you dont have to say thanks. Doing things ourselves can be real hard. I know that for sure. If you know anyone with some good advice on motivation and strength on doing that, let them give me a call! I guess we have to try … our best?
What about me? Emmm…. Its okay. I like to shower others with hugs and love and strength I do appreciate your selfless thoughts of wanting to help in any way. So kind of you! Well, you are a kind person . Anyway, not to worry about me right now. Im okay. At least, I make myself see that I am.
So, how's everything? Hows your summer so far?
The complexity of my situation is that I'm like Kajol in Kuch Kuch Hota Hai… even if the perfect guy does come along, I'll just keep thinking, “But… he's not him… he's not my God…“… sigh. Ae dil, chalega, ab na koi bahana…
I miss him. A lot.
cheer up gals. the worst is yet to come!
cheer up gals. the worst is yet to come!
oooooo-ooooooh Im soooo scaredddd-dddd-dddd-dddd *shivering*
Well look who's back! Oreo Schmoreo Just when I thought you made it over that cliff !
hehe How have you been?!
sorry to dissapoint u 0026 but if its a cliff that u r seeking, i will gladly lead you to one
i've been better, bad, terrible, and all other emotions that u could possibly think of.
and hw hv u been? if good then its my duty to make it worse
I miss him. A lot.
~~Hug~~
Boo >
The complexity of my situation is that I'm like Kajol in Kuch Kuch Hota Hai… even if the perfect guy does come along, I'll just keep thinking, “But… he's not him… he's not my God…“… sigh. Ae dil, chalega, ab na koi bahana…
But hun, dont you find it unrealistic for you to find the 'perfect guy' as being so imperfect ? And Im calling him the 'perfect guy' because you referred to him as that. Dont you think you are setting yourself up to never be happy? If he's described by you as being perfect, yet he's not perfect to you ….. then what?
I hope you're not unconsciously setting yourself up to be unhappy. Of course you dont want to be unhappy. No one does. At least, I think so.
Like Kajol-Anjali in KKHH, you are beautiful, you are wonderous, you are kind, you fought through many things, and they made you stronger. Even if you find a guy, and that guy isnt 'him', one day that special guy, that special one, that special Rahul will come along and sweep you off of your feet. Its better he is a bit late than he never shows him right? ~~Hugs~~~
I miss him. A lot.
~~Hug~~
Boo >
The complexity of my situation is that I'm like Kajol in Kuch Kuch Hota Hai… even if the perfect guy does come along, I'll just keep thinking, “But… he's not him… he's not my God…“… sigh. Ae dil, chalega, ab na koi bahana…
But hun, dont you find it unrealistic for you to find the 'perfect guy' as being so imperfect ? And Im calling him the 'perfect guy' because you referred to him as that. Dont you think you are setting yourself up to never be happy? If he's described by you as being perfect, yet he's not perfect to you ….. then what?
I hope you're not unconsciously setting yourself up to be unhappy. Of course you dont want to be unhappy. No one does. At least, I think so.
Like Kajol-Anjali in KKHH, you are beautiful, you are wonderous, you are kind, you fought through many things, and they made you stronger. Even if you find a guy, and that guy isnt 'him', one day that special guy, that special one, that special Rahul will come along and sweep you off of your feet. Its better he is a bit late than he never shows him right? ~~Hugs~~~
sorry to dissapoint u 0026 but if its a cliff that u r seeking, i will gladly lead you to one Awww, you'd do that for me????!!! you maddd nicee
i've been better, bad, terrible, and all other emotions that u could possibly think of. Geeeshhh, how come? all those creatures on the other side of the cliff arent treating you right?
and hw hv u been? if good then its my duty to make it worse
Wow, he actually asks! i've underestimated your power sir! i've been fine i've been fine.. Dont bet on making me feel worse buddy, of all the things that can make me feel worse, you're definitely not one of them! and ehmm, dont take that as a compliment!
I miss him. A lot.
You know what? Boys suck. Let's just get a cottage together in Switzerland and forget they exist. Assholes.
The complexity of my situation is that I'm like Kajol in Kuch Kuch Hota Hai… even if the perfect guy does come along, I'll just keep thinking, “But… he's not him… he's not my God…“… sigh. Ae dil, chalega, ab na koi bahana…
I know how it feels to miss someone. Trust me, I miss him too. More than I ever thought possible. But… what can we do?
I love that line… oh so much. The way she turns to hide the pain on her face… priceless… <3
Then I'll be your Aman… The one who loves you so completely… but not the one you're waiting for. I've played Aman in real life in more ways than one, anyway, so no biggy.
And then, when you find your Raj…
I'll be the one singing to you and be the happiest among the crowd for you. Khushiyaan jitni hai, sab dhoond dhoond ke laau, teri doli ke sang kardu saari re…
I love you, twin ji!
What about me? Emmm…. Its okay. I like to shower others with hugs and love and strength I do appreciate your selfless thoughts of wanting to help in any way. So kind of you! Well, you are a kind person . Anyway, not to worry about me right now. Im okay. At least, I make myself see that I am.
So, how's everything? Hows your summer so far?
I hope things turn out better than your dreams for you. But just remember, I'll be here if you need me.
Summer is HOT! it's burning! yuck. lol
I miss him so much… it kills.
Maybe I'm imagining things… but as long as it makes me feel better, I don't give a damn.
Because I feel like he called for me… and I answered…
…*goes off humming to herself*…
I hope things turn out better than your dreams for you. But just remember, I'll be here if you need me.
Summer is HOT! it's burning! yuck. lol
Thanks jaan. Hug. Yeahh, its beginning to get hot over here too! But the real summer hottness isnt here yet! Oh and those snapshots from KKHH are pretty, but I dont know what that line means? (the one that Boo quoted) Can you translate it for me? Thankks
I miss him. A lot.
You know what? Boys suck. Let's just get a cottage together in Switzerland and forget they exist. Assholes.
True that. Can I come too?
By the way Tabz, how are you? How have you been hun?! Missed ya.
I miss him so much… it kills.
Maybe I'm imagining things… but as long as it makes me feel better, I don't give a damn.
Because I feel like he called for me… and I answered…
…*goes off humming to herself*…
You know what, these lines remind me of the way that girl in SaawariyaI acting. I really thought she was going crazy.
But um, Rani, is there a guy we, or should i said 'I' dont know about? Not like im nosy or anything. Im not. Its just that, I dont think I remember you ever writing like this on here. About some 'him'. Hmm
Just please, dont make yourself go biazzare over some lil boy. Because in the end you will figure out that it wasnt worth it! Especially if he's not here for you. Hug.
Dude, it was boiling over here yesterday and the day before! lol enjoy it! I don't like summer. Thanks, i captured them from youtube, so not that great! My friend borrowed my KKHH DVD lmao i'm going to watch it in boo's, Khushi's, and my name as soon as I get it back from her!
Aye dil, chalega, ab na koi bahaana.
Oh heart, no excuse is going to work now.
Gorri ko hoga, ab saajan ke ghar jaana
The gorri has to go to the beloved's house now.
You know what, these lines remind me of the way that girl in SaawariyaI acting. I really thought she was going crazy.
But um, Rani, is there a guy we, or should i said 'I' dont know about? Not like im nosy or anything. Im not. Its just that, I dont think I remember you ever writing like this on here. About some 'him'. Hmm
Just please, dont make yourself go biazzare over some lil boy. Because in the end you will figure out that it wasnt worth it! Especially if he's not here for you. Hug.
OMG I saw Saawariya a few days ago three times in two days! HER NAME IS SAKEENA! I'm so HONORED my lines reminded you of her! I'm in lvoe with the name Sakeena. It means peace of mind. She was going crazy, but then again, when does intezaar ever NOT make anyone crazy?*siiigh*
Yes… there is a guy. He's not some little boy. Even if it was for just a few moments, he made me feel more loved than I ever thought possible for someone like me. He gave me so much… and left me hoping for so much more. I'll be forever grateful to him. Shukriya, shukriya mere piya. Jitne soye khaab the, sab ko jagaa diya… Thank you, my beloved. You awoke all the sleeping dreams in me. This song… *siigh*
Oh geesh. I know how it can be when its all boiling ughhh. Sighs… Good luck! Its been so rainy for the past few weeks here. The sun is starting to work now though, its prolly gonna get really darn hot soon.
Thanks for the translation. But what does gorri mean? lol. My hindi sucks. Im guessing gorri means like..heart? but isnt that dil? bride? thats dulhaniya. emm.. maybe gorri is another word for heart or bride…?
Yeah her name is Sakeena, right! Yeah but um, she was going like crazy-mad-pagal-mental, and it was starting to scare me
Aw Rani, there is a 'him'! Aw hun. Only we know what people mean to us. Hope things get better if they haven't as yet.
Oh geesh. I know how it can be when its all boiling ughhh. Sighs… Good luck! Its been so rainy for the past few weeks here. The sun is starting to work now though, its prolly gonna get really darn hot soon.
Thanks for the translation. But what does gorri mean? lol. My hindi sucks. Im guessing gorri means like..heart? but isnt that dil? bride? thats dulhaniya. emm.. maybe gorri is another word for heart or bride…?
today is better though alhamdulillah!
oh sorry, lol Gorri literally means white girl lol but it can also mean like “the girl” or something lmao im so out of it!
Yeah her name is Sakeena, right! Yeah but um, she was going like crazy-mad-pagal-mental, and it was starting to scare me
Aw Rani, there is a 'him'! Aw hun. Only we know what people mean to us. Hope things get better if they haven't as yet.
It wasn't scaring me… it felt familiar.
yes, lol there is a him I don't think there is a she for him though lol *siiigh* Yes, hope they do. Ameen.
There is a him. Omg! Oh Rani, how I feel to hug you in my arms! You're growing up! You're growing up. There are many experiences you have to go through and many things you have to face. I just hope that good things come your way. ~hug hug hug~
Btw, good to hear that there's not another outside 'she' for him!!! The 'she' for him may be closer than you think!!! winks WINKS WWIINNKKSS
ahaha! I'm not growing up! I'm falling apart! There has been a him for 617 days. You tell me how much that is in months, i'm not good at math.
Naaaah i don't think i'll ever be the “she” in his life…
but thanks Kavita sweety
cheer up gals. the worst is yet to come!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!! Look who's here…. now it's really Bachna Ae Haseeno (watch out you beauties…) huh? HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!! LOVE it!!!
Oh geesh. I know how it can be when its all boiling ughhh. Sighs… Good luck! Its been so rainy for the past few weeks here. The sun is starting to work now though, its prolly gonna get really darn hot soon.
Thanks for the translation. But what does gorri mean? lol. My hindi sucks. Im guessing gorri means like..heart? but isnt that dil? bride? thats dulhaniya. emm.. maybe gorri is another word for heart or bride…?
LOL!!!
I take back what I said to you completely Rani… I think we've got a new contestant for giving-Sapno-a-run-for-her-money… hehe!
LMAO!
*starts singing and dancing*
BACHNA AE HASEENO LO MAIN AAH GAYA
OMG OMG OMG OMG! RANBIR KAPOOR IS…. sexy! when I watched Saawariya a few days ago, i actually paid attention to the towel song and… he's sexy!
LMAO BOOOO thats our song in a way Remember!?!? Saif and Shah Rukh singing in the award functions “Neela neela oh neela neela” LMAO piya piya oh piya piya!
Oh geesh. I know how it can be when its all boiling ughhh. Sighs… Good luck! Its been so rainy for the past few weeks here. The sun is starting to work now though, its prolly gonna get really darn hot soon.
Thanks for the translation. But what does gorri mean? lol. My hindi sucks. Im guessing gorri means like..heart? but isnt that dil? bride? thats dulhaniya. emm.. maybe gorri is another word for heart or bride…?
LOL!!!
I take back what I said to you completely Rani… I think we've got a new contestant for giving-Sapno-a-run-for-her-money… hehe!
LMAO I'm fine with that! LOL
I miss him. A lot.
You know what? Boys suck. Let's just get a cottage together in Switzerland and forget they exist. Assholes.
HAHAHAHHAHAA!! Did you read my MSN name or are you just psychic Tayba??!! That was mine and my friend's plan too LMBO… we were gonna have a *** marriage and then live in the mountains in Switzerland… and we were gonna shoot any guys that come within shooting range of ours… lmbo. Only… my friend has a boyfriend, so he's allowed. And if I ever have a boyfriend, he'd be allowed too. So we're kinda breaking the rules already… oooops. Hahahahah! <3
OMG. I CANNOT believe the forum censored out the word “les.bian”… … I am shocked… who the hell created this software??!! I have a bone to pick with them…
And yes, that was the marriage we were supposed to have… lol.
Rani – I love you. You're too sweet.
And YUCK Ranbir Kapoor… yuck!
Rani – I love you. You're too sweet.
And YUCK Ranbir Kapoor… yuck!
sweet for what? oh hehe the KKHH thing lmao anything for you, my love.
Ranbir is SEXY!you YUCK! you're NOT Sexy!
OMG. I CANNOT believe the forum censored out the word “les.bian”… … I am shocked… who the hell created this software??!! I have a bone to pick with them…
And yes, that was the marriage we were supposed to have… lol.
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Saali… you're laughing at me huh?!
But seriously… gggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr… who the hell CREATED this thing man…
We might as well laugh at each other jaan!
I miss him. A lot.
You know what? Boys suck. Let's just get a cottage together in Switzerland and forget they exist. Assholes.
HAHAHAHHAHAA!! Did you read my MSN name or are you just psychic
Tayba??!! That was mine and my friend's plan too LMBO… we were gonna
have a *** marriage and then live in the mountains in Switzerland…
and we were gonna shoot any guys that come within shooting range of
ours… lmbo. Only… my friend has a boyfriend, so he's allowed. And
if I ever have a boyfriend, he'd be allowed too. So we're kinda breaking the rules already… oooops. Hahahahah! <3
LMBO that was YOUR plan too? Damn we're good LOL. No I just have a thing for the mountains in Switzerland… too many SRK and other classic '90s movies made me fall in love with that place.
HEY MISSY! No boys allowed hokay! Your boyfriend can only come if he brings us the wood for the fire and then agrees to sleep outside in a tent near the mountains. We'll give him a bucket to pee in. kthanks.
I miss him. A lot.
You know what? Boys suck. Let's just get a cottage together in Switzerland and forget they exist. Assholes.
True that. Can I come too?
By the way Tabz, how are you? How have you been hun?! Missed ya.
Sure thing Kavz!! Get packing =)
I've been okay hun, you know how it is… life is a rollercoaster. I'm learning to breathe again =)
How have you been? I've missed you too. Your posts around the forum have been making me smile <3
I miss him. A lot.
You know what? Boys suck. Let's just get a cottage together in Switzerland and forget they exist. Assholes.
True that. Can I come too?
By the way Tabz, how are you? How have you been hun?! Missed ya.
Sure thing Kavz!! Get packing =)
I've been okay hun, you know how it is… life is a rollercoaster. I'm learning to breathe again =)
How have you been? I've missed you too. Your posts around the forum have been making me smile <3
Naaaah i don't think i'll ever be the “she” in his life…
You never know !
Oh geesh. I know how it can be when its all boiling ughhh. Sighs… Good luck! Its been so rainy for the past few weeks here. The sun is starting to work now though, its prolly gonna get really darn hot soon.
Thanks for the translation. But what does gorri mean? lol. My hindi sucks. Im guessing gorri means like..heart? but isnt that dil? bride? thats dulhaniya. emm.. maybe gorri is another word for heart or bride…?
LOL!!!
I take back what I said to you completely Rani… I think we've got a new contestant for giving-Sapno-a-run-for-her-money… hehe!
And what is that supposed to mean missy ! What does 'sapno' mean? lmao
LMAO!
*starts singing and dancing*
BACHNA AE HASEENO LO MAIN AAH GAYA
OMG OMG OMG OMG! RANBIR KAPOOR IS…. sexy! when I watched Saawariya a few days ago, i actually paid attention to the towel song and… he's sexy!
LMAO BOOOO thats our song in a way Remember!?!? Saif and Shah Rukh singing in the award functions “Neela neela oh neela neela” LMAO piya piya oh piya piya!
Rani, traitor! haha
Ewwwwwww Ranbir? When I saw that towel song, I was lke EWWWWWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwWWWWWWWWWWw, I was watching it with my brother, Im like Ewwww!!! Aint nobody wanna see yo butt !! Cover that uppp! lolz
Sure thing Kavz!! Get packing =)
I've been okay hun, you know how it is… life is a rollercoaster. I'm learning to breathe again =)
How have you been? I've missed you too. Your posts around the forum have been making me smile <3
'Course, Im almost done packing ! Im sorry to hear things havent been going smoothly there for you. Hugs. Hope things get better soon. Im proud of you for taking a pause and 'breathing again'. I've been alright. Just home…relaxing…the summer months. Glad to hear that I've brought a smile to someone's face
Aww… they will get better inshaAllah, ameen thumma ameen. Yeah I realized how important it is to feel like you can breathe again. Baby steps… =)
Sounds good! Those lazy summer days are what it's all about! I've been lazying about in the garden today too, lying down on the swing and reading 'My Sister's Keeper' by Jodi Picoult. Have you heard of it? The movie is out but I didn't want to see the movie before I read the book.
Let me know when you're done packing! Don't bring anything made for summer! It's freezing by the mountains .
Aww, thats right. Baby steps can take you FAR.
Yeah, Im pretty much chillaxing right now for summer.
Yes I've heard of the movie, with Cameron Diaz. I wont watch it. It looks too sad. Its always great to read the book before the movie!
I want to start reading Twilight. I didnt see the movie yet or anything. But I've seen some pple reading the book, and they were so glueedd to it! It must be good. I havent been doing much for the summer so far. Some reading wont hurt.
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What the hell! Why is that rolly eye smiley face sitting next to my name up there?
Okay BWL, I dont know how much more of this oddness I can take!
What the hell! Why is that rolly eye smiley face sitting next to my name up there?
Okay BWL, I dont know how much more of this oddness I can take!
it happens only to weird people, like yourself
Let me know when you're done packing! Don't bring anything made for summer! It's freezing by the mountains .
Im done! Waiting on you. Right right, winter gear! A ton a clothing and some hot cocoa packets!
Chup Silver Surfer! Go surf your way over that cliffff
Chup Silver Surfer! Go surf your way over that cliffff
done that soo many times. its yr turn now.
Aww, thats right. Baby steps can take you FAR.
Yeah, Im pretty much chillaxing right now for summer.
Yes I've heard of the movie, with Cameron Diaz. I wont watch it. It looks too sad. Its always great to read the book before the movie!
I want to start reading Twilight. I didnt see the movie yet or anything. But I've seen some pple reading the book, and they were so glueedd to it! It must be good. I havent been doing much for the summer so far. Some reading wont hurt.
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Glad to know you're relaxing! I've only just started reading it, and I'm hooked! Yeah books are usually better… except for A Walk To Remember where I think the movie is just as good as the book
The Twilight Saga of books are AMAZING! I love them. Read!!!
Let me know when you're done packing! Don't bring anything made for summer! It's freezing by the mountains .
Im done! Waiting on you. Right right, winter gear! A ton a clothing and some hot cocoa packets!
Girl I was done ages ago! All I needu put in is my blanky and a good book and I'm set! Oh and I think I need some 90s SRK bollywood CDs so I can re enact some 'Tum paaaaas aaaayeeeeee' scenes with my Boo on the mountains. LOL. I'd say we could sing but….. we wont have the magically appearing music out of no where experience . So Kavita you play it from the cottage and me and Shrekky here will make believe okie? hahahah I'm high.
It's been six months today since we last spoke. I've survived for six months. It's been six months without the sound of your laughter. It's been six months since I heard you smile. It's been six months since I heard your soul piercing voice. It's been six months without you teasing me. It's been six months without you unknowingly encouraging me. It's been six months since my dreams seemed to be just around the corner. I've survived for six months.
I wonder how you are. I wonder what you do everyday. I wonder what you think of each night before you fall asleep. I wonder what you think of each morning you wake up. I wonder what you do through out your days. I wonder what it is that you now laugh at. I wonder what makes you smile now. I wonder if you're happy. I wonder if your dreams and goals are still the same. I wonder if you're closer to your dreams right now. I wonder… I wonder if I'll ever be a part of your dreams. I wonder if you still believe our souls are as connected as you used to say. I wonder if you recognize me. I wonder if you still think as highly of me. I wonder if you still think about me. I wonder if you even remember me. I wonder if you have come to realize that I was truly never worthy of your high thinking, of your innocent praises. I wonder if you dislike me. I wonder so much about you…
I make dua for you. I ask Allah to grant you the best of both worlds. You are always a part of my prayers.
When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations , it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end. – Bella Swan – Twilight.
Thank you for everything you have given me.
It's been six months today since we last spoke. I've survived for six months. It's been six months without the sound of your laughter. It's been six months since I heard you smile. It's been six months since I heard your soul piercing voice. It's been six months without you teasing me. It's been six months without you unknowingly encouraging me. It's been six months since my dreams seemed to be just around the corner. I've survived for six months.
I wonder how you are. I wonder what you do everyday. I wonder what you think of each night before you fall asleep. I wonder what you think of each morning you wake up. I wonder what you do through out your days. I wonder what it is that you now laugh at. I wonder what makes you smile now. I wonder if you're happy. I wonder if your dreams and goals are still the same. I wonder if you're closer to your dreams right now. I wonder… I wonder if I'll ever be a part of your dreams. I wonder if you still believe our souls are as connected as you used to say. I wonder if you recognize me. I wonder if you still think as highly of me. I wonder if you still think about me. I wonder if you even remember me. I wonder if you have come to realize that I was truly never worthy of your high thinking, of your innocent praises. I wonder if you dislike me. I wonder so much about you…
I make dua for you. I ask Allah to grant you the best of both worlds. You are always a part of my prayers.
When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations , it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end. – Bella Swan – Twilight.
Thank you for everything you have given me.
Amen to that babe. It's not even been six days for me and already I feel like a lifetime has passed… in which he's gotten married and had two kids, already… of course.
Girl I was done ages ago! All I needu put in is my blanky and a good book and I'm set! Oh and I think I need some 90s SRK bollywood CDs so I can re enact some 'Tum paaaaas aaaayeeeeee' scenes with my Boo on the mountains. LOL. I'd say we could sing but….. we wont have the magically appearing music out of no where experience . So Kavita you play it from the cottage and me and Shrekky here will make believe okie? hahahah I'm high.
HAHAHAHA… you pagal!!
When you kept going, “REPLY TO MY HIGH POST…” I was like, “Wth? Does she mean a post that's at the top of a page on the forum?! “……. so I start looking… and I find nothing! And now I realise it's THIS one hahahaha.. crazy cuckoo child.
It sounds like a plan babe.. BUT IF WE FIND YELLOW FIELDS YOU'RE TURNING INTO MY RAJ THAT'S IT!!!
HA… I find something funny… how come us girls complain and complain about boys but Oreo never divulges in his love life huh huh?
Wowwwwwwwwwww Hrithik and Shahrukh please dance with me!! wowwww I want to dance!!!
……….. we don't have Hrithik or Shah Rukh Khan (OH that they would VISIT THE FORUM!!! SIGH!!!!! IMAGINE HOW AWESOME THAT WOULD BE!!!!), but we do have an Oreo for you…. no not the biscuit type…
OMG!!!!!!!!!!
I NEED TO LET MY FEELINGS OUT!!!!!!! :
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I LOVE LOOKING AT MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Um, that is all folks.
I'm having so much difficulty concentrating of late… I can't work out why it is, and it is scaring me to death. It's like… I can see where I am going to head if I don't concentrate, but yet… I can't. Is it just this day and age, when we have a million and one distractions such as our phones, Facebook, MSN, T.V., music, movies, the forum, etc? (Though I really shouldn't put the forum in that category, the forum actually HELPS me to focus, for some odd reason!! People in real life are just trouble. lol. ) Or is it just me? Why don't I feel motivated to work hard any more? I used to be able to work for hours on end (ha.. no really!), I used to take pride in my work. Now… I just don't care.
Am I following the wrong career path? Why is it so hard to work hard? Hard work always makes for a more fruitful life, I have always believed that. Hard work – despite throwing you into the irritatingly noisy, grinding cogs of monotony – opens up a whole new world of creativity; it really does allow you to open your mind, and feel all that more refreshed for having worked hard. It opens you up to new lessons and new thoughts, and clears out the cobwebs of old confusions. I still remember the feeling of having achieved something through hard work. Despite being in a stuffy room indoors, it felt like my body was physically soaring through the open fields… I could literally smell the feeling of freedom, the fresh grass and the open winds around me.
I feel sad – more than anything else, I feel sad that I seem to have… well, lost my mojo. I feel sad that my intelligence (goddamnit I know I am one intelligent person)… (OK I don't have a clue why this is coming out in italics! But anyway…) seems to be rotting away and more horribly, I am not even doing anything about it. I KNOW that intelligence needs to be looked after and nurtured well, like a plant, for it to grow… and yet, I am seeing myself neglect it and I don't seem to be that worried about it.……….. we don't have Hrithik or Shah Rukh Khan (OH that they would VISIT THE FOR0000000000 UM!!! SIGH!!!!! IMAGINE HOW AWESOME THAT WOULD BE!!!!), but we do have an Oreo for you…. no not the biscuit type…
Who is Oreo?? I like the biscuit, but Oreo?? hahaha Oreo for me?? No thanks! I want to my Hrithik !!!
Waaaaaaaaa I need my Roshan ( Roshan is the name of my pet, my cat)
Oreo… ha, you've met him…
I hate cats hahahahahaha… no offence to your cat or anything, but I despise cats… with a passion!! I am scared to DEATH of them and I hate the way they glare at me and I am absolutely convinced they all want to kill me with their horrible little claws…
Oreo… ha, you've met him…
I hate cats hahahahahaha… no offence to your cat or anything, but I despise cats… with a passion!! I am scared to DEATH of them and I hate the way they glare at me and I am absolutely convinced they all want to kill me with their horrible little claws…
Hahahaha I love the cats, they are my life, I can`t live without them. My roshan is very sweet!. I always say: Roshan, come with me!.Roshan, kiss me. Haha I think MY PET is not Roshan, he is Hrithik hehehe
It's been six months today since we last spoke. I've survived for six months. It's been six months without the sound of your laughter. It's been six months since I heard you smile. It's been six months since I heard your soul piercing voice. It's been six months without you teasing me. It's been six months without you unknowingly encouraging me. It's been six months since my dreams seemed to be just around the corner. I've survived for six months.
I wonder how you are. I wonder what you do everyday. I wonder what you think of each night before you fall asleep. I wonder what you think of each morning you wake up. I wonder what you do through out your days. I wonder what it is that you now laugh at. I wonder what makes you smile now. I wonder if you're happy. I wonder if your dreams and goals are still the same. I wonder if you're closer to your dreams right now. I wonder… I wonder if I'll ever be a part of your dreams. I wonder if you still believe our souls are as connected as you used to say. I wonder if you recognize me. I wonder if you still think as highly of me. I wonder if you still think about me. I wonder if you even remember me. I wonder if you have come to realize that I was truly never worthy of your high thinking, of your innocent praises. I wonder if you dislike me. I wonder so much about you…
I make dua for you. I ask Allah to grant you the best of both worlds. You are always a part of my prayers.
When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations , it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end. – Bella Swan – Twilight.
Thank you for everything you have given me.
Amen to that babe. It's not even been six days for me and already I feel like a lifetime has passed… in which he's gotten married and had two kids, already… of course.
TWO KIDS??!? NO THEY ARE HAVING 20 KIDS!
I'm having so much difficulty concentrating of late… I can't work out why it is, and it is scaring me to death. It's like… I can see where I am going to head if I don't concentrate, but yet… I can't. Is it just this day and age, when we have a million and one distractions such as our phones, Facebook, MSN, T.V., music, movies, the forum, etc? (Though I really shouldn't put the forum in that category, the forum actually HELPS me to focus, for some odd reason!! People in real life are just trouble. lol. ) Or is it just me? Why don't I feel motivated to work hard any more? I used to be able to work for hours on end (ha.. no really!), I used to take pride in my work. Now… I just don't care.
Am I following the wrong career path? Why is it so hard to work hard? Hard work always makes for a more fruitful life, I have always believed that. Hard work – despite throwing you into the irritatingly noisy, grinding cogs of monotony – opens up a whole new world of creativity; it really does allow you to open your mind, and feel all that more refreshed for having worked hard. It opens you up to new lessons and new thoughts, and clears out the cobwebs of old confusions. I still remember the feeling of having achieved something through hard work. Despite being in a stuffy room indoors, it felt like my body was physically soaring through the open fields… I could literally smell the feeling of freedom, the fresh grass and the open winds around me.
I feel sad – more than anything else, I feel sad that I seem to have… well, lost my mojo. I feel sad that my intelligence (goddamnit I know I am one intelligent person)… (OK I don't have a clue why this is coming out in italics! But anyway…) seems to be rotting away and more horribly, I am not even doing anything about it. I KNOW that intelligence needs to be looked after and nurtured well, like a plant, for it to grow… and yet, I am seeing myself neglect it and I don't seem to be that worried about it.I hate cats hahahahahaha… no offence to your cat or anything, but I despise cats… with a passion!! I am scared to DEATH of them and I hate the way they glare at me and I am absolutely convinced they all want to kill me with their horrible little claws…
lmao twin thing, lovely. I am also scared of cats. I don't hate them, I'm just scared of them. Pretty convinced they will jump on me and kill me with their claws as well. lmao everyone makes fun of me for it, but i can't help it.
I was at someone's house a few days ago and this little girl brings out a cat from out of nowhere, and she's holding it in her arms like its a child and she's grinning at me and says if I want to meet her whatshisface… i forgot the name lmao but anyway, so I was about to jump onto the couch, then i remembered they could jump and i just backed away into the corner and told the little girl, “OMG PLEASE TAKE IT AWAY! I'M SCARED!” LMAO the poor girl took the cat away looking dissappointed.
I need to cry.
Why do I feel like he's speaking to me? I swear I feel like he's speaking to me. Have I gone completely insane?
Why do I feel like he's speaking to me? I swear I feel like he's speaking to me. Have I gone completely insane?
I understand, I like hear his voice but I am afraid.
Why do I feel like he's speaking to me? I swear I feel like he's speaking to me. Have I gone completely insane?
I understand, I like hear his voice but I am afraid.
May I call you Lyn? Yeah, the voice is lovely, but the fear is there nonetheless. I understand.
Although, I'm not afraid anymore. I do feel like he's speaking to me. I probably have gone insane. I pretty much am delusional. But it's okay. I don't mind. I'm not afraid. I'm at peace with him. I've been at peace with him for a long time now. I just miss him. A sweet sort of missing. Yes, sometimes I have my moments of hysteria, but then I think of Allah and that calms me down.
May I call you Lyn? Yeah, the voice is lovely, but the fear is there nonetheless. I understand.
Although, I'm not afraid anymore. I do feel like he's speaking to me. I probably have gone insane. I pretty much am delusional. But it's okay. I don't mind. I'm not afraid. I'm at peace with him. I've been at peace with him for a long time now. I just miss him. A sweet sort of missing. Yes, sometimes I have my moments of hysteria, but then I think of Allah and that calms me down.
Yes, of course! You can!
Hmmm THE lovely voice !! I want to hear it , but I don´t want to suffer
Why do I feel like he's speaking to me? I swear I feel like he's speaking to me. Have I gone completely insane?
insane in the membrane
Thank you, Lyn!
awww well hopefully your suffering will end soon.
Yes, of course! You can!
Hmmm THE lovely voice !! I want to hear it , but I don´t want to suffer
you don't want to suffer? then dont waste any more time..head to the asylum at once!!
Why do I feel like he's speaking to me? I swear I feel like he's speaking to me. Have I gone completely insane?
insane in the membrane
Look whose talking
Why do I feel like he's speaking to me? I swear I feel like he's speaking to me. Have I gone completely insane?
insane in the membrane
Look whose talking
whose? its cypress hill's
..
..
wow…that was soooo inspiring. yup..i can see what u r trying to tell us.
No u cant………
ohh really??? i wonder why….
ohh really??? i wonder why….
LMAO!
Why do I feel like he's speaking to me? I swear I feel like he's speaking to me. Have I gone completely insane?
insane in the membrane
Look whose talking
whose? its cypress hill's
Don't play dumb! I was talking about you!
Yes, of course! You can!
Hmmm THE lovely voice !! I want to hear it , but I don´t want to suffer
you don't want to suffer? then dont waste any more time..head to the asylum at once!!
………………. to suffer even MORE?!
HAHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!
WHOSE??!!
Rani you did NOT just say that…
Setting your standards high is not enough. You gotta follow them through.
HAHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!
WHOSE??!!
Rani you did NOT just say that…
What's wrong with it? It's not who's. It's posed to be whose… it's possessive na? Whose voice… I don't know what's wrong with it Boo.
You're welcome Lyn! And lol don't worry! Oreo doesn't hate you. He's just like that around here. Don't take what he says to heart.
OH! LMAO! I said WHOSE talking! Not whose voice! LMAO OMG I WAS THINKING THE WRONG THING! OMG this is so embarrassing!
You're welcome Lyn! And lol don't worry! Oreo doesn't hate you. He's just like that around here. Don't take what he says to heart.
Serio is Oreo?? hmmm
Yep… Serio is Oreo is Serio is Oreo… We're just used to calling him that, the nicknamed was penned for him by an OLD, OLD member from easily five or six years back… WOW! It's been THAT long?!
Hey Joselyn, thats just how Oreo/Serio is with everyone. If he disses you, brush off what he says, or, it wont hurt to diss him back muhahaha
Hey Joselyn, thats just how Oreo/Serio is with everyone. If he disses you or anything, brush off what he says or it wont hurt to diss him back every now and then muhahaha
hahaha Don´t worry! I´m relaxed!
Hey Joselyn, thats just how Oreo/Serio is with everyone. If he disses you or anything, brush off what he says or it wont hurt to diss him back every now and then muhahaha
hahaha Don´t worry! I´m relaxed!
My twin is right… Lyn is a beautiful nickname for you!
What if we have no feelings to let out?
Anyone experiencing that right now … ?
I'd really really wish to know?
You are lucky.
My twin is right… Lyn is a beautiful nickname for you!
I love that, it sounds all possessive. “My twin.” and thanks btw lmao
What if we have no feelings to let out?
Anyone experiencing that right now … ?
I'd really really wish to know?
I don't know… I have a lot of feelings, just having a hard time describing them or wording them. Maybe you're having the same problem and you're just mistaking it for no feelings?
That's cos you're mine. Duh!!
I'm having so much difficulty concentrating of late… I can't work out why it is, and it is scaring me to death. It's like… I can see where I am going to head if I don't concentrate, but yet… I can't. Is it just this day and age, when we have a million and one distractions such as our phones, Facebook, MSN, T.V., music, movies, the forum, etc? (Though I really shouldn't put the forum in that category, the forum actually HELPS me to focus, for some odd reason!! Well, thats because the forum is special People in real life are just trouble. lol. ) Or is it just me? Why don't I feel motivated to work hard any more? I used to be able to work for hours on end (ha.. no really!), I used to take pride in my work. Now… I just don't care. Are you getting that 'I dont care feeling' too? Where the freaking heck does it come from? And how the hell does it manage to overcome us ???? Afterall, we are productive when we care about what we're doing. We PROGRESS when we actually care about how much it means to progress and how much it means to fall backwards, or stay in the same place.
Am I following the wrong career path? Why is it so hard to work hard? Hard work always makes for a more fruitful life, I have always believed that. Hard work – despite throwing you into the irritatingly noisy, grinding cogs of monotony – opens up a whole new world of creativity; it really does allow you to open your mind, and feel all that more refreshed for having worked hard. It opens you up to new lessons and new thoughts, and clears out the cobwebs of old confusions. I still remember the feeling of having achieved something through hard work. Despite being in a stuffy room indoors, it felt like my body was physically soaring through the open fields… I could literally smell the feeling of freedom, the fresh grass and the open winds around me. I wish you all the best with finding that inner freedom again *hug
I feel sad – more than anything else, I feel sad that I seem to have… well, lost my mojo. I feel sad that my intelligence (goddamnit I know I am one intelligent person)… (OK I don't have a clue why this is coming out in italics! But anyway…) seems to be rotting away and more horribly, I am not even doing anything about it. I KNOW that intelligence needs to be looked after and nurtured well, like a plant, for it to grow… and yet, I am seeing myself neglect it and I don't seem to be that worried about it. Heck yes you are an intelligent person! Look at the way you write ! You still got it Boo dear … You are still the same great person we've all come to know. If you feel you lack something, or you are on the path of lacking something … do you think, perhaps its just because you're not actively /usingdoing that 'thing'? … referring to whichever 'work' you were always taken up with.. Try to start a new project. I know it may be hard, but you'll see – that you can do it. If only you start, you will finish it. Its not that you've lost something. You've still got it. But maybe you're not making it visible to yourself. Its like a brilliant procWhat if we have no feelings to let out?
Anyone experiencing that right now … ?
I'd really really wish to know?
I don't know… I have a lot of feelings, just having a hard time describing them or wording them. Maybe you're having the same problem and you're just mistaking it for no feelings?
Nope, its not that I cant explain them or have a hard time describing them.
You are lucky.
Maybe I am. Its so weird how 'extremes' are always bad. Feeling things to the point where they're killing you, is bad. And not feeling things to the point where you cant connect with anything, is also bad. Why the heck cant we find out place in between that dumb continuum?
But I'd kinda say that you're lucky. At least you're kinda feeling something. And its gonna get you somewhere.
One of my professors was once talking about test taking anxiety. He said that some anxiety is NEEDED, it must be there. If the person has absolutely no anxiety and dont care a %$& about taking that test, its guaranteed that that person will do really bad. And if the person has way too much anxiety, they'll just be too nervous to do anything, and they'll also do really bad. Again, the extremes. At first we found it weird that he'd say that some sort of anxiety is needed/essential. But after he explained what he was trying to say, he made it very clear that without no anxiety, a person would be careless and unsucessful. I guess what Im trying to say here is that the no anxiety state is that 'i dont care' state, and it gets you no where.
But what does this have to do with me not feeling stuff? Gooosh. I guess I dont care either. lol.
Kavita – thanks hun Muchos appreciated, am touched that you actually went through all of that paragraph by paragraph…
How is the no-feelings thing treating you?
No problemo
Em, I dont know. I guess it was going on for quite some period, it all feels so normal!
Damn, it does. I dont even know why I brought that up.
How's it going over there?
Your professor is right – my father always says that too.
But then again, a 76 (yes, really!!) year old Philosophy student (!! I know!! I have SO much respect for the guy…) I was talking to was saying to me how, if we didn't have extremes, we wouldn't have as strong a hold on our perspective of where we stand in the spectrum… he says he likes the extreme stuff some philosophers write because he can study their viewpoint and say “No, I don't agree, that is total nonsense.”… and it helps him to understand and appreciate HIS OWN perspective in the spectrum a lot more… am I making any sense here? lol..
That's cos you're mine. Duh!!
LOL I got nothing to say to that, I'm speechless.
My twin is right… Lyn is a beautiful nickname for you!
Yes, I like it! Twin?? ohhh I have a twin too!! I met her on internet!!
Your professor is right – my father always says that too.
But then again, a 76 (yes, really!!) year old Philosophy student (!! I know!! I have SO much respect for the guy…) I was talking to was saying to me how, if we didn't have extremes, we wouldn't have as strong a hold on our perspective of where we stand in the spectrum… he says he likes the extreme stuff some philosophers write because he can study their viewpoint and say “No, I don't agree, that is total nonsense.”… and it helps him to understand and appreciate HIS OWN perspective in the spectrum a lot more… am I making any sense here? lol..
Wow, a 76 year old Philosophy student!! Thats… wow!! Yes you are making sense. And he's right too. I guess there is some positive thing about extremes … but that is in, some cases, not all.
My twin is right… Lyn is a beautiful nickname for you!
Yes, I like it! Twin?? ohhh I have a twin too!! I met her on internet!!
*Ahem* Is everyone doing this now?
And, Lyn is a cute nickname!
Ha… he's a great guy. We had long discussions about all sorts of issues. Who knows, maybe I'm close to his age, anyway…
Hahhahaha…
I could really, really, REALLY, REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY use Senor Saab's comforting words right now… I feel so useless and worthless and pointless and lifeless… I could do with him pointing out what a wonderful girl I am… ha. Sigh.
This is about Sam, in case you lot don't get it…
Little Girl Lost… Little Girl Found
It is a cliched phrase,
yes: “a little bit of kindness goes a long way”, but as with most (if not all)
cliched phrases, it is so goddamn true. I am still
trying to, and have been doing so for the past several years, work out if I am
being too innocent and naïve for… 'believing in people too quickly'. (It's in
inverted commas because I don't believe in people too quickly – I need
my reassurance – and yet, I do. But that's another topic in itself.) I
don't really know, still. I guess our definitions of “innocent” and “naive”
change with time and growth, and so there's never really just one answer for
it.
Whatever it may be – holding on to hope, naïveté, or simply just taking things
as they are – the feeling of believing in people is so amazing, so timeless. The
feeling of being touched by kindess, knowing that there are truly beautiful
people in this world who can move the entire universe to make you feel just as
beautiful, and all this just with the simplest of acts – I have no words for it.
Forgetting the actual act itself for a second, I feel priviliged, so damn
special just knowing I have experienced one of those beautiful,
precious moments in life. It really is amazing what a little bit of kindness can
do – it has the power to evoke, change and kill a whole spectrum of emotions and
thoughts… can you think of anything more powerful than that?
Over the past couple of days, and especially so since this morning, I have been
feeling so small and useless and tiny and insignificant-in-a-bad-way and
worthless and pointless and lifeless. The twisted, tortured kind of pain that
can be felt in your abdomen has been festering within me so much, I almost
couldn't bear to unveil the wounds. And for some reason, there was only person I
could think of who could lift me up again, and lift me up in a real and
beautiful manner. I don't know why I thought of him, but I did. I guess on
hindsight, it's because of his ability to say things as they are, and see the
beauty in almost anything and anyone. It's his wisdom, I guess. His wisdom is
all the reassurance I need to believe in him. The way he says the words and the
way I can just feel the truth resonating in them. Very, very few people
make me feel this way, and out of all the gloriously random bunch, he is up
there quite near the top.
So, searching through the mire, I decided to read some old PMs, dating back
to well over a year ago. I cannot explain how reading his words made me feel. I
wish I could, but I actually physically cannot even get myself to start typing
(!)… being in the right place at the right time is sometimes so crucial, and I
could not have been in a more perfect place at the perfect time; his kind words
brought tears to my eyes.
“The Bible says 'though mourning may
last the night, joy comes in the morning.' I believe you were made for better
moments than these, and that your character is being refined in the momentary
crucible of pain.”
“The Bible is right – I have always loved sunrises for
that very reason… they always manage to somehow make life look better after a
long night, don't they? Maybe because I allow them to make my life better, that
they do. Maybe the magic of sunrises is in me itself. Who knows? I love
them.”
Life sometimes seems to m
I could really, really, REALLY, REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY use Senor Saab's comforting words right now… I feel so useless and worthless and pointless and lifeless… I could do with him pointing out what a wonderful girl I am… ha. Sigh.
blinded by someone who utters sweet and comforting yet fake words…i feel sorry for you.
u dont need him to point out…u shud know yrself.
Hey, boo !The life goes on!! come on smile! Remember : You have one life, one oportunity! You can´t be sad!!
Woww I can´t believe, Serio says: I feel sorry for you!! …….Do you see boo?? anyone can change !!!!
Remember : You have one life, one oportunity!
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo
hahaha I love this song!! If you have one shot, why don´t you use it?
blinded by someone who utters sweet and comforting yet fake words…i feel sorry for you.
u dont need him to point out…u shud know yrself.
Hai hai…. *feels da lurveeeeeeeee* I do know myself I kick some major butt, but sometimes I need to hear it from someone else… and he came to mind for some reason.
ahahahhaha… seriously though… you think i didn't think of that? i dunno… what he said makes sense and on that, and just for that alone, i judge him… i don't care who he is or isn't or who he might be or might not be… one of the BEST, BEST (I am not even kidding here) pieces of advices I have ever received was from your loverboy Nitzah himself – in the BWL forum awards, when he gave me the Kiddie Award (I still remember to this day…), he told me, “Don't lose the kid in you”… so i'm never one to judge…
OMG YOU AND THE COMICMEISTER HAVE MUSICAL TASTES IN COMMON?! *faints*
I'm fine… I just have my melodramatic moments, is all
This is about Sam, in case you lot don't get it…
Little Girl Lost… Little Girl Found
It is a cliched phrase,
yes: “a little bit of kindness goes a long way”, but as with most (if not all)
cliched phrases, it is so goddamn true. I am still
trying to, and have been doing so for the past several years, work out if I am
being too innocent and naïve for… 'believing in people too quickly'. (It's in
inverted commas because I don't believe in people too quickly – I need
my reassurance – and yet, I do. But that's another topic in itself.) I
don't really know, still. I guess our definitions of “innocent” and “naive”
change with time and growth, and so there's never really just one answer for
it.
Whatever it may be – holding on to hope, naïveté, or simply just taking things
as they are – the feeling of believing in people is so amazing, so timeless. The
feeling of being touched by kindess, knowing that there are truly beautiful
people in this world who can move the entire universe to make you feel just as
beautiful, and all this just with the simplest of acts – I have no words for it.
Forgetting the actual act itself for a second, I feel priviliged, so damn
special just knowing I have experienced one of those beautiful,
precious moments in life. It really is amazing what a little bit of kindness can
do – it has the power to evoke, change and kill a whole spectrum of emotions and
thoughts… can you think of anything more powerful than that?
Over the past couple of days, and especially so since this morning, I have been
feeling so small and useless and tiny and insignificant-in-a-bad-way and
worthless and pointless and lifeless. The twisted, tortured kind of pain that
can be felt in your abdomen has been festering within me so much, I almost
couldn't bear to unveil the wounds. And for some reason, there was only person I
could think of who could lift me up again, and lift me up in a real and
beautiful manner. I don't know why I thought of him, but I did. I guess on
hindsight, it's because of his ability to say things as they are, and see the
beauty in almost anything and anyone. It's his wisdom, I guess. His wisdom is
all the reassurance I need to believe in him. The way he says the words and the
way I can just feel the truth resonating in them. Very, very few people
make me feel this way, and out of all the gloriously random bunch, he is up
there quite near the top.
So, searching through the mire, I decided to read some old PMs, dating back
to well over a year ago. I cannot explain how reading his words made me feel. I
wish I could, but I actually physically cannot even get myself to start typing
(!)… being in the right place at the right time is sometimes so crucial, and I
could not have been in a more perfect place at the perfect time; his kind words
brought tears to my eyes.
“The Bible says 'though mourning may
last the night, joy comes in the morning.' I believe you were made for better
moments than these, and that your character is being refined in the momentary
crucible of pain.”
“The Bible is right – I have always loved sunrises for
that very reason… they always manage to somehow make life look better after a
long night, don't they? Maybe because I allow them to make my life better, that
they do. Maybe the magic of sunrises is in me itself. Who knows? I love
them.”<br
This in its self shows what a beautiful person you are.
*smug grin on face*
*runs away before she can catch me and whack me one…*
This in its self shows what a beautiful person you are.
*smug grin on face*
*runs away before she can catch me and whack me one…*
I so did that on purpose. No joke yaar. Lmbo
LMAO!! What's so amusing is that you asked me what the hell I was smug about.. LMBO!!
LOVE you… a million!!
Boo, once again, your thoughts are a reflection of mine.
I am so miserable. I feel like a zombie. I feel so robbed… robbed so brutally time and time again. How much longer can I hold on before I fall into my own fire and burn in it once again? Because I always burn in my own fire. I light the fire, I ignite it, I add more wood to it, I burn in it, I am the fire, and in the end, I am the smoke that hovers in the air, still suffering long after the fire has been burned out.
Whoa… twin moment. Breathe, and magnify those small moments of joy, to help get through those moments of pain. That's what I'm trying to do, anyway…
I want to break free. I need to break free. I want to take a year out, travel, grow, learn… I just want to break free. Damn these shackles. I broke free from religion, now I want to break free from 'society'. Urgh. Frustrations. I'm biding my time in a hell hole.
I could really, really, REALLY, REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY use Senor Saab's comforting words right now… I feel so useless and worthless and pointless and lifeless… I could do with him pointing out what a wonderful girl I am… ha. Sigh.
blinded by someone who utters sweet and comforting yet fake words…i feel sorry for you.
u dont need him to point out…u shud know yrself.
*Ahem* Im sensing some jealousy in the air
I am so miserable. I feel like a zombie. I feel so robbed… robbed so brutally time and time again. How much longer can I hold on before I fall into my own fire and burn in it once again? Because I always burn in my own fire. I light the fire, I ignite it, I add more wood to it, I burn in it, I am the fire, and in the end, I am the smoke that hovers in the air, still suffering long after the fire has been burned out.
Rani, if you are the stem of all the bad things you're feeling, maybe you can try to change those things in you that cause you to feel bad.
Sighs, and sometimes, thats damn hard.
I dont know specifically what you're referring to, but I can say that I know a part of what you're feeling.
I wish that all the energy that is used up to burn and suffer you, will some day be used up to expose what a wonderful creature you are … it will be used up for goodness, to convince you that you are way more that what you think you are, it will be used up to make you realize that you don't need to go through all this pain.
Strive for it. But until then, express what you feel. Vent it all out. Let nothing suffocate your chest. Let nothing be left unsaid (even to yourself). Apart of life is understanding yourself and who you really are. And I think its horribly hard to do. Its not a fast task. Its a process.
Others, we, see who you are. We love you, because you're our Rani, and you're special to us. We know you.
*hugs* Feel better soon. Love you jaan <3
p.s – Im listening to Chalo Jane Do and its so reminding me of you! It calms you down so much! Listen to it! Like, right now! Hug
Whoa… twin moment. Breathe, and magnify those small moments of joy, to help get through those moments of pain. That's what I'm trying to do, anyway…
I want to break free. I need to break free. I want to take a year out, travel, grow, learn… I just want to break free. Damn these shackles. I broke free from religion, now I want to break free from 'society'. Urgh. Frustrations. I'm biding my time in a hell hole.
I think we all want, need, to do this at some point.
But why do we hesitate? Is it fear? Any answers?
I wish you all the luck in finding yourself too *hugs*
Sighs …………………..
Sometimes, it feels like everything is all a huge tangled up ball of yarn … unorganized, confused, not settled, not 'right', not 'better', not how its supposed to be
I'm the only one stopping myself… the questions come from me, so where else will the answers stem from?
Ohh girls, I undersatnd how you are feeling, but the life is beautiful!! Look for the wonderfull thingh that the life has. Ok, lets go!
This song is for you!!: KHABI KHABI GIRLS!
Kabhi kabhi GIRLS!! zindagi mein yunhi koi apna lagta hai
Sometimes in life, GIRLS, just like that someone seems like your own
Kabhi kabhi woh bichhad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai
Sometimes GIRLS, when they are separated, it seems like a dream
Aise mein koi kaise apne aansuon ko behne se roke?
In such, how can anyone stop their tears from flowing
Aur kaise koi soch le everything’s gonna be okay?
And how can someone think everything’s going to be okay
Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi na khushi aur na mazaa
Sometimes it seems there is no happiness nor fun left in life
Kabhi kabhi to lage har din mushkil aur har pal ek sazaa
Sometimes it seems every day is difficult, every moment is a punishment
Aise mein koi kaise muskuraaye kaise hans de khush hoke?
In such, how can someone smile, or be happy and laugh
Aur kaise koi soch le everything’s gonna be okay?
And how can they think everything’s going to be okay
Soch zara jaan-e-jaan tujhko humein kitna chahte hain
Think dear, how much we care for you
Rote hain hum bhi agar teri aankhon mein aansoo aate hain
If there are tears in your eyes, I/we cry too
Gaana to aata nahin hai magar phir bhi hum gaate hain
I/We don’t know how to sing, but yet I/we sing
Hey, GIRLS.. Maan kabhi kabhi saare jahaan mein andhera hota
I'm the only one stopping myself… the questions come from me, so where else will the answers stem from?
I think thats the answer to pretty much everything.
Hey Joselyn, how're you doing today?
Did you watch Kabhi Kabhi ? Or do you just like the song?
I like this song!!! Its lyrics says the true!!!
I am fine, thanks kavita!!! and How are you??
Yup, alot of people like it.
Im okay, thanks for asking.
How's your vacation so far? Having fun?
Hmm I have 4 weeks for vacations!!…I hope that this vacations will be special!!
I hope you enjoy your vacation … any plans?
Where do you live again?
I just saw in another thread that you live in Peru.
Wow, you guys get indian movies over there? I never knew that.
I read the replies yesterday, but I didn't have enough time on the computer to write a reply. But since I was in the mood to let it all out, I wrote it all down in a notebook. So I'm going to write up what I wrote yesterday:
Boo – Huh, twin moments in the twin moments. Today, my daddy took us out, about 3 hours or so from where we live. We were going to the aquarium. He woke us up early in the morning and I was in an awful mood due to my depressed state. I didn't want to go anywhere. I didn't want to see Sea Life when my own life was being reduced to nothing. I just wanted to sit at home and drown myself in my books. It was better to read about some fictional character's pain rather than think about my own real pain. I didn't say anything, just got ready and sat reading my book while I waited for my dad, sis, and brother to get ready. It was a three hour drive and I took my book with me to read in the car. About an hour or so into the drive, the view became beautiful (as it usually does on long drives). But this time was different because when I turned to look at the beauty of Allah's creation, I thought ot myself, “This world is so beautiful… I can't even imagine how beautiful it's Creator must be. Allah is giving you joy through this beauty. Even if it's just for this moment, even if you know you're going to cry your eyes out once you get home, even if you know this moment of pure joy may not come back soon enough… Exactly! That's it! This moment of joy is rare. Take it or leave it. Don't be so stupid as to let this moment of pure joy, given to you by Allah, pass you by. Grab it. Cling to it. Embrace it. Revel in it. Live it. So I put the book away and stared out the window at the mountains, the fields, the orchards, the colorful flowers, the jungles, the lakes, the meadows, the beaches, the ocean. Of course, looking at the beauty I was surrounded in, the pain of the hideosity in myself creeped silently back into my thoughts. I let the tears pool in my eyes. I let a single tear drop from the corner of my eye. I wiped it away secretly. I breathed. I let the moment pass. And surprisingly, the moment did pass and I was once again able to grab onto the joy. And by the time I got home late at night, I had had a really great day at the aquarium, at the parks, at the beaches… in the ocean. I won't lie, the pain creeped in more than once during the day, but I also let it pass more than once.
Epiphany: I'm so strong.
I know that sounds strange coming from someone who is so broken beyond repair right now, and I must be crazy for thinking that I'm strong, but I can't help the thought. I am strong. I'm so much stronger than some people I know. Some people are very weak. I realize now that the people I once thought were so strong, the people I felt I could ease a little of my burden on, they didn't turn out to be as strong as I thought. I, however, turned out to be a lot stronger than I thought. I'm not saying this in a bad way, I'm not trying to belittle the people that are not as strong as me (because Allah knows that my strength doesn't even begin to describe strength), it's just that I'm stronger than I give myself credit for. I don't mean to belittle weakness in any way (because Allah knows that my weak moments hit me a million times a day), I'm just trying to give myself some credit. I'm not as weak as I think. I turned out to be stronger than I thought. So, all in all, I had a great time today.
Another twin moment: You spoke about breaking free. In the car, my dad turned on the CD and the song “Break Free” from Krazzy 4 came on and I was thinking about how nice it would be to break
Kavita, it's funny that you mention understanding yourself and who you really are. Because after all this time I've spent in this world, I still haven't found myself. I have a problem. I don't know myself or rather, I'm unsure of myself. I don't know who I am or rather, I'm unsure of who I am. People are always telling me what kind of person I am, who I am, what I am. Of course, I don't mind it, I actually like it because it's information; I find out things about myself that I never knew or never thought of. And that's what bothers me. The fact that I don't know who I am but all these people seem to be so sure of who I am. The fact that I use it as information to find myself bothers me. I like knowing what people think of me, I really do. It's just that I wish I knew myself, that I understood myself, that I find myself on my own. And it hurts because I use their negative opinions to shape who I think I am and throw away the positive opinions into the never ending pile of doubts. I have so many doubts. It kills me. When I'm trying to find myself… all I see are the negatives. When I try to think of something positive, like I was thinking about how strong I am, I immediately push it aside into the doubt folder and the moment passes by. The moment is gone, I don't think I'm strong anymore, I think I'm really weak. But I'm so happy that I could sit there and write about my own strength for a change. Even if the moment passed, at least there was that moment and at least I have it written down. And that's another problem, the moments don't last too long. Usually they last a few minutes. But the strength moment lasted for a while and I had enough time to write it out before it passed. And when I do think of positives, if someone tells me I'm not strong, I'll consider it, because my doubts are so strong that I won't be able to fight for my positives. I feel that some people unknowingly take advantage of the fact that I'm so unsure of myself. Or maybe it's not that they take advantage, maybe it's that they are able to get away with labeling me as such and such because I'm so unsure of myself. Whatever it is, I'm mad at myself for being so unsure of myself. It hurts so much to not be able to defend myself because of my countless flaws and doubts and unsurety (I don't even think this is a word lol) of myself.
Kavita… I used to be as naive as you. I used to believe that nothing should be left unsaid. I don't leave anything unsaid to myself and I don't want anyone to leave anything unsaid to me, but I know that I must leave many things unsaid to others. You don't know me enough, Kavita. Once you see me close enough, you won't like what you see. I just turned on Chalo Jaane Do to listen to it like you told me to… but it's only making me sadder because I can do that with everyone. I forgive and forget so easily. I never hold a grudge. I never hold anything over anyone's head. I never stop speaking to anyone. I don't stay upset with people for too long. I don't punish people severely for the wrong that they may do. But I'm the exception. I don't forgive myself. I hold grudges against mys
Ohh girls, I undersatnd how you are feeling, but the life is beautiful!! Look for the wonderfull thingh that the life has. Ok, lets go!
This song is for you!!: KHABI KHABI GIRLS!
Kabhi kabhi GIRLS!! zindagi mein yunhi koi apna lagta hai
Sometimes in life, GIRLS, just like that someone seems like your own
Kabhi kabhi woh bichhad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai
Sometimes GIRLS, when they are separated, it seems like a dream
Aise mein koi kaise apne aansuon ko behne se roke?
In such, how can anyone stop their tears from flowing
Aur kaise koi soch le everything’s gonna be okay?
And how can someone think everything’s going to be okay
Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi na khushi aur na mazaa
Sometimes it seems there is no happiness nor fun left in life
Kabhi kabhi to lage har din mushkil aur har pal ek sazaa
Sometimes it seems every day is difficult, every moment is a punishment
Aise mein koi kaise muskuraaye kaise hans de khush hoke?
In such, how can someone smile, or be happy and laugh
Aur kaise koi soch le everything’s gonna be okay?
And how can they think everything’s going to be okay
Soch zara jaan-e-jaan tujhko humein kitna chahte hain
Think dear, how much we care for you
Rote hain hum bhi agar teri aankhon mein aansoo aate hain
If there are tears in your eyes, I/we cry too
Gaana to aata nahin hai magar phir bhi hum gaate hain
I/We don’t know how to sing, but yet I/we sing
Hey, GIRLS.. Maan kabhi kabhi saare jahaan mein andhera hota hai
Hey GIRLS, believe for a minute that there is darkness in the entire world
Lekin raat ke baad hi to savera hota hai
But it’s only after night that day comes
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Awwwwwww Lyn that is sooo sweet of you! I actually really love this song and really needed it! Thank you… so much! Muchas gracias senorita!
Ohhh señorita?? I like it!!! Your spanish is very good!! So…. De nada, no te preocupes todo estará bien! ( It´s ok, everythingh´s gonna be okhi haha)
Awwwwwww Lyn that is sooo sweet of you! I actually really love this song and really needed it! Thank you… so much! Muchas gracias senorita!
Ohhh señorita?? I like it!!! Your spanish is very good!! So…. De nada, no te preocupes todo estará bien! ( It´s ok, everythingh´s gonna be okhi haha)
I live in Perú and my vacations will be in Perú!!
yes, I get the movies…There are a lotttttttttt of Bollywood´s fans in Peru!!
Awwwwwww Lyn that is sooo sweet of you! I actually really love this song and really needed it! Thank you… so much! Muchas gracias senorita!
Ohhh señorita?? I like it!!! Your spanish is very good!! So…. De nada, no te preocupes todo estará bien! ( It´s ok, everythingh´s gonna be okhi haha)
lol it used to be a lot better back in high school, now it's sooo bad because I get no practice speaking it! lol But what exactly does no te preocupes mean? todo estara bien means everythings gonna be okay, si?
I am feeling sooooooooooooooooooooo uplifted and freeeeeeeeeee and HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY because I am just so incredibly hopelessly in LOVE AND ADORATION of my beauuuuuuuuuuutiful country… and I just feel so much…. damn joy just being a part of my country………… I can't explain this feeling – love for your family is one thing, love for your friends another, love for your job another, love for your lover something entirely different…. and love for your country? How do you define that? How do you trap it in words? How do you quantify it in thoughts? I can't… I don't even have the words to express how damn fond I am of my country. I love it I love it I love it… the feeling comes from within – the warmth from the heart and the delirious joy from my tummy (you know what I mean?)…. I just adore it. She's my mother, my source of comfort, my home, my soul, my heart…. It is a part of my living breathing soul and I am not exclaiming that I love it (I can never find words enough to exclaim that), I am exclaiming about the joy *I* feel from loving my country so much!! I can't explain it… this warmth.. this excitement… this.. feeling of pride… this madness… AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No country is perfect – and trust me I am the first one to whine and moan and complain and do-nothing-about-it (as every good citizen does… lol) about my country, and I can b.itch about its state for hours on end – but at the end of the day, I believe from the goddamn bottom of my heart, that my country is beyond words explaining its beauty. Not saying other countries aren't, and heavens only know what a c.rap.hole my country is – but it is still so freaking wonderful and I am in awe and admiration and adoration of her. She's beautiful. I truly do consider her my mother – she has always been there for me when I needed her, ALWAYS had her arms open wide and in her seemingly infinite wisdom, ALWAYS managed to comfort me and soothe me… I love my country so much and the joy I feel at KNOWING I love my country so much is just so, so, SO damn wonderful I had to 'let my feelings out'.
I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OVERCOME WITH JOY RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Man, I'm SO “excited” right now that I almost feel tempted to screw this Mystery Woman thing and reveal my identity just so I can scream it from the rooftops (er, forum-green-wall-tops) how happy I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! I love my country!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha I'm so happy you're happy my lovely! mao @ the whole “screw this Mystery Woman” thing!
Enjoy.
Ohh girls, I undersatnd how you are feeling, but the life is beautiful!! Look for the wonderfull thingh that the life has. Ok, lets go!
This song is for you!!: KHABI KHABI GIRLS!
Kabhi kabhi GIRLS!! zindagi mein yunhi koi apna lagta hai
Sometimes in life, GIRLS, just like that someone seems like your own
Kabhi kabhi woh bichhad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai
Sometimes GIRLS, when they are separated, it seems like a dream
Aise mein koi kaise apne aansuon ko behne se roke?
In such, how can anyone stop their tears from flowing
Aur kaise koi soch le everything’s gonna be okay?
And how can someone think everything’s going to be okay
Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi na khushi aur na mazaa
Sometimes it seems there is no happiness nor fun left in life
Kabhi kabhi to lage har din mushkil aur har pal ek sazaa
Sometimes it seems every day is difficult, every moment is a punishment
Aise mein koi kaise muskuraaye kaise hans de khush hoke?
In such, how can someone smile, or be happy and laugh
Aur kaise koi soch le everything’s gonna be okay?
And how can they think everything’s going to be okay
Soch zara jaan-e-jaan tujhko humein kitna chahte hain
Think dear, how much we care for you
Rote hain hum bhi agar teri aankhon mein aansoo aate hain
If there are tears in your eyes, I/we cry too
Gaana to aata nahin hai magar phir bhi hum gaate hain
I/We don’t know how to sing, but yet I/we sing
Kavita, it's funny that you mention understanding yourself and who you really are. Because after all this time I've spent in this world, I still haven't found myself. I have a problem. I don't know myself or rather, I'm unsure of myself. I don't know who I am or rather, I'm unsure of who I am. People are always telling me what kind of person I am, who I am, what I am. Of course, I don't mind it, I actually like it because it's information; I find out things about myself that I never knew or never thought of. And that's what bothers me. The fact that I don't know who I am but all these people seem to be so sure of who I am. The fact that I use it as information to find myself bothers me. I like knowing what people think of me, I really do. It's just that I wish I knew myself, that I understood myself, that I find myself on my own. And it hurts because I use their negative opinions to shape who I think I am and throw away the positive opinions into the never ending pile of doubts. I have so many doubts. It kills me. When I'm trying to find myself… all I see are the negatives. When I try to think of something positive, like I was thinking about how strong I am, I immediately push it aside into the doubt folder and the moment passes by. The moment is gone, I don't think I'm strong anymore, I think I'm really weak. But I'm so happy that I could sit there and write about my own strength for a change. Even if the moment passed, at least there was that moment and at least I have it written down. And that's another problem, the moments don't last too long. Usually they last a few minutes. But the strength moment lasted for a while and I had enough time to write it out before it passed. And when I do think of positives, if someone tells me I'm not strong, I'll consider it, because my doubts are so strong that I won't be able to fight for my positives. I feel that some people unknowingly take advantage of the fact that I'm so unsure of myself. Or maybe it's not that they take advantage, maybe it's that they are able to get away with labeling me as such and such because I'm so unsure of myself. Whatever it is, I'm mad at myself for being so unsure of myself. It hurts so much to not be able to defend myself because of my countless flaws and doubts and unsurety (I don't even think this is a word lol) of myself.
Kavita… I used to be as naive as you. I used to believe that nothing should be left unsaid. I don't leave anything unsaid to myself and I don't want anyone to leave anything unsaid to me, but I know that I must leave many things unsaid to others. You don't know me enough, Kavita. Once you see me close enough, you won't like what you see. I just turned on Chalo Jaane Do to listen to it like you told me to… but it's only making me sadder because I can do that with everyone. I forgive and forget so easily. I never hold a grudge. I never hold anything over anyone's head. I never stop speaking to anyone. I don't stay upset with people for too long. I don't punish people severely for the wrong that they may do. But I'm the exception. I don'
I FEEL like Repunzel ..I KNW if I let down my hair u would have the nerve to climb up to rescue me..
I miss u my hero my jaan… my gorgeous Grey,blue greeneyed hero
I feel …
……
…….
khabi khushi
Khabi Ghum
Di, you came back to the forum! Hugs
Im worried about you How are you?
Im sorry that what you're dying for, is at such a great distance
Hugs, a million trillion gazillion huge lovable comforting HUGS, just for you
And btw, you should let your hair down … lookin all hawtt and purrrty, there's no doubt that he'd do anything to rescue you
Aww, I wanna humm that song to you too !! hug ~~ Isnt it from Kabhi Kabhi, with Amitabh Bachhan?
Its good to see you on the forum again. I've been coming here often recently.
Love you. Take care of yourself. I know you're paining.
Boo~~~~~ Its Grrrr-eaaattt to see you feeeling sooo elated
Live the moment!!! And I hope it lasts for a long time !!!
I wonder which country you're talking about though I dont know where you're from or how old you are
Arre wah…. Shreya Ghoshal has a BEAUTIFUL, BEAUTIFUL singing voice… I'm NO expert on singing, but I just feel like there's something missing from her voice, though? I don't know…
I mean, she's no Mariah Carey or Whitney Houston and I know they are different genres to compare, but you know what I mean? I mean – Whitney and Mariah.. I CANNOT for the life of me find their voices ANYTHING less than perfect, but… meh… is it just I need to get attuned to her singing voice?
Im not exactly sure which film songs were sung by Shreya Ghoshal but I know she sang Tujh Mein Rab Dikhta Hai from Rabne Bana di Jodi and its absolutely amazing.
Whitney Houston is a classic, she's great.
But Mariah Carey, umm, I dont think she's all that. But she's pretty okay.
Whitney Houston is a GODDESS. LOVE her.
LOL people always seem to have mixed views about Mariah Carey… I think she has an absolutely angelic voice.
I think it might just be my laptop speakers after all.. hahahaha… I dunno. She has SUCH a bholi si surat, I absolutely adore looking at her… soooo sweet.
Whats a bholi si surat? The only bit I know about Bholi Si Surat would be emm that song from Dil To Pagal Hai.
Mariah Carey has a sweet voice. Yeah, im guessing alot of pple would like looking at her > she's revealing
Ur in my duas.. when the time is right u will be able to understand yourself and forgive yourself for wat u perceive to be a wrong ..remember **a wrong ** is only a perception of what a person makes it to be… In my humble opinion..how can u not know who u are if you do not express and experience all of lifes **characteristics*** …so a long explanation shortened… no one is ever truly wrong…… as wrong would indicate that wat u were thinking, acting out or doing was not right….and if u were truly feeling, thinking and doing something u believed to be the right thing as apposed to wat another thinks is right or wrong… why then does that become a wrong..
Dnt mean to be intrusive…and certainly dont mean to upset u or anyone soooo yeah…
hope lifes turns out as its destined to for u Rani..take care
You're not being intrusive. *sigh* Scarry, please check your PMS, I'm going to PM you after I post this comment up. I didn't completely understand what you meant, but I know you mean well, thank you for the duas
lol it used to be a lot better back in high school, now it's sooo bad because I get no practice speaking it! lol But what exactly does no te preocupes mean? todo estara bien means everythings gonna be okay, si?
Haha I practice my english everyday in the forums, but I don´t dominate the english 🙂
NO TE PREOCUPES : Don´t worry !!
TODO ESTARÁ BIEN : everythings gonna be okay
Haha I practice my english everyday in the forums, but I don´t dominate the english 🙂
NO TE PREOCUPES : Don´t worry !!
TODO ESTARÁ BIEN : everythings gonna be okay
Hmm… how would I say this… Tus ingles esta muy bien! Is that right? lol Where do you live again? hhmmm Donde tu vive?… lol I don't remember how to say where do you live. I know I read it somewhere in one of the threads but I can't remember the answer.
Yeah, I had a feeling that “no te preocupes” meant don't worry. that's why I asked because you didn't translate that part, just the last bit. hehe I'm proud of myself.
Practice makes perfect.
Whats a bholi si surat? The only bit I know about Bholi Si Surat would be emm that song from Dil To Pagal Hai.
Bholi si surat means “an innocent face”
I couldn't resist translating
Practice makes perfect.
si, si! esta bien!
Hmm… how would I say this… Tus ingles esta muy bien! Is that right? lol Where do you live again? hhmmm Donde tu vive?… lol I don't remember how to say where do you live. I know I read it somewhere in one of the threads but I can't remember the answer.
Yeah, I had a feeling that “no te preocupes” meant don't worry. that's why I asked because you didn't translate that part, just the last bit. hehe I'm proud of myself.
Your english is very good : “Tu inglés está muy bien” or ” Tu inglés es muy bueno” ( Your answer is perfect)
Where do you live? : Donde vives? or Donde vives tú?
I live in xxxx : Yo vivo en xxxx
Yes!!! You must be proud of yourself!!!
ANd You right, Kavita!!
Hmm… how would I say this… Tus ingles esta muy bien! Is that right? lol Where do you live again? hhmmm Donde tu vive?… lol I don't remember how to say where do you live. I know I read it somewhere in one of the threads but I can't remember the answer.
Yeah, I had a feeling that “no te preocupes” meant don't worry. that's why I asked because you didn't translate that part, just the last bit. hehe I'm proud of myself.
Your english is very good : “Tu inglés está muy bien” or ” Tu inglés es muy bueno” ( Your answer is perfect)
Where do you live? : Donde vives? or Donde vives tú?
I live in xxxx : Yo vivo en xxxx
Yes!!! You must be proud of yourself!!!
Aah I messed up with the Tu, I said Tus instead! lol still good, right? woot! Yessss! Donde vives! I remember now! lolll And you live in peru! Tu vives en Peru, si? lolly thanks Lyn!
Hehe You need practice and you will speak like a spanish girl,Tu español es muy bueno!
De nada!
Rani, I stil have my bit to share (about what you wrote to me)
I was going to do it right now, but I have to go ugh!
Until then, stay safe hun.
Love you
hehe like a spanish girl, that sounds exciting!
hehe like a spanish girl, that sounds exciting!
WHAT? Do you like a spanish girl?? I am confused!!
hehe like a spanish girl, that sounds exciting!
WHAT? Do you like a spanish girl?? I am confused!!
Lyn! LOL NO! I was just repeating what you said about me being able to speak like a spanish girl once I practiced my Spanish. The thought of speaking fluent spanish sounded exciting.
Rani, I stil have my bit to share (about what you wrote to me)
I was going to do it right now, but I have to go ugh!
Until then, stay safe hun.
Love you
No problem hunn! Whenever you have time, no sweat!
You take care hunn
Love you too ♥
hehe like a spanish girl, that sounds exciting!
WHAT? Do you like a spanish girl?? I am confused!!
hahahahahaha!! aww!! hahahahah!!
Ohhhh thanks to god!! I was scared!!
LMAO! Lyn, you are hilarious!
I'm sitting here thinking of my twin, wishing she was here with me… and then I remember the words she said to me a few days ago and I realize she is sitting right next to me… She'll be there when I go to bed with tears in my eyes… She'll be there to hold my head in her lap and smooth my hair away from my face and dry my tears. She'll be there with me… along with all my other beautiful friends.
I don't remember this… but it makes me smile.
This is my Jihaad. I'm striving to struggle with myself right now.
Everything will work itself out in the end. I promise.
I love you.
Lies. Lies. They are all lies. They lied. Lies. Lies.
I don't remember this… but it makes me smile.
u gettin old…just accept the fact.
Don't worry… she isn't quite there with you and your walking stick yet… (or wait, was that Baqtiar? Or Senor? my days I am confused!! there was SOMEONE with a walking stick…. but I remember the chaddis they could only belong to one person )
Oreo I ain't old. I'm still young abhi toh main jawaaaaan hooon
boo lmao baqz had the chaddiz and senor had the walking stick he refused to use lmao
… i think. lmao
so what did serio have?
if he doesn't have anything, can i christen him wih reading glasses? I've ALWAYS imagined Oreo with big geeky reading glasses … no, seriously…. always have!
Ur in my duas.. when the time is right u will be able to understand yourself and forgive yourself for wat u perceive to be a wrong ..remember **a wrong ** is only a perception of what a person makes it to be… In my humble opinion..how can u not know who u are if you do not express and experience all of lifes **characteristics*** …so a long explanation shortened… no one is ever truly wrong…… as wrong would indicate that wat u were thinking, acting out or doing was not right….and if u were truly feeling, thinking and doing something u believed to be the right thing as apposed to wat another thinks is right or wrong… why then does that become a wrong..
Dnt mean to be intrusive…and certainly dont mean to upset u or anyone soooo yeah…
hope lifes turns out as its destined to for u Rani..take care
You're not being intrusive. *sigh* Scarry, please check your PMS, I'm going to PM you after I post this comment up. I didn't completely understand what you meant, but I know you mean well, thank you for the duas
Hey Rani,
I had actually explained wat I meant ( regarding the first paragraph of my post to u) but then I deleted it coz it was too personal for the forum… I wanted to tell u… wat u basically already know..that watever answers u seek, watever is worrying u and needs to be cleansed from yr troubled heart…its already in u… sometimes in our daily lives, the outside noises blocks us from connecting with our inner self/spirit and with the messages from God..
In yr search dear, to find all the answers u seek, all u need to do is look within, ( trust me thats a pain in the frikking a.ss statement…) one of the ways for doing this is praying to and asking for clear guidance and help from Allah before u go to bed, ask for the healing u seek, the answers to yr questions, the healing of yr soul, the forgiveness, watever it is u feel u are in doubt of..ask Allah to bring u the answers in a way u will be able to understand ..
i am not sure if this makes sense now, and I cant really explain here soo if u want, I will reply to yr pm and hopefully explain myself better…
take care of yourself
~
Di, you came back to the forum! Hugs
Im worried about you How are you?
Im sorry that what you're dying for, is at such a great distance
Hugs, a million trillion gazillion huge lovable comforting HUGS, just for you
And btw, you should let your hair down … lookin all hawtt and purrrty, there's no doubt that he'd do anything to rescue you
Aww, I wanna humm that song to you too !! hug ~~ Isnt it from Kabhi Kabhi, with Amitabh Bachhan?
Its good to see you on the forum again. I've been coming here often recently.
Love you. Take care of yourself. I know you're paining.
I LOVE U pagli, since when did i leave? thank u for yr strength, yr wisdom and yr love
..hugggs kav back…really tightly coz I dnt wanna let u gooo
oh gawd ( in yr accent ) i was lookin out my bedroom window brushing my hair while watching the wind have a wave effect on the water in the bay( feeling like repunzel coz my hairs grown soo darn long now ) …I was just thinkin hw.. yeah if I had to let down my hair, he would grab it and try to haul himself up instead of using a darn rope..hehehehe dat brought tears and a smile to my face…
ur such a bugger…stop worrying..the worry frowns wont go well on yr face..smile ..coz the wrinkles from a smile looks much more sex.ier…
Yup amitabhs movie with Srk and Kajol…… I think I will go home and watch Bhagban or something teary ..I need to cry again & sleep..am sooo sleepy…and hungry…again
an angel once whispered to me that theres always healing after the pain, sunshine after the rain, rainbows from the storms..sooo am waiting
sitting here and silently waiting..with u by my side
sendin u one warm lovefilled hug to make up for the gazillion u send me hun… dats all the strength I have for now…
yesssss…. its good to see U back posting on the forumbeen laughing my as.s off here…thanks for the smiles
Dying j
Loss. I feel the loss of so many things in my life. The past year and a half has robbed me of so much. I feel time slipping out of my hands like the grains of sand… everything is going way too fast… I miss my childhood so much. Coping with loss is so damn hard.
so what did serio have?
if he doesn't have anything, can i christen him wih reading glasses? I've ALWAYS imagined Oreo with big geeky reading glasses … no, seriously…. always have!
No! no big geeky reading glasses! thats more for u! actually u do sound geeky boogedy.
But… the big geeky reading glasses were MADE for you…. *sobs*
So I went on google to find a picture of Saif with geeky reading glasses and stopped breathing when I saw this:
This is such an amazing picture! She looks stunningly magical! And he looks hot in a cute way. If only he wasn't smiling so big, they could have made the pic all perfect… aaah I'm in love with this pic! I can't wait to find good lyrics to go with it so I can photoshop it! OMG I'm SOOO excited!
I want her dress…
Bollywood to the rescue, eh… as per usual. 😀 I love it too! OMG *HOW* did a Google search for Saif with big geeky reading glasses…….. lead to this??!! :O
And LMAO… I JUST realised… Oreo said the big geeky reading glasses suit me better… and I'm Preity… and Preity in Kal Ho Na Ho wears reading glasses…. chesmish! Yay! ANOTHER Kal Ho Na Ho moment… that movie is our BWL life.. LOL… SRK's rudeness reminds me a bit of Nitz. 😀 Hahahahaha….
Ew please! Nitz as shahrukh/aman?!?! Wouldn't that suit oreo better? Cuz even though aman was all rude and crap, he turned out to be super helpful and kind and caring when necessary? but yes, ur chashmish! LOL what is up with u and kal ho na ho these days?!?!?
and dude it didn't give me one pic of saif with reading glasses! But i don't mind, i love this picture… *faints*
Hahahahhahaa…. Saif is obviously not cool enough for our Mr. Big Geeky Reading Glasses Oreo saab here….. obviously. Clearly.
Hehe that reminds me of “It's my tom Cruise look yaar!” LOL
LOL… ahh poor Oreo….
LOL We're all ganging up on him with Lyn! It reminds me of the song Yeh gore gore se chorre from hum tum. LMAO but then again, that song has ALWAYS reminded me of him LMAO LMAO LMAO I could always imagine me singing that to him LMAO LMAO
LOL We're all ganging up on him with Lyn! It reminds me of the song Yeh gore gore se chorre from hum tum. LMAO but then again, that song has ALWAYS reminded me of him LMAO LMAO LMAO I could always imagine me singing that to him LMAO LMAO
you, SING??? ok before u kill all the trees and the animals starts to migrate to Antarctica i suggest u reconsider it for the good of mankind!!
LOL *sings to Oreo from the rooftop*
(bolded parts are the bits i imagine singing to you the most – lmao)
adaa magar hai hiro-waalii | his style is that of a hero. |
gore gore ye chhore | These white-ish boys |
ye ishq ishq chillaate hai.n | he screams of his love. |
ye galii galii ma.nDraate hai.n | He wanders from lane to lane, |
shaadii ke Dagar na jaaye magar | but he won't go on the road to marriage. |
ye gore gore se chhore | These whiteish boys… |
a.ndar se chaahe kuchh bhii ho yeh | no matter what he is on the inside, |
adaa magar hai hiro-waalii | his style is that of a hero. |
din raat kitaabe.n paRHte hai.n ye | Day and night he reads books |
laRkii kii tasviiro.nwaalii | featuring pictures of girls. |
kahii.n jiivan mela par shaadii jhamela | somewhere life is a festival, but marriage is a nuissance |
darvaaza yeh inhe.n dikhlaa'o zara | Just show him the door! |
ye gore gore se chhore | These whiteish boys… |
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Hey Rani, I wrote my bit on what you had said earlier. But I didnt realize that it would be sooo-sooo long! Sorry I think I over did it and now you have to read loads … (well of course if you chose to read it).
Its really long and I've decided to send it in through pms … so you can read it there.
I had posted it up, and I tried to delete it but I realized that there is no 'delete' option in the 'edit' tab … sooo, that would explain me posting a dot
Anyway – It was fun reading the translation of that song! I alwys like it hehehehe, now I know why Rani was acting so mean to him. Well, he deserved it!! hehe!
LOL We're all ganging up on him with Lyn! It reminds me of the song Yeh gore gore se chorre from hum tum. LMAO but then again, that song has ALWAYS reminded me of him LMAO LMAO LMAO I could always imagine me singing that to him LMAO LMAO
Oo – la – la ! This sounds like fun!
lol okay Kavita, i'll check my pms inshaAllah
But what translation are you talking about? Rani was being mean to who? and who deserved it? lolly
OH! LMAO The gore gore song! hahahahahahhahahaaaaaaa yeah its a fun song, isn't it?
Oh mi goodness child! The song!! Yes! The one that you posted very beautifully with translation
Its such a fun song!! hehehe … girls … ganing up on … guy(s), whats not fun about that!
LOL Oye, I'm not a child And btw, I didn't translate it, I did, however, fix the parts I thought were wrong or not good enuf LMAO
Yep yep, that's ALWAYS fun!
LMAO Kavita I just saw your pm, I thought you were exxagerating, but it really is an essay long! lmao i love you! No one gives me the time of day anymore to write me long a$$ letters!
A mistake made once is a learning curve; making the same mistake twice is simply foolish.
LMAO Kavita I just saw your pm, I thought you were exxagerating, but it really is an essay long! lmao i love you! No one gives me the time of day anymore to write me long a$ letters!
I totally over did it! Im sorry. I decided not to post it on the forum to bring any embarrassment and anger anyone that I'd be writing essays on all the forum space . I dont even know if it all made perfect sense lol. Anyway, when you're done reading it, tell me? I have to delete it! Well, you get the long a$$ letter cos you're special Or cos.. I was punishing you with my lectures! lol. Alright thats not gonna happen again … im sorry, I guess I just got a lil uncontrollable I love you too jaanu
Forum! You're going to be my friend right now! My friend, my friend, my friend!
A mistake made once is a learning curve; making the same mistake twice is simply foolish.
This reminds me of that quote that goes soemthing like ” someone screws you over once, their fault. somone screws you over twice, your fault” lol i said it totally wrong, but it means something like that lmao
Kavita! What do you mean let you know when I'm done reading it so you can delete it?!?!? You're not deleting it! I LIKED IT! Don't delete it lmao. Next time I need it, I can just go back to my pms and read it there and remember how awesome you are! If you delete it imma sooooo smack youuuu! And you did not overdo it, i liked it, it made perfect sense to me and I'm going to reply soon! Please don't delete it lol And no one would get angry at you for writing essays all over the forum space, they'd have to get past me to get any anger to you. It wasn't too much at all jaana! It was just right! I love you so much you little psychologist! LOL Have you ever thought of being a therapist or something? You're into all that psychology, think about it.
Well … I was um … just um gonna delete it cos … um I totally overdid it lol. Fine, you can keep it.
No future overdoing it like I did today.
Lol, um, actually Psychology is my major right now. But Im going to switch it to something else so … we shall see.
lol whooo hoooo thanks jaan-e-mann!
I wouldn't mind future overdoings.
Really? wow you're doing great then! Why do you want to change your major? Are you in college or Uni? What year are you in? how old are you again? LMAO
Well I knew that I wanted to go in a field where I could help people. And in Psychology … of course, thats helping people but … mentally, emotionally. Im kinda thinking that I need to go in a field where Im helping people physically. I think I'll switch my major and see how it goes.
Im in college. Well right now we have summer break .. and I have like a month and a half more. How old am I? I can be an old aunty for all you know!
Note : I am not an old aunty!
Wow that's great mashaAllah! All the best for whatever you choose to do!
lol humph. keeping secrets, huh? you already told us your age on the forum, i just forgot! I could guess, but i won't.
I feel so miserable. I miss him so much. I'm so stupid. I went and started thinking everything through from when we met and I read our latest conversation to each other and now i'm miserable and i miss him so much and crying doesn't help right now and this sux and life is so stupid and i want to know why. damn it i want to know why.
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My mother had a mini stroke.
My mother had a mini stroke.
What happened hun? Is your mother alright?
My mother had a mini stroke.
Yr families in my duas hunnie I hope yr mum gets better soon….. I cant even find the words to express wat I feel..
I feel so miserable. I miss him so much. I'm so stupid. I went and started thinking everything through from when we met and I read our latest conversation to each other and now i'm miserable and i miss him so much and crying doesn't help right now and this sux and life is so stupid and i want to know why. damn it i want to know why.
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Hugs Rani tightly. I know it hurts. But that spark that you have in you needs to be kept lit. It is in times like these that we need it the most! Love you jaan
Yr families in my duas hunnie I hope yr mum gets better soon….. I cant even find the words to express wat I feel..
Your family is in my prayers too Rani. I do hope your mother recovers well. Im so sorry to hear that this has happened. Love you hun
Di? I think we both keep getting disconnected from gmail : I dont see you there anymore. Why does gmail disconnect so often though? Sighs.
Love you di
My mother had a mini stroke.
What happened hun? Is your mother alright?
She had a mini stroke. This is the second time this happened. The docs say that its possible she may have another one and that it may spread. Thank you for the prayers, sweetheart. She's… better…
Thank you scarry for your duas.
Dear Rani,
I dont really know what to say to you, I can understand what u are going through though, last december my friends mum had a stroke which left her paralysed from the head to toe on her left side… it was a really difficult time for everyone in her family as am sure it is in yours dear
What I can say is that with Faith and prayer, miracles do occur, I HAVE seen it and experienced the same, sooo keep on making dua for her ( as would i ) ..am sure she will recover fully from this..
With patience, faith and therapy, my friends mum can walk with some help now and she is gettting better by the day… sooo hang in there Rani your mum will be fine…
Sending you more strength and love dear rani, take care of yourself as well ok.. and please let me know of your mums progress..ur in my thoughts…
warm hug for u …
Thank you, Scarry.
She had a mini stroke. This is the second time this happened. The docs say that its possible she may have another one and that it may spread. Thank you for the prayers, sweetheart. She's… better…
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Rani, Im so sorry to hear that this is going on right now.. My friend's grandmother had a stroke sometime back and it left her unable to move for a while. But she is getting better with each day, and can move her limbs now. Which is wonderful. Likewise, I just want to tell you to keep praying, keep strong … your mom will get better. You and everyone at home must take care of her more now. But with each day, she will progress. Im glad to hear that she is doing a bit better. I will pray for your mom and your family hun. Dont give up, dont lose hope. Hugs
Thank you, Kavita.
Thank you, Kavita.
You're welcome my dear. Keep that chin up.
If you get a bit mad/upset at something (for a brief period of time),
which only resulted with you being called an idiot and a moron (by the other person),
what would you make out of this … ?
*keeping*
If you get a bit mad/upset at something (for a brief period of time),
which only resulted with you being called an idiot and a moron (by the other person),
what would you make out of this … ?
lol it depends on the situation and the way the idiot and moron word was used and how close i am to the person. but i'm guessing i'd just be like whatever and get over it
You okay jaan?
Hey cutie! 😉 Cute eyes, cute voice 😉 hehe
It was so coooool talking to you last night hun!
Anyway, as for your reply to my question I asked up there …
Well, when I wrote it, the incident had just occured and I was feeling kinda pissed lol. But now looking back on it, I'll say I agree with you. It definitely depends. Anyway, the person is close to me. And I got upset because of something that person said. Anyway, I should have known better !!
Lol, yeah Im fine. No problem with it now. Its so funny how when we're mad and we come here to post, then later on when we're cooled down and we read back what we wrote when we were angry … its so funny how we see it so differently. Well, thats probably cos we got over it anyway.
How have you been, cutie
lol you bum! you're the cutie! and cute eyes? i'd like to think my eyes were at least gorgeous in that pic! LMAO it was cool talking to you tooo! a little embarrassing on my side, but still fun!
as long as you're fine now and don't have a problem with it.
mmhmm anger is like that na. you don't really mean everything you say, nothing makes sense, the only thing that makes sense is that you're angry, and once you're all cooled down, it's just not completely the same anymore. Anger is one letter short of danger. that's what i've always believed because i've experienced anger like no one else (well not really but u know what i mean). I'm not too good with anger…
I've been okay, how u been my darling?
wahahahahahahaha I guess in that respect we are so untwinlike Rani jee
I get pissed off and irritated, but that's at a shallow level – I CANNOT even REMEMBER the last time I was actually angry in the deep sense of the word… hahahaha, my exboyfriend said thanks to me because I apparently showed him how to unleash the feeling of anger that he felt so scared to show out… However the heck that worked. lol.
Anger if it has a basis is understandable but getting irritated at the simplest, tiniest of things just gets annoying after a while. I always wonder how they can bear to be so angry throughout so much of the day. It's quite scary. When do they smell the flowers and stare into the sky and appreciate music? But I guess the good thing about Short Fuse personalities is you know when their fuse will blow out more predictably than you can the Long Fuse wale.
You didn't understand, my darling. We're completely twinlike. When I said I have experienced anger like no one else, I didn't mean that I have been the angry one, I meant I have experienced what anger does to someone. The anger was in someone else, not me. I am not at all an angry person. Never was, never will be. When i said I'm not good with anger, I didn't mean i'm an angry person, I meant that I don't take anger well when it is directed at me, or someone else for that matter. Angry people… I don't take angry people well.
You should know, boo. I showed you a poem called, “Your Anger” that I wrote myself. Anyone who has read that poem of mine knows how much I'm not into anger and how I'm not an angry person at all.
I am just like you, twin ji. I'm a short fuse wali. I get irritated very easily. I get irritated at the simplest and tiniest things. I have said that on the forum before, too, that I get irritated very easily. If that's called anger, then it's anger. But I never thought of it as anger, because it only lasts for such a short time. And I can't remember when I've ever felt deep anger. I do remember though, some weird anger I felt a while ago. but that anger was covered in deep hurt. Now that I look back on it, I see that subconsciously I was tired of all the pain and hurt that I retaliated by being angry. It wasn't real anger. I was angry at myself… for being so upset.
And when I do get angry, the irritated at tiny things angry, I get over it super quickly that I get surprised it was ever there in the first place. You know that song, Ek ladki ki tumhe kya sunaau dastaan” from Mere yaar ki shaadi hai? Remember that line he says “hai khafa, toh khafa, phir khud hai woh maan bhi jaati hai.” – The word khafa in this line is meant to mean anger. It basically means something to the extent that when she's angry, then she's angry, but then she gets over it by herself. That's so me.
I never did understand how people can carry so much anger in their hearts. I could never do that.
I feel:
Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?
The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name
Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thought in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?
Life is more and that would be the vacant space
The cried out tears and a never ending maze
I have found what only loneliness provides
A strength within knowing I will find
Alie di,
im sending a hug just for you.
Its hard to say 'chin up' so Im just going to say
try to make yourself happy with the things that you have
and keep trying to make yourself, your outlook on life, better
“Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me”
lol you bum! you're the cutie! and cute eyes? i'd like to think my eyes were at least gorgeous in that pic! LMAO it was cool talking to you tooo! a little embarrassing on my side, but still fun!
You do have pretty eyes jaanu It wasss cool hearing you! And you sang for me! Nawww, not a need to feel embarrassed!! lol. It was fun
as long as you're fine now and don't have a problem with it. Yeah, Im good now hun
mmhmm anger is like that na. you don't really mean everything you say, nothing makes sense, the only thing that makes sense is that you're angry, and once you're all cooled down, it's just not completely the same anymore. Anger is one letter short of danger. that's what i've always believed because i've experienced anger like no one else (well not really but u know what i mean). I'm not too good with anger…
Yeah, you're right, you're right hun. I know after we cool down, its all good again. Anger isnt good.
I've been okay, how u been my darling? Im alright hun, thanks for asking. I hope you're alright.
kavi: I love u more n more an more n more with every beat of my heart jaana..warm hug
Aw Alie
Me love you too.
Thanks for the hug.
Now, Im sending you some!
Hugggssssssssssssssssssssssssss
More hugssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
And some moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I miss my friend… bloody idiot went off on holiday… Life SUCKS!!
Aw hun, the time can seem forever when a loved one has left huh
Its gonna be okay. It should mean much to you that they havent left forever but they'll be back … (I hope)
We're here for you
How can someone be so cruel?
I'm miserable.
I miss him so much.
Been going crazy and overboard with the daydreams.
This is what I get.
Main kitni gaddi thi. Kitni badi bewakoof. Tab hi toh yeh sab ho raha hai mere saath.
*siiigh* Bewakoof…
Rani
I know it hurts. Sometimes we have to go through some pain to understand our true feelings … which will then help us to work on things ( self and self perception included) to feel even a bit better.
As for some people being cruel, if you're talking about being in love … it can be the worst pain if you love/like someone and they dont love/like you back. I dont know if thats what you're referring to … but … that does suck. But you have to realize that that person is out there living their life, and you shouldnt let them interrupt yours. Also, you must accept .. although its hard (at first) … that everyone has a right to their feelings. I have this belief … its that, if both people dont like/love each other … the relationship will go no where in the long run. I have no idea if Im making the right connections between you and your feelings. If Im not, im sorry just umm .. ignore this.
I know you're probably not talking about people in general but … question …. why cant everyone just be nice to each other? Why are some people so mean and nasty?
I hope you will be okay hun. Dont take it too hard on yourself. You dont deserve it.
Let your strength grow in times like these. I know you're staring at the screen like … yeah, sure..like thats gonna happen. I guess what I mean is that … let your strength grow after this bout of sadness/helplessness.
Love you. Im here if you need to talk about it.
No, the people being cruel wasn't a reference to being in love shove. I don't know if I'm going to be okay. Thank you jaan, ur so kind, mashaAllah.
Speaking of the one you like being cruel. I'm so mad at him. How can he “lead me on” so beautifully like that and then stop talking to me just like that? I mean I dreamed it would work out, he WOVE some of those dreams HIMSELF, put those dreams in my mind HIMSELF! And then, left me standing there in the middle of the road, while he went Allah knows where! It's like taking me to the highest mountain, showing me the world, and saying, “this is what you can't have.”
Okay, fine, so I'm not REALLY mad at him, and that he's given me sooo much to even be upset about being left hoping for more. When life offers you a dream so much beyond your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve. And that's not what I'm grieving over. My pain lies elsewhere. It's just that I WANT to be mad right now. You know how sometimes you just want to fight? Yell it off at someone? Take all that sad energy and direct it in anger and then when you're spent, just slump into a ball in the arms of the person you chose as a punching bag? And you only choose really close ppl to you as punching bags.
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Grrrrrrrr.
I didn't know it was possible for the tiny broken pieces of a heart to break into their own mini pieces. I thought that maybe this would still be mine after I've lost everything else… but now even that's been given to someone else. I'm so robbed…
How much more am I going to be punished for everything I've done? And I get the feeling that my punishment has just begun…
Rani Im not even sure what I can say right now to bring you some comfort. I just know that Im here for you if you need to talk, vent, release. The forum is here for you. You know we'll listen.
I just, I dislike seeing that you are being so so so hard on yourself. I know it is your feeling, but I just … I feel in my heart that you are being too harsh on yourself and this is causing you to pain even more.
About 'leading you on' … sighs, so is this what had happened? I dont know why people do that hun. But sometimes, maybe its the other person who has been perceiving the actions as 'leading on' … but Im not sure which is true in your case.
I feel down that your life is being interrupted so much by this. By someone who isnt there for you, by someone who is off in the world, doing his own thing, living his own life, doing his duties, just living life how he likes : and all of this without you. And yet, you are here, living life with him, for him, by him, even though he is no where around you or close to you. You see him, you feel him, you hear him, you dream of him, you yearn for him. But, Rani, is he somewhere else in the world, doing the same for you? Of course I dont know the answer … but do you know it?
If there is anyone who knows the feeling of 'just wanting to fight' I think it would be me. I have gotten in much trouble because of this feeling of mine. And it has eased down alot over time. But, I know how it feels. It feels good, doesnt it? Despite the anger that it may cause in other people, it feels so good to us, because finally we get to 'be free' with what we feel, and what we feel is painful and angry and sad and mad and to translate that into the words that we speak … it comes out as this 'fight' type of thing. When last did we joyfully expressed our sad, painful, angry feelings ? To think of it … that can come off kinda strange hmm.
I wish the other people would understand what it is like for us. And to not see it as us being idiots who can't shut our angry mouths.
And I also know what you mean when you said you just WANT to be mad. I know how that feels. Sometimes, the same goes for, I just want to be emotional/sad (for a while, for THIS moment in time). Because it means something to me. And I need it. I guess … our little moments with ourselves and our feelings … allow us to get into good touch with what we really feel..deep down inside. Denial and force and suppression will have to take a break some time.
So Rani … I dont know why I keep going on like this, I know its not helping you but .. I just want to say to you that .. if you need to just feel something, for a while, for a moment in time, feel it and feel it to the fullest. Because sometimes it is through these times, that we understand ourselves better and admit some things to ourselves. Also, Rani, I just want to say that friendly comfort, nice words, all of these things that your friends, family may say to make you feel better, may help you, but ulti
Kavi, no sweetheart, I'm not being too harsh on myself. Others are harsher, trust me.
And lol no, that's not what happened. He didn't really lead me on lmao He did kinda, but i'm really glad that he did. lmao actually he once said to me to stop leading HIM on! lmao Kavi, let me clear some things up. I'm truly at peace with everything that happened between me and him. I WANTED to stop talking to him. It was like an answered prayer. I'm not REALLY mad at him, I just wanted to be mad, and I picked him to want to be mad at. I have no reason to be mad at him. He has given me so much. He helped me like myself during the time he spent with me. He's given me more than i thought I deserved, more than I thought was possible for me. It's just that I miss him sometimes and i just wish I knew how he was and what he was up to. I guess you can say I wish I could stalk him. lmao I do know where he is right now though. Our story is like the song do pal from veer zaara. It really was something that lasted for do pal (two moments) and in those two moments he gave me more than I asked for and I'm really really at peace with him. I don't know WHY he stopped talking to me, but I feel that since I couldn't stop, Allah helped me by having him stop, because he's a lot stronger than I am. See? Even in that he helped me. I DO wish I knew why HE feels he stopped talking to me though, like his reasons. But its not enough to make me not feel at peace with HIM. He's not really interupting my life. llike i said, my pain lies elsewhere. And I don't think i'm interrupting his life. Like I said before, I don't even know if he still thinks of me, if he even remembers me. But it's okay, because the time that he DID give me was more time than I thought any guy would give me. And not just time, but the attention, and the care, and the liking, and the dreams, and the sweetness. Everything with him was more than I ever expected. I don't grieve over that. I just miss him, is all. I hope that makes sense? lolly
Thank you though Kavi. you don't know how much your concern and care helps me through out all this. I love you too! And I WAS smiling while reading your post! hehe
I miss my friend… bloody idiot went off on holiday… Life SUCKS!!
LOL *innocent look*
I love you!!! =D
I'M BACK NOW! =P
I miss my friend… bloody idiot went off on holiday… Life SUCKS!!
LOL *innocent look*
I love you!!! =D
I'M BACK NOW! =P
I just reread this and cracked. up. I HATECHU LMBO
Funny how life sweeps the carpet that you thought was so safe from under your feet. Before you know it you're standing on pieces of broken glass.
Just when you think you can't take anymore, life throws you a bunch more problems. *siigh*
I'm acting hot and cold, hot and cold and I feel like a b.itch but it's all so BLAH!!!!!!!!!!! I hate men. I want my man back.
I'm acting hot and cold, hot and cold and I feel like a b.itch but
it's all so BLAH!!!!!!!!!!! I hate men. I want my man back.
Boo – *Hugs* I love you.
I'M SO FREAKING NERVOUS RIGHT NOW ……. *EEEEEK!!!!*
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Rani – Did it get any better hun?
Boo – Sighs, what can I say to this … is there any way that you can possibly get him back?
Tayba – Why are you feeling so nervous deary … ? Locate the strength within you and let it get you through.
Nerves are good Tayba, we like nerves.
And I'm SICK of men. And no Kavita, I can't. lol. Saddest story of my life.. haha!
Nerves are good … if its very limited. If its too much then it is horrible.
Uh hm, men can be rather strange creatures. You know, the fact that you wrote 'haha!' after mentioning the saddest story of your life shows that you are strong and you can move on, you can move forward and be happy. Well, thats how I see it. I guess I see it like that because it reminded me of a time that I totally laughed at myself after messing up and feeling kind of embarrased about something that I wished never happened. I do admit though, your situation is more serious.
It is not like me to say this but :
I feel down. I feel kinda sad.
Oh Lord, help me. Walk with me Oh Lord. My life in its entirety depends on you. Help me. If I cannot ask you for help, who else will I ask Lord ? Oh Lord, everything is in your hands, my life is in your hands. Oh Lord everything depends on you, everything belongs to you. You are beautiful, you are lovely, Oh Lord you are compassionate.
It is not like me to say this but :
I feel down. I feel kinda sad.
I HATE that u feel like this hun..when I am so happy u are sad?? wtf??? Life can be such a darn huge ass.s b.itch sumtimes…
sigh!!! open yr arms…am sending u all my happiness and warmth…(save a lil for me to help keep me from falling under again)
I love u …
I feel like spreading my wings and flying, soaring through the air, the wind in mah face, when I reach u..will glide down gracefully scoop u up and we can just go sit on a cloud and chill… wat say?? u interested
Dont get this wrong for a split second : Despite how I feel (personally), I am so so happy for you and your success. I know how much it means to you. And I know that right now, it means everything to you. And I am delighted to share such a happiness with you.
Are you usually this willing to give up all your happiness?! Keep it, keep it, keep it I say ! You deserve every drop of it.
Actually though, happiness is not the thing that I should be in dying need of. Strength, courage, COURAGE. [?] Somewhere along those lines.
Courage
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1. the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.
I never thought the dictionary would be so on the point.
Dont get this wrong for a split second :
Despite how I feel (personally),
I am so so happy for you and your success. I know how much it means to you. And I know that right now, it means everything to you. And I am delighted to share such a happiness with you.
not as delighted as I am to have u share this with me..
Are you usually this willing to give up all your happiness?!
I ABSOLUTELY am and will give up all my happiness in a split of a second
.. my happiness..wat is my happiness..its seeing and feeling the joy & bliss in the lives of the people I love..and from life as a whole..thats were my happiness springs from..
so yr happiness is my happiness ok.. theres a huge difference between, feeling joy, success happiness and gratitude my angel
Keep it, keep it, keep it I say ! You deserve every drop of it.
sigh
Actually though, happiness is not the thing that I should be in dying need of. Strength, courage, COURAGE. [?] Somewhere along those lines.
strength & courage are qualities we are all born with honey, deep within us lies dormant our abundant resource of both courage and strength..
in times when we really need it to help us deal with a situation or experience, it surfaces in the forms u would least expect it to..
theres no need to go searching for something u already possess my angel, I think u shud allow yourself to feel your purest feelings but also remember how far u have come and tell yourself that *this to shall pass** in order to grow, develop and evolve we need to go through such trials and experiences..
I am always always with u, always my love…whenever u need comfort warmth, support, my arms to hold u, just think of me and am there…
I will comfort u with in an embrace with the help of a cool breeze, or through the ruffles of the wind in yr hair, I will keep u warm in my embrace with the help of the suns sparks, I will guide u with the help of the moon through the lines of the stars, I will be in melody of a birds song or the whisper of a leaf that falls, I will be there when u walk pass a café and smell the inviting aroma of a tantalising brewed c
Feel better soon Kavi, I know you'll be able to get through it, I've seen your strength hidden behind the words you write here…
Nerves are good Tayba, we like nerves.
And I'm SICK of men. And no Kavita, I can't. lol. Saddest story of my life.. haha!
LOL yeahhh we like nerves… cos those nerves were like *EEEEEK!!!! I HAVE BUTTERFLYZ AND ITS NOT COS OF THE DENTIST!!!!* LMBO
*siiiiiiiiiigh* =)
….. MEN
Hi di, please for the sake of heaven dont say that you'll give up all your happiness like that, geesh!
strength & courage are qualities we are all born with honey, deep within us lies dormant our abundant resource of both courage and strength..
Why does this sound familiar? *head down*
in times when we really need it to help us deal with a situation or experience, it surfaces in the forms u would least expect it to..
theres no need to go searching for something u already possess my angel, Perhaps there is need to search when you cant really find it anywhere. Or rather, its not a need to search just for the sake of finding, for the sake of existence … its the need to find it so that you can use it because you need to use it.
I think u shud allow yourself to feel your purest feelings but also remember how far u have come and tell yourself that *this to shall pass** in order to grow, develop and evolve we need to go through such trials and experiences.. This too shall pass? I wonder. It can stay like this if I allow it to. Or at least, it wont pass after quite some time.
I am always always with u, always my love…whenever u need comfort warmth, support, my arms to hold u, just think of me and am there…
I will comfort u with in an embrace with the help of a cool breeze, or through the ruffles of the wind in yr hair, I will keep u warm in my embrace with the help of the suns sparks, I will guide u with the help of the moon through the lines of the stars, I will be in melody of a birds song or the whisper of a leaf that falls, I will be there when u walk pass a café and smell the inviting aroma of a tantalising brewed coffee.. u get wat I am saying right?? am always with u.. in yr dil, walking with u, sharing yr discomforts and yr comforts, your happiness and sadness… and many more of those < Gosh, speechless < I must tell you right now though, your writing is beautiful.You should become an author.
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Feel better soon Kavi, I know you'll be able to get through it, I've seen your strength hidden behind the words you write here…
Tayba –
I hope you were able to calm those nerves of yours?
Just when you think you can't take anymore, life throws you a bunch more problems. *siigh*
gosh
I soooo understand this…
oh chup man.. have u not heard of **the more u give, the more u receive??** besides wat da frikking hell am I gonna do with all dis happiness on my own?? why not give it to the ones I love?? Besides am saying it in a selfish way coz I KNW the more of my happiness I give to everyone, the more I recieve soo yaaaaaaahhh…. its just the way I am..now stop arguing an open up yr arms and receive some of mah craze frikking happiness..u knw u got it when u start hummin in the middle of the street or u have a smile plastered on yr face or theres this feeling of floating inside of u and all around u…..let me know once the loves reached u k.. am trying to send it via instant delivery heheheheh..
strength & courage are qualities we are all born with honey, deep within us lies dormant our abundant resource of both courage and strength..
Why does this sound familiar? *head down*
why indeed…coz u had been drilling this in mah beautiful head since god knws how long ..now its yr turn lmfo and u knw wat..its my experience that tells u ( Miss Wise one ) that those words are 100% true ok….
how does one knw bravery if not faced with a situation that challenges one to be brave Maybe one doesnt quite know it because he/she was faced with a certain situation, and couldnt really do much in that situation.
sometimes not doing anything is bravery on its own kavi…trust me on this..in life with our challenges and experiences as humans we tend to believe that every action deserves a reaction….NOT… not in my life and opinion…being brave can sometimes mean..simply not doing anything.
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strength & courage are qualities we are all born with honey, deep within us lies dormant our abundant resource of both courage and strength..
Why does this sound familiar? *head down*
why indeed…coz u had been drilling this in mah beautiful head since god knws how long ..now its yr turn lmfo and u knw wat..its my experience that tells u ( Miss Wise one ) that those words are 100% true ok…. How true! I've had people tell me that I should start taking my OWN advice. I've said the above to you, to Rani, I believe I've said it to Tayba. I was absolutely certain that it was that way. But its really, really … DIFFERENT, when you try to do/think something on you own/for your self. Geesh.
Scarface: sometimes not doing anything is bravery on its own kavi…trust me on this..in life with our challenges and experiences as humans we tend to believe that every action deserves a reaction….NOT… not in my life and opinion…being brave can sometimes mean..simply not doing anything…thats strength on its own, showing u yr ability to deal with a situation in a manner that doesnt provoke ..sooo being brave doesnt necessary mean… u have to go literally bash someone up to prove ur strong … lol, I hope being brave doesnt mean that you have to beat someone up! Anyway, I do agree with you : sometimes, SOMETIMES, brave is doing nothing and staying quiet, and accepting. This is not the bravery that I am talking about now however. At other times, bravery means that you need to do something, SOMETHING, anything. In these cases, doing nothing can end up taking you at a zero end/no good end/unsuccessful end/ no where end.
how does one feel couageous if not faced with another situation that questions yr lack of or the need for courage.. Alright. But what would you say one would feel if they are faced with these situations and they are unable to do much ? You dont even have to answer these questions.
the fact that ur aware theres a situation that calls for u to be courageous is an act of being courageous in itself ( and this is just my silly opinion ) <span style="colo
Kavi
Sent u an email…in response to above…love u lotz
I feel Nauseous, hazardously in need of internal retrospection !!!
Am craving for another 12 hours under my duvet..
Feel better soon Kavi, I know you'll be able to get through it, I've seen your strength hidden behind the words you write here…
Tayba –
I hope you were able to calm those nerves of yours?
I was! They were good nerves… Like butterflyz! Hehe.
How are you now hun?
This life aint the fairy tale we both thought it would be
But I can see your smiling face as it's staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now
I know we both understand somehow
There's a life inside of me
That I can feel again…
Tayaba, well, I hope those good nerves were able to come through and did some good. Im doing okay. Hope you're well.
Alie – (everytime I say Alie, it reminds me of The Notebook, since I've watched it lately )
Stay good Forum, stay good.
They did, Alhumdulillah! =D I'm well alhumdulillah. <3
booooo check email lol <3
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stressed and exhausted…
neeed my bed
………sometimes I SWEAR I feel like I live in a single parent family. 😐 😐 😐
@boo wrote:
………sometimes I SWEAR I feel like I live in a single parent family. 😐 😐 😐
You need to text me back! <3
I wanna rewind time and go back on my honeymoon with my husband!!! Stupid winter! Stupid work! I miss Maldives SO much with it’s sunshineee and sparkling blue water and sand…. and the villa… and the freedom of being in the ocean without anyone seeing us…. *dreams*
ugh too long to fit into a message will mail u or MSN u or something. damn you unique now I’M dreaming too :@
<3
I need it to be Friday. I needed it to be Friday, the 28th, FIFTY days ago. And I need it to be Friday. RIGHT. NOW.
*So excited… cannot contain excitement within myself… EXPLODES*
*Use of very bad language alert.*
= Me when I found out about this bullshit.
I am SO MAD RIGHT NOW. I CAN’T EVEN. FUCK YOU, CW! FUCK YOU RIGHT IN THE FUCKING FACE.
I FUCKING WAITED PATIENTLY SO LONG for the 28th, and FUCKING CW had to go and DELAY the Supernatural midseason premiere to FEB 4TH?!? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME CW?!? BACK THE FUCK UP RIGHT NOW! THAT’S GONNA BE TWO WHOLE MONTHS of WAITING! HOW IN THE WORLD AM I GONNA DO THAT?!? I DON’T DO WAITING! HOW, CW?!? HOW DO YOU MAKE SUCH STUPID DECISIONS LAST MINUTE!?! I don’t fucking care if stupid vampire diaries and Nikita had no viewers – THAT DOESN’T MEAN YOU CAN RE-AIR THEM OVER MY SHOW! WTF. This fandom is fucking batshit crazy, CW better be scared at all the emails they’re getting. FUCK YOU VAMPIRE DIARIES AND YOUR FUCKING VAMPIRES. JUST BECAUSE YOU STUPID SHOWS CAN’T BE INTERESTING ENOUGH TO GET VIEWERS! OR HAVE VIEWERS SMART ENOUGH TO RECORD THAT SHIT FOR THEMSELVES THAT THE CW HAS TO GO AND KISS ASS AND RE-AIR YOU! I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL ANYMORE. This is the dumbest shit I’ve ever heard! After all we’ve done for you to get spn the recognition it deserves on YOUR stupid channel, THIS is what we get?
I had such a wonderful week, and was so looking for this Friday to put a nice end to it, AND CW HAD TO GO AND RUIN IT!!! I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW THAT I’M BANGING MY KEYBOARD AND I LOVE MY LAPTOP, IT’S MY BABY – BUT THIS IS HOW MAD CW MAKES ME! FUCK YOU, CW! We’ve already waited so long, we don’t want to wait another week!!! Vampires and nikita are going to be up against american idol every stupid thursday, what are you gonna do then, CW? Supernatural survived a packed thursday night for 5 whole seasons and these bitches can’t even keep their shit together for their first 2 seasons? CW does NOT deserve to have such an amazing show on their network! You know what, CW?
This can’t be happening… *sits in the corner, rocking*
– This is me right now. No joke.
= Me tonight.
@RaNi iS ThE BeS wrote:
*Use of very bad language alert.*
= Me when I found out about this bullshit.
I am SO MAD RIGHT NOW. I CAN’T EVEN. FUCK YOU, CW! FUCK YOU RIGHT IN THE FUCKING FACE.
I FUCKING WAITED PATIENTLY SO LONG for the 28th, and FUCKING CW had to go and DELAY the Supernatural midseason premiere to FEB 4TH?!? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME CW?!? BACK THE FUCK UP RIGHT NOW! THAT’S GONNA BE TWO WHOLE MONTHS of WAITING! HOW IN THE WORLD AM I GONNA DO THAT?!? I DON’T DO WAITING! HOW, CW?!? HOW DO YOU MAKE SUCH STUPID DECISIONS LAST MINUTE!?! I don’t fucking care if stupid vampire diaries and Nikita had no viewers – THAT DOESN’T MEAN YOU CAN RE-AIR THEM OVER MY SHOW! WTF. This fandom is fucking batshit crazy, CW better be scared at all the emails they’re getting. FUCK YOU VAMPIRE DIARIES AND YOUR FUCKING VAMPIRES. JUST BECAUSE YOU STUPID SHOWS CAN’T BE INTERESTING ENOUGH TO GET VIEWERS! OR HAVE VIEWERS SMART ENOUGH TO RECORD THAT SHIT FOR THEMSELVES THAT THE CW HAS TO GO AND KISS ASS AND RE-AIR YOU! I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL ANYMORE. This is the dumbest shit I’ve ever heard! After all we’ve done for you to get spn the recognition it deserves on YOUR stupid channel, THIS is what we get?
I had such a wonderful week, and was so looking for this Friday to put a nice end to it, AND CW HAD TO GO AND RUIN IT!!! I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW THAT I’M BANGING MY KEYBOARD AND I LOVE MY LAPTOP, IT’S MY BABY – BUT THIS IS HOW MAD CW MAKES ME! FUCK YOU, CW! We’ve already waited so long, we don’t want to wait another week!!! Vampires and nikita are going to be up against american idol every stupid thursday, what are you gonna do then, CW? Supernatural survived a packed thursday night for 5 whole seasons and these bitches can’t even keep their shit together for their first 2 seasons? CW does NOT deserve to have such an amazing show on their network! You know what, CW?
This can’t be happening… *sits in the corner, rocking*
– This is me right now. No joke.
= Me tonight.
WILL SECOND THIS…. i KNW THIS IS UNRELATED, BUT I WANT TO SAY A **BIG FUCK U TO LIFE***
on another note, **hugs rani***
Just a few more days and you get to watch your show! I hate when they postpone the premiere date too, you spend so much time anxiously waiting for your fav show to return, only to find out you have to wait another week or so. Ridonkulous if you ask me!
Scarry, hey take a deep breath, okay? <3 Just remember that when you hit rock bottom, then the only way left to go is up, okay? *hugs*
Aman ji, I know, only 3 days left and then the 4th will be here! Lmao, it is quite ‘ridonkulous’! I’m actually feeling a lot better than the day I wrote that rant – I read a spoiler saying the boy are gonna hug – SQUEAL! lmao Which is kind of annoying cuz I could have already seen it on the 28th, but you know, the spoiler has me excited all over again! But I think the thing that got most of us fans so mad was because they did it THE DAY BEFORE. I’m sitting there in bed at midnight, and I say to my sister, “Happy 28th! SPN today!” And then, I’m online a few minutes later and it’s like, “Oh, no SPN today… wait, WTF?” It was quite funny, I woke up that morning so upset, my mom comes in my room and I hug her and when she asks me what’s wrong, I tell her they delayed the episode till next Friday. And she, LOL, she says, “Good! Your sister has class tonight, and she was upset about not being able to watch it, so now she’ll get to see it!” And I hold on to her even tighter and tell her how it’s not fair and that we were going to rewatch it with my sister when she got home anyway. So my mom (who doesn’t approve of my unhealthy devotion to the show, but comforted me anyway) holds me tighter and says, “It’s okay – it’ll be Friday before you know it.” – My reason for bringing that up is to show how bananas I went when I heard they delayed it! lol But you see, the reason why I got so upset was because of WHERE they left off the show for the hiatus. Sam’s asleep, we don’t know what’s going to happen to him when he wakes up (well, we do, but we need to SEE it, you know?), and Dean is literally going to die if he doesn’t get his brother back, and Cas is mad at Dean for re-souling Sam, and that’s just extremely stupid of Cas cuz he just doesn’t understand how much Dean loves his brother and can’t see him in eternal suffering, but Cas is going to be helpful with Sam – and it’s about time, if you ask me cuz Cas has been SUCH a douche to Sam – AND they have monsters to deal with that are doing all kinds of crazy stuff after the apocalypse went down, and I’m impatiently waiting for the moment when Sam wakes up and they hug and have their brotherly moments! If it was another episode I probably wouldn’t mind as much – but this episode NEEDS to be in my life.
Whoa, such a long reply! Lol Sorry Aman, I tend to ramble on about the show and have to force myself to stop. =( But the good news? You can totally ignore me and my insanity! =D
Scarry, I never said anything was easy, hun. I understand it’s hard, and I feel your pain about life, and it’s completely understandable that you don’t want any more worries to deal with. *hugs* And regarding your job, then you can also get another job, you already said you had an interview – call those people back up and let them know that you changed your mind and if you want to, tell them what’s going on with your current job and ask them if they’ll reconsider your position. If they say yes, then you have a job, and if they say no, then you can look for another one. I know that this job is keeping you together, and just the fact that the branch is closing down is what’s upsetting you – you may not care for another job or want the worry of this change – and if that’s the case, then that’s completely understandable. If I were in your place, I’d probably be feeling the way you are right now. But sometimes, good things fall apart so that better things can fall together. I know it’s not easy to let go of all worries and hope for the best, but what I was trying to tell you is that when everything goes wrong, and you feel like nothing else can go wrong because life can’t get any worse, when you’ve REALLY hit rock bottom – then that means life has to get better, right? That’s how life is, you go up – you have to come down. You don’t get endless happiness, or endless sorrow – so just as the good days have gone by, these bad times will go by too. <3 I'm not saying it will be easy, almost nothing in life is easy – but I'm just trying to give you some hope.
And as far as praying goes, then I’ll leave you with a quote from Supernatural that I completely agree with:
DEAN: Yeah, I heard. I mean, Roy’s a good man. He doesn’t deserve what’s happened… It must be rough. To believe in something so much, and have it disappoint you like that.
LAYLA: You wanna hear something weird?
DEAN: Hm?
LAYLA: I’m okay. Really. I guess, if you’re gonna have faith, you can’t just have it when the miracles happen. You have to have it when they don’t.
DEAN: So, what now?
LAYLA: God works in mysterious ways. Goodbye, Dean.
DEAN: Hey. Uh, you know, I’m not much of the prayin’ type. But I’m gonna pray for you.
LAYLA: Well. There’s a miracle right there.
*hugs*
*hug*
Rome wasn’t built in a day, not everything needs to fall into place right away my sweet. Take each day as it comes and something as “trivial” (not that jobs are trivial, but in the bigger, bigger scheme of life… y’know) as a job, you can always find a way back, you will find yourself with a job don’t worry (and yes, I am touching wood for you 😛 ). Let your sorrow ease and soul rest and somehow, whenever, something will click and it will all fall into place. And yes, keep job hunting and as Rani said, try calling the company back too 😛
love.
main yahaaaaa hooon (did I say that right? )
wer wer uuuuuuuuuuu? 🙂
@**scarface** wrote:
main yahaaaaa hooon (did I say that right? )
wer wer uuuuuuuuuuu? 🙂
Wow ..!! it took only five mins … so i was searching you in the wrong places i guess 🙄
**smiles** well was just here to post a song at the same time u happen to be here:D
🙄
I told u not to go into the boondocks dude.. tribal era is long lost
and u cudve found me just next door if u only listened:)
hope ur well yaar?
@**scarface** wrote:
**smiles** well was just here to post a song at the same time u happen to be here:D
🙄I told u not to go into the boondocks dude.. tribal era is long lost
and u cudve found me just next door if u only listened:)
hope ur well yaar?
I gave you wise advice but u never listen… u thot you are safe and enjoyed ur current place hehehe
[quote=”boo”Rome wasn’t built in a day, not everything needs to fall into place right away my sweet. Take each day as it comes and something as “trivial” (not that jobs are trivial, but in the bigger, bigger scheme of life… y’know) as a job, you can always find a way back, you will find yourself with a job don’t worry (and yes, I am touching wood for you 😛 ). Let your sorrow ease and soul rest and somehow, whenever, something will click and it will all fall into place. And yes, keep job hunting and as Rani said, try calling the company back too 😛
love.[/quote]
Hey hun
HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG
shykes I cant believe 😳 my anger … thanks my dear…. logic disappears when am seriously pissed off and I, like everyone else, let the anger and fustration consume me, that wasnt even an inch of how angry I have been..
I absolutely understand the job isnt the messiest bomb that fell on my lap, but its the one thing that has been keeping me from falling over the edge. yup ***touch wood** things will fall into place…needed to vent ya knw;)
B, yes u did give me te right advice, am just foolishly loyal
Baqtiar called you SCARY FACE?! LOL. I reckon he needs chashma 😉
🙄
You do know she’s a moderator on here too, and that she can whoop your ass on any posts she doesn’t like
Not saying Alie would use her moderator powers for ehm.. evil purposes or anything but yaknow
@boo wrote:
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You do know she’s a moderator on here too, and that she can whoop your ass on any posts she doesn’t like
Not saying Alie would use her moderator powers for ehm.. evil purposes or anything but yaknow
Oh Wow…. !!! you must’ve heard this in hindi ‘Jab saiyaan baney kottwaal tou darr kaheka…” 😆 well when the Mod is in my pocket than i can say whateva i wish i can hehehe…
and hey there never use to be any mods in here….. 🙄
oh man. I remember Nitz whingeing and whining about mods. But we’ve had mods on here for aaaaages now, get with the times Chaddi man! 😛 and no i haven’t heard of it 🙁
*sigh*
yes. yes, we are. i almost wish some annoying newbies would come here so we can rip into them! (not to scare off any newbies/stalkers.. we are nice people, really!)
@boo wrote:
*sigh*
yes. yes, we are. i almost wish some annoying newbies would come here so we can rip into them! (not to scare off any newbies/stalkers.. we are nice people, really!)
Oh yes we are…. 😈 realliiii veeelllliiii nice , as a matter of fact we never scare the newbies… we just torture them to death Lol
@boo wrote:
@Baqtiar wrote:
Oh yes we are…. 😈 realliiii veeelllliiii nice , as a matter of fact we never scare the newbies… we just torture them to death Lol
LMAO!!!!!!!!! It’s not true stalkers hokay!! I’ll house-train the evil ones don’t worry. 😉
Look who is talkin… the most evil soul in here talkin abt good things and not to get scared hahaha
BEWARE ….BEWARE
.. takes one to know one 😉
anyway it’s V-day. what happened to your sweet soulless compliments Baqtair saab 😛
Hey guys, I just couldn’t look at all my angry words anymore, so I deleted the posts..
Hey Rani,
Hope ur doing well my dear??
Firstly, this was the episode where Dean was dying and Sammy took him to this camp like place where this blind man thought he was performing miracles?? Same?? Dean reminds me of me, in so many ways. Or was it the hospital scene…dayem cant get my episodes right.
😯
The point of the quote, I agree, faith is constant, u can’t have it then discard it, I know this, and I believe this. My mum used to say that, in her own words off coz, when u are down, have hit the bottom of your bottomless pit of darkness, the only way can be up..
I think I have been a bit too lazy and instead of going up, am roaming around in the dark
That said I want to tell u, yep your words, they have lifted my spirit…
***huggg****
Hey boo,
Seeing as u insisted 😀
Just shouting out to you
I am really, really, very, very, completely frustrated. My friend and I are going to do a photoshoot together (iA), she’s gonna be my model, and I’m gonna be the photographer. I thought I found the perfect location for it – so I go and visit the place today, just so I already know what it’s like and can be ready for it and have it flood my imagination before I take my friend there – just to be ready. I go to the place and it sucks. I had no inspiration from it whatsoever. Well, I did have ONE – but I didn’t want to dress my friend up and make her go all the way over there for one shot that wasn’t even going to be nice. So anyway, I was pretty upset – but I thought, it’s okay, I’ll find another place. So I go online to look for some nice places to shoot – and I found about a million – ALL ABOUT 5 HOURS AWAY FROM ME. How in the WORLD am I gonna be able to go someplace 5 hours away? I mean, that’s actually not far at all, but since I can’t do that right now – I’m really very frustrated. These places are so beautiful, they feed my imagination like nothing else and I JUST CAN’T GO. They’re all in California, just some hours from where I live – freaking BEAUTIFUL. AND. I. CAN’T. GO.
Okay, okay, this must seem silly to you – and come morning, I’ll find a way to maybe somehow get over it – but right now I’m so pissed off. Why do they have to be so far away, and so perfect? And I’m not the best photographer in the world by any measure, but with places like these, I KNOW I CAN PULL IT OFF. I know I can get some great shots – with and without the model – BUT. I CAN’T GO. I’m seriously about to cry right now and this sucks butt. I’m very passionate about photography, true, I don’t think about going pro because I’m not that good, but I LOVE IT. I spend HOURS and HOURS taking photos – sometimes of the same thing/place and everyone around may get a little fed up if I’m using up my time taking photos – but they understand how much I love it and it makes me so happy. Both during the picture taking process, and then the going through the pictures and picking out the best ones process.
I don’t even have a professional camera – just a regular handy camera like everyone else, but I manage with that alone and man, am I just dying to take it out there and just click away…
I can’t wait. Can’t wait till the day I’m able to drive hours away for a photo, something a lot of people I know will consider as a complete waste of gas – but I can’t wait to spend all my gas on drives that end up with a picture of pretty flowers or something. Not that I don’t love my life right now, I’ve actually never been happier – but just, I just wanna take photos along with the rest of the goodness my life is being right now. =(
@RaNi iS ThE BeS wrote:
I can’t wait. Can’t wait till the day I’m able to drive hours away for a photo, something a lot of people I know will consider as a complete waste of gas – but I can’t wait to spend all my gas on drives that end up with a picture of pretty flowers or something. Not that I don’t love my life right now, I’ve actually never been happier – but just, I just wanna take photos along with the rest of the goodness my life is being right now. =(
OMG I feel you. 😐 Except, there *are* no pretty, inspirational places 5 minutes OR 5 hours away from where I live LOL. Lucky you. 🙁 (For at least having those places, I mean…)
@RaNi iS ThE BeS wrote:
I can’t wait. Can’t wait till the day I’m able to drive hours away for a photo, something a lot of people I know will consider as a complete waste of gas – but I can’t wait to spend all my gas on drives that end up with a picture of pretty flowers or something. Not that I don’t love my life right now, I’ve actually never been happier – but just, I just wanna take photos along with the rest of the goodness my life is being right now. =(
nope it aint a waste of money on gas, not at all my dear.. i am always digging into my bag for my phone, whilst in the car ( my camera is home ) to capture the sunrise and the sunset here, gosh this place has the most amazing cloud formations, love it, cant get enough of it…..like u, i love taking pics, in fact I can spend hours taking random pics of just about anything and then going through them and being amazed at my sometimes brilliance at capturing a scene
I love taking pics of every day life, I love love love taking pics of the sunset and sunrise, I even tried capturing raindrops, didnt work out
hehehe
my suggestion: for now, seeing as u cant drive to a more scenic place, take pics of things, people, places around u
i love capturing my nephews and nieces, my sisters and mom, and animals and friends doing silly stuff, kids in the park, a begger sleeping on the street, the ocean, another beauty i cant get enough of..
I know it wont ignite your imagination into excessive creativity but its something to keep the falme going for now
**warm hug**
Boo, true. AH. =)
Scarry, I know, grabbing for the camera can get pretty addictive. ; ) AND OMG I took a picture of a homeless guy sleeping on the streets of San Francisco! Like LITERALLY on the streets, in everybody’s way! I felt horrible, though – so I took it in a way where you can’t see his face… I’m not sure that’s still okay – but uh yeah… But yeah, I also like taking pictures of people. But I feel that I’m no good at it – which is why I want to practice with photoshoots. I mean I don’t have a fancy camera and all – but that’s not the point of photography, right? Even though I DO want one and my sister is actually not-so-secretly planning to get me one as soon as she can. But anyhow, I think, in a completely non-photographic way – it’d be harder to take pictures of people because you can’t always have people handy when you find a great location to shoot some modeling photos. You can have your camera for the scenery alone, but having the right person around is pretty difficult. But anyway, my sister told me that we can totally drive 5 hours away to take a photo and scolded me for being upset about it in the middle of the night when the solution was so simple! We’re gonna have to wait a bit to figure out the parent situation – but we’ll get there one day. =) (Yeah, she might have to fight with them (nice fighting, not the bad kind) for my sake, something she does all the time (which is how I am able to sit in bed right now, in the middle of the night, and type away on my own laptop.) – it’s no biggy for her, but means the world to me. Yes, I do have the bestest sister in the entire universe.) Oh, and in the meantime? My friend is driving me to a place we’ve passed before – it’s about an hour, maybe 2 hours worth of driving – so that I can check it out and see if it’s a place I’d like to take my other friend to take modeling photos. (Yes, she’s going to drive me 2 hours away just so I can look at a place for 5 mins and state whether or not I’d like to take photos here. I know, I have the best of friends in the entire world.) We’re going this Friday inshaAllah. And the Tuesday after that, she’s taking me to this place about 30 minutes away from my house – she says I’ll love it because they have the ‘dilwale dulhania ley jayenge’ flowers (the wild mustard in the ‘tujhe dekha toh’ song) I’ve been dying to take pictures of ever since I saw the movie. Apparently, California is famous for our flowers. Golden state and all. =D OH, AND I’ve been getting texts from random friends, giving me the addresses of nice picture-taking places near where I live. So far, I’ve got about… 7 places to go – all withing 30 minutes from my house. =D AH, I love it when I feel stupid for getting upset about something I didn’t even need to be upset about! *hugs back* =) (Sorry for the ramble, I’m in a very good mood and wanted to do some praising, both of the people I love, and who love me back – and my beautiful life.)
OH – icing on the cake? BEST EPISODE EVER of SUPERNATURAL will be airing THIS FRIDAY! Jared & Jensen playing SamnDean playing Jared & Jensen playing SamnDean. YES. MY SHOW IS AWESOME. And my life, alf AH, is awesomer! =D
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THERE IS A CONFERENCE THAT I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY RRREEEEAAAALLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY REAALLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYY WANT TO GO TO. 👿 👿 👿
AND I CAN’T!!!!!!!!!! 👿 👿 👿 👿 😥 😐 👿 👿 🙁 👿
Life is so unfair. lol.
AAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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(Oh, and I am in PYAAR with this emoticon –> 👿 ……. )
UFF 👿
I am so happy. Life is just so beautiful once you give it the chance to let it be, you know? AH. =)
feeling:
physically …..drained…tired…exhausted…sick
emotionally..withdrawn
mentally alert…
aware
content
overall – – – -hmmmm lost 😥
@**scarface** wrote:
feeling:
physically …..drained…tired…exhausted…sickemotionally..withdrawn
mentally alert…
aware
contentoverall – – – -hmmmm lost 😥
*hug*
that makes you, me and the rest of the world hun! 🙂
I HATE MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 👿 👿 👿 👿 👿
And quite possibly the only thing I hate more than men, would be all the spam that keeps popping up in MY HOME!!!!!!!!!!! 👿 👿 👿 👿 I swear, if I have to see ONE. MORE. SPAM. POST. 👿 👿 👿 👿
******HUG********
Not ALL of ’em are bad 😉
I hate the spam thats engulfing the forum as well
makes me want to reach out and hit those annoying freaks with my stapler, everytime I see those posts
hang in there, the hating phase will pass:):):):)
mwahhhhh
I’m listening to Tum Jo Aaye from Once Upon A Time In Mumbai on repeat… and I keep doing coy-girl-acts like Kangana Ranaut does in the movie… I must be going mad! 8) 😆
Oh, and is it REALLY all that inappropriate to say – I wish to marry Rahat Fateh Ali Khan? Really really? 😥
Boo: I loved OUATIM, I was surprised to learn it was somewhat based on a true story. The songs are nice too :).
I am Super HappY todaY =). Done and Done!!
I miss the feelings this forum used to bring me.
Yeah it sucks that the forum has died-down now.. don’t see a lot of regulars here. I still like coming here and checking things out every once in a while :). All the spam is getting pretty annoying though!
Please let me know what I can do to help bring back the old “charm”. Typically a forum board or message board is only as popular as the users make it, and you probably already know this, and that is what made the this forum what it is in your mind. But I do know that there are some things that the Administrator can do and I’ll try to do so. Let me know.
Thanks
Mukesh
p.s. I’ve tried to tighten down the security and I hope it has made a difference. Let me know if the spam has gone done in the past few days!
@Bolly_Lover wrote:
Yeah it sucks that the forum has died-down now.. don’t see a lot of regulars here. I still like coming here and checking things out every once in a while :). All the spam is getting pretty annoying though!
Awww Mukesh ji that’s real sweet! You are right, it is the users. I noticed the new infusion of green. Nice one! It is difficult to resuscitate the forum when everyone has their own lives to lead on top of everything else, I guess.
Ninja – I miss it too, but let’s not dwell on the past.
I’ve been thinking about this a lot of late – why do people dwell on the past so much? And HAHAHAAH I’m one to say this but WHY do people WHINGE dear GOD ON EARTH!!!! I whinge so very much though, so I *really* can’t complain… but a true whinger whinges about everyone else whingeing so… I’m right on track, yes? 😉
Thanks Mukesh ji! All the spam was getting to be super annoying 🙂
Grrr.. so frustrating to watch the Canucks sometimes!! Yeah, the last game was waayy better than the previous two, but honestly, what does it take to get an effin win!! Still have faith for game 7 though.. c’mon boys! You can do it!!!
hahahaa… did the boys do it in the end Aman?
All I care about is that India has won the cricket World Cup… made my life!!!!!!!!
They did do it! I had to miss the game because of work 😥 . It was apparently epic.. I watched the highlights, but it isnt the same as watching it live.
Another two more rounds to go.. I KNOW we can do it! 🙂
Yeah, I heard about India winning. I know very little about cricket (it was in Lagaan and it’s similar to baseball :p).
hahahahahahah…. LOL, love it!! The ‘similar to baseball’ is how I describe it to the uninitiated too 😆
Yesterday, Manchester United won the Premiership League (or Championship League, I have got NO clue which one is which… it’s so CONFUSING yikes! :P) and it made me think of Oreo soooo much! Not because he supports Manchester (as far as I can remember) but because he supports Liverpool (yes?) and I know my little share of Liverpool supporters and they do NOT get along with Manchester LOLOL. 🙄 So I was thinking about how he might be just a tad upset for the coming week… 😛 Manchester also beat Liverpool in claiming the title for the 19th time, whereas in the past Liverpool had been the record holders with holding the title 18 times so it’s another fresh round of showing of their ‘glory’. Which made me LOL all the harder… sigh, men and their football! I love the game, but I just don’t get the point of supporting teams when they swap and share their team members a lot… I mean, who are you supporting then really? 😕 but I guess I get the whole loyalty to support thing so maybe that’s it…
It’s the same with the IPL (Indian Premier League) in cricket – players are just used as toys that kids keep mixing and matching with in teams and it’s crazy!! But I guess it sort of keeps the “suspense” element alive, as a team that was really rubbish two years ago will be doing really well now… is anyone else following this? I am only briefly following it, cannot be bothered until it comes down to the top eight or maybe even four! Then the fun and drama and suspense begins
I guess your supporting the team overall? I love my hockey team, and if they were to trade one of my fav players to another team, my loyalty would still lie with the Canucks. I’d want things to work out for the traded players, and would still continue to root for them (as long as they weren’t playing against my beloved Canucks, of course!).
I’d be interested in learning more about cricket, but no one really watches it here *-)
That’s true, guess you are supporting the team. Team loyalties fascinate me. As does English football.
The Canucks are 1 win away from the Stanley Cup Finals!!!! Get it done boys!
Man U vs Barca this weekend
……. WHY am I getting into this?!?!
I hate losing the spark. 🙁
MY BOYS ARE OFF TO THE STANLEY CUP FINALS!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!! Great job Canucks! You deserve this, we deserve this, this city deserves this!!! What a fantastic feeling
aww haha ^ congrats to you!! 😀
Thanks boo!! I’m pretty stoked. Kinda wish I could be in Vancouver celebrating with all the other fans!
I don’t know why I eat popcorn at movies.. I’m not a big fan of it, and it always makes my throat itchy =S
ha ha you been to the movies recently then? i LOVE popcorn at movies – sweet popcorn 🙂 always need something to chew on while watching th film… i also like putting my feet up on the chairs in front of me LOL… such a rebel i am
Yeah I like having something to munch on during movies as well, or at least a cup of hot tea! Lol I like putting my feet up on the seats in front of me as well! I went to the movies last night, and a couple and came and sat in front of us, thankfully the theater was pretty empty so I made shereena move seats so I could put my feet up 😀 I don’t know why some people sit right in front of you when there are so many other seats available!! 🙄
Mmmm chai and movies, ugh don’t tempt me Aman I have EXAMS on Monday!!!! 🙁 And I watched Life in a Metro last night too. Sad times. 🙁
he he aww I DO THAT (move seats to put feet up)… how is Shereena doing, ask her to pop in once in a while!
MAN this forum is a good stress buster.
I have just been reading an awful blog post on a woman’s complications with her childbirth, and there seems to have been every single complication one can think of under the sun… how sad 🙁 touchwood mum and baby are fine now, but still…
I am so done with chai right now. I’ve had a cold for the past few days and that’s all I’ve been drinking. It feels good on the throat, but you get tired of drinking hot beverages.. I was out with a friend tonight, and my fav drink was one of the specials. She got it.. what did I get? A red rose tea. Yuck =|.
She’s good, busy, but good :).
There are so many things that can go wrong during pregnancies and childbirth… becoming pregnant seems like such a huge risk (not to mention the lifestyle changes). I guess if you are ready for it, babies can be a blessing. They so cute and adorable. But then they grow up lol..
Eughh I have a cold too…. and my head is hurting. A lot.
I have so much on my mindddddd hdjksbfdhjefvjewbfjfekjwfekjfhew fjhewjfhwe
kbye.
So much spam, so little time… I want to cry.
I was getting really frustrated with all the spam, it was just pages n pages of junk. Thanks for clearing it up Boo!!
lol sweety, i only did a small part of it. think it was Mukesh who did the most of it – he deserves the thanks!
ohh haha, well in that case, Thanks Mukesh!!
It was annoying to have to search for the right threads with mountains of junk.
I like exaggerating, but seriously, there were a lot of useless threads..
No problem. Sorry about the spam. I’m looking to adding something to the forum that will help with identifying spam. Will keep you guys posted!
Thanks
Mukesh
Super irritated with this stupid cold. Most inopportune time to strike – two days before my much awaited trip to beautiful Kelowna. Spent most of the trip sucking on Halls, medicating myself, and wishing I could stay in bed. I’m starting to feel better, but seeing as I have to work tmrw, I have a feeling it’s gonna be acting up again.
Alrights, I’m going to read for a bit and head to bed. Hope things are good with all bollywooderz around the world. Gnite peepz.
Hope you’re feeling better, BL. I am suffering from a SERIOUS case of procrastination and refuse to do any work!!!! UGH, someone give me all their motivation, please.
FOR SOME REASON:
I am just missing EVERYONE and EVERYTHING
little things reminds me of memories I thought wont resurface
hope everyone is keeping well
overwhelmed with emotion today..
I am overwhelmed with a lot of things, too.
I’m just tired. Feeling drained. Maybe time for a nap?
I don’t like doing naps though.. hm..