Hey guys...
Just wanna say a big thank you for all your messages, dedications and emails during this period. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to face in my life and I don't know if I'll ever heal fully. But having such support from those I call my own has played a huge part in keeping me from breaking completely. It's in times like this you realise how blessed you are and who your friends really are. Thank you for taking the time out and being there. Thank you for your prayers. Allah has truly been merciful to her and us for taking her in this beautiful month of Mercy and Forgiveness. In a month where the doors of paradise are wide open and the doors of hell are locked shut. Alhumdulillah... May He shower His infinite mercy upon my beautiful grandma. Ameen thumma ameen.
Rani - JazkaAllah for being there the whole way, the emails, the dedications, all the duas and the support you've shown. I love you so much. For your necklace which I clutched on to the whole time... Holding on to it, knowing you're never far. I can't tell you how warm that made me feel inside. It made me feel as if I were in your hug the whole time. I clutched on to it as they took her away. I can never forget that moment. The phone calls to check on me... the encouragement and reminders I so needed. All of it. For being my Noor through these days of horrible darkness. For shining your light through my clouds. I love you so much Dia.
Ninja - JazkaAllah for the nights you spent dua'ing for her, the emails, the advice and support, the encouragement that always lifted my spirits. I never once felt like you weren't by my side. You lifted me each time I crumbled and in your arms I never cease to find comfort. Just thinking of you makes me smile. JazakaAllah for the way you made me laugh and forget my pains for a while. For the times I'd cry and break down on MSN.. For feeling my pain as if it were yours. For the ways you proved your sisterhood everytime. I can't tell you how much all of it means to me. I love you lots jaan... x
Boo - Thank you for everything. For your texts at all hours of the day just to see how I am. For your emails and your warm hugs... For making me feel as if you were holding my hand the whole time. For your love and care... For ringing me and telling me to just listen as you played me 'Only Hope' in the early hours of the morning for me. I can't tell you how good that felt. For all your support and for the smiles you gave me in my darkest moments. I truly love and miss you my Shrekkerz <3
Shereena - I know you probably won't read this but I'd like to say it anyway. I love you so much. You're a true friend. Thank you for your texts, your emails, your Facebook messages. For praying for her, for being there for me. For sending me the beautiful cards that lifted my spirits so much... your words that were written inside them. The beautiful tasbeeh you sent me glittering in its package... as if it were telling me to have faith. You don't know how much that meant to me, how touched I was by your simple, beautiful actions. I love and appreciate you so much and I'm thankful everyday for your presence in my life Reeny. Sachi. You're a true homie X.
Oreo - JazakaAllah for being there through this and for your kind words and support. JazakaAllah for helping me to have faith and not giving up on me through my darker days. I know you don't like a big fuss so I'll just say thanks and keep it short and sweet 
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Nessa - Thank you for helping me out of the shell last week. I was getting to used to hiding in my cave. Thank you for the emails and the texts and your support. For that beautiful song dedication. It made me smile. For helping me to be strong. For being my friend .
Kavita - Thank you for your condolences and your kind words in my time of need. It means a lot to me hunny.
Asma - Last but never least 
. What can I say to you? JazakaAllah for everything... For the texts, the calls, the love you showed. For being at the funeral... for wiping my tears and hugging me tight. For holding me close while I was breaking. For holding my hand as they were taking her away... For the smiles of encouragement across the hallway, for the prayers. For sitting with my friends and listening to discussion you had no idea about... For forgetting about your own fears and coming to see her with me. For being my sister. For the text you sent me today telling me you'd come over anytime and bring anything I need. It meant a lot. I love you soo much.
You all mean so much to me.
Grandmas are the most beautiful things in the world. They are like second mothers. If you are still lucky enough to have yours... cherish her with all your heart. The only thing keeping me strong is the thought that I know we will meet once again in Paradise, where I'll get to be in her arms once more. InshaAllah. Ameen thumma ameen.
Peace
"You are my life now..." - Edward Cullen, Twilight. <3